Yesterday Owner and i went to the theatre to watch the production of Venus in Fur starring David Oakes and Natalie Dormer [of Game of Thrones fame]. Although the production had received some mixed reviews we both thoroughly enjoyed it and it received a deserved standing ovation at curtain call.

What made the experience all the more enjoyable was that Owner had instructed me to wear a corset, hold-ups and be pantyless for the show, and subsequent pub drinks and restaurant meal. In fact the whole day was one huge treat and Owner and i thoroughly enjoyed ourselves. i also wore my padded bra the whole time. You can see what i looked like below:

in the theatre
showing a little bit of cleavage
the beautiful interior of the Theatre Royal Haymarket
Natalie Dormer spent much of her performance in stockings, suspenders and a basque and i spent much of the time thinking what fun it would be to be similarly attired in front of a live audience, but then i have always been something of an exhibitionist!

The corset ended up being on for over six hours before i eventually had to remove it (with Owners permission and insistence) during the meal in the restaurant. It is a steel boned under bust one which i had tightly laced, but tight lacing and beef medallions do not mix.

The treats continued this morning with Owner sitting on my face and riding my tongue for Her pleasure, having already had fun with Her vibrator, until She came. However, this time, and unusually, as She rode my mouth She also instructed me to masturbate to orgasm. It has been over a month since i last came and i did so copiously.

Then to top things off when i walked into the kitchen to start making breakfast i saw that it was snowing outside, winter is coming!
i had to attend a conference for work this week which meant that i was away from Owner overnight. Neither of us like to be separated from each other like this and it happens only vary rarely, usually around Christmas time when we visit our respective relatives. Luckily it was only for one night and we were soon back together again. i tried to do a bit more of the household cleaning just before i left so that there would be less to catch-up on when i returned.

Yesterday saw us both enjoying a day at home in the morning. Owner caught up with some TV and eased Herself into the weekend and even prepared our lunch for us whilst i went to the shops to complete some chores after doing my morning exercises. After lunch i did some cleaning and Owner rewarded me with a glass of Her delicious urine that was full almost to overflowing. i do so love the taste of Her pee and it made for a lovely treat.

Cleaning completed we then headed out to a pub near to where we live that we have never previously visited. i think you can see from the picture below that i had a good time

We are now a two-tier punishment household. In our lounge there is a pot that Owner received as a gift and which, for quite some time, sat unused on the kitchen windowsill. It now has a new lease of life in our lounge as the 'instant punishment pot'. It contains about 20 or so hand written punishment cards each of which contains a single instant punishment. They are varied but comprise punishments such as being spanked X number of times, standing in a corner for X period, having X number of clamps attached for X period of time etc, etc. In short, short sharp punishments for minor misdemeanours on my part.

Owner recently also decided that a condition of me being permitted to sit and watch TV with Her in the evening (when i could instead be doing something useful) is that i need to ocassionally also pick and complete an instant punishment card. It is not that Owner does not enjoy having me watch TV  with Her, it is just a recognition that this is a treat for me and that i should thus be punished for the privilege. Last night, for example, i drew a card that required me to stand with my hands on my head facing the wall for 20 minutes. The other night the card i picked that required that my clit be decorated with 10 clamps for 20 minutes, as you can see below
Owner has now also introduced a second tier of punishments for those situations when i really annoy Her or piss Her off, which unfortunately can and does sometimes happen - most commonly when She finds some food that has expired that i have not dealt with. Well these punishments are different from the 'instant' ones. They have now been placed into a bag that hangs from our fridge and when/if (and sadly it will be a case of when) i have to complete one i will have to draw it at random from the bag. The list consists of 6 different punishments:
- recycle an item of my clothing
- give £20 from my monthly allowance to Owner (my allowance is £100 a month so that would make quite a dent)
- wear no make-up for a week (i wear make-up daily)
- wear no jewelry for a week (i do like my bling)
- wear men's underwear for a week (the horror - actually this would require me to buy some as i only have one emergency pair for use when i go to the doctors all the rest of my knickers are just that, pretty knickers)
- no alcoholic drinks for a month (i drink much less than i once did -now perhaps once/twice a month now that Owner decides whether i can drink or not)

More generally i am pleased to report that i have been getting back into my old groove the past few weeks and hopefully i am back to being the housewife/sub that Owner both desires and deserves. There is still a lot of shit going on here in the UK and the world at large but i am trying to just focus on my role as Owners submissive slut and to be less distracted or obsessed by politics and the news. i am still political but i had got the balance wrong and was not focussing enough on Owner or my submission to Her. i feel much happier in myself to being back doing the things Owner expects and deserves to get from me.

i leave you with a gratuitous shot taken today by Owner of me cleaning our kitchen (and yes i am always without panties at the end of the day :) )
Owner expects me to be many things for Her, a domestic diva, a sex kitten, a submissive pet and a multi-tasking ninja. She also expects me to behave and act like slut and whore whenever She requests and to fulfil such requests without question. Over the years She has had me complete a variety of different challenges to demonstrate both my submission to Her and to highlight my readiness to do whatever She asks, no matter how humiliating. It would seem She has decided She has been too easy on me to date and that She wants to push me harder.

Yesterday i suggested to Owner that maybe i could complete a challenge of some description. She quickly and rightly upbraided me by reminding me that it was not my place to suggest things to Her and that my suggesting a challenge automatically makes it non-challenging as i would already be mentally prepared for to complete something. The subject was dropped and i thought no more of it. Owner clearly had though.

Today i was working from home whereas She was in Her office. It wasn't long after i had returned from walking Her to the train station and i had changed into my regulation home working attire (skirt, blouse, stockings etc) that i received a message from Her. The message instructed me to plug my pussy from 10am-12pm. This obviously excited me greatly but there was more, much more to come.

