For the past 6 months Owner has been extremely stressed and busy with a course She has been doing. However, Her course has now been completed and Owner has advised Her pet that She will be re-commencing his training, especially as he has let things slip a little of late.
i am actually really looking forward to coming under Owners firm control once again. Owner is, of course, right in that with Her preoccupied with other matters i have allowed myself to drift back into some of my old bad habits. It's been quite some time now since Owner last punished and/or publicly humiliated Her pet - something that used to be an almost weekly occurrence. i have felt somewhat lost and without direction and know that i am not truly happy without Owners supervision, guidance, punishment and control.
A blog documenting my experience in a Female-led relationship with my wonderful Owner
Friday, 29 August 2008
Housewife Ambitions
For nearly a year now i have entertained a fantasy/ambition of becoming my Owners housewife. i say this for a number of reasons. Firstly, the world of work does not interest me, by this i do not mean that i am lazy (well ok a little!) but rather than i find the routine stifflingly dull and unrewarding. i have many and varied interests in life, some of which take-up a considerable amount of time but none of which is actually 'work' in the paid sense. The downside of these interests though is that i often find that the domestic duties that i should and need to organise, things like cooking, cleaning etc can interfere with and reduce the amount of time i spend with my Owner just the two of us enjoying each others company. i reason that if i had more time during the day by staying at home i could not only get these tasks properly completed and organised ready for when Owner returns home, but that i would also start to keep a much tidier flat as a consequence. i would also have more time to devote to the care of my Owner, and could even learn some new skills via day classes.
As you can tell from my profile picture i also like to wear women's clothing, something that my Owner encourages...infact the sluttier the better! i'll post more about this another time. The point here though is that for work i have to slip back into the clothes that society expects someone of my gender to wear at work - or at least they do in my job. i've wrested before with whether to describe myself as a TV. i'm still not convinced i am. Although i wear women's clothes and make-up i've never gone so far as to try to pass myself off as a woman. For example, although i like to keep myself mostly clean shaven, i don't shave my arms (though i do under my arms). i don't wear a wig or have a woman's hairstyle either. i also know that Owner prefers her pet to look feminised but not so feminised as to actually look like a woman. i sometimes wonder whether it is the views that i know Owner has that has stopped me taking my feminisation further. i did start to 'shape and pluck' my eyebrows about 8 months ago but Owner didn't seem to approve and so i desisted. Part of me is intrigued by the idea of taking my own feminisation further but i would never do so unless such a development were to be approved of and sanctioned by Owner - which i suspect is not that likely.
But i digress! This was supposed to be about why i aspire to be a housewife. Well the above is related because were i to be able to adopt such a role then concerns about what to wear 'at work' would no longer apply. i would be free to wear the clothes and outfits that i feel most comfortable and most myself in and which Owner either buys for me or gives me permission to purchase for myself.
i also feel strangely that, career-wise, i have achieved all that i set out to do back many years ago when i started. i can't see any way that i will progress further and am terrified of the prospect of just doing the same old thing for another 30ish years! God how dull! Owner, in contrast, continues to develop and grow in her job and with her skills. She often underates just how much talent she packs, but i feel sure that great opportunities still lie ahead of her should she wish to pursue them. Whereas, for me, work-wise i feel my own best is now behind me. i'm comfortable with this thought but not with the idea of still doing the same old thing. At home though i could develop further my own skills and interest in cooking, gardening, home care etc. i know this is a selfish thought and some might argue that i should be the one doing all the work and supporting my Owner, enabling her to have more free time to relax and enjoy life. i would love this too as time apart from her is horrible. But i know she also enjoys some (at least) aspects of her work. Freelance would be maybe be ideal.
Unfortunately, though the economics of one of us not working or earning something do not stack-up. So being a housewife will just have to remain a dream, albeit a pleasant, wistful one.
As you can tell from my profile picture i also like to wear women's clothing, something that my Owner encourages...infact the sluttier the better! i'll post more about this another time. The point here though is that for work i have to slip back into the clothes that society expects someone of my gender to wear at work - or at least they do in my job. i've wrested before with whether to describe myself as a TV. i'm still not convinced i am. Although i wear women's clothes and make-up i've never gone so far as to try to pass myself off as a woman. For example, although i like to keep myself mostly clean shaven, i don't shave my arms (though i do under my arms). i don't wear a wig or have a woman's hairstyle either. i also know that Owner prefers her pet to look feminised but not so feminised as to actually look like a woman. i sometimes wonder whether it is the views that i know Owner has that has stopped me taking my feminisation further. i did start to 'shape and pluck' my eyebrows about 8 months ago but Owner didn't seem to approve and so i desisted. Part of me is intrigued by the idea of taking my own feminisation further but i would never do so unless such a development were to be approved of and sanctioned by Owner - which i suspect is not that likely.
