Home Sweet Home

This afternoon Owner watched a horror movie called Final Destination:Bloodlines. i started to watch it with Her but it quickly got too much for me too handle, i am a bit of a lightweight when it comes to horror movies whereas Owner loves them. Shortly after the movie started, and after despairing of me trying to hide behind Her so that i didn't have to watch what was unfolding on screen,  Owner sent me to the kitchen where She shut me naked into my new dog cage. She then returned to watch Her film in peace.

In my new dog cage in the kitchen whilst Owner enjoyed Her movie in the lounge

i must admit, i love being shut in this new cage and Owner is very happy with it too. It is so easy to assemble and really lightweight. There is something intensely calming and relaxing about being shut in it. This time i was lucky and was not gagged, cuffed and chained. Owner even brought me some snacks at one point, to eat from my usual dog bowl of course.

Snack time

It may sound a weird thing to say but hopefully on days when my chores have all been done and Owner has tired of me or is not desirous of my company i can simply be sent to my new little 'home', out of Her way. It is also light enough to take with us when we travel should Owner ever wish to.

The morning saw me busy with chores, study, exercises, tasks and providing Owner with a massage. After exercising i received a wonderful and refreshing glass of Owners' piss to re-hydrate me which was swiftly downed with relish.

To my delight i also received my first formal review from Owner using the new performance management system She has adapted to use with me and which i wrote about in my last post. Owner wrote that She had noticed a slight improvement in my performance, which She adjudged to have been 'satisfactory'. However, and to my shame, She then went on to highlight a number of areas in which i was clearly failing, such as having not properly dusted the light fittings and doors or finding spots of limescale on the spout of the kitchen and bathroom taps amongst other things. i swiftly rectified these errors and then duly noted them in my punishment book. 

Amongst the feedback provided by Owner was the following, which hopefully shows that i have been making progress in my submission and service to Her. She wrote:

'poppet has become much more proactive in the past few years, which was always one of my goals, they can anticipate my needs and what I would like to do and this is wonderful to see. I would like them to continue being proactive and come up with their own suggestions and not be afraid to share them with me, I may say no, but you never know!'

Today i also had an opportunity, with Her permission, to leave the flat and go and get a coffee for Owner from the cafe in the local park. It was a chance to show-off the 'Wifey' t-shirt, that Owner bought me a while back, to park goers and the people in the cafe. 

i hope everyone is well and is not feeling too bombarded by posts and updates from me of late!

Blog Milestone Passed - Over A Thousand Posts & A Bit of Fun

i realised the other day that i missed a bit of a milestone occasion for this humble little blog. Namely that this is post number one thousand and two. i had managed to miss the fact that i had reached the one thousand blog posts milestone. That's a lot of words (and images) of me prattling on about my life as Owners submissive, exhibitionist, slutty wife in a female-led relationship.

My first ever blog post, and the only post not to have first been reviewed and checked by Owner before publishing, was written way, way back in August 2008. Which means this little piece of the bloggersphere has been chugging along for over sixteen years. It is now officially an adult!

In that first ever blog post, which you can read here, i covered a few themes that anyone who has read or followed me over the years will find familiar. Chastity, pain, cooking, public humiliation and forced feminisation - 'forced' until Owner and i both realised that this slut actually loves being feminised. There was not much 'forcing' needed for me to become happily immersed into a world of make-up, bras, knickers etc. i had finally found my true self.

That first foray of mine into the world of blogging attracted the sum total of zero comments at the time and that first post has never been commented on since, despite the passage of time. However, since then a number of people have come across and read my ramblings and some have been kind enough to comment and get in touch. There are people i have connected with through the blog that i consider to be friends, despite never having met, and whose comments and correspondence are always a delight to receive.

Back in 2008 i also, in a later entry, wrote about a trip Owner and i took to Belgium. By complete coincidence we are headed there again at the end of this month, which we are both excited about.

Much has happened in those sixteen years. i have got fatter to start with. Owner and i got married, we moved home, i gained quite a few tattoos and some piercings, discovered i am perhaps even more of an exhibitionist slut than even i realised.  We have both experienced periods of ill health but have been fortunate in being able to have travelled far and wide together and further strengthened and deepened our relationship and our bonds with each other. 

i strive to submit absolutely to Owner (sometimes more successfully than others) and know that true happiness for us both comes from my service to Her and Her domination and control over me.

