So this week has been spent living out of an anonymous hotel room in Exeter in the west of England so that i am close to where my Dad is being cared for in the hospital. He had a stroke and, although luckily not a major one, that combined with a stay in an unfamiliar place has really worsened his Alzheimers. It's terribly sad to see a man who, quite literally commanded the skies in a 747, DC10 and numerous other aircraft that he flew and captained, sitting confused, sometimes scared and entirely dependent on others. However, it has not all been doom and gloom, there have also been moments of unintended hilarity. But it is, nevertheless, emotionally hard.
Owner has been wonderfully supportive but She is hundreds of miles away. She still has to work, and i miss Her as i know She misses me too. We will, at least, be reunited this weekend and then we shall see what next week brings.
i feel guilty too as i know that, with me not at home, She is having to do all the things that quite rightly and naturally would normally fall to me to do, allowing Her to relax and do as She pleases. But, this week i have not been there and it pains me to hear of the chores and tasks She has had to do in my absence. i can't wait to get back and lift that burden off Her shoulders.
In fact i cannot wait to get back to see Her period. i miss Her. i miss serving Her. i miss being loved and chided by Her. Miss Her cuddles and Her beatings. i miss prostrating myself and kissing Her feet in the morning. i miss checking if She needs anything, miss asking if i might speak with Her, miss having Her instruct and guide me, i miss being spooned by Her in bed, stroking Her hair and scratching Her head. i miss the laughs and the tellings off.
We do, however, check-in throughout the day and She still approves what i might wear which, this week has seen me visiting the hospital, seeing my Dad and interacting with the medical staff etc in my make-up and padded bras, which are fairly visible beneath my t-shirts. In fact looking like this, different t-shirts, blouses each day - photos taken in the hotel room before setting out to the hospital
Always good to try and remain 'perky' when visiting a hospital, it helps to cheer the patients up :) Meanwhile, here i am in the hospital with my Dad
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