Blog Milestone Passed - Over A Thousand Posts & A Bit of Fun

i realised the other day that i missed a bit of a milestone occasion for this humble little blog. Namely that this is post number one thousand and two. i had managed to miss the fact that i had reached the one thousand blog posts milestone. That's a lot of words (and images) of me prattling on about my life as Owners submissive, exhibitionist, slutty wife in a female-led relationship.

My first ever blog post, and the only post not to have first been reviewed and checked by Owner before publishing, was written way, way back in August 2008. Which means this little piece of the bloggersphere has been chugging along for over sixteen years. It is now officially an adult!

In that first ever blog post, which you can read here, i covered a few themes that anyone who has read or followed me over the years will find familiar. Chastity, pain, cooking, public humiliation and forced feminisation - 'forced' until Owner and i both realised that this slut actually loves being feminised. There was not much 'forcing' needed for me to become happily immersed into a world of make-up, bras, knickers etc. i had finally found my true self.

That first foray of mine into the world of blogging attracted the sum total of zero comments at the time and that first post has never been commented on since, despite the passage of time. However, since then a number of people have come across and read my ramblings and some have been kind enough to comment and get in touch. There are people i have connected with through the blog that i consider to be friends, despite never having met, and whose comments and correspondence are always a delight to receive.

Back in 2008 i also, in a later entry, wrote about a trip Owner and i took to Belgium. By complete coincidence we are headed there again at the end of this month, which we are both excited about.

Much has happened in those sixteen years. i have got fatter to start with. Owner and i got married, we moved home, i gained quite a few tattoos and some piercings, discovered i am perhaps even more of an exhibitionist slut than even i realised.  We have both experienced periods of ill health but have been fortunate in being able to have travelled far and wide together and further strengthened and deepened our relationship and our bonds with each other. 

i strive to submit absolutely to Owner (sometimes more successfully than others) and know that true happiness for us both comes from my service to Her and Her domination and control over me.

When i started this blog i hoped it might be useful to others perhaps also exploring the FLR/Femdom lifestyle. In particular, i hoped that by sharing my/our reality of what living a developing 24/7 FLR relationship was like for us i might offer a more realistic and attainable view of such relationships than the more typical (male) fantasy depictions one encounters online. Depictions which i doubt bear little resemblance to (m)any couples lived daily reality. i have always sought to give an honest and open account of my life with Owner, the ups and the downs and, in doing so, hope this little blog may have helped others realise that there is nothing odd or weird about recognising you want nothing more in life than to submit to the person you love and adore. Neither is there anything weird either in wanting to dominate and control (in a consensual manner) the submissive in your life.

Of course, over the sixteen years i have come to realise many other things about myself. i enjoy being locked in chastity, love to be told what to do. i get a lot of satisfaction from cooking and housework. i love to wear make-up with a pretty pair of knickers, bra and clothes. i adore worshipping Owners backside and consuming Her pee. i am an exhibitionist and i am also a slut and derive great pleasure and satisfaction at the thought of being regarded as such by others. i have learnt to tolerate pain (mostly) and am delighted to have been permanently inked many times with reminders of my submission to Owner. i love the inner peace and intimate exposure that comes from being periodically caged and restrained  - well that is until my legs fall asleep! i adore performing for Owner and cuddling up to Her. i have a thing about gigantic cocks and love the taste of cum but have no real desire to be allowed to orgasm myself. i am sexually happiest when kept denied. i love to pose and preen for Owner and serve as Her muse and have got a little better and more confident at doing so over the years. 

i welcome the fact that my salary is not my own and that Owner, not i, is the one who buys clothes for me and decides what i might do or not do. The more controlled i am by Owner and the more authority She exercises over me the happier i have become. Never did i imagine i might enjoy being beaten by Her but i do. i love being the one She comes home to, greeting Her by prostrating myself and kissing each of Her feet in greeting. i love carrying Her things, doing Her hair, Her nails and giving Her massages. i love Her body and Her brain and the fact that i get to spend my life in Her company.

Looking back over the lifetime of this blog, and back further still over all the years Owner and i have been together, i am struck by just how much we have done and experienced. i could never have dreamt my life might have turned out like this. That i might have got to experience so much with such a wonderful person. It hasn't always been plain sailing. There have been illnesses, good times and darker times, periods when both of us have struggled, times when others things in life have intruded and sometimes taken over. There have been times when i have been far from the person i aspire to be, times when Owner has had to chastise me and pull me up short. Times also when, frankly, there hasn't felt or been much to blog about.

Hopefully, there will, however, be many, many more blog posts to come.

Finally, to all who read and comment on this little corner of the internet. Thank you. Your comments, our interaction, means a lot to me. Thank you for taking the time. i always love hearing from you.

Meanwhile, back to the here and now. This morning, just before lunch, saw me stood in the corner by the window, naked with my nipples clamped with the clover clamps with metal teeth and sniffing Owners used panties for 30 minutes. 

As any self-respecting slut should i confess to having been quite excited at having stood naked in the window looking at the neighbouring houses opposite and the people passing by in the street.

Then, after lunch i did a couple of little 'performances' that Owner had requested of me. The first is my re-imagining of the Barbara Stanwyck grocery store scene from  Double Indemnity

You can quite literally hear  Owner almost crying with laughter at my performance.

This was swiftly followed by my own version of the Sophia Loren strip-tease in the Italian 60s film Ieri Oggi Domani 

So yes, life with Owner continues to be as fun as it has always been