In The Pink

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Reflections On Japan And Looking Ahead

Owner and i have just about physically recovered from our trip back from Japan. The flight home lasted 14 hours and routed us out over the Pacific, then Alaska, Canada, Greenland and finally down back to the UK. Our sleep patterns were shot, making for an extremely groggy return back to work and domestic service reality. i also had an event in Glasgow, Scotland that required another flight there and back on Thursday. We are both embracing the respite of the weekend.

However, getting back to Japan. What an amazing country and culture. From the full-on, neon heaving chaos of downtown Tokyo to the sublime foothills of Mount Fuji or the structured grid and underground city of Sapporo to the sleeping giants, spitting mud pools and coastal majesty of Hokkaido, the wooden buildings of Kyoto or the nodding deer of Nara, vertiginous gardens of Kobe and castles of Nagoya and Osaka - what a place. The land and cityscapes are truly epic and extraordinary. We had an amazing time.

Then of course there were the accessories and the clothes. Oh. My. God. i was in gurl heaven. Every shop, and i mean every shop, contains a range of super-cute and adorable, must buy, hyper-girly accessories. i was so lucky, Owner permitted me to buy some to accessorise my little day pack. These are the cute accessories i was permitted to adorn my bag with and which now follow me around back home

They are divine - i love them.

Best of all though were the outfits. Little skirts a go go, hyper cute knee high stockings, the most AMAZING chunky shoes, bags, bags, bags, cute tops and blouses, clips and bows. It was full sissy heaven. Once again i was such a lucky sissy gurl. Owner permitted me to buy the most adorable frilly skirt, replete with bow accessory. i cannot wait to show it off in public. i will keep readers in suspense but rest assured, you will get to see it soon.

Then of course there was the kimono outfit. Owner sourced and then bought the kimono, the obi, the waist rope and traditional sandals. We had the best time doing the indoor but then especially the outdoor photo shoot in it. Thank you for all of your lovely compliments. Here are some more shots of me in a lakeside park in Hokkaido enjoying the cherry blossoms

i am so grateful to Owner for gifting me such a wonderful experience.

One of the regular readers of this blog and all round lovely person, hs left me a wonderful comment in which he wrote:

"You look fabulous and so feminine in your Kimono and with that beautiful umbrella....in many, but not all ways, your lifestyle and relationship with your owner emulates the "traditional" role of a "good wife" in Japan.....I imagine you might feel quite at home in Japan" blog comment by hs.

It was hs's point about the 'traditional role' and the 'good wife' that really resonated with me, he knows me too well! i love being Owner's housewife and so the idea of being at home, subservient and demure, focusing on housework and home crafts, being at Owners side when She wants me to be, being beaten or fucked by Her when She wants that. All of this is what i aspire to and is, to an extent, how we live our lives.

However, that is not the full picture. i am also a slut and an exhibitionist. i love to wear and be seen in the shortest of skirts - so short my panties are visible and my stocking tops on full show. i love to show my bra and breasts. i adore being groped and fondled in public. Owner regards me as, not just Her wife but also Her slut and expects me to behave as one, something i strive to get better at.

Two things we witnessed in Japan, both quite troubling in many respects but which appeal to a sissy slut like me, resonated with this slut side of me. 

First was the maid cafe culture. These are establishments where young women in stunning manga maid outfits serve and chat to men of all ages. Akihabara Electric Town in Tokyo is the epicentre. It is a district that in all bar one respect made me feel uncomfortable. It is dominated by manga and electronic stores, porn shops and maid cafes. That was not what made me uncomfortable. It was the fact that it is such a male environment. i would guess about 80% of those walking around it at any time are men of all ages. Male-dominated environments make me uneasy. i much prefer female spaces - unlike Owner who loves the boys. The one inspiring exception in Electric Town, however, were the maid girls that lined the street aiming to attract men into their cafe and who knows what else. They looked amazing dressed up in their cute little maid outfits. How i would love to have joined them dressed up and hustling for 'business' on the street.

The other thing you will see on the subway and some trains in Japanese cities are 'women-only' carriages, a response to the continued scourge of unwanted sexual attention, touching and groping that some women experience amidst the packed anonymity of rush-hour travel. The slut in me loves the idea of travelling these rides during the morning or evening rush dressed in a little micro skirt and low cut top. Of course, however, not for me the safety of the women only carriages. i would beeline straight for the busiest carriage, the one stuffed full of bored, frustrated businessmen and abandon myself to my fate, aching to be groped, fondled and abused whilst sandwiched amidst a sea of testosterone.

