Performance Monitoring and Checklists

It is obviously important to Owner that i perform well for Her. Likewise, it is vital that i remember to fulfill the tasks and actions directed by Her in order to a) please my Owner and b) progress in my development as Her submissive. This is especially true if i ever hope to be accepted by Her as Her slave, which is my long-term goal.

Over the years Owner has used a variety of training regimes and tools to develop me, my behaviours and performance as Her submissive. Some of these were simple and remain in use, such as the use of a wipe-clean fridge calendar in which instructions can be set for tasks that require completion. i pass the fridge many times a day so i can always refer to the calendar and mark when an item has been completed.

i also used to keep a chore diary which reminded me which household chores needed completing on which day of the week e.g. Monday = bathroom deep-clean, Tuesday = halls and spare room etc, etc. i no longer refer to this diary as these routines have become so ingrained over the years that i know them off by heart. They provide the framework to my week, every week.

Owner also uses dice and cards. These She really likes as, once set-up, they can be used again and again and again without any further effort on Her part. She rightfully takes the view that dominating me must make Her life easier, not create extra work for Her. The dice and cards are perfect in that regard as they can be re-used as often as She wishes. Occasionally, Owner will add a new card or dice face descriptor (She uses large children's dice with blank faces that can be written on) to keep things fresh. The cards determine things as varied as how long i am in chastity for, what outdoor challenges i must complete and where, what acts of pain endurance/slut development etc i must complete and so forth. They have been part of our lives for many, many years and are used on a very regular basis.

Owner has also used other aids for my development. Amongst these have been things such as Trello Boards to set tasks and mark when they were completed and also some rudimentary performance apps that could be used to score/mark how i had done that week. Unlike Owner i never used Trello much outside our relationship and always found it a bit clunky. The performance apps were also a bit hit and miss.

At one point we even considered installing one of those smiley face devices you find in toilets, shopping centres or airport security lounges where you are asked to rate your experience as a user of a facility. In our case it would be for Owner to record Her satisfaction with me and my performance, or otherwise. We still might install one but they are a bit crude and don't offer opportunities for analysis.

Which brings me to this week. 

i had an idea. Might there be some performance management software that Owner could potentially adapt to assist with my training? i was searching online when i stumbled across a free AI-powered programme that is aimed at small/medium-size enterprises. It is as a tool to track staff performance and run appraisals etc. However, the great thing is that you can adapt it and create your own objectives and goals for each 'staff member'. You can require that reports are completed however frequently you like. The programme emails the staff member asking them to rate their performance using the parameters you have set. It also asks the 'staff member' to complete a self-assessment against each objective and then prompts you to provide examples to evidence your own rating and areas you feel that you, as a staff member, need to improve upon. 

The completed 'self-assessment' is then sent to your 'manager' to review, add/correct etc. In our case i am the 'staff member' and Owner is the 'manager'. She can run analysis over time across all areas of my performance after first receiving my own ratings and views on what i was doing well and where i needed to improve.You can also run analytics to identify trends etc.

My immediate thought was, this could be perfect! i quickly sent a link to Owner. She is very excited about it's potential, as am i. Owner applauded me for my initiative in finding it and suggesting it to Her. The programme is called Effy.ai and hopefully it is something that will help with my development. i have already been asked by it to rate my performance, provide evidence and suggest areas for improvement, all of which has now been received by Owner for Her to review and adjudicate at Her leisure.

Hopefully we can embed this programme into our lives and it can become a useful tool for Owner and i to help report, assess, monitor and improve my performance and development. My personal hope is that if, over time, i am able to demonstrate that i am consistently achieving the goals Owner sets for me, then that might serve as a trigger to introduce further controls, acts of service etc into my life and help me progress towards my long-term my goal of being considered worthy of becoming Owners slave. However, even were Owner to grant that i am still a long way off being anything like good enough to be accepted by Her as one.

If there any other performance management tools, techniques or technologies that readers use or have come across that you think might be of interest to Owner please do let me know. i know that i should simply remember to do things when i have been told and that i should do them consistently, repeatedly and to a high standard but in truth i forget and do not listen properly and still have much to improve upon. 

Meanwhile, there are also more low-tech/no-tech tools that can be and are useful. In particular, checklists are always handy. Many industries use them to ensure safety critical tasks are undertaken. They can be just as useful as a means of learning and embedding tasks and routines that Owner expects of me without the hassle of having to constantly remind me until i remember.  i can simply refer to the checklist to ensure all expected tasks are completed until i eventually gets to the point where they have become second nature.

