About Us

Our Story

Friends-Vanilla
Owner and i have been together since Spring 2005 when we first met and started seeing each other, albeit initially just 'as friends'. At the time we were both going through divorces. We met at first online as we were both looking to find new friends to socialise with, romance was the last thing on our minds! However, after about 6 months Owner seized the initiative and kissed me passionately in public (Charing Cross station) and made it clear how She felt about me. i had the same feelings but was, and am, quite shy in that respect. i am so pleased She made this move. We quickly  went from being just friends to being a 'couple'.

Vanilla - FLR/FemDom
At first we were a very vanilla couple but i plucked up the courage to put down in writing my submissive feelings and desire to both live with and be dominated by Her and for Her to become my Owner. i had harboured such submissive tendencies throughout my life but Owner was the first person i had ever opened up to about and been honest with. Maybe it was the fact that by then i was in my 30s together with the fact that i really wanted a relationship with this amazing woman but new i had to be honest with Her. To my delight Owner accepted both my offer to move in with me and also agreed to take me as Her submissive partner. We moved in together in 2007.

24/7 FemDom/FLR 
During the subsequent years we have experimented with and incorporated various aspects of both BDSM and FemDom into our relationship. Neither of us had any real experience of or understanding about the path we were setting off down and it is true to say that we tried and tested a number of different approaches to developing a 24/7 relationship. We have never tried to just 'play' - for us this is something that is part of who we are as a couple every minute of everyday. We both read books on the subject and followed the online experiences of others to help inform and shape our own path and development as submissive and Dominant. Ultimately, we found an approach for developing a 24/7 Femdom relationship that seems to work well for us. Ours is a story of continual evolution and progression and of the slow but incremental increase in Owners dominance over me and of my complete submission to Her. We live our relationship 24 hours a day, seven days a week, 365 days a year.

My Transvestite Self
During this process it also became obvious that i was a transvestite. This was something of a surprise to us both. Yes, there were always feelings that i had harboured and sometimes acted on in secret in the past but i had kept them pretty buried and internalised - even to myself. However, Owner began a process of 'forced feminisation' of me quite early into our relationship and this tapped straight into a deep-seated vein of femininity in me. Over the period of our relationship i have gone from feeling initial terror at having to wear make-up in public to now always wearing make-up. All of my clothes are now women's clothes and i wear these all the time, both at work and at home. Owner has been fantastic and accepting of my emergence as a gurly boy and though She still refers to me as 'He' and She calls my little penis my 'clitty' and my anus my 'pussy'.  She has fully accepted me as Her wife and has been happy to support, encourage and exploit my femininity. Owner regularly buys me pretty new lingerie.

Owner does, however, have Her limits. i have been asked whether i would consider taking hormones to further enhance my femininity? The short answer is no. This is a 'hard' limit for Owner. Owner likes me to look pretty but also to stay physically a 'man', She is not someone who finds women sexually attractive. Should Her view ever change then, yes, i would take hormones but i respect Her view and She ultimately will always be the one who decides what i may or may not do.

Collar, Chastity, Tattoos and Denial
i am openly collared and wear my collar at all times and on any occasion, including at work, with family etc. In addition to my collar i am also proudly inked with designs of Owners choosing (plus 2 old ones of mine). One of the tattoos i have on my buttock cheek is that of a key. This symbolises Owners role as key holder and of my being in chastity. i first suggested being kept in chastity quite early into our relationship. i am not always kept locked up but i am more often locked than not. 

i also have a tattoo on my right thigh that states that i am 'Owned' and has Owners' initials marked on it and another on my left thigh which displays Her pet name for me 'petunio'. Other tattoos i have which have symbolic significance include one that shows the date we were married, a feminine ankle chain, a princess crown and a pussy cat.  Each of my breasts is tattooed. My left breast is tattooed with the date of our marriage and states 'wife' in Latin. My right breast is also tattooed with the words 'to love is to suffer' in Latin together with a small cupid

Since submitting to Owner it has been quite clear that (whether in chastity at the time or not) that my sole role sexually is that of bringing Owner pleasure, that is all. We do not have penetrative 'sex' unless She is fucking me. i only get to penetrate Owner with my tongue. i have not been permitted to penetrate Owner with my 'clit' for well over a decade. Personally i love this arrangement. i derive the greatest pleasure from helping Owner experience pleasure. i adore licking Her anus and Owner loves to ride my face, it is Her favourite position. Owner also enjoys pissing on me or having me drink Her piss, as do i.

Owner does sometimes permit me to orgasm under Her supervision but only whilst She is simultaneously beating or caning my testicles (my plums or labia as She calls them). i am always expected to lick-up and swallow my semen after orgasm, i love the taste of semen. Typically i am not permitted to orgasm more than a few times a year. This blog always documents when my last orgasm occurred.

Born Again Virgin

The last time my 'clit' was allowed inside Owner was in 2010. i have not been permitted to enter Her pussy with it since and do not expect to ever be allowed inside Her again. My 'clit' no longer serves any sexual purpose and is entirely unused other than to occasionally be teased, beaten or tormented by Her. 

