New Tattoo

Today it was a case of our with the old and in with the new. The belly tattoo i had done before Owner and i properly got together (over 20 years ago), and which She never liked, was replaced with something new, prettier and more appropriate for Her wife (me).

Yes it hurt, a lot, but it was worth it. Here is the finished tattoo covered in a temporary protective second skin

 And here is some documentary evidence of the process:

 

photo taken a few weeks ago showing my old tattoo

stencil outline in place over old tattoo

work underway

taking a break halfway through

Owner was happy with the finished tattoo. i love it and think it is much more appropriate. Thank you Mel from Gilt Moth Tattoo for a great cover-up

Enduring Pain for Owner

One of Owners' expectations of me is that i am to endure pain. Owner enjoys inflicting it and finds caning, whipping, beating. spanking etc my backside, the backs of my legs, my breasts and my clitty and labia and so forth to be exciting and arousing for Her. She also enjoys the thrill of electrocuting me and watching me squirm.

As for me, well i am not a natural pain slut but i have come to welcome and embrace the ritual of being hurt by Her. It is a very physical and obvious manifestation of Her dominance and authority over me that She can and does beat me for Her own pleasure and enjoyment. That She does so and that She will continue striking or zapping me even if i protest or beg Her to stop is something that i am in awe of. 

Owner has come a long way in that regard. She was, at first, concerned about hurting me. That did not last long and She rapidly evolved into a woman and Owner who was prepared to and will hurt and mark Her property i.e. me as She wishes. Meanwhile, i have become proud of my increased ability to withstand pain, to grit my teeth and grip the top of the sofa tighter as a fresh strike bears down on my reddened flesh.

Today She inflicted pain of a different variety, choosing to strike my exposed and vulnerable 'labia' with the twin metal evil sticks before electrocuting my tits. My skirt was lifted up, my panties removed and my legs secured to prevent me from thrashing around. Owner then struck me on my most sensitive bits between my legs one hundred times with the evil sticks. After my subsequent tit electrocution Owner chastised me for my continued low pain tolerance when it comes to being electrocuted by Her. Something i must learn to get better at enduring during 2026.

Here are some images from today's reminder of who is in charge 

the twin metal evil sticks resting on my buttocks

Owners target hang exposed and vulnerable between my securely spread legs, She struck them one hundred times

nervously waiting for my tits to be electrocuted

My proudest moment came when Owner and i went to the Dungeon back in October and Owner deployed a very thick and long cane that thudded hard against me and left my bottom and the backs of my thighs covered in deep purple bruises that last well over a week. Even Owner was quite shocked at how marked i was the day after. In truth though, i loved it and was so, so proud to have been left bruised at Her hands.

my buttocks were still heavily bruised days after my dungeon beating

However, even those bruises faded, as all bruises eventually do, over time.

There is, however, another form of pain that i endure for Owner that leaves a mark that is not temporary in nature but which will, instead be visible and present for the remainder of my life. i refer of course to tattoos.

Owner loves to have me marked with symbols of Her ownership of me, my submission to Her and of my femininity. i currently have 11 tattoos, 9 of which were done at Owners request and to Her specification/design. Of the two that were not, both are legacies of that time in my life when Owner and i were unknown to each other (up until the year when we both turned 35 years old). 

The first such pre-Owner tattoo is on my left upper arm and was the first tattoo i ever had done. i got it when i was 22 years old. At the time i actually had no intention of getting a tattoo. i had gone into the parlour on behalf of a friend of mine to enquire about piercings as she was interested in getting one. i got the information i sought but also somehow ended up leaving with a tattoo. i later came to realise that the design sort of looks similar to the Bacardi logo - ironically i have never drunk Bacardi in my life. However, i don't mind it and, most importantly, neither does Owner.

The second of these pre-Owner tattoos was done during the brief window of time when Her and i were known to each other but at the time were 'just friends'.  It is located on my lower abdomen, just below my belly button. Owner has never liked it and advised me that She wanted me to get it covered over.

Which brings me to what is happening on Tuesday this week. After discussing ideas with Owner i had a consultation with a tattooist at the end of last year about a cover-up tattoo. It will need to be quite big as the existing tattoo stretches across my abdomen. The current one also contains colour so the cover-up will also need to incorporate colour as well.

What Owner and i agreed was that the cover-up design must better reflect my femininity, ideally incorporating flowers and also a half-crescent moon design. Given that the tattoos around my breasts frame these using laurel leaves we also thought that incorporating a laurel element could look good.

i discussed all of this with the tattooist during a consultation with her in November and then subsequently sent her some examples of women with lower abdomen flower and half-crescent etc tattoos that i had come across on Pinterest and which i liked. i also discussed with her my desire to also drop some of the design of the cover-up lower down my abdomen so that it is level with my hip and pelvis.