This week i have created two new checklists for myself. One is a checklist to go through immediately before i go to bed i.e. after completing my evening tasks chores (these typically take about 2-2.5hours) and spending quality time in Owners' company.  The other is my first thing in the morning checklist. i realised that i needed such lists when earlier this week Owner suddenly announced that a) She had not got out any clothes to wear into the office today and that b) the top that She wanted to wear was creased and needed ironing!

Upon hearing this news my heart sunk. i knew straight away that i had let Her down. i immediately stopped what i was doing in order to rectify the situation but i realised i was at fault for having allowed the situation to arise in the first place. i should have checked the night before that the clothes Owner wanted to wear to work were out, pressed and ready for Her to put on. i made an entry into my punishment log of my failing but also determined that i needed to create these two checklists to avoid any repetition.

In case of interest the two checklists i have devised are as follows:

End of Day Checklist

• Tidy lounge and ensure all items have been put away
• Set mobile phone(s) to charge
• Check and advise Owner on the predicted weather forecast for next day
• Check for any anticipated transport disruption that may affect Owner the following day (if She is going into Her office) 
• Pick-up all clothing discarded by Owner and sort for washing or putting away.
• Ensure all clothes to be put away are neatly hung/folded with all clothes hangers organised by garment type and correctly aligned
• Ensure that Owners choice of office attire is out, pressed and ready to wear the next day
• Check with Owner what She would like for breakfast the following morning so it can be prepared as soon as i get up
• Prepare sandwiches/salad for Owner, if She will be in the office the following day, and store in fridge
• Ensure all crockery/cutlery is washed, dried and put away
• In wintertime pre-heat Owners side of the bed with a hot water bottle
• Conduct a full and final sweep of the flat to ensure it is neat and tidy 
• Set alarm for the morning

First Thing In Morning Checklist 

• Serve breakfast to Owner
• Place Owners' lunch and reading glasses into Her bag (if She is going into office)
• Complete exercises
• Re-check weather forecast and any actual transport disruption and advise Owner accordingly
• Complete Spanish study 
• When Owner is working from home sweep all floors whilst She is out on Her morning walk - greet Her return by presenting myself kneeling, naked, with my legs legs spread and kiss Her feet
• Hand Owner my mobile phone and, on Fridays the remote control for the electro-clit torture device that will be worn all day
• Shower and then clean bathroom
• Put on make-up and clothes 
• Wash-up and put away breakfast dishes
• Ensure Owner has water and a snack for the morning (when She is working from home)
• Carry Owners bag for Her to railway station if She is working from the office 

Hopefully these checklists will ensure tasks do not get forgotten.

The Trial

This year marks Owner and my twentieth anniversary together, it is quite a milestone. With that also comes an opportunity to review and and further develop the relationship we have, Her control over me and my submission to Her. Ours is already a relationship in which i submit to Owner and She controls much of my life, but there are always opportunities to develop our Female-led relationship further, to extend Her control over me and deepen my submission to Her. This is what i truly desire.

This weekend Owner has been considering whether or not to grant me the honour of submitting myself to a deeper form of Her control. However, before moving forwards it is also of great importance to Her that i demonstrate that i am capable of properly doing and executing the level of submission and service that She expects from me now, let alone taking that a step further. She rightly expects me to prove to Her that i am, indeed, ready to be developed and trained further by doing the things She already expects of me to the standard She requires. In that regard She has found a number of aspects of my submission to Her wanting and my performance to be below Her expectations of me, Her submissive wife. Accordingly, She has given me a period of one month, from the 1st to the 28th of February in which to improve my performance, raise my game and prove to Her that i am, indeed, capable and worthy of being taken further under Her control.

Owner has pointed out that whilst i do routinely complete my chores i do not routinely complete them to the standard She expects. There have also been some other lapses and failures on my part and there are things i do that irritate and annoy Her and which i must learn to stop. Failure to do these things during the one-month trial will mean that i will not be permitted to have the honour of being developed further by Her at the end of the Trial. In short, only when i have, in Her own words to me;

'mastered the foundational tasks to Owner's satisfaction.'

Will She consider developing me further. To that end She has set out some very specific requirements for me to fulfill and demonstrate to Her satisfaction during the month of February in addition to the usual daily tasks and chores She expects of me. These are:

- check for and dispose of any expired food daily - i.e. She should never, ever find food items in the house that are past their use by date

- talking of food, to always provide Owner with daily healthy meals that meet with Her approval. i like to think i am fairly good at doing this already but there are occasions when i forget to consult Owner before starting cooking or where the meal turns out to be below Her expectations. Neither of these are acceptable.