That dichotomy that you see on full display in Japan. The servility, politeness and submission, the hyper-sexualised maid girl culture and continued need to keep women safe from unwanted male attention. Both really appeal to my Jekyll and Hyde nature, part-good housewife, part whore.

As for Owner. There were plenty of cute young men and boys for Her to admire and lust over. We both had fun watching and observing people and i agree with Her that Japanese men can look quite beautiful. However, all kept their distance. Her fantasy of a cute toyboy remains unfulfilled, for now at least.

So that was Japan. We are already talking about when, not if, we might go back.

Now we are back home i am trying to return back to normal. Just before we departed i completed and passed my Spanish level training and have now moved to the next level. 

i returned to chastity as soon as we got home and remained locked for my flight to Glasgow earlier this week. i hadn't intended to. Owner had given me the key to unlock and re-lock myself but i clean forgot to do so, only remembering as i was putting my bag onto the belt as i was passing through security. By then it was too late to remove my metal cage, i was stood mere feet from the body scanner. i gingerly stepped through but, to my complete surprise, nothing happened. i picked up my bag and headed to the lounge area. My metal cage had not triggered anything. i messaged Owner about the mistake i had made and the fact that there had been no consequences. i resolved to walk through the scanner with cage on on my return flight to see if this had just been a fluke or if the scanner really did not register the chunky metal cage between my legs?

Surprise, surprise i triggered the body scanner in Glasgow as i went to catch my return flight. As i stood legs parted and hands held out at my sides i could see on the monitor that all of my body was showing green, all part from my crutch which was glowing red on the scanner operators console. i steeled myself to having to explain that i had a metal chastity device on, i had already resolved to be fully honest if i did get stopped. It's not illegal to wear a chastity device after all. However, all that happened was the security officer padded down my pockets and then waved me on. So, perhaps it is fine for me to remain locked up in my metal cage whilst flying after all? That will be for Owner to decide.

My life of domestic service is also starting to return back to normal. i did miss my chores and i am happy to return to them. This was me cleaning earlier in the week as seen by Owner via the surveillance camera 

 

i also missed being beaten, i even missed being electrocuted. A statement i am sure i will come to quickly regret setting down for Owner to read (She edits and pre-screens all blog posts before they are published).

 

i also returned home to another treat. Before we left for Japan Owner ordered a special pair of trousers for me, trousers most appropriate for an exhibitionist slut like myself. The trousers are made of white lace and are fully transparent. Here i was trying them on when we got back - excuse the slippers, dressing gown and label!

i really, really can't wait to go out in them :)

Returning to the subject of housework, Owner has rightly pointed out the need for me to do a complete Spring clean of Her flat, which will keep me busy. She will also be going to Spain for a week in June before i fly out to join Her the following week. Whilst it goes without saying that i will miss Her terribly it will also provide an opportunity for me to be kept busy outside of work with household chores whilst She is away. Owner can monitor me remotely whilst She is away via the surveillance camera.

Owner will also be sharing with me Her plans for Her future retirement and Her expectations of me in terms of my own work. Both of us would like for me to have more time spent at home, where i belong, or spent accompanying Owner on little adventures. i would love to be able to drop to working four days a week to free up a day to focus on housework and other chores or practice my domestic skills so that i might become more useful to Owner. My lifetime goal is to one day be regarded by Owner as a suitable candidate to become Her slave. Obviously, this will not be practical whilst i still need to work but reducing the day or days that i work could present an opportunity to begin to prepare and improve myself and demonstrate my utility and potential as Her future slave. We shall see.

Anyway, sorry for the long post. i hope readers are well?

A Field Guide to Peeing in Chastity

A bit of a divergence from my usual posts this one, this is aimed at anyone who is new to or considering being locked in chastity for longer than an hour or two. 

What follows is based on over fifteen years of lived experience of being locked in chastity 24/7 for much of the time. It deals with the question of how to urinate in chastity and also offers some practical suggestions that i have found useful in my own life. Feel free to add any additional suggestions in the comments. Anyway, here goes.

Great! You have taken the decision, or have had the decision taken for you, that your penis is going to be locked into chastity for longer than just a quick role-play session. This means that, inevitably, you are going to need to pee whilst locked up. What follows may seem obvious but they may not be to a newcomer to the thrilling world of male chastity.

