Away from the Glamour

As my previous post highlights i am extremely lucky in having a wonderful Owner who is my dominant partner and wife and who also genuinely enjoys photographing me and having me as Her muse. It means i get to dress up and pose and have a wonderful time. However, my life is not one long glamorous photo shoot!

Away from this is the daily lived reality of happy 24/7 submission, service and obedience to Her. Much of this has become quite routine, from daily chores and weekly punishments to the surrendering of financial control and decision-making rights and of my personal independence. Here is a snap shot of just some of the less 'glamorous' things i have been up to these past two weeks in addition to the more glamorous photo shoot.

There is always cleaning that needs to be done everyday - sometimes whilst gagged, clamped and sniffing a pair of Owners used underwear

Then there was eating dinner from my bowl on the floor (n.b. eating an omelette this way is VERY challenging)

There was also walking around the park wearing a butt plug with my nipples clamped

There were too many people to risk a picture showing the butt plug in situ so you will just have to take my word that it very much was in place.

i also spent two evenings on the trot secured, gagged and caged with my nipples stretched for 45 minutes as a 'thank you' to Owner for having been allowed out unaccompanied by Her (i attended a meal with my team from work)

the little bucket is to catch the drool from my bit gag

Time was also well spent simply facing the wall with my nipples clamped inhaling the wonderful scent of Owners' used underwear

Like i say, it's not all posing for photo shoots!

Soho Slut

A few weeks ago Owner instructed me to book us both into a hotel as a treat for Her and in order to do a photo shoot in a different location. After some research i reserved a suite at Hazlitt's a boutique hotel right in the heart of London's Soho. The building dates from 1718 and the rooms are beautifully furnished. It would be the perfect location for an overnight stay combining food, drinks and photo shoots, which was exactly as it proved to be.

As you can see, given the setting i did make an attempt to dress up for the occasion:

almost respectable looking

But that smart looking skirt is not quite what it seems, time to unleash the slut :)

yes it's a spanking skirt

 time to say hello to some passers by

why hello boys

and before long i had left our room and was to be found on the hotel staircase, waiting to become acquainted with some fellow guests

Such naughtiness comes with consequences

Time for a caning. Now bend over poppet

taking the 'position'

 And that is what happens to naughty sluts

Owner and i both had a fabulous stay. We enjoyed drinks in the room before heading out into Soho for a meal together. Then today, after checking out, we had a lovely lunch before wending our way back home. It was a lovely stay.

July Outdoor Challenge + Piercing Re-Visited

Well, after a short self-induced delay (i was being punished), today i finally got to complete this month's outdoor challenge.  Yay! The dice were rolled over breakfast and the task and location was set. i was to wear fishnets and shorts next to a graffiti covered door on one of the main footpaths in our local park.

Of course, me being me i immediately went for the pair of shorts i created myself a few months back from an old pair of jeans, the very short shorts with lots of cut outs/tears i.e. the ones my arse hangs out of :).  i then combined these with a little cropped top. The result? Well, see for yourself

It was another fun challenge to do albeit one that kept stopping and starting to let dog walkers, joggers and assorted people with prams pass by. Oh, and the walk to and from the park was fun too. i may have to create more items of clothes like these shorts, if Owner permits me to of course!

In other news, you may recall that earlier this year i had a guiche piercing done at Owners' request. It was relatively pain free to do but did entail me having to get onto a gynaecological chair sans trousers and knickers, legs akimbo with my pink chastity device on full view to the piercer. Not that she seemed bothered by the sight of her client.

Anyway, at that point i had a surgical steel barbell inserted. You can see what the piercing looked like below;

the barbell guiche piercing i had done earlier this year

Long story short at the start of the week i somehow managed to contrive to end up with one end of the barbell buried deep inside me with only the other end visible and hanging down. Owner and i were unsure what to do and so i returned back to the same piercing clinic yesterday.

i had thought they might have a special tool with which to extract the barbell embedded inside me but no, they just pulled it free. However, i used the opportunity to get the barbell replaced with a large ring piercing as a) surely there is no way that can disappear inside me and b) if She ever wanted to Owner could suspend a little bell from it so that tinkled as i walked. This is what the piercing looks like now.

with my ring guiche piercing

So, all's well that ends well as they say. 

i once again got to lie there with my legs spread wide apart and my caged little clit on view as the piercer sorted me out, but again she was super professional about the whole thing. Hopefully, if i do go back again it will be to get another piercing done and not because this ring needs retrieving from somewhere deep inside me!

Little Boy Punishment

You read a lot about 'forced feminisation' as a means of training a submissive male. At first, such an approach was used on me to good effect, i can still vividly recall the utter terror that was my first ever foray outside, on a bus, wearing make-up. Or the time i had to cross Waterloo Bridge wearing red high-heeled shoes, or stand next to Nelson' Column in central London wearing a corset. But that was then (and how slim i was then too!).