Over a series of follow-up messages Owner instructed me to make a sign stating that my pussy was plugged, put on a jacket but be still be wearing my skirt and stockings etc, pin the sign to the jacket (ensuring the writing was legible), go out into the street outside our flat and take a selfie of myself with the sign clearly visible and send it to Her. The request left me very excited and nervous, for two reasons. First, our street is not the world's quietest. It's on a bus route, there are often people walking along. Second, i also knew that our downstairs neighbours were at home and i had already heard then come in and out of our communal entrance a few times. It would be pot luck whether or not i bumped into them wearing my sign or equally if there would be anyone in the street or passing in a bus etc that might see me.

It was a wonderful challenge to be set. To add a further layer of challenge. i had a morning of teleconferences so i knew that i would have to complete the challenge whilst also on a conference call. Thankfully the wonder of mobile phones made that possible.

Anyway, below are a couple of pictures i took of my challenge. The first shot i took i realised my arm wasn't long enough for the selfie to show i was wearing my skirt, as was part of Owners requirement. i then had to put the camera of the phone on the timer and balance the phone on a neighbours wall to take the second shot. i think you can tell from my face that i was a little apprehensive! :)

where i realise i need longer arms to show my skirt
note the headphones for my teleconference - how nervous am i?
Luckily no buses passed and our downstairs neighbours didn't come outside, but there were people about in the street.

When She set me this challenge Owner also wrote that 'challenges will change from now on'. She seemed pleased with the results i sent Her and i sense such challenges will become more difficult, or 'challenging' (ha, ha!) in future. Though i was apprehensive about completing the challenge it was a real thrill to do. After all at heart i am an exhibitionist slut. Thank you Owner.
Today has been a wonderfully relaxed day at home with Owner. i painted Her toenails and She painted mine, She helped me to choose a dress and heels for a special occasion (more about that in the future). Owner also made popcorn for us both before we sat down to watch a classic femme fatale movie together Bodyheat - which explains the popcorn i later found down my bra! It has been a lovely day.

Meanwhile, Owner has also been putting the new regime, of me having to pick a 'punishment' card at random for a jar in return for being permitted to watch TV with Her, into action. In addition to having to stand facing the wall with my nipples clamped for 20 minutes, and having 10 mini wooden and metal clothes pegs attached to my clitty, i have also enjoyed having my testicles spanked hard ten times by Her with a wooden spoon and had to lie across Her knees for a good old fashioned bare bottom spanking. Move over TV dinners hello TV challenges!
pink cheeks from my over the knee spanking
Just to advise that i have a new story that has just been published on

It is longer than my previous stories, just shy of 100 pages, and tells the story of Terri, a submissive slut who is kept by his Mistress in her house where he serves both her, her 'friend' Hermione and Hermione's partner, Geoff. Each month Terri is given a chance to be released from his state of chastity and be permitted to orgasm, it all depends on the roll of a dice. It has been many years though since Terri was last allowed such a release and this time his Mistress, Hermione and Geoff have a series of challenges and humiliations in store for him that he must complete first.

The book can be purchased by clicking the link on the cover below:
I also have some other short stories that i have written which can be found on my short stories page
Readers will be pleased to learn that the new regime of me having to complete some random challenges/punishments in return for the pleasure of watching TV with Owner has now been instituted. Now when invited to settle down and watch telly alongside Her i must, on occasion, first take a card from a far of punishments/challenges that sits on the coffee table for this very purpose. So far this week i have had to spend twenty minutes stood facing the wall in our bedroom with my nipples clamped with Japanese clover clamps (once the programme had ended) and another time spent the first 10 minutes of the programme kneeling down with my hands on my head and my 'clitty' adorned with ten min-clothes peg clamps - a mix of vicious metal and ordinary wooden pegs.

This is a picture of me watching the start of the new series of 'Stranger Things' in my service apron with my clitty hidden from view but adorned with clamps.
Today i had a rare opportunity to work from home. As it is a Friday Owner permitted me to wear this dress-down outfit
and even to have my pussy plugged for an hour between 9-10am, which was especially fun as i had to insert it mid-teleconference
But the thrills did not end there. Shortly after 10am, and with the plug now removed, the front doorbell rang. i trooped downstairs in my heeled trainers, over-the-knee socks, knickers, skirt, padded bra and top and answered the door (i have long since lost any sense of embarrassment i once had at being seen dressed like this by delivery people). It was a lady who had come to read our gas meter - which is located in a cupboard inside our flat. She followed me back into our flat and up the stairs and along the corridor to the floor cupboard which contains the meter. i opened it for her and she took the reading then left, but not without first making a comment. Guess what she said? It was nothing to do with what i was wearing but rather she said how much she liked the banister we have on our staircase!

i recounted the tale straight after in a text to Owner, who thought the encounter hysterical. i can only assume one of two things. Either, a) the meter reader was quite used to seeing TVs in heels and short skirts or b) our banister really is more noteworthy than i am.

One final thing, Owner recently said two things that made me smile. The first was an observation on Her part that She is sure that my clitty has shrunk. i hope so, it genuinely serves no practical purpose other than as something She can torment and tease. It may be that periods of prolonged chastity and lack of use have helped achieve this i don't know but it also feels to me to be even less present than it was before, it was never much to start with!

Although Owner does enjoy rubbing Herself against it my clitty never actually goes inside Her and has not been allowed in Her for probably close to 9 or 10 years now. Provided there is something there for Her to rub against that is all She needs of it sexually. My nose and my tongue are just as effective in that regard, if not more so in that we both delight in my tongue in Her arse. Her second comment was that whilst my clitty seems to have shrunk my pussy remains as big, elastic and welcoming as ever - which is as things should be :)

Owner and i had my review meeting yesterday, but it was no ordinary meeting. Owner booked us both into a hotel near the Tower of London we stayed at a few years ago, the Apex London City. It is a wonderful hotel and we were upgraded to a junior suite. Owner also suggested that as we were staying close to The Shard it would be fun to go there later in the evening and watch the fireworks over London, it being bonfire weekend, from Europe's tallest building.