• You will need to sit down to pee. This in itself is, in my opinion, a good enough reason in its own right to require all men be placed in chastity. I mean, the state of most men's toilets/urinals is frankly disgusting as men seem incapable of 'hitting their mark'. Being locked in a device means you will need to sit down to pee.

sitting down to pee

• You will need access to toilet roll/tissues - especially if you have a very small cage (tip - these are actually the most comfortable ones to wear) - when you pee. Most men simply shake their cock and then stuff it back into their underwear when peeing standing up. You can still 'shake dry' when locked and sitting down. However, some pee will also wet the end of your cage. If you are wearing a flatter/nearly flat cage you will also find that some pee may take a few more seconds to make its way out of your body as it tries to pass through your permanently compressed penis. So my tip is always a) wait 30 seconds after you have finished to ensure all the liquid has come out and b) always carry a pack of tissues with you to dry your cage off - it's really frustrating to get to a cubicle only to find there is no toilet roll, this happens a lot.

drying off with toilet paper post-pee

• Being in chastity will show you how sexist the design of toilets are in most buildings. Women have to sit down to pee whereas most men pee standing up. However, women's toilets typically have hardly anymore cubicles in them than do men's - meaning women all too often end up having to queue to pee. Being in chastity means you too will get to experience the frustration of waiting for a cubicle to come free with no other way of passing the time other than watching a procession of men piss in the urinal whilst you stand and wait, and wait, and wait.

• Remove and clean your device regularly as any urine that gets trapped in it will quickly become stale and stinky! Shower heads are great for blasting water and soap through your device each day whilst you stay locked. However, you will also need to take it off for regular cleaning - forget the fantasy of locking it on and throwing away the key, it will need to periodically come off unless you have no desire for any human contact as all will avoid you due to the smell. Unlock the device (ideally under supervision) and clean. This is also a good opportunity to scrub and clean your penis. i use a nail brush for both (avoids accidental arousal) whilst Owner looks on. It is also a good opportunity to shave. Top tip is that plastic devices will eventually pick up the smell of urine, metal ones will not, so will need replacing every 2-3 years or so. i also have a little, pink (obviously) douche that Owner got me that i use to flush my clit and cage after each pee by squirting a jet of soapy water into it

my little, pink, re-fillable douche

• Night time erections whilst caged can make peeing at the same time difficult/impossible -contrary to popular belief chastity cages do not fully prevent erections, you still get them, it is just they are mostly kept inside your body (your penis can expand internally as well as externally). You will definitely still experience the phenomenon of night-time/early morning erections. The contents of your cage will become swollen, but not painfully so. If it is painful then it is likely that the base ring of your cage is too small, go up a size. However, it does mean that peeing whilst swollen like that is difficult or may even be impossible. Be patient, your erection will subside and you will be able to empty your bladder.

• Regulate your flow - if you are wearing a cage and you try to blast out a stream of pee the chances are that it will back up (as it can't escape your cage fast enough - unless a true cage design) and you'll end up with pee squirting out the top of your cage onto the toilet or, even worse, splashing into your knickers or on your skirt/blouse. Use your muscles to direct a controlled and steady stream of urine that goes where you want it to go, avoiding splash backs and oddly damp clothing.

A note on urethral tubes 

Some, especially small or flat cages come with added urethral tubes (in either plastic or metal) to insert in the head of your penis to facilitate easier urination - avoiding the possibility of trapped pee that i referred to in point 2 above. Personally, i have never worn and so have no experience of these tubes (and my cage is no deeper than a finger nail). Others report that using them can carry a risk of bladder infections (which can become quite serious) unless they are cleaned very regularly, but if good hygiene practice is employed i have been told by people who do use them that they are quick to get used to and do make peeing in flat cages easier.

And that's it. Good luck if you are just setting out on a chastity journey. i for one am amazed how natural being locked came to feel for me, i hope that it will be for you too.

For regular readers normal posting will resume, i just wanted to post something a little more practical that i hope some may find useful.

Chastity Update and Out & About in 'Formal Office' Attire

Today is the glorious 16th of the month which means it was dice day this morning in Owners' house. Yay!

The first dice i was instructed to roll was Her chastity dice. How long would it decide i should remain locked up for without a prospect of release? The answer was quite a long-time, six months to be precise. So, i will remain locked in chastity 24/7 until at least the 16th June, unlocked only for a 5 minute supervised shower to clean and shave my clit once a week and for long enough to allow me to get through airport security without triggering an alarm whilst traveling. Otherwise, my redundant clit will remain permanently locked away until next summer. Whether it is then released at after that will be for Owners' chastity dice to decide. Thank you Owner for keeping me locked up as you do.

The next dice rolled were my monthly outdoor challenge dice. After last months challenge Owner revamped these dice with a whole new set of locations for me to complete my challenges in and a new set of instructions for the type of outfit i had to wear. It was with a degree of nervous excitement that i rolled the dice to see what lay in store for me?

