Slut Life and Sadness

There are multiple facets to my relationship with Owner, Her 24/7 domination and control of me and my submission to Her. Some are more recent developments, others have been there from the very start of our Female-led journey. Me being expected to be Her sex toy and a slut is one of the latter.

From the moment all those years ago when our, initially vanilla, relationship became an FLR one Owner made it clear that my body belongs to Her. She can access it and use it in any way that She sees fit whenever She wishes. i must make myself available to Her whenever She desires. My body exists solely for Her sexual pleasure, amusement and enjoyment. For my part, i must never under any circumstance attempt to initiate a sexual act with Her nor am i permitted access to any part of Her beautiful, gorgeous body unless She expressly allows it.

Owner regularly exercises Her rights over my body by teasing, touching, fondling and groping me. She enjoys sidling up behind me and pulling down my knickers then walking off. Sometimes She goes further and slips Her hand up between my legs to caress my 'pussy'. When She does i automatically spread and open my legs for Her like a good slut, making myself available to Her. 

The reason that Owner sometimes likes to leave me out of chastity is so that my little clit becomes available for Her to touch, torment and tease. Naturally, i am still not permitted to touch it myself and, in truth, i have no real desire to do so. She, however, likes to caress, slap and play with it a little and, when She does, i obediently part my legs for Her. My legs are like warm butter - they spread easily!

At home, when preparing to make dinner and commence my evening chores i first remove my panties before changing into my cleaning smock. The hem of the smock barely covers my buttocks. This ensures i am accessible to Her. Later, after i have completed my chores and i am permitted to sit next to Her on the sofa, i fully unzip my smock (each is front fastening) so that Owner has unfettered access to me. Then when we go to bed, i always wear a nightie and sleep on my side, affording Her easy access to my 'pussy'. Owner often likes to fall asleep gently stroking my 'cunt' leaving me aroused and frustrated. i love being molested by Her. She in turn enjoys having my body available at all times. i am Her always available slut and whore.

However, it is not just when we are at home or in bed that Owner expects access to my flesh. She also fondles and gropes me in public. i absolutely love it when She does this. Love it when She exercises Her right to access my body whenever and wherever She wants. Summer time offers Her lots of opportunities to do this. On warm days when we are out i am often to be found wearing little denim cut-off shorts that She has bought for me. Owner buys me ones that are short but not too tight around the thigh, loose enough for Her to be able to slip Her hand inside. Which is exactly what She does. 

The other day, as i carried Owners' bag whilst walking Her to the train station She slipped Her hand up the leg of my shorts and fondled, groped and squeezed my buttocks as we walked past early morning commuters. i was in heaven, loving every minute of having my body so publicly claimed like that by Her.

i was not always comfortable with being groped in public this way. Initially i felt self-conscious. However, over the years Owner has helped me to overcome my shyness and encouraged me to embrace who i am, namely Her slut. Now i am happy, eager even, to be be publicly groped by Her. It is more than just the reassurance that She still finds my body appealing. It is the public expression of Her total ownership of me. Whether Her hand is up my shorts and inside my knickers or it is reaching down my blouse inside my bra and be it in the street, the cinema or a bar, i now love it when She publicly gropes me like this. My head spins, i feel excited, desirable and aroused. No more do i feel self-conscious and awkward. Now i yearn for Her to go further, to be instructed to take off my top or remove my shorts. To be dis-robed and paraded as a slut, to have to touch myself for Her, be publicly ravaged by Her. In short, to be a shameless slut.

i love being treated by Owner as Her slut, love to make myself available for Her at all times, wherever we are. Sometimes She asks if i ever tire of Her touching and groping me? Nothing could be further from the truth. i am addicted to it, crave it. If anything, all i wish for is for it to happen more and more.

Owner has given me the confidence to live, act and behave like a slut. In return i hope to make Her proud by being the best slut i can be.

