An Unscheduled Interruption and Future Plans

The past few days have found yours truly in bed, not feeling great and being waited on and looked after by my wonderfully attentive and caring Owner.

i hate times such as these. Firstly, i feel guilty about all of the work Owner ends up having to do, the cooking and washing and keeping the flat looking respectable, tasks that naturally would normally always fall to me and which She ends up having to temporarily take on whilst i am sick. Secondly, i realise how much i actually miss being able to look after and serve Her. i miss doing my chores and the housework, miss the little rituals and routines that mark the passage of the day and the week and which serve to demonstrate my subservience to Her. i miss being caged and beaten by Her i even miss the prospect of having my caged clit electrocuted.

First thing in the morning and again after work in the evening you will normally always find me busy doing my daily chores and housework and preparing meals etc for Owner. i love being Her housewife and being kept busy and occupied in service to Her and helping Her run Her household. To me it is a daily way of both expressing my love for Her as well as demonstrating my subservience to Her.

In recent years i have come to resent the fact i still have to do my paid work when in truth i would be happier spending all day doing housework and completing tasks and errands for Owner. i love catching glimpses of Her in the lounge with Her feet up reading or watching TV or doing whatever takes Her fancy whilst i dust, lay the table or put the laundry away. Owner will occasionally say out loud that She worries i am working too hard when in truth the opposite is the case. i would love to work harder, have more time to devote to looking after Her and Her home.

Occasions like this, therefore, that find me ill in bed are especially frustrating. i want nothing more than to be up and about being Her busy little housewife. Spending my time constructively in service to my Owner.

It is possible that my wish to have more time to spend in domestic service to Owner may come true next year. Owner has, for a longtime, bemoaned the fact that She still has to work. Like me She also works five days a week. However, whereas i have always derived quite a bit of satisfaction from my job for Her it is very much a case of working for the money. She excels at what She does and in the whole time we have been together She has always earnt more than i do. However, neither i nor Her want Her to have to work any longer than is necessary, especially as doing so creates a lot of stress for Her.

A few months ago Owner decided that enough is enough and that She needs to come up with a full or partial retirement plan for Herself. 

In an ideal work She would stop work completely and just live off my salary, which goes directly to Her anyway (i just get a small monthly allowance). However, that might not prove sufficient. Owner would also like me to work less, as well as Her, so that we can spend some more time together. Doing so would also enable me to take on more housework, or have more time to ensure that things that currently only get occasionally cleaned, say like the windows, could instead be cleaned on say a weekly basis. More time would also mean that Owner could perhaps bring me to Her flat in Spain more often than is currently possible.

My ideal would be an arrangement whereby i had an extra day or two a week in which i did not need to work and could instead focus my attention on becoming a better housewife, travel companion, slut and muse for Owner. i know She would love to go to Spain more often than She does to see Her family and friends and i would love to be able to accompany Her on more frequent visits and be installed in Her flat as Her domestic servant and whore. We shall see.

In the meantime, i leave you with a picture from Sunday evening when i was well and when Owner tried out the new whip i bought Her as part of my anniversary present to Her. The way the coloured tails of the whip are arranged it almost looks as if it is some kind of minimalist skirt :)

Owners new whip with its 7 multi-coloured leather tails

Notes from a Happy Place - Top Tips for a Successful FLR from Owner and i

The best thing that has ever happened to me in my life was getting an opportunity to know, live with, love and submit to Owner. i joke with Her that my life cleaves into two halves. The first half (which included my first marriage) being my life before meeting Her and the second, much happier and more fulfilled half which is my life since meeting Her. She has changed, improved and enhanced me and my life in so, so many ways. i love Her and always will and hope to be with Her until i draw my final breath.

What has made my life with Owner so much more fulfilling and rewarding, and what has really cemented our relationship as a couple, has been the fact that, from a very early stage, ours has been a Female-Led Relationship (FLR). Put simply, Owner is in charge and i submit to Her authority. Her control over me and my submission to Her extends to all aspects of our life. It is our lived 24/7 experience and has been for the best part of approaching 18 years. In that time it has evolved, strengthened and deepened and now encompasses everything from how Owner's flat is furnished and kept, my responsibility for all cleaning, cooking, washing etc, my finances, what i can or cannot purchase, what i eat and drink, whether i am allowed out, what i wear and all matters sexual. 

