Latest 'Forcedfem' Challenge

Owner has, as mentioned previously, recommenced setting her trainee pet with a series of challenges for him to undertake. Today i had to meet Owner at Kings Cross station in London and walk around the station hall wearing my red high heeled shoes. In an effort to please Owner i also put on some light make-up, my outdoor 'training' collar, a red top to match my heels, trainee pet 'L' badge and red stockings under my fem jeans.

i was nervous as hell before meeting Owner, the station was packed and i couldn't find anywhere discrete to take-off my boots and slip on my heels. However, i was able to find a quiet corner of the station to change my footwear moderately discretely - only those queing for the taxis could see me, and so was fully prepared and dressed for the challenge when Owner greeted me. Owner led me into the station itself and then showed the route that i was to walk, basically i had to do a lap of the station hall. i nervously set off on my trot around the hall being careful to try and ensure i did not slip! or to make eye contact with people just in case i recognised someone!

The picture was taken by Owner at the end of my lap. i think you can tell i was both relieved and excited to have completed my challenge. i particularly like the police officer in the background!

It is our anniversary in a week's time and i am taking Owner to our favourite hotel for the night. Apparently i am to have an audition the next day for Owner that she has entitled my 'Plan 9 For Spoilt Pet'. i have absolutely no idea what this will involve but will do my best and update what it involved and how i got on.

Challenges aside Owner has stated that She has observed an improvement in trainee pet's performance since She issued her ultimatum to me and i was demoted to trainee pet status. For myself, i feel i have now settled into a new routine and am remembering to do all of my household chores and duties, and generally strive to become a much better pet and submissive for Owner. It is wonderful to be back properly serving my Owner again and i think the picture shows just how happy i am to be back being trained. Our relationship is a journey and i have a long way to go and develop as a pet Owner can be truly proud of. But i am enjoying every minute of my re-training as Owners submissive and hope that i can continue to develop and progress in my submission to Her. i truly am a lucky trainee pet!

Holidays

Owner and i have just returned from a fantastic week away in a remote cottage near the sea. i have been trying to improve my performance of late, much needed as the results of my assessment will testify, and Owner seems to have noticed an improvement. i am now offering Owner nightly foot massages and am cleaning on a daily basis and i was really pleased that i continued to undertake these activities for Owner whilst we were on holiday.

Naturally, i still managed to do things wrong and require punishment. As a consequence i spent some time walking around a small market town with Owner whilst wearing japanese clover nipple clamps, which Owner took great delight in pulling and tugging! The funniest incident though occurred on the second to last day of our holiday. As a punishment Owner had me kneeling on all fours on a wooden table in the lounge. i was wearing weighted nipple clamps and had 20 mini clothes pegs attached to my testicles. There was a large butt plug in my 'pussy' and i had just commenced fellating Owners dildo (i was due to remain like this for at least 15 minutes) when there was a sudden knock at the door - bear in mind this was an isolated country cottage we where staying in. i had to make a rapid exit to the bathroom whilst Owner dealt with the caller - it turned out it was the cleaner who had got the date wrong for our departure. i'm just pleased i had remembered to lock the door and that she hadn't just walked straight in!

i am also getting accustomed to being caned once again on a regular basis. Owner currently administers 80 strikes of Her cane per session and we are currently working up towards 100 stokes plus. Owner has also added a new dimension to my punishments, now every time i do something that requires punishing She also removes one of the items of pretty clothing that i like to wear. This is actually a really good incentive to be better behaved as i love to dress up in pretty clothes and am mortified at the prospect of having nothing left to wear.

Owner has also re-commenced her series of humiliating/embarrassing challenges for me. At the airport at the start of our holiday i had to buy some lipstick and nail polish at the airport whilst wearing a tiara and later this week i have to walk the length of a busy London train station in red stiletto heels - which could be interesting!

It's so nice to be back serving my Owner once again, we both feel so much happier and more content. i just hope that one day i can again earn the right to wear Owners collar.

Demoted to trainee pet

Yesterday was the anniversary of my collaring by Owner. However, it was not a cause for celebration as I have been demoted to trainee pet and had my full pet collar removed. Owner is extremely justified in doing this and has rightly commenced a period of intensive re-training of Her pet to get me back performing my expected tasks and duties. To explain why this situation has arisen I need to briefly re-cap the past year of our lives together.

