Ownership and Control

Owner controls and dominates my life in some many wonderful ways. She controls me financially, She decides what i will eat or drink when we go out, i need Her permission before making any purchases, She decides what clothes i might buy, how Her home is to be kept and decorated, She can chastise or punish me at any time, She sets me tasks and challenges, expects that i will keep Her home clean and tidy at all times, will prepare all Her meals and do all Her washing. She also keeps me collared at all times, at home as well as at work. And of course, She dominates me sexually, is clear that my purpose is to pleasure Her whilst keeping me in denial (over 400 days and counting since my last orgasm). In short, She controls and dominates me completely, She owns me. As Her wife i am a moon locked in happy eternal orbit around Her planet. Her ownership of me is complete, there is not an aspect of my life into which it does not extend and shape and determine what i may or may not do.

Thus, it is only fitting that as Her final gift to me for my fiftieth birthday Owner designed a tattoo for me to publicly mark the fact that i am fully 'Owned' by Her. Earlier this week i headed out to the tattoo parlour to be permanently inked in a way that publicly and very openly celebrates the complete control Owner has over me. The tattoo is on my right inner thigh and is big enough to be fully obvious whenever i am in shorts or a skirt.

i am thrilled, honoured and excited and immensely proud to be so publicly labelled by Owner as belonging to Her completely. She is a truly amazing and wonderful woman who has lit-up and enriched my life in so many wonderful ways. To be Hers is to be complete. She is my world and i cherish Her absolute rule over me. To be owned by Her, to be able to submit totally to Her and for Her absolute control and dominance over me to be marked upon my flesh until the day i die is a truly wonderful privilege. For it is only that, namely my own death, that would ever cause us to be parted. i am Hers for as long as i have breath in my lungs and am honoured to be marked for life as belonging to Owner. She truly is the person who makes my life complete and i love and adore Her.

So what does the new tattoo look like? Well the first thing to say is that the tattoo artist deviated a little from Owners' original design. i didn't realise this at first, other than the fact the tattoist had changed the placing of Owners initials (which i checked Owner was ok with). However, when i returned home Owner was quick to spot that the tattoo lookeda little different from Her original design. i love how it looks and all that it represents but Owner is a bit disappointed as it is not a replica of the design She produced. The artist also needs to re-touch one of the initials as the final version did not come out quite right, but she is confident it can be fixed.

So these are a few shots of me getting the tattoo done and the final version

on the couch, stencil marked up, waiting to be inked

2/3 of the tattoo completed

And now a photo of the tattoo the day after having it done

1 day later

i like the fact that the tattoo clearly says i am 'Owned' and has Owner's initials around it, marking me as Hers (accepting one of the letters needs tweaking slightly). As i say, Owner is disappointed it deviated from Her design but i am hoping She will grow to like it - She says is pretty, just not quite what She drew. The most important thing for me is not really the design but the statement itself. i am owned and am owned by Her. That is what i want people to know if they see the tattoo. My inner thighs now proclaim Owners' nickname for me and my status as being owned by Her.

Quite A Day

Well today has been an interesting day! This morning i was interviewed for a promotion at work and then this afternoon it was time for me to get the tattoo done that Owner had designed for me. i went to a studio called Velvet Underground tattoos. i have not been to this one before. It is in East London near the Barbican Centre and it is an all female tattooist studio.

Outside the tattoo studio

i was done by Emily and i think she has done a great job as does Owner. Here is me with my bandage over my new tattoo and then with the bandage part-removed.

my new petunio tattoo

And yes, i was tattooed whilst just wearing my spotty Victoria's Secret knickers (having needed to remove my trousers) and in chastity! The whole process took about 40 minutes and Owner and i are really delighted with the result.

Oh, and on the way home i got a call to say i have got the promotion.

Quite a day. And tomorrow marks another milestone as it's chastity dice day and will also be the 200th day spent without having had an orgasm. July is proving to be quite a month already.

Meanwhile, as a consequence of working away from home two days on the trot i will be bound and gagged for the duration of a an episode of TV series we are watching. It lasts about an hour. i was gagged the other day for the same reason and same length of time. i was drooling a bit by the end :)

Devotional Tattoos

My last post prompted a comment from Wifey, from the excellent Mistress and Wifey blog, asking whether i could do a post showing all of my current 'devotional' tattoos. This post is for Wifey but i hope others find it of interest to.

i currently have five 'devotional' tattoos, that is tattoos that have a special meaning for Owner and i and which symbolise an aspect of our relationship together. Next month, as i mentioned in my previous post, we will be adding an additional tattoo to mark the date that i became Her legal wife. i have two further existing tattoos but as these pre-date Owner and i getting together and my subsequent submission to Her i have not included them.

