Saturday 29 April 2023

April Be Gone

Well, what a frustrating month April has been. Don't get me wrong, nothing awful happened, it is just that Owner and i have ended up spending far too long apart and some of my usual activities have gone to pot.

We both spend some time in Spain together for Easter but then Owner stayed on for an additional week to catch-up with friends and family (whilst working from Her parents apartment) whereas i had to return home to work. This was quickly followed by me disappearing down to Devon in the West of England to help my Dad get set-up to move into a new retirement flat. However, for various reasons i ended up needing to head west again this week to help him out a bit more. So i was down in Devon, hundreds of miles away from Owner in London.

The good news is that throughout this period i have kept-up with both my daily Spanish studies and also my daily exercise regime, not that the latter seems to yet have had any noticeable impact upon my waistline! i can also truthfully report that all the time i was at home, including whilst Owner was away, i kept up with all of my daily cleaning tasks and chores. i even managed to get one of the outstanding bigger jobs finished that Owner had set for me, namely to overhaul our little 'garden' at the front of our building.

the 'garden' mid-overhaul
It also goes without saying that i have been in chastity throughout (i actually can't remember when i was last out of chastity - i think it was sometime late spring/early summer '22).

However, our routine of weekly canings/beatings haven't happened, and these normally happen each week irrespective of whether or not i have done anything 'wrong' - they are just a physical reminder that Owner is in charge.  i also have not been tasked with any weekday activities or challenges to complete. On the plus side, it has been weeks since i was last zapped or tortured with one of Her electrical devices :)

The good news though is that normality should now be returning. Touch wood i will not have to unexpectedly dash off to Devon and although we have some time abroad coming up, Berlin and then Finland, both are trips we are taking together rather than apart. In fact, both promise to be great fun.

In addition, this past month has shown that even when outside life and demands intervene and intrude, as inevitably at times they do, i can still maintain my core routines of household tasks, study and exercise that help me to become a better wife to Owner. In fact as a little sign from Her of appreciation for me last night She took me out for some drinks in a local bar to help me unwind and relax from what has been quite a stressful period trying to sort things out for my dad.

the first of a few pints of cider and rum and cokes (for Owner) last night
Oh and Owner also gifted me a glass of Her finest beverage for breakfast last weekend
me with my favourite drink - Owners piss
So, farewell April. It is almost time for you to bow out and then for us to say hello to May and to adventures in Berlin and then in Finland which are to come.

Tuesday 18 April 2023

A Top 100 Sex Blog

Good golly Miss Molly it turns out that this little blog was a top 100 sex blog in 2022, placing 24th to be precise. It shows just how much i actively keep up with he world of sex blogs that i only stumbled across this by chance the other day when looking at the traffic stats for the site, the list was actually published back in December 2022 so i am only like four months late in noticing. Still, better late than never! 

Owner and i are very happy that this little blog should feature amongst such illustrious company, although i do feel there are also some noticeable absentees from the list, blogs that i would have added.

It is the first time this blog has ever featured in this annual list and yes, i have since checked, or any other such list. Maybe after (checks notes) a little over 15 years i am finally getting the hang of this blog writing malarkey!

If you played any part in helping this little blog appear in Miss Molly's list then thank you. And to those of you who are like me and had never heard of the list until now, well thank you for being a reader. After all, without readers all i am doing is speaking and flashing into the void. So kisses from me for taking time out of your day to catch-up on Owners and my life.

Oh and one more thing. There are some great blogs on that list so go and check some of them out, perhaps even write one yourself if you haven't already done so. We need more sex positive voices and i for one would love to read about more real-life Femdom/FLR relationships as i feel the ones that generally get the internet airtime are often simply male fantasies. A greater plurality of voices and experiences would be wonderful to read.

Top 100 Sex Bloggers 2022

Sunday 16 April 2023

On the Seventh Day....

Owner returned home and i also got to do a fun little outdoor challenge. 

After almost a full week apart Owner and i are once again reunited. We both traveled out to Spain on Good Friday to stay with Her family but whereas i had to return to the UK on Easter Monday for work Owner was able work from Her parents and so did not return until today. She does not get to see them that often and, as Her family is a very close one, it is lovely that She got to spend some more time with them.

That said, it was horrible being separated from Her for so long but finally we are back under the same roof again. In Her absence i have made sure i kept up with my studies and chores like a good little gurl. Well, maybe good but also a little naughty perhaps too?