Sadly, however, there will not be the opportunity to demonstrate just how much of a slut i am and love to be in the coming days as Owner departs for Spain this Friday, leaving me on my own. Thankfully, our separation is not for long. i fly out to join Her later the following week before we then both return back together. Whilst we are parted there are plenty of things for me to be getting on with besides my daily chores and tasks. There is the decorating to finish, a hedge to trim, windows to clean, drawers to tidy etc and i am sure that time will fly by but i will miss Her. i can't wait until we are reunited.

Going to Spain also provides us with an opportunity to see Her new flat. Neither of us has seen it since we bought it over Easter. Owner's parents have been amazing and have arranged and supervised the few things that needed doing to it. They have also helped with furniture for the bedroom, being onsite to let deliveries in and oversee their installation. It will be amazing to finally see it, knowing Owner at last has a place in Her home town. A place which, in Her own words, She 'can install' me.

i cannot wait to be installed there by Her. London will remain where we spend the majority of our time for the foreseeable future. i cannot work from Spain whereas Owner can so She may spend more time there at first than i do. However, for Owner to finally have a place of Her own in Her home town, a place where, just like in Her flat in London, i can look after Her, serve Her, worship and love Her, a place i can clean and maintain for Her, cook and entertain Her friends and family, that will be truly special. It is a really exciting development for us both and our lives together. Previously we have always stayed with Her parents. Now Owner has Her own in which She can reign supreme. i cannot wait to start serving Her there.

Returning to the 'slut' theme. It has been hot in London the past few days with the daytime temperature over 30 Celsius. Whilst this has made things a little uncomfortably warm it has given me an opportunity to wear my warm weather cleaning outfit 😁

Finally, i leave you with a of photos of me in a new dress that i saw in a sale and which Owner allowed me to buy (provided that i got rid of/recycled some existing clothes, which i have). i think it would look better if i wasn't wearing a bra and panties at the same time, what do readers think? Suitably slutty? It is from Nii Hai. 

Take care all.

Pleasure and Pain

Yesterday i was offered a very rare treat by Owner, the opportunity to fuck myself with one of Her dildos for a full 5 minutes whilst She watched and timed me. However, there was to be a twist, a painful one.

Before being permitted to demonstrate to Her what an eager cock sucking and fucking slut i am i was instructed to first attach forty (40) mini pegs to the exposed 'labia' of my caged 'clit'. The pegs were a combination of wooden and metal miniature clothes pegs. The most i have ever previously been instructed to attach at the same time was twenty. i wasn't sure i would find enough skin to attach twice that number of pegs. Spoiler alert - i did.

Pegs in position, and using my own saliva to make myself wet, i slid Owner's delightful cock deep inside my pussy and started to fuck myself with it. i paused only to briefly remove, fellate and moisten it further before re-inserting. 

All the while Owner stood at the end of the bed observing Her slut wife. She held Her stopwatch in Her hand as She timed the five minutes of pleasure She had permitted me, occasionally taking a photograph to document Her slut wife's performance. Sadly, it was over all too quickly. First She announced that i had one minute left, then ten seconds and then finally instructed me to stop, leaving me painfully (from the clamps) aroused and excited, my little clit throbbing in its cage.

However, there was more. After attaching the pegs and then fucking myself in front of Her for the full 5 minutes i was then told to present my tits to Her so that each could be caned by Owner using Her twisted cane. In fact, Owner went further still. Not only did She cane my pierced nipples (50 strokes each) but She also caned my still fully clamped clit. Ouch!

It was definitely a case of painful pleasure - not too much pleasure i hasten to add. i did not have any accidents. 

Owner declared Herself fully satisfied with how i had got on and congratulated me on enduring such discomfort for Her. Below are some pictures;

fucking myself whilst my caged clit was heavily clamped

my caged clit decorated with 40 mini-pegs

arse to mouth - moistening the cock to re-insert

between the cheeks

eyes of a slut

You can see the selection of Owner's tools of pain and pleasure that i got to experience last night below

twisted cane, dildo and 40 X metal/wooden mini-pegs

Perhaps unsurprisingly, my clit looked a little red after all of the pegs had been very painfully (taking them off truly is the most uncomfortable part) removed.

