Enduring Pain for Owner

One of Owners' expectations of me is that i am to endure pain. Owner enjoys inflicting it and finds caning, whipping, beating. spanking etc my backside, the backs of my legs, my breasts and my clitty and labia and so forth to be exciting and arousing for Her. She also enjoys the thrill of electrocuting me and watching me squirm.

As for me, well i am not a natural pain slut but i have come to welcome and embrace the ritual of being hurt by Her. It is a very physical and obvious manifestation of Her dominance and authority over me that She can and does beat me for Her own pleasure and enjoyment. That She does so and that She will continue striking or zapping me even if i protest or beg Her to stop is something that i am in awe of. 

Owner has come a long way in that regard. She was, at first, concerned about hurting me. That did not last long and She rapidly evolved into a woman and Owner who was prepared to and will hurt and mark Her property i.e. me as She wishes. Meanwhile, i have become proud of my increased ability to withstand pain, to grit my teeth and grip the top of the sofa tighter as a fresh strike bears down on my reddened flesh.

Today She inflicted pain of a different variety, choosing to strike my exposed and vulnerable 'labia' with the twin metal evil sticks before electrocuting my tits. My skirt was lifted up, my panties removed and my legs secured to prevent me from thrashing around. Owner then struck me on my most sensitive bits between my legs one hundred times with the evil sticks. After my subsequent tit electrocution Owner chastised me for my continued low pain tolerance when it comes to being electrocuted by Her. Something i must learn to get better at enduring during 2026.

Here are some images from today's reminder of who is in charge 

the twin metal evil sticks resting on my buttocks

Owners target hang exposed and vulnerable between my securely spread legs, She struck them one hundred times

nervously waiting for my tits to be electrocuted

My proudest moment came when Owner and i went to the Dungeon back in October and Owner deployed a very thick and long cane that thudded hard against me and left my bottom and the backs of my thighs covered in deep purple bruises that last well over a week. Even Owner was quite shocked at how marked i was the day after. In truth though, i loved it and was so, so proud to have been left bruised at Her hands.

my buttocks were still heavily bruised days after my dungeon beating

However, even those bruises faded, as all bruises eventually do, over time.

There is, however, another form of pain that i endure for Owner that leaves a mark that is not temporary in nature but which will, instead be visible and present for the remainder of my life. i refer of course to tattoos.

Owner loves to have me marked with symbols of Her ownership of me, my submission to Her and of my femininity. i currently have 10 tattoos, 8 of which were done at Owners request and to Her specification/design. Of the two that were not, both are legacies of that time in my life when Owner and i were unknown to each other (up until the year when we both turned 35 years old). 

The first such pre-Owner tattoo is on my left upper arm and was the first tattoo i ever had done. i got it when i was 22 years old. At the time i actually had no intention of getting a tattoo. i had gone into the parlour on behalf of a friend of mine to enquire about piercings as she was interested in getting one. i got the information i sought but also somehow ended up leaving with a tattoo. i later came to realise that the design sort of looks similar to the Bacardi logo - ironically i have never drunk Bacardi in my life. However, i don't mind it and, most importantly, neither does Owner.

The second of these pre-Owner tattoos was done during the brief window of time when Her and i were known to each other but at the time were 'just friends'.  It is located on my lower abdomen, just below my belly button. Owner has never liked it and advised me that She wanted me to get it covered over.

Which brings me to what is happening on Tuesday this week. After discussing ideas with Owner i had a consultation with a tattooist at the end of last year about a cover-up tattoo. It will need to be quite big as the existing tattoo stretches across my abdomen. The current one also contains colour so the cover-up will also need to incorporate colour as well.

What Owner and i agreed was that the cover-up design must better reflect my femininity, ideally incorporating flowers and also a half-crescent moon design. Given that the tattoos around my breasts frame these using laurel leaves we also thought that incorporating a laurel element could look good.

i discussed all of this with the tattooist during a consultation with her in November and then subsequently sent her some examples of women with lower abdomen flower and half-crescent etc tattoos that i had come across on Pinterest and which i liked. i also discussed with her my desire to also drop some of the design of the cover-up lower down my abdomen so that it is level with my hip and pelvis.

The tattooist warned me that it will be a painful tattoo to have done as lower abdomen tattoos can be more painful. i remember when the original was done that the process was painful. It will also take a while, potentially 5-6 hours.

As was the case in October when i had the lock tattoo done on my left upper buttock i will also be in chastity and, as was the case then, there will be no way of hiding that fact from the tattooist given where on my body she will be working.

i am nervously excited about the procedure but Owner and i both hope that the resulting design will be prettier than the current and a more appropriate reflection of my feminine self. i hope it will make my lower body more appealing on the eye for Her and can't wait for the day when i can show it off in public in a bikini.

Obviously blog readers will also be privy to the new tattoo and i look forward to receiving your comments and thoughts on it after it has been done.

For me, it will also be another opportunity to endure pain for Owner and be left permanently marked to reflect me as Her decorative wife.