Chastity

Regular readers of this blog will know that i have been kept in a pretty permanent state of chastity for the past 4 years. i am given releases about once every couple of weeks so this isn''t the state of enforced long-term denial that some subs experience, but nevertheless the norm is a chaste one. Over this time period my chastity has been enforced by the wearing of a CB-3000 device with added 'points of intrigue'. This has been a great device for everyday wear, it's comfortable (well the points aren't but that is the point!), lightweight and doesn't hinder you going about your daily business. All it requires is regular cleaning. Some people have found it's size an issue but as i am pretty small in that department it has never been a problem. However, from Owners perspective it does suffer from one major drawback, namely that if She wishes to torture or torment my clit then there is a whole kerfuffle of having to remove the device before She can do so. Owner would prefer something that allows Her greater spontaneity.

To try and address this we purchased a Birdlocked device (again with extra teeth inside) because rather than being hard plastic it is made of silicone and so appeared to offer lots of potential for Owner to abuse my clit at Her leisure whilst it remained securely locked up. Sadly, our experience with this device wasn't a good one as it led to sores and slight blistering and so we retunrned back to the trusty old CB3000.

Today, however, Owner received an email from one of Her favourite on-line stores, Tickleberry advising of their latest products. Amongst the new devices and implements they have to offer was the following;

The device is called a Kali's Teeth Bracelet and is a medical-grade but lightweight device that secures behind your 'bits' and then traps your clit in a metal-spiked sleeve. The clear advantage offered by this device from Owners perspective is that it leaves my clit relatively free for Her to abuse and torment. From my own perspective it retains the sense of control of having a device securely in place (though i'm not someone who would oherwise be desperately masturbating on a daily basis without being in chastity - i just like the sense of security and control it provides). At the moment Owner has not made any decision as to whether to purchase it or not but She is clearly quite interested in this device and the metal teeth would certainly add a new dimension to any moments of arousal on my part. i guess i shall just have to wait and see whether this is to become my new replacement reminder of my place as Owners chaste submissive or not.

Let Her eat cake (and biscuits, soups, stews etc)

The Romans had a saying that an army marches on its stomach and for me ensuring that Owner gets to receive healthy, nutritious food is something that i take great pride in doing. When Owner and i first met it must be said that my culinary repetoire was somewhat limited. However, with Owners active encouragement my confidence in the kitchen grew and became an integral part of our Female-led/Femdom lifestyle. Owner Herself is a wonderful cook but we quickly developed a routine whereby unless i was ill or unavoidably detained at work it should be i that prepares all the meals (and of course tidies and washes up afterwards). This little routine of ours starts from the moment when we wake up. Owner has to leave the house about an hour before i do for work and so i get up with Her, prepare breakfast and then make Her lunch. Then in the evening i prepare ou evening meal when i get back.

Of late i have started to try and ensure that Owner always has an option of home-cooked savoury bread for breakfast and/or to take with Her to work as well as making homemade biscuits on a regular basis for Her too. i have to say that baking and cooking in general has opened a whole new world for me. i used to just cook to eat i.e. to fill a hole. However, now i love to experiment, try different things and have become a little obsessed with baking. There is something wonderfully satisfying about feeding someone, anyone and people the world over do, i am sure, derive joy and satisfaction on a regular basis from cooking for family and friends. However, to me cooking and baking are also a further expression of my love and adoration for Owner. i obviously like to eat what i prepare too but there is nothing like the satisfaction derived from seeing Owner tuck in and enjoy. It's almost like sex (i did say almost!) in that for me the most wonderful part is the giving and not the receiving of pleasure and cooking is the same.

When i first started this blog many moons ago i wrote at the time that my ambition in life was to become a housewife for Owner and spending my evenings or parts of the weekend kneading my dough or stirring a soup is something i adore to do. Sadly i still have to go to work so the housewife ambition remains, for the foreseeable future, an unrealised one. However, there are still plenty of moments in any day when i can 'live my dream' and potter about cleaning or tidying whilst the aroma of freshly baked/prepared food wafts through the flat.

Why am i writing all of the above? i guess because to me being in a relationship that is a Female-led or Femdom one presents so many opportunities to serve and cooking is one wonderful way to do just that.

Owner and pet at large

Owner and i have just decided that it is time that we re-visited Club Pedestal, a Femdom club in South London that we went to a few years ago and kept meaning to re-visit but had never quite got round to. The main problem was that the club only hosts about 4 nights a year and these were always on a Thursday (not good for going to work the next day when you're both not teenagers anymore!). However, the next club night is on a Friday and so offers plenty of scope for lying in and recovering the following day. Owner has also decided that, rather than get a taxi back home after the Club closes (and it stays open until 5am) we might as well book into a nearby hotel. That way we do not have too worry about traipsing back all the way across London in our respective finery but rather can totter a few hundred yards on our heels back to the hotel instead.

i really can't wait to go to the Club as last time it was wonderful to be to be out in company with Owner in a venue with other like-minded folk. The venue also has a play area and the prospect of some possible public play is a very exciting one. To round off what will be an excellent end to the month we have also booked to go and see one of our favourite bands, The National playing at the Brixton Academy at the end of November.

