i was reminded this weekend how, no matter how much we may all fork out small fortunes for the latest disciplinary or other implement to hit the market, sometimes cheap and cheerful everyday items can trump them every time. Owner and i went away for the weekend and as we were staying with relatives did not take along any of the usual toys that Owner likes to inflict on me (and if i'm being honest i love too!). However, this morning when we had some time to ourselves Owner soon had me wriggling and moaning in painful ecstasy courtesy of three items that together probably cost little more than a pound. The items in question were two elastic hairbands and a plastic hairbrush. Owner wrapped one hair band through each of my pierced nipples and then pulled them tight and taught and tied them off to each other, before commencing to pluck and play with them. Meanwhile, She used the plastic hairbrush to devastating affect on my testicles, slapping and scratching and generally giving them a good old beating. It was one of the most 'intensely experienced' testicle and nipple torture experiences i have had for a while, and all using cheap everyday items. In these credit-crunched times it is worth remembering that cheap can be extremely effective!

Meanwhile, no further mention has been made by my family of the infamous 'list' i emailed to them (see previous post) - and i'm certainly not about to raise it with them, so let's hope the matter can quietly die away and my embarrassment with it. Although this evening, whilst putting out the recycling in my skirt and blouse, i did rather surprise my neighbour when she came out to do the same and saw me so attired. i do get the sense that i'm probably the only male in the neighbourhood who dresses fem. Mind you, it could have been worse, at least i wasn't wearing my frilly pink, backless and extremely short maid's outfit!
Oh dear, yesterday i managed to make a very simple yet very embarrassing mistake. As it is the run up to Christmas i decided i would email a list of some things i would find useful as gifts to my mum, dad and sister. However, my dad very quickly responded saying that he didn't know where he could get a 'cock and ball clamp/stand' from!!

OH no! i sent the wrong bloody list!!! Oh how i wanted the earth to open and to swallow me up. i'd accidentally emailed my family a list containing some of the items that i would love to receive from my Owner, including the aforementioned item alongside a list of women's clothing and accessories that i would like. Oh god, how embarrassing.

Thankfully my family are quite open-minded and my dad's response was very jokey. However, i've not yet heard back from my mum or sister. i have a feeling that i am never going to be able to live down this little episode. Oh well, i guess i could get some interesting presents when i go to stay with my sister for Christmas!

i am someone who likes humiliation....but had never intended it to happen this way.

On a separate note, my learning as Owners submissive continues to develop a pace and i have now got into a steady routine, since my disastrous contract appraisal back in September, of cooking, cleaning, massages etc. i have asked Owner if the list of things that she would like me to do on a daily/weekly basis for Her could be extended further and have put forward some suggestions in the journal that i keep. i shall just have to be patient and wait and see.

Right, off now to start preparing the Christmas cake. Have a good weekend all and remember....check your email attachments carefully before sending them through to your family or vanilla friends!!!!


Halloween, or as Owner described it the night that Owners get treated and trainee pet's get tricked. Yes, the night of the dead is always a fun and exciting evening and one that Owner and i greatly enjoy. The evening commenced with me dressing up in my Morticia outfit and then preparing Owner some traditional Halloween fayre, 'Soul' cake followed later by 'Colcannon'. After we had consumed some of the cake it was time for trainee pet to follow his Owners instructions for the evening which were wrapped up in little notes adorning our Halloween poster.

The instructions read as follows:

'1 -Samhain is considered a time to eliminate weaknesses, it is advised to write your own weaknesses onto a piece of paper and then burn them

Little pet to do a list of his weaknesses and how he is going to improve them - on his knees and wearing nipple clamps - then hand to Owner

2 -Samhain allows you to come to terms with your past year and leave all your mistakes and regrets behind you, in order to move on. Look forward to what the future holds.

Little pet to be spanked as many times as the number of punishments accrued in the past year (98 according to my punishment book!) - this will allow him to leave his mistakes behind

3 - The name Jack O'Lantern derives from an old Irish tale of a villain who after he died could not enter heaven or hell - a damned soul. So he was condemned to wander the land with only a candle to see his way placed inside a gouged out vegetable to act as a lantern

Little pet to walk up and down the corridor carrying only a candle 10 times wearing his spiked parachute harness and weights suspended - this will necessitate the temporary removal of your chastity device

4- Bobbing for apples was a classic Halloween game. In 'bobbing for apples' girls used to name each apple after a different suitor. The girl would kneel over the tub, shut her eyes, put her hands behind her back and try to catch an apple with her teeth. The one she could bite would be her future husband. A variation was to hang apples from the doorway. The first one to finish eating the apple gets married next

Rather than using a doorway Owner will hang apples from little pet's parachute device.

5 - By candlelight go alone to a mirror and eat an apple before it, whilst combing your hair. Your future lover will be seen in the glass over your shoulder

Little pet will go to the corridor mirror and will eat one of the apples hanging from his parachute...maybe his future love will appear behind him and give him some instructions'

i was so lucky, as predicted Owner appeared in the mirror next to me! She led me back into the kitchen and had me bend over the kitchen table where she fucked me hard and repeatedly with a large dildo whilst also masturbating me and spanking my testicles really hard with a baton - Her halloween ball buster.


Very soon i was moaning loudly like a truly ghoulish slut and begging to be allowed to come. Owner edged me in this manner repeatedly until i thought my testicles would burst and then stopped and instructed me to return to chastity. How wonderfully and deliciously frustrating!

Hope you all had a wonderfully wicked Halloween, or Samhain. i know i did!