Owner had booked the hotel so that we would discuss how She wanted to shape my future development and assess where we were with our Femdom relationship away from any distractions. As it turned out our conversation started in the hotel room and then continued downstairs in the hotel bar and later at the restaurant She had booked for dinner (a delicious Thai place on Tooley St).

We talked, drank. talked and ate and then headed up, up. up to the 72nd floor of the Shard to watch the fireworks. Here are some photos from the evening;

The Shard at night
Tower Bridge and City Hall
The view from the 72nd floor - with a  firework exploding over Alexander Palace
But what of the review outcome? i hear you ask. Well, Owner was very fair. We agreed that this past 12 months has seen my performance and drop-off but there have been a number of mitigating factors. My work has become very busy and i am less able to work from home that i was, we have both been distracted by the political uncertainty in the UK caused by Brexit and Owner has not been well. AS a consequence, neither of us has been able to focus 100%. Life has got in the way.

However, we have agreed that we need to re-focus on my development and that i especially need to perform better but that there also need to be some adjustments made to my routines to recognise that i have less  time available to me than i did. Both of us have also got into the habit of spending evening watching TV series together after dinner - something we rarely ever did in the past, we used to rarely watch TV at all. So from now on, though Owner has said She still wants to watch TV with me and 'chill out' together, in future there will be consequences for me for doing so. Every so often when i sit down with Her i will have to select a punishment at random to be completed for the pleasure of enjoying some relaxed time with Her. These punishments have all been written on cards and placed in a pot on the lounge coffee table and they range from canings, to having multiple clamps attached to my nipples and/or clitty or sitting naked with just knickers on my head on our staircase, and various others to boot.

In fact clamps, in the form of electricians clamps, put in an appearance this morning. After returning to our room after breakfast - which of course Owner chose for me, as She later did my lunch - we headed straight back to bed. Owner soon started to rub Herself against me and soon i found that my clitty and my nipples had electricians clamps attached to them and i was greedily sucking on Owners perfect breasts - my excitement fast growing. Owner then instructed me to lie on my back, She grabbed Her vibrator and then adopted Her favourite (and mine) position. Namely, She straddled my head and whilst She pleasured Herself with Her vibrator i eagerly licked and probed Her anus with my tongue. Owner rode my face this way to a number of climaxes whilst i was granted the opportunity to enjoy the exquisite taste of Her anus. Truly, if their is a food of the Gods that is it (sorry we have been watching a number of Viking series of late!).

However, it soon transpired that Owner had more pleasure in store for me. After satiating Herself on my face She then had me get onto all fours and, with my clitty and nipples still clamped, She proceeded to first fuck my 'pussy' with Her lubed fingers and then inserted a dildo and fuck me with it until i pleaded for permission to cum. It was granted and two seconds later Owner was feeding me a handful of my own mess that She had scooped up from the sheets. It was a wonderful way to start the day!

After showering we then had time to do a quick photo shoot in the hotel room before we checked out and headed off for lunch and then home. We haven't done a weekend away like this in our home city for a while and we both had a wonderful time. Here are some pictures from the photo shoot to end with

For what has felt like the first time in ages i actually got to work from home one day this last week. Thus, i was able to dress up in my usual home working uniform. i can't tell you how much we have both missed it (both Owner and i) but it was lovely to be able to do again. Owner remarked that She too has missed having not Her 'wife' dressed appropriately and working from home lately (even though She has to go into Her office). We had no deliveries or other visitors during the day so i didn't get to parade around in front of others but it was lovely to be back at home dressed appropriately for work. This is what i was wearing, nothing fancy, just one of my office 'uniforms',

i am working from home one day this coming week too and am looking forward to the prospect of dressign appropriately again already. Incidentally, i got my haircut yesterday so it now looks a little shorter than it does in the picture above.

This mornign before breakfast Owner treated me to a wonderful orgasm (i have been out of chastity all summer at Her request). Owner awoke and began to rub Herself against my body, touching and fondling my 'clit' and my 'pussy', caressing my nipples and stripping me out of my nightie. Next She straddled my hips and, placing Her vibrator against Her clitoris, She proceeded to rub Herself against the shaft of my excited little clit until She orgasmed. It was wonderful to lie there and watch Her as She focussed on pleasuring Herself this way. allowing me the opportunity to caress Her breasts at the same time.

After satiating Herself Owner then reversed positions so that She was facing away from me and began to gently beat and strike my clit and then masturbate it whiilst presenting me with Her anus to lick. The opportunity to do this always drives me insane with excitement and arousal and, coupled with the mild clit spanking, it wasnt long before my clit was ready to explode over my belly, which She allowed me to do.

After making breakfast i then set about doing some washing and laundry, changng the bedding and preparing dinner for later. As i did i was conscious that Owner was busy doing somethign in the loubge but did not know what. It soon transpired that She was setting up a meeting with me to formally review our 'Housewife Academy' and how to pick-up and take forward my training again after a period in which things have slipped (see previous posts). But, it is  not any old meeting. She has booked us both into a hotel for the night in a few weeks time so that we will be undisturbed and She can conduct the review of my behaviour, performance and development without distractions.

i will, of course, update you on the outcome of the meeting afterwards. However, in the meantime, it does now feel like we are starting to get back to 'normal' again.
Yesterday was Owner and my 12th anniversary. We celebrated in style, as middle aged couples do, with home-made pizza and ice cream :)

Owner bought me this lovely bracelet as an anniversary gift

She knows how much i love to accessorise and this bracelet joins the other four that i wear all the time, so i now sport three on my right wrist and two on my left.

This weekend we will be going shopping and i am hoping that Owner might let me buy some new clothes.
First, thank you to all of those of you who dropped by to ask if Owner and i were OK. We're both fine thanks and just back from a two week holiday in Denmark (see below for some pictures).