Though the weather has taken a decided turn for the worst this week (torrential rain and freezing cold) and the days are getting depressingly long November promises to be a great month after all!

Caned Into Cuming

This evening Owner removed my chastity device in order for me to have a supervised shower. However, rather than have it re-attached after i'd showered and shaved She instructed me to keep it off and to come to the bedroom for a caning. Owner commenced with some warm-up strokes with Her flogger and favourite paddle before moving onto the caning proper, using first the thicker and thuddier cane and then the lighter traditional crooked one.

When i had counted off 200 strokes She stopped and then turned Her attention to my nipples, pulling and twisting my nipple rings before caning each nipple in turn. Owner then attached japanese clover clamps to each nipple and carried on caning them whilst instructing me to play with my clit. i noticed She did not say to masturbate and so slapped my testicles instead (which is what i normally do if i am in chastity - which i was not - when Owner instructs me to play with myself this way). After a short while Owner directed her cane down betwen my legs and began to cane the head and shaft of my clit. She then paused and started to masturbate me and then resumed with the clit caning. Owner repeated this over and over, each time masturbating me until i sought permission to cum and then stopping and resuming Her caning. My titties were hot and sore from the clamps and my clit was engorged and swollen from the repeated edging and caning but still Owner continued.

After having been brought to the edge of orgasm for the 8th or 9th time i again begged for permission to cum but this time Owner didn't stop, but continued Her rythmic stroking of my clit and then brought Her cane into play. It was too much, i tried in vain to prevent the impending orgasm but failed and came across the bed covers and the tip of Owners cane as it continued to strike my clit. Owner didn't seem to mind that i had cum stating instead that it had been a useful experiment for Her as She removed the clamps from my nipples and i bent down and licked my cum off the bedding. Owner is certainly becoming very adept with Her canings!

All the Worlds a Stage - for a slut in training

This evening after work Owner and i went to go an see the excellent Japanese production Shun-kin by theatre Complicite at the Barbican Centre. The play is the story of a blind Shamisen player and her servant. Set in Japan in the 19th century it centres upon their intense and very sado-masochistic and Femdom relationship. It was fascinating and brillianly staged.

As would seem appropriate for such a production, and as part of my continuing slut/whore training Owner chose to add some additional instructions for me for the evening. The first instruction was that when i met Her after work i was to be wearing my butt plug and have my nipple clmps to hand. We went for dinner whereupon i was instructed to attach the nipple clamps and wear them for the walk to the Barbican Centre, ensuring that by the time we arrived my nipples were pert and sensitive. Owner then selected a slightly raised walkway outside the theatre and instructed me to start playing with my nipples like a slut. As i leant over the wall and pulled and twisted my nipple rings office workers were walking past a mere 10 feet away. Owner caressed my plugged pussy and encouraged me to pull my nipples harder. It was a wonderfully slutty experience to be made to fondle and carress my sore and aroused titties as people walked by!

Satisfied by my behaviour we then headed into the theatre where Owner instructed me to get down onto my knees in the foyer and beg to be allowed to go the the toilet and play with my tits, (chastised) clit and pussy in the toilet and then to return with my knickers hanging from my pocket and for them to remain like that for the duration of the performance. Owner even had me stand up in the theatre as everyone took their seats before the show commenced so that anyone who chose to look towards me too closely would see my knickers hanging from my pocket. Eventually Owner allowed me to sit down and then She lent across and proceeded to twist and pull on my nipples as the audience settled itself. i admit i couldn't resist the urge to unbutton my top further so that Owner could get easier access to my nipples, thereby granting anyone watching the sight of Owner happily pulling and twisting my nipples in a packed theatre. i was in slutty heaven and rested my head on Owners shoulder as Her fingers probed, twisted and pulled.

Owner stated that She is really enjoying extending my slut training into more public places and that i can expect more challenges to come to demonstrate what an obedient and shameless slut i am becoming under Her guidance. i have to confess that i love it to and am slowly learning to become a lot less self-conscious than i used to be. It really is a wonderful feeling to have Owner decide that if She wants to publicly expose and molest me, or have me do it myself for Her amusement, then She can do so at any time or any where we are. i am, after all, Hers to do with as She pleases.