- thoroughly clean the kitchen sink. Owner has pointed out that She has a magnifying glass with which She can check to see that the sink is completely spotless. She recently had cause to tell me off for not ensuring that the sink overflow and the drain was not spotlessly clean

- ensure that the bathroom is kept similarly spotlessly clean. i clean the bathroom daily but the shower tray sometimes has stray hairs and the tap sometimes has a build-up of calcium

- make sure that i only order food/groceries that are needed and that i do not over order. i am responsible for getting all groceries and there was a recent unfortunate incident in which i ordered salad leaves and tomatoes even though we had plenty. i need to check thoroughly what we have at home before i order.

In addition to the above, and tired of me disturbing and interrupting Her when She is listening to one of Her audio books, i must in future obtain Owners' permission to speak to Her when She is reading. Owner is often to be found listening to Her audio books, even when She is busy doing other things, and hates it when i suddenly start talking to Her causing Her to have to stop Her book. In future i must always indicate that i want to talk to Her and then wait for Her response. To this end She is making me a sign which i must hold up to Her when She is reading to indicate that i wish to speak to Her. She may choose to simply ignore my request or allow me to speak but i must not disturb Her and speak to Her without authorisation.

Owner is also in the habit of going for daily early morning walks around our local park before She starts work (when She is working from home). It is already expected of me that i greet Her return by waiting at the top of the stairs as She comes in and then prostrating myself and kissing each of Her feet. It is a wonderful little routine that we both really enjoy, it reaffirms Her and my status. In future, Owner expects me to be fully naked when i do this.

Furthermore, Owner also expects me to use the month of February to organise the last of the home renovations that need doing (to the staircase) and to present Her with a plan for organising the small communal 'garden' area at the front of the building our flat is in.

She has also instructed me to de-clutter the flat and the loft and dispose of/recycle items that are no longer needed and to do the same with my clothing, removing items that are not necessary, not used or not in a good condition. i am a bit of a hoarder and always find getting rid of clothes to be quite difficult, but i know i must do.

As Her current frozen shoulder prevents Her from caning or beating me, Owner has instead instructed that i am instead to present myself to Her every Friday and request that i be electrocuted by Her. i hate beign electrocuted but know that i must learn to tolerate it. For Her part Owner loves it and really gets off on being able to inflict pain to me. One of the things She expects is that my current low pain tolerance when it comes to being electrocuted is improved in the same way that She eventually got me to tolerate being caned, whipped or beaten compared to when She first administered these to me. Owner really misses not being able to beat me, it is something She came to really enjoy doing. Hopefully Her shoulder will eventually be fully recovered but electrocuting me gives Her the opportunity to inflict the pain and discomfort to me that She enjoys doing without having to use Her damaged shoulder. 

One of the things that Owner has also stated She expects of me during this trial period which is a real and unexpected surprise is that She has said that on Saturdays i am to request that She sits on my face. i love it when She does this and it will be a wonderful treat and more than i am sure i deserve.

Throughout February Owner has said that i am to keep a record of each and any failure on my part to do any of what She has asked and also record any other misdeeds and misdemeanours on my part. Sundays will then see me told to read out any failures on my part in order that i might be suitably punished, including having the period of the Trial extended. 

So, unlike the character Josef K in the Franz Kafka book, The Trial i do know what is expected of me if i am to pass the trial that Owner has set me. i truly hope that i prove myself worthy and She considers me ready to be further dominated and controlled by Her come the end of February.

It's Good To Talk

Owner and i had a good discussion today about things or ways that i could improve my performance further (She has been pleased with me of late but we both recognise that there is plenty of room for further improvement and growth on my part). As a result of the discussion a number of areas for development (mine) were identified in order that i might become a better wife and slut. These included requirements that i;

• produce a weekly menu of meals for Her to choose from
• make soups and bake more regularly than i have been doing
• mop the bathroom floor daily in the morning
• re-commence studying Spanish 
• set aside at least one evening a week (we have settled on this being Wednesday evenings) where i will spend the evening quietly knitting or sewing and studying Spanish in the spare room after preparing and clearing-up from our meal and finishing my chores. This will also allow Owner to have at least one evening a week when i am not disturbing Her
• purchase a sewing machine from my monthly allowance so that i can undertake repairs etc
• provide Owner with regular pedicures and foot massages without Her needing to ask for one
• re-commence performing monthly strip-teases for Owner
• reduce my coffee intake to a maximum of two cups a day and to drink more water daily
  

In return Owner confirmed the following:

• She will reinstate monthly sit-down performance reviews to go through areas i have done well and areas that i have not and be dealt with accordingly
  