The tattooist warned me that it will be a painful tattoo to have done as lower abdomen tattoos can be more painful. i remember when the original was done that the process was painful. It will also take a while, potentially 5-6 hours.

As was the case in October when i had the lock tattoo done on my left upper buttock i will also be in chastity and, as was the case then, there will be no way of hiding that fact from the tattooist given where on my body she will be working.

i am nervously excited about the procedure but Owner and i both hope that the resulting design will be prettier than the current and a more appropriate reflection of my feminine self. i hope it will make my lower body more appealing on the eye for Her and can't wait for the day when i can show it off in public in a bikini.

Obviously blog readers will also be privy to the new tattoo and i look forward to receiving your comments and thoughts on it after it has been done.

For me, it will also be another opportunity to endure pain for Owner and be left permanently marked to reflect me as Her decorative wife. 

Freshly Inked

To mark our upcoming 20th anniversary (wow), and to reference the fact that i have been locked in chastity for most of those twenty years, yesterday Owner had me freshly inked. It was a design She devised and the tattoo was done in a local parlour that She has had me tattooed in before. It took just over three hours to do. i am really thrilled with my new marking. The tattooist herself remarked at the end how much she had also enjoyed doing the tattoo and took lots of pictures for her own instagram.

The image below shows the completed tattoo. It was taken by the tattooist for me inside the tattoo parlour so that i could send the picture to Owner:

The design of the lock complements the skeleton key design that Owner previously had done for me, which is also a reference to my locked-in-chastity state. It creates a wonderful illustration of my being under lock and key and to me also speaks to the wider control Owner exercises over all aspects of my life.

In case you were wondering, yes i was in chastity whilst the tattoo was created. The picture below was taken just before i left home to get the tattoo done but shows how i was dressed inside the parlour, obviously i wore trousers to walk there and put them back on to come back! 

As you can see, my metal chastity device is very, very visible through the mesh of these panties. Incidentally, i am still super happy with this new metal device.

Owner and i went for drinks afterwards to celebrate. 

On Friday night, after work, Owner set about striking my bare bottom as part of my weekly caning/spanking/whipping. This time, however, She switched implements and used Her birch, striking my backside 200 times with it and leaving my buttocks and the backs of my thighs nice and warm.

That same day Owner also electrocuted my clit a number of times by triggering the electro-shock collar that is secured around it for such purposes. Wearing the device causes me to spend the whole day on edge, never quite knowing if and when Owner might decide to electrocute my most sensitive bits. She finds it highly amusing to suddenly zap me at random moments.

The day before, Thursday i spent the evening in my dog cage as usual on all fours with 750g of weights (in the form of an iron cow bell and solid metal chains) suspended from S hooks through my nipple piercings and with my mouth drooling from the horse-bit gag and my wrists and ankles cuffed. My tits were already sore and my pussy already hot as i had been required to prepare and serve dinner wearing my vicious serrated metal clover clamps 

and furry-tailed heavy solid metal butt plug just an hour before going into the cage.

So my nipples were already sore and my pussy aroused by the time i entered the dog cage. Having my nipples stretched hard by the heavy weights suspended from them was even more arousing and my hot pussy just got hotter and hotter as i knelt motionless in the darkness thinking naughty thoughts and getting increasingly aroused. 

Matters were made worse when, after about 30 minutes i heard Owner coming down the corridor (She had been in the lounge watching TV and talking to Her family on the phone whilst i was caged in the kitchen). Unbeknownst to me She was holding Her favourite leather paddle which She then proceeded to beat my bare buttocks with through the open rear door of the cage. It is always left open for just such a purpose. She struck me a few times before swinging the paddle up between my legs and landing it against my swollen and vulnerable labia. Owner knows that striking my bits hard is something that i find highly arousing and, for years now, has been the way in which Owner has forced me to orgasm, by hitting my bits repeatedly hard until i ejaculate.

i had already thrust my buttocks back to give Owner a bigger target to strike when She began to paddle my buttocks. The minute She brought the paddle between my legs and struck my exposed bits i went into slut overdrive, eagerly spreading my legs as far as my ankle chains would allow to give Her as much access to my bits as possible to strike them whilst also wiggling my buttocks to set the heavy weights suspended from my piercings off, causing them to swing and stretch my tits even more. i drooled heavily as Owner beat my bits hard and my nipples stretched further and further.