But i digress! This was supposed to be about why i aspire to be a housewife. Well the above is related because were i to be able to adopt such a role then concerns about what to wear 'at work' would no longer apply. i would be free to wear the clothes and outfits that i feel most comfortable and most myself in and which Owner either buys for me or gives me permission to purchase for myself.
i also feel strangely that, career-wise, i have achieved all that i set out to do back many years ago when i started. i can't see any way that i will progress further and am terrified of the prospect of just doing the same old thing for another 30ish years! God how dull! Owner, in contrast, continues to develop and grow in her job and with her skills. She often underates just how much talent she packs, but i feel sure that great opportunities still lie ahead of her should she wish to pursue them. Whereas, for me, work-wise i feel my own best is now behind me. i'm comfortable with this thought but not with the idea of still doing the same old thing. At home though i could develop further my own skills and interest in cooking, gardening, home care etc. i know this is a selfish thought and some might argue that i should be the one doing all the work and supporting my Owner, enabling her to have more free time to relax and enjoy life. i would love this too as time apart from her is horrible. But i know she also enjoys some (at least) aspects of her work. Freelance would be maybe be ideal.
Unfortunately, though the economics of one of us not working or earning something do not stack-up. So being a housewife will just have to remain a dream, albeit a pleasant, wistful one.
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Thursday, 28 August 2008
Helloooo and welcome
Welcome all. i'm just starting out with this blog so it may take a while before it gets some momentum going. However, the intention over time is to write and document my thoughts and experiences of living as a submissive pet/slut with my wonderful Owner.
The blog will attempt to chart my thoughts and experiences and to document my life. Owner and i have been living together now for a couple of years and in that period have tried to develop our own version of a Female-led relationship. i was collared by my Owner just over a year ago. As you can see from the image in my profile i am also a cross-dresser, i love top wear pretty outfits and Owner encourages me to do so, infact, Owner buys all of my clothes - or at least has the final say in what clothes i am allowed to buy for myself.
Another thing about me is that Owner likes to keep me (and i confess i enjoy it myself) in regular chastity. i wear a CB3000 most of the time with occasional periods of release when allowed such by Owner. i am one of, i suspect a growing band of men, who rather surprisingly discovered that their 'sex-life' improved dramatically courtesy of being placed into chastity. i've not had 'regular' sex for over two years but do have an extremely enjoyable sex life with Owner - one that is focussed on Her pleasure and satisfaction. That said, i am extremely lucky in that Owner is a great fan of Her strap-on, as i am too. In my experience there is nothing that makes me hornier or more aroused than being 'fucked' by my Owner.
i'm also a pain slut and am especially fond of nipple torture in all its wonderful forms, together with CBT. Owner is also a fan of and believer in domestic discipline as well as forced feminisation and public humiliation....more on that subject in future posts. Owner also loves tickling her pet, something i'm not that keen on!
Some others things about me, and which i am sure to blog about in future. i love wildlife and have a wildlife garden i am creating. i also love cooking - something that i've developed a great interest in since meeting Owner. In fact, my ambition in life would be to become a housewife but sadly that option is not economically feasible at this moment in time. However, i would love to just keep house for my Owner and be at home for Her at all times...maybe one day!
Oh, and i love to cycle and have a keen interest in history, politics and current affairs. You could say i try to be an ethical slut.
Anyway, that really is me in a nutshell. i will try to keep this blog going but before signing off would just like to take a moment to thank all of the other submissive males out there who too have chosen to let others share/explore their world via the web. They will never know how important that have been for me...but from one who at first thought he was odd and alone until he discovered there were many others out there...thank you!
The blog will attempt to chart my thoughts and experiences and to document my life. Owner and i have been living together now for a couple of years and in that period have tried to develop our own version of a Female-led relationship. i was collared by my Owner just over a year ago. As you can see from the image in my profile i am also a cross-dresser, i love top wear pretty outfits and Owner encourages me to do so, infact, Owner buys all of my clothes - or at least has the final say in what clothes i am allowed to buy for myself.
Another thing about me is that Owner likes to keep me (and i confess i enjoy it myself) in regular chastity. i wear a CB3000 most of the time with occasional periods of release when allowed such by Owner. i am one of, i suspect a growing band of men, who rather surprisingly discovered that their 'sex-life' improved dramatically courtesy of being placed into chastity. i've not had 'regular' sex for over two years but do have an extremely enjoyable sex life with Owner - one that is focussed on Her pleasure and satisfaction. That said, i am extremely lucky in that Owner is a great fan of Her strap-on, as i am too. In my experience there is nothing that makes me hornier or more aroused than being 'fucked' by my Owner.
i'm also a pain slut and am especially fond of nipple torture in all its wonderful forms, together with CBT. Owner is also a fan of and believer in domestic discipline as well as forced feminisation and public humiliation....more on that subject in future posts. Owner also loves tickling her pet, something i'm not that keen on!
Some others things about me, and which i am sure to blog about in future. i love wildlife and have a wildlife garden i am creating. i also love cooking - something that i've developed a great interest in since meeting Owner. In fact, my ambition in life would be to become a housewife but sadly that option is not economically feasible at this moment in time. However, i would love to just keep house for my Owner and be at home for Her at all times...maybe one day!
Oh, and i love to cycle and have a keen interest in history, politics and current affairs. You could say i try to be an ethical slut.
Anyway, that really is me in a nutshell. i will try to keep this blog going but before signing off would just like to take a moment to thank all of the other submissive males out there who too have chosen to let others share/explore their world via the web. They will never know how important that have been for me...but from one who at first thought he was odd and alone until he discovered there were many others out there...thank you!
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