Keeping Busy Whilst Owner Is Away

Owner has been in Spain all of this past week (i fly out to join Her tomorrow) and i have been determined to show Her that i can be a good, hard-working housewife in Her absence. Ok, i confess, i also actually quite enjoy housework it is just i also have a slightly lazy streak that we are working hard to eradicate.

Anyway, back to this week. Before Owner left i sent Her a list of all the household cleaning and other tasks that i would try to do whilst She was away. These on top of my usual daily chores and cleaning routines and my work. It was actually quite a busy week for me work-wise. This was what i said i would do in Owners absence:

• Empty out and clean all cupboards and wardrobes in the kitchen, spare bedroom, bathroom and lounge
• Wipe down all walls
• Touch-up paintwork as needed and fill-in any cracks and paint over
• Clean all windows inside and out and wash and clean the windowsills
• Move all furniture/beds and clean underneath/behind
• Hoover and dust in the loft
• Clean the communal hallway, front door and outside porch area
• Tidy-up the garden
• Polish/de-stain all of Owners jewellery

To this list i also added:

• Clean oven, washing machine and fridge
• Wipe down all skirting boards 
• Wipe clean net curtain poles

It is now Saturday lunchtime and i have managed to get through everything above with the exception of touching up the paintwork and filling in of hairline cracks which won't take me long as will get done next and then tidying our little garden/front yard. That will be the last thing i get done.

Crikey! i am in danger of completing everything i set out to do, which begs the question, was there more i should/could have done? Working hard and keeping busy is, i know, good for me and Owner seems very pleased with how i have got on. In fact, She has been complaining about having to do things Herself in my absence whilst She is in Spain, things She would normally simply expect me to do for Her, and rightly so. i am looking forward to being reunited with Her in person not just because i love and have missed Her but also because i long to serve Her in person again.

Anyway, here are a couple of pictures of me in some of my cleaning attire, cleaning and posing

At the start of the week i also had some 'gentlemen visitors' in the form of a gas engineer servicing the boiler, a fitter measuring up for new blinds we are having installed and a technician/sales surveying and advising on a new boiler. Obviously i greeted them at the door and escorted them up the stairs in my regulation micro skirt, bra, blouse and stockings. Our staircase is steep and with me leading the way  everything is on full view.

i ended up talking to the surveyor/sales rep for a good thirty minutes as he got down all the details needed for to prepare a quote. It made me realise how far i have developed, what a slut i have become, in that i have completely normalised being on my own, talking to a man i do not know, flashing my panties as i bent over to move something out of the way or stretched to retrieve an item from a cupboard. This was what i was wearing;

i hope readers have had an equally productive week.

UPDATE - i did indeed get everything done

p.s. She may be out of the country but this post was, as always, first approved by Owner before publishing 

Friday Caning and Electrocution

Last night i was caned and then electrocuted by my wonderful Owner. It wasn't a punishment, just a weekly reminder that She is in charge. i was not a natural pain slut but Owner has come to enjoy beating me and, i confess, i have learnt to appreciate and even look forward to being beaten by Her. In fact, whisper it quietly but, the harder She hits me, the more it hurts, the more i crave being on the receiving end of Her loving authority.

i love and adore my Owner. i love to serve and submit to Her. She is the centre of my world. i also love being put to work by Her, love cleaning and cooking for Her. The more i serve and wait on Her the happier i am. Conversely, the more She expects and demands from me the better a person and the happier a submissive i become. i love to be put to work by Owner, love to be kept quiet by Her, love being locked up, love to be under Her watchful gaze at all times, told what to do, what not to do. Owner is not overbearing but the firmer and stricter She is with me the more in love and in awe of Her i am. She also expects me to be proactive and find new ways to please Her and make Her life as comfortable as possible. This is something i know needs improving on my part. If all this sounds like hard work, well it is but also it isn't. i appreciate and love to be kept busy for Her but we both also love time together, enjoy each others company and our adventures together. i adore Owners body and relish such opportunities as She permits for me to play a small role in providing Her with physical pleasure.

Owner experiences pleasure and joy in many different ways. One of those is through beating and electrocuting me. Owner has a fine collection of canes, floggers, paddles, crops and whips along with a range of different electrical implements. Of the latter Her favourite is the tazapper electric prod. It is easy to use and can reach the most sensitive parts of my anatomy. Its sparks and shocks are guaranteed to make me wince and jump. There is nothing quite as, well, shocking as having an electric shock delivered to the entrance of my pussy, my tits, my hanging labia/plums, all to the sound of Owners excited laughter. Sometimes She secures me, others times She pins me down and sometimes i am simply expected to keep myself open and available for shock after shock, something i really struggle to do without jumping about. 