It soon became apparent to both Owner and i that once started there was increasingly little needed by way of 'forcing' to incentivise me to continue my journey of feminisation. Owner supported me on this journey as i delved ever deeper into my feminine side and discovered to my surprise (despite the fact that the signs had always been there for all to see), that i actually much preferred my feminine-self to my traditional male one. i felt more 'me'. Owner helped open the rabbit hole but after i fell in i discovered i really liked where it took me.

Now, there were always limits to this journey. Whilst She has been incredibly supportive of me exploring and developing my feminine side, buys me clothes and make up etc at the end of the day Owner is clear that She also wants me to remain essentially male. To those who, on an irregular basis, pose the question would i ever take hormones, have breast implants etc, etc? The answer is an emphatic 'no'.  Owner is clear that She wants me to retain a male body and so that is how it will always be. Make-up, clothes, hair, nails, bra, jewellery etc, etc  = 'yes'. Hormones, boob job, botox, laser hair removal, eyebrow shaping etc = 'no'.

However, it is also true that i am now in a place mentally where i feel most at ease and comfortable with myself when i am made-up, have my bra created chest and am generally attempting to look pretty. In short, i have become a very feminine man. 

This has given Owner an idea. Why not weaponise my sense of being femine, or perhaps my absence of feeling like i am a 'proper' man, and turn it against me? Use it as a form of punishment. After all, if i hate presenting as fully male so much what better way to discipline me that to require me to do just that. So that is exactly what She has done. She has introduced a new form of punishment for me. What She describes as my 'Little Boy' punishment where i have to stay unshaven, sans make-up and wearing boys clothes. To me presenting as this is horrible as it no longer feels 'me'. Many will probably read this and be baffled as to how this can be an effective punishment but let me assure you it is. What is more, Owner has let it be known that She fully intends to use it more often as a means of further training and disciplining me to always do exactly as She wants, keep Her home spotless and become Her perfect PA and assistant. Roles She expects me to perform to Her exacting standards.

So, for the past day and a half i have been that 'Little Boy'. i can't wait to get back to 'normal' me when my punishment is over. Meanwhile, this is what 'Little Boy' me looks like:

Little Boy out for a meal with his Owner

Little Boy at the bar ordering drinks for his Owner

Hopefully, you'll not be seeing too much of Little Boy going forwards!.

Cropped Top Photo Shoot

Yesterday Owner had me pose for Her in the cropped 'submissive & breedable' top that She recently bought for me. i was instructed to select three different outfits to wear with the top. You can see some of the results below.

All credit goes to Owner. She also came up with some of the more 'creative' backgrounds, which are an extra bit of fun. We hope you like them, it was a fun shoot to do. Here are some images from the shoot

i love being Owner's muse and posing for Her. It's just a shame She does not have Her own studio.

After the photo shoot i was despatched to the corner shop, still with my hair in pigtails and in my cropped top (albeit with jeans) - as you can see in this post from yesterday.

Also, anyone reading this post today (16th July) and expecting to see pictures from my usual monthly outdoor challenge i am afraid you will have to wait a little longer. As per my previous post i am currently being punished, meaning i am not allowed to shave, wear make-up or dress en femme until Tuesday 18th July. i will, therefore, not be completing my July outdoor challenge until later in the week. Stay tuned for future updates.

Public Service Announcement - July Public Challenge Postponed

As regular readers will know i normally complete a randomly chosen outdoor exhibitionist challenge on the 16th of each month. i regret to inform you, however, that this month's challenge has been postponed for a few days and will occur later in the week.

i am the reason for the delay and i apologise. Unfortunately, my lovely Owner has had cause to punish me and is banning me from wearing make-up, feminine clothes and from shaving for two days as a punishment. This makes the completion of the challenge impossible. 

The reason for the punishment is that on Thursday this week She had to go into Her office for work. i made Her a lunch to take in, as is rightly expected of me, but then forgot to put it into Her work bag. Luckily for me Owner spotted my sloppiness just in time and was able to retrieve Her lunch from the fridge before She set off. However, such an oversight on my part is, i know, unacceptable and so i am rightly being punished. The punishment will last for 48 hours commencing tomorrow (16th July).

i hate having to appear in 'boy mode' like this. Owner is fully aware of this hence using it as a form of punishment. Readers may not think it much of a punishment but i can assure you that if you were me you would realise that it is, much more so than a caning or something else might be.

i am truly sorry to Owner for my oversight and i am grateful to Her for clamping down on such instances of sloppiness on my part. As Her submissive wife i know i need to provide for all of Her needs and risking Her leaving for work without having food in Her bag for lunch was unacceptable on my part. i will ensure it does not happen again.