Our relationship did not get to the point it has overnight. It has developed over time and i am sure it will continue to grow and evolve. However, i wanted to try and take stock and set down what i think are the key things that make it work for us. A set of top tips if you like. It is important to say that what follows reflects what has worked well for Owner and i, they may not for others and there are many different types of FLR out there. This is simply what we think has ensured our own FLR has (and continues) to work well for us.

1 - Love and respect  ours is a very loving relationship and, although Owner's authority is absolute She is always interested in my views and respects me, Her lifetime partner and wife as do i Her, whilst also accepting Her domination and control over me.

2 - Communicate with each other Owner is my best friend and i am Hers. We talk freely and, if at times i am not sure how best to say something to Her, i write to Her. For instance, when i first asked Her if i might be allowed to submit to Her i did so in writing.

3 - Don't rush, an FLR is not built in a day our relationship has grown and evolved over many years. This has enabled us to gradually evolve, get accustomed to a changed dynamic (neither of us had been in such relationships before), and has ensured that my submission and Owners' control is much deeper, has more permanent roots. Our relationship is better able to weather the inevitable hiccups than i think would have been the case had we aimed for where we are now at the outset and then been disappointed by a likely inevitable failure. Take small steps, wait until those are embedded and become habitualised then extend further. We hope to continue to be developing and evolving and growing in our FLR for many, many more years to come.

4 - It is about what She wants quite early into our journey it is probably fair to say that Owner tried to provide me with the fantasy FLR that She thought i wanted from Her. There was a lot of emphasis on sexual play and Owner dressed in a manner that She thought was expected by me of Her i.e. stockings etc, which is not Her style of dress at all. Our initial foray was more about my own fantasy idea of being controlled by a beautiful dominant woman than Her idea of what She wanted in a submissive That changed as Owner grew in confidence and i educated myself to become a better submissive to Her. The stockings etc were quickly ditched and the emphasis placed firmly on what gave Her pleasure and enjoyment and what She wanted out of the relationship, which is how it should be. Owner would not be seen dead in a skirt or stockings these days. She dresses how She wants and not to appeal to any male fantasy idea of what a dominant woman might look like. She does, of course, still look just as beautiful. That is not to say that everything is solely about Owner. She does still treat me at times to things that She knows i will like but which She may be much more ambivalent about. But She does that now from a position of genuine authority and control rather than from trying to do something to please me because She thinks that is what i want from Her. Looking back, although at the time i described us as being an FLR couple i would say it was a few years before we both learnt how to genuinely become one, before the societal norms and expectations were shed and Owner stepped into a position of full control and i fully accepted Her authority.

5 - It is not simply about sex well of course sex plays a part but it is the icing on the FLR cake, it is not the cake itself. So much of our dynamic and my submission to Her involves nothing at all of an overtly sexual nature (by that i mean direct sexual pleasure/stimulation). It is much more a mental thing, a happiness, security and comfort even (on my part) that comes from Owner's control of me. It is an expression of Her love for me just as my submission to Her is a reflection of my love for Her. Absolutely there is a sexual element. For me that is the sublime pleasure i get from helping Her experience sexual release and satisfaction. My own sexual pleasure is now denied. That again is an example of something that did not happen overnight. It occurred gradually. Early on in our relationship i was denied permission to penetrate Owner with my clit, that then gradually evolved to only being allowed to climax through having my labia/testes spanked hard and, more recently, not being permitted to climax at all - it is now 14 months since my last orgasm.

6 - Submission and control extends to all aspects of life, again FLR is about much, much more than what happens in the bedroom. For us it now pretty much encompasses every aspect of my life outside of work (and i can't wait for the day when i no longer have to work and it can fully extend to every waking hour of my life). i have surrendered control over all aspects of my life to Owner, from money, to what i wear, what i eat and drink, what i write on social media (everything that appears on this blog is first checked by Owner, this is also true of my Facebook account), whether or not i am allowed out unaccompanied by Her etc, etc. My default is the expectation that i need Her permission for pretty much anything. Owner seeks my views and input to decisions but She decides, both for Herself and for me. Failure on my part to remember this is punished, and rightly so. This did not happen overnight, It took quite some time to get to the point we have now. Surrendering control of my money was (rightly) not an easy thing to do but i have no regrets about having done so. My life has improved dramatically in so many ways now that Owner controls me in the way She does. She is actually a very benign ruler, something we have discussed as not always being in my best interests! i hope that, overtime, She might also become more authoritarian with me but i also know that She is not by nature an austere dominatrix. But Her control continues to gradually extend and deepen as does Her readiness to enforce it, physically or by other means if needed. It will be interesting to see how things have evolved in another 18 years time!