• She is content to leave my monthly allowance at its current level (£100)
• next year She may ask that i learn a new 'housewife' skill and attend the relevant courses to study (to date i have attended classes in manicures/pedicures, massage, flower arranging, knitting and sewing)
• in addition to Her choosing what i may eat/drink when we eat out, that in future to expect Her to usually be the one who talks with the waiter/waitress to place the order
• She will permit me to drink Her urine on a regular basis
• at weekends She will have me sniff and inhale the scent of Her worn knickers to keep me aroused
• that i will be undertaking some outdoor photoshoots
• that once Covid restrictions have eased She will investigate opportunities to get me to once again go on stage in front of an audience dressed prettily (as i did at the London cosplay event earlier in the year)
• that She will consider getting me to have a 'tramp stamp' tattoo, or another pretty tattoo
• that She will want me to spend time plugged whilst outdoors and/or at work

So, in short, lots of things to look forward to and lots for me to also start to focus on and to try and improve.

In the meantime, tomorrow i will be doing another of my monthly outdoor challenges. They are forecasting dry weather so whatever i end up having to do, at least i will be dry doing it!

Training and Development Update

This afternoon Owner and i had one of our regular reviews of my ongoing training and development. Readers may recall that Owner has developed a programme for me which She calls Her housewife Academy. This is divided into four broad training and development areas encompassing:

• Domestic diva
• Sex kitten
• Submissive pet
• Multi-tasking ninja

i am given goals to achieve under each category and, when these have either been successfully completed or incorporated into my daily life (where they require an ongoing and permanent change) new ones are added until these too have been completed, and so on and so on. Anyway, today Owner agreed that sufficient progress had been made to warrant some new additions to my learning and development.

As of today i have, therefore, had the following added;

Domestic Diva

• research a sewing project for our flat that i could complete if i am permitted to purchase a sewing machine, now that i have completed a course on learning to use sewing machines.
• do an audit of our houseplants and remove ones that are not looking too good and tidy up the plants we have outside

Sex Kitten

• Drink a glass of Owners urine once a day at weekends

Submissive Pet

• Restrict my coffee intake by only being permitted to drink coffee in the morning and to have a single one straight after lunch (this afternoon coffee to be removed over time i.e. so that i will only be permitted coffees in the morning)
• Initiate a system of 'on the spot' punishments for any transgressions - Owner has written out a series of punishment cards (about 20 of them) which She has placed into a bag. Whenever i do something wrong i will have to take a card from the bag and complete the punishment on the card. These range from canings, standing facing the wall to being clamped on my nipples, having mini metal clothes pegs attached to my testes or adopting the plank position and combinations thereof.

Multi-Tasking Ninja

•  Three times a week to only be permitted to read or listen to Spanish magazines or websites on my tablet in bed to improve my Spanish and create a log of all that i have read/listened to.

Hopefully i will soon have either completed or have sufficiently incorporated the above into daily life for further tasks or activities to be added. This is how Owner trains me to become Her ideal submissive wife, adding new restrictions or challenges or tasks to complete, waiting until they have been done or normalised into our relationship and then adding new ones.

Meanwhile, my testicles still throb exquisitely from the spanking they received this morning. Today has been a good day :).

Caning, Flower Arranging and 'Pussy' Training

You might rightly wonder what all of the above have in common? Well, they are all components of my current training and development by Owner. It used to be the case that i received regular canings or puddling's at the hand of Owner. i can't say i have ever been one who enjoys being caned in the way that some people do, i do not find it a sexually arousing activity. However, i do appreciate and understand its usefulness in helping to, at least partially, prevent me from becoming too 'fluffy' a pet for Owner.

In addition, although at the time i initially always find canings painful i do start to get used to the pain when Owner settles into Her stride and am able to process it into something more pleasurable - though never as pleasurable as testicle/clit spankings for example. i also enjoy the warm glow of the aftermath. The main thing, however, is that Owner enjoys giving them and they are good for me and so i am delighted to say that Owner has determined they should be reintroduced into our lives. i received my first one this week, 50 strokes after some initial strokes from a paddle. They were an uncomfortable but welcome return and they left their mark

Unfortunately, as a result of not having been able to do any of my butt exercises since April, because of the problems with my back, my 'pillows', as Owner used to describe my butt cheeks, have deflated. i will have to try and bring them back to life again, though my doctor says i am not to lift weights so it will have to just be via squats and hip thrusts. We shall see, but i digress.

