The Great Concealment + Pissed On By Owner

Next weekend Owners' sister and Her partner are arriving from Spain to stay with us for just over a week. We are both looking forward to hosting them. It is an excuse to take time off work and enjoy London as a tourist. We will also be taking them to Bristol and Bath.

Owner's sister and boyfriend are lovely people but they know almost nothing of the true nature of Owner and my relationship. i say 'almost nothing' as Her sister did once see some pictures of me that were not meant for Her eyes! Owner and i also rarely host others so our flat is littered with objects and items that leave little to the imagination these that it is actually quite a challenge for us to spot things that others might seem strange. i once shocked my Dad when he came to stay when i nonchalantly poured my breakfast cereals into my dog bowl whilst talking to him only to suddenly realise how strange it must look that a) i was eating from a dog bowl especially as b) we did not, and never have had, a dog.

The good news is that our flat has a massive loft so Owner and i have spent some of the weekend ferrying an assortment of objects, items and clothing up into the loft. Owners guests will be staying in Her bedroom and we will spend the week in the spare box room. This necessitates emptying out my wardrobe for them to use. 

That aside, life has continued its happy routine since we returned from our trip to Norfolk. i have kept up with all my chores and tasks. On Thursday evening i was locked away naked in my new dog cage whilst Owner relaxed watching TV and catching up with Her family on the phone. At one point She came to see me and stroked and caressed my naked buttocks and caged clit, causing me to part my legs and wiggle my bottom in excitement, like a bitch on heat. This caused the cowbell suspended on S hooks from my nipple piercings and the other attached to my leather collar to clank noisily, an aural indication of my aroused and excitable state! Owner departed leaving me chained up, horny, frustrated and alone on all fours. Drool leaking from my gagged mouth. It was daylight when i was sent to my cage and dark when Owner allowed me out to re-join Her.

On Friday Owner spanked me between my legs with Her favourite leather paddle after returning from Her early morning walk as i prostrated myself naked in worshipful greeting, kissing and licking Her wet and muddy shoes. She then electrocuted me on my clit. Later that day She administered my weekly maintenance beating, using Her favourite cane to create some neat stripes across my buttocks and the backs of my thighs. 

After finishing putting stuff away in the loft i then attended to the hedge at the front of our building which has grown a little unruly and was in need of a trim. i managed to avoid falling off the ladder!

We ended the day with a bit of a circular walk around the neighbourhood in search of a bar we could drink and gossip in that wasn't a) hired for a private function or b) had a DJ set playing. We did eventually find one.

Out for drinks with Owner

and showing off my new reading glasses

Today, Sunday, after completing my usual studies and exercises after breakfast i then prepared lunch for Owner. Meanwhile, She spent some time finalising Her design ideas for a new tattoo She will have  commissioned for my body. It will be Her 20th anniversary gift to me. i am looking forward to, once again, being inked with one of Owners designs. Another symbol of Her ownership of me.

Later in the afternoon Owner had me strip off and go into the shower so that She could use me as Her human urinal. It was wonderful. Owner said that She loves to piss on me. i love to be pissed on by Her and to also get to consume Her delicious golden wine.

How i love being my Owners' piss slut. [Comment by Owner - you look so cute, like a real duck]

We're Back - An Anniversary Surprise In Store And My Delayed April Challenge

Owner and i eventually arrived home from our Greek holiday yesterday early evening, twenty-four hours later than expected. Our flight from Thessaliniki to Athens was delayed so we missed our connecting flight back to London Heathrow. It was the Easter weekend and so we were expecting we might end up having to spend the night at Athens airport but everyone was super helpful to us. The ground agent re-booked us onto a flight leaving the following day and we were also able to secure a complimentary hotel stay with food etc (plus our luggage) in what turned out to be a very nice hotel close to the airport.

Long-story short, we caught the replacement flight and eventually got home after an unplanned day long extension to our holiday. Northern Greece truly was amazing. We saw many places and experienced lots of wonderful moments together that will live on as cherished memories. 