When i started this blog i hoped it might be useful to others perhaps also exploring the FLR/Femdom lifestyle. In particular, i hoped that by sharing my/our reality of what living a developing 24/7 FLR relationship was like for us i might offer a more realistic and attainable view of such relationships than the more typical (male) fantasy depictions one encounters online. Depictions which i doubt bear little resemblance to (m)any couples lived daily reality. i have always sought to give an honest and open account of my life with Owner, the ups and the downs and, in doing so, hope this little blog may have helped others realise that there is nothing odd or weird about recognising you want nothing more in life than to submit to the person you love and adore. Neither is there anything weird either in wanting to dominate and control (in a consensual manner) the submissive in your life.

Of course, over the sixteen years i have come to realise many other things about myself. i enjoy being locked in chastity, love to be told what to do. i get a lot of satisfaction from cooking and housework. i love to wear make-up with a pretty pair of knickers, bra and clothes. i adore worshipping Owners backside and consuming Her pee. i am an exhibitionist and i am also a slut and derive great pleasure and satisfaction at the thought of being regarded as such by others. i have learnt to tolerate pain (mostly) and am delighted to have been permanently inked many times with reminders of my submission to Owner. i love the inner peace and intimate exposure that comes from being periodically caged and restrained  - well that is until my legs fall asleep! i adore performing for Owner and cuddling up to Her. i have a thing about gigantic cocks and love the taste of cum but have no real desire to be allowed to orgasm myself. i am sexually happiest when kept denied. i love to pose and preen for Owner and serve as Her muse and have got a little better and more confident at doing so over the years. 

i welcome the fact that my salary is not my own and that Owner, not i, is the one who buys clothes for me and decides what i might do or not do. The more controlled i am by Owner and the more authority She exercises over me the happier i have become. Never did i imagine i might enjoy being beaten by Her but i do. i love being the one She comes home to, greeting Her by prostrating myself and kissing each of Her feet in greeting. i love carrying Her things, doing Her hair, Her nails and giving Her massages. i love Her body and Her brain and the fact that i get to spend my life in Her company.

Looking back over the lifetime of this blog, and back further still over all the years Owner and i have been together, i am struck by just how much we have done and experienced. i could never have dreamt my life might have turned out like this. That i might have got to experience so much with such a wonderful person. It hasn't always been plain sailing. There have been illnesses, good times and darker times, periods when both of us have struggled, times when others things in life have intruded and sometimes taken over. There have been times when i have been far from the person i aspire to be, times when Owner has had to chastise me and pull me up short. Times also when, frankly, there hasn't felt or been much to blog about.

Hopefully, there will, however, be many, many more blog posts to come.

Finally, to all who read and comment on this little corner of the internet. Thank you. Your comments, our interaction, means a lot to me. Thank you for taking the time. i always love hearing from you.

Meanwhile, back to the here and now. This morning, just before lunch, saw me stood in the corner by the window, naked with my nipples clamped with the clover clamps with metal teeth and sniffing Owners used panties for 30 minutes. 

As any self-respecting slut should i confess to having been quite excited at having stood naked in the window looking at the neighbouring houses opposite and the people passing by in the street.

Then, after lunch i did a couple of little 'performances' that Owner had requested of me. The first is my re-imagining of the Barbara Stanwyck grocery store scene from  Double Indemnity

You can quite literally hear  Owner almost crying with laughter at my performance.

This was swiftly followed by my own version of the Sophia Loren strip-tease in the Italian 60s film Ieri Oggi Domani 

So yes, life with Owner continues to be as fun as it has always been

Naked in Nice

So Owner and i are just back from a short trip to Nice on the cote d'azur in the South of France. Despite it being December we were blessed with a few days of glorious winter weather, with just the one day of rain. We even squeezed in a short side trip to Monaco. Oh and yes and i also ended up naked in public, but more of that later.

Truth be told we were both exhausted when we arrived. We have both been extremely busy with work. Our plan on arrival had been to find our AirBnB, go to a supermarche, get some provisions and then collapse. But, best laid plans and all that. 

It was a glorious winters day and so, after stocking up on provisions, we headed out to the seafront to walk along the promenade des anglais. Next we went up the colline de chateu to admire the view back across the city of Nice and the waterfront. It looked lovely with the hills and mountains in the background, some of which were snow-capped.

Then, as the sun set over the horizon, it painted the cote d'azur in amber and golden hues, creating a quite spectacular scene

Parading back along the promenade des anglais the waterfront came alive with the lights of some of the hotels and festive decorated palm trees. It was a lovely evening stroll. Somehow it reminded Owner and i of Miami.

The following day was wet. We visited the Russian Orthodox Cathedral

Then walked around the (largely deserted) old town

To escape the rain we went to the Musee du Palais Lascaris. It is set in a house with an amazing interior and contains a wonderful collection of old musical instruments, some of which neither of us have ever encountered before.