Yes, with Owner's permission today i also completed my regular monthly outdoor challenge (it always occurs on the 16th of each month). It has been a while since i have done a challenge at the weekend but it was a great way to get up. i made sure to hit the streets relatively early but there were still plenty of people out and about, mostly joggers heading to and from the park.

The challenge i was set was to wear a pair of shorts and fishnets to the same location as the previous outdoor photo shoot, a street that is about 5-10 minute walk from where we live. Readers may recall that a while back i 'adapted' a pair of jeans into a pair of ultra ripped shorts (you can read about it here). Well, those were the shorts i opted to wear. Today is the first opportunity i have had to wear these shorts outside. i was very excited at the opportunity of being able to do so.

i am, however, still a little shy (i am still very much a slut in training) and so paired the shorts with a longer blouse that i knew would cover my derrier sufficiently as i walked to prevent me flashing my glutes to all and sundry, except when i wanted to, as my coat wasn't long enough on its own to do the job. The blouse also helps to hide my still disappointingly big belly. It resolutely refuses to go, despite my exercises (note to self - must workout harder!).

Anyway, enough of me blathering on, how did i get on? Well, here i am at the allotted location

attempting to conceal a hedge with my arse :)
it's not often i go out in my heeled trainers

move along now random stranger, there is nothing to see here
oh look, there's another one behind you!
As you can see, a number of people saw me posing on the street corner, i cannot imagine what they must have thought i was :)

And here i am continuing to be a bit of a shameless slut on the walk back home 

Owner gave me this little backpack, i love it
watching the cricket players warming up in the park
walking along the bus route
and voila, just passed by a bus!
there goes the neighbourhood!

i sent Owner some of the pictures which She was delighted with, saying that i had done 'very well'. Hopefully this wannabe slut is making some progress?

So dear readers, what do you think of the shorts? i love them. i also added another item to my new range of 'ripped' fashions the other day by adapting a top of mine that Owner had pointed out had a hole in it. Well, now it has some more. Before upcycling it i last wore this to the pub. i am not sure i would be allowed in wearing it now?

even less likely were i to walk in dressed like this

Maybe with my ripped shorts and top i should start a new job selling bespoke slutty clothes?

Anyway, back to todays challenge for a minute. If anyone is interested at all in knowing what Owner's outdoor challenge dice are like in action this little video is one i recorded for Her of me throwing them today at breakfast so that She would know i had not cheated when rolling them whilst She was away.

Actually, there is a little, and slightly embarrassing tale to this video. In my haste to share the video with Her via Whatsapp this morning i accidentally sent it, and a corresponding message about it, not to Owner's private Whatsapp account but to Her family group chat account! Luckily the minute i pressed send i realised what i had done and was able to delete the message before it had even uploaded. i must have been quite sleepy as one thing i always do check whenever i am sending things to Owner is that i actually am sending it to Her. This after one memorable Christmas many, many years ago when i emailed an Xmas present list to my mum and dad and my sister that really was not meant for them in any way. Ooops!

But back to the main news of the day. Owner is back and i could not be happier as i missed Her terribly whilst She was away. Hopefully, it will be a long while before we get separated like that again.

Sunday 2 April 2023

Top Tips for the Micro (Caged) Clit

So you are thinking of investing in a micro chastity device? Congratulations! There is nothing quite like the sight of nothing other than your swollen labia (testicles) between your legs with what you once tried to pass off as a penis now almost totally invisible to the naked eye. Yes, micro chastity devices really can make a penis vanish. You are no longer really a man. What you are who knows, but a real man? No. That is not to say that you don't have other male traits and characteristics, just that you no longer have anything that resembles a penis. Rather, you have become a person with a micro clit and a pair of labia that just cry out to be beaten and spanked. Welcome to your new reality.

It is quite possible that your first ever chastity device was a micro one, if so well done you. If, like me, you will be wearing it 24/7 for days,weeks, months even on end then you are in for a bit of a shock and a lot of adjustment, err down there. More likely you started with something bigger to try chastity out but then the itch to go smaller struck and well, you ended up down the rabbit hole. i myself started with a CB300 (far too big) and then, about six or seven devices later, ended up with a 3-D printed Cherry Keeper 'stub' size device before biting the micro-sized bullet with the Cobra Micro. That was back at the start of February 2023 and i have been wearing it 24/7 ever since.