Beating and zapping me has become a regular routine, one that serves to strengthen our bonds of dominance and submission.

Yesterday Owner had me kneel on the sofa and lift up my skirt before She used one of Her lighter canes on my buttocks and the backs of my thighs, switching from one side to the other to evenly distribute Her strokes before switching to the tazapper electro prod and zapping me between my open legs on my labia/plums multiple times, causing me to jump about after each shock. The caning hurt and being electrocuted 'down there' was not exactly a pleasant experience 'in the moment' but Owner enjoyed Herself greatly and i am most grateful to Her for beating and zapping me as She did. No sooner was the caning and zapping over than i was craving more. i too have come to 'enjoy' being hurt by Owner. i was left longing for Her to hurt me more. It was a memorable start to the weekend.

However, in many respects there was nothing special about last night. Owner administers these maintenance beatings once a week, normally on a Friday. It is something we both look forward to. They are routine, quite normal even, but each is special and memorable to me. The harder i am struck, the more it hurts, the more i crave it. Owner loves hurting me like this too. It reinforces our bond, Her dominance and my submission. 

Just as i am not a natural pain slut so too was Owner hesitant at first, concerned about hurting me. However, we have grown together and both of us love these weekly physical reminders of Her authority.

The rest of the week was quite busy work-wise for the two of us. i presented at events in Birmingham and Leeds on Tuesday and Wednesday, so was up and down the country on the trains like a yo-yo. Tuesday evening saw me being electrocuted again, this time on my buttocks and pussy. Not a punishment, just because Owner enjoys doing so. Then on Monday i had to complete my regular evening chores gagged whilst wearing and sniffing Owners used panties, here i was cleaning the bathroom

All the while i have remained locked up 24/7 in my new pretty pink chastity cage and have been going my chores etc.

Just another regular week for Owner and i. Well, almost. Today i am lucky enough to get to take Owner out for lunch, which promises to be a real treat. The downside is that a heatwave has descended on the UK, especially here in London, just in time for the bank holiday weekend. Owner is not a fan of the heat so i suspect much of the rest of the weekend will be spent inside with the blinds drawn trying to escape the hot weather. Still, this will ensure plenty of time for yours truly to be doing domestic chores and tasks and, if Owner tires of me She can simply lock me up in my cage/kennel whilst She relaxes in the company of the aircon.

In The Pink

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Reflections On Japan And Looking Ahead

Owner and i have just about physically recovered from our trip back from Japan. The flight home lasted 14 hours and routed us out over the Pacific, then Alaska, Canada, Greenland and finally down back to the UK. Our sleep patterns were shot, making for an extremely groggy return back to work and domestic service reality. i also had an event in Glasgow, Scotland that required another flight there and back on Thursday. We are both embracing the respite of the weekend.

However, getting back to Japan. What an amazing country and culture. From the full-on, neon heaving chaos of downtown Tokyo to the sublime foothills of Mount Fuji or the structured grid and underground city of Sapporo to the sleeping giants, spitting mud pools and coastal majesty of Hokkaido, the wooden buildings of Kyoto or the nodding deer of Nara, vertiginous gardens of Kobe and castles of Nagoya and Osaka - what a place. The land and cityscapes are truly epic and extraordinary. We had an amazing time.

Then of course there were the accessories and the clothes. Oh. My. God. i was in gurl heaven. Every shop, and i mean every shop, contains a range of super-cute and adorable, must buy, hyper-girly accessories. i was so lucky, Owner permitted me to buy some to accessorise my little day pack. These are the cute accessories i was permitted to adorn my bag with and which now follow me around back home

They are divine - i love them.

Best of all though were the outfits. Little skirts a go go, hyper cute knee high stockings, the most AMAZING chunky shoes, bags, bags, bags, cute tops and blouses, clips and bows. It was full sissy heaven. Once again i was such a lucky sissy gurl. Owner permitted me to buy the most adorable frilly skirt, replete with bow accessory. i cannot wait to show it off in public. i will keep readers in suspense but rest assured, you will get to see it soon.

