Challenge, Punishment and Weekly Tasks Overhaul

My wonderful Owner has determined that it is time to refresh and update all of my weekly tasks and maintenance punishments as well as my monthly outdoor challenge. Doing so will help me with my development through; the further removal of my inhibitions, embracing being publicly humiliated, boosting my ability to accept and endure pain and being treated by Owner as the slut that i am.

i am really excited at the changes that Owner has instigated, starting from this week, and i hope to show Her what an obedient, pain enduring, piss drinking, exhibitionist little slut i truly am. i hope that these new requirements and expectations of me will help with my continued training, development and evolution.

The first of the changes is that, in addition to my weekly maintenance disciplining using a crop, whip, paddle, cane etc i can also expect to be routinely electrocuted every Friday at the same time. Owner has advised me that She will be increasing the severity and intensity of the weekly maintenance punishments that She administers to me and combining these with electrocuting me.

Owner has also updated the set of weekly tasks that i have to complete (they are randomly selected each week). They now also include tasks such as being seen in public (our local park) with the words SLUT written on my face, being face-fucked by Her, extended corner time (45 mins) whilst naked and clamped on my nipples, wearing Her used knickers on my over my head in the park, drinking Her piss in the street etc, etc.

This week Owner observed me fellating Her newest dildo for 5 minutes then on Friday i will be working from home wearing just a corset.

fellating Owners new dildo

Regrettably i was unable to fully deep-throat the dildo as we had only just eaten dinner. For those that have never tried to deep-throat a cock my top tip is to try and avoid doing so if you have just eaten or else it may be more than cock you end up gagging on :)

The final set of cards that Owner updated were the monthly outdoor challenge cards. Regular readers will know that on the 16th of each month i have to roll two dice, one that decides a location and the second an outfit to wear. i then have to pose in said outfit and location and provide photographic evidence to Owner. They are fun to do and have helped me to learn to become more comfortable and confident about dressing or behaving sluttily in public, a key component of my continued development as Owners submissive slut.

However, after a few years with the same possible combination of outcomes Owner decided it was time for a refresh. Accordingly, She has loaded a completely new set of locations to the dice and also changed the requirements for the outfit to be worn. Now, with one exception, She has taken a more thematic approach leaving it down to me to interpret and implement Her instruction in a way that meets with Her approval. This new outdoor challenge regime will kick-off on the 16th December then repeat on the same day of the month thereon after.

The new locations added to the dice are as follows:

• the cafe in our local park
• inside the local supermarket
• outside the cafe at the railway station
• at the local Docklands Light Railway station
• at a bus stop about 10/15 minutes walk away (in an area i have never previously completed such challenges in)
• by the roadside under a railway bridge leading to a large new housing development

All of these locations, including the road under the railway bridge, have one thing in common. They are very well used and frequented by many, many people. In short, i am likely to always have an audience for my challenges.

In terms of the outfits that i will have to wear, the second dice will decide whether it is:

• the cheerleader outfit i wore at Halloween (minus the fake blood)

or one of the following options which will be for me to interpret on the day:

• corset and jeans
• office attire (formal)
• pretty in pink 
• mini skirt and hooded top
• shorts and bikini top

i am already nervously anticipating what December 16th might bring? Buying groceries in winter wearing a bikini top and shorts, 'cheering' on commuters, touting for custom in mini skirt?? What interesting times lie ahead!

In other news, yesterday Owner took me out to dinner after work followed by attending a wonderful lecture by Professor Alice Roberts at the Adelphi Theatre in London. Professor Roberts was promoting her latest book 'Domination'  (no not that type of domination) whose central thesis is that, the Roman Empire actually morphed into and became the Christian church. It was an interesting, well researched and compelling lecture.