7 - FLR is fun as well as being best friends Owner and i also make each laugh, a lot. Neither of us takes things too seriously and although we are both very serious about our relationship and how fundamental Her dominance and my submission is to it, that does not mean we cannot have fun together and enjoy each others company. Hers is not an austere prison regime and i am not Her slave. Neither of us take ourselves that seriously and there are many occasions when we have both ended up in fits of giggles in the middle of what was a supposedly serious moment.

8 - Time spent together is the best time we are each others best friend. Owner and i are that couple who are always together and we both greatly enjoy each others company. In bed, in the park or in the pub and everywhere in between there is no place i would rather be than with Her, and the feeling i know is mutual. i need Owners written permission to spend time away from Her outside of work, or for the purpose of running errands for Her, whereas She can and does spend time with whomsoever She pleases.

9 - Be open to try new things and don't be afraid of 'failure' there are things that have become important to Owner and i that did not start out that way. i do not naturally like pain (i am not a masochist) and Owner was initially reluctant to inflict it upon me. However, She discovered that beating me could be pleasurable and enjoyable for Her and i learnt to embrace and tolerate pain. Owner normally beats me each week, on occasions when that does not happen for some reason i now genuinely miss Her crop, paddle, whip or cane. More recently, Owner has discovered the fun to be had with electro-torture. We both discovered a shared passion for piss, mine for consuming Hers and Her for having me drink Her urine. My 'forced feminisation' rapidly escalated when it tapped into and released a deeply feminine side of me that i had long sought to suppress, it changed me forever. Other things didn't work as well. Contracts were initially written but soon abandoned, replaced instead by a long-term training regime.

10 - Celebrate and be proud of who you are as a couple the anniversary of  of our first ever meeting, when we then started dating and of our wedding are all important dates in our calendar which are celebrated each year without fail. i have been inked and pierced by Owner and i am proud of that, proud of the fact that my body has been indelibly marked as Hers. i am collared and glad to wear the symbol of my submission to Her. Owner has a key on a chain symbolic of my almost permanently locked in chastity status and Her broader Ownership of me which She regularly wears.

Over the period of our relationship there are also some things that i have learnt about myself, some of which came as something of a surprise, others i perhaps knew where there just never really acknowledged. These are (in no particular order);

• the less autonomy i have, the happier in myself i am
• i benefit from being given rules and routines to follow
• i am, by nature, both an exhibitionist and a slut and love to behave and be treated as such
  
• the feminine side of me is the 'real' me, the me that feels most natural and the one in which i am most at ease with myself
• being physically restrained is calming, comforting and a great way to clear my head
• i love, love, love serving Owner and feeling i am being of use to Her
  
• i enjoy cleaning, cooking and housework and learning useful new skills
  
• being thought of as a slutty, submissive wife is more validating than my professional career and gives me the most satisfaction in life
• discipline, structure, submission to Owner and routine helps me to become a better version of me
• pleasing and pleasuring Owner, making Her happy, makes me very happy
  
• i do not miss sex as i once knew and experienced it nor, surprisingly, do i miss being able to orgasm. In fact, i actually prefer to be kept in a state of permanent denial
• i adore drinking Owners' piss and licking out Her wonderful arse
• i look forward to being caned, paddled, spanked or whipped
• i hope to be known and 'seen' by others as Owner's submissive wife
• what to me is now 'normal' about how i live my life now would have seemed quite extreme or weird to me before i started down this FLR road, such is the personal journey i have been on
  
• i have now come to be a firm believer in female supremacy. Ironically, Owner does not share this view.

So anyway, this is a bit more about us, what makes us and me tick and our FLR relationship work as it does. i would love to hear if any of this resonates with other readers.

