Treat Me Mean - Keep Me Keen?

 Owner will, on occasion, say something along the following lines to me:

"I think I make your life difficult"

She says it concerned that being 'difficult' is a bad thing, that i would rather She did not make my life 'difficult' when in reality one of the things that i love and adore about Her is precisely because of the fact that She will tell me off, tell me not to do something and places restrictions on what i can and cannot do. If anything, the more Owner does make my life 'difficult' the more in awe and still more deeply in love with Her i am. i actually think i often have things far too easy (to be fair Owner also sometimes tells me that i do as well) and would benefit from a stricter or more 'difficult' regime, especially if i am one day to be accepted as Her slave.

Mistress Scarlett has blogged and written extensively about her relationship with her husband and her realisation that the meaner she is to him (and she is quite deliciously mean!) the happier and more contented he is. She contends that there is a type of person who is only truly happy when 'they feel helplessly in the power of a woman with a mean streak'. She uses the term 'Uxo' to describe such a person. 

Whilst i would not regard myself as fully meeting her definition of an Uxo i do see myself reflected in a lot of what she says. More recently the excellent fellow-blogger Robert Anthony wrote a blog post describing how he too had been surprised how much he had welcomed and and loved having been unexpectedly on the receiving end of what he described as a quite mean (and painful) punishment from his wife.

It is definitely true of Owner and i that, for example, when She first instigated the regular maintenance disciplinary sessions for me She held back for fear of hurting me. i am not a pain slut so i was not exactly begging to be whipped or caned hard by Her. However, we both came to realise that She actually enjoys hurting me and, whilst i fundamentally remain something of a wuss when it comes to pain, especially electricity, the more She does hurt me the more profoundly in awe of Her i become. The more She hurts the more i want to be hurt by Her. i may hate it in the moment but immediately afterwards i am like, wow! i have come to learn that i love to be hurt by Her.

Take another example. Earlier this year there was a week when Owner was in Spain and i was back here in London. That does occasionally happen but whereas in the past i have been guilty of not using my time as constructively as i could whilst She was away i was determined this last time to show Owner that i could and would work hard for Her. Thus, i came up with a list of suggested household tasks i could complete in her absence that i proposed to Her. 

Owner was, i think, pleasantly surprised. She really welcomed my taking the initiative and being proactive in my suggestions but expressed some concern that i didn't wear myself out. For me, however, i loved the fact that completing the list meant that i was working hard, really hard to get everything i had said i would do done. i wanted to show Owner that i was capable of very hard work and that i actually enjoy being made to work hard like that, just as i enjoy being locked up and getting very uncomfortable on occasions when She is out for lunch or dinner with friends. i am by nature a lazy person and find it all too easy to do nothing when in reality there are always things that i could and should be doing. i am working to be better at doing this off my own accord, after all Owner should not have to go to the trouble to tell me to do things when i should be making Her life easier. But i also know that having my failings highlighted to me in no uncertain terms is beneficial to me as is being pushed to work harder and criticised when i do not. One of the many things that i love about Owner is the fact that She can be and is direct with me and will make it known in no uncertain terms when i have not met Her expectations. i love Her all the more for doing that.

Owners time is also precious to Her and She enjoys doing with it whatever She wishes to do. She does not expect interruptions from me or to have Her time impacted by me. Again i love Her all the more for that. She fashioned a lanyard for me that i must use if i wish permission to speak to Her and i love that is what is expected of me. i just wish i could, hand on heart, say that i always remember to use it, i don't. Owner will also only do things She wishes to do, She may discuss things with me but at the end of the day She is a completely free agent to do as She pleases in a way that i am not. Does this mean there are things i would like to do but do not, yes. Does she say no to me, yes of course. Does that bother me, no. 

Never once have i ever felt that i wish my life with Owner was in any way 'easier'. i genuinely love that life with Her can at times be 'difficult'. i am human so of course there are times when i may feel frustrated, times when i bite my tongue, times that i feel pain or discomfort, times i disagree. But Owner is my Owner and i love to have my life controlled by Her, to be constrained or hurt or discomforted in service to Her. i would not wish to live any other way. If anything, truthfully the more 'difficult' my life is made the more i absolutely love and adore Owner.

Of course, i still love to relax and be silly, go out etc with Her but to me one of the things that makes Owner such the special and amazing person that we do that, we do have fun and do normal 'couple' stuff but She also provides structure and discipline and has standards and expectations of me. The higher those are raised, the more i am pushed and challenged to meet them (and i know myself well enough to know that i often do not), the more Owner says 'no', the more She hurts me the more 'difficult' that my life as Her submissive sissy wife becomes, the further head over heels in love with Her i am.