Then of course there was the kimono outfit. Owner sourced and then bought the kimono, the obi, the waist rope and traditional sandals. We had the best time doing the indoor but then especially the outdoor photo shoot in it. Thank you for all of your lovely compliments. Here are some more shots of me in a lakeside park in Hokkaido enjoying the cherry blossoms

i am so grateful to Owner for gifting me such a wonderful experience.

One of the regular readers of this blog and all round lovely person, hs left me a wonderful comment in which he wrote:

"You look fabulous and so feminine in your Kimono and with that beautiful umbrella....in many, but not all ways, your lifestyle and relationship with your owner emulates the "traditional" role of a "good wife" in Japan.....I imagine you might feel quite at home in Japan" blog comment by hs.

It was hs's point about the 'traditional role' and the 'good wife' that really resonated with me, he knows me too well! i love being Owner's housewife and so the idea of being at home, subservient and demure, focusing on housework and home crafts, being at Owners side when She wants me to be, being beaten or fucked by Her when She wants that. All of this is what i aspire to and is, to an extent, how we live our lives.

However, that is not the full picture. i am also a slut and an exhibitionist. i love to wear and be seen in the shortest of skirts - so short my panties are visible and my stocking tops on full show. i love to show my bra and breasts. i adore being groped and fondled in public. Owner regards me as, not just Her wife but also Her slut and expects me to behave as one, something i strive to get better at.

Two things we witnessed in Japan, both quite troubling in many respects but which appeal to a sissy slut like me, resonated with this slut side of me. 

First was the maid cafe culture. These are establishments where young women in stunning manga maid outfits serve and chat to men of all ages. Akihabara Electric Town in Tokyo is the epicentre. It is a district that in all bar one respect made me feel uncomfortable. It is dominated by manga and electronic stores, porn shops and maid cafes. That was not what made me uncomfortable. It was the fact that it is such a male environment. i would guess about 80% of those walking around it at any time are men of all ages. Male-dominated environments make me uneasy. i much prefer female spaces - unlike Owner who loves the boys. The one inspiring exception in Electric Town, however, were the maid girls that lined the street aiming to attract men into their cafe and who knows what else. They looked amazing dressed up in their cute little maid outfits. How i would love to have joined them dressed up and hustling for 'business' on the street.

The other thing you will see on the subway and some trains in Japanese cities are 'women-only' carriages, a response to the continued scourge of unwanted sexual attention, touching and groping that some women experience amidst the packed anonymity of rush-hour travel. The slut in me loves the idea of travelling these rides during the morning or evening rush dressed in a little micro skirt and low cut top. Of course, however, not for me the safety of the women only carriages. i would beeline straight for the busiest carriage, the one stuffed full of bored, frustrated businessmen and abandon myself to my fate, aching to be groped, fondled and abused whilst sandwiched amidst a sea of testosterone.

That dichotomy that you see on full display in Japan. The servility, politeness and submission, the hyper-sexualised maid girl culture and continued need to keep women safe from unwanted male attention. Both really appeal to my Jekyll and Hyde nature, part-good housewife, part whore.

As for Owner. There were plenty of cute young men and boys for Her to admire and lust over. We both had fun watching and observing people and i agree with Her that Japanese men can look quite beautiful. However, all kept their distance. Her fantasy of a cute toyboy remains unfulfilled, for now at least.

So that was Japan. We are already talking about when, not if, we might go back.

Now we are back home i am trying to return back to normal. Just before we departed i completed and passed my Spanish level training and have now moved to the next level. 

i returned to chastity as soon as we got home and remained locked for my flight to Glasgow earlier this week. i hadn't intended to. Owner had given me the key to unlock and re-lock myself but i clean forgot to do so, only remembering as i was putting my bag onto the belt as i was passing through security. By then it was too late to remove my metal cage, i was stood mere feet from the body scanner. i gingerly stepped through but, to my complete surprise, nothing happened. i picked up my bag and headed to the lounge area. My metal cage had not triggered anything. i messaged Owner about the mistake i had made and the fact that there had been no consequences. i resolved to walk through the scanner with cage on on my return flight to see if this had just been a fluke or if the scanner really did not register the chunky metal cage between my legs?

Surprise, surprise i triggered the body scanner in Glasgow as i went to catch my return flight. As i stood legs parted and hands held out at my sides i could see on the monitor that all of my body was showing green, all part from my crutch which was glowing red on the scanner operators console. i steeled myself to having to explain that i had a metal chastity device on, i had already resolved to be fully honest if i did get stopped. It's not illegal to wear a chastity device after all. However, all that happened was the security officer padded down my pockets and then waved me on. So, perhaps it is fine for me to remain locked up in my metal cage whilst flying after all? That will be for Owner to decide.