Anal Tentacle

Well, i bet that headline got your attention! Last night Owner and i sat down and had a conversation that left me feeling hot, aroused and excitable, my 'pussy' quivering in anticipation whilst my 'clit' bulged and strained futilely inside its weekend cage. Incidentally, it has been 80+ days now since my last orgasm. Anyway, i digress. What was the cause of my excitement? 

The discussion was about my forthcoming 51st birthday (16th January) and what Owner was thinking of getting me for one of my presents. She had asked me if there was anything in particular that i wanted, to which my response was either 'something pretty or naughty'. In truth, there is nothing that i actually 'need' and as 'experiences' are, for the most part, not possible due to Covid-19 (our presents to each other often involve travel) then basically my 'desires' can be distilled down to pretty clothes or sex toys, slut by name and slut by nature that i am.

Owner must have been thinking along similar lines for She showed me some cosplay outfits that She had been researching for me, with the idea of a photo shoot and the prospect of again appearing on stage in something in a post-Covid world.  Regular readers will recall that i appeared on stage in the London anime and gaming convention at the start of this year (in what feels like a different world) dressed in my Hideri Kanzaki maid's outfit. It was a real thrill appearing in front of a live audience, especially as i had never done so before and was locked in chastity under my short dress and little panties. Owner has agreed that it is something that She wants to have me do again when the world returns to normal. i say all this as the idea of a new outfit to wear was an intrinsically exciting one. Owner had found an outfit from one of Her and my favourite manga series, one called Shimometa. The outfit was the school uniform worn by one of the female characters, Ayame Kajou. As you can imagine this was an exciting enough idea for a birthday present.

But, but, but, then Owner announced that She had also been researching dildos and perhaps i would like one of those instead? What a choice! School girls outfit or a dildo? It turned out, however, that She did not have just any old dildo in mind. These were custom-made ones. She showed me the ones She had short-listed and i have to say i immediately fell into a sort of swoon. OMG! They all looked amazing, my heart fluttered and i am sure my pussy winked open and shut just at the prospect. This is the shortlist She presented to me (click on the pictures to take you to the website)

What a sight for slutty, lascivious eyes, and what a choice! All can be dyed to whatever colour combination that you want and all have some lovely-sized options. i instantly knew that i would love to have one of these for my birthday and leave the cosplay outfit to another day (perhaps closer to when i could actually wear it on stage). Owner was happy to go along with that so it now just came down to choosing which plug/dildo to get.

The bottom one of the three pictures (Noax) above looks satisfyingly 'filling' so i was quite tempted at first by that - i do so love to be opened up. But then again, the one above (Mundir), well what can i say. It looks amazing. But the text also states that it has been especially designed to trigger the 'p' spot and given that i need to control leakages of any kind unless expressly authorised by Owner then i knew that could be a challenge, but oh i was sooo tempted. That extra-large one looks, well...wow!

In the end, however, i went for 'Qwim' the tentacle in large. Just the thought of that snaking and thrusting its way inside me makes me wet. i mean, look at it, it looks amazing and quite unlike any of the other toys that i have had the pleasured of accommodating in my pussy - though in truth i would be delighted to try and accommodate them all, plus the can!

So the 16th January promises to be quite an 'interesting' day. Not only will i turn 51 years old but i will have a wonderful new toy to experience. It is also the day when the monthly outdoor challenge dice is rolled AND it is also when i next get to roll the chastity dice. Will i return to a tighter lock down than the one i am in now (weekends only for a period of 3 months). We shall have to see.

All that, of course, is to come (not cum!). In the meantime, we continue the countdown to Christmas. Today's advent calendar required that i receive 200 strokes of the cane in return for a 'gift'. Owner alternated between caning me on the buttocks and on the backs of my thighs (which definitely hurts more than the buttocks). As She did so She waxed lyrical about what a lovely cane i had bought Her and how much She enjoys caning me. As She informed me of this i 'presented myself' on my knees on the sofa and counted off each stroke until She reached the two hundred mark. You can see below that Owner's efforts left me with a pleasantly warm backside

So, what 'gift' did i get in return for my morning caning? i got a super cute pair of socks which bear the legend 'Breaking news - i don't care' which Owner stated was highly appropriate for me as i do not care what people may think of me. This is one of the things that i have come to realise as i get older, whereas once i may have been embarrassed or ashamed to admit who i am at heart i.e. an exhibitionist, transvestite, submissive slut, now i could not care less what others may think of me. 

i consider myself to be extremely lucky to have met (and ultimately married) a wonderful, beautiful and creative Owner whom i love and adore and who accepts me as i am (encourages me even) and dominates me and has me submit to Her 24/7 and 365 days a year. Ours is not a game (although as you can see i have a lot of fun) it is how we live every aspect of our life. Yes, we also do the things that all other couples do but She also controls me completely and i would not want to live any other way.