Both devices are small. The cherry keeper had a cage that was a whopping 16.7mm deep whereas the cage of the cobra is a mere 13mm deep. That means your penis is confined to a space only just over 1cm deep. For context my thumbnail is 2cm deep. It means that your clit really, truly does become invisible. However, that extra 3.7mm size difference between the stub and the micro devices also plays out in a number of other ways which make wearing the Cobra micro device a very different experience from the Cherry Keeper stub.

The Art of Peeing in a Small Chastity Device

First off, peeing. Now, anyone who wears a chastity device of any size will immediately come to realise that you really do need to pee sitting down.  Personally, i think all men should pee sitting down anyway. A visit to any men's urinals will show you what lousy aim pretty much all men have and how messy they leave things. Yuck! Far better, in my view, to make them all sit and pee direct into a toilet (as is actually commonplace in some cultures even amongst uncaged men), which is what being in pretty much any form of chastity device requires. i have grown so accustomed to being in chastity that even on the rare occasions i am unlocked, i still sit down to pee.

Anyway, with small devices like both the stub and the micro you not only need to piss sitting down, you also need to ensure you are in no hurry to get back up again when you are done. You also need to ensure that you have some toilet roll or tissue paper to hand whenever you go to the toilet. This is because, confined inside a really small cage, your penis/clit will be somewhat compressed. That in turn means that your uretha is too. There is, therefore, the likelihood that urine will still be trapped somewhere in your slightly scrunched up urethal tube when you have stopped peeing. Because the tube is scrunched up you cannot guarantee that gravity alone will ensure all of your pee will find its way out. You have to help. Being caged you will need to focus more on contracting your bladder muscles to expel any remaining liquid out as well as angling your cage down and 'wiggling' (technical term 😀) it about  to ensure it is empty. Even then there may still be liquid inside your clit that has not yet dripped into the lavatory. That is where the toilet paper/tissues come in. After you have remained seated a bit longer whilst trying to expel the last of the liquid have a wad of paper/tissue in your hand when you stand back up. Chances are there will still be a little dribble of pee that needs mopping up before you are safe to pull your knickers up and exit the lavatory.

Peeing in a Micro Chastity Device

However, with a micro device another issue may arise, in fact it is almost guaranteed to. If you have a foreskin you will inevitably find with a micro cage that your foreskin, or bits of it, end up protruding through the end of your tiny cage if it is one the cage bars. For me this only happened with the micro device although i have seen images of others where it was also true when wearing bigger chastity devices. i presume their penis was naturally bigger than mine, which is naturally small. For me this it did not happen with the stub length cage, just with the micro cage. 

When this happens it can create quite an interesting visual affect. Your foreskin pokes through, almost like the petals of a flower just as they start to unfurl from the bud. It can look something like this

micro caged clit with foreskin protruding
closer view showing foreskin protruding from the tip

Having your foreskin protrude like this from a  micro device is super beneficial as it helps to anchor the device in situ when aroused (see later). However, it also creates a minor problem (in my experience) when peeing. If too much foreskin is protruding a combination of the bunched up foreskin and the bars of the cage create a kind of seal - imagine the tied end of a balloon with your foreskin being the bit of the balloon that is tied.

In a situation like this when you sit down to pee you bladder starts to empty but there is nowhere for the urine to go as the folds of foreskin effectively create a seal preventing the liquid escaping. Instead, what it does is leaks out of your penis/clit and fills any foreskin still inside the cage with liquid, creating a kind of miniature-reservoir/dam. Your bladder may feel a little less full but the liquid hasn't gone far at all, rather it is trapped in the elastic dam of your foreskin, held in check by the folds of foreskin protruding from the cage.

Were you to now stand up and pull your knickers up you are seconds away from disaster. The urine trapped in your foreskin will burst free at some point. This might not happen immediately, but happen it will. When it does it will soak your panties and wet the floor. i know as it once happened to me when i was not paying attention. Luckily, i was at home and not at work or visiting a restaurant etc. Soaked knickers and trousers/skirts re not always the best of looks! 

To avoid this what you need to do whenever you go to have a wee is pull some of the foreskin back into the cage with your fingers, if some is protruding, so that an opening forms allowing your pee to escape in the usual fashion. You can then mop up with your pad of tissue/toilet paper, pull-up your panties and be on your way. 'Problem' sorted.

Erections in a Micro Device

Contrary to what some people may think, being locked in a tiny chastity device does not prevent erections. Instead, erections are still attempted but are constrained, to a greater or lesser extent depending on the depth of the cage. Some have more space than others for your clit to expand into. 

