Guests, Politics and Ramblings

The past couple of weeks have witnessed remarkable change, protest and state violence across swathes of North Africa and the Middle East which has had me totally transfixed. The temptation to log-on to find out what the latest drama is rather than do some much needed housework has all too often been too great and, as a consequence, i have not been as good a pet at times as i could be. Owner has been remarkably tolerant of this, knowing that i am quite a political pet. However, i know that it is not good and something i need to try and moderate and control to ensure it does not have too great an impact upon my own duties and service.

We have also had a succession of family guests staying the past couple of weekends which has meant hiding lots of toys etc away and limited opportunities for me to dress-up whilst they are here, though if they could see what i am wearing underneath my 'regular' clothes they might be surprised! That said, however, Owner and i have had the week days to ourselves and Owner has been continuing Her regular caning and nipple torture training and the other day combined these wonderfully after work before fucking Her slut hard. Owner now likes to have me prepare myself for Her by getting me to fuck my own pussy with my fingers and hand whilst She watches. She greatly enjoys watching me show Her what a complete whore i am before using and treating me as one Herself. She also recently had me perform another public challenge, this time getting me to walk around our local pub with my nipples clamped and rubbing my titties through my blouse as i walked around the bar area. It was delightfully humiliating! i now find that i have reached the point where i will happily undertake such challenges without worrying anymore about others reaction to what i am doing so i guess i must be learning how to obey without hesitation.

It has also now been well over a month that i've been kept in denial and gone without orgasm, again this is somthing of a new record and one that i am pleased about. Owner regularly swaps between chatity devices keeping me in the spiked metal device at weekends or during canings and delighting in having me masturbate my clitty until it is painfully hard, with the metal spikes digging deep into vulnerable flesh, and then swapping back to the CB3000 at night and on weekdays.

Owner now also regularly buys me or gives me make-up to try or test. i never imagined in my wildest dreams that i would find such a wonderful partner and Owner as Her who delights in having Her partner femmed and pretty. i feel and am so lucky! How long ago it seems now when i took my first horrified and humiliating trip outside wearing a touch of make-up or wearing a feminine top. Apart from at work (and even then 80% of the clothing i wear is feminine or androgynous) or when seeing family i am never out of make-up and dressed-up whether at home or out and about. It now feels the most natural and normal thing in the world and i love it. And Owner has truly discovered and released the inner slut/whore inside me. In short, life is wonderful...but i need to get better at avoiding distractions!

New Look

Regular followers of this blog may have noticed that i have been changing my hair style. Gone is the super short cut and of late i have been actively trying to grow my hair longer so that i might look a little more femme. However, as anyone who has attempted to grow their hair will attest, hair does not grow in a  nice and uniform manner and of late mine has been looking a little ragged. This is largely due to the fact that it has not been cut since November so yesterday was the day i headed back to a salon to get it cut again. Essentially, and having first discussed and agreed with Owner, i am aiming for an emo-style cut but i need to let the top of my hair catch-up (length-wise) with the sides. Lately the back of my hair has got quite long but the top is still pretty short, it was time for a tidy-up and for the hair dresser to exercise some control if i am ever to achieve the new look i am after (and quite a novel experience that will be as i have not had long hair since my early twenties).

Anyway, to cut a long story short i'm pleased with the results and so, more importantly, is Owner. The sides have been shortened and tidied-up with the top left long so that now it will hopefully grow longer overall but in a uniform manner. We shall have to see if it works but meanwhile, Owner took the following photo of me  today sporting my new look;

Owner then turned Her attention to administering my regular caning, albeit this time She had Her camera to hand and so was able to take a few photos during the session;

The session finished off with Owner instructing Her slut to fellate a dildo whilst simultaneously fucking my own pussy with another dildo. This in turn led to Owner announcing another rule that i am to add to my daily routine, namely asking to be able to fellate the dildo, which is kept permanently secured to the end of our bed, every night before coming to bed.

Politics and Make-Up

i have, as Owner will attest, become somewhat over-obsessed by the dramatic events in Egypt over the past week, spending way too much time transfixed by the coverage of the uprising in Egypt against Mubarak on Al Jazeera TV. The heroism of the people, and of the journalists from media outlets trying to cover the events, in the face of orchestrated violence and intimidation is truly inspiring. As i write this it would seem events are at something of an impasse with the regime squirming and twisting and trying to cling onto power....i wish the Egyptian people well in their struggle.

Unfortunately, my interest in revolutionary events in the Middle East and North Africa has led me to become somewhat distracted (combined with continued uncertainty over my job). However, today Owner sought to wrest me back and cheer me up with a little make-up session. This time i was to be Owners muse as She experimented with some new eyeshadow on me. i think She did a great job;