You read a lot about 'forced feminisation' as a means of training a submissive male. At first, such an approach was used on me to good effect, i can still vividly recall the utter terror that was my first ever foray outside, on a bus, wearing make-up. Or the time i had to cross Waterloo Bridge wearing red high-heeled shoes, or stand next to Nelson' Column in central London wearing a corset. But that was then (and how slim i was then too!).
It soon became apparent to both Owner and i that once started there was increasingly little needed by way of 'forcing' to incentivise me to continue my journey of feminisation. Owner supported me on this journey as i delved ever deeper into my feminine side and discovered to my surprise (despite the fact that the signs had always been there for all to see), that i actually much preferred my feminine-self to my traditional male one. i felt more 'me'. Owner helped open the rabbit hole but after i fell in i discovered i really liked where it took me.
Now, there were always limits to this journey. Whilst She has been incredibly supportive of me exploring and developing my feminine side, buys me clothes and make up etc at the end of the day Owner is clear that She also wants me to remain essentially male. To those who, on an irregular basis, pose the question would i ever take hormones, have breast implants etc, etc? The answer is an emphatic 'no'. Owner is clear that She wants me to retain a male body and so that is how it will always be. Make-up, clothes, hair, nails, bra, jewellery etc, etc = 'yes'. Hormones, boob job, botox, laser hair removal, eyebrow shaping etc = 'no'.
However, it is also true that i am now in a place mentally where i feel most at ease and comfortable with myself when i am made-up, have my bra created chest and am generally attempting to look pretty. In short, i have become a very feminine man.
This has given Owner an idea. Why not weaponise my sense of being femine, or perhaps my absence of feeling like i am a 'proper' man, and turn it against me? Use it as a form of punishment. After all, if i hate presenting as fully male so much what better way to discipline me that to require me to do just that. So that is exactly what She has done. She has introduced a new form of punishment for me. What She describes as my 'Little Boy' punishment where i have to stay unshaven, sans make-up and wearing boys clothes. To me presenting as this is horrible as it no longer feels 'me'. Many will probably read this and be baffled as to how this can be an effective punishment but let me assure you it is. What is more, Owner has let it be known that She fully intends to use it more often as a means of further training and disciplining me to always do exactly as She wants, keep Her home spotless and become Her perfect PA and assistant. Roles She expects me to perform to Her exacting standards.
So, for the past day and a half i have been that 'Little Boy'. i can't wait to get back to 'normal' me when my punishment is over. Meanwhile, this is what 'Little Boy' me looks like:
Little Boy out for a meal with his Owner |
Little Boy at the bar ordering drinks for his Owner |
4 comments:
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it would appear that Owner has weaponised your fear/ dislike of your male identity into your Rm 101 punishment.
It also appears that you will become Owner's version of My Madam's Ms Watson. Embrace it, as I fear your new punishment from Owner will hurt more than your physical punishments from Owner.
I can already see you as her PA.
now make sure you be have and get back to being a good submissive sissy so that you can avoid being a unsuitable boy.
billie xxx
Thanks billie and you may well be right. i shall endeavour to be on my best behaviour.
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Actually, the "Little Boy" does not look bad...sorry to burst in on your "thing". Side note, the moment I saw "Waterloo"...ABBA was singing inside my head. :)
Oh don't say that Vanessa, you'll go and well and truly burst my bubble. Yeah, Waterloo and ABBA are difficult to disassociate, unless maybe if you are French? :)
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