My punishment does not start until tomorrow, Sunday 16th and will finish at midnight on the Monday. In the meantime, things are continuing as normal. Today, after completing my Spanish studies followed by my exercises, Owner gave me a glass of Her refreshing urine to re-hydrate. It certainly quenched my thirst!

post-exercise glass of urine

After getting changed into something pretty whilst i am still allowed to, remembering my punishment does not start until tomorrow, Owner then spanked my bottom and my bits with two of Her metal implements. The solid metal ball tenderiser definitely leaves an impression when used to hit my tender plums! 

freshly spanked butt and plums

After lunch it was then time to do Owner's hair for Her.This was followed by a fun photo shoot of me in the 'submissive & breedable' cropped top that Owner bought for me. It was great fun to do and there will be a separate blog coming in the next few days showing some of the results.

Photo shoot over Owner decided that i would be allowed to join Her on the sofa to watch a movie. A storm had been forecast so an afternoon at home seemed sensible (the sorm never actually materialised). i was despatched to the corner shop still wearing my cropped top with my hair in tied up in pigtails from the earlier photoshoot to get some supplies for the movie. Here i am on the shop (sorry not great photos)

i managed to crop my head!

The film itself was a very silly Chinese disaster movie called The Wandering Earth but it was a distracting way to end the afternoon. 

So, as a reminder there will be no outdoor challenge completed tomorrow, it will be done sometime during the week. Meantime, i have 48hours in boy mode to come as punishment. i will be counting down the hours to be able to return back to 'normal' but am grateful to Owner for correcting my misdemeanors and, in doing so, helping me to become a better wife to Her.

Sissy Attire & Slut Training

As i think i have mentioned before all of my clothes are either a) bought for me by Owner or b) purchased only after first having received Her explicit consent to do so. In that way it is true to say that i am dressed by Her. It is also true to say that She knows exactly the sort of clothes that are most suitable and appropriate for me. 

You can, therefore, imagine my excitement when She recently advised me that She had found a top that She thought would be perfect for me. The top in question was in an online shop called Occult Trash and it arrived yesterday. It's perfect. Not only is it in my favourite colour, pink but across the front are emblazoned the words 'submissive & breedable'. Perfect for a sissy slut like me. It was available as a regular top or as a cropped top, Owner felt the latter was much more 'me'. What do you think? i adore it.

submissive & breedable slut

i am so lucky that Owner gets me such wonderful and appropriate items to wear! 

i would 'love' (for that read i would be terrified but it is also something that i secretly yearn to do) wear this out in public so that everyone knows exactly how much of an sissy slut i am. i can just picture people's reaction if i were to walk into a bar, or be sent to the supermarket to get groceries, wearing it. What nerve-wracking, thrilling, exciting fun that would be. Would anyone guess that there was a sissy with a cock hungry pussy in their midst?

Talking of cock hungry, my pussy is not my only orifice trained to take cock by Owner. My throat is also given a regular workout so that i might become adept at deep-throating. An example of such training occurred last night when i was instructed to complete fellate a dildo for ten minutes. Owner even placed an alarm clock in front of me so to ensure i continued sucking for the required time.

So this was me last night, concentrating on one of Owners 'cocks'. Incidentally, the place Owner had instructed me to complete my training was the top of staircase that leads into our flat. The front door of our flat is at the bottom of the stairs and has a glass panel to it which means that when our neighbours enter the communal hallway we share with them they can see right up these stairs. Where i was positioned meant that, had they come into the hallway, they would have had a clear view of my naked bottom, 'pussy' and caged clit. Thankfully they remained inside their own flat:)

with the clock Owner set down in front of me

To round things off, today i was instructed to wear a corset all day when working from home and to wear nothing  below my waist. What a lucky and naughty slut i am.

today's working from home attire

400 Not Out & Other Updates

Today marks a mini-milestone in my life, albeit an inconsequential one in Owners. Yes today it is four hundred (400) days to the day since i last experienced an orgasm of any kind (ruined or real). i would like to thank my wonderful Owner for keeping me in such an orgasm free state. Others may struggle to understand me when i say this but remaining denied in this way, whilst also having the honour to pleasure Owner whenever She wishes and to help Her to climax, is the greatest privilege on earth. Just thinking about it makes my 'plums' ache and my caged clit twitch. i truly am a very lucky and a very happy submissive slut and wife. Thank you Owner.

The day was spent doing my usual routines. i made us breakfast and lunch (with dinner to come). Completed my daily Spanish language studies and my extended weekend butt and abs exercises. i swept and mopped the floors of the flat and helped Owner with some admin She needed to sort. i was treated to a bottom paddling followed by a nipple spanking

my freshly paddled butt

head wedged between Owners' thighs as She spanks my breasts

Afterwards i also received a delicious glass of Her golden piss to consume

Drinking Owners' wonderful wee

Before being allowed to cuddle up with Her on the sofa.

