New Weaponry for Owner and Other Cool Stuff

i ordered Owner a pre-Christmas gift, in the form of a new cane, which arrived yesterday evening. 'Unfortunately', it was delivered after my scheduled evening caning had already been administered. However, Owner still got in a few practice swings on my bare bottom and pronounced Herself to be very happy indeed with Her gift. 

Owners' new cane

 

i purchased it to mark the fact that Owners' shoulder has now, finally fully recovered after what has felt like years of causing Her pain and discomfort. She was struck down with a frozen shoulder in 2016 which took 18 months to recover from but then left Her with all sorts of muscular issues and pain.

The good news though is that She is now fully recovered and able to swing Her arms freely again, as my bottom can attest. The cane was actually ordered from a company in the USA we have ordered from before called Canes4Pain. They have some great stock and hopefully Owners' armoury will continue to be added to. 

Next week also marks the start of December and with that the start of the Advent Calendar Owner has created for me. i have no idea what i will discover written inside each envelope when i open it each day. i am beyond excited. 

Advent calendar waiting to reveal its secrets

In the meantime, tomorrow i will be rolling my weekly dice again to see what punishments, challenges etc i need to complete whilst doing my daily chores. Incidentally, i am pleased to say that i have been keeping fully on top of these and have been complimented by Owner on the meals i have prepared. i am keeping up with my evening studies too (Spanish and knitting) [Edit by Owner - that sounds so 1950s!!!].

Also happening tomorrow is the return of my monthly 'strip-tease' performance for Owner.

Weekly Roundup + Personal Improvement Time

Owner continues to be pleased with my behaviour and performance and i am happy to report that i have been keeping up with all of my daily tasks and chores. This week saw a new addition to my weekly routine, personal improvement time.

After dinner on Thursday, once my evening chores were completed, i spent the rest of the evening studying Spanish and knitting. It felt good to be doing something constructive and to be studying again. Despite Owner being Spanish my own skills with the language continue to be pretty poor and, not having been able to visit this year as we normally would, i have been getting rustier by the day. So it was good to start studying the language again and i will be doing so on a regular basis from this week onwards.

Then, after an hour of Spanish, i settled down with some lovely yarn and my knitting needles and set about knitting a scarf. Again, it has been quite a while since i last knitted anything and so i had to re-learn my skills. Still, i made a start and plan to keep up and knit on a regular basis. So i am pleased to report that i am once again studying to become a better wife.

This week also saw the first day of genuinely seasonal temperatures, which have been above average of late. This provided the first opportunity for me to wear the new winter coat that Owner ordered for me. It has a great hood and is super warm and snuggly. Here i am ready to venture outside on Friday

As per Owner's instructions i have also cut back on my coffee intake, restricting to just a couple of small black coffees at the start of the day (i used to easily drink eight or so a day!) and am drinking more water. i am also continuing to exercise on a regular basis, targeting my glutes and abs in particular, and am pleased to have got my weight back down to 145lbs (a little under 66kg). i think i could still shave off a few more pounds. i realise that i let the weight add on over the summer a bit so it is good to see it come back towards my target - which is about 140lbs (63.5kg).

Have a great rest of the weekend everyone.

Outdoor Challenge - Hello Neighbours

Well today's roll of the monthly outdoor challenge dice threw-up a new challenge to complete, namely to go out into the street outside our flat wearing my silver hair wig, a short skirt and high heels. Actually, when you add in the blouse and stockings i was wearing it was pretty much one of my usual working from home outfits, bar the wig and heels.

It was a relatively straightforward challenge to complete, being just outside, and one that also afforded any of the many neighbours or people passing in the street, an opportunity to spy me in my outfit. Owner leaned out of the window of our flat and documented my performance. You can see how i got on below.

me heading out into the street

in our street

My blouse and skirt

My 'stripper' heels

Flashing my stockings before heading out

It was great fun to do, albeit over far too quickly. i am already thinking ahead to the 16th December and the next outdoor challenge.

Meanwhile, in other developments, last night i set out a series of menu options for Owner to choose from and have me cook for Her dinner, in what is to become a weekly ritual with me offering a menu of options for Her to select from (though She can obviously ask for whatever She likes). Tonight's was simple, home made leek and potato soup.  