Thankfully, Owner knows just how much to hit me and make me super horny without risking any form of accident on my part. No sooner had i become super aroused than She stopped. She traced Her finger across the entrance of my hot pussy and then left me and went back to Her repose in the lounge. Leaving me caged and super horny in the darkness.

My tits were hot and sore and my pussy warm and wet by the time i was released.

It has been a wonderful week. i am so lucky to have the wonderful Owner that i do and get to live the life that i live.

Freshly Inked

So today was the day when i had my right breast tattooed. It was an early anniversary present from Owner who came up with the design. i then had it rendered into my flesh at The Gilt Moth tattoo parlour by a tattooist called Noise this afternoon. Owner and i are both very happy with the result. i had my left breast inked a few years ago with the date of our wedding and the word 'Uxor' - meaning 'wife' - inscribed with laurels surrounding.

My new tattoo continues the Latin theme. This time the inscription  'Ubi Amor Ibi Dolor' - meaning 'Love Hurts' - is now permanently etched into my right breast, again with a laurel but this time topped off with a little cupid and a love heart. The words are inspired by the fact that Owner likes to cane, spank and beat me,  so again my tattoo talks (as do most of my other ones) to an aspect of our relationship.

The heart is hidden behind my handcuff nipple ring

i am super happy that i now have both of my breasts tattooed. Each is slightly different but i think that they compliment each other and they frame my ever pert little nipples.

Both of my breasts are now inked

i wore my purple front-fastening bra in order to make it easier to expose my breasts to be tattooed in the  parlour. However, i realised when i got there that it would be easiest to simply take my blouse and bra off completely. There were 4 men and a woman being tattooed as well as me. There was once a time when i would have died of embarrassment at the idea of taking my blouse and bra off in front of strangers, not any more :) The only reaction i got was from the receptionist who came over and complimented me on my nipple rings.

i did manage to take one picture of me in the parlour just after my new tattoo had been finished.

In case you are wondering, yes it did hurt at times, but that is also part of the whole point.

Owner came to meet me afterwards and treated me to a delicious double scoop of ice cream. It was my second delicious treat of the day, the first being a large glass of Her special amber nectar for breakfast that i hungrily consumed.

My tasty breakfast glass of Owner's piss

Delicious!

i am so lucky to have, once again, been permanently marked by Owner and to wear another symbol of Her ownership of me.

And The Winner Is......?

i was treated to a great Eurovision night in by Owner, but not before she painted my bottom with Her heavy cane, leaving it sore and wonderfully striped.

Striped bottom and thighs

To distract me from the discomfort of the caning my nipples were also clamped for the duration. She also lightly caned by chastised clit before focusing on my derriere.

Almost immediately after i received the above caning Owner and i went out to the shops to get some provisions for the evening ahead's entertainment. It was a warm day here in London so i just wore a t-shirt and little pair of denim shorts. It was only when i got back that i realised i would have been walking around with visible stripes on the backs of my thighs. i wonder if anyone wondered why?

Anyway, back to the evening's entertainment. Owner insisted on Her preparing all the snacks for the evening and She laid on a really great spread which kept us nourished for the following four hour TV extravaganza.

i was even allowed some limoncello cocktails to drink.

The event itself did not disappoint with some wonderful outfits, great dancing and the usual mixed bag of songs. The UK's entry, which i did not like, did surprisingly well coming in second behind Ukraine who thoroughly deserved their victory, not just out of sympathy with the war they are having to fight after Russia's invasion, but because their rap-folk song was also pretty good. Some personal highlights from me were the outfits worn by the Romanian, Spanish and Australian (don't ask me how they are in a European song contest) entrants although i was sad that the songs by the Netherlands and by Greece did not do better than they did (placing 11th and 8th respectively) as i thought they were great songs.

The event itself was the usual festival of diversity, camp and joyfulness that it always is. As winners, Ukraine get to host next year although whether that will prove possible is another matter, i hope that they can.

Incidentally, i also need to correct something i wrote in my last post. i am not getting my tattoo done next weekend, but the weekend after. i was getting my dates confused in my dotage.

It's That Time Of Year Again

Excitement is building this weekend as tonight it is time for the annual dance, light, political and music extravaganza that is Eurovision! i am a huge fan of the Eurovision song contest, i love its camp silliness, the often terrible songs and the politics of the voting. Owner is less of a fan but humours my annual enthusiasm, She even once took me to Vienna once so that we would be in the city where the contest was being hosted that year.