Owner also likes me to acquire or learn skills that She may find useful and She has had me attend a variety of courses, during some of the extra days off a year i get over Her, to learn them. So far, i have attended courses on  head and neck message, manicures, knitting and reflexology. On some of them i was the only male on the course but they have all been enjoyable to do. Owner, has now identified another skill She expects Her wife to acquire, namely flower arranging. i researched details of a number of courses for me to attend and presented them to Her and She chose a one day 'Vintage Flower Course' for me to attend at the end of September. i will report back on how i got on.

In addition to having me acquire practical skills becoming of Her wife, Owner also expects me to become Her consummate slut and whore. To that end She has decreed that i am to have some regular 'pussy' training by having my butt plugged on occasions. Owner selected two metal plugs for me to order, one to be worn at times of Her choosing when i am working from home and the other - also metal but with a tail - to be used for challenges and photoshoots. i ordered both from Bondara and they arrived two days later. Each came in a lovely box and i have to say they look beautiful and i can't wait to start trying them out. You can see them in their boxes below

i am truly blessed to have an Owner such as mine who continues to lead me down the path of submission to Her and who is training me to become Her ideal wife.

Our New Year Break

Owner and i have just returned from a lovely romantic break over the New Year. We rented a wonderful little cottage in a small village on the edge of the Chilterns. We had planned to do a few walks but the weather was fairly lousy (rain - constant) and so instead we spent our time snuggled up in front of the log fire in the cottage and exploring pretty little neighbouring towns and villages and in the Cotswolds (about an hours drive away from where we were staying). Some of the places had delightful names, like Upper Slaughter and Lower Slaughter.

This is a picture of where we were staying:

and here are a couple of shots of some of the places we visited

Chipping Camden

Lower Slaughter

Bourton on the Water

The little cottage we were staying in had both a wet room and also a lovely old -fashioned roll-top bath which i couldn't help but lounge in (with Owners permission of course!). Here i am enjoying some quality time with bubbles

The beautiful bath in the corner of the bedroom

Fun with bubbles

Of course, we also had time for a bit of naughty fun whilst we were away too. This morning Owner brought me a small bowl of Her delicious pee for me to drink from in bed (it was super tasty as always) and then She had me kneel on all fours on the bed whilst She tested out a lovely new leather fly swat that we bought in one of the village stores (it was actually marketed in the shop as a 'fly swat/weekend paddle' :) - a kinky lot these villagers!). Owner had me fellate a dildo whilst She spanked me.

Having warmed-up my backside Owner then positioned Herself on a trunk at the foot of the bed and presented Her wonderful pussy at nose height to me for me to inhale. She permitted me to lap Her clitoris whilst She pleasured Herself with Her vibrator. As i sniffed and licked Her Owner instructed me to hump the pillow and mattress with my hips and make myself hard. When satisfied that i was indeed nice and aroused by the combination of Her scent, taste and humping the bedding Owner then  turned around and presented me with Her anus to lick. As my tongue went to work, delighting in exploring and tasting Her backside, Owner continued to pleasure Herself with Her vibrator whilst insisting that i continue to dry hump the duvet.

Owner brought Herself to orgasm and then clambered back on then bed between my legs. Utilising the new leather fly swat Owner then started to spank my exposed testicles with it and masturbating my clitty, all the while commenting and reminding me what a pathetically small clit i have and how dirty i am. My excitement quickly grew and i was soon begging to be allowed to cum. Owner gave Her consent and i came over the bedding as She continued to spank my testicles with the paddle. It was a wonderful way to start the day, though i am sure these orgasms are not good for me!

You will have seen from my last post that we have also established some new rules by which i am to live which will see Owner further extend Her control over me and increase my submission to Her. We are both really excited and pleased by these. i have now applied for a new bank account in order to be able to set it up as my 'monthly allowance' account. It will be topped-up each month with £100 from my main account and that £100 will be my allowance from Owner for the month. The rest of my money will now be controlled by Her and i will be surrendering my other current account card and credit card to Her safe-keeping.

i am also really excited at the prospect of developing ideas for uniforms for me to start to wear. i will submit some ideas to Owner but She also really liked the 1950s suggestion from one of our readers called Michel who left a comment earlier today with some suggested ideas.

it has been a great start to 2016 and i can't wait to spend another wonderful year with Owner.

New Year New Developments

Owner and i would like to wish everyone a belated Happy New Year, we hope you all had a great New Year's eve and that 2016 brings you joy and happiness. Having been apart at Xmas we are spending a wonderful time together in a little cottage hideaway, it really is wonderful.

Today, to mark the start of the New Year, Owner sat me down to review how my development is progressing and to agree how my submission to Her and Her domination of me will further intensify over the next few months. All of this as part of Her training me to become Her perfect wife. i wanted to share with you the outcome of this discussion as there are a number of new ways in which Owner will be further extending Her control of me.