What tended to happen with my Cherry Keeper stub device was that erections were half-hearted affairs. My clit was physically unable to extend outwards by more the 16.7mm depth of the stub's cage. This meant that my clit remained firmly trapped inside the the cage, unable to expand outwards and so instead it sort of retreated internally, pushing back into kind of reverse erection with the bulk of the 'length' inside my body, if that makes sense?

The situation with the micro cage is a little different. Because the micro cage is 3.7mm less deep it is that much easier for a determined clit to force its way past it in its daily dawn attempt to achieve a morning 'hard-on' which after all is a perfectly normal daily occurrence for anyone born with a penis, whether we like it or not. The stub device was sufficiently deep to be able to contain these morning thrusts for freedom but with the micro device a little extra help is needed to stop the head of your clit being able to escape by literally pushing the cage to one side whilst you sleep.

First off, in my experience you need a slightly tighter base ring than with a bigger cage so that there is less opportunity for your excitable clit to try and successfully bully its way to freedom. A smaller base ring on the device (i wear the smallest possible) helps to hold everything snuggly and securely in place meaning that there is less 'give' in the device which in turn makes it more difficult for your clit to force an escape. More difficult, but not impossible.

What really seems to be critical to ensuring that your clit stays in inside a micro cage, unable to force it way free, is whether or not the end of your foreskin is also trapped inside the cage rather than sitting outside the cage.  Ideally you want to have some of your foreskin poking through the end to anchor your cage in place - albeit note the slight peeing issue this can create (see previous). If any of your foreskin is protruding out from the side of the cage then, come the onset of early morning wood, it will become the pathfinder that the rest of your clit will follow, ending up with your clit poking free. 

This happened to me one morning shortly after i first got the micro device. When it happened i just lay there, totally puzzled by the strange and unusual sensation i could feel between my legs. It took a few minutes for me to realise that what i could feel was my own, unconfined erection, so unaccustomed had i become to physically experiencing one. But it was true, three inches of flesh was protruding from the side of my micro chastity cage. At the time i was able to hastily shove everything back int place and within minutes my clit had shrunk back to its usual, well clit-like, size. But it was a shock, seeing and feeling something i had not experienced for a long time. i was determined not to let it happen again.

To cut a long story short. if you keep your foreskin so that some of it protrudes a little from the end of your cage when your clit then tries to stiffen early in the morning as, i repeat, all clit's do,  the protruding flesh serves to anchor everything securely in place. Your clit may swell but it will remain trapped in situ within the micro cage and you can rest easy knowing that your clit is safely trapped out of sight behind bars, where it belongs. It won't be making any surprise, impromptu appearances.

So there it is, that has been my experience of the difference between wearing a stub-sized and a micro-sized chastity device. Has anyone experienced something similar, had different experiences? i would be interested to hear.


Saturday 1 April 2023

Owners Big Day

Today is my beautiful Owner's birthday, happy birthday gorgeous! We are now both the same age again after a short period of time when She was a a year younger than i am. Owner is just recently returned from a trip to Rome with a friend and so has requested a quiet weekend for us both. Sadly, i have to scoot off for a few days tomorrow to help my dad but She and i will at least get to spend most of Her special weekend together.

The day started with me snuggled up to Her in bed and wishing Her a happy birthday before i slipped out from under the covers to make Her breakfast and put out Her presents. i baked Her a birthday cake yesterday but unfortunately, although apparently very tasty (lemon), my presentation skills let me down just a tad!

Cake on a cheeseboard...wait, what? A cheeseboard!
 My other gifts for Owner included a weekend trip to Berlin, which we will be taking in early May to escape the madness that will be the King's coronation. We have been to Berlin before but that was many, many years ago. It is a great city and we are both looking forward to returning.i also got Her this print from Dark Strokes Art which reminded me of the two of us. It is actually a tarot card design. 

Owner was into tarot cards before She met me whereas i find them a bit scary. i love the design. Owner is the person who gives me strength and who looks after me and guides me. i imagine myself as the gagged figure sitting at Owner's feet.

My final gift, and one that Owner has already put to use on a number of occasions, is one that i may live to regret getting Her. It is an electro zapper device called a tazapper electro wand that fizzes and zaps when it discharges an electric shock.

Owner is already describing it as Her magic 'Harry Potteresque' device and i can see what She means. i have a feeling i might be getting zapped quite regularly

Meanwhile, yesterday evening Owner set about my bottom with Her little red whip, turning it a lovely shade of stripey pink before then taking a riding crop to my nipples. Happy days!

whipped bottom