The Show Must Go On

i owe everyone an apology, Owner especially for having been quite rubbish of late. i have become distracted by work, which at times has been quite shit and by the general state of the world, even more shit. Consequently my mind has been elsewhere and my performance and behaviours have not been anywhere close to the levels Owner expects and that i aspire to provide.

i have allowed my mind and my focus to be elsewhere rather than focussed as it should be on serving and submitting to Owner. i have been distracted and have grown wan and listless. i have kept up my Spanish studies but my exercises have become irregular and i have put on the pounds. Daily chores, whilst still undertaken, have not been fully completed, not have punishments been requested as they should be.

In short, i have been quite shit.

i am someone who can be 'in my head' quite a bit. Normally that is a good thing, it helps with my focus, submission and service. However, there are times that part of me becomes subsumed under other worries and concerns and i kind of lose touch with myself a bit, the happy submissive and playful side of me. Sadly i have been in one of those places of late.

To make matters worse Owner and i are currently in different countries and i am missing Her terribly. She flew out to Spain on Saturday and i head out to join Her this coming Friday. Neither of us likes being apart from one another.

The positive is that neither of us wants this new 'relaxed' (in terms of my behaviour) state of affairs to continue. We both desire the return of 'normal' me i.e. a submissive, contented, horny and frustrated pet who is regularly tortured and punished by his Owner and who dotes on and serves Her and keeps everything in Her life 'just so' whilst still being good company. Someone focussed on Her and nothing else.

i am trying to get back to that state of mind. It really is the place in which i am at my happiest and most contented, it is just that work and the world seem to conspire against me on a daily basis. But, we must overcome. Better times can still be ahead.

So with that in mind, and with Owners permission even though She is not here to supervise me, i was allowed to still do my monthly outdoor challenge. The dice were rolled and... drumroll please, they showed that i was to do a bra flash outside a train station that is about 15 minutes from where we live. Incidentally, i videoed the dice roll, which was done immediately after I woke up, so Owner could be reassured it was done properly. If you are curious to know what sort of state i look like just after i have rolled out of bed scroll to the very end and you can see the video of me, in my nightie with my bed hair.

But, back to the challenge. It is a warm summers day here in London so i decided to complete my challenge wearing my short denim skirt and a little sleeveless and slightly cropped summer blouse – which sort of reveals my bra a little bit anyway, even i pulled it down to show-off my pretty lace cups.

The result looked like this

As promised, for the curious wanting to know what I look like first thing (and I warn you it is not pretty) this is the dice-roll video i recorded for Owner this morning

20 Years

Owner and i celebrated 20 years since the day we first clapped eyes on each other this weekend. That momentous occasion occurred at Bond Street tube station on the 31 May 2005 when, after a period of conversing online, we met in-person for the first time.

It would then be another 5 months before Owner tired of waiting for me to make a move and so grabbed me and snogged me as i was about to wave Her goodbye at Charing Cross station. What had been a relationship of 'just friends' then quickly became something far closer.

Fast forwards 20 years and we are still very much in love and having fun together and loving each others company. To mark the occasion Owner treated me by taking me out to a concert at the O2 Arena in Greenwich and booking a hotel next to the venue so that we could have a lazy morning the next day. The band we went to see were the amazing Babymetal with support from Poppy and Bambie Thug. It was a wonderful concert and we both had a great time. Here are some pictures from the evening:

The giant space that is the O2 Arena

In rock we trust

Yours truly

The view over the O2 and the River Thames from our hotel window

As an anniversary gift i bought Owner a pair of beautiful (well i think so and She was very happy with them) ear-rings. 

Owner bought me a really pretty new rainbow coloured stainless steel chastity device. However, pretty as it was the device was also very heavy and unfortunately we both quickly concluded that it wasn't going to be a practical option for me. Consequently, i currently continue to remain chastity free.

pretty but much too heavy

Sorry for not having posted much recently. Life, work especially, has been busy and stressful and my 'get up and go' kind of got up and went. Normality will, i hope, return soon.

Naughty Neighbour

Today is the 16th of the month and, as regular readers of this blog will know, that means it was outdoor challenge day. Accordingly, as Owner looked on, this morning i rolled Her two outdoor challenge dice. The first determines the challenge location and the second what i will be doing.

First up was the location. The dice decided that i would be completing the challenge literally just around the corner, about 100m from where we live in a neighbouring street. This was followed by the second dice which determined what i would be doing. The answer....a bra flash.