This year the contest is being hosted by Turin as Italy won the contest last year. So tonight Owner and i will be sitting down with a limoncello cocktail and a platter of snacks for a few hours of musical and political silliness whilst Whatsapp goes into a frenzied meltdown as we discuss and debate the highs and lows of the show with friends and family. Also, as has become an annual ritual, a small competition will be run between us which culminates in me purchasing and awarding a small 'trophy' to the person who wins the Whatsapp group Eurovision competition. i have yet to win it myself, maybe this will be my year??

Meanwhile, in non-Eurovision news, i am now booked in to get my right breast tattooed with Owners' design next weekend. i am very excited at the prospect. It will mean that each of my breasts will have been tattooed and will be the ninth such tattoo i will have had done to mark me as being Owned by Her and to symbolise an aspect of my relationship with Her. My new tattoo will represent the fact that my being beaten and suffering pain at Owners' hands is a token of Her love for me. In short, it represents part of the more BDSM aspect of our relationship.  

Finally, last Sunday Owner and i enjoyed an afternoon in South Kensington, West London visiting an exhibition of miniature artworks, some so small that they could only be viewed through a microscope. Called Small is Beautiful it is well worth visiting if you can. We went for lunch in a nearby pub beforehand where Owner took this picture of me

t-shirt weather has started to arrive

Pink & Golden - Plus A New Tattoo From Owner?

Owner administered my weekly caning last night, another three hundred strokes with the thicker of Her two canes. In addition to being caned across my bottom and the backs of my thighs i also had my nipples clamped and had 20 mini clothes pegs attached to my clitty at the same time. My bottom was definitely glowing afterwards, as you can see below;

Pink bottom and back of thighs

i have to confess that being caned hard like this is a very therapeutic way to end a week. i was so tired by the end of the day, work is extremely busy at present and i had so many things running around inside my head. Canings are great at enabling you to forget about work etc and focus instead on something else, like the fact that your bottom is sore :).

Caning delivered Owner treated me by ordering a pizza and letting me have a small bottle of cider to drink with it. We then cuddled up and watched the last episode of an Italian drama on Netflix. It ended up being a very relaxed evening.

This morning i was served my regular glass of Owner's delicious piss to drink with my breakfast (a true breakfast of slut's). This morning Her urine was still warm. The previous week Owner had awoken needing the toilet in the night and had served my drink then, meaning that by the tie i drank it in the morning it was a glass of cold piss - it was still delicious though.

My breakfast of piss, tea and cereal with yoghurt (served in my dog bowl)

Delicious!

Now for the exciting (for me anyway) news. Owner wants to have my right breast tattoed. Many of you will know that i am already the proud wearer of many tattoos that symbolise various aspects of my life with and submission to Owner. This includes a tattoo on my thigh which states that i am owned by Owner. Pride of place, however, is the tattoo that circles my left breast and which, in latin, states the year when we were legally married (XVLILMMXVIII) and that i am Her wife (UXOR).

Anyway, Owner has decided that She would like to permanently mark my right breast as well. Specifically, She wants me to have a tattoo that is suggestive of my need to be disciplined. After researching suitable Latin phrases She has settled on 'ubi amor, ibi dolor' - which translates as 'where there is love there is pain'. Owner is now busy working on Her final design idea for submission to the tattoo artist. i am super excited at the prospect of receiving another permanent mark from Owner which symbolises another aspect of our relationship. How lucky i am!

Ownership and Control

Owner controls and dominates my life in some many wonderful ways. She controls me financially, She decides what i will eat or drink when we go out, i need Her permission before making any purchases, She decides what clothes i might buy, how Her home is to be kept and decorated, She can chastise or punish me at any time, She sets me tasks and challenges, expects that i will keep Her home clean and tidy at all times, will prepare all Her meals and do all Her washing. She also keeps me collared at all times, at home as well as at work. And of course, She dominates me sexually, is clear that my purpose is to pleasure Her whilst keeping me in denial (over 400 days and counting since my last orgasm). In short, She controls and dominates me completely, She owns me. As Her wife i am a moon locked in happy eternal orbit around Her planet. Her ownership of me is complete, there is not an aspect of my life into which it does not extend and shape and determine what i may or may not do.