Lastly, the temperatures have finally dropped in London (it is 4 degrees Celsius today) so last night whilst we were out Owner also bought me a lovely new pair of 'bootie'-style slippers. They are super comfortable and keep my feet nice and warm. I am not sure, however, that my wonderful fellow blogger billie or  Madam Alice would approve (you will have to follow the link to see what i mean)

new slippers

April Be Gone

Well, what a frustrating month April has been. Don't get me wrong, nothing awful happened, it is just that Owner and i have ended up spending far too long apart and some of my usual activities have gone to pot.

We both spend some time in Spain together for Easter but then Owner stayed on for an additional week to catch-up with friends and family (whilst working from Her parents apartment) whereas i had to return home to work. This was quickly followed by me disappearing down to Devon in the West of England to help my Dad get set-up to move into a new retirement flat. However, for various reasons i ended up needing to head west again this week to help him out a bit more. So i was down in Devon, hundreds of miles away from Owner in London.

The good news is that throughout this period i have kept-up with both my daily Spanish studies and also my daily exercise regime, not that the latter seems to yet have had any noticeable impact upon my waistline! i can also truthfully report that all the time i was at home, including whilst Owner was away, i kept up with all of my daily cleaning tasks and chores. i even managed to get one of the outstanding bigger jobs finished that Owner had set for me, namely to overhaul our little 'garden' at the front of our building.

the 'garden' mid-overhaul

It also goes without saying that i have been in chastity throughout (i actually can't remember when i was last out of chastity - i think it was sometime late spring/early summer '22).

However, our routine of weekly canings/beatings haven't happened, and these normally happen each week irrespective of whether or not i have done anything 'wrong' - they are just a physical reminder that Owner is in charge.  i also have not been tasked with any weekday activities or challenges to complete. On the plus side, it has been weeks since i was last zapped or tortured with one of Her electrical devices :)

The good news though is that normality should now be returning. Touch wood i will not have to unexpectedly dash off to Devon and although we have some time abroad coming up, Berlin and then Finland, both are trips we are taking together rather than apart. In fact, both promise to be great fun.

In addition, this past month has shown that even when outside life and demands intervene and intrude, as inevitably at times they do, i can still maintain my core routines of household tasks, study and exercise that help me to become a better wife to Owner. In fact as a little sign from Her of appreciation for me last night She took me out for some drinks in a local bar to help me unwind and relax from what has been quite a stressful period trying to sort things out for my dad.

the first of a few pints of cider and rum and cokes (for Owner) last night

Oh and Owner also gifted me a glass of Her finest beverage for breakfast last weekend

me with my favourite drink - Owners piss

So, farewell April. It is almost time for you to bow out and then for us to say hello to May and to adventures in Berlin and then in Finland which are to come.

Ouch

Owner had a nasty little accident today. Unfortunately, She inadvertently placed Her had onto a hot hob whilst i was out at the hairdressers, burning the palm of Her hand and Her fingers. i have been acting as her 'nurse' during the day and i am pleased to report that Her burn seems less serious than we first feared so hopefully it will heal without any scarring. In the meantime She has continued to supervise me as i have gone about my tasks today (cleaning the kitchen and the floors). 

As i was cleaning during the daytime i wore my new longer black cleaning apron. It is perfect for daytime chores, especially if we are expecting deliveries, as it means that i can still go down and take delivery of parcels or put out the rubbish etc wearing it whilst concealing the fact that, underneath i am wearing no knickers. Owner likes to have ready access to me when i am cleaning and the outfits that i wear in the evening to do my chores barely cover my backside. They are too short even by my slutty standards to be wearing when greeting strangers at the door. The black cleaning dress is perfect, however. Today i wore it to take out the rubbish and also wore it when receiving two separate amazon deliveries that Owner had placed, all of this i could do without flashing my chastised clitty or my naked backside to an unsuspecting delivery driver! In case you think i only ever wear my uniforms for effect, here is an 'action' photo taken as i was mopping our kitchen floor.