Am i an Uxo? Probably not fully but i am definitely there on the Uxo spectrum (if such a thing even exists) as the meaner to me Owner is or the more difficult i find my life becoming (and truly it is not that difficult) the more my submissive little heart sings. 

But enough of the serious stuff. i leave you with an image of me at work today wearing the hat, the exact same hat - one bought back when Owner and i went to Venice at the end of the Covid lockdown - that i wore on a call earlier today in a one-to-one meeting with my Director. Who says you can't also be silly and a little bit gurly at work too?

Summer Sluttin'

Today is the day, the glorious 16th. The day each month when i get let loose to get up to no good in the neighbourhood after being set a specific photo challenge to complete by Owners' monthly outdoor photo challenge dice.

Actually, this summer has been pretty frustrating as it has been so horribly hot it has really pissed Owner off. Plans to do this and that have been shelved due to the heat. So, on the day when the latest heatwave to hit London (the fifth so far this summer) began to ease the dice said i was to pose in a bikini top and shorts at another of the bus stops not too far from where we live. It is about a 10 minute walk/15 minute 'totter' in heels away.

So here i am in my pink bikini top with matching eye shadow, lipstick and nails my lace trimmed shorts, large fishnet tights and heels and a 'hello kitty' hair clip. In short, just your typical Sunday morning outfit. The bus stop is at the other side of our local park so obviously there were plenty of people out and about, mostly families with kids and groups of teenagers (shouldn't they still have been asleep in bed, i mean it was only 10.30am? - lols). What do you think? Owner described me as looking like a 'hottie' - possibly still the after effects of drinks last night. More on that in a bit.

So, here i am, the pink peril:

 i was also trying a couple of different poses. i am still learning!

i mentioned last night. Well, yesterday Owner went for lunch with friends leaving your truly at home. She declared it too hot in the flat to lock me in my cage so i was left to get on with some housework and writing (i am writing another story - albeit this is more book length!). It was arranged that She would message me when She was on Her way home so i could come and meet Owner at the station and walk Her home.

Fast forward to late afternoon and Owner instructed me to head down to the station where, to my surprise and delight She suggested we go for a few drinks. i was in my cut-off shorts and a t-shirt, shorts that Owner delights in putting Her hand up. We had a few drinks, made plans for an epic 2028 adventure (we like to plan ahead), had a pizza and then walked home. For much of the walk back home Owners' hand was inside my shorts, groping and squeezing my bum and caressing my pussy. It was so hot!

Owners' hand up my shorts

In other news. Today is the 468th day - or over 15 months since my last orgasm. Thank you Owner for your continued gift of orgasm denial. i am truly the luckiest slut alive and i love and adore you with all of my heart.

Special Hydration Drink - Piss

Regular blog readers will know that, when it comes to Owners' pee, i am a big fan. i love to drink it, i even have my own special glass that Owner serves it to me in :)

My special 'piss slut' glass

Luckily for me Owner likes to serve me fresh glasses of Her delicious urine on a regular basis. This was me enjoying such a special treat from Her for breakfast this weekend.

Owner does not only doesn't only serve from the glass. My favourite is when She empties directly into my mouth or onto my prone body - i do love to be pissed upon! It is also fun and exciting when She has me drink Her special wine in public from a transparent water bottle used for just such a person. i mean, to me it is obvious what i am drinking, but to others? Do any passers by recognise what it is too?

i would actually love to have to sit in a pub or restaurant with my own special drink lovingly brewed and prepared by Owner. It is a drink i would happily consume all day.

Amidst this tedious and frustratingly persistent heatwave i know that there is always one drink that reliably reaches the parts other drinks can't reach. It is also loaded with essential electrolytes - who needs expensive sports drinks or supplements when there is Owners' fresh urine to be had. 

Thank you Owner for keeping me wonderfully hydrated and refreshed. 

To paraphrase Oliver Twist, 'Please Owner, can i have some more?' :) 

Fucked In Front Of Owner

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Out and About in my Bikini Top and Shorts

Regular readers will know that there was no outdoor challenge last month as on the 16th June i was heading down to Devon to see my Dad in hospital. Well, good news. My Dad was discharged after a few weeks and is back home and doing OK which meant that this morning i was able to roll Owners outdoor challenge dice once again. Yay!

The first dice determined thew location of my challenge and lo and behold up popped the DLR train station again. i have done a few challenges down there now, at this rate regular users of the service might start to recognise me! 