It has been quite some time since i last posted on here and i really apologise for that. Unfortunately, a combination of many things caused this hiatus. We've both been very distracted by other things of late which have been occupying our minds and which have impacted upon our usual lifestyle. The whole Brexit situation in the UK is an ongoing cause of much stress and despondency. We've been protesting against that and hoping against hope the situation reverses as it will bring nothing good with it and directly impacts upon our own future plans as a Spanish/British couple living in London. It has meant that life has become quite political and focused on bigger issues.

In the meantime, though Owner's (frozen) shoulder continues to gradually return to normal it has impacted on Her health in other ways. She is often still in constant pain and discomfort and that, combined with some work issues, has left Her feeling quite down at times. My own work is super busy at the moment with little opportunity to work from home and some long hours and a lot of travel.

As a result of the above i have been much less of the pet Owner deserves that i ought to have been and things have slipped a little on the housewife front. i have also put on some weight.

However, on the positive front. We did get a couple of weekends away in over the summer (Oslo and Bristol) and have just returned from a great two weeks away in Denmark. We also have something very exciting planned for next year - but i am not going to say any more about that for now - you will just have to guess :)

So, once again, apologies all for the long absence and thank you to all of you who took the time to drop us a line asking if we were OK? We're still going strong and still living very much with Owner in charge even if some of my own duties have slipped up of late. Hopefully, we'll be back fully on track again soon.

Meanwhile, here are some pictures from our travels in Central Jutland,Denmark (and see i have put on weight)
Favourite Plastic Coat and Bikini on our Balcony in Denmark

Hello belly!

The temperature in London has been rising these past few days with a mini heatwave and then, last night, spectacular thunderstorms and lightning. The change in the weather mirrored a change in status for yours truly, from locked in chastity to unlocked - and then permitted to cum. On Thursday after work Owner instructed me to remove my chastity device and allow my little clit some time unconstrained in its tight little cage. It was the first time it had been unlocked and allowed out at all since early January. It was quite strange to suddenly be able to see and touch it again.

Needless to say though there was to be no touching of a masturbatory type allowed. Friday passed without incident in my newly released state but then Saturday morning i was awoken with a surprise from Owner. As i lay in a semi-awake (in both ways) state in bed She began to gently fondle and caress me, including caressing my now unlocked clit. Then She took the pair of Japanese clover clamps that always hang from the bed post, for just such a purpose, and clamped my nipples, placed Her knickers over my head with the crutch positioned just under my nose so that i inhaled the sweet scent of Her sex, before taking Her vibrator out of the bedside table drawer, straddling my backside and riding Herself to a battery-powered orgasm. She then turned me over and started to rub Herself up and down along the shaft of my clit whilst continuing to pleasure Herself with Her vibrator. Needless to say, i was soon highly aroused, thrusting my hips up and down and rubbing the shaft of my engorged clit across the entrance to Her sex (i am never under any circumstances permitted to actually enter Her). Owner continued to pleasure Herself with Her vibrator and soon the combination of the sensation of my rubbing myself against Her sex and feeling the vibrations of Her dildo echo through me were too much. i asked for, and was granted, permission to cum and with that ended over nine months of denial. i felt a mixture of emotions when i came, pleasure yes but also a slight disappointment that such a long period of happy denial had come to a sticky end.

With my orgasm returned the unfamiliar state of post-orgasm tiredness and sleepiness on my part, to the extent that it wasn't long before Owner was forced to remark that She was regretting having let me cum at all. It was an off hand remark by Her but part of me wonders whether She might change Her mind and opt to keep me in long-term denial in future. We definitely both agree that i function better when maintained in that state.

It being the weekend also meant that there have been more treats in store for me, namely being handed glasses of Her delicious piss to drink each day. As this is a bank holiday weekend it has also meant i have enjoyed three glasses of Her wonderful nectar rather than the usual two i get on a normal weekend. The glass i had yesterday was particularly noteworthy. It was almost hot to the touch and tasted warm and wonderful. i truly am lucky to be given the opportunity to imbibe glasses of Her wine like this.

As Saturday was a hot day (Owner does not like the heat) we went to the cinema and watched a lovely Finnish film about Syrian asylum seekers called The Other Side of Hope. It is only on a limited release but if it is on near to you we would both recommend it, it is a slow and delightfully observed film with some great comic moments and a hilarious cast of characters. Then yesterday we spent the day in Kew Gardens in London. We last went to Kew over three years ago and it was lovely to go back and spend the day wandering around the gardens and the woods. i even got to complete a little public bra-wearing challenge amongst the floral displays

However, to be honest the biggest challenge i faced that day was going up the treetop walk, a walkway that wends its way around the tops of some of the trees. i am scared of heights and it left me with shaky knees afterwards, especially as the walkway wobbles!
the staircase up to the treetop walk

amongst the treetops
i was quite relieved to be back down on terra firma!

i am also thrilled to report that Owners' frozen shoulder is finally starting to recover. It has been a horrible experience for Her but She has been back working full time for a while now and we have also booked ourselves some holidays (Norway and Denmark) so in the coming months i will hopefully be reporting back on our resumed adventures abroad.

Oh, and one last thing. Owners financial domination of me is now complete. About two weeks ago the process of closing my bank account and transferring everything across into the joint account She controls was completed. It was quite a step to take but one i am really pleased we did. My salary now gets paid direct to this joint account and the only bank account i now have of my own is the one into which my monthly allowance of £100 is transferred. So Owner now controls every aspect of my finances and is free to spend my salary as She chooses, whereas i of course, cannot. This is a major change and one that i would not advise anyone enter into unless they are 100% secure in their relationship but to us it was the next logical extension of Owner's domination and control of me.

Sorry for the lengthy post, there was quite a lot to update on.
Owner seems to be really enjoying some of the recent additions to my training and development. Every Saturday and Sunday She now presents me with a glass of Her delicious urine for me to drink. This weekend She handed me a warm glass to have before my breakfast and today i received a glass mid-morning, just as i was about to commence my exercises. It is interesting how the colour and the character of Her urine differs depending on the time of the day or what She has drunk Herself. i look forward to becoming an expert when it comes to the many vintages She produces.