One thing i also learnt from Owner whilst we were away is that She intends to have me tattooed again for our 20th anniversary together - which is this year. Given that i have spent most of those twenty years in chastity She wants me tattooed with an old-fashioned lock to symbolise how She has kept me locked in chastity 24/7 for most of those twenty years. It is a lovely idea and i cannot wait to see Owners' design and then to get the tattoo done.  Another visible reminder of Her control and ownership

We discussed the placement of the tattoo. At first Owner suggested i have it on my bottom close to the skeleton key tattoo She had previously commissioned for me to symbolise my chaste state - the lock tattoo will be of a similar old-fashioned/gothic style lock. i suggested having it done on the same leg as the key but on my groin, just under my hip and close to my caged clit. Owner will be the one to ultimately decide but i am curious to know what readers think?

Anyway, back to the present. When we got back home yesterday i was pretty exhausted and once i had unpacked and put everything away i fell straight to sleep, even though it was only 7.30pm. i didn't wake until 7.30 the next morning! 

After serving breakfast i sought Owner's permission to roll the dice to complete the delayed April outdoor challenge. Owner agreed and so the dice were rolled. The first dice determined the location, the steps of a local railway station that is about a 215 minute walk away. The second dice determined the outfit i would be wearing - my manga maid's outfit. Yippee!

The outfit is actually perfect for the Easter weekend as, colour aside, it is sort-of Easter bunny style. However, being the Easter weekend guaranteed that there would be lots and lots of people about, both en route and at the station - which has a number of cafes around it with outdoor seating - always popular on dry days and today was cloudy but dry.

i also chose not to cover the outfit with a coat or anything during my walk there and back (15 minutes each way) and to wear my little ears all the time. The dress is so short it barely covers my knickers, then on the way down they started to fall down! Anyway, i managed to get there and back and complete my challenge - which was great fun to do. i also created a little video on route. You can see how i got on below:

My Very VPL :)

Here i am on route:

Plus a little video i recorded as i neared the railway station to complete my challenge

And after having to stop to hitch-up my panties on the way home i also used the opportunity to try and create my own 'Athena poster' image - minus the tennis racket and court of course

It was a fun challenge to do and i am grateful to Owner for permitting me to still complete an outdoor challenge when we returned from holiday as we were away on the 16th of the month - the actual date on which such challenges always occur. It was fun to be dressed in my little manga dress and stockings in public.

Pain and Pleasure

It's not all photoshoots and fluffiness in my life as Owners' submissive wife, there are still chores to complete and some suffering to endure. An example of the latter has been the start of the domestic chores dice regime which began in earnest this week.  For those unfamiliar with these dice these are new ones devised by Owner and they are designed to enhance my experience when i complete some of my routine domestic chores each week. This week the dice determined that when cleaning the fridge i was to wear weighted nipple clamps and then when cleaning the bathroom i was to wear ten mini-pegs on my nipples/breasts. As chance would have it my cleaning routine meant that each both fell on consecutive days at the start of this week - as a consequence of which my tits are now a little sensitive! It should keep me going until next week's dice get rolled.

This is me preparing to clean the fridge with the weighted nipple clamps in-situ (i had to undo my cleaning tunic to accommodate the clamps and weights)

heavy clamped nipples and chastised clitty

The following day i had to clean the bathroom with 10 mini pegs (a mix of metal and wooden ones) on each breast, this time i dispensed with my tunic completely

check-out my fluffy slippers!

i am also thrilled to say that i have now made the appointment to get Owners' new tattoo done on my right inner thigh. It will probably be my most overt symbol yet of Her ownership and control over me that i will have etched permanently on my body for in addition to Her initials it also says 'Owned'. The tattoo will be about 5 inches in size and so will clearly be visible if i am wearing shorts. The location, on my right inner thigh, means it will be opposite the other tattoo i had done last year which has Owners nickname for me 'Petunio' written as the stalk of a petunia flower. It is the same tattoo artist doing my new one as did that one, she was really good and we were both very impressed by her work. It should take between 2-3 hours to do and will be done later next week. i will post an image of the outcome. i am really excited at getting this done.

With this tattoo my body will have been adorned with:

• the date (in Roman numerals) of my marriage to Owner and confirmation (in Latin) of my status as her wife
• An 'S' serpent symbol of my submission to Owner and Her first initial
• A key symbol representing the fact that i am often kept in chastity
• An ankle chain with the feminine half moon symbol
• A princess crown
• A cat - to show my 'kitten/pet' side
• Owners' 'nickname' for me as the stem of a petunia flower

And soon to be joined by a statement that i am 'owned' by Her with Owners' initials. i am really delighted to have been marked so clearly to whom i belong.