Pleasure and pain enjoyed and endured it was time for yours truly to prepare dinner. Afterwards i washed up, cleaned the kitchen and then was allowed to re-join Owner and watch a TV series with Her.

i hope your evening was as fun.

Data Points and Panties

The eagle-eyed amongst you may also have noticed a new set of statistics appear down the side of my blog in the form pf a 'Performance Rating'. As i have mentioned in the past back in November Owner started to provide me with daily feedback on my behaviour/performance in the form of a daily mark out of five. She emails me my score for every evening. i have taken these scores and then averaged them for the month to display on the blog so that there is a public record of how Owner thinks i have done/behaved that month. Obviously, an average score of 5 out of 5 is what i should be aiming for. At present i am averaging about a 4.6 out of 5.

This feature may or may not be of any interest to anyone but Owner congratulated me on a good use of data and it now sits along side the information about how many days i have been in continuous chastity and how many orgasms i have had each year. Incidentally, on the latter i wonder if i might see these further restricted this year? i had none all year in 2019 but then had four in 2020 and three last year - so i am currently averaging 2.33 orgasms a year. Personally, i think it would be good for my development to keep that average trending down. Perhaps i am odd thinking this, but then whoever said i was 'normal'? :)

Changing subjects, here is a gratuitous photo of me in one of my new pairs of panties

my new knickers

i never know what to ask for when my family say to me 'what would you like for your birthday?' In truth there is little/nothing i actually need and the things i would quite like tend not to be the things one can ask a family member to get, even i have never said, actually yes i'd like a really big butt plug or a pretty new dress! As a result, each year i tend to end up getting vouchers. The advantage of these, at least, is that i can specify the kind of shops i would like vouchers from. Guess what, i always suggest ones that have  women's clothes i like.

Anyway, this year my mum bought me some vouchers for H&M and so, with Owners' permission, i was able to do a little online shopping. Owner, of course, still vetted (and vetoed) some of my suggested purchases and also picked out an item She had seen that She wanted me to wear. To cut a long story short this week i took delivery, courtesy of my mother, of a lovely new skirt, a cropped t-shirt, V-necked sleeveless jumper (also cropped) and some pairs of the lovely knickers i am wearing above

i am very pleased with them and Owner remarked that they look very cute. i also have a new pair of pretty pink slippers, courtesy of my dad.

Meanwhile, in other developments. On Monday Owner required that i complete my evening cleaning chores (cleaning the bathroom from top to bottom) whilst gagged and sniffing Her used panties. i must say i do think i look about as unglamorous as i possibly could, although the scent of Owners' pussy is definitely preferable to the smell of cleaning disinfectant!

me looking like something out of a B horror movie

Tonight, after i have made and then washed up and put away the dinner i need to do some more cleaning chores and then have an hour of study to complete. After that is done and only then will i be able to join Owner and relax with Her. But that won't quite be the end of my tasks. i have been instructed to practice deep-throating Her silver dildo whilst we watch TV together. In short, i have a busy evening ahead but  keeping me busy, useful and learning new skills is all part of my continuous development and training as Owner's wife and slut and to be honest i would not have it any other way.

Hot and wet

i have been like a cat on heat all day today. i was working from home and constantly horny, texting Owner repeatedly to advise Her that my pussy was craving Her cock, She advised that i might need some ice treatment to cool my pussy down.

With 2 hours to go before Owner was due to return home i texted Her again and sought permission to insert a plug in my pussy. My request was granted and so i pulled down my panties, lubed and inserted the inflatable butt plug, partially inflated it and then settled down to dial into my teleconference (i did say i was working from home!) Two teleconferences and a few more emails etc later Owner found me kneeling on the hallway floor with my skirt round my waist and my pussy plug inflated when She walked into the flat. Owner attached the nipple clamps to my pussy and had me spank and slap my chastised clit whilst She played with the base of my plug. Owner then had me get up and walk through to the kitchen and bend over the kitchen table whilst She put on a latex glove and fished the tray of ice cubes out of the freezer.