Owner has also had cause to make use of the new system of 'instant punishments'. Last weekend i posted about how i had been punished for not labelling food in the fridge. i drew a punishment card from the bag and which stated that my nipples had to be clamped and weighted for twenty minutes. The punishments was delivered in the kitchen with me stood facing the wall. Well, i am afraid Owner had cause to insist that i take another card today. i had been over-zealous with the use of bleach when cleaning the bathroom and made the flat smell of bleach. This time the card i drew stated i was to be spanked 40 times on my testicles. Owner administered the punishment in the bedroom, striking my exposed bits hard and painfully. But it was soon over. She then took this picture of the wooden spoon She used resting against my still throbbing bits, and then added a creative touch to it. i love the final result

Owner also received a promotion at work recently and successfully passed a course She attended, and which She had been very stressed about. i am incredibly proud of what She has achieved. She really is an inspiration.
Owner will often remind me that i am an extremely lucky submissive. When She says this She means that there are many things that She allows me to do which another, stricter dominant might not. She is of course correct. Owner regularly gives me little treats or surprises that She knows i will enjoy. This weekend i have been especially lucky in that regard.

Yesterday was the final of the Eurovision song contest, an event i always look forward to watching. Owner finds the whole show a bit of a waste of time but She knows that it is a show that i enjoy and thus it has become something of an annual fixture in our household, with us both sitting down together to watch it as a treat for me. This year Owner surprised me by not simply permitting me to watch the show but also suggesting that we go to the pub beforehand and then come home and watch the show. And so it was we spent a few happy hours having a few drinks and gossipping and people watching before returning to watch the spectacle on TV. The song i hoped might win, Belgium's entry, did not but congratulations to Portugal for a deserved success.

The treats continued today when Owner permitted me to undertake another of my favourite activities, namely take a trip to our local garden centre and buy some plants. If left to my own devices, something that will obviously never happen, i could spend all day in garden centres and spend a small fortune. Owner ensures this doesn't happen but She does permit me the occasional supervised foray to go with Her to get some plants. However, i am only permitted to get the ones She chooses.

So, as you can see i have been having quite a weekend of treats. We have also started our new routine of me drinking a glass of Owners wonderful urine each day at the weekend. The glass i was given by Owner this morning was full of Her warm amber wine. For some reason i am always left feeling aroused when i drink a glass of Her piss, it is wonderful stuff.

However, Owner is also quick to chastise or reprimand me when i do things wrong and today She unfortunately had cause to administer one of Her new 'instant punishments'. i had just got out of the shower when She came in and demanded to know why i hadn't labelled the date i had placed a half-finished packet of halloumi cheese into a container in the fridge. i was instructed to pick a punishment from the punishment bag that now hangs from our fridge door. The card i took out stated that i was to stand for twenty minutes facing the wall with my nipples clamped and weighted. So this was how i spent twenty minutes of my day today. My nipples were quite sensitive afterwards!
nipples tweezer clamped and weighted
Stood facing the wall for my punishment, the punishment bag is the small red bag hanging to my left

This afternoon Owner and i had one of our regular reviews of my ongoing training and development. Readers may recall that Owner has developed a programme for me which She calls Her housewife Academy. This is divided into four broad training and development areas encompassing:
  • Domestic diva
  • Sex kitten
  • Submissive pet
  • Multi-tasking ninja
i am given goals to achieve under each category and, when these have either been successfully completed or incorporated into my daily life (where they require an ongoing and permanent change) new ones are added until these too have been completed, and so on and so on. Anyway, today Owner agreed that sufficient progress had been made to warrant some new additions to my learning and development.

As of today i have, therefore, had the following added;

Domestic Diva
  • research a sewing project for our flat that i could complete if i am permitted to purchase a sewing machine, now that i have completed a course on learning to use sewing machines.
  • do an audit of our houseplants and remove ones that are not looking too good and tidy up the plants we have outside
Sex Kitten
  • Drink a glass of Owners urine once a day at weekends
Submissive Pet
  • Restrict my coffee intake by only being permitted to drink coffee in the morning and to have a single one straight after lunch (this afternoon coffee to be removed over time i.e. so that i will only be permitted coffees in the morning)
  • Initiate a system of 'on the spot' punishments for any transgressions - Owner has written out a series of punishment cards (about 20 of them) which She has placed into a bag. Whenever i do something wrong i will have to take a card from the bag and complete the punishment on the card. These range from canings, standing facing the wall to being clamped on my nipples, having mini metal clothes pegs attached to my testes or adopting the plank position and combinations thereof.
Multi-Tasking Ninja
  •  Three times a week to only be permitted to read or listen to Spanish magazines or websites on my tablet in bed to improve my Spanish and create a log of all that i have read/listened to.
Hopefully i will soon have either completed or have sufficiently incorporated the above into daily life for further tasks or activities to be added. This is how Owner trains me to become Her ideal submissive wife, adding new restrictions or challenges or tasks to complete, waiting until they have been done or normalised into our relationship and then adding new ones.

Meanwhile, my testicles still throb exquisitely from the spanking they received this morning. Today has been a good day :).
This morning Owner woke me by gently caressing and stroking my body through my babydoll as we lay curled up together in bed. She focused Her caresses between my buttocks and on my nipples, quickly exciting and arousing me. i slipped my shoulder straps off to afford Her full access to my breasts and we lay together for a while with Her stroking and caressing me.

Next She turned Her attention to my locked clitty. Owner began to spank my exposed testes with the flat of Her hand, starting gently but then striking harder and harder. i adore being spanked in this way and for a few years now it has been the only method by which i am permitted to orgasm ie. through Her spanking my bits hard until the painful pleasure becomes too great and i erupt. Not this time though. It's now been well over eight months since i last had an orgasm and the last five of these have been spent locked 24/7 in chastity. Not that i am complaining i hasten to add, i actually love being kept locked and denied. No this time Owner had no plans to permit me to cum, just to make me frustratingly aroused before switching the focus to Her pleasure.