My life of domestic service is also starting to return back to normal. i did miss my chores and i am happy to return to them. This was me cleaning earlier in the week as seen by Owner via the surveillance camera 

 

i also missed being beaten, i even missed being electrocuted. A statement i am sure i will come to quickly regret setting down for Owner to read (She edits and pre-screens all blog posts before they are published).

 

i also returned home to another treat. Before we left for Japan Owner ordered a special pair of trousers for me, trousers most appropriate for an exhibitionist slut like myself. The trousers are made of white lace and are fully transparent. Here i was trying them on when we got back - excuse the slippers, dressing gown and label!

i really, really can't wait to go out in them :)

Returning to the subject of housework, Owner has rightly pointed out the need for me to do a complete Spring clean of Her flat, which will keep me busy. She will also be going to Spain for a week in June before i fly out to join Her the following week. Whilst it goes without saying that i will miss Her terribly it will also provide an opportunity for me to be kept busy outside of work with household chores whilst She is away. Owner can monitor me remotely whilst She is away via the surveillance camera.

Owner will also be sharing with me Her plans for Her future retirement and Her expectations of me in terms of my own work. Both of us would like for me to have more time spent at home, where i belong, or spent accompanying Owner on little adventures. i would love to be able to drop to working four days a week to free up a day to focus on housework and other chores or practice my domestic skills so that i might become more useful to Owner. My lifetime goal is to one day be regarded by Owner as a suitable candidate to become Her slave. Obviously, this will not be practical whilst i still need to work but reducing the day or days that i work could present an opportunity to begin to prepare and improve myself and demonstrate my utility and potential as Her future slave. We shall see.

Anyway, sorry for the long post. i hope readers are well?

Teaching An Old Wife (me) New Tricks

Owner has always been of the view that, as Her submissive wife, it is important that i develop a range of useful skills as befits Her housewife. Accordingly, over the year i have been sent on courses ranging from sewing and massage techniques, through to how to give pedicures, dress making and flower arranging. Suffice to say, each one has been fun and instructive and provided me with an opportunity to acquire a new skill.

Such training also benefits me. It is, after all, important to keep the brain active and to keep learning new things, especially as you get older.

Which brings me to yesterday. Owner met up with a friend from work for lunch and then went to the theatre with her. Whilst she was doing that i started my day with housework before then heading out to attend a lesson that Owner booked me onto, learning Ikebana - the Japanese art of floral arrangement. When She booked me the lesson for me, Owner reminded me how much She values Her wife (me) having a good set of useful and practical skills for Her home.

It was fun to get to learn a new skill and very timely too, given that on Wednesday Owner and i fly out to Tokyo for the start of our Japanese adventure. This was my humble creation: 

Owner declared it to be very pretty when i showed it to Her later.

My lesson completed Owner then allowed me to meet up with Her and Her friend for a drink. The three of us had an enjoyable evening, Her friend even observed how She had noted how well Owner had trained me - this a reference to the times when She had observed me placing fresh cups of coffee by Owners side during the day whilst she and Owner were on a work-related Teams call and that Owner has told Her how i do the housework etc at home. It was an innocent enough observation but still, it made me smile and glad to have had my service to Owner recognised by another. It was definitely a proud moment.

Of course, there are also more practical domestic skills that i get to deploy everyday, one of which is sweeping the floors each morning whilst Owner is out on Her early morning walk. She always checks in on me via the surveillance camera. This was the sight She saw earlier this week:

Busy sweeping the floor as observed by Owner via Her surveillance camera

Today Owner and i start packing for our trip to Japan. As previously noted there will be no monthly outdoor challenge this month as i will be out of the country. However, i hope to be able to bring you some updates from our journey through the land of the rising sun in due course.

Pain and Piss - My Drug and Drink Of Choice

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Staying Home and Going Out

As regular readers will know i have increasingly become a stay-at-home wife for Owner. At home is where She expects me to be and where i enjoy being. It means that She knows where i am and it ensures that my focus stays where it should be, on Her and looking after Her home, be that here in London or in Spain. 