Owner and i also both exercised together after work (cardio and abs). Later this evening i will again receive 100 strokes of the cane when my evening chores are done. Today has been a good day.

Oh, and you will see that i have made a few small cosmetic changes to the blog. What do you think?

It's Good To Talk

Owner and i had a good discussion today about things or ways that i could improve my performance further (She has been pleased with me of late but we both recognise that there is plenty of room for further improvement and growth on my part). As a result of the discussion a number of areas for development (mine) were identified in order that i might become a better wife and slut. These included requirements that i;

• produce a weekly menu of meals for Her to choose from
• make soups and bake more regularly than i have been doing
• mop the bathroom floor daily in the morning
• re-commence studying Spanish 
• set aside at least one evening a week (we have settled on this being Wednesday evenings) where i will spend the evening quietly knitting or sewing and studying Spanish in the spare room after preparing and clearing-up from our meal and finishing my chores. This will also allow Owner to have at least one evening a week when i am not disturbing Her
• purchase a sewing machine from my monthly allowance so that i can undertake repairs etc
• provide Owner with regular pedicures and foot massages without Her needing to ask for one
• re-commence performing monthly strip-teases for Owner
• reduce my coffee intake to a maximum of two cups a day and to drink more water daily
  

In return Owner confirmed the following:

• She will reinstate monthly sit-down performance reviews to go through areas i have done well and areas that i have not and be dealt with accordingly
  
• She is content to leave my monthly allowance at its current level (£100)
• next year She may ask that i learn a new 'housewife' skill and attend the relevant courses to study (to date i have attended classes in manicures/pedicures, massage, flower arranging, knitting and sewing)
• in addition to Her choosing what i may eat/drink when we eat out, that in future to expect Her to usually be the one who talks with the waiter/waitress to place the order
• She will permit me to drink Her urine on a regular basis
• at weekends She will have me sniff and inhale the scent of Her worn knickers to keep me aroused
• that i will be undertaking some outdoor photoshoots
• that once Covid restrictions have eased She will investigate opportunities to get me to once again go on stage in front of an audience dressed prettily (as i did at the London cosplay event earlier in the year)
• that She will consider getting me to have a 'tramp stamp' tattoo, or another pretty tattoo
• that She will want me to spend time plugged whilst outdoors and/or at work

So, in short, lots of things to look forward to and lots for me to also start to focus on and to try and improve.

In the meantime, tomorrow i will be doing another of my monthly outdoor challenges. They are forecasting dry weather so whatever i end up having to do, at least i will be dry doing it!

2021 Calendar and Update

Roll up! Roll up! After floating the idea of creating a 2021 calendar in my last post i received a couple of positive comments so we have gone ahead and created the first ever Poppet subslut calendar. Each month is illustrated with a photo of yours truly, all of which have been taken by Owner over the past few years. The calendar is available for purchase from Lulu.com (just in time for Christmas and the perfect gift for all the family....ha, ha, ha!). If interested you can purchase it direct by clicking on the image below

Click image to order calendar

Right, that's enough brash commercialism, what else has been going on? Well, it has been a relatively quiet week consisting mostly of chores and work. The pair of new stockings Owner permitted me to order arrived, i am wearing one of the spotted pairs at work in the picture below

In the 'office' aka home working

We also received one of our infrequent bulk supermarket deliveries on Monday evening. The driver seemed a little surprised when i answered the door in my black housemaid's smock and stockings, but he didn't make any comment. Then on Thursday i received one hundred strokes of the cane from Owner. Not for any misdemeanour, simply that this was what this weeks' dice had decided.

Oh, and i also got to try out the wonderful new umbrella Owner bought me after my last one fell apart on a recent windy day. i love it, it is nice and colourful as you can see and perfect for a wet Saturday in South London

Tomorrow i will be rolling the dice again to see what weekly tasks/challenges i will need to complete whilst doing my chores during the week. As i mentioned, i was fortunate last week and only had to do one thing during the week which was the caning. i wonder what i will need to do next week.