In summary, Owner has decreed the following:

Financial Control - Owner already has significant control over my expenditure. All main purchases i make must be approved by Her and i need to document everything i spend for Her to review. However, Owner will be moving towards assuming total control of my finances (with my full consent), in many respects taking a leaf out of how Her mother completely controls Her fathers finances. Owner suggested moving in stages to this point and so, as an interim measure from now She is going to permit me £100 a month 'allowance' to spend on necessities like travel, going out, clothes etc. This does not include major item expenditure like holidays. Any amount i wish to spend over the £100 in an individual month must be approved by Her. We are looking into getting me a card that can be charged with money for me to use so that i do not need to keep access to my bank card.

New Ownership Tattoo - as a symbol of Owners continued and growing domination of me She has asked me to get a new Ownership tattoo. She has advised that this will be an ankle chain tattoo design. The catch is that i must save up for it from my monthly allowance.

Audit Remaining Household Items and Recycle - we have agreed in the past that our flat will be decorated to Owners taste and that She will be the one who approves what may or may not be bought for the flat. However, there are items that we have which were bought before then and things that Owner no longer wishes for us to have. Accordingly, She has asked me to produce a full audit of all we have which She will the use to identify everything She wishes to have removed and recycled.

Design Household Uniform(s) - Owner wants me to start to wear uniforms at home and has asked to produce ideas for uniforms i could wear when completing/undertaking specific tasks/activities i.e. cleaning, cooking etc. All my ideas are to be submitted to Her for approval and She has encouraged me to consider ways in which i could up-cycle items of clothing i don't often wear into uniforms.

i am really excited at how Owner is continuing to further Her control over me and can think of no more wonderful a way to start a new year than to do so with a discussion about how She plans to increase Her domination of me. i am a truly lucky wife, and a very happy one!

Happy New Year to you all.

Oh No, Not Again - Owner Exerts Her Authority

Oops, i have managed to do it again. As you know i am solely responsible for all of the meals at home, Owner can cook and is an excellent one but part of my role as Her wife means that every meal, from breakfast to dinner, is my responsibility to prepare. Well, during the week i accidentally under-cooked one of the meals and this has resulted in an immediate and thoroughly deserved punishment. Owner has extended the period in which i am not permitted to wear feminine clothes or make-up by an extra week. Whereas i had been looking forward to returning to 'normal' on Monday it will now not happen until the following Monday. Assuming, of course, no further muck-ups on my part!

i am. of course, grateful that Owner holds me to high standards and will punish me when i slip up. Of late, She has also become more vocal in Her demands and expectations of me and more ready to criticise my lapses. To me these are welcome signs of Owners growing confidence in Her control and domination of me and i love and adore Her all the more for that.

i do not want, however, to give the impression that Owner is in anyway cold or unloving. In fact, She is the total opposite and is the most loving and caring person i could ever have hoped for. She regularly showers me with love and affection alongside the control and firmness and discipline that She exercises in our relationship. It is the perfect combination and one i am eternally grateful and thankful to Her for. My desire to submit further, be controlled and dominated more by Her has grown ever stronger over the years. Gradually, under Her care and guidance this has happened, at times almost without me noticing. Aspects of our relationship that to me are completely normal would to others probably be quite shocking or surprising. But because we have gradually changed and evolved in our respective roles i also believe we have established a far more sustainable, deep-rooted dynamic. But crucially, we both love each other today more than we have ever done. Owner makes me feel the most special and precious person in the world and as i slide ever deeper under Her control i feel nourished, safe and cocooned by Her love.

[edit - Owner just discovered a vegetable that had gone rotten in the fridge without my noticing and disposing of. Not acceptable and thus an additional week of punishment ordered]

Training and Development Update and a Punishment

Some of you may be wondering what has happened with the current stage of my training and development by Owner. You may recall that Owner set out Phase 4 of Her 'Plin, Plan, Plon' - what She calls my training and development programme - just before Christmas. It was due for review in April this year to assess whether or not, in Her judgement, i had made sufficient progress to move onto the next level of development as Her wife.

With Owners earlier health scare and a couple of other things happening in 'real life' Owner kindly agreed to extend the period in which She expects me to complete the plan. In Her own words;

'the plin plan plon, which should have been completed by now it is not completed and will have to be extended. It will be extended until Owner is happy with every area. I am understanding of the situation and I don't want to make this plan to be ruled only by deadlines. Pet's development is the most important part of this plan and if more time is required to implement all the learning this is not a problem'.

i have now completed most of the outstanding items and Owner has given me a series of deadlines throughout June in which to complete the last ones. We then go on holiday for a fortnight and so it will be mid-July when Owner will make a decision as to whether i can proceed to the next level of my training and, if so, what that will involve. i am extremely grateful to Owner for granting me this extension and i hope to prove myself worthy of further training by Her.