The only occasions that i leave Owners home on my own are: 

• to attend work meetings that cannot be conducted online 
• to complete a challenge set by Owner 
• to see/visit either one of my parents 
• to run errands for Owner e.g emptying the rubbish, collecting Her prescriptions, doing the shopping or buying Her a coffee etc
• to get my haircut or see the dentist/doctor 
• to meet Owner at the train station/airport and carry Her bags home
• to meet-up with Owner if She is already out 

Until last year i still undertook the occasional work trip abroad but we have agreed that this is no longer an appropriate activity for me . It is also expected of me that i do not stay away overnight for work unless it is absolutely unavoidable, and only then if Owner approves.

My staying at home has become the norm. It is where i spend the bulk of my time. i would not want for it to be any other way. 

On those occasions when i do leave the house unescorted by Owner i make sure to return straight back home as soon as possible. i also provide Owner with regular updates about my journey and where i am/what i am doing. More recently still i have set my mobile phone so that it shares my location details with Owner 24hours a day, everyday, meaning that should She ever wish to, She can now track my precise whereabouts all the time. Owner did not ask me to do this but it feels a quite natural and proper thing for me to do.

In short, as Owners control over me has grown and my submission to Her has deepened so it has become increasingly expected of me that i should, in so far as it is possible, always be at home unless i am accompanied or chaperoned by Her.  Likewise, when i am not at home Owner can now always see, if She wishes to, exactly where i am.

Luckily for me Owner enjoys my company as much as i enjoy Hers and so i am regularly invited to accompany Her on a walk, for drinks, a meal or for some other occasion or activity. Take this weekend for example. i went out twice with Her, once on Saturday and then again on Sunday. On Saturday Owner went out for lunch with friends, leaving me at home to get on with some housework. However, She then invited me to meet up with Her in town later in the day and go for drinks with Her.

Spending time out, in Her company, are special moments for me as i never fail to have a good time out with Owner. Here are some pictures from last Saturday

Out having drinks with Owner

On Sunday Owner took me to the cinema with Her to watch one of our favourite films, Wong Kar-Wai's In the mood for love that was being shown in a central London cinema. 

For Her part Owner is obviously free to come and go as She pleases and spend Her time however and with whomsoever She chooses. Owner is not a naturally social person but She does have a close circle of friends and colleagues whom She enjoys seeing. To me it is beautiful and appropriate that Owner goes out and has a good time whilst i stay at home awaiting Her call to come and meet Her at the station, or the airport if She has gone abroad. 

Owners freedom and independence, and Her ability to do whatever She wishes, is important to us both just as is the absence of such freedoms and independence for me. Whilst i really miss Owner when She is not here i am also happy and content getting on with my chores and tasks in the knowledge that She is out having a good time somewhere and making sure She has a clean and tidy home to come back to.

Most of the time Owner simply leaves me to get on with things. She likes me to be proactive and to think of things that can be done in Her absence. There are, however, occasions when She will leave me with instructions. When She does that my little submissive heart really does sing with joy. They can be the dullest, most boring etc tasks but being given them to do when She is out or away enjoying Herself really does make me happy. i still fondly recall the time i was left to work hard, redecorating the whole flat, whilst She went to Rome for a long weekend with Her friend.

Whilst there may be less occasions when i get to leave the house these days i do still get out a lot it just means that those occasions when i am allowed out with Owner are all the more enjoyable and special. i also get the immense pleasure and satisfaction that comes from staying in whilst Owner goes out and enjoys Herself whilst i get on with my chores. It is a win-win arrangement for us both and one i would never wish to change.

Stay At Home Wife (and Slut)

One of the things that Owner expects from me is to remain working from home as much as possible and to definitely be at home to supervise or attend to any works that might need doing to Her flat. This week that saw me working from home at the start of the week, whilst Owner worked from Her office, in order to supervise some plumbing repairs we needed to have done in the bathroom. The plumber was very good and efficient and completed the work over two days. 

Each day i plied him with a fresh cup of tea and then left him to get on with things. He did occasionally stop to check something with me or have a brief chat but for the most part he just got on with things, him in his working denim and top and me in my stockings and skirt. As to whether or not he liked my home working attire, i have no idea. Owner, however, complimented me on my outfit by calling me a tart. What do readers think? Here i am going about my business with the plumber working in the background

and again

Me giving the finished job a final inspection

It is funny to think that there was once a time when the prospect of standing talking to a strange man wearing fishnet stockings and a skirt that barely covers my panties would have terrified me. It is definitely not something i would have ever once dared to do. How times change. i guess, under Owners expert guidance, i truly am starting to become a slut :)

Had you once told me that there would come a day when i would love to dress in short skirts (the shorter the better - i think the one i am wearing in these photos is the perfect length for a naughty gurl like me) and would feel really comfortable wearing them, even with a man i don't know, i would not have believed you. Yet, here i am. Happy and at ease being not simply Owners submissive wife, but dressed as Her slutty tart too in the company of a stranger.