Thus, it is only fitting that as Her final gift to me for my fiftieth birthday Owner designed a tattoo for me to publicly mark the fact that i am fully 'Owned' by Her. Earlier this week i headed out to the tattoo parlour to be permanently inked in a way that publicly and very openly celebrates the complete control Owner has over me. The tattoo is on my right inner thigh and is big enough to be fully obvious whenever i am in shorts or a skirt.

i am thrilled, honoured and excited and immensely proud to be so publicly labelled by Owner as belonging to Her completely. She is a truly amazing and wonderful woman who has lit-up and enriched my life in so many wonderful ways. To be Hers is to be complete. She is my world and i cherish Her absolute rule over me. To be owned by Her, to be able to submit totally to Her and for Her absolute control and dominance over me to be marked upon my flesh until the day i die is a truly wonderful privilege. For it is only that, namely my own death, that would ever cause us to be parted. i am Hers for as long as i have breath in my lungs and am honoured to be marked for life as belonging to Owner. She truly is the person who makes my life complete and i love and adore Her.

So what does the new tattoo look like? Well the first thing to say is that the tattoo artist deviated a little from Owners' original design. i didn't realise this at first, other than the fact the tattoist had changed the placing of Owners initials (which i checked Owner was ok with). However, when i returned home Owner was quick to spot that the tattoo lookeda little different from Her original design. i love how it looks and all that it represents but Owner is a bit disappointed as it is not a replica of the design She produced. The artist also needs to re-touch one of the initials as the final version did not come out quite right, but she is confident it can be fixed.

So these are a few shots of me getting the tattoo done and the final version

on the couch, stencil marked up, waiting to be inked

2/3 of the tattoo completed

And now a photo of the tattoo the day after having it done

1 day later

i like the fact that the tattoo clearly says i am 'Owned' and has Owner's initials around it, marking me as Hers (accepting one of the letters needs tweaking slightly). As i say, Owner is disappointed it deviated from Her design but i am hoping She will grow to like it - She says is pretty, just not quite what She drew. The most important thing for me is not really the design but the statement itself. i am owned and am owned by Her. That is what i want people to know if they see the tattoo. My inner thighs now proclaim Owners' nickname for me and my status as being owned by Her.

Quite A Day

Well today has been an interesting day! This morning i was interviewed for a promotion at work and then this afternoon it was time for me to get the tattoo done that Owner had designed for me. i went to a studio called Velvet Underground tattoos. i have not been to this one before. It is in East London near the Barbican Centre and it is an all female tattooist studio.

Outside the tattoo studio

i was done by Emily and i think she has done a great job as does Owner. Here is me with my bandage over my new tattoo and then with the bandage part-removed.

my new petunio tattoo

And yes, i was tattooed whilst just wearing my spotty Victoria's Secret knickers (having needed to remove my trousers) and in chastity! The whole process took about 40 minutes and Owner and i are really delighted with the result.

Oh, and on the way home i got a call to say i have got the promotion.

Quite a day. And tomorrow marks another milestone as it's chastity dice day and will also be the 200th day spent without having had an orgasm. July is proving to be quite a month already.

Meanwhile, as a consequence of working away from home two days on the trot i will be bound and gagged for the duration of a an episode of TV series we are watching. It lasts about an hour. i was gagged the other day for the same reason and same length of time. i was drooling a bit by the end :)

My Next Tattoo

Owner has devised another wonderful tattoo design to have permanently etched on my body as a gift from Her to me and as a token of Her ownership of me. The design is a play on Her pet name for me, the one by which She frequently refers to me, namely 'Petunio'. Neither of us can quite recall why or when Owner first started calling me this but She has done so for many years. Thus, it is appropriate that my new tattoo will incorporate this name and the flower, the petunia, it derives from. This is the design Owner has created

 

i think it is beautiful and i cannot wait to be etched with it. The tattoo will be placed on my inner left thigh. All that is needed now is to confirm the appointment time. i am very excited and very honoured to have another symbol of Her ownership of me permanently marked onto my body. 

i currently have 8 other tattoos on my body, 6 of which were designed by Owner and which symbolise an aspect of our relationship together. These six are:

1. The date of our wedding in 2018 and the word 'wife' in Latin - Uxor - tattooed around my left breast
2. A cat tattooed on my left shoulder symbolising my status as Owner's pet
3. An old-fashioned skeleton key tattooed on my left hip symbolising my state of chastity
4. An ankle bracelet with a  half crescent tat toed on my left ankle and foot which symbolises my femininity
5. A serpent tattooed on my right hip whose Celtic origin references Owners' ancestry whilst the S shape is the first letter of Her name and can also be read as a symbol of my submission
6. A princess crown on my right ankle - again a symbol of my femininity and of my 'little princess' tendencies

My two remaining tattoos pre-date Owner and my relationship and have no significance