Long gone are the days when just the prospect of flashing my bra would have left me mortified and embarrassed. My 38AAA bras regularly get 'revealed' in bars and cafes, even sometimes at work when i notice my blouse is gaping open a little more than intended! So anyway, i thought i would jazz-up my 'flash' by using the opportunity to also show off my favourite skirt.

It is my favourite on account of the fact that the hem barely covers my panties. Many a tradesman, builder or delivery person has seen me wearing it when they have called around to Owners flat but the only time i have ventured outside wearing it is when i put the rubbish out. Until today that is.

Today i opted to wear my red bra, no blouse (just a denim jacket), matching red panties and shoes, my little black skirt and stockings.

It was fun posing in the neighbouring street. My whole 'performance' was also watched by a woman who was sat in a parked car. Quite what she thought of my little 'show' i have no idea. Owner complimented me on how i got on by describing me as 'tarty', which made my day. What do readers think?

Orgasms and Ice Cream Aplenty

These past couple of days have seen Owners vibrator power Her to climax after climax and a positive tsunami of semen spurt from my own excitable little clitty. It is fair to say that Owner has made full use of my temporarily unlocked and somewhat incapacitated state for Her pleasure and amusement. Having had no orgasms for nearly a full year She again instructed me to:

'Cum like a slut' this morning, the third such instruction She has given me in a little over seven days. i am having quite the week!

In addition to that, Owner has also allowed me to eat ice cream at home, again on three occasions this past week. Owner is usually quite strict in terms of whether or not i am allowed ice cream. Add to that the fact that She has also plied me with drinks a couple of times and my period of incapacity has definitely had its upsides!

Actually, thinking about it i wonder if anyone has ever tried or made semen flavoured ice cream? i'd buy it :). But, back to that third orgasm, which happened early this morning.

The day began with Owner reaching across under the bedsheet and teasing and caressing my sleepy unlocked little clit, deftly wakening it with Her fingers. The next minute She was up and rummaging about in Her bedside table. i was lying on my side, facing away from Her, so could not see what She was doing. However, i soon heard the unmistakable sound of straps being tightened as She stepped into Her strapon.

My initial thought was one of concern lest She had decided to road test Her new strapon in my pussy. Much as i love to be fucked i am not sure fucking it hard would be a good idea right now given the current state of my back. i also knew though that, were She to part my legs back pain or no back pain this slut would be too cock hungry to try to resist. AS it turned out Owner was clearly on the same wavelength and had another plan in mind for Her whore, namely having Her suck Her lovely new cock whilst She pleasured Her clit with Her vibrator.

Owners new cock is a delight.  Owner saw it online and was immediately taken with it and the harness. It is an XXL Sliding Skin Dildo from the French company Strap on Me. It is a girthy cock with realistic sliding foreskin meaning that i can 'wank' it like a real penis whilst also sucking on its delightful head. At first Owner thought i was struggling to get Her cock down into my throat. However, it was less a size issue and more an angle of attack problem. Her positioning meant that Her cock was hitting up against the roof of my mouth rather than pushing down my throat. A small adjustment in position quickly solved that issue and we were off, my head bobbing up and down Her impressive shaft whilst i gripped the realistic flesh of its length and stroked it up and down.

Owners lovely new phallus

After first bringing Herself off with Her vibrator as i fellated and masturbated Her cock Owner then permitted me to masturbate my own diminutive little clit whilst also continuing to suck Her own bigger phallus. With my mouth lips wrapped around Her cock i sought permission to cum from Owner. 'Like a slut' She instructed and watched in satisfaction as i rubbed my clit until it spurted. My third orgasm in a week. 

The Temptation of Poppet

My back is slowly starting to recover. For the first time in a week i was able to leave the flat and accompany Owner on a short (and slow) walk around the block. That evening often offered to split a can of rum and coke, that had been in our fridge for weeks, with me.  i don't know if the rum was strong or it was the combination of rum and meds but it made me quite tipsy very quickly!

Then yesterday i managed a slightly longer excursion with Her, this time walking to our local park (the one that often features in the background of some of my outdoor challenges) and managing to complete a lap of it whilst supervised and accompanied by Owner. It was lovely to be outside again.

On the slow walk back home Owner suggested buying some alcoholic drinks to have whilst watching a rental movie at home, beer for Her and cherry cider for me, declaring that She wanted to get me pissed. Well, two small bottles later and i couldn't feel any discomfort in my back at all. Owner then poured me a limoncello and, well the next thing i knew i had fallen asleep!