Talking of working outfits. Owner has stipulated that this evening She wants me wearing my knickers only, nothing else. She also wants me to prepare one meal this week wearing just my furry-tailed solid metal butt plug and vicious clover clamps and then to spend a whole day with a pair of Her used knickers on my head, so that i inhale Her scent from dawn to dusk (and beyond). What a week! 

Housework and Appearance

It goes without saying that Owner expects me to do all the housework. This has been a key aspect of our FLR relationship for many, many years. i clean the bathroom and the kitchen floor daily, all other rooms are cleaned once a week on a rota (each room/space has a specific day). The fridge and oven also get regularly cleaned, the windows and front door less frequently. i do all the cooking (although Owner, who is a fabulous cook, does sometimes choose to cook), i wash-up and clean all the dishes, put out the rubbish etc and generally endeavour to keep things tidy and to a standard of Owners liking (not always successfully it must be said).

In truth i actually enjoy cleaning and take a lot of satisfaction in maintaining Owners home in the state She desires. It is an important part of my role as Her housewife. So ingrained are my 'chores' i don't really even think of them, they come automatically to me. In fact, on the odd occasion when i am excused them, when i am ill or if Owner has taken me out for example, i get stressed about not doing them. i feel discombobulated, out of sorts. Naturally i am expected to catch-up when i am next able. i always do so with a happy heart knowing that i am making Owners' life that little bit more relaxed and enjoyable and providing Her with a home and an environment fit for Her to live in.

Today (Saturday) has been very much a housework day. Owner left the flat late morning to meet up with some girlfriends. i escorted Her to the station and then, as soon as i got home, set about completing my domestic chores. i made full use of Owner's absence to hoover and mop all the floors, something She expects me to do but which She finds annoying as the noise of the hoover disturbs Her. Owners' absence provided the perfect opportunity to sweep, hoover and mop to my hearts content, free of any concerns that i might annoy Owner as i did so.

i also love the fact that, in our relationship, it is very much me and my responsibility to keep the home in a state Owner desires., i love that Owner is able to go out and relax and have a good time with Her friends whilst i stay at home and do my chores and complete the other tasks She has assigned to me to complete in Her absence. She is very much in charge of me and my time and i for one would not want things any other way. i get to show my love for Her through my service to Her. She in turn, gets has a wife whom She can tell what to do.

i will remain at home until Owner is ready to return and then She will message for me to come and collect Her from the station and escort Her back. i have no idea when that might be and Owner knows She is free to stay out and do entirely as She pleases safe in the knowledge that Her wife will be waiting for Her summons. My life revolves around Owner, i would not want it any other way.

i have no desire or need to go out myself without Owner other than for work or to run errands for Her. i am blessed in that Owner enjoys my company, as i do Hers, and will regularly take me out for a meal or drinks. But that has become the only socialising i do - other than occasional necessary family visits. For me to leave the flat without Her requires me to obtain prior permission from Owner. But i genuinely have no such desire to do things without Her. Outside of work my life is here and at Her side. i do miss Her greatly when She is out but i am also happy knowing She is enjoying Herself and having a good time and that She will later return to me, Her wife and the home i keep for Her.  That is how i have come to live my life and what a wonderful life it is to get to live it in service to my wonderful Owner.

Owner has also recently taken a heightened interest and shown greater vigilance in my appearance. She has has, of late, punished me for, on occasions wearing clothing or footwear that is worn and which reflect badly on me and on Her. She expects a wife who She can be proud of and who is a good ambassador for Her and Her standards, who looks good and well kept. My wearing socks or trousers with holes in or boots that are worn lets Her down. She has, accordingly, clamped down on this has punished me a few times for this reason.

She has also grown tired of my hair being long (it has only been cut once in the past 18 months) observing that thin, fine hair like mine does not look good when long. Accordingly, She has chosen a salon and a new style for me to go and discuss and get done next week. i love the fact that Owner takes such interest in my appearance and i love that She has chosen a style She wants to see me in.

i have already grown quite accustomed to Owner choosing and ordering food for me in restaurants and part of me would love for Owner to accompany me to the salon and to discuss and agree with the stylist in person how She wants my hair to be done. But, i know that would also use up Her time and a key part of my role is to maximise the amount of free time Owner has available to do other things and not have to waste Her time with me. She has already spent valuable time researching and finding a style She wants me to have, all i need to do now is to talk it through with the stylist to try and realise Owners' vision for me.