The answer was to pose in front of a graffiti wall in a railway bridge that spans a road leading to the main shopping centre close to where  we live. It is a location where you can guarantee a pretty constant procession of cars, cyclists and pedestrians passing through. In short, i would definitely be seen by quite a few people.

The second dice then determined what outfit i must wear. In fact, what the dice said was more of a theme than specific items of clothing. The dice said i must wear 'formal office attire'. How i interpreted that was down to me.

Owner was delighted when i sent Her the photos that i took and complimented me on the outfit that i selected. i even received a lovely compliment from a lady who passed me walking her dog. What do you think of my attire?

 

Ooh, passing people and cars, how exciting!

A few minutes earlier, on my way to the photo shoot location

Suitably business-like with a twist of office slut? i hope so! It was great fun to do.

What an exciting start to the day! i hope readers are also having a good day. 

A Quick Update

Unfortunately, Owner is currently unwell and i am not feeling at my best either so, aside from our Friday night outdoor antics (see previous post), we are both having a quiet weekend. We have popped out to the shops both days but that has been about the extent of our adventures.

Meantime, i think i have been continuing to show an improved level of domestic service to Owner. i have been completing all of my chores and have happily fallen into my new early morning routine of sweeping all of the floors whilst Owner goes out for Her walk. At Owners request, however, i will no longer wear the nipple weights whilst doing this as She is concerned that i may overly stretch/tear my nipples.

Whilst She is out Owner observes me sweeping the floors and regularly communicates and issues instructions to me via the security camera. The other day She instructed me to wiggle my naked bottom to the camera for Her entertainment.

On Thursday i was once again sent to my cage for the evening and the day before Owner used me as Her footstool for a short period whilst She was on the telephone with Her family.

Owner was very excited earlier in the week as pre-sale tickets for the WWE Friday Night Smackdown show at Wembley Arena in London on the 16th January became available and She succeeded in snagging a pair. Owner is a big wrestling fan, me less so but i do like the women's outfits. We must be the only couple watching in which part of the conversation between us relates to which of the women wrestlers outfits Owner thinks i would look best wearing. Anyway, the show is on my birthday and i am pleased that Owner will be getting to see something She loves and bringing me with Her to share in Her enjoyment. i will also get to look longingly and enviously at the women wrestlers outfits.

Both of us were quite tired all week after having spent a long and somewhat stressful weekend visiting my elderly father and all the challenges that spending time with him brings. i fell asleep on the train back home and Owner entertained Herself by taking pictures of me as i slept and then crafting them into a halloween-themed montage.

Talking of halloween. We did not have time on the Friday night to carve our pumpkins but carve them we still did yesterday. i think it is quite easy to tell which one was created by Owner and which one by me.

In other news, Owner has decided which anime character i will be appearing on stage as next February for my belated birthday treat, namely Marin Kitagawa from the series My Dress Up Darling. This is what she looks like and who i will be dressed as on stage in front of hundreds of people.

The prospect makes me nervous but also excited.

Lastly, being a Sunday i was briefly unlocked by Owner to facilitate a short 2 minute wash of my clit with the nail brush and a quick shave before She locked me back up again. 

Freshly Inked

To mark our upcoming 20th anniversary (wow), and to reference the fact that i have been locked in chastity for most of those twenty years, yesterday Owner had me freshly inked. It was a design She devised and the tattoo was done in a local parlour that She has had me tattooed in before. It took just over three hours to do. i am really thrilled with my new marking. The tattooist herself remarked at the end how much she had also enjoyed doing the tattoo and took lots of pictures for her own instagram.

The image below shows the completed tattoo. It was taken by the tattooist for me inside the tattoo parlour so that i could send the picture to Owner:

The design of the lock complements the skeleton key design that Owner previously had done for me, which is also a reference to my locked-in-chastity state. It creates a wonderful illustration of my being under lock and key and to me also speaks to the wider control Owner exercises over all aspects of my life.

In case you were wondering, yes i was in chastity whilst the tattoo was created. The picture below was taken just before i left home to get the tattoo done but shows how i was dressed inside the parlour, obviously i wore trousers to walk there and put them back on to come back! 

As you can see, my metal chastity device is very, very visible through the mesh of these panties. Incidentally, i am still super happy with this new metal device.

Owner and i went for drinks afterwards to celebrate. 

On Friday night, after work, Owner set about striking my bare bottom as part of my weekly caning/spanking/whipping. This time, however, She switched implements and used Her birch, striking my backside 200 times with it and leaving my buttocks and the backs of my thighs nice and warm.

That same day Owner also electrocuted my clit a number of times by triggering the electro-shock collar that is secured around it for such purposes. Wearing the device causes me to spend the whole day on edge, never quite knowing if and when Owner might decide to electrocute my most sensitive bits. She finds it highly amusing to suddenly zap me at random moments.