Halloween Weekend Part 3 - Sunday

What a wonderful concluding part to our Halloween weekend today has been. In the morning we both set off into town for me to complete my red basque challenge in St James Park. Some of the colours of the leaves on the trees at this time of year are amazing and it was lovely to wander around. i also completed the challenge;

and Owner shot a little video of me wearing my basque in the park too;

My challenge having been completed to Owners satisfaction we walked over to Covent Garden to have some lunch and a nosey around some of the shops before heading back home.

When we got back i prepared our Halloween meal (more about that later) and then got changed to perform my promised little show for Owner. i performed to Marilyn Manson's excellent cover version of Sweet Dream Are Made Of This which is one of my favourite Marilyn covers. Ohh, and i honestly do appear once the intro with the 'mysterious and spooky' pumpkin has finished!

Show over it was time to serve Owner my Halloween dinner. iid baked sodabread and then hollowed-out and baked a pumpkin and used the baked pumpkin as a container for a cheese fondue. Not your typical Halloween meal i grant but it tasted delicious

Meal completed it was tme to wash up and tidy away and then clean and polish Owners boots, and give Her Her regular Sunday pedicure and then update this blog. It has been a fantastic Halloween weekend and i am so grateful to Owner for having devised such a wonderful one.

Halloween Weekend Part 2 - Saturday

This morning after breakfast i baked some soda bread in preparation for our Halloween meal tomorrow night and then prepared Owners instruments and implements for my morning in Her torture chamber a.k.a our bedroom.  Owner locked me into position on the impaler and made sure that its's dildo was fully inserted into my pussy with my legs locked apart and my hands locked behind my back. Then She attached the tower of pain device to my nipples and wratcheted it up tight so that my nipples were being pulled hard by each set of clamps. Securely locked into position She set about spanking and caning my testicles and then attaching little mini metal clothes pegs to them until eventually there were 35 in situ (a combination of metal and wooden ones). i  concentrated hard to process the pain and focussed on my breathing as Owner then used Her cane to beat my taught nipples. A moments respite was afforded to me when Owner released my nipples from the tension of the Tower of Pain device only for Her to thread chopsticks through each of my nipple rings and then twist them around, and around unil i gasped in pain. Owner secured them into position and again started to cane my nipples, which by now were swollen and pulsating, before 'distracting' me by re-directing Her cane to my pegged testicles striking them repeatedly and causing me to jump about on the impaler. Owner continued with the torture, alternating between tying my nipples tight with cord and caning them and twisting them hard before switching to the riding crop and occasionally getting my attention by diverting Her blows to my pegged testicles.

By this point i was truly flying as the pain and endorphins fought their battle for control. Owner made me count off each of the strokes She administered which helped me to keep some degree of focus as my mouth dried up and my body shuddered and trembled under Her expert treatment. When i'd counted 140 strokes across my breasts Owner stopped and advised me that my session was over. However, we both knew that the worst bit was to come, the removal of the infernal pegs. Some had been knocked off when Owner caned them but most remained resolutely attached and i fought to contain the pain as each was removed by Owner.

When eventually i 'climbed off' the impaler to snuggle upto Owner my nipples were flushed red, sore and engorged and my testicles were covered in little red bruises were the pegs had left their marks whilst my clit throbbed inside its plastic cage. But i was elated. It had been a wonderful torture session and one that will be sure to leave a reminder (in the form of super sensitive nipples) for a day or so.

In the afternoon i performed a little slutty show for Owner, loosely inspired by Elvira (albeit minus the fabulous breats and big hair!) which was great fun;

But all of the above is the build-up to what for me is the main event, namely undertaking the red corset challenge Owner has set me to complete tomorrow in London's St James's Park. Owner read on the internet that the Park is hosting a whole day of Halloween activities so it looks like i will definitely have an audience when i undertake my little challenge - ho hum!

Halloween Weekend Part 1 - Friday Evening

First there was the vampire;

 

feasting upon any prey that came to hand

Next there was the pumpkin carving;

and a kinky pumpkin emerged;

Tomorrow there is the my morning torture followed by my Elvira tribute for Owner and then on Halloween itself i have my halloween challenge in St James Park, another show to perform for Owner and then our Halloween feast. How we love Halloween!

Flexible Working - What HR Doesn't Mention

My workplace has recently started to encourage more flexible working, including working from home, something that was too good an opportunity to miss. As a result, most Wednesdays i am now to be found sat in front of my laptop working from home during the day rather than in the office. Sadly, Owners employer doesn't offer the same opportunity but it does, at least, mean that i am at home when Owner returns and dressed all prettily to greet Her as She comes in.

Wednesday also happens to be one of my regular caning days and Owner had already advised that i was to expect to be caned when She got back. However, She had a wonderful surprise in store. Just before i was expecting Owner to return She texted to say that She was at the bus stop (meaning She was about 5 minutes away) and to prepare myself for a pussy inspection, as well as a caning, as soon as She walked in. i quickly scurried around the flat assembling Owners collection of canes, paddles and floggers and laying them out on the bed for Her. Then i got out Owners collection of insertables and laid these out together with the lube and gloves. Finally, i inserted the inflatable butt plug in my pussy, attached weights to the nipple clamps and then attached them to my nipples and bent over the bed to await Her arrival.