It also contains some 18th century porn! Yes, stuck on the inside lid of a piano was this delightful scene of a woman fondling another woman's breasts.

Saturday dawned bright and sunny and so we set off on the short train ride to Monaco.  The principality did not disappoint with its parade of the wealthy, their toys and their pets. Sadly, Owner only had me to accompany Her.

Here i am on the steps of the casino

Having 'done' Monaco we jumped back on the train for the short trip back to Nice. Upon arrival we headed back to the old town. Unlike the day before this time the place was lively with all the shops and bars open. After a spot of retail therapy we ended up having a few beers and some delicious charcuterie.

It was then that the nakedness happened. No, i did not strip off in the bar (not something i have ever done in my life....but as they say, never say never....). No. My nakedness occurred when we got back to our AirBnB and Owner instructed me to pose naked outside on the balcony, a balcony overlooked by many other apartments.

So, here i am, naked in Nice complete with wheat beer belly.

Owner also made a little video of me on the balcony

Then She got creative with some of the settings on my phone. Firstly, spotlighting my butt

Then giving me a very appropriate beret and a, perhaps less appropriate, pink halo

Then finally She created these. i know it sounds completely narcissistic to say this but i love the following images and wish i actually looked like this in real life, albeit with breasts too (and less of a belly - i blame the wheat beers i had been drinking), but i know Owner likes me as i am. Still i can daydream.

i quite like the fact that the AI in the phone camera decided i was a girl and sought to feminise me further, even though i am obviously not one. Actually, i was referred to a few times as mademoiselle whilst we were there, which made me smile every time i heard myself referred to this way.

Incidentally, whilst these pictures were being taken i was conscious of at least one other person watching what we were up to from an apartment opposite. Knowing there was an audience obviously made the whole impromptu photo shoot that much more fun!

The next and final day dawned bright and sunny again and provided Owner and i with a last opportunity to head back down to the waterfront and have a stroll and lunch before heading to the airport and our flight home. Whilst we were in Monaco Owner bought me a lovely glittery t-shirt. i wore it this final day and happily posed in it on the promenade - this time with a few more clothes on!

i leave you with a few final shots of Nice in the sunshine. It was a lovely short trip.

Last Days of Advent

As Christmas approaches, and as the UK fast descends into....well farce, it is also nearly the end of Owner's advent calendar. i can't believe that there are just two fun-filled little envelopes left to open until Christmas Day itself. Owner has already declared Her calendar idea to have been such fun that She is going to recycle some of the tasks i have completed these past few weeks and have me do them again in the future. It's a wonderful thought and something to look forward to for 2021.

In the meantime, this is just a quick update on yesterday and today's advent asks of me. Yesterday was quite a simple task, i was to serve dinner to Owner whilst completely naked except for a pair of high heels. Simple enough, all i had to do was avoid spilling the food, a risk that i am pleased to report that i successfully avoided. So i present to you the naked, high heel wearing poppet.

can you guess which serving is mine?

Yes, there is a reason why i am carrying a plate and a dog bowl. The reason is that all of my meals are eaten from a dog bowl (breakfast, lunch, dinner). Owner has long-held the view that this is the most appropriate form of dish for me to eat from. i am lucky that at least She permits me to use cutlery, though on very rare occasions this has been denied to me - which makes for some messy mealtimes! In fact, so accustomed am i to eating from a dog bowl that on one occasion in the past when my Dad was staying over i wonder why he was staring at me eating at breakfast. It took a while for me to realise that yes, it probably does look odd to see your son eating cereals from a dog bowl, especially as we also don't have a dog!

Anyway, back to the advent calendar. Todays task, revealed when i opened the envelope this morning, was to perform a strip-tease for Owner. i did this after work and opted, for my musical accompaniment, to strip to the classic David Rose jazz style number The Stripper. It was great fun to do and i ended my performance sitting on Owner's lap. i also got an opportunity to wear my brand new fishnet stockings, which i think are divine (Owner agrees). Anyway, here is a picture and a short video clip of me in pursuit of Owner ready to snare Her with my feather boa

Flashing my fishnet stocking tops

i wonder what my final two advent tasks will bring?

Stay safe everyone.

Clothed Owner Naked Pet

Owner advised that tonight She wished me to just wear a pair of heels and my butt plug whilst preparing dinner and then for the remainder of the evening. It has been a warm day in London and so the opportunity to strip off completely when i got home from work was actually a very pleasant one - i think i may be enjoyig this more than i am supposed to!