i have blogged previously about how Owner controls my finances. My main bank card and my credit cards may only be accessed and used by me with Her permission. Instead i am permitted a monthly allowance of £100 a month - which is transferred from my main account into a separate account each month so that i have a bank card i can use to access my 'allowance'. However, in addition to this allowance we also agreed that i would start setting aside a small set amount each month from my salary specifically for Owner to use as She sees fit - it is Her money, earnt by me to be spent by Her on Her.

Today marked a little milestone in that, at Her request, i transferred across to Owner's account the balance of these savings to date. She is going to use the money to pay for some massages for Herself. It is a real thrill and privilege to see Owner use this money. i hope one day we can reach a point where every penny i earn is handed to Owner to keep and administer as She sees fit. Owner's parents are an inspiration to me in this regard, Her mother