For a few minutes She repeatedly struck my vulnerable and exposed 'labia' and i felt my little clit swell and throb inside the confines of its cage. However, before my excitement became too great She stopped and instead gagged my mouth and clamped my nipples before rolling me over onto my stomach. She then removed Her knickers and placed them over my head, ensuring that the moist and aromatic fabric of the crutch was positioned just under my nose so that i might fully appreciate the scent of Her sex. Then She straddled my buttocks, took out Her favourite vibrator and rode Herself to an orgasm, grinding Herself against me as i lay helpless beneath Her, listening to Her moment of ecstasy whilst i was highly aroused but firmly locked and denied.

It is Owners decision as to whether, when or, indeed, if i will be permitted to orgasm again and/or be unlocked from chastity. We both agree that my behaviour and performance is enhanced by chastity and i personally love to be kept locked up this way. This is now by far the longest period i have gone being locked and denied, i would love for it to become the norm but that is Owners decision to make not mine. For now i am just enjoying the afterglow of Her attention this morning and the pleasure i get from knowing that She obtained the pleasure She deserves.
Yesterday i had the second of the two sewing machine lessons that Owner had instructed me to enrol onto. Like the previous lesson this was an all day session held at a lovely place in East London called  Fabrications. Once again, i was the only non-female in the class. In this lesson we learnt how to attach zips and make button holes using sewing machines and also how to create a lined edge. In the afternoon we had a choice of making either a pair of shorts or a skirt, i chose a skirt.

Owner had permitted me to buy some fabric so i was able to choose a nice black and white one from the shop to make my skirt out of. The tutor showed me some examples of different styles of skirts i could attempt to make and i chose a less fitted design that i said i wanted to come to just above my knee. She then measured me to get the correct sizes and i was off. The first stage was to cut the fabric into two equal lengths. However, it took me a while as the fabric i had chosen was heavily patterned and i wanted to ensure that the patterns aligned on the finished product, i know Owner has an eye for such things and didn't want to disappoint Her.

Next, it was back to the machine and beginning the process of sewing the skirt together, creating the gathers and fitting the zip etc. i confess i made a number of errors and actually broke the sewing machine needle twice by running it over the zip! However, i eventually, with a lot of help from the tutor, succeeded in assembling my skirt to a point where it was almost ready to wear. She had me put the unfinished skirt on a few times to check it would fit as the skirt slowly came together. However, time passed and it was starting to get late. i was due to meet Owner for dinner and had to leave before the skirt was 100% finished in order to make my rendezvous with Owner who was taking me out for dinner and cocktails! As a result the final fitting of the side poppers on the skirt had to wait until the next day at home.

This morning i attached the popper fastenings and hey presto! What the tutor had described as my '1950's housewife' skirt was finally complete. It is far, far from perfect but i am still quite proud of my first attempt at making a garment on a sewing machine. Owner would like me to put my new found sewing skills to good and so shortly i have been permitted to buy a machine to have at home where i can practice making, decorating and repairing more items - just as She would like Her housewife to be able to.

Let me know what you think of my creation.

Modelling the skirt skirt i made

Attaching the poppers to my skirt back at home
i am lucky in that my work gives me more days of annual leave a year than does Owners' employer, ten days more to be precise. As befitting Owners' submissive housewife it has now been long established that i should use these additional days of leave constructively, such as by attending courses or some such useful activity. Well, this week i have been enjoying a whole week off from work - a week that i have mostly spent up a ladder painting our flat. i confess to being pretty hopeless when it comes to most types of DIY but i can just about cope with painting and decorating. And so this is what i have been doing all week.

Owner took this picture of me 'in action' - do you like my shower hat and glamorous decorators attire? :)

Once everything has been painted i will have provided a canvas of sorts for Owner to then decide what pictures or ornaments (if any) will go on display. All decisions relating to how our flat is decorated are made by Her alone.

i also had another job to do this week, namely to begin the process of closing down my bank account to enable Owner to exercise total financial control over me. The lady i saw in the bank was incredibly helpful in getting everything set-up so that come the middle of next month i will no longer have my own separate bank account and my salary will instead be paid direct to the joint account that Owner manages for us both. The reality has been that for over a year i have had only limited access to my own bank account anyway, Owner retained my bank card and i needed Her permission to spend money from it. But, the account still existed, as it has done since i was sixteen years old, in my name as my own bank account. In a few weeks time that will no longer be the case, ten account will close and Owners financial control will become complete. Though it felt somewhat like the end of an era to begin the process of closing it down and with it to make formal the end of my financial independence it also feels right and proper.

As of the middle of next month Owner will take total control of me financially. It feels oddly liberating and exciting to voluntarily enter into a state of financial dependence on Her. She will continue to set aside a small proportion of my salary each month for me to spend (currently this is set at £100 a month but She has stated She will review this -it could go down) as a monthly allowance that is transferred into a separate account that we set up just over a year ago for just this purpise, so that i have access to a bank card. My salary, except money that is set aside for my savings each month, will in effect become Hers to spend as She sees fit. It's quite a step to enter into but it is a good one.
So today i had the first of my two days of training to learn how to use a sewing machine. It was an all day introduction to using a sewing machine course which Owner had found for me so that i might learn another useful skill as Her housewife. There were eight of us on the course plus the tutor, i was the only non-female.

During today's lesson we learnt how to thread and operate a sewing machine and the various different types of stitches that can be created. We were then taught how to sew a simple item, i sewed this tote bag which i am really rather pleased with. i cut out the materials and did all of the sewing myself, albeit with the help of the tutor.

Owner was impressed when i showed Her the results of my efforts when i got home.

Next weekend we move onto some more advanced skills, such as fitting zips and buttons and then we all get to make some either a pair of shorts or a skirt. Guess which i will be choosing!:) The course really was fun and i think i am starting to learn a new skill that may come in use, especially if i am permitted to invest in a sewing machine.