Again, i am lucky to have an Owner who invests such time in me and my appearance and i need to get better at ensuring i always present myself to a high standard and stop letting Her down through my appearance and the clothes i wear. i would actually love to have Owner choose my clothes for me each day. In fact, we did once try this. However, it quickly transpired that this involved a lot of work and effort for Her so was quietly shelved. Instead, i have to seek Her permission to wear what i do. Owner, of course, has absolute control over what clothes are purchased for me and will also, periodically do a sweep of my wardrobe and recycle items She considers i no longer need. 

i think, given the need She has felt to punish me for my appearance of late, that i need to get better myself at weeding out any items of clothing that may no longer be to Her standard so that i don't let Her down again the way i have.

In other news i am currently in 'boy mode' as a punishment and so have not been permitted to wear make-up or anything girly since yesterday. My 'boy mode' ends tonight. i also know that i will be  spending part of tomorrow in my cage, again as a punishment for an infraction on my part. i was also electrocuted on my bum and around the entrance of my 'pussy' repeatedly earlier in the week, again as a punishment.

Last night, after work, Owner also administered my regular maintenance disciplining. This time She chose to use Her cat-shaped paddle (nick-named 'gatuno'). Here's an image of it resting on my bottom

As a thank you to Her for disciplining me i provided Owner with a back massage.

So, in short, all is good here. i hope all is equally good wherever you are and in your lives too.

Home Alone Witchiness

Living in a female-led relationship means that, whereas Owner is always free to do as She pleases, is free to go out whenever and with whom ever She might want, the same is not true for me. Of course i am allowed outside, but unless it is for work or to run an errand i must always seek Owners prior permission to do so. i have to tell Her where i would like to go, with whom, at what time, for how long and whether food or alcohol might be involved. Furthermore, i have to suggest a punishment that i might receive in return if my wish to go out unaccompanied by Her is grated by Owner.

Such need for prior permission is a further extension of Owners control and authority over me, and one that i greatly appreciate. She expects me to be at home as much as possible as Her stay at home wife. This is where i am happiest and where i too want to be. Accordingly, introducing the requirement that any solo outings by me to see friends and family require prior approval has helped me to focus my efforts on minimising such outings and maximising my time at home with Owner, where i belong.

In contrast, post-Covid Owner is starting to get Her get up and go back. She is not a social butterfly but She has been making more of an effort to get back out and catch-up with Her friends. She does this without me and i like the fact that that is the case. i find that i love being at home whilst She goes out for meals or drinks or even goes on short vacations with Her friends. i like it as it symbolises to me a crucial aspect of our relationship dynamic, one that i would not change for the world. Namely, Her freedom to do whatever She likes, whenever She likes and with whoever She likes and the absence of such freedom for me. The fact that i have to ask, that permission might be refused and that permission always comes with consequences.

Owner knows that whatever She does i will always be at home waiting for Her. Actually, that is not strictly true. i will be at home until alerted by Her that She is on Her way home. Then i will come to the station to collect Her and carry Her bag home from Her. i love that Owner has come to expect this of me, to have me live as Her stay at home wife whilst She is free to do as She pleases.

i love it even more that when She does leave me alone at home She expects that i will use my time wisely and constructively by getting on with my chores or any tasks that She has set for me. Take today for example. She has gone out for the day to meet friends for lunch and to spend the afternoon with them. i was left with my usual Sunday chores to complete, namely sweeping and mopping all of the floors. However, Owner also left me some additional tasks to keep me occupied whilst She went out.

i was instructed to clean all of Her jewellery, to remove the tarnish that had developed on some of Her rings and chains and to make them sparkle again. i was also tasked with doing some household research for Her. She wants to replace the blind on the kitchen and so tasked me with coming up with some options. She also set a little challenge for me, namely to do a Halloween-themed photo shoot whilst She was out, with at least one of the photos being taken outside. i was also expected to research and practice some ballet routines in readiness for a later performance i need to give Owner for Her entertainment. In short, i was kept busy and occupied doing things for Her, some practical, some educational and some a little more frivolous.

i truly love how our relationship has evolved into this dynamic. To be at home as Her stay-at-home wife making sure Her house is kept, completing tasks i have been set, all the while hoping She is out having a great time. This is the life i love to live. Submitting to and controlled by Owner.