In the meantime, i am in receipt of a punishment from Owner for three instances in which i did not meet Her expected standards when it came to meal preparation. Knowing how much i enjoy wearing make-up and feminine clothes Owner has decreed that, as from tomorrow, i will be forbidden to do so for a period of two weeks. i know that i have done wrong and i thank Owner for Her punishment and will work hard to ensure that there is no repetition of my misdemeanour. Owner has rules and expectations She expects me to follow at all times. i know what these are and, therefore, there is no excuse for failing to comply with them. i am truly sorry.

Health, Travels, Work and Cheers

As i mentioned in my last post Owner received the all-clear from the doctors a few days ago. It really did come as a great relief to us both and we had been waiting over 6 weeks to hear. The intervening period saw some of my usual domestic routines take a bit of a dive as we spent a lot of time in the evenings snuggled up on the sofa watching DVDs - lovely times but it did mean that some of my expected learning and development fell by the wayside (no Spanish, knitting, sewing etc got done).

Owner has very kindly offered to extend the period of the current phase of my development to allow me to get back on track now that things are back on a more normal keel in our lives. It has also been a month of travelling as well, some of which necessitated time away from Owner which was hard. It was my Mum's 70th birthday and i took her and my sister away for a few days to the Amalfi coast in Italy. It was lovely place to visit and my mum had a wonderful time. However, i don't like being apart from Owner and missed Her terribly. Hopefully one day just the two of us will be able to go back. Here are a couple of quick photos from that trip:

Positano

Ravello

Capri

Owner and i did, however, manage to go on a little trip away ourselves this weekend just gone to Glasgow. We went to see a concert (Nick Cave) but also spent three days exploring the city which neither of us had visited before. We had a really relaxed and enjoyable time together and also got upto a bit of kinkiness as i recalled in my last entry. Owner permitted me to orgasm twice, on both occasions as She spanked my clitty hard. The first time She used a leather fly-swat that She purchased for just such a purpose on another of our travels and the second-time She used the flat of Her palm to spank my clit whilst Her other hand explored my wet pussy. Spanking my clitty hard whenever She allows me to orgasm seems to have become one of the new norms for Owner, i must say that painful as it is, i love it and become quite vocal - something She also encourages Her 'slutty wife' to be! :)

Owner also had one other surprise treat for me in the form of a full glass of Her warm, fresh golden wine (piss) that She presented to me and which i eagerly downed in one. Owner now seems to enjoy having me drink Her urine as much as i relish the opportunity to drink it.  Anyway, here are a couple of pictures from our trip:

Cheers! Glass of Owner's special wine downed in one

Owner's favourite clitty spanking leather fly-swat

 me posing

Glasgow City Centre

Glasgow Central Station

Glasgow Cathedral

Glasgow River Clyde

Whilst we were away Owner continued to choose all of my meals for me when we ate out for lunch and dinner each day. This is something that has now definitely become firmly established as another small example of Her control over my and my submission to Her. A seemingly simple but significant act, rendering menus pointless for me.

As well as this travel the past couple of months have also been quite busy ones for me with work and i have had to travel quite a bit within England to different meetings etc. Owner has remarked that of late i have become less of the stay-at-home wife (i normally work from home) that She is used to and enjoys me being. i too like to be at home for Owner so that i can walk Her to work in the morning and collect Her at the end of the day and do some domestic chores for Her during the day. As Her wife i know that Owner should be able to have me at home where i belong more than has been the case of late and that i need to cut down my work travel. This is something i need to address.

i hope that this finds all my readers well and hopefully you should start seeing my blogging return to its normal frequency!

The Next Phase Of My Development

Today Owner revealed to me the next phase of my development.  Entitled Plin, Plan, Plon IV this development phase will commence on the 1st December 2014 and will run through until 1st April next year. As with all previous Plans this Plan builds upon and is additional to what went before it i.e. i still need to continue to implement the contents of all the proceeding plans whilst also completing the requirements set out in this new plan. Once again, the my performance against the objectives set out in the Plan will be formally reviewed after its completion when a decision will be made as o whether or not my progress has been satisfactory and i can be considered for further development and training or not.

i am really excited about this new Plan. There are some really innovative elements to it and it also seeks to extend Owners control over me into new areas and arenas. It should also help me to become a more useful wife for Her. So, what is new and what does the Plan contain?

