Nice 'n' Normal

Just a quick post to say how lovely it was to be able to enjoy and almost completely 'normal' Sunday today. Owner and i got up quite late for us (7.30am) and then, after a relaxed morning, we pootled off into town for a brief walk along the Thames and then lunch (Thai curries followed by cake). 

It has been a while since we spent a Sunday doing what we always used to do on Sundays in pre-pandemic times - it was lovely. Town was busy with visitors and tourists, the sun was out and it was weirdly on the mild side for the end of January.

Our lunchtime desert

Posing by London Bridge

 Any other time this would have been a quite unremarkable day - which is why i think it felt so lovely!

January Blues

This week has been quite a tiring one and a busy one work-wise. i had a little wobble in that on Wednesday and Thursday i was feeling super tired and generally mhwah, to the point that i asked Owner if i might be excused my Wednesday evening studies and my Thursday after-work duties? Owner was kind enough to let me do this. 

i mention this because i would never want to give the impression that She does not look after me. Although i submit to Her and am dominated by Her She in turn cares for me and looks after me, especially when i am feeling not quite my best. 

Owner Herself didn't have the best of weeks either in that She had a bad migraine at the start of the week which required Her to take some time off work. i tried to take care of Her as best i could.

Anyway, as i write this (Saturday morning) i am pleased to say that i have mostly caught back-up with myself - all that i still need to do today is clean and dust the lounge and complete my hour of Spanish study and i will be back on track. i was also gifted a glass of Owner's nutritious and restorative piss to drink before breakfast - which is always a lovely way to start any day.

In other news. Last night Owner restrained me before striking my 'labia' 120 times with Her heavy metal tenderiser and then caning my breasts 150 times with Her twisted cane as part of my weekly disciplining. This was then followed by Her tickling me on a sustained basis whilst i remained restrained and unable to wriggle free. Owner enjoys tickling me but when She does i often end up thrashing about uncontrollably - something i obviously cannot do if i am restrained. Here i am, secured with Owner's chosen disciplinary instruments in position - already giggling nervously at the prospect of a tickling to come

Earlier in the day, i was despatched to our local park to fellate one of Owners' dildo's in public for 2 minutes. It was a nice day and the park was again busy with dog walkers so it was tricky to find a moment when i could complete my task without being spotted. However, i eventually managed to suck Owners' cock for 2 minutes in public. This is a short excerpt from the video i made for Owner

As for the rest of this weekend? Well later today i am getting my haircut and then tomorrow Owner and i are heading out to lunch together to a great Thai restaurant near London Bridge.

Data Points and Panties

The eagle-eyed amongst you may also have noticed a new set of statistics appear down the side of my blog in the form pf a 'Performance Rating'. As i have mentioned in the past back in November Owner started to provide me with daily feedback on my behaviour/performance in the form of a daily mark out of five. She emails me my score for every evening. i have taken these scores and then averaged them for the month to display on the blog so that there is a public record of how Owner thinks i have done/behaved that month. Obviously, an average score of 5 out of 5 is what i should be aiming for. At present i am averaging about a 4.6 out of 5.

This feature may or may not be of any interest to anyone but Owner congratulated me on a good use of data and it now sits along side the information about how many days i have been in continuous chastity and how many orgasms i have had each year. Incidentally, on the latter i wonder if i might see these further restricted this year? i had none all year in 2019 but then had four in 2020 and three last year - so i am currently averaging 2.33 orgasms a year. Personally, i think it would be good for my development to keep that average trending down. Perhaps i am odd thinking this, but then whoever said i was 'normal'? :)

Changing subjects, here is a gratuitous photo of me in one of my new pairs of panties

my new knickers

i never know what to ask for when my family say to me 'what would you like for your birthday?' In truth there is little/nothing i actually need and the things i would quite like tend not to be the things one can ask a family member to get, even i have never said, actually yes i'd like a really big butt plug or a pretty new dress! As a result, each year i tend to end up getting vouchers. The advantage of these, at least, is that i can specify the kind of shops i would like vouchers from. Guess what, i always suggest ones that have  women's clothes i like.

Anyway, this year my mum bought me some vouchers for H&M and so, with Owners' permission, i was able to do a little online shopping. Owner, of course, still vetted (and vetoed) some of my suggested purchases and also picked out an item She had seen that She wanted me to wear. To cut a long story short this week i took delivery, courtesy of my mother, of a lovely new skirt, a cropped t-shirt, V-necked sleeveless jumper (also cropped) and some pairs of the lovely knickers i am wearing above

i am very pleased with them and Owner remarked that they look very cute. i also have a new pair of pretty pink slippers, courtesy of my dad.

