The Show Must Go On

Whilst we all adjust to life under lockdown Owner is determined to make the most of the situation. In addition to ensuring that i make full use of the time to undertake some spring cleaning - yesterday it was windows and the front door - whilst also completing twice daily workouts and other tasks and activities on request, She has also set-up some fun activities.

Owner has introduced a new weekly activity we have nicknamed the 'coronashoot'. She has created a little portfolio of photoshoot suggestions that can be done at home. i have to pick a card each week from Her portfolio of ideas lucky dip. My selection determines what the photoshoot will be. This weekend was the first such shoot. The card i drew out from bag of ideas was Love Goddess.

Owners' bag of photoshoot ideas and the frst card i picked

Below is a selection of images taken and a video montage of some of the resultant photos that Owner took. i will get to choose the next card later today for a photoshoot to be done next weekend.

poppet 'Love Goddess'..ha, ha

Have fun and stay safe everyone

Unexpected Release

Who would have thought that whilst everybody is under lock-down that i should find myself suddenly and unexpectedly released? Well that is what happened to me yesterday.

The night before last i had a supervised shower before going to bed. i have these on a weekly basis when in chastity, they are an opportunity to remove my chastity device under Owners' supervision in order to give it and my clit a thorough scrub, clean and shave. The device is then locked back on.

This time, however, Owner said She wanted me to stay unlocked overnight. She does sometimes request this and so i thought nothing of it. We then went to bed as usual. i was soon fast asleep curled up next to Her. Early the next morning, well before our alarm went off and with the bedroom still cloaked in darkness, i was awoken from my slumber by the sensation of Owners fingers caressing and scratching my clit under my silk nightdress.

i was still half-asleep but woozily rolled over and parted my legs to give Her easier access. i was expecting that She wanted to maybe tease me for a bit before having me pleasure Her. She sometimes does this, leaving me frustrated and horny but denied.  i imagined that She might tease me for a bit and then stop.  However this time was to be different.

Owner raked Her nails across the soft flesh of my clit it which in turn started to respond. She then moved to stroking my clit, not hard but enough to make it start to grow a little. In what felt like a matter of seconds the sensation quickly went from pleasant arousal to a realisation that i was quite close to coming. My clit was still not fully hard, perhaps a product of having been kept in denial for well over a year, much of that time spent in chastity. But it was now close to orgasm. i was still half-drowsy but realised that i was fast approaching the point of no return. Half in panic i asked Owner if i had permission to cum? Her words were words i have not heard for such a long time.

'Yes, cum like a slut' She whispered, continuing to lightly caress my still semi-hard clit. And that was it. i moaned and groaned loudly as i orgasmed copiously, saturating my nightie in what felt like an ocean of cum that drenched the whole of the right side of my body. Owner scooped some of my mess up with Her fingers and fed it to me, it was so nice to taste semen again!

After getting up and preparing our breakfast i showered and went back into my own personal lockdown once again. i feel a mixture of emotions at having now had an orgasm after so long going without one. i am grateful to Owner for granting it to me. i wonder when or if i might be permitted another one?

Cook, Clean, Bake, Work, Get Caned and Fucked - Repeat

First and foremost i hope that this post finds you and your families well and taking care to protect yourselves, loved ones and their fellow citizens from Covid-19. It is an understatement to say that we are living through difficult times and my and Owners' heart goes out to you all. The news from Italy is especially grim and in Spain it is getting worse by the day. We know the UK is not far behind and the USA too.

But life does and must go on. Owner and i have adjusted our routines. We are now both working exclusively from home, we're avoiding going out except to go to get food and we're both now exercising daily at home together (it would be deeply ironic were we to actually emerge from this period fitter than we went into it).

And, of course, it means that there is plenty of opportunity to cook, clean, bake and be caned and fucked and Owner has been making full use of the opportunities. There has also been time to watch movies together curled up on the sofa with a bowl of fresh warm popcorn and and catch-up on some of our favourite programmes.

Last night we sat down to watch another episode of 'Naked Attraction' a dating show in which the contestants all start or end-up completely naked. Unsurprisingly, we both end discussing the myriad varieties of cocks on display. There are small ones, enormous ones, pierced and non-pierced ones, hairy and shaved ones. i think you can probably guess which ones catch my eye. Last night was no exception. However, there have (so far) been no 'clitties' in chastity on the show. Owner pointed this out to me this morning whilst She was caning my chastised cock. She teased me and said that maybe i should enter and how much i would love to be on national TV completely naked with my clit locked up. She was joking (i think!) but i confess that the idea of being naked and in chastity infront of strangers both terrifies and thrills me.