Come the evening i changed back into a much shorter uniform (which i am wearing as i type). These leave nothing to the imagination and so are only worn in the evening as, by that time, the chance of an expected or unexpected knock on the door has diminished somewhat.

Talking of 'action' photos Owner also took this picture of me as i was doing my daily exercises whilst She rested on the sofa with Her burnt hand. 

Although She was forced to take things easy today this did not stop Owner from devising a new means for Her to ensure that i stick to my daily etc domestic tasks and to also re-introduce a random series of painful or challenging predicaments for me to endure whilst completing them. She has ordered a magnetic wipe clean weekly planner to go on the fridge which i will need to update daily, stating the date and time i completed each scheduled chore/task that day, to then be wiped clean and re-set at the end of the week. 

To this planner will also be added details of the additional 'extra' i will need to do whilst completing these chores. These will be determined each week by a roll of Owners dice. Owner has decreed that i will first need to roll a dice that determines how many days each week (up to a maximum of six) i will need to add the extra predicament when completing a chore and then an extra dice which will determine the nature of these predicaments. Owner is still deciding what these will be but in the past they have involved things like having to wear weighted nipple clamps or a butt plug etc when completing that days tasks. i will have to wait to hear what 'predicaments' Owner chooses to load the dice with. We will be starting this new weekly planner/dice combination the week after next.

Ice Cold In London

Owner has not been well the past week and so She has not yet had an opportunity to take Her new strapon (see previous post) for a test 'ride'. i have been doing my best to try and look after Her and the good news is that She does seem to be starting to recover. However, although not feeling well Owner took the opportunity to complete Her review of my recent performance which in general She has stated She is happy with. However, obviously there are also aspects that need improvement and this in-turn led onto the following additional list of activities/actions that Owner expects from me, specifically;

• i am expected to preform or undertake more random 'tasks/challenges' which Owner will directly or indirectly instruct me to complete in Her presence or on my own. If the latter Owner will require video evidence that i have completed the task/challenge as instructed by Her
• i am to compose a new sentence in Spanish each day and write it up for Her on our kitchen blackboard for Her to check
• now that i am working more and more from home i am to commence a new daily exercise regime to keep fit with Owner specifying what exercises She would like me to do and to start doing joint exercises with Owner
• i am to re-instate my old greeting ritual to greet Owner when i am working from home and She returns from work (it had been suspended a year ago because of concerns about my back)
• i am to produce a monthly review for Owner highlighting areas where i feel i have done well over the past month and areas in which i feel i need to further improve or have performed badly
• i am to incorporate dildo/toy cleaning into my cleaning rota to make sure they are always kept dust free and spotless

i am very grateful to Owner for having set out some additional ways in which i can improve.

This week has also been a bitterly cold one in London (as has also been the case across much of the UK and Northern Europe). However, always one to spot an opportunity the return of winter provided Owner with an opportunity to have me undertake another park challenge. This time i was to accompany Owner to our local park naked save for my chastity device, suspenders and over-the-knee socks, winter coat and woolly hat. When there i was to attach nipple clamps and then walk around the park with Owner whilst my titties were clamped and pert (a fact heightened by the icy blast that wafted up from the bottom of the jacket) before removing them after one circuit had been completed and returning home with Owner. Here i am getting ready to head out:

and then in the park;

ever the exhibitionist little tart!

New Duties and Behaviours List

As promised Owner has presented me with Her list of additional and updated duties and behaviours for me to follow. Some of the things Owner has cited are a response to my own failings, such as my having not studied my Spanish fot a long time and consequently getting very rusty. Others are new and some are ones we have discussed between ourselves, such as having my internet usage restrited to a maximum of an hour a day (the amount of time my laptop holds its charge when unplugged) so that i can concentrate on my domestic duties. i am delighted to have received the list and i hope that it will serve to continue my training by Owner as we further extend our 24/7 relationship. For the curious amongst you the list i received is as follows;