Meanwhile, in other developments. On Monday Owner required that i complete my evening cleaning chores (cleaning the bathroom from top to bottom) whilst gagged and sniffing Her used panties. i must say i do think i look about as unglamorous as i possibly could, although the scent of Owners' pussy is definitely preferable to the smell of cleaning disinfectant!

me looking like something out of a B horror movie

Tonight, after i have made and then washed up and put away the dinner i need to do some more cleaning chores and then have an hour of study to complete. After that is done and only then will i be able to join Owner and relax with Her. But that won't quite be the end of my tasks. i have been instructed to practice deep-throating Her silver dildo whilst we watch TV together. In short, i have a busy evening ahead but  keeping me busy, useful and learning new skills is all part of my continuous development and training as Owner's wife and slut and to be honest i would not have it any other way.

Birthday Dress and Other Birthday Fun

One of the things that i absolutely love about my life is that i am fairly certain that i am one of only a lucky few people who get to spend their 52nd birthday posing outside wearing the new service dress that their dominant wife has bought for them, in my stockings and heels. Even better, i get to do this outside our flat, in our street on a Sunday lunchtime for all the neighbours and passers by to see. That was exactly what i was able to do today - i truly am one very lucky, albeit increasingly old, submissive, exhibitionist slut

me in our street wearing my new service dress

Yes, today is my birthday and amongst the many lovely things that Owner bought for me was this beautiful made to measure service dress that She ordered especially for me from the lovely Karolina at BeBaGo on Etsy. You can see another couple of shots of it below

Getting ready to meet my public :)

Hello neighbours, like my dress?

a quick flash of knicker

i love the dress and it fits me perfectly.

But, i have already got well ahead of myself. Let me go back to first thing this morning and the sight that greeted me in our lounge. Owner had ordered me an amazing birthday cake, decorated the table with balloons and streamers and provided me with a fresh glass of Her delicious piss to drink to help kick-start my birthday in style. This was the sight that greeted me

presents, cake, balloons and glass of fresh piss

i eagerly swigged the glass of Owner's wonderful golden nectar - honestly Her pee is the best drink ever and was a wonderful way to start my day

piss drinking birthday pet - with my morning hair! :)

Drink downed it was time to be truly indulgent and have some amazing chocolate cake for breakfast. Owner had even bought me a pair of  special cake eating glasses to wear.

how is it that i am 52 already?

eating cake with my birthday cake eating glasses on

Next, it was time to open my presents. Owner bought me some amazing gifts including a pretty set of wireless headphones and a zombie cow butter dish (we have a bit of a thing going on about cows - whenever we go on holiday we always spend at least some of our time hunting down cow-themed souvenirs).

zombie cow butter dish - totally awesome

super cute wireless headphones

And of course the service dress, did i mention that Owner had bought me made-to-measure dress?

my precious :)

She also got me this great card

Since breakfast it has been a real struggle to be allowed to do anything productive. i was able to clean the bathroom and do some clothes washing this morning but Owner insisted on making lunch, even permitting me to have a glass of wine from the half-finished bottle left over from Xmas when i was allowed a couple of drinks then. She has also insisted that i just relax whilst She washes up, on account of it being my birthday (so i am using the opportunity to draft this blog post - i will still try to sweep and mop the floors later, i feel v guilty if my chores get left undone). EDIT - between drafting and Owner approving this blog post i did sweep all the floors, although Owner has excused me from mopping them as well.

sweeping the floors in my new service dress

In short, it is proving to be a lovely birthday.

Of Parks, Paddles & Pain

Greetings all. This week has seen a return to earth with a bump after the holiday break in that i returned to work (albeit still from home, thankfully) on Monday. It also marked the return of the in-week challenges and Friday caning/spankings.

As a result on Tuesday, after completing my evening chores, Owner used me as a human footstool whilst She phoned home to Her parents. i have to say that it was quite a humbling experience to literally be under Her feet whilst She was chatting away to Her mother. It did feel very appropriate and an accurate physical reflection of our relationship.

Then on Thursday, during a brief gap between work calls and meetings, i did as instructed and took myself off and walked a full circuit of our local park with my nipples clamped, pausing briefly next to the park cafe to sniff a pair of Owner's deliciously fragrant used panties. It was a lovely day and the park was being well used, despite it being a weekday. My nipples were nicely throbbing by the time i got back home and returned to 'work'.