Then on Monday it will be time to roll the monthly outdoor challenge dice again. In October i had to wear a skirt and heels (plus stockings) in our local park. i wonder what i will have to do this month? Maybe the lingerie and a long coat to the railway station combination? i guess i will find out soon enough.

Meanwhile, it is not long until i start on the advent calendar that Owner has created for me. From the 1st to the 24th of December i will be opening a new envelope inside of which contains? Well, in truth i don't know. All i know is that Owner spent the best part of last weekend secretly writing out the contents of each day of the calendar. i am both nervous and excited about what may lay in store.

i hope everyone is well and stay safe.

A Commercial Proposition

This little blog has now been going for the best part of twelve years. It is by no means the most widely read blog on the internet, but it does attract some great followers who occasionally comment and contribute and, in doing so, generally make my day. i would say that it has a small but oh so select following.

Anyway, where am i going with this? Well, Owner occasionally mentions that i really ought to find some ways to earn some additional income so that She can retire and not have to worry about work anymore.  However, despite us both being successful professionals, i don't bring in enough money to allow Her ambitions to be fulfilled. She teases me about why am i not rich and why is She still having to work? She is, i know, just teasing but i also know that She really would like to no longer have to work. We already have an arrangement whereby my salary effectively goes to Her with me receiving a small monthly allowance in return but She would like me to find a way to bring in some extra income. She doesn't mean for me to go and get another job, rather to see if there are ways that i could earn some extra money whilst still being at home where i belong. 

Accordingly, one of Her long-standing challenges to me is for me to look for other ways to bring in some additional money.  One such idea was by writing short femdom-themed stories (i have actually been writing a novella during lock down this year). Owner has dreams that i might one day become a successful writer. However, whilst i do enjoy writing, and i have written and published a few over the years, i am neither a good nor successful author. You can read my efforts to date if you don't believe me.

So intermittently my mind casts about for other ways to earn some extra money. One thing i have sometimes wondered was whether or not there was a way to commercialise some aspect of this blog? So, with that in mind imagine my pleasant surprise when, out of the blue, i was contacted last week via the blog by people asking if i wanted to write for them on a commercial basis. i was initially flattered and intrigued, whereas Owner was more sceptical and suspicious. Anyway, to cut to the chase it transpired that, yes, the offer was genuine. However, what they sought were paid for reviews of sex toys.

i wrote back thanking them but saying that what they were proposing did not really fit with what this blog was about as, although i do talk and write about very adult stuff it is about living as a submissive in a 24/7 FLR relationship. i only ever rarely write about sex toys. It is not really a blog about sex.

So anyway, my brief thought that maybe that could be a way of bringing in some extra money for Owner came to nothing and the blog will be continuing as it is. In the meantime, can i interest anyone in a 2021 Poppet Subslut calendar? :)

Week In Review and Gender Thoughts

Well that was quite a roller coaster, first he was going to win big, then he wasn't, now it looks almost certain that win he will. i have to say that, as a non-American watching the drama unfold across the 'pond' has been somewhat alarming to observe. i never thought i would live to see the day when a President of the USA seemed happy to ignore the basic rules of democracy, namely that you have to actually count all the votes. However, as i write it now looks all but certain that Biden and Harris have won, so all is well that ends well.

Returning to matters domestic i am pleased to report that Owner continues to express Her happiness at my performance and behaviour. i completed all the tasks required of me this week and in return was the  happy recipient of 200 strokes of Her cane (one lot of 100 strokes and two lots of 50) and also spent some time cleaning with 20 mini clothes pegs attached to my clitty. Owner also permitted me to order some new stockings, which arrived at the end of the week. Oh, and i have now got a new mobile phone which Owner is setting up for me as i type, She is much more tech savvy than me. 

 

The first ever picture taken on my new phone - me first thing in my nightie and dressing gown

 

Owner also permitted me to order a lovely metallic pink/purple case for the new phone. It will look super cute.

Owner has also been busy this week. She has hit upon an idea of making a special advent calendar for me. She ordered the calendar (see image below) and has been busy all week working on the 'messages' that will be contained inside each of the envelopes. 