Anyway, enough of my ramblings. Here are some of the Halloween pictures i took for Owner. i wore my witches outfit and took some pictures in the flat and then headed out (in the torrential rain) to a local cemetery to take some more 'atmospheric' ones. Let me know what you think. First off in the cemetery

and at home

It was fun to do and i am grateful to Owner for Her having set me this challenge.

Actually, talking of all things Halloween yesterday Owner and i carved out pumpkins. Guess which one is mine and which is Hers?

Owner also bought me a pair of Halloween spider earrings yesterday whilst She was out and i was home cleaning and dealing with another builder (nothing major just something that needed fixing). The latter did, however, give me another opportunity to be flaunt myself at home, this time in a sequined mini-skirt and stockings, to the lovely builder

me and the builders tools

After the builder had left and Owner and i had had our lunch we went for a walk and then had coffee in a cafe - which provided this opportunity to show off my spider earrings

When we returned home we then both watched a movie together.

So anyway, there you have it. A long and slightly rambling post about how much i love my life with Owner, a life in which She can and does expect me to stay at home and decides whether or not i am allowed to go out. A life as well where, when She goes out, Owner expects me to keep myself productively occupied and in which She knows She can and does make demands on how i spend my time whilst we are apart.

Owner knows that She is free to live Her life entirely as She chooses and that i will always be there, at home, hopefully spending my time productively and eagerly waiting for Her summons to come and collect Her. In fact, She has just texted me now to say She is on Her way back so i will draw this post to a close and leave it for Her to review and edit at Her convenience before publishing.

Data Points and Panties

The eagle-eyed amongst you may also have noticed a new set of statistics appear down the side of my blog in the form pf a 'Performance Rating'. As i have mentioned in the past back in November Owner started to provide me with daily feedback on my behaviour/performance in the form of a daily mark out of five. She emails me my score for every evening. i have taken these scores and then averaged them for the month to display on the blog so that there is a public record of how Owner thinks i have done/behaved that month. Obviously, an average score of 5 out of 5 is what i should be aiming for. At present i am averaging about a 4.6 out of 5.

This feature may or may not be of any interest to anyone but Owner congratulated me on a good use of data and it now sits along side the information about how many days i have been in continuous chastity and how many orgasms i have had each year. Incidentally, on the latter i wonder if i might see these further restricted this year? i had none all year in 2019 but then had four in 2020 and three last year - so i am currently averaging 2.33 orgasms a year. Personally, i think it would be good for my development to keep that average trending down. Perhaps i am odd thinking this, but then whoever said i was 'normal'? :)

Changing subjects, here is a gratuitous photo of me in one of my new pairs of panties

my new knickers

i never know what to ask for when my family say to me 'what would you like for your birthday?' In truth there is little/nothing i actually need and the things i would quite like tend not to be the things one can ask a family member to get, even i have never said, actually yes i'd like a really big butt plug or a pretty new dress! As a result, each year i tend to end up getting vouchers. The advantage of these, at least, is that i can specify the kind of shops i would like vouchers from. Guess what, i always suggest ones that have  women's clothes i like.

Anyway, this year my mum bought me some vouchers for H&M and so, with Owners' permission, i was able to do a little online shopping. Owner, of course, still vetted (and vetoed) some of my suggested purchases and also picked out an item She had seen that She wanted me to wear. To cut a long story short this week i took delivery, courtesy of my mother, of a lovely new skirt, a cropped t-shirt, V-necked sleeveless jumper (also cropped) and some pairs of the lovely knickers i am wearing above

i am very pleased with them and Owner remarked that they look very cute. i also have a new pair of pretty pink slippers, courtesy of my dad.

Meanwhile, in other developments. On Monday Owner required that i complete my evening cleaning chores (cleaning the bathroom from top to bottom) whilst gagged and sniffing Her used panties. i must say i do think i look about as unglamorous as i possibly could, although the scent of Owners' pussy is definitely preferable to the smell of cleaning disinfectant!

me looking like something out of a B horror movie

Tonight, after i have made and then washed up and put away the dinner i need to do some more cleaning chores and then have an hour of study to complete. After that is done and only then will i be able to join Owner and relax with Her. But that won't quite be the end of my tasks. i have been instructed to practice deep-throating Her silver dildo whilst we watch TV together. In short, i have a busy evening ahead but  keeping me busy, useful and learning new skills is all part of my continuous development and training as Owner's wife and slut and to be honest i would not have it any other way.