As i said Owner mentioned this whilst She was caning my clit this morning. She had already had put her fragrant knickers over my head so i could inhale Her scent and clamped my nipples. Owner then alternated between spanking and caning my baskside and testicles, striking me harder and harder and encouraging me to moan like a whore. When She felt i was properly 'warmed-up' She flipped me over, straddled my face and had me tongue fuck Her anus whilst She brought Herself to orgasm with Her vibrator. When done She gagged me with my new ball gag (see below) and then had me prepare my 'pussy' for Her by lubing, stretching and opening it with my fingers before She fucked me with Her strapon dildo. As She did She again pleasured Herself to orgasm with Her vibrator. i was left very horny, slippery and highly aroused, but still denied. i truly have become Her sextoy. It's now 455 days since i last had an orgasm, i suspect i might never have another one again.

i mentioned above that Owner gagged me before She fucked me. She used the lovely new ball gag from Godemiche which arrived a week or so ago. This is what it looks like 'in situ' on me, as you can see it is nice and sparkly!

i suspect i may be spending quite a bit of time gagged

Owner has also mentioned that She wants me to do a few photoshoots at home whilst we are confined to our flat thanks to Covid-19. i love doing these and look forward to seeing what sorts of photoshoots Owner has in mind. In the meantime, i leave you with a random selection of pictures of me keeping busy at home.

'labia' clamped for whilst i am cooking

titties clamped whilst dusting

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plugged

Stay safe everyone

'Panic' Buying and Lockdown

Today is the day of my monthly outdoor dice challenge and this time it took me to one of our local supermarkets for a bit of a wander around the fast emptying shopping ailes in the gorgeous high heels Owner bought me for my birthday. With Coronavirus ravaging the continent and fast spreading in the UK supermarkets have been in the news quite a bit of late with reports of shoppers panic buying essentials. So it felt quite weirdly appropriate that when, under Owners' supervision, i rolled the outdoor challenge dice late yesterday the first dice, stipulating the location of the challenge, landed on 'supermarket'. The next question was what would i have to wear? The second dice swiftly answered that, i was to wear trousers and high heels.

As today is a working day i suggested to Owner that i wear a pair of my women's suit trousers matched with a blouse and my bright red slut heels to complete my challenge. Owner approved of my choice. i elected not to wear stockings so that i might show off my brightly painted toenails and my ankle tattoo.

It is about a 10 minute walk to the supermarket from where we live. Owner instructed that i was to be careful not to fall over whilst getting there and to only change into my heels when i was close to the supermarket. So this is what i did. The supermarket is on one of the main roads into London but there is a new housing development near it that has just been built which provided an opportunity to scoot into a side alley and change into my heels before setting off. i teetered rather carefully on my platform heels across the busy main road and into the store.

The store was busy with shoppers and many of the shelves were completely empty of stock as people have been stocking up on supplies in an expectation that the UK will follow Italy and Spain and elsewhere in Europe that is going into lockdown. Nevertheless, i was able to find some essentials to purchase, pose for a few selfies (see below) then join the queue and pay for my purchases, leave the store and head back home. i elected to walk part of the way back in my heels before changing out of them about halfway back. Before i did i got shouted at by a van driver who leaned out of his cab to film me on his phone as i teetered along with my shopping. i have no idea what he was saying, i had my earphones in listening to music, other than he appeared to be desribing me as 'sister' - he was behind me at that point, i think from the front it's very obvious that i am not a girl!

Anyway, it was slightly nerve-wracking but great fun to do the challenge and Owner expressed Her satisfaction at how i got on. i have no idea when or whether i might be able to do the next one, which is scheduled for mid-April, i guess it will depend on whether the UK has joined others and is in full lockdown by then. Here are some photos from my little outing:

in the half emptied supermarket with my shopping and heels

just after changing into my heels in a sidestreet

opposite the supermarket waiting to cross the road

in the store

with my shopping bag, heading home

Talking of lockdowns, today marks the 60th day i have been kept in continous chastity this year and tomorrow will be the 450th day since my last orgasm. Being denied for so long is quite an amazing journey. It's odd, i genuinely no longer have any desire to orgasm again - infact were i to be made to by Owner i would probably feel a sense of slight disappointment at my period of denial coming to an end - and yet i also get waves of feeling intensely horny. The slightest thing can arouse and excite me, especially mentally, and my cravings to be treated like, and be seen as, a slut become stronger every day.