OMG - 50!

So today is the day that i turned 50. As i write this it is not even mid-morning here in the UK but already my day has been full of wonderful gifts, surprises and challenges, with more...a lot more, still to come.

My day started at 6am with Owner getting up and preparing breakfast for the two of us whilst i lay in bed. It is normally me that makes the breakfast and so i was feeling quite guilty lying there as i listened to Owner busying Herself in the kitchen. Owner had given me strict instructions to not leave the bed until She came to collect me for breakfast and present opening.

This is the sight that greeted me when Owner led me through into the lounge.

Cake, breakfast, presents' dice and pee

What a sight for sore eyes. Owner had got me a delicious birthday cake, made my breakfast and laid out the dice i was to roll and her presents ready for opening. She also had a special treat for me and this is what i started with first. Yes, Owner had provided me with a delicious glass of her piss for me to enjoy, and enjoy it i did! It was delicious and a wonderful way to start my birthday

Cheers - birthday drink of Owners' pee

drinking Owners' pee - apologies for my mad hair!

Pee drunk it was time to blow out the candles on the cake and move onto the next order of business, dice rolling. The first dice to be rolled was the chastity dice and i struck lucky. i am henceforth being locked back into chastity for a period of 3 months

the outcome of my chastity dice roll

Next up was the monthly outdoor challenge dice roll. i ended up with one of the 'easier' potential dice combinations, namely to pose wearing shorts and trainers outside the cafe in our local park. If you read on you can see how i got on.

Dice rolling completed it was then time to move onto the main order of business, present opening. Boy, did i do well! First, up Owner is gifting me a new tattoo that will clearly state that i am owned by her. She has come up with a design and now all i need to do is make an appointment to get the tattoo done. She is currently considering whereabouts on my body She would like it to go. Her current preference is for it to go on my right inner thigh, opposite where Her previous tattoo is which says my nickname. She has also considered getting it done on my arse but thinks it might be too big. This is Her design - it's wonderful, i love it!

Owners' design for my next tattoo

The next present was a real surprise. This weekend Owner is whisking me away for a weekend trip to Paris, including a visit to Versailles (which we have always wanted to see) as well as an evening performance at the Moulin Rouge. i am super excited at the prospect of seeing the show. We are having a meal beforehand and then we have a night of high kicking, bloomers and stockings wearing girls ahead of us. Oh how i wish i could join them on stage. But Owner has thought of that too. Though i won't be joining in the cabaret the last of my birthday presents were a pair of amazing heeled shoes, a basque, frilly knickers and a fascinator to wear for a photo shoot in our hotel the next day. i will, after all, get an opportunity to dress as a show girl. i am super excited at the prospect. Here's a sneak preview of my amazing new shoes

Last, but not least i also got a beautiful pair of ear-rings to wear. They are silver with a small red stone inset and are completely gorgeous, i love them

my beautiful new ear-rings

Owner also has one more treat planned for my birthday. She is taking me to dinner tonight to one of our favourite places which has amazing views across London. We're both really looking forward to it.

So, didn't i do well!! i got some absolutely amazing presents from Owner and i am super excited about our weekend away to Paris. What additional excitement could the morning possibly bring? Well, completing my challenge for one thing.

The dice had decided that i was to wear shorts and trainers outside the cafe in our local park. With Owners' permission i selected some pretty shorts and my heeled trainers to wear combined with over-the-knee socks, a bra and top. It is currently 9 degrees in London so i also needed a coat to wear. This is what my outfit looked like:

my dice challenge outfit

Preparing to leave the house

heading to the park

outside the park cafe

old lady and dog

One thing i have realised with these challenges is that i ought to invest in a selfie stick, there is only so far my far can extend!

Owner was pleased with me when She saw the photos to show Her that i had completed the challenge. i am already looking forward to next month's one! What a wonderful way to start my 50th and what a lot of amazing presents, treats and surprises i received.