The second dice determined my outfit and it turned out top be very appropriate indeed. i have mentioned a few times that London is in the grip of a continued heatwave, much to Owners disgust. Well the dice instruction was that i was to wear a bikini top and shorts. A perfect outfit for hot weather!

After debating between my pink bikini or the blue one i opted for the blue as i had a few blue denim shorts but nothing in pink that would have matched the bikini top, nice as it is. So it was that mid-morning after receiving Owners approval for the outfit i was to wear i set off to walk down to the DLR station from our flat.

On route i passed lots of people and traffic then was excited to see a police car parked up close to where i knew i would be posing. It was the perfect opportunity to pose with a police car in the background, or so i thought. Sadly, no sooner had i arrived than the officers got back inside and drove off. My hot fuzz photo shoot will have to wait for another day!

Anyway, you can see how i got on below. Oh and a small disaster, one of the lovely red and blue heeled sandals i am wearing in some pictures (that Owner bought me in Greece a few years ago) literally fell apart so i had to revert to my plimsolls for most of the pictures. Oh well. Still, a passing lady did say to me, when She saw me posing, 'you look very pretty' - which was a nice thing for her to have said. Here are some of the picture

Challenge completed i sent Owner some of the, which She described as being 'sexy' then headed to the supermarket to get a few provisions before heading back home.

with my shopping

It was a fun challenge to do. Thank you Owner for continuing to encourage your slut wife to be a confident slut in public.

Stay Hydrated - Public Piss Drinking

Today Owner gave me a little treat and a challenge. She pissed into a flask and then left it for me to take outside and drink in the street as She filmed me from the window. 

It turned out that quite a few people got to see me drinking Her piss in public, including the driver and passengers of a passing van and a bus and the owner of the car i was stood next to! i wonder if it made them thirsty? :)

Still, in this weather it is important to stay hydrated and Owners delicious urine certainly quenched my thirst.

Owners' piss in hand, ready to head outside

Hot, Hot, Hot

London continues to swelter in hot weather. It has been over 30 degrees centigrade almost every day for weeks now. Owner hates the hot weather and neither of us have been sleeping that well. However, on the plus side it has been an excuse for me to wear my shorts whenever i am outside, such as today when i went to the supermarket to get fresh supplies then to the cafe to get a coffee for Owner.

out and about in my shorts

Last night Owner stayed up to watch the England vs Norway World Cup match but i was so tired i went to bed and slept through all the drama.

There was no chance of me falling asleep this afternoon though as Owner set about tenderising my unlocked clit with Her solid metal mini orb. It is an implement i genuinely fear as believe you me, when that connects with one of my 'labia/plums' i definitely do feel it. Hence the need for me to be securely restrained first before Owner set about beating me with it, to stop my arms and legs flailing about!

This was followed up by having my tits and then my clit electrocuted, again whilst remaining restrained

Thank you Owner for helping ensure that i stayed wide awake in the afternoon heat ;) 

Whilst Owner Dined Out....

Whilst Owner spent last night out having dinner with Her friend i spent the evening chained up, gagged and with my tits stretched out

My pussy was also impaled on Owners' magnificent 'cock' for the duration of Her meal

This all happened when Owner went into Central London, after finishing work yesterday, to meet up with a friend for dinner. 

It had earlier been agreed that, whilst She was, out i would spend the evening locked up inside my cage where She could observe me if She wished via Her surveillance camera whilst She ate . Because the weather in London is, once again, hot Owner stated that i was to set-up my cage/kennel in the lounge, with the air-conditioning on, rather than in its usual spot in the kitchen which gets very warm in hot weather. Both rooms have surveillance cameras She can monitor me from. It was agreed that i would position my cage/kennel just in front of the camera. That way if She wanted to She could keep an eye on me.  i would not know if She was watching me or not The only way i ever know for certain She is watching is when speaks to me through the camera when She is out, such as when She goes out on Her early morning walk.

My cage/kennel and Owners' big boy cock mounted on fuck machine in the lounge

After finishing work i eagerly set about doing my chores for the day, washing up followed by dusting the corridor/staircase and spare room in my hot weather maids outfit. Only when these were completed did i take up my position inside the cage.

washing the dishes

dusting the banister on the staircase

dusting in the corridor

and in the spare room

Cleaning done i prepared to enter my cage for the evening as required. 

i lubed up my pussy in readiness for it being impaled on Owners big 11 inch/29cm cock whilst She was out and then squeezed myself past the cock and fuck machine and clambered into my cage. Once inside i cuffed and chained my ankles and wrists, secured the horse-bit gag in place in my mouth and hung the small iron cowbell and other weights from my pierced tits. i was almost ready. i positioned the small black bucket underneath me to catch the drool that would inevitably soon start streaming from my gagged mouth and then mounted Owners cock.