In the meantime i have also been kept on my toes at home by Owners' household dice and have been clamped, gagged, plugged etc whilst performing a variety of my household tasks. Unfortunately, however, Owner has also had cause to voice Her displeasure at the standard of some of my household cleaning (i swear She can see things i can't - maybe i should be wearing my glasses when i clean!). i was lucky to have just 'got away' with a verbal dressing-down from Her and not a physical punishment. If we do end up being locked down at home due to Coronavirus - as seems more than likely - i can well imagine Owner using the opportunity to enforce the very highest standards in household cleanliness.

Stay safe everyone, especially readers and followers in Italy and Spain who i know are enduring very hard times at the moment.

[EDIT] - since drafting this the Prime Minister has announced we are going into a sort of voluntary lockdown

My Sextoy Life

Let's talk about sex.

One aspect of my relationship with Owner is that She has, for a long-time, regarded me as being Her sex toy. That is to say that sexually my body exists for Her pleasure, not mine. At first this began as a 'rule' that i was never, under any circumstances, to initiate sex with Her. At the time we still had what one might call a 'conventional' sex life i.e. penetrative sex.

Then after a while it became apparent that sexually Owner did not need my clit inside Her for Her to experience pleasure. It became, in effect, redundant. The last time it was inside Her pussy was over a decade ago. She would still grind Herself against it or make use of my tongue but it was clear She did not need it inside me and so inside Her it did not go. Our roles also reversed, She started to fuck me, something i came to greatly enjoy. But, i no longer fucked Her.

Owner still permitted me to cum. She would tease me and pleasure me with Her hands. She allowed me to cum but only if had Her permission to do so. She also taught me to lick up my 'mess' afterwards and i grew to enjoy the taste of my own semen. Sometime later Owner discovered She could make me cum by spanking, slapping or caning my testicles. Such releses were painful but powerful as She hit hard. My orgasms became fewer but more intense and more vocal. Owner encouraged me to vocalise what a slut and whore i was as She beat an orgasm out of me.

Such orgasms as i was permitted in this manner only happened after She had first been pleasured. That was important. Not only was i never to initiate sex but Owner also expected my focus to be on Her. She regarded my body as Her sex toy. It's primary purpose was Her pleasure. Yes She would sometimes 'reward' me with an orgasm of my own but i was being taught to derive my pleasure from giving Her pleasure.

Under Her direction my sexual role centred increasingly on Her anus. Specifically on licking and probing it with my tongue whilst She concentrated on pleasuring Herself with Her vibrator. i love licking and tasting Owners' backside and She seems to enjoy having my tongue pleasure Her. Sometimes She simply rolls onto Her side to indicate that She expects me to worship Her, other times She will climb astride my face and ride my tongue.

Fast forward to today and my sexual role is solely that of being Owners' sex toy. i have not had an orgasm for 15 months. Owner does still sometimes beat and tease my clit (whether locked or not) but never to the point where i might be close to cumming. My role is now solely to orally service Her anus or to provide a body for Her to grind Herself against whensoever She should so feel like it. i have become Her sextoy, albeit one which She will, on occasion, fuck. Meanwhile i am now kept in a state of perhaps permanent orgasm denial (i have no idea whether i will ever be allowed to orgasm again). It is to me a fitting reminder of my sexual purpose in our relationship.

However, it is not a solely one-sided existence. Although i no longer get to cum i do get to experience great pleasure, satisfaction and enjoyment. i love, adore and relish opportunities to worship Owners' anus. It drives me deliriously insane. Being kept in a state of long-term/perhaps permanent orgasm denial (often but not always accompanied by being physically kept in chastity)has also considerably heightened my own state of sexual arousal. The smallest thing can and does excite me and my nipples are almost constantly erect and are very easily aroused. My biggest sexual organ, my brain, has probably had more fun this past year and a bit than at any time in my life. It's weird and difficult to explain, although i know from reading blogs by people kept similarly denied my experience is far from unique.

Owner will also on occasion, surprise and reward me with a new sextoy to be used on me. Last weekend was one such time. One thing i really enjoy is having my 'pussy' stretched and Owner also likes it to be kept nice and accomodating for Her if She wants to take it. Last Sunday Owner ordered a new ball gag and a pretty new butt plug for me from a company She found online called Godemiche which makes gags, plugs and dildos in a range of different colours that you can mix and match to customise. She ordered a large pink and pearl coloured plug for me together with a glittery purple gag.i cannot wait for both items to arrive!