Daily

• internet usage restricted to one hour per day on week days (in one chunk or small bits but totalling no more than one hour) - time spent instead doing useful things like researching new recipes, revising Spanish, cleaning, baking or playing with Owner.
• attach nipple clamps when Owner goes into shower in morning, Owner will remove later when She leaves for work
• mop bathroom after all showers and put bath mat to dry

Weekly

• check fridge once a week and clean as necessary, remove any foodstuffs past use by date and add to shopping list what is needed
• practice 1 hour of Spanish conversation once a week with Owner or watch Spanish TV series
• on Mondays wear no knickers at home or at work
• nipple clamp torture once a week
• change towels and bathmat once a week

Monthly

• prepare at least one performance a month at a time to suit Owner
• complete at least one challenge a month which Owner will schedule
• make sure wardrobe is tidy and recycle any clothes that don't fit
• try at least one new recipe a month

Others

• wear feminine vests underneath clothes during winter to keep warm
• create a recipe database of Owners favourite recipes
• research fetish events and activities that Owner and i can attend
• when working from home insert butt plug and remove knickers at least one hour before Owners arrival

It's a great list and though there are some challenges in there i am determined to do Owner proud and thank Her for taking the time to compile the list.

Meanwhile, Owner has found yet more things about the flat with which to stretch my nipples, this time a camera and mobile phone

Additional domestic duties

Owner has advised me that i will get the results of my tests tomorrow so i shall just have to wait a little longer. As She has rightly reminded me, i need to be patient....not something i'm that good at being!

However, i am trying to use this time constructively and a train journey to Sheffield today for an utterly pointless work meeting provided an opportunity to come up with some additional duties that i could incorporate into my daily routine. The things i came up with are as follows;

1 - To prepare Owners toothbrush each morning and night to ensure it has toothpaste on it ready for Her to use.
2 - To bring Owner the cordless telephone each evening so that She might make Her calls without having to get up to find the phone. Then for me to replace the phone in its charge at the end of the evening.
3 - When at home to always be the one who answers the door for deliveries, meter readers etc, irrespective of what i am wearing, how much make-up i have on etc at the time.
4 - To provide Owner with a nightly foot bath/soak in addition to Her nightly foot massage.
5 -To be responsible for ensuing Owner is kept constantly supplied with Her favourite moisturisers etc (incidentally these are 'La Source' from Crabtree and Evelyn... in case you're wondering!)
6 - Likewise to ensure Owner is always supplied with other products She regularly uses and is never left in a situation when these have run-out at home.
7 - At restaurants to always pull out Owners chair for Her to sit down before sitting down myself.

i've shown the above suggestions to Owner and She seems to like them so now i shall have to start remembering to put the into practice and/or incorporate them into my routine as appropriate.

A Day In The Life....

When Owner first moved in with me, almost two years ago now, we quickly both realised that neither of us wanted a 'normal' relationship with a little BDSM thrown-in. Rather, what we wanted to strive towards was a Female-led relationship. Around that time i spent a fair amount of time researching blogs, websites and books on the subject to try and establish some sense of how such a Female-led relationship might practicably work. Of course, i was, as i now realise, going about this entirely the wrong way! The essence of the relationship that would work for us would be decided and developed by Owner What i should have been doing was to really think through the things that Owner did as part of Her own routine and activities and try to see how i could take on some of these duties and activities for Her, to give Her more time to relax. In short, i'd overlooked the essential element of any Female-led relationship - namely it's not what others do or the fantasies i, as a submissive, may have, but is about what my Owner would like and how i might make Her life more comfortable. Owner does indulge me by playing with and torturing me, but this is when She wants to.