Fast forward to the next day i.e. this morning. As i lay in bed Owner began teasing and caressing my unlocked clit, She has insisted it remain unlocked ever since the cage broke a week ago. It didn't take long before it and i were both fully aroused. Owner then stopped teasing me for a short while before turning Her attention back to my clit once again. This continued for a short while, Her slapping and caressing my clit and playing with my nipples then pausing, before commencing again. All the while i lay there, breathing heavily as i felt my arousal increase.

Then Owner suddenly got out of bed. i thought that, having teased me, that was it, but i was wrong. She removed Her knickers and placed them over my head, positioning the crotch so that i could inhale Her scent. The fabric was moist. i breathed in deeply, breathing in the heady aroma of Her sex.

Knickers in place i then heard Owner rummaging around in Her bedside drawer before She padded around the bed and positioned Herself so that She was stood by my side of the bed, facing away from me. She removed Her knickers from my head and i rolled onto my side to take in the glorious site of Her naked backside positioned just inches from my face. i grasped Her hips with both hands and was able to wiggle myself to the edge f the bed so that i could bury my tongue between her ass cheeks, As i did so She flicked on Her vibrator and clamped it against Her clit.

Owner half-squatted at the side of the bed, pleasuring Herself with Her toy as i gripped Her buttocks with my hands and pleasured Her anus with my tongue as She brought Herself off. The fun did not, however, end there.

After climaxing Owner got back into bed and rolled onto Her side. By this point i was so horny that all discomfort from my back was forgotten and i hauled myself 180 degrees so that my face was now level with Owners recumbent backside. i parted Her cheeks and feasted on Her glorious anus. Owner once again positioned Her vibrator between Her legs and pleasured Herself further as my tongue licked, pushed and twirled inside Her luscious chocolate treat. Then to my surprise, and with my face still buried between Her cheeks, Owner reached across to my clit and started to stroke it fast, pumping it until i was soon urgently requesting permission to cum, my words muffled from having my face buried between Her arse cheeks.

Thus it was that, for a second time in a week, i found myself climaxing. This time with the added sensory delight of doing so whilst my face was buried in Owners wonderful backside. i confess that it was a heavenly treat.

After we got up Owner then escorted me on another short walk, this time to the shopping centre where we had a coffee before getting some provisions. i again felt bad as i can't really carry anything at the moment so Owner had to lug the shopping back home, only letting me carry a bag of kitchen towels and cold meat. Even just this, however, possibly combined with the mornings excitement, was enough for me to need to retire back to bed when we got back from the shops and cook my back for a bit with the mini electric blanket.

In summary, Owner is continuing to take very good care of me (arguably too good) and my back is steadily improving. Hopefully i will be back to being able to fully resume my duties and chores in the not to distant future. Here are some pictures of me that Owner took today

in the shopping centre cafe

cooking my back with the mini-electric blanket

My Wonderful Owner

It has been almost a week now that i have been laid up, first with my hip and then with my back (the latter triggered by the problem i had with the former). There has been very little that i have physically been able to do other than occasionally slowly shuttle to the bathroom or the kitchen and back, at first only with the help of crutches, now finally unaided.

During this time Owner has been a star. She has cooked and cleaned, helped to towel me dry after a shower, brought me drinks and snacks, entertained and looked after me. She even went out and bought me some clothes to cheer me up (cute shorts and a little t-shirt) and some things to read, a travel guide to our next big planned holiday destination (Japan) and a manga about the joys of dressing up and trying to look cute - just up my street! All whilst still working full-time. i truly have the best, most caring and the kindest Owner in the world.

i feel guilty about Her doing all this and keep sporadically trying to 'help' only to be immediately scolded and told my focus should be on taking care of my back and ensuring that it fully recovers and there is no repeat of what happened to me 15 years ago. That is when 2 discs slipped and i was left unable to walk for months and it took a further 2-3 years before i was physically capable of doing something as simple as running to catch a bus. Thankfully, my routine of daily exercises and stretches helped my back to recover. Until that is the bursitis in my hip managed to trigger it last week. i am hopeful, however, that i will have fully recovered by next week.

Meantime, i am being ultra cautious and just trying to 'sneak-in' a bit of occasional and very light housework, things that don't risk my back or the wrath of my concerned Owner. Most of my day is, however, spent doing next to nothing constructive or useful. Instead, all i can do is watch as my poor Owner works and toils around me and marvel at what a truly wonderful, caring and beautiful Owner i have. She truly is one in a million.

Owner Takes Advantage

The good news is that my hip bursitis is fast easing and i now have an increasing amount of mobility. i am still spending my time mostly in bed, popping ibuprofen after meals, but i can now go for short shuffling walks to the bathroom and kitchen and sit up for five minutes or so. A huge improvement on how i was 24 hours ago.