My collaring ceremony on the 8th September 2007 was and is one of the proudest days of my life. Owner had stipulated a series of behaviours and tasks that she expected me, as her pet, to perform for her. Owner had stated that these would be continuously built upon over time to further my total submission to Her in our relationship. For the first 8 months things went extremely well. i was performing my tasks and duties as expected and was relishing my role as Her submissive pet. i was learning and acquiring new skills and was an extremely happy submissive pet.

Then a couple of things happened which, though I do not offer them as an excuse for the subsequent decline in my behaviour and eventual demotion back to trainee pet status, do provide the context for my decline in behaviour. Those things were

• Trying and ultimately failing to sell our flat and buy a house
• Owner commencing a period of intensive study for a course she was doing

Trying to sell the flat meant that house hunting, having to show people around the place, dealing with solicitors and incompetent estate agents etc. The routines that Owner and i had built into our relationship got seriously disturbed and our lives became increasingly stressful as the housing market collapsed whilst we were in the middle of trying to move. Eventually, everything fell through and we’ve decided to stay put for now. However, the experience left us both tired, stressed and emotionally drained.

Owners course meant that She was spending most evenings and weekends studying. Though i helped where I could it did mean that She had little or no time for the fun activities we used to enjoy together. Whilst Owner studied i became restless and distracted. i spent more time on the internet and neglected my duties towards Her. In short, i became a not very good pet at all.

When Owners course ended and the house/flat non-sale/purchase came to an end Owner presented me with a formal notice that my decline in behaviour and performance had been noted and i could either accept re-training along Her lines or be dismissed completely as Her Owned submissive pet. i readily signed the letter. i too had noticed how i had become listless and ill-at-ease with myself. In short, i was as unhappy with life as my Owner was with my behaviour and performance. i recognise that i am only truly happy when serving my Owner and urgently needed help to get me back on track. Owner and i made a list of areas that i had continued to perform Ok in during this period, tasks/activities i had neglected and those i had not even started. This list is detailed below:

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Things I have done
Worn my collar and cuffs at home
Worn pretty clothes and make-up at home
Been in chastity
Saved some money on a regular basis
Cooking for Owner
Washing dishes
Snuggling up with Owner
Relaxing Owner
Cleaning sex toys after use and ensuring we have supplies of condoms/lubricant
Kept toe nails painted
Bent over and made himself available on command
Obtained Owners permission before buying clothes for himself
Worn his tag
Not initiated sex
Greeted Owner at door by kissing her feet
Thank Owner on knees after supervised shower
Wearing high heels at home


Things I have done but not all the time
Updated my journal and diary
Worn make-up and women’s outfits at weekends
Reminded my Owner when I am due a supervised shower
Baked Owner nice cakes/bread/biscuits
Ensured that the washing does not pile-up
Polished Owners shoes
Been Owner sex slave (apart from when pet was ill)
Not drinking alcohol very often (slipped a little lately) – but did ask permission
Reminding Owner when punishment is due
Pleasing Owner orally/manually in bed
Worn his (outdoor collar) when outside the house
Clean bathroom sink/toilet daily
Ensure clothes are neat and tidy
Preparing mini-dungeon on a Friday
Change bed linen every 2 weeks
Not orgasmed without permission


Things I haven’t done at all in past couple of months
Given my Owner a pedicure
Hand-washing Owners underwear
Pleasing Owner sexually using Queening stool
Serving as a foot rest
Licking Owners feet
Learning word/powerpoint
Obtained Owners permission before making purchases over £10
Warmed up Owners side of the bed (not easy to do if giving foot massage as well – need to discuss how best to do this i.e. should pet go to bed before Owner?)
Been kneeling on floor when apologising to Owner
Cleaned the flat completely once a week
Offered my Owner a nightly foot massage
Studied Spanish

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It is now a week since Owner agreed to re-train me. i am already feeling much happier and contented than i was before and my performance is gradually returning to the level expected of me.
Owner too has commenced more regular punishments including regular canings and flogging (arse and testicles) and is again enjoying fucking Her pet.

So, although i am now once again just a trainee pet i am now much, much happier than a few weeks ago and our lives are back on track. It is wonderful to once again be serving Owner as She expects.

Upcoming Appraisal

i have my appraisal with my Owner coming up shortly. About every six months Owner reviews my performance with me and points out areas for improvement, areas of concern and establishes new challenges and development goals for her pet. Unfortunately, i don't think this latest one will go that well as i have slipped back into some bad habits. i have asked Owner to be more severe and demanding with me and to pull me up straight away whenever i fall short of Her expectations. i know that i should not have to ask Owner to do this but i think it will help get my development as her pet back on track. i guess i will find out soon enough.