In The Pink

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All Is Good

Owner is back home, i am locked back in chastity, doing my chores and serving and submitting to Her. What more could one possibly hope for out of life?

Honestly, it is so wonderful to be back and feeling my true self again without drowning under work noise in my head. The noise is still there but it has been put back in its box where it will, i hope remain for the rest of the year. Most times i am able to separate work from life, not let the former take over the latter. However, these past few months have been hard. The box refused to stay shut and the genie escaped.

i truly hate when that happens. i spiral, lose focus and the worst traits of my character bubble up once again. A fog of laziness envelops me outside of work. My focus on my submission and service slides. It is not fair on Owner and nor is it how i want to be or live my life either. It took me a while to discover this but i absolutely, genuinely am at my happiest and most content when being with, serving and submitting to my wonderful Owner.

What also helps. No, more than that. What i find REALLY helpful in ensuring that i keep my focus, is chastity. i know one should never rely on a crutch but in all of the near 20 years that i have been in and out of chastity i have become convinced that i am happier and perform better when i am locked than when i am unlocked.

This, however, is not a great state of affairs as Owner really does like having me unlocked at times so that She can touch, tease and torment my little clit, whereas i prefer it to be locked away. i know i need to learn to maintain my level of submission and service when it is unlocked and i know that Owner has every right to decide whether i am locked or not and to keep me unlocked for Her entertainment. i should be able to maintain my service and submissive state whether locked or unlocked but i truly do struggle to. Whether it is pscychological or physical i do not know but there is something about not being able to see or touch my clit that helps keep the pandora's box in my brain firmly locked, subsumed beneath a warm happy sea of sissy, submissive thoughts, cravings and desires.

Anyway, the good news is that i am locked in my new chastity device and it is, i think, quite an appropriate one. It has a little 'pussy' pee-hole and has the words 'sissy' engraved across its pink carcass. In short, it feels very 'me'. Of all the devices i have had to date Owner and i still prefer the aesthetics and profile of the previous flat, pink 'honeycomb' one, but the cage split on within months. Hopefully, this new pink 'pussy' cage will prove longer-lasting. We shall see.

Upon Her return from Spain on Saturday night Owner also presented me with a beautiful new ring She had bought for me. i really love it. What do readers think (it is the lower of the two shown below)?

Talking of fingers, i also painted my finger nails in preparation for collecting Owner from the airport and have kept them painted the same since. i am still waiting for someone at work to comment on my pink and sparkly nails!

More importantly though, i am back to my routines and feeling so, so much happier in myself as a result. Service, sissiness and submission are hard-wired into my DNA but sometimes the bad genie escapes its box and plays havoc with my life, spoiling things for Owner but also for me. Chastity definitely helps me to put that disruptive creature firmly back in its place as too does a focus on my chores and routines together with the care, guidance and discipline of my Owner.

Having me under Her control makes Her happy and makes my little heart sing.

p.s. - further update. We had some issues waiting on the delivery of the above chastity device with the post delivery people saying we were not in when we were and then the delivery being delayed well over a ten days as the item got temporarily mislaid. Well, at one point i gave up on it ever arriving and so another device was also ordered. That one arrived today. This one is a flat open cage design and is black. This is what it looks like on me:

Although not pink, Owner and i actually prefer this one as it is much less visible under clothing. It holds my clit flat with just the bulge of the lock mechanism protruding (side note - i with more attention was paid to that when folks are designing chastity cages - please minimise!) . The open cage design means that it is going to be easier to clean. 

Owner has now instructed me to wear this one rather than the pink pussy cage.

For both of us my perfect cage remains the beehive one. We both agreed it gave me a lovely flat profile and was aesthetically very pleasing on the eye. However, the 'beehive' cage proved not robust enough and kept splitting. The same design albeit with a more robust cage build would be the ideal device for me.

The good news though is that i am back caged and now have a few different devices to wear should Owner ever want to have me in some different 'looks'.

The Trial - An Update

After my initial faltering start i continue to progress well (i think) in the Trial period that Owner has set me to establish whether or not i am ready to be taken further under Her control. The Trial was originally due to just run for the month of February but was extended by a week into March on account of me accruing two punishable misdemeanours in early February. i am pleased to say that no further such reasons to be punished by Owner have been committed by me.

There is, however, obviously still some time to go and plenty of opportunity for me to still fuck things up! i really hope that i do not and that Owner considers me worthy of being more tightly controlled by Her.

Talking of Owner. This past week has been a difficult one for Her. The frozen shoulder She currently has in Her right shoulder has got worse, causing Her considerable pain and discomfort and also creating other problems in Her back. i have tried to help by providing deep tissue massages on request, but to only limited effect. Accordingly, on Thursday morning we both trooped over to a specialist physio for Her to receive a second cortisone injection into Her shoulder. Hopefully that will help tide Her over until Her shoulder starts to naturally unlock, which eventually it will. The problem with these injections though is that, at first, they make the situation worse so Owner spent much of the day in considerable discomfort. Today has, however, been better for Her.

As for me. i have been getting on with my chores, studies, exercises, seeking permission to speak etc and weekly tasks, including, at one point, acting as Owners footrest.