Talking of money, tomorrow i go to the bank to start the process of transferring my finances across so that they are under Owners control. As Owner's domination of me deepens,hopefully my skills as a Her housewife will continue to increase.
Owner and i are both really enjoying the long Easter weekend. After going for a woodland walk on Friday yesterday saw us at the movies to watch 'The Handmaiden', a film adaptation of the book 'Fingersmith'. The film really is well worth seeing. Afterwards we went to one of our local pubs and Owner let me have some alcoholic drinks.

Today we headed west by train to a part of London little explored by either of us. Our destination was Strawberry Hill House, former home  Horace Walpole and the birthplace of the Gothic literary genre. He wrote 'The Castle of Ontranto' there, regarded as being the first Gothic novel. The house has been largely restored and is well worth a visit.

Channelling the disco spirit in Horace Walpole's Strawberry Hill House

Strawberry Hill House and Grounds

On the train journey home Owner treated me to carresses of my chastised 'clitty' and repeatededly spanked my testes through the fabric of my jeans. i sat on the seat in the carriage with my legs spread wide open to afford Owner an easier target and 'enjoyed' the feeling of being left excited and aroused by Her as i watched London pass by out of the window. Needless to say it was a wonderful, albeit frustrating, journey and one i did not want to end!

Yesterday was also quite a big day in terms of Owners control over me and its further strengthening. For just over a year now i have not been permitted access to my main current account bank card without asking first asking Owner for permission to use them. Instead, we created a new account with a different bank into which i transfer a set amount each month (£100) which was to be my allowance for the month. This system worked well but it still meant that Owner had only partial control of my finances, i still maintained a separate bank account which my salary was paid into, albeit an account i needed Her permission to access.

Anyway, as of next month i will be closing that main account of mine down. Instead, my salary will be paid direct into the joint account Owner and i already have so that She can control and use the money accordingly. i will be restricted to accessing ans spending  just my 'allowance' monthly allowance, whatever She determines that to be in future, except for household purchases such as food etc which will come out of the 'joint' account. This way Owner will now have full access to, and control over, the money i earn and can completely control and monitor my expenditure. i am really pleased at the prospect of this new arrangement and of Owner exercising such a degree of financial control over me.

i should add a health warning to anyone reading this who is considering having their partner take total control of their finances. i have known Owner many years and we have complete trust in each other. I will also still have a separate account for my savings and will continue to pay into that. Neither of us would suggest entering into a financial control arrangement such as the one we are unless you are completely sure of things with your partner and have some form of independent finances you could still access if everything goes wrong between you both.
Sometimes it is only when you look back that you see how far you have travelled. It is certainly the case that with Owner and i, and specifically with the nature of our Female-led relationship and my submission to Her, we have indeed journeyed a long way.

Anyone who has followed this little blog of ours over the years will know by now that our story began just over twelve years ago when we met each other for the first time online. We were both emerging out of divorces and looking for new friends and companions. Neither of us was looking for romance. After getting to know one another in cyberspace we met for the first time in May 2005 at Bond Street tube station and went for lunch to a pizza restaurant, we still go to that same restaurant on the same day every year. For months we were 'just friends' until one day in October that same year Owner, bored of waiting, kissed me in London's Charing Cross station. We have been together ever since.

However, at first ours was very vanilla relationship. That changed when i nervously wrote Owner a letter inviting Owner to move in with me and asking to be allowed to submit to Her and for Her to dominate me (or words to that affect). To my delight She said yes.

Those first few years we played a lot and tried many different approaches before we found an approach that worked for us as a couple whereby i could truly began to fully submit to Owner. In those same years we also started to experiment with 'forced feminisation'. Once opened that particular Pandora proved impossible to go back into its box, and i am eternally thankful to Owner that She took my 'unlocked' femininity in Her stride.

We are now in a place where i live my life in a way that i could never have dreamt would be possible all those years ago and we do so in a way that is not a game that we dip in and out of, we live this 24/7 365 days a year. Owner is not your fantasy dominant wielding a whip and wearing heels. She is most likely to be found at home in a pair of tracksuit bottoms and slippers and spending Her time reading or researching something or other whilst i try to busy myself around the flat. If there was a live webcam of us it would most likely be as thrilling as watching paint dry much of the time, we live much as i imagine many other couples do, except that Owner is 100% in charge.