Wife for Life

So today was the day when the tattoo that Owner designed to mark the achievement of my becoming Her wife back in February this year was transformed into reality by Jon at Good Times Tattoo (who also did my ankle pendant and chain just over a year ago). Owner is delighted and so am i. You can see the end result below:

my left breast under wraps

our wedding date 16th Feb 2018 in Roman numerals and the Latin word for wife 'Uxor' - my status - with the laurels to mark the achievement of becoming Owner's wife

Wedding Tattoo

Owner has come up with a wonderful idea, namely to have the date of our wedding and my status as Her 'wife' permanently etched around my left breast. Owner has always been interested in Roman history and the Latin language and so She has devised an outline idea for a tattoo which comprises the date we got married in Roman numerals, the Latin word for wife 'uxor' and laurel leafs to mark the achievement of my becoming Her legal wife. i think it is a wonderful idea! The plan is for me to have the tattoo around my left breast. We have made an appointment next month with the tattooist to discuss the design and agree a date to get it done.  What do you think of the design?

The tattoo will add to the those i already have that symbolise aspects of Owner and my relationship. These are as follows:

• A serpent on my right hip in the shape of the initial of Owner's first name
• An old fashioned key on my right hip indicating Her ownership of me and my state of enforced sexual denial (whether in chastity or not)
• A cat on my left shoulder indicating that i am Her playful 'pet'
• A princess crown on my right ankle as a symbol of my femininity
• A half-moon ankle chain on my left ankle, again symbolising my femininity

i am really thrilled and honoured to have the opportunity to add my status as Owners wife to my body. i have two other old tattoos which date back to before Owner and i got together but the remainder all have great significance for us.

One day i would also love to add to my tattoo collection with a 'tramp stamp' above my buttocks, to mark my status as Owners' slut, two pretty bows at the back of my thighs - because i think such tattoos look pretty and beautiful, a permanent collar/necklace tattoo and something small and cute behind my ear that overtly marks me out as Her property.

i would also love to have permanent make-up tattoos done but that, as they say, is another story!

New Tattoo and Other Updates

Well the day finally arrived today when i got my new tattoo done. Regular readers may recall that at the start of 2016 Owner advised that She wanted me to get a new tattoo done BUT that i was to save up for it out of the monthly allowance that She allows me each month. That allowance restricts me to a tight monthly budget so i was only able to save the odd £10 or so a month towards the tattoo. However, just over a year on and i had enough money saved to pay to get it done. Yippee! You can see it below (it was only done an hour or so ago so is still wrapped up)

not the most glamorous of images!

The design is of a half moon to represent the moon goddess (which Owner states illustrates my feminine character) set as a pendant on a beautiful rosary style ankle chain. i can't wait to show it off this summer.

The tattoo was done at Good Times Tattoo in London, not a studio i have used before but one i would highly recommend.

Meanwhile, the weekend just gone saw a season of Women of the World (WOW) events taking place at the Southbank Centre in London. Owner and i went along to a discussion with Gillian Anderson and Jennifer Nadel for the launch of their new book entitled 'We: A manifesto for women everywhere' which was interesting. And then last night (Sunday) we enjoyed an evening of Nordic inspired women's music, comedy and politics, all part of the same festival, hosted by Sandi Toksvig. It was an enjoyable and inspiring weekend and one in which i also got to wear my padded bra out in public too for our pre-event dinner at a restaurant and then to the book discussion on the Friday night.

On the Saturday Owner also treated me by taking me out for drinks and letting me have a few pints of cider - what a classy gurl i am :).

Hoping all is well with you.

Tattoo Consultation and Hot Tub Countdown

In what are increasingly dark and disturbing times in the world there has been one small and positive little development for me. i have now finally saved up (after a year of squirrelling away a small amount each month from my monthly allowance) just about enough money to pay for the ankle tattoo Owner told me to get. Monday this week saw me having a short consultation with the tattooist to discuss the design of the tattoo Owner wants and to book an appointment to have the work carried out.  Owner had already decided that She wanted me to get a pretty ankle bracelet tattoo on my left ankle. She has now also decided that, to highlight my femininity, She wants the ankle chain tattoo to incorporate a half moon pendant design. The moon being the symbol of the female goddess. i discussed these requirements with the tattoo artist, paid my deposit and set a date of March 13th for the work to be carried out.