The advent calendar under construction

 

i can't wait and am most curious to find out what each day will reveal when i start to open the calendar next month. It is very exciting! It is also not long (nine days to be precise) until i get to roll the monthly dice again that decides what outdoor challenge i will be completing, which is always a nervous thrill.

Amidst all of this it has been a busy week at work, i presented at two conferences (online of course) and also ran a training workshop interspersed with meetings with Directors and colleagues - all whilst wearing a selection of blouses, my bra, skirts, the aforementioned stockings, knickers and bra and makeup. People at work have started adding pronouns to their email signatures which says whether they prefer to be referred to as 'he/him/his' or 'she/her/hers' - it got me thinking what mine would say?  i cannot claim to be 'her' but nor do i actually feel that i am fully a 'he'. i hate that all too often we are presented in life with binary choices when the reality is always far more complex and interesting. 

It is similar to questions that ask about your sexuality, are you heterosexual, homosexual or bisexual? Now Owner and i are in a very happy, loving and monogamous relationship (incidentally She knows that were She ever to meet someone else i would never leave Her but that is another story). Does that mean i am heterosexual? No, on two counts. First, and perhaps least obvious is that to me heterosexual carries with it an implicit assumption that (if you have male anatomy as i do) you desire penetrative sex with a woman. This could not be further from the truth for me. Owner and i enjoy great sex. It is always on Her terms, never involves my clit inside Her and i am perfectly happy with this, indeed i genuinely much prefer sex that way. Whenever i fantasise it is never, ever about me penetrating Owner (or anyone else for that matter)with my clit . In truth the act of penetration was always a stressful and worrying one for me full of anxiety and performance concerns on my part (and doubtless disappointment on the part of the other party). Now that it is off the table so to speak i find i enjoy sex much more. i  also much prefer to be denied permission to have an orgasm that to have one granted to me. Sure, the latter gives you the immediate guilty rush/high but the constant ache of extended denial is sooo much more rewarding and pleasurable. Take this week for example. i have felt quite horny all week and my nipples have been super aroused. i would very happily swap a whole year of feeling like that than a few seconds of orgasmic release. But i am digressing.

The more substantive reason (and more widely accepted one) why the term heterosexual really does not fit at all, is also because of the fact that, yes i have slept with men. But then bisexual really does not seem accurate either. As i said i have slept with men and yes i can sometimes find men attractive. However, it is an extremely rare event when i see a man that i actually find physically attractive and the idea of ever having a relationship with a man...god no, my heart shudders at the very thought.  i always prefer female to male company and always will. The only thing about men that ever interested me is the thing between their legs, the bigger the better.  99% of men i find repellent. So does that mean i am really bi or simply that i like cocks? i think the latter. So when Owner fucks me with Her 'cock' or has me suck it off i am in seventh heaven (although not as much as when my She is sitting on my face and my tongue is buried in Her delicious backside). In fact, the only thing about being denied orgasm that i miss is the taste of semen as Owner will invariably have me lick and swallow my own on the rare occasion when She does allow me to cum. i love the stuff. If someone was to open up a semen donation service i would be, if allowed, a very eager customer and would be happy to remain orgasm free for life.

So what category am i, other i suppose than a slut? i am not heterosexual, definitely not homosexual but also don't think of myself as being 'properly' bisexual. So what does that make me?  Of late i have been selecting the option 'other' and, if there is a box that allows you to enter your own description, have added 'gender fluid, submissive, exhibitionist slut and housewife'. i wonder what they make of that when they read it!

i would be  intrigued to know how other readers define themselves. i suspect many will say 'sissy' and i guess that in some ways i am one too. But it implies wanting to be sexually used by men whereas i simply like big cocks and cum not of the man that they come attached to. i am also beyond happy being Owners' wife and sharing my life with Her. i intend to grow old and die being Her wife. Were She ever to meet someone else i would still want to be with Her and She knows that. i do sometimes worry that She is somehow 'missing out' but She seems very happy and content with me, Her weird little wife (who gets weirder with every passing year) so i guess that means we are the perfect couple, whatever i may actually be!