So what, you might ask, does that mean? Well, in case you are reading this blog looking for ideas of how you too could submit to your better half and what such a relationship might practically consist of (as we both spent years researching ourselves online and in forums when we first set out) then here are some examples of what my submission to Owner and Her domination of me looks like on a daily basis;
  • i prepare all our meals (breakfast, lunch and dinner), i bake and i try to offer Owner meal choices - incidentally Owner is a great cook and She does occasionally cook 
  • i am responsible for all grocery and household shopping and for ensuring we are fully provisioned and keep a track of what needs using/replacing (i do not always get this right and am punished if and when i cock-up)
  • i do all the household cleaning (i have a daily rota), clothes washing and ironing etc
  • i am encouraged to learn new and practical skills and sometimes get sent on courses to learn - for examples so far courses i have completed have included massage, manicure, flower arranging, knitting etc
  • the flat is decorated etc entirely according to Owners taste, we disposed of the things i once owned and i no longer have any possessions
  • i may only purchase clothes that Owner approves of, must seek Her approval for what i can wear on weekdays and She chooses what i wear at weekends
  • Owner controls my finances. i still have my own bank account but need Her permission to use that bank card, instead i have a separate account in which my monthly allowance of £100 is transferred - this is to cover my monthly costs (minus travel which is not included)
  • i have no say in what i eat when we go out, Owner chooses my meals for me and will tell me whether or not i am permitted an alcoholic drink
  • my social media access is restricted to stop me time wasting
  • i am encouraged to use my free time constructively i.e. to learn new skills, practice my Spanish (Owner is Spanish) etc
  • i must never under any circumstances initiate sex, my role is that of Owners sex toy to be used if and when She chooses.
  • Owner and i last had 'tradional' i.e. me penetrating Her sex, over eight years ago. She can and does penetrate me and is in control of whether or not i am permitted to orgasm. i last orgasmed over 8 months ago and am regularly locked in chastity, this year i have been locked without release since the 10th January.
  • i have been collared for most of our time together, i wear a metal 'public' collar all day (including at work) and at home also wear a leather collar and cuffs connected by a chain.
  • Owner has supported my feminisation and i have been allowed to become increasingly feminine over the years. i now wear make-up daily (including to work) my wardrobe is entirely made-up of women's clothes and i am allowed to wear a bra, including a padded bra, on certain days
  • i have a 'smock uniform' that i am expected to wear at home when cleaning, when i work from home i dress like a slightly saucy female secretary and can dress more illiberally for 'dress down Fridays' when i work from home. i am now accustomed to taking deliveries, talking to our neighbour etc wearing stockings and skirts (whether they are or not is another matter!)
  • Owner makes all decisions. She decides where and when we go on holiday, what furniture we need, what we will do for the weekend etc. She does, however, expect and encourage me to provide Her with suggestions but the actual decision is Hers alone.
So, as you can see, there are many and varied ways in which i submit to Owner and She dominates me. i am Her housewife and Her sex toy. ours is not a Femdom relationship we dip in and out of, it IS our relationship and we live it everyday. Yes, there are times when things slip-up or when life gets in the way, but i would say we have got to a point where Her domination and my submission is the norm and it covers all aspects of our life together.

None of this would be possible were it not for the fact that Owner and i are best friends and love each other deeply. Her domination and my submission is built from an already strong relationship where we talk and share and communicate openly with each other. It has strong foundations from which we are building a strong Femdom/FLR frame.

So, why have i entitled this post 'The View From The Foothills'? Because, ours is a journey and we keep evolving, strengthening and deepening Owners domination of me and my submission to Her. i hope, and we strive, to keep strenghtening it further. As a professional trainer in real life Owner knows that i can sometimes get carried away and have unrealistic hopes/fantasies about what might be possible for us. Her style is gradual, to slowly, incrementally change and increase so that i normalise and get used to a new reality before the screw tightens a little further. She is an expert and highly adept at knowing how to have me sustainably submit completely to Her in a way that becomes embedded and lasts. We have, i hope many, many more years of growth and development still ahead of us, there are beautiful mountain peaks i would one day long to scale, we have come a long way but there is much fun to be had on the path ahead.
Owner and i went for a walk in one of South London's myriad woods. We took some sandwiches and snacks with us for nourishment. We had a lovely spring walk observing all of the trees coming into leaf and seeing birds foraging and building nests.

But what was missing from this scene was the sight of a nearly naked (i can't believe i forgot to take my socks off!) submissive hiding in the undergrowth wearing just their bra and a butt plug with a furry tail attached. That was until Owner spotted one of these strangely ellusive creatures and was able to take a quick photo as it took cover inside a natural bower

Spotted and flushed from in its lair and out into the open woodland the beast threw on a jacket to protect its modesty and posed for a quick photo
Before it fled down the path and into the depths of the wood beyond :)

We hope everyone had as fun a start to the long weekend as we had in the woods this morning.
The weekend of the 1st April was Owners actual birthday. For Her present i bought Her some earrings and  took Her out to celebrate with a birthday meal at a gluten-free restaurant in Central London we haven't visited before. We had a very enjoyable evening. The second part of my present to Her was a return visit to the Bermondsey Square hotel and its private rooftop hot-tub (which is where Owner took me for my birthday a few months previously). The weather in London was glorious and we got to lounge around in the hot tub once again enjoying the views of this great city. i even got to get in a bit of  sunbathing as well on the terrace outside our room.

Although the hotel visit was part of my treat to Owner She also used it to give me some treats of Her own. This morning She administered the most wonderful of clit-spankings and nipple tormenting which left me highly aroused and wonderfully frustrated (i have now spent a glorious 4 months being locked up 24/7).

Owner also used the opportunity to take dome pictures of me, with me very happy indeed to pose as Her muse (i am a complete tart when it comes to Owner and Her camera). i really liked posing for this 'Athena' style picture of me with my butt plug in place looking out from the hotel balcony.
Locked and plugged and very, very happy

 Owner permitted me to buy a new bra the other week from Little Women (our favourite shop for bras for me) the photos.

New 'Heidi' bra from Little Women

 In fact, She took so many pictures of me posing just in the bra that Her phone created this little GIF of me, which we hope you enjoy

In the meantime, in addition to the sewing course which Owner had me enrol on, and which starts later this month, She also instructed me to enrol on some Spanish evening classes. My first session starts on Tuesday.

Owner also stated that She thinks (correctly) that my life is too easy and that She will be looking for additional ways to deepen Her domination of me and make my life less relaxed. i really welcome Her taking such an active interest in further extending Her control and domination of me and know that, in doing so, it makes me a better and more useful person for Her. One day i hope to get to a point where Her control of me is absolute and each step we take closer towards that point the happier it makes me. The latest small example of this is that although i already needed to seek Her permission before i could post anything to facebook (where my/our vanilla life plays out) Owner has now stated that from now on i will also be restricted posting a maximum of two posts per week. She has also begun to research ways to deepen Her control over my finances.

With each turn of the domination screw by Her the more complete and fulfilled She makes my life. here was a moment today in the hot-tub when, thanks to the buoyancy afforded to our bodies when in water, She was able to cradle me in Her arms like a child with my cheek nuzzled against the small of Her neck. It was such a perfect little moment and one which felt physically how i feel emotionally all the time with Her, that is to say loved, cherished and nurtured and this feeling deepens and strengthens with each passing year and as Her control of me becomes more total.

Gracias mi amor.