This was taken by Owner 24 hours ago after She brushed my hair whilst i lay immobile in bed

The less 'good' news is that this morning Owner made me orgasm, bringing my 11 month orgasm-free state to a sticky end. It was remarkably easy feat for Her to achieve. In my previous post i recalled how not only had i hurt my hip but that the cage of my chastity device had also split. Rather than have me switch to a back-up device Owner had instead insisted that, as i was bed-ridden, i should also be unlocked and stay that way until She advised otherwise. So all of yesterday and last night my little clit was free and unlocked for the first time in many, many months.

Which brings me to this morning. 

On waking, Owner started to caress and slap my little clit, bringing it swiftly to attention. She then paused and played with and caressed my titties for a bit whilst i just lay there feeling uncomfortably aroused. Owner then turned Her attention back to my clit, giving it a couple of quick strokes and then slapping it five or six times. Enough for me to realise that, after so long without ejaculating it would not take much stimulation for my trigger happy little clit to explode and my 11 month orgasm-free streak to come to a sudden and abrupt end. i lay there, helpless, as Owner again ceased Her brief torment of my clit and turned Her attention back to my, now highly aroused, nipples. Owner reminded me how hard and aroused they had gotten on holiday the day we visited the monasteries of Meteora and what a slut i was.

Owner then slapped and stroked my clitty again for a few seconds, She was toying with me. i knew it would not take much for me to cum. However, She paused again, causing me to think that perhaps the moment had passed and that She would be satisfied at the knowledge that She had made Her wife's unlocked clit uncomfortably hard and aroused. i was wrong.

Owner draped Her leg over me and began rubbing my stiff little clit with Her thigh. i knew then that any further stimuli would see me begging to be permitted to cum before the inevitable happened. My clit was so easily excited i knew just the slightest bit of extra stimuli and eleven months of denial would come squirting out. Owner clearly knew this too.

She ceased rubbing my shaft with Her thigh and paused for a minute. Then She grabbed my still stiff little clit and began to deliberately stroke and slap it. i blurted out a request to cum, knowing full well that there was no way i could now stop myself from ejaculating after just a matter of a few minutes of cursory stimuli from Owner.

'Cum like a slut' She instructed.

And i did, squealing as i drenched my belly in mess. i lay there panting, my emotions a mix of post-orgasm pleasure and disappointment. Disappointment that after eleven months of being kept free of an orgasm of any kind, my clitty had been allowed to squirt again.

For Her part Owner seemed very happy and satisfied at how easy it had been for Her to make me cum. Whether and when She might make me orgasm again i have no idea. i hope it is not for a long time, if ever. As always, however, it will be Owner who decides and i know that She does enjoy being able to make me cum like a whore whenever She so chooses.

Bugger, Bursitis

It was all going so well. Our holiday may have been over but i was once again at home and happy keeping Owner's home clean and looking after Her.

There was even the prospect of receiving a beating as well as being electro tortured by Owner.  Her frozen shoulder is now fast 'thawing' and She advised me that She hoped to be able to resume caning, paddling and whipping me.

On Wednesday I had been instructed to fuck myself for five minutes (Owner set Her timer) with one of Her cocks whilst Owner looked on.

Fucking my pussy under supervision 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Owner had also advised that She would  be fucking me with Her huge tentacle dildo whilst I deep-throated one of Her cocks. I may be kept in chastity and in frustrated denial but Owner likes to ensure my holes remain loose and in good condition for fucking and deep-throating, like a true slut.

Anyway, like I say it was all going so well and then...disaster. My hip started to feel weird and painful and within a matter of hours I could barely sit or stand with any degree of comfort. The only pain-free position I could adopt was flat on my back.

Which is where I have remained.  Owner is taking great care of me as I apply heat treatment and pop anti-inflamatories to combat the bursitis in my hip. However, at present I can barely move save hobble to and from the bathroom on crutches (a legacy of the last time I had a problem with my leg). 

To round off my bad luck the cage of my chastity device split 😞.

 We had also been due to attend the theatre this weekend but sadly that is not going to be possible (I can't sit down). Hopefully my hip will soon heal. Until then there is not much I am able to do.

We're Back - An Anniversary Surprise In Store And My Delayed April Challenge

Owner and i eventually arrived home from our Greek holiday yesterday early evening, twenty-four hours later than expected. Our flight from Thessaliniki to Athens was delayed so we missed our connecting flight back to London Heathrow. It was the Easter weekend and so we were expecting we might end up having to spend the night at Athens airport but everyone was super helpful to us. The ground agent re-booked us onto a flight leaving the following day and we were also able to secure a complimentary hotel stay with food etc (plus our luggage) in what turned out to be a very nice hotel close to the airport.