The day before, Thursday i spent the evening in my dog cage as usual on all fours with 750g of weights (in the form of an iron cow bell and solid metal chains) suspended from S hooks through my nipple piercings and with my mouth drooling from the horse-bit gag and my wrists and ankles cuffed. My tits were already sore and my pussy already hot as i had been required to prepare and serve dinner wearing my vicious serrated metal clover clamps 

and furry-tailed heavy solid metal butt plug just an hour before going into the cage.

So my nipples were already sore and my pussy aroused by the time i entered the dog cage. Having my nipples stretched hard by the heavy weights suspended from them was even more arousing and my hot pussy just got hotter and hotter as i knelt motionless in the darkness thinking naughty thoughts and getting increasingly aroused. 

Matters were made worse when, after about 30 minutes i heard Owner coming down the corridor (She had been in the lounge watching TV and talking to Her family on the phone whilst i was caged in the kitchen). Unbeknownst to me She was holding Her favourite leather paddle which She then proceeded to beat my bare buttocks with through the open rear door of the cage. It is always left open for just such a purpose. She struck me a few times before swinging the paddle up between my legs and landing it against my swollen and vulnerable labia. Owner knows that striking my bits hard is something that i find highly arousing and, for years now, has been the way in which Owner has forced me to orgasm, by hitting my bits repeatedly hard until i ejaculate.

i had already thrust my buttocks back to give Owner a bigger target to strike when She began to paddle my buttocks. The minute She brought the paddle between my legs and struck my exposed bits i went into slut overdrive, eagerly spreading my legs as far as my ankle chains would allow to give Her as much access to my bits as possible to strike them whilst also wiggling my buttocks to set the heavy weights suspended from my piercings off, causing them to swing and stretch my tits even more. i drooled heavily as Owner beat my bits hard and my nipples stretched further and further.

Thankfully, Owner knows just how much to hit me and make me super horny without risking any form of accident on my part. No sooner had i become super aroused than She stopped. She traced Her finger across the entrance of my hot pussy and then left me and went back to Her repose in the lounge. Leaving me caged and super horny in the darkness.

My tits were hot and sore and my pussy warm and wet by the time i was released.

It has been a wonderful week. i am so lucky to have the wonderful Owner that i do and get to live the life that i live.

September Sun and Stockings

Owner's sister and her boyfriend have now departed after staying with us for a little over a week. It was great having them and we did a lot of sightseeing in London, Bath and Bristol with them but it is also lovely to be back to normal and have our flat back to 'normal'. Owner complimented me on the fact that, whilst Her guests were staying with us i continued to clean/tidy-up after everyone and to cook meals etc. In fact, by the end of her stay even Owner's sister had started to tell me to fetch her drinks from the kitchen for her. It was a pleasure to be of service but even lovelier to be back, submitting to Owner in the manner She expects of me.

Our first day back to 'normal' also happened to be the 16th of the month, meaning that Owners chastity and outdoor challenge dice were rolled at breakfast. The former determined that i be locked up 24/7 until the 16th of next month, when the dice will be rolled again. For me this was an extra special outcome as, aside from the fact that i like being in chastity, i am also getting tattooed this weekend to mark Owner and my upcoming 20th anniversary with a design that also speaks to my usually locked up state. It is great to know that i will be in chastity as i am, once again, permanently inked with a design chosen by Owner for me that represents my usually locked and denied state.

The second set of dice rolled before breakfast were the monthly outdoor challenge dice. This time these determined that i was to wear my Japanese manga maids outfit to a nearby railway station. i combined the outfit with white stockings and a pair of bright red open-back panties, matching bra and heeled shoes. The station is about a 15-20 minute walk from where we live and i decided to attempt to walk the route there and back in my heels. i am happy to say that i succeeded, although i did pack an emergency pair of slip-ons in my backpack just in case!

It was a wonderful challenge to complete. i was seen by lots of people, including the police. A lady complimented me on my outfit, a young guy walking his (quite fearsome looking) dog bade me good day and more exciting still i got honked at and wolf-whistled by some guys in a van. A cycle courier even cycled straight over up to me and then stopped a few feet from me and just stared at me. i hope he liked what he saw ;)

Anyway, here are some pictures of my little adventure. i was quite aroused by the time i got home, even more so when Owner saw the pictures and said that i looked very tarty. Mission well and truly accomplished. What do readers think?

on my way

at the station

a flash of red and flesh

hello people

la policia

soliciting? moi?

i said it was windy

i do so love being one of our local sluts :)