This will be my 7th tattoo. Four of my current six tattoos are designs requested by Owner and which symbolise something about me and my relationship to Her (the other 2 were done before we were in a relationship). The tattoos i currently have that She chose for me are as follows:

• a princess crown on my right ankle - also to symbolise my femininity
• a Celtic snake on my right hip - the 'S' being the initial of Her name and the 's' of my submission to Her
• a key on my left hip - to symbolise my state of chastity/denial
• a cat on my left shoulder - my role as Owners sex kitten

i am really excited at the prospect of having my new tattoo and can't wait to be able to show it off this summer! i am also quite proud of the fact that i was able to save-up for it from my monthly allowance. i started saving a year ago and finally have enough to get it done. i would love one day to also be permitted to have a 'tramp stamp' done :) - tattoos are quite addictive!

This coming weekend is also when Owner is taking me on my belated birthday treat to a night in a hotel in London with a rooftop hot tub. It may be the middle of winter here but i will be packing my bikini and can't wait to pose in it above the streets amongst the buildings of this fabulous city. We plan to have lots of fun splashing about. i will, of course, share the details when we get back.

In the meantime, stay safe and sane in what are troubling times and stand up for your rights and those of your neighbours.

Tight Muscles, Tighter Control and Other Developments

2017 has started, for me at least, with an exciting new arrival. At my own request Owner consented to me purchasing a new, and much smaller, chastity device. Regular readers will know that we have tried many, many devices over the years, some more successfully than others. Previous to my latest purchase we had bought a pink Holy Trainer .This was a good device in many respects, it has an ingenious locking device and is comfortable to wear and being non-metallic can get through airport security without any problems. However, being non-metal means it does need removing and cleaning more than metal devices do. It;s biggest drawback though - for me - was it's size. I should stress here that it is not big, but i am quite small in that regard AND i also like to wear tight trousers and it is not easy to conceal. As a result i was less keen on wearing it.

A combination of this and the onset of my own then Owners health issues meant its use declined and it hasn't been worn for a good few months. Orgasm denial was maintained, albeit without the physical presence of a device. That said, Owner remarked on a few occasions when we were in bed that i was absent-mindedly caressing myself  'down there' ie i wasn't masturbating to orgasm but i was touching myself. i have also previously blogged about how, for me personally, i actually like being in chastity. Left to my own devices i would be thrilled and excited to be locked-up ad-infinitum with only limited or no chances of orgasm.

Anyway, fast forward to today. At the weekend i saw a cheap (it's Chinese made) metal device on line that was advertised as being the world's smallest chastity device, the Nano. It immediately attracted my interest. It's small (tiny in fact) but i am small too. It would be easy to disguise its presence even under very tight trousers. It's metal so shouldn't need removing for cleaning as often, And it was very cheap. This means it could be tried and if it doesn't work, well the bank hasn't been broken. Anyway, to cut a long story short i ordered it this weekend and it arrived today! This is it in situ

As you can see it is, indeed, very small. i am excited, Owner a little sceptical, time will tell. One of the immediate potential pluses i can see which hadn't occurred to me before putting the device on is that it leaves my testicles nicely exposed and accessible for Owner when Her shoulder is recovered.

Talking of Owners shoulder, it remains very painful and frozen. However, one of the 'positives' (if i can put it that way) of what has been, and remains, a horrible and extremely uncomfortable experience for Her is that it has highlighted a couple of additional activities for me to take on as Her wife. i am now the one who brushes and dries Her hair after it has been washed. This started because She physically could no longer comfortably reach to do it. It is now routine and is something i hope to always continue to do for Her after She has fully recovered Her movement in Her shoulder.

The second activity is that i now also give Owner daily massages, mostly in the evenings but sometimes mornings and evenings too. This is something i really enjoy doing and makes use of the massage skills i acquired a couple of years back when Owner instructed me to do some massage classes. Again, i can't believe this wasn't already something that She normally expected from me and is something i would hope i will continue to provide Her each day even when She is fully recovered.

Although Owner is still physically no better than when i last blogged i am pleased to say that She at least now has a physically fully OK wife again i.e. me. Although things took a knock and some of my routines became a little rusty due to my own health issues they are now back being implemented. The core of Owners control and domination of me and my submission to Her also never waned over these past few 'difficult' months. Owner continued to, and still does, control me completely in every aspect of my life outside of my work - and i love and adore Her all the more for it.