Anyway, i digress. As i was saying i realised that i had gone about things the wrong way. However, reading about how other such couples in Female-led relationships structured their lives and the routines they had developed was still extremely helpful. It gave me some ideas of things that might please Owner if i incorporated them into my daily schedule as well as a sense of what to strive towards. The following, therefore, is really written with the thought of me as i was two years ago in mind. It is my daily routine and i write it in the hope that it may be of some use/interest to another newby sub just starting their own Female-led relationship in sparking some ideas or thoughts about ways they too could serve their own Dominant Female. However, before i go on to outline my routine i should say from the outset that this is merely what works for us, others will and should develop their own routines that best suit their own relationships. i should also say that i am conscious that i still have an awful lot of training and development ahead of me (a lifetimes worth) if i am ever to hope to begin to serve my Owner in the manner in which She truly deserves. But this is where i am now in my development. Hopefully in my next 6 monthly appraisal and contract review (due imminently) Owner will grant me some additional duties and activities to further develop my training.

Anyway, enough waffling! The following is my daily (weekday) routine, which as i said earlier, i hope might be of some use/interest to other males or their Female Dommes just starting out to develop their own Female-led relationship.

06.00: Wake up - put on collar and cuffs and skimpy dressing-gown
06.05-06.30: Prepare Owners breakfast and my own. All my own meals are eaten from a dog bowl - though normally i am allowed to eat at the table. Wash-up dishes and put away.
06.30-06.35: Put out food on bird table (my neighbours must certainly chuckle if they see me - shackled and dressed in a skimpy dressing gown and heels wandering around the garden at this time of day!) + feed goldfish in aquariums
06.35-07.15: Put Owners mobile onto charge. Prepare Owners packed lunch for work then my own. Make bed and clean toilet and bathroom sink when Owner has finished in bathroom. Ensure Owner has a book to read for Her journey to work.
07.15: Kiss Owner goodbye.
07.15-08.30: Text owner to advise what knickers i will be wearing that day under my work clothes and receive any instructions i may have from Her. Think about what to make for dinner in evening and ensure we have the ingredients. Log onto internet and check emails etc. Have shower, shave and get dressed. Do some hoovering or other light cleaning. Check flat looks relatively tidy and things are put away. Update submission diary and journal.
08.30ish: Remove collar and cuffs and depart for work
Lunchtime: Get any shopping we may need
18.30ish: Return from work. Greet Owner by kneeling before Her and kissing her feet. Make Owner a cup of tea.
18.45ish: Put on make-up and feminine clothes to look pretty for Owner. Put collar and cuffs back on.
19.00 - 19.45: Start preparing dinner, my own served as usual in a dog bowl. Chat to Owner then wash-up and put dishes away.
19.45-21.30: Do some cleaning in the flat, prepare any stocks etc that we may need for forthcoming meals, do some clothes washing if needed. Be at Owners disposal if required. Supervised removal of chastity device for cleaning if needed etc.
21.30-22.00: Lick/suck Owners feet clean and give Owner a foot massage.
22.00: Snuggle up together in bed.

Weekends are similar except that neither of us need to work, i get to dress en femme all day (at home and outside) and wear nail polish and we have time to do the things we both enjoy. Others little things that i try to ensure i now always do/offer are to get fresh flowers for the flat on a weekly basis and give Owner a weekly pedicure.

Whether or not any of the above is of interest/use to anyone else i don't know. i just know that it was just this sort of information/ideas i was searching for two years ago when we first started out on our Female-led relationship and so hope it may be of some interest to someone?

Demoted to trainee pet

Yesterday was the anniversary of my collaring by Owner. However, it was not a cause for celebration as I have been demoted to trainee pet and had my full pet collar removed. Owner is extremely justified in doing this and has rightly commenced a period of intensive re-training of Her pet to get me back performing my expected tasks and duties. To explain why this situation has arisen I need to briefly re-cap the past year of our lives together.

My collaring ceremony on the 8th September 2007 was and is one of the proudest days of my life. Owner had stipulated a series of behaviours and tasks that she expected me, as her pet, to perform for her. Owner had stated that these would be continuously built upon over time to further my total submission to Her in our relationship. For the first 8 months things went extremely well. i was performing my tasks and duties as expected and was relishing my role as Her submissive pet. i was learning and acquiring new skills and was an extremely happy submissive pet.