Owners' Reward Scheme

As readers will have realised by now Owner is a great fan of weaving games into Her domination and control of me, for example the various dice games which determine whether and for how long i am in chastity and what challenges i am to undertake when working from home. In part, these are a product of Owner realising that these present an easier and less time-consuming (on Her part) way of controlling and dominating me. After all, as submissives we do love to be constantly reminded of our place which in turn puts a lot of unintentional demands on our dominant partners, when the whole point is to make their lives easier. These games provide a light-touch and non-time consuming way of Owner to maintain control over me for minimum effort on Her part once the game itself has been devised. It also adds a further element of fun and play into our FLR relationship - which, although we both take very seriously, we also like to have fun with as well.

With that in mind, and as a device to get me to raise my game and achieve the standard Owner expects as i undertake my daily chores/tasks about the flat Owner has introduced a new rewards scheme. Think of it as a kinky version of air miles. In return for me completing certain tasks to Her satisfaction i will be rewarded with a set number of tokens - each task is worth a specific number of these. These tokens can then, in turn, be traded in for different 'rewards' - some 'rewards' costs more tokens than others. The game is a trial to see how it goes but Owner has put considerable thought into it and i can't wait to start playing.

Owner has ordered the tokens online which i will be rewarded with and which can be banked in a little piggy bank. These are the tokens She found

One of the Tokens

The tokens will be awarded when i consistently maintain the standards Owner expects when i undertake my daily or weekly chores, for example keeping the fridge clean and organised, ensuring each room of the flat is kept free of all clutter, ensuring our little garden looks tidy and beautiful at all times with no dying plants or weeds. Owner will undertake regular inspections and will award tokens when standards have been met. i should stress that this is not Her rewarding me for completing tasks i should be doing anyway, rather that i complete them to a higher standard and more consistently than is sometimes the case.

Once i have earnt a sufficient number of tokens i may then exchange these for a specific reward of Owners' devising. Each reward has its own price i.e. i would need to spend more tokens in order to buy the reward from Her. Owners' initial reward reward price list is as follows - as you can see there are some great rewards available to buy

Drink a glass of Owner's wee to enjoy with a meal at home (Price = 5 tokens) Watch a TV series episode wearing Owner's used panties as a mask (Price = 5 tokens) Take Owner's used panties to work to sniff during the day (Price = 10 tokens) Take Owner's wee in a little bottle and drink in public (Price = 10 tokens) Sniff Owner's panties for 15 minutes while she is wearing them and working on Her laptop (Price = 15 tokens) Suck Owner's 'cock' for 15 minutes (Price = 15 tokens) Take Owner's dildo to a public place and fellate it (Price = 15 tokens)

The View From The Foothills

Sometimes it is only when you look back that you see how far you have travelled. It is certainly the case that with Owner and i, and specifically with the nature of our Female-led relationship and my submission to Her, we have indeed journeyed a long way.

Anyone who has followed this little blog of ours over the years will know by now that our story began just over twelve years ago when we met each other for the first time online. We were both emerging out of divorces and looking for new friends and companions. Neither of us was looking for romance. After getting to know one another in cyberspace we met for the first time in May 2005 at Bond Street tube station and went for lunch to a pizza restaurant, we still go to that same restaurant on the same day every year. For months we were 'just friends' until one day in October that same year Owner, bored of waiting, kissed me in London's Charing Cross station. We have been together ever since.

However, at first ours was very vanilla relationship. That changed when i nervously wrote Owner a letter inviting Owner to move in with me and asking to be allowed to submit to Her and for Her to dominate me (or words to that affect). To my delight She said yes.

Those first few years we played a lot and tried many different approaches before we found an approach that worked for us as a couple whereby i could truly began to fully submit to Owner. In those same years we also started to experiment with 'forced feminisation'. Once opened that particular Pandora proved impossible to go back into its box, and i am eternally thankful to Owner that She took my 'unlocked' femininity in Her stride.