A Brief Interregnum...Then Back To Training

Owner and i are back in the UK after our brief visit to Spain to see Her family. The trip was not as relaxing a one as Owner had hoped for, however, we did get to celebrate Her parents wedding anniversary with a big family meal which was really enjoyable. On the day we left Owner also instructed me to remove my chastity device and to remain unlocked until we returned, which is why the days in chastity counter has changed.

The first night we were away She teased and caressed my now unexpectedly free clit. Owner caressed my nipples (which ALWAYS gets me going) and then stroked and spanked my clitty which was soon quite hard well as hard as it gets. However, She stopped after a bit and i remained a good girl the rest of the trip and refrained from the temptation to pleasure myself. So here we are, back in the UK and back locked-up again. It is eight months and counting since i last had an orgasm, part of me hopes this might become the new normal, denial is oddly extremely arousing.

On Thursday i was working from home and so had to complete an outdoor challenge. The dice determined that i was to take a picture of myself outdoors with my panties on my head. i opted to take it at the bus stop close to where we live. It is only a short walk to the stop but i was briefly 'tailed' by a van as i made my way along the street with the feel of the warm summer breeze on my knickerless bottom and locked clit. Little did the driver know that i was walking along with my panties in my bag!

It was a fun and thrilling thing to do and by the time i let myself back into our flat, mission accomplished, i confess to feeling quite excited by my brief adventure. i have been an exhibitionist from an early age, as a child, well aged about 11, i used to sneak out of my parents house and run naked in the street before sneaking back home. i still get the same excited thrill out of it as i did then, and am grateful to Owner for encouraging this side of me. She enjoys having an exhibitionist slut wife and i adore being one.

at bust stop - knickers (spotty Victoria's secret ones) on head

a better view of the outfit i was wearing

Meanwhile, the lovely Kaaren requested a picture of Owner and my trip to Spain. Below is an image of the seafront - sadly it wasn't really appropriate for me to don my bikini and join the beach goers

Friday saw me again working from home. This time the dice dictated that i complete one of my favourite activities, namely deep-throat practising. i have come to really enjoy this and feel that i am now much more accomplished than i once was. i love the sensation of taking a phallus as far down as i can manage, and i can now get it quite a long way down! i adore having my mouth and throat filled, feeling the cock slide down then fucking my mouth with the dildo. It creates a wonderful gooey, slimy mess to coat the dildo with so i can fuck my throat some more. i practised with two dildos, the long double-ended one and the fatter but shorter one. Here's me in fake cock deep throat heaven

In case you wondered what actual size these dildo's are?

the answer is about 1/2 and 3/4 of an arm respectively :)

i have still yet to be able to get the longer dildo all the way in, but i am getting there! i'd love one day to be able to take it all the way down. The shorter one now quite easily goes in 'balls deep' and is great for training my throat to accommodate a girthy cock. It is more solid than the longer one and so is more akin to a big, hard, erect cock whereas the longer one i guess is similar to a very long but only 'half awake' cock. i'd like to be trained to take an even fatter one and also practice being face-fucked. What curious ambitions i have! :)

By contrast my own, now essentially redundant, 'clit' is tiny in comparison, .  Owner's description of it as my 'clitty' is an accurate one,  and it is never used. There is no danger of it being inside any orifice ever again - except a chastity device, which it is most of the time. My 'clitty' last experienced being inside Owners' pussy well over a decade ago and has not been permitted entry since. Nor do i ever expect to ever be allowed inside Her again. It is not something i miss as my 'performance' was always something i was anxious and nervous about. i also don't recall ever having had a blow job in my entire life, neither do i have any desire to ever have one. It simply is of no interest to me, never has been. My only experience of blow jobs has been as the giver not the receiver. In short, as you can see, my clitty serves no particular sexual function of any kind. However, like any clitty it does enjoy the odd occasion when it is caressed or, more frequently, those occasions when it is slapped and spanked. But Owner takes care these days to ensure it does not get so excited as to risk an accident. My 'clit' is now kept in a state of extended orgasm denial (8 months and counting) which i love and i am eternally grateful to Owner for. All i miss is the taste of cum - Owner generally always made me lick-up my mess.  All i long for these days, and what i absolutely adore, is when She instructs me to bury my tongue in Her anus. But i am digressing massively! The point i am trying to make as i waffle on and on is that, my 'clit' is a) small and b) redundant, unlike those dildos.