Long-story short, we caught the replacement flight and eventually got home after an unplanned day long extension to our holiday. Northern Greece truly was amazing. We saw many places and experienced lots of wonderful moments together that will live on as cherished memories. 

One thing i also learnt from Owner whilst we were away is that She intends to have me tattooed again for our 20th anniversary together - which is this year. Given that i have spent most of those twenty years in chastity She wants me tattooed with an old-fashioned lock to symbolise how She has kept me locked in chastity 24/7 for most of those twenty years. It is a lovely idea and i cannot wait to see Owners' design and then to get the tattoo done.  Another visible reminder of Her control and ownership

We discussed the placement of the tattoo. At first Owner suggested i have it on my bottom close to the skeleton key tattoo She had previously commissioned for me to symbolise my chaste state - the lock tattoo will be of a similar old-fashioned/gothic style lock. i suggested having it done on the same leg as the key but on my groin, just under my hip and close to my caged clit. Owner will be the one to ultimately decide but i am curious to know what readers think?

Anyway, back to the present. When we got back home yesterday i was pretty exhausted and once i had unpacked and put everything away i fell straight to sleep, even though it was only 7.30pm. i didn't wake until 7.30 the next morning! 

After serving breakfast i sought Owner's permission to roll the dice to complete the delayed April outdoor challenge. Owner agreed and so the dice were rolled. The first dice determined the location, the steps of a local railway station that is about a 215 minute walk away. The second dice determined the outfit i would be wearing - my manga maid's outfit. Yippee!

The outfit is actually perfect for the Easter weekend as, colour aside, it is sort-of Easter bunny style. However, being the Easter weekend guaranteed that there would be lots and lots of people about, both en route and at the station - which has a number of cafes around it with outdoor seating - always popular on dry days and today was cloudy but dry.

i also chose not to cover the outfit with a coat or anything during my walk there and back (15 minutes each way) and to wear my little ears all the time. The dress is so short it barely covers my knickers, then on the way down they started to fall down! Anyway, i managed to get there and back and complete my challenge - which was great fun to do. i also created a little video on route. You can see how i got on below:

My Very VPL :)

Here i am on route:

Plus a little video i recorded as i neared the railway station to complete my challenge

And after having to stop to hitch-up my panties on the way home i also used the opportunity to try and create my own 'Athena poster' image - minus the tennis racket and court of course

It was a fun challenge to do and i am grateful to Owner for permitting me to still complete an outdoor challenge when we returned from holiday as we were away on the 16th of the month - the actual date on which such challenges always occur. It was fun to be dressed in my little manga dress and stockings in public.

Gods and Time Travel

Our penultimate day in Greece found us in the foothills of Mount Olympus, specifically in the small town of Litochoro. Owner and i had driven for four hours across country so upon our arrival on Thursday we took the rest of the day easy. However, we awoke on Friday determined to make the most of our last full day in Greece. Accordingly, after a full breakfast, we headed up into the foothills of Mount Olympus and then hiked the lower slopes of Mount Mytikas (mythica).

According to ancient Greek mythology Mount Mythica is where the major gods reside. It is a beautiful place so i can see why they might choose to spend their time hanging out here. However, today they were joined by another Goddess, Owner and Her slutty rascal poppet.

beautiful mountain cascade

Owner traversing a dry river bed

me amongst the rocks

Many people were out hiking the trail. However, the one that impressed me the most was a six year old Japanese girl who was hiking with her family. Whereas pretty much everyone else was wearing hiking gear of sorts, or at least sports clothing, she had opted to hike the trail in a fairy princess outfit plus walking boots. Never before have i been in awe of a small girls outfit, nor quite as envious, as i was today. One day, i too would love to hike dressed as a fairy princess!

Walk completed we began our descent off the mountain towards the ancient Greek town on Dion. Before we reached it, however, Owner desired a few photos of me, wearing just my bra, snapped by the side of the road. I was obviously happy to oblige

roadside bra flash

When we descended off the mountain we then travelled to the ancient ruins of the city of Dion. This was an amazing place. A once important ancient Greek and Roman religious site and city now mostly lost to vegetation. It was a magical feeling to walk along the city streets and see the marks in the flagstones left by years of use by passing chariot and cart wheels.

underground heating for am old bath house

ancient road

Mount Olympus in the background

Owner and i have had a wonderful time in Northern Greece and would highly recommend it as a place to visit. Tomorrow we depart for London and to plan our next adventure.