We are now in a place where i live my life in a way that i could never have dreamt would be possible all those years ago and we do so in a way that is not a game that we dip in and out of, we live this 24/7 365 days a year. Owner is not your fantasy dominant wielding a whip and wearing heels. She is most likely to be found at home in a pair of tracksuit bottoms and slippers and spending Her time reading or researching something or other whilst i try to busy myself around the flat. If there was a live webcam of us it would most likely be as thrilling as watching paint dry much of the time, we live much as i imagine many other couples do, except that Owner is 100% in charge.

So what, you might ask, does that mean? Well, in case you are reading this blog looking for ideas of how you too could submit to your better half and what such a relationship might practically consist of (as we both spent years researching ourselves online and in forums when we first set out) then here are some examples of what my submission to Owner and Her domination of me looks like on a daily basis;

• i prepare all our meals (breakfast, lunch and dinner), i bake and i try to offer Owner meal choices - incidentally Owner is a great cook and She does occasionally cook 
• i am responsible for all grocery and household shopping and for ensuring we are fully provisioned and keep a track of what needs using/replacing (i do not always get this right and am punished if and when i cock-up)
• i do all the household cleaning (i have a daily rota), clothes washing and ironing etc
• i am encouraged to learn new and practical skills and sometimes get sent on courses to learn - for examples so far courses i have completed have included massage, manicure, flower arranging, knitting etc
• the flat is decorated etc entirely according to Owners taste, we disposed of the things i once owned and i no longer have any possessions
• i may only purchase clothes that Owner approves of, must seek Her approval for what i can wear on weekdays and She chooses what i wear at weekends
• Owner controls my finances. i still have my own bank account but need Her permission to use that bank card, instead i have a separate account in which my monthly allowance of £100 is transferred - this is to cover my monthly costs (minus travel which is not included)
• i have no say in what i eat when we go out, Owner chooses my meals for me and will tell me whether or not i am permitted an alcoholic drink
• my social media access is restricted to stop me time wasting
• i am encouraged to use my free time constructively i.e. to learn new skills, practice my Spanish (Owner is Spanish) etc
• i must never under any circumstances initiate sex, my role is that of Owners sex toy to be used if and when She chooses.
• Owner and i last had 'tradional' i.e. me penetrating Her sex, over eight years ago. She can and does penetrate me and is in control of whether or not i am permitted to orgasm. i last orgasmed over 8 months ago and am regularly locked in chastity, this year i have been locked without release since the 10th January.
• i have been collared for most of our time together, i wear a metal 'public' collar all day (including at work) and at home also wear a leather collar and cuffs connected by a chain.
• Owner has supported my feminisation and i have been allowed to become increasingly feminine over the years. i now wear make-up daily (including to work) my wardrobe is entirely made-up of women's clothes and i am allowed to wear a bra, including a padded bra, on certain days
• i have a 'smock uniform' that i am expected to wear at home when cleaning, when i work from home i dress like a slightly saucy female secretary and can dress more illiberally for 'dress down Fridays' when i work from home. i am now accustomed to taking deliveries, talking to our neighbour etc wearing stockings and skirts (whether they are or not is another matter!)
• Owner makes all decisions. She decides where and when we go on holiday, what furniture we need, what we will do for the weekend etc. She does, however, expect and encourage me to provide Her with suggestions but the actual decision is Hers alone.

So, as you can see, there are many and varied ways in which i submit to Owner and She dominates me. i am Her housewife and Her sex toy. ours is not a Femdom relationship we dip in and out of, it IS our relationship and we live it everyday. Yes, there are times when things slip-up or when life gets in the way, but i would say we have got to a point where Her domination and my submission is the norm and it covers all aspects of our life together.

None of this would be possible were it not for the fact that Owner and i are best friends and love each other deeply. Her domination and my submission is built from an already strong relationship where we talk and share and communicate openly with each other. It has strong foundations from which we are building a strong Femdom/FLR frame.