Owner seemed impressed that i had been able to get everything ready in time for Her arrival and that i was plugged and clamped in readiness. It wasn't long before Her hand had replaced the butt plug inside me and Her fingers were pulling and twisting my clamped nipples. Owner remarked how pleasingly wet and pert i was then removed Her hand picked up Her cane and commenced the first salvo of 20 strokes. i have become used to Owners caning techniques and know that She usually delivers a batch of 20 from one side and then changes position to deliver the next 20 and so forth. However, this time was different.

After administering Her initial 20 strokes Owner had me stand up straight and moisten my fingers and then caress, pull and twist my clamped nipples before instructing me to bend over again in readiness for the next 20 strokes. After these were delivered i was then instructed to pull and twist one nipple hard and slap my chastised testicles with the other before Owner continued with another 20 strikes of the cane. On the 60 mark Owner had me play with my pussy with my fingers, at 80 i was instructed to fuck myself in front of Her with a glass dildo and then gradually after every subsequent batch of 20 strokes fuck myself in front of Her with ever larger dildo's. All the while Owner commented what a truly dirty whore i was and pulled and twisted my nipples as my pussy was gradually stretched wider and wider still by each new toy.

As the 200th and final stroke fell Owner handed me the huge, red 14inch long, and a good many inches wide, dildo and instructed me to fuck myself with it. As i brought its giant red head into position and struggled to manouvere it between my cheeks Owner continued Her commentary on what a dirty slut i was and pulled and twisted my nipples harder still. Slowly i managed to get the head inside me but by now my hands were slippery with lube (not good when you have a very big, very heavy and quite flexible dildo that you are trying to insert - a bit like wrestling with an anoconda) and so  i changed position, crouching down so i could put the base of the dildo on the floor and then ease myself down onto it.

This rectified the 'problem' of the slippery dick and i could soon feel it's head pushing deeper inside me.  i gradually built up a steady rythm easing myself up and down onto the monster cock, feeling it inch deeper millimeter by millimetre as i began to bounce my hips up and down. All the while Owner stood behind me, Her fingers pulling and twisting my nipples and voicing Her satisfaction at what a good whore i was fucking myself in front of Her and telling Her how much i adored having cock inside me, how i longed to be Her slut, craved having my nipples abused hard and thought of nothing else all day other than of having my pussy stuffed and my nipples tortured. All the while this was going on my little clit throbbed inside its plastic cage and brain was consumed under a tsunami of pleasure, pain and desire. Owner had me right where She wanted me, Her personal fucktoy moaning and groaning and behaving in the most wanton manner, back arched, breasts swollen and pert and thighs trembling.

'STOP' Owner instructed 'that's enough'. My whole body was by now shivering in desire, craving pleasure in any form but play-time was over. i climbed-off the dildo (it really is a big 'un) and knelt down in front of Owner, my head in Her lap as my brain began the slow descent back to planet earth. 'My dirty little whore what a good slut you are' Owner purred 'playing with yourself without shame'. i concurred readily and then got up, collected and cleaned the toys and tidied Owners implements away.

Now, if HR were to know would they still be so keen to offer flexible working? i had spent the last hour of my working day 'training' but not really of the type i suspect you'd find in your average company training programme. Needless to say, i am now a fan of flexible working!

Halloween Challenges and Whore Training

Whilst i was esconced in the bathroom armed with cleaning cloths and detergent this afternoon Owner was hard at work planning our Halloween weekend. i think you will agree that She has, once again, come up with a wonderfully 'wicked' plan for the weekend;

Looks like i am going to be in for a fun time and will be interesting to see how i get on with the red basque challenge in St James Park!

Later this afternoon, after administering my regular caning, Owner clamped and then weighted my nipples, sending me into slut overdrive (i find any form of nipple torture has the ability to flip me straight into full slut mode). She then caned my breasts and testicles before having me go onto all fours and fucking me from behind. As Owner entered me She stated that next time we go to the pub She is going to get me to clamp my nipples and fellate a dildo in the toilets as part of my continuing whore training. At this point i was delirious with  desire with weights swinging from my clamped nipples and Owners cock thrusting in an out of my pussy. i 'confessed' to wanting to be trained to become a total public whore ready and willing to fondle and abuse my tits, play with my pussy and fellate a dildo anywhere in public that Owner desired.

After orgasming hard whilst fucking me Owner instructed that i am to write down a list of potential locations for such public whore training for Her to consider. As Owner Herself said, 'This could be an interesting winter'!