In the park

Then yesterday, after cooking dinner and completing my evening chores (cleaning the kitchen) it was time for my weekly physical reminder Owner's dominance over me, namely my weekly disciplining. This time it was decided that i was to receive a combination of being paddled on my bottom by the heavy wooden paddle before then being struck on my exposed 'labia' by the solid metal ball spanking device. The paddling left me with a distinct 'glow' on my derriere as you can see

However, i confess that i struggled to take being struck hard on my testicles by the solid metal tenderiser. Owner had told me to roll onto my back and to stay still whilst She struck me down there. However, i was soon wriggling and squirming about like an eel after less than ten of fifty blows She had stated i would receive. As a result She had to secure me in the wooden yoke before continuing. 

Even locked in position as i was i continued to struggle and cried out more than once that it hurt (which it did) and asked Her to stop. She did not and instead simply said that i had grown 'fluffy' and continued to strike me. Much as i disliked the experience at the time i do think this is indicative of a very welcome hardening of Owner's attitude when it comes to these weekly sessions. In the past She probably would have stopped as She initially struggled a little with the idea of inflicting pain on the person She loves. She still loves me but no longer has such qualms about making me suffer. i think this is wonderful and shows how much She too has also grown in confidence in dominating me over time. We both agree that i need to be able to take whatever discipline, pain and discomfort She determines i am to receive and i welcome the fact that Owner continued to strike me despite my protestations to stop. Disciplining over we then spent the rest of the evening cuddled on the sofa watching the Korean series Silent Sea on Netflix.

In other news, tomorrow is my birthday...i will be 52 years young. Owner has lots of things planned for the day, She came home yesterday armed with birthday balloons and an instruction for me to inflate them. i know She has got me a household service dress as She sought my input when choosing which one to purchase and then measured me thoroughly for it as it has been hand made, i am really excited about it and cannot wait to try it on tomorrow if She allows me to. She has also ordered me a cake which i am under instructions to take delivery of today whilst She is out. 

Tomorrow being the 16th also means that i will need to undertake some type of monthly outdoor challenge although the chastity device will not be being rolled. In December it determined i was to be locked 24/7 for at least 3 months and so will not be rolled again until mid-March.

That's it for now. i will update again shortly. Besos y abrazos

And We're Back

Owner and i are now back in the UK after our trip to Spain to stay with Her family for New Year and Dia de los Reyes (Three Kings' Day). We both had a great time although it reaffirmed Owner's view that we really should buy a flat out there so that we have our own place to stay, rather than stay with Her parents, both of whom are lovely but Her mother is very much queen of her house and requires that anyone staying in her presence follow her rules to the letter. Owner's mother is a quite remarkable woman and one in whom it is easy to see where Owner gets Her dominant traits from. Not, that i am suggesting She dominates her husband in the same way that Owner dominates me, but she is very much in charge. In fact, all of the women in her family are very strong-willed and independent-minded. Owner has excellent genes in that regard!

It would, however, be wonderful to have our own place out there in which we could stay, if nothing else it might mean we could also be our 'usual selves' with each other. That is not to say that our own Femdom relationship 'switches off' whilst we are staying there, but it does definitely go into 'silent mode'. It would be marvelous to have a place of our own in which i could live according to Owner's rules, rather than her mothers'. 

That said, Owner did continue to rate my performance each day and, except for one day when my performance was ranked as quite unacceptable, i continued to get good feedback from Her. i was also in chastity throughout, as i will remain until at least mid-march when Her dice will decide my chastity state again.

One thing i immediately did, however, when we got back home was, after i had unpacked our suitcases and put the washing on, to re-apply my make-up and put my padded bra back on. Visits to Owner's family are now the only times when i do not wear make-up or a padded bra (having worn both to see my own parents in 2021). Owner did, however, make a passing reference to my feminine nature in the gifts She bought for me as part of Her family's Amigo Invisible ritual that plays out each year at Three Kings when gifts are given 'in secret' to a family member chosen at random at the start of December. It means you don't know who has got you your gifts as you all open them together until the mystery 'invisible friend' is revealed. The only rules of the ritual are that gifts should value approximately fifty euros i.e be affordable for all and not be extravagant.

This year, unbeknownst to me, Owner had got me as Her 'amigo invisible. However, it quickly became apparent to me when i opened my gifts with the rest of her family that they must have come from Owner. The reason? Well, i don't know who else in Her family knows my belly button is pierced and would have thought to get me a pretty piercing, or a gorgeous little coin purse or a pretty but practical rucksac. Not the sort of things all 51 year old men might expect to receive as presents, but ones that were ideal for me and which i loved and was happy to show-off to the rest of Owner's family - including with the new piercing in situ.

Anyway, we are now back in rainy London. i hope 2022 proves to be the year the world finally beats the pandemic and, who knows, perhaps it might also be the one in which Owner and i can start to plan for a place of our own in Spain as well.