This week, however, along with the last few weeks, have been difficult ones for Owner. She is going through a lot of upheaval and stress at work, stress that i wish i could somehow magic away, but i can't. All i can try to do is be there for Her and serve Her as best i can. It was thus a pleasure to be tasked earlier this week with being Her human footstool to help take the weight off Her lovely feet whilst She was on the phone with Her mother.

Owner resting Her feet on my backside

A few days later Owner amused and distracted Herself a little by electrocuting my nipples.

Yesterday, in a further attempt to take Her mind off work, we set off to do a little walk.However, quickly discovered that it was warm and uncomfortably muggy outside, the sort of weather that Owner hates. We still did a bit of a walk but then diverted to the same bar that we visited last sunday for some refreshing drinks and a spot of people watching (one of our favourite past times).

sat outside the bar with Owner

We spent a very enjoyable few hours watching people come and go, commenting on their outfits. Whenever a woman walked past in a short skirt or revealing top, and a number did, Owner would remark that it was the kind of outfit She knew i would like to wear myself (how well She knows me!).

She, meanwhile, was disappointed by the quality (or absence of it) of the men on show. Her preference is for young, slim, Chinese/Japanese/Korean-looking men. There are actually quite a lot of such men in our neighbourhood, mostly students at local universities. However, wherever they yesterday were they were clearly not in the vicinity of the bar where Owner and i were sat. Hopefully, She will have better luck next time and someone might catch Her eye.

There were also a number of men in shorts. Now, Owner hates men wearing shorts. She recently declared to me that 'no real man would ever wear shorts' - something, of course, that i regularly do, the shorter, more revealing and cuter the better!  Afterall, i am a slut. i also wear short skirts and dresses, clothing Owner has not worn for years and which She has sworn never to wear again. She is a trousers or jeans only girl. It is very much the case that She wears the trousers in our relationship and i wear the dresses. Talking of which, this was me today in my dress and pigtails :)

me today in pigtails and dress

But to finish where i started. i truly am grateful to my beautiful and sexy Owner for keeping me so happily orgasm free and for caring for me, dressing me and having me as Her feminine, slutty, submissive wife. i truly am the luckiest person in the world.

Let's Talk About Sex

i was, by my own admission, a little on the cranky side earlier today. No particular reason, i was just feeling a little 'off'. Owner and i had planned to have a wander around the houses of some local artists as part of a local artists open house weekend (we did eventually get to visit a few later on). However, hearing my confession of feeling cranky She suggested we instead have a drink outside a local bar and people watch, one of our favourite activities and a sure fire way to lift my mood.

Anyway, we were sat gossiping about, and commenting on, people passing by when Owner turned the subject to sex, specifically a desire on Her part to start scheduling regular sessions for me to pleasure Her and for Her to torment me (She mentioned more than once how She wanted to electrocute me!)  She is going to start timetabling specific dates and times when She wants Her sex toy (me) to be available for Her pleasure and entertainment as She feels that sometimes She gets preoccupied doing other things and that putting times into Her diary would ensure She gets the sexual satisfaction She rightly deserves. i said that i would obviously be delighted to give Her pleasure whenever She wants, to which She replied that She knew i would be happy and that one of the things She loves about me is that i always do what She wants.

i then confessed that i did, however, sometimes worry that i couldn't really pleasure Her as a man might and that if She ever wanted to find a man who could give Her sexual pleasure in ways i cannot then i would totally understand. Owner confirmed that She knew She could have sex with another man if She so desired (which was reassuring to me) but that She is not currently seeking one to have sex with. i also learnt that, during their recent girls trip to Rome, She confided to Her best friend that ours was a relationship in which if Owner wanted to have sex with another man then She could. Something Her fiend was quite envious of as she worried what impact her doing so would have on her own relationship whereas Owner knew i would be ok with it.

Now, on one level this conversation should have come as no surprise to me as i will often tell Owner that even were She to get into a relationship with another person i would hope that She would continue to let me submit to Her. However, for Her to have said that She knows She is free to have sex with another man if She wants and for Her girlfriend to know that too felt like a significant little moment in our relationship. i am not a cuckold but we both know, as now does Her best friend, that Owner is free to cuckold me should She ever want to. Even though Owner says She currently has no such desire this does feel like an important moment in Her domination of me and my submission to Her. 

It was a conversation that left me feeling even more in love with Owner than i thought possible. i love the fact that She knows She can seek pleasure from another should She ever want to and that i always still be there for Her - to serve, obey and pleasure Her.

Needless to say my crankiness had completely disappeared by the time we left the bar a few hours later and i was feeling much more cheerful (and not just because of the pink ciders i had drunk). We even managed to get to visit a few of the artists studios as well.