The past few days have found yours truly in bed, not feeling great and being waited on and looked after by my wonderfully attentive and caring Owner.
i hate times such as these. Firstly, i feel guilty about all of the work Owner ends up having to do, the cooking and washing and keeping the flat looking respectable, tasks that naturally would normally always fall to me and which She ends up having to temporarily take on whilst i am sick. Secondly, i realise how much i actually miss being able to look after and serve Her. i miss doing my chores and the housework, miss the little rituals and routines that mark the passage of the day and the week and which serve to demonstrate my subservience to Her. i miss being caged and beaten by Her i even miss the prospect of having my caged clit electrocuted.
First thing in the morning and again after work in the evening you will normally always find me busy doing my daily chores and housework and preparing meals etc for Owner. i love being Her housewife and being kept busy and occupied in service to Her and helping Her run Her household. To me it is a daily way of both expressing my love for Her as well as demonstrating my subservience to Her.
In recent years i have come to resent the fact i still have to do my paid work when in truth i would be happier spending all day doing housework and completing tasks and errands for Owner. i love catching glimpses of Her in the lounge with Her feet up reading or watching TV or doing whatever takes Her fancy whilst i dust, lay the table or put the laundry away. Owner will occasionally say out loud that She worries i am working too hard when in truth the opposite is the case. i would love to work harder, have more time to devote to looking after Her and Her home.
Occasions like this, therefore, that find me ill in bed are especially frustrating. i want nothing more than to be up and about being Her busy little housewife. Spending my time constructively in service to my Owner.
It is possible that my wish to have more time to spend in domestic service to Owner may come true next year. Owner has, for a longtime, bemoaned the fact that She still has to work. Like me She also works five days a week. However, whereas i have always derived quite a bit of satisfaction from my job for Her it is very much a case of working for the money. She excels at what She does and in the whole time we have been together She has always earnt more than i do. However, neither i nor Her want Her to have to work any longer than is necessary, especially as doing so creates a lot of stress for Her.
A few months ago Owner decided that enough is enough and that She needs to come up with a full or partial retirement plan for Herself.
In an ideal work She would stop work completely and just live off my salary, which goes directly to Her anyway (i just get a small monthly allowance). However, that might not prove sufficient. Owner would also like me to work less, as well as Her, so that we can spend some more time together. Doing so would also enable me to take on more housework, or have more time to ensure that things that currently only get occasionally cleaned, say like the windows, could instead be cleaned on say a weekly basis. More time would also mean that Owner could perhaps bring me to Her flat in Spain more often than is currently possible.
My ideal would be an arrangement whereby i had an extra day or two a week in which i did not need to work and could instead focus my attention on becoming a better housewife, travel companion, slut and muse for Owner. i know She would love to go to Spain more often than She does to see Her family and friends and i would love to be able to accompany Her on more frequent visits and be installed in Her flat as Her domestic servant and whore. We shall see.
In the meantime, i leave you with a picture from Sunday evening when i was well and when Owner tried out the new whip i bought Her as part of my anniversary present to Her. The way the coloured tails of the whip are arranged it almost looks as if it is some kind of minimalist skirt :)
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| Owners new whip with its 7 multi-coloured leather tails |
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