Owners' big cock pushed deeper and deeper inside of me until i was fully impaled. There i remained, immobilised on my knees, drooling, tits straining and stretched with Owners big cock in my pussy for the next 90 minutes. i had no idea if Owner was observing me from the restaurant or not. i had to assume that She was.

The dildo was attached to the fuck machine but i knew i was only ever permitted to switch that on if instructed so it and i remained motionless as time passed. Even with my pussy well lubed beforehand by the one hour mark i could feel it starting to dry out. i knew i would need to make it nice and slick again for the cock to remain comfortably buried upto the hilt inside it. i carefully scooped up some of the drool that had pooled inside my conveniently located bucket and re-greased and lubricated my hole and Owners cock, smearing the cock and the entrance of my pussy in my gooey drool. As i lubricated myself afresh the weights suspended from my tits swung, risking setting off the cowbells. i tried to keep my movements to the bare minimum as i know one thing Owner doesn't like is me moving about in my cage and the metal cowbells suspended from my neck collar and slung from my tits are an instant audible giveaway of any movement on my part. However, i was able to successfully re-grease Her cock and my pussy, i settled back down on all fours again and waited in silence.

i also had my mobile phone in the cage with me so that i would know when Owner was on Her way home as She always messages me to alert me so i can get ready to meet Her at the station and carry Her bag home. The phone also enabled me to take these pictures from inside the cage although with the flash on they give a false impression of how light it is inside there. This picture below was taken sans flash and is a more accurate depiction of what it was like inside my kennel/cage.

An hour and a half passed with me stuffed and secured like that when a message arrived from Owner to tell me She was about to leave the restaurant and return home. My initial thought was one of concern that She'd had a good time. Her return was a little earlier than i had expected, although it was a work night and i know She also hates to be out in the heat and it was another stifling hot night in London.

i unlocked my chains and gags, removed the tits weights and then dis-mounted Her cock, turned around and deep-throated it knowing that, if She was watching, Owner would see me cleaning Her cock with my mouth. i then put everything away, dismantled the kennel/cage and returned it to its carry bag and went to go and meet Owner and help carry Her bag back home.

She had, apparently, had a wonderful catch-up with Her friend and they had both enjoyed really good food. Owner went on to say that the restaurant had been busy and She had not really had an opportunity to observe me in my cage via the surveillance camera app on her phone. Of course, at the time i had no way of knowing if Owner was watching or not so had simply assumed that She might be.

Owner declared that She was pleased with how i had got on and nodded approvingly when i showed Her the pictures i had taken whilst i was locked up. We spent the rest of the evening cuddled up watching some of the World Cup together.

So we both had lovely and exciting evenings. Owner got to meet up with a good friend of Hers and enjoy a nice meal out whilst i got to spend my evening finishing off my chores then showing Her what an obedient slut i am, drooling on all fours, nipples straining and stretched with Owners cock buried deep inside of me.

Thank you Owner for a wonderful evening.

p.s. - the fuck machine remained unused the whole evening, it simply acted as a mount for Her 11 inch cock. It can only be switched on if and when Owner instructs that it should and last night no such instruction was issued. Accordingly, Her cock remained stationary inside me the whole time. 

Heatwave Easing

At last the heatwave that has started to ease a little in London which means that tonight Owner and i might even be able to sleep in the bedroom rather than the lounge, where we have spent the past 4 nights as it is cooler. Owner in particular hates the hot weather so has been struggling a lot the past few days.

Today was cooler though and so we were able to venture out together. Owner took me shopping and bought me some new lipstick and also let me get a new make-up bag and some cute ankle socks. When we returned home She then beat me with Her birch on my bottom and the backs of my thighs before electrocuting my tits  - a sign that She is definitely feeling better now the worst of the heat has passed.

On Friday i went down to Devon for the day to see my Dad in hospital. He has fully recovered from his stroke and the arrangements are now in place for an additional care package to enable him to be discharged from hospital on Monday, which is good news. i will be heading down again Tuesday/Wednesday to check that all is going well for him at home but then hopefully that will be the last time i need to head down there for a few weeks.

On the train on my way to visit my Dad in hospital on the hottest June day ever in the UK

All i really want to do is spend my time with Owner having fun together with Her and looking after Her.

Owner and me on Saturday evening