Then a couple of things happened which, though I do not offer them as an excuse for the subsequent decline in my behaviour and eventual demotion back to trainee pet status, do provide the context for my decline in behaviour. Those things were

• Trying and ultimately failing to sell our flat and buy a house
• Owner commencing a period of intensive study for a course she was doing

Trying to sell the flat meant that house hunting, having to show people around the place, dealing with solicitors and incompetent estate agents etc. The routines that Owner and i had built into our relationship got seriously disturbed and our lives became increasingly stressful as the housing market collapsed whilst we were in the middle of trying to move. Eventually, everything fell through and we’ve decided to stay put for now. However, the experience left us both tired, stressed and emotionally drained.

Owners course meant that She was spending most evenings and weekends studying. Though i helped where I could it did mean that She had little or no time for the fun activities we used to enjoy together. Whilst Owner studied i became restless and distracted. i spent more time on the internet and neglected my duties towards Her. In short, i became a not very good pet at all.

When Owners course ended and the house/flat non-sale/purchase came to an end Owner presented me with a formal notice that my decline in behaviour and performance had been noted and i could either accept re-training along Her lines or be dismissed completely as Her Owned submissive pet. i readily signed the letter. i too had noticed how i had become listless and ill-at-ease with myself. In short, i was as unhappy with life as my Owner was with my behaviour and performance. i recognise that i am only truly happy when serving my Owner and urgently needed help to get me back on track. Owner and i made a list of areas that i had continued to perform Ok in during this period, tasks/activities i had neglected and those i had not even started. This list is detailed below:

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Things I have done
Worn my collar and cuffs at home
Worn pretty clothes and make-up at home
Been in chastity
Saved some money on a regular basis
Cooking for Owner
Washing dishes
Snuggling up with Owner
Relaxing Owner
Cleaning sex toys after use and ensuring we have supplies of condoms/lubricant
Kept toe nails painted
Bent over and made himself available on command
Obtained Owners permission before buying clothes for himself
Worn his tag
Not initiated sex
Greeted Owner at door by kissing her feet
Thank Owner on knees after supervised shower
Wearing high heels at home


Things I have done but not all the time
Updated my journal and diary
Worn make-up and women’s outfits at weekends
Reminded my Owner when I am due a supervised shower
Baked Owner nice cakes/bread/biscuits
Ensured that the washing does not pile-up
Polished Owners shoes
Been Owner sex slave (apart from when pet was ill)
Not drinking alcohol very often (slipped a little lately) – but did ask permission
Reminding Owner when punishment is due
Pleasing Owner orally/manually in bed
Worn his (outdoor collar) when outside the house
Clean bathroom sink/toilet daily
Ensure clothes are neat and tidy
Preparing mini-dungeon on a Friday
Change bed linen every 2 weeks
Not orgasmed without permission


Things I haven’t done at all in past couple of months
Given my Owner a pedicure
Hand-washing Owners underwear
Pleasing Owner sexually using Queening stool
Serving as a foot rest
Licking Owners feet
Learning word/powerpoint
Obtained Owners permission before making purchases over £10
Warmed up Owners side of the bed (not easy to do if giving foot massage as well – need to discuss how best to do this i.e. should pet go to bed before Owner?)
Been kneeling on floor when apologising to Owner
Cleaned the flat completely once a week
Offered my Owner a nightly foot massage
Studied Spanish

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

It is now a week since Owner agreed to re-train me. i am already feeling much happier and contented than i was before and my performance is gradually returning to the level expected of me.
Owner too has commenced more regular punishments including regular canings and flogging (arse and testicles) and is again enjoying fucking Her pet.

So, although i am now once again just a trainee pet i am now much, much happier than a few weeks ago and our lives are back on track. It is wonderful to once again be serving Owner as She expects.