i was wearing shorts when i did my deep throat training, not that you can see in the pictures above so here's one taken just after i got dressed for work (from home) at the start of the day. You can clearly see the new tattoo that Owner got me - which is now totally healed. i think it looks really cool. i love how it runs up the inside of my thigh towards my crotch. i think it looks really pretty... and a little slutty, which is a look i aspire to :) and which Owner encourages.

thick thighs and thin arms

Breast Torment (continued)

My poor titties really are being made to suffer this week, although as a consequence they are wonderfully sensitive to the touch at the moment. i worked from home on Monday and then again today (Wednesday) and each day Owner's dice determined that i endure a different type of breast torture. On Monday it resulted in me again being required to attached 10 min-pegs to each nipple/breast and keep them on for 20 minutes before removing. Then today i was required to attach weighted clamps to my nipples and wear these for fifteen minutes before removing them.

In case you are wondering what the clamps are that the weights are suspended from these are weighted plastic table cloth weights that have quite teeth grip so they are able to hang onto the flesh of my nipples quite well even when additional weights are suspended from them. You can see how my nipples were stretched by the weights hanging from them.

My nipples have been regularly abused over the years and one of the by-products of this is that over time they have become bigger. Both have been pierced and when i used to wear rings in each (unlike today when i only wear a ring in my right one) we experimented a bit with me wearing a weighted chain suspended between each nipple ring - so that they were kept under permanent tension. Unfortunately, it eventually caused a problem with one of my piercings and so we had to abandon the idea. On the plus side though the legacy of piercing and abuse means that both nipples are super sensitive and easily aroused, something i am sure that my chastised state also adds to. It is easy to make them hard and aroused and i adore Owner teasing and caressing them, She in-turn loves to torment them. i would actually love to have my nipples permanently stretched and enlarged but that is another story!

Incidentally, the other day Owner mentioned that She was thinking about having my right breast tattooed as well. She had my left breast tattoed shortly after we got married last year (it has the date of our wedding in Roman numerals and the word 'Uxor', meaning wife in Latin inked around it). She is thinking of something similar for my right breast. i am really excited at the prospect.

Bonsai, or should that be Kawaii, clitty?

After wearing my old small metal chastity device all week my new Happygo Super Small Male Chastity device was delivered today. And, OMG we love it! Owner and i both agree that it is super cute. i have only just started wearing it but i already love it. i will do a proper review once i have been wearing it for an extended period of time but initial impressions are really positive. One aspect of the device also immediately strikes me. Because it is so small and keeps my clitty under tight control it means that my balls - or the lips of my clitty - will dangerously and invitingly exposed for beating.

securely locked

The components of the Happygo

Indication of the size compared to my thumb

Fittingly, Owner determined that i should pay for the device out of the monthly allowance She permits for me. It's not a costly device at all but it meant that a third of my monthly allowance has gone on the pleasure of being placed into tight chastity. There is something extra special about that and is one of the many, many reasons that i think She is the best Owner in the world.

Owner has also developed some ideas for a monthly game of chastity 'Russian Roulette'. She is still working on it but in essence each month i will get to pick a card and depending on the card picked it could mean that i will be remaining locked up without release for another one. two or more months or that my clitty might be temporarily released for Her to tease for a few hours or a few days even. You get the idea. Essentially, the luck of the draw will determine how long i stay locked in chastity for, without prospect of release.

This week also saw the resumption of my being punished for the pleasure of being able to watch TV with Owner after i had completed my chores. This was something Owner introduced a while back but the combination of the long hours i was working and Owner's ill health meant we had kind of got out of the habit. Anyway, it is back. i now have to pick a punishment card from a jar kept on the coffee table in the lounge for just that purpose. This week it has meant i have been caned, clamped, spent time on all fours, and received an over-the-knee spanking in return for privilege of watching the TV.