Perhaps the mot significant innovation is that Owner has set-up the new Plan on Trello. Previously, i have had a series of spreadsheets, word documents and other things to complete that Owner has then reviewed monthly to monitor and comment on my progress and performance. There are also a series of 'reminder' tables posted up in our kitchen that detail the duties i must complete daily, weekly etc (and which are also listed on the sidebar of this blog) and into which i record my daily task completion entries. Trello does away with the need for all of this. Trello is an on-line 'cloud-based' collaboration project and task management tool that enables all of my expected activities to be organised and set-up electronically. i can then record what i have done, add notes and comment in real-time as too can Owner. i have even downloaded it as an app onto my phone so i can update and record 'on the go'. The advantages are that Owner can now see at any time exactly what i am recording, can easily add new tasks/duties or amend existing ones. i will get these changes straight away and also have one place where i can now record everything. It should make Owners oversight and checking less onerous for Her and more straight-forward and She can also check in 'real-time' what i have or have not done. For me it offers the opportunity to organise my reporting into one place and make it more straightforward. The new Plan doesn't start until the start of next month but i shall start transitioning stuff over to Trello in the next week or two and begin using it. i will update on how it goes but we are both quite excited at the possibilities this system may open-up.

Okay, so that is all very interesting in a geeky kind of way, but what does the new Plan actually contain? What are the additional tasks/activities that i will be expected to do and be judged against? Well, Owner has organised the new phase into 5 broad categories. These are:

• Housework
• Study/skills
• Physical/slut training
• General behaviour
• Ad-hoc

Four of these five categories have a series of specific tasks and behaviours set-out that i will be expected to deliver/undertake during this phase of my development (and forever onwards). This detail is set out below;

Housework

• PROJECT: Review all of our photographs [all ours have been digital for years[ and get some printed for Owners photo album.
• Buy adequate laminate flooring products and clean thoroughly once a week [we had new flooring installed and the old mop etc that i used the clean the floor doesn't do that good a job on the new floor]
• Subscribe to a healthy eating magazine and cook at least one recipe from that magazine a week [this part of the ongoing development of my cookery skills]
• PROJECT: Do a complete kitchen inventory and replace any old/broken kitchen utensils/pans/crockery
• Transfer my current household cleaning and fitness/exercise rota onto Trello

Study/Skills

• Practise my beauty/health skills (reflexology/massage/manicure/facials) - Owner will use Trello to 'book' appointments with me at times and dates of Her choosing - at least 8 times per month
• Create at least 3 jewellery items a month
• Subscribe to a Spanish audio magazine
• Complete 1 embroidery and 1 knitting project during this phase of the Plan
• Keep practising my erotic-short story and other writing skills in order to produce higher quality short-stories and start to write lifestyle guides

Physical/Slut Training

• i am to always be completely naked when providing Owner a pedicure or manicure or when watching TV with Her at home
• There is now a price to pay for being permitted to sniff Owners used panties [something i love to do]. Now, whenever i am allowed to sniff Her used panties i will be spanked 30 times on my 'clitty' whilst wearing nipple clamps
• Purchase a perfumer diffuser to be able to wear Owners 'perfume'. Owners perfume is Her urine and i can be expected to sometimes wear Her 'perfume' by spraying it on me.
• Organised bondage/restraint sessions where i will have to endure pain for periods of time
• Practise more deep-throating by undertaking a series of deep throat challenges - these include deep-throating a dildo at a number of locations across London

General Behaviour

• Seek approval prior to any Facebook postings [yes i am on Facebook and no i am not providing a link! )
• When we go out for a meal, unless otherwise specified, Owner will choose my meal from the menu for me.
• i am to always kneel down before Owner when asking permission for something from Her and bow my head when saying thank you afterwards. There is no need to kneel in public but i am still expected to bow when thanking Her in public.
• All mistakes, deviations etc from the Plan will be punished and must be recorded on Trello. All punishments will count negatively when scoring the Plan. Small 'infractions' will be punished with an over the knee spanking using any implement chosen by Owner. Bigger 'infractions' will be punished using one or a combination of the following methods: ~not wearing feminine clothes ~not wearing jewellery ~not wearing makeup ~not shaving
• When away from Owner due to work or family commitments i am to send Owner an email summarising all i have done that day

Ad-Hoc Tasks
Owner will provide these as and when they need to be completed.

i am excited and honoured to be allowed to move onto this stage of my development as part of my training to become a better wife and slut for Owner. i look forward to documenting my progress (and any pitfalls) on the blog and i hope to use the next few months to demonstrate to Owner my potential for yet further training and development.