Anyway, working my way down my body the first 'devotional' tattoo can be found on my left shoulder. It is a tattoo of a cat and this is it:

Owner regularly refers to me as Her pet, the nickname She commonly calls me by is 'petunio', and this is tattoo is intended to symbolise this. She says that i am lucky and also that i live an easy life, characteristics often associated with cats, black ones especially when it comes to luck. The tattoo needs a bit of touching up in places.

Moving further down my body to my right hip you will find the first ever 'devotional' tattoo i had done. It is a Celtic serpent which both references Owner's Celtic heritage whilst the 'S' shape of the serpent refers to both my submission to Her and is also the first letter of Her forename.

On the opposite hip and buttock you will find this key. This was the second 'devotional' tattoo i had done and it symbolises my state of chastity and denial. In reality i spend as much time out of chastity as in, it has been quite a while since i was last locked up for example. However, whether in chastity or not Owner is in total control of our sex life and my orgasms and my clit. She has enforced a 'no penetration' rule for me (She can and does penetrate me but i can only penetrate Her with my fingers/tongue - not my penis/clit) for over ten years now. In that sense, whether i am in chastity or not Her control i am still effectively kept denied and locked-up, even if not always physically locked.

Descending down my right leg you will find my princess crown. It sits just above my ankle and so is visible if i wear shorts or skirts. It is intended to emphasise my femininity and my interest in things pretty and girly, my desire to be a little princess. It is an overtly feminine tattoo and i love it

The last, and most recent and even more obvious tattoo, is in the form of an anklet. This again symbolises my femininity and takes the form of a half-moon or crescent on an ankle chain. The half-moon symbol is commonly associated with womanhood and, as such, it speaks to and reveals my true self.

i can't wait to have the honour of adding Owner's design for my breast tattoo marking the occasion we married and my status as Her wife to my body.

A Lovely Weekend...And A Thought

After our travels over Xmas and New Year Owner and i have enjoyed a relaxing time at home this weekend. i got to do some baking again after a break of a few weeks and it provided us with an opportunity to plan out a few things for the coming year which promise to be very exciting indeed...but i'm afraid you'll just have to wait and see what they are.

Our experience with the new Jailbird chastity device continues to be a positive one. Owner thinks it is the prettiest device we have had to date and i love the feeling of being locked inside it. The device remains on 24/7 and i hope it will become a constant presence save for when we are having to fly somewhere - it's metal construction would send airport scanners into meltdown! It is also the smallest device i have ever worn which makes for uncomfortable erections, but of course this is as they should be :).

Owner has also been encouraging me to share Her (and mine) new found passion for bloomers more widely by posing in our lounge window whilst wearing them for anyone passing by to see. The picture below shows the outfit i was posing in;

and this is the view from the street outside;

Owner says She loves having me pose for Her (and anyone else who may be passing!) in our lounge window and i confess that i love doing so too. However, whilst over the years i have grown increasingly shameless and will now do and wear things that would have mortified me until a few years ago (thanks in great part to Owners training and encouragement) there remains one area in which i am still fairly shy - namely the public wearing of obvious symbols of my submission to Owner.

i should explain myself at this point. My body is adorned with many temporary and permanent symbols of my submission to Owner and of Her ownership of me, ranging from tattoos, to bracelets, neck, nipple and belly chains and tags, collars (with and without cuffs) and chastity device. i softly jangle and jingle as i walk from the sound of the little charms and bell attached to my various pieces of jewellery all of which signify my status as Owners pet, Her slut, possession and whore. i always strive to look pretty whether Owner is around or not so that She might be proud of me (though i confess i also love being feminine). It makes no difference whether i am at home, in public with Owner or without Her, what i wear and how i look is the same....all that is apart from when i am at work or with family. Then i still wear everything i would normally do as described above save for one item, namely my collar.  i am wearing the collar i am referring to in the photograph below which was taken today in the local park:

You will see it in all the photos of me that appear in this blog. It is a lovely collar and yet, despite this i have never had the courage to wear it to work or visiting my family. However, in a recent post by Tamara about  her husband Rene's new collar she wonderfully describes his family's reaction and that of his work colleagues when he wore his collar in front of them. This got me thinking, why don't i wear mine to work or in front of my family - after all they've seen the make-up i wear and my family even got to read a Christmas list a few years back that was intended solely for Owners eyes only and which i sent to them in error, much to my horror ... they never did send me a butt plug (lol!). But yet i have never worn my collar. Maybe after reading about Rene's experience i too will pluck-up the courage to wear mine.