On all fours with nipple clamps (out of view)

Finally, royal wedding has descended on the UK - except in our household - we're both republicans. So it seems rather fitting that at the time when half the nation will probably be watching the couple head down the aisle Owner and i will be at the tattooist making arrangements for me to be permanently inked with to mark my achievement of becoming Owner's legal wife and the date of this occurred earlier this year. i wonder if Meghan will demand that Harry do the same, or place him into chastity too?

Devotional Tattoos

My last post prompted a comment from Wifey, from the excellent Mistress and Wifey blog, asking whether i could do a post showing all of my current 'devotional' tattoos. This post is for Wifey but i hope others find it of interest to.

i currently have five 'devotional' tattoos, that is tattoos that have a special meaning for Owner and i and which symbolise an aspect of our relationship together. Next month, as i mentioned in my previous post, we will be adding an additional tattoo to mark the date that i became Her legal wife. i have two further existing tattoos but as these pre-date Owner and i getting together and my subsequent submission to Her i have not included them.

Anyway, working my way down my body the first 'devotional' tattoo can be found on my left shoulder. It is a tattoo of a cat and this is it:

Owner regularly refers to me as Her pet, the nickname She commonly calls me by is 'petunio', and this is tattoo is intended to symbolise this. She says that i am lucky and also that i live an easy life, characteristics often associated with cats, black ones especially when it comes to luck. The tattoo needs a bit of touching up in places.

Moving further down my body to my right hip you will find the first ever 'devotional' tattoo i had done. It is a Celtic serpent which both references Owner's Celtic heritage whilst the 'S' shape of the serpent refers to both my submission to Her and is also the first letter of Her forename.

On the opposite hip and buttock you will find this key. This was the second 'devotional' tattoo i had done and it symbolises my state of chastity and denial. In reality i spend as much time out of chastity as in, it has been quite a while since i was last locked up for example. However, whether in chastity or not Owner is in total control of our sex life and my orgasms and my clit. She has enforced a 'no penetration' rule for me (She can and does penetrate me but i can only penetrate Her with my fingers/tongue - not my penis/clit) for over ten years now. In that sense, whether i am in chastity or not Her control i am still effectively kept denied and locked-up, even if not always physically locked.

Descending down my right leg you will find my princess crown. It sits just above my ankle and so is visible if i wear shorts or skirts. It is intended to emphasise my femininity and my interest in things pretty and girly, my desire to be a little princess. It is an overtly feminine tattoo and i love it

The last, and most recent and even more obvious tattoo, is in the form of an anklet. This again symbolises my femininity and takes the form of a half-moon or crescent on an ankle chain. The half-moon symbol is commonly associated with womanhood and, as such, it speaks to and reveals my true self.

i can't wait to have the honour of adding Owner's design for my breast tattoo marking the occasion we married and my status as Her wife to my body.

Wedding Tattoo

Owner has come up with a wonderful idea, namely to have the date of our wedding and my status as Her 'wife' permanently etched around my left breast. Owner has always been interested in Roman history and the Latin language and so She has devised an outline idea for a tattoo which comprises the date we got married in Roman numerals, the Latin word for wife 'uxor' and laurel leafs to mark the achievement of my becoming Her legal wife. i think it is a wonderful idea! The plan is for me to have the tattoo around my left breast. We have made an appointment next month with the tattooist to discuss the design and agree a date to get it done.  What do you think of the design?

The tattoo will add to the those i already have that symbolise aspects of Owner and my relationship. These are as follows:

• A serpent on my right hip in the shape of the initial of Owner's first name
• An old fashioned key on my right hip indicating Her ownership of me and my state of enforced sexual denial (whether in chastity or not)
• A cat on my left shoulder indicating that i am Her playful 'pet'
• A princess crown on my right ankle as a symbol of my femininity
• A half-moon ankle chain on my left ankle, again symbolising my femininity

i am really thrilled and honoured to have the opportunity to add my status as Owners wife to my body. i have two other old tattoos which date back to before Owner and i got together but the remainder all have great significance for us.

One day i would also love to add to my tattoo collection with a 'tramp stamp' above my buttocks, to mark my status as Owners' slut, two pretty bows at the back of my thighs - because i think such tattoos look pretty and beautiful, a permanent collar/necklace tattoo and something small and cute behind my ear that overtly marks me out as Her property.

i would also love to have permanent make-up tattoos done but that, as they say, is another story!