Owner having  financial control over me was something that was implemented in 2016 with my being limited to a monthly allowance from which i was tasked with saving enough to get as ankle tattoo. Well, the good news is that one year on i think i have enough to get one done. i have made an appointment later this month for a consultation on the design and to agree costings. Assuming my mental estimate isn't too far out it won't be long until i will soon be sporting a beautiful and permanent slave ankle bracelet to complement the other tattoos i have that Owner selected for me.

i start the year remembering that i truly am blessed. Yes, the world may be an increasingly fucked-up place but in my Owner i could never have hoped to have met a more wonderful person, She truly is my guide through life and i want nothing more than to serve and obey and be dominated by Her absolutely - doing this is what brings me my greatest pleasure and joy.

Gagging in the Rain and Other Escapades

The other day Owner and i both went to the park for me to complete another of my public dildo deep-throat challenges. So far i have completed these challenges in the heart of City of London, in Canary Wharf, in a pub toilet and so on. Now it was time to complete one in our local park. It was a rainy day, hence the umbrella, but Owner announced Herself pleased with the results. You can judge for yourself how i got on from the following two pictures:

poised and ready to swallow

enjoying a mouthful!

Recently Owner also permitted me to purchase a new pretty apron to wear at home when i am cooking and baking. The apron was ordered from The Sunday Girl Company who are a UK-based company specialising in adults and children's aprons, i think it looks super cute

Meanwhile, i am delighted to say that my new tattoo has fully healed and the scab has now completely done. We are both really thrilled with the final result and i can't wait for the warmer weather to arrive to be able to properly show off my princess crown in public. You can see what it looks like now it has healed here

Talking of pretty things, i now also have a wonderful new pair of nipple rings. They are small silver keys adorned with little pink stones. They are super cute. The only drawback to them is that both of the pair face the same way as the gems are both on the same side. Ideally you would have them so that each key could face the other. That said, i really love them. We don't have a good picture of me wearing them, however, the image below, taken from the Etsy retailer i they were purchased them from (Bohemian Body Jewellery), shows you how pretty they are

However, there have been a couple of failings lately on my part that i am embarrassed to report and for which Owner will be rightly punishing me. The other weekend we went to Dublin and had a great time. However, on the Sunday at lunch i totally forgot myself and ordered a pint of Guinness when we went to a pub for lunch without Owner having given me permission to drink alcohol. i realised i was wrong to do so and quickly cancelled the order and had a Coke instead. However, it was a serious failing on my part and i deserve to be punished for it.

The other two incidents happened in quick succession and both involved food. As you will know i do all the cooking at home (unless Owner chooses to). On Sunday i prepared meatballs but used mince meat that had been lurking at the bottom of the freezer since last July. Owner has a strict rule that any food that has been in the freezer for longer than three months must not be used and should be disposed of. Thus was clearly a major breach of that requirement. To compound matters the following day i then was going to make a sweet and sour chicken but the soy sauce had already been opened and i hadn't kept it in the fridge but rather had returned it to the cupboard. Again, this breached Owners food hygiene standards. Owner was rightly annoyed with me as these are standards She has repeatedly set and this is not the first time i have been in breach of them (my last such infraction was about 18 months ago). It was made worse by my breaking these rules twice in successive days and demonstrated a very lax attitude on my part.

Owner has yet to determine what punishment i will receive for these misdemeanours but i recognise they were unacceptable on my part and that i deserve to be punished for them.

Of Travels and Tattoos

Owner and i have just returned from our short trip to Munich and Bavaria. We both had a great time and i ate lots of sausages and we both enjoyed 'sampling' the local beer :). We were both quite impressed by Munich and also enjoyed a trip out to Hohenschwangua to see Hohenschwangua and Neuschwanstein castles.

Of course, there was also time for a small amount of posing by me on the trip as well (although we both completely forgot to have me wear my princess crown when we visited the castles - only remembering on the way back when it was too late). Anyway, you can see a selection of photos from the trip below.

First some 'tourist' shots:

Marienplatz - Central Munich

English Garden - Central Munich

Petersplatz - Central Munich

Inside The Residenz - Central Munich

Hohenschwangua Castle

Neuschwanstein Castle

Then of me posing

Trying to look 'elegant' in the Residenz

Posing like a tart

Showing off my new 'Kiss Me Deadly' cincher - one of my birthday presents from Owner

We returned early this week and i was then lucky enough to be able to get the tattoo done that Owner had chosen for me for my birthday present. We are both really thrilled with it . The tattoo was done at Tattoo A Go Go near Liverpool Street station in London and i would recommend it to others. It obviously still needs to heal but this is what it looked like a few hours after the tattooist had finished her work

just after removing the protective wrap - you can see the pink infill on the design more clearly on this picture

tattoo close-up though the pink is less obvious in this photo

As Owner says, i now have my own princesses crown! We're both really pleased with the result.