Discipline

Owner has come to enjoy disciplining me on a weekly basis, something that we both agree is good for me. Such disciplinary sessions usually occur on a Friday evening and involve me being caned/spanked/paddled etc, etc. At first Owner was a little worried about hurting me but She is now happy to strike me hard. She expects me to show good tolerance of pain.

 

The Use Of Dice and 'Lucky-Dip' Cards

Owner uses dice on a regular basis to determine things such as, how long i am to be kept in chastity, what type of exhibitionist challenges i am to complete. All the dice have been pre-loaded by Owner and She periodically updates them with new instructions.

 

She also has me draw cards every Sunday, cards She has devised, that determine what additional weekday challenges i am to complete and the nature of the disciplinary punishment i will receive at the end of the week. The cards are drawn from a 'lucky-dip'. Each card is hand-written by Owner and gets returned retired when drawn. When all cards have been drawn the 'luck-dip' is re-charged.

In addition to the above i also draw monthly 'performance' cards that describe a show or routine with which i am to entertain Owner. There are also monthly Owner 'treats' cards - typically meals that i have never previously cooked that She would like me to prepare.

 

Housewife 

i am solely responsible for all household tasks. This includes preparing all meals, all cleaning, all washing, ensuring that we are kept stocked with all the supplies we need. i have also been trained inn a range of skills (attending classes in person) including, massage, pedicure, flower arranging, knitting and sewing. Owner expects me to look pretty at all times as Her wife.

 

Financial Domination and Control 

Owner and i are both in full-time jobs. My salary goes direct into a joint account controlled by Owner. i can use that account to purchase necessary household items, pay bills with etc. i receive a monthly allowance in return (£100 per month) from which i may purchase small items such as coffees, drinks (when we go out) etc. i am not permitted to make any purchase, bar sundries, without Owners' permission. All clothes purchases need Her approval. Owner makes all financial decisions. Owner also makes all decisions about what i eat when i eat out and chooses my meals and drinks for me.

Owner restricts my internet and computer usage as well as that of my mobile phone to the hours of 6-8am and 5-7pm only Monday -Sunday. Outside of these hours i am not allowed to use the computer/internet and must only use my phone to check and respond to messages or answer calls. i may make calls during these time periods but outside of these hours i must seek Her permission to make a call. i may also apply to be allowed to use the computer outside these hours. i must suggest an appropriate punishment to be given in return for being permitted to use the computer/my phone 'out of hours'.

Commencing September 2022 Owner now requires that i seek and secure Her permission to leave our flat unaccompanied by Her. The only exceptions to this are for work or to run errands for Her e.g. do the shopping etc. In all other circumstances i am required to submit a formal request to Her via a form She devised on MS Teams seeking Her prior approval to be allowed out. i must state where, when and why i am asking to go out and who with. i must also offer a suggested punishment as a 'thank you' for being allowed out.

Also commencing in September 2022 Owner introduced a new requirement that, outside of my working hours or my allotted internet usage time, and after completing all my expected chores or other duties, i am to be locked up in an under desk 'cage' until such a time as She tells me to join Her.

Our Flat 

We live in a small flat in South London in a shared building. The flat is decorated and maintained entirely to Owners' taste. Shortly after we started living together all items of mine (bar one or two of sentimental value) were given away to charity. i have no say over how the flat is decorated although Owner does consult me before making a decision.

Slut and Whore
i am an exhibitionist and Owner has been helping me to grow and develop as Her consummate slut and whore in private and in public. This has been a constant facet of our relationship and one that She continues to push me to get better at. It is also something that i greatly enjoy and what inhibitions i had (yes i did and still do have some!) are gradually eroding. i have appeared on stage in a skirt and in chastity in front of an audience and am regularly required to complete outdoor exhibitionist 'challenges'. i have come to love to show myself off.

Our Journey and Friendship
We both feel we are on a journey (and one which may never reach an actual end point) which we have had great fun undertaking together and which has greatly enriched our lives and long may it continue to do so. We are both each others best friend.

Owner's Wife
In 2013 Owner granted me the honour of taking me as Her wife in a non-legal ceremony and is helping me to develop into Her ideal housewife.  Owner devised a training programme for me which She continues to evolve and update over time.

In February 2018 Owner and i were legally married in a public ceremony in Las Vegas. i got to wear a dress for the occasion, which was conducted under the 'Welcome to Fabulous Las Vegas' sign and in the service i was referred to by the minister as being the 'wife' of Owner. On the day Owner wore a suit whilst i wore a dress and heels. It was a day i will never forget and the happiest of my life. i have the date of my marriage to Owner tattooed around my left breast together with the word 'uxor' - latin for 'wife'.

The Future
We both look forward to continue growing old together. We are each others best friends and are as happy now (happier even) as we were when we both met. We hope to keep having fun on our journey together.