So, why have i entitled this post 'The View From The Foothills'? Because, ours is a journey and we keep evolving, strengthening and deepening Owners domination of me and my submission to Her. i hope, and we strive, to keep strenghtening it further. As a professional trainer in real life Owner knows that i can sometimes get carried away and have unrealistic hopes/fantasies about what might be possible for us. Her style is gradual, to slowly, incrementally change and increase so that i normalise and get used to a new reality before the screw tightens a little further. She is an expert and highly adept at knowing how to have me sustainably submit completely to Her in a way that becomes embedded and lasts. We have, i hope many, many more years of growth and development still ahead of us, there are beautiful mountain peaks i would one day long to scale, we have come a long way but there is much fun to be had on the path ahead.

Lights, Camera, Action! - Video Time

You know that feeling you get when you are waiting for a bus? You wait for ages and none appear and then suddenly a few turn up at the same time, well you might feel that way about these videos. i have been promising since last year that Owner and i will shortly be making some videos covering aspects of our life together and my training and development. Well, after a series of technical glitches and assorted interruptions due to work, life and travel etc we now have, not one but two videos ready for you.

The first video covers my daily routine and the key things that i do everyday of my life as part of my service and submission to Owner. We hope that you like it, it took a lot of effort on Owners part to edit and produce and there were a number of false starts. However, we're both pleased with the end result and have learnt a lot along the way (and i have learnt that in future i need to sit with my shoulders straight!). Anyway, let us know what you think, the video is below:

The second video is shorter and was shot this afternoon on a windy day in London and is me wearing my high heels on Blackheath. Sadly, i appear to have forgotten how to swing one of my arms - think i need some more catwalk practice :)

We hope you like our videos.

Plan 9 For Spoilt Pets

i am extremely lucky in that i have a wonderfully creative Owner who believes that my training and development as Her submissive should be fun for both of us. One example of this is a forthcoming challenge She has set for me this weekend called 'Plan 9 For Spoilt Pets'. Based on the classic sci-fi film 'Plan 9 From Outer Space', Owner has set me a challenge of first applying for a role and then auditioning for a part in Her own version of the film. This week i had to prepare my CV and a covering letter for Her to consider and then on Sunday, having been accepted for audition, comes the big moment itself. Owner has set me a series of challenges.

The first consists of dressing as a 'Zombie Slut' and then as a 'Slut Vampire Victim'. Owner expects me to demonstrate my acting abilities and will be photographing me in my roles.

Secondly, i have to practice my facial expressions ranging from happiness, sadness, pain and sluttiness.

Third, i have to deliver a series of lines and speeches to Her satisfaction - all adapted from the original screenplay.

Fourth, i am then to demonstrate my ability to endure punishment and torture to Her
satisfaction using implements such as Her favourite spanking paddle, tower of pain
nipple device and lots and lots of mini metal clothes pegs.

These challenges that Owner sets me as part of my training are always great fun and provide me with something to concentrate my efforts on in preparation for over the preceeding week. In the past there have been a range of other such challenges, generally all themed, in which i have been expected to demonstrate my sluttiness, creativity and ability to endure punishment and discipline to Her satisfaction. i really can't wait and am terribly excited about the event. i will see if i am allowed to post some pictures from the event afterwards.

Outside of the 'Plan 9' event my own re-training as Owners submissive is progressing steadily. i'm really pleased that i am now once again back into the routine of doing all of the household chores and duties i had been neglecting in the period leading upto my disastrous contract review at the beginning of September. Owner has even been receiving nightly foot massages for the past month, something that i am greatly enjoying giving, especially as i am allowed to orally clean and worship Her feet beforehand. So so far so good, though i still keep receiving punishments somehow!

This weekend is also our 3rd anniversary. Owner an i first became lovers, having known each other as friends for about 6 months, when Owner kissed me at Charing Cross station in London (though we started out vanilla the signs of future FLR where there from the beginning) . Since then, we have returned every year at least once to the hotel above the station (which is very grand) and booked ourselves into one of their executive suites for the night. It is a lovely thing to do every year to mark significant moments in our lives together (of which there have been many).

i really am blessed to be able to share my life with such a wonderful woman and Owner and i can't imagine anything better than spending the rest of my life with Her. To be able to submit and to be accepted into training by such a wonderful woman is the icing on the cake. The best thing about it too is that we both love and our developing into our respective roles. Owner is becoming ever more assertive and demanding of what She expects from Her trainee pet and i in turn am experiencing the joy that is to be able to submit with heart and body to the one i love. As we develop as a couple so too does our Female-led relationship and we are both loving and learning from the journey.