Owners' feet resting on my bum

i also, once again, had an opportunity to show off my new skirt to a few visitors to Owners flat. Namely, the plumber who came around to quote for some work, as well as to some post, parcel and grocery delivery people.  Then today i took delivery of some hire tools to use this weekend (sanding). This saw me stood outside talking to a very tall, bearded and blonde Norse God type guy, followed by our downstairs neighbour, in same said short skirt with fishnet stockings.

This is what i was wearing

i have come to really love this skirt. It is the perfect length.

Tonight, Owner felt sufficiently better for Her to electro torture me once again using a combination of the electro-clit device, zapper and electric clamps on my clit, pussy, buttocks and breasts. 

Teet shocking in progress

Tomorrow i will be busy sanding down the staircase and re-varnishing it, as well as offering to serve as Owners' sex toy. Then on Sunday i am, at Her request, taking Owner to a thermal spa in London. It will be an opportunity for Her to ease Her shoulder and an opportunity for me to splash around in my bikini.

Oh, and some good news. The replacement cage for the beehive chastity device, the original split, was delivered so i have been back caged inside that all week. Hopefully it will turn out that the first was simply defective and this new cage will not suffer the same fate. Fingers crossed as Owner and i both love it.

Lastly, Owner has been researching some new items that She would like. One is a new strap-on harness and the other a large, realistic cock dildo (complete with foreskin) to both fuck me with and for me to practice fellating. i am very excited! Owner has asked that i buy them for Her birthday, which is on the 1st April.

That's about it from me for now.

The Trial Week 1 + A Broken Beehive and a Thank You

Well the first week of my month month long trial was successfully navigated without any slip-ups or failings (that i know of) on my part. i have ensured everything is spotlessly clean, have always used my lanyard to request permission first before talking to Owner, have greeted Her naked whilst prostrating myself and kissing Her feet when She has returned from Her early morning walks. i have also been organising some repairs to be done in the flat. [EDIT - Owner has just highlighted that there is limescale on the bathroom tap that has not been removed, i have entered into my punishment log]

Last night, at the end of the first full week of the trial, i did as i am now instructed to do every Friday during this period and asked Owner if She would electrocute me. She gladly obliged, but warned me that She was in a bad mood. Owner secured me to the bed before electrocuting my nipples, my clit, my butt cheeks and my 'pussy' as i flinched, bucked, twisted and squirmed. Owner's mood seemed to improve as a result of Her torturing me.

tied-up with a variety of electro-torture devices to hand

Meanwhile, i have stuck with my regular daily chores, prepared a variety of different meals during the week, kept up with my Spanish studies and provided Owner with daily head scratches and back massages on Her request. In short, i have been kept contentedly busy. Owner even gave me some tasks to complete during the day whilst i was working from home. The first of these tasks was requested on Monday when She pissed into a transparent water bottle and told me to take it to the park and then drink Her piss. This i did whilst sat in front of the park cafe - which seemed an appropriate location.

drinking Owners' piss in the park

It was delicious.

The next challenge came yesterday (Friday) when i was told to remain gagged between work meetings. It being a Friday i did not have that many calls so i wore the gag for extended periods. It was quite a challenge to avoid drooling spectacularly down my blouse whenever the gag was removed to join a Teams call with colleagues or clients.

gagged - also wearing my 'permission to speak' lanyard

working away

So, so far, so good. This weekend i need to get on with de-cluttering etc but hopefully i will continue to maintain my current, improved, performance for the duration of this trial period and Owner will deem me worthy of being yet more strictly controlled by Her.

Talking of strictly controlled. There is a blog i follow written by the wonderful sklave in stahl documenting his life as the 24/7 slave of his wife and mistress in their beautiful country home in Ireland (they are a German couple and the blog is written in German so, if like me you speak no German, you will need to translate each entry). Anyway, i find their lifestyle, although different in many respects to Owners and mine, to be inspiring. i have also struck up an occasional email exchange with him. Anyway, i have recently spoken of the current issues Owner has with Her frozen shoulder which is causing Her a lot of discomfort at times and restricting what She can do. Well the kind mistress of sklave in stahl generously permitted him to be briefly released from the metal chains he spends much of his time secured with in order for him to record two little instructional videos with some shoulder exercise suggestions for Owner. It was such a lovely gesture and Owner was very touched when She watched the videos that someone should go to such trouble and be so helpful. We were truly grateful.

There are a number of followers of this blog that i am in correspondence with and one thing always strikes me. All of them, without fail, are such wonderful, lovely people. Quite the antidote to some of the shit going on in the world right now. i feel blessed and lucky to have got to know them through this blog.

Anyway, back to the week that was. In less good news my new beehive chastity device broke quite dramatically at the start of the week - the cage split in three different places. Owner and i cannot think of anything we did that might have caused it to break and i can't believe my little clit is that powerful when excited to be able to break it when trying to get aroused. Unless, that is there was a flaw in the cage. Anyway, i am back in my old pink plastic nub device whilst we see if we can get the beehive replaced. 

That's about it for now. i will see later on if Owner might treat me again by sitting on my face and letting me worship Her divine backside. 

New Beehive Mini Chastity Device

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