Within minutes Owner was circling my nipples and my chastised 'dangly bits' with ice and then popping the cube into my molten pussy - where it rapidly melted! She repeated this exercise a number of times and then lent forward and whispered into my ear 'now be a good whore and go into the garden and play with your nipples and pussy with the ice cubes. i want to see what a tru slut you can be'.

Instructions received and with my blouse pulled down round my waist and my knickers around my knees i hobbled across the kitchen and out onto our patio clutching the cube of ice. Under Owners watchful gaze, and in  view of any neighbour who may at that moment have chosen to stare into our garden, i began to first circle my nipples with the ice cube and then my pussy before popping the rapidly melting cube into my pussy and slipping my fingers inside of me too for good measure whilst i moaned eagerly. After a few minutes decreed that i She was more than satified that i had demonstrated what a slut i am and told me to follow Her back into the kitchen.

Back indoors Owner again had me bend over the kitchen table and this time inserted three of Her gloved fingers inside me. 'Would my slut like another finger inside Her?' She asked at which point i eagerly replied that i would 'then beg for it' She replied. It didn't take long for me to start vocalising how much i longed to have more digits inside me and by the tim She had finished with me Owner was pumping my pussy with all 5 fingers and my recently marginally cooled down pussy was back in its molten state again.

Another minute more though and Owner called a halt to proceedings and instructed me to tidy up and get on with preparing dinner.As i sit typing this i can still feel the odd wet (and now warm) jucy trickle running down into my panties - how i love behaving like a slut for Owner!

All the Worlds a Stage - for a slut in training

This evening after work Owner and i went to go an see the excellent Japanese production Shun-kin by theatre Complicite at the Barbican Centre. The play is the story of a blind Shamisen player and her servant. Set in Japan in the 19th century it centres upon their intense and very sado-masochistic and Femdom relationship. It was fascinating and brillianly staged.

As would seem appropriate for such a production, and as part of my continuing slut/whore training Owner chose to add some additional instructions for me for the evening. The first instruction was that when i met Her after work i was to be wearing my butt plug and have my nipple clmps to hand. We went for dinner whereupon i was instructed to attach the nipple clamps and wear them for the walk to the Barbican Centre, ensuring that by the time we arrived my nipples were pert and sensitive. Owner then selected a slightly raised walkway outside the theatre and instructed me to start playing with my nipples like a slut. As i leant over the wall and pulled and twisted my nipple rings office workers were walking past a mere 10 feet away. Owner caressed my plugged pussy and encouraged me to pull my nipples harder. It was a wonderfully slutty experience to be made to fondle and carress my sore and aroused titties as people walked by!

Satisfied by my behaviour we then headed into the theatre where Owner instructed me to get down onto my knees in the foyer and beg to be allowed to go the the toilet and play with my tits, (chastised) clit and pussy in the toilet and then to return with my knickers hanging from my pocket and for them to remain like that for the duration of the performance. Owner even had me stand up in the theatre as everyone took their seats before the show commenced so that anyone who chose to look towards me too closely would see my knickers hanging from my pocket. Eventually Owner allowed me to sit down and then She lent across and proceeded to twist and pull on my nipples as the audience settled itself. i admit i couldn't resist the urge to unbutton my top further so that Owner could get easier access to my nipples, thereby granting anyone watching the sight of Owner happily pulling and twisting my nipples in a packed theatre. i was in slutty heaven and rested my head on Owners shoulder as Her fingers probed, twisted and pulled.

Owner stated that She is really enjoying extending my slut training into more public places and that i can expect more challenges to come to demonstrate what an obedient and shameless slut i am becoming under Her guidance. i have to confess that i love it to and am slowly learning to become a lot less self-conscious than i used to be. It really is a wonderful feeling to have Owner decide that if She wants to publicly expose and molest me, or have me do it myself for Her amusement, then She can do so at any time or any where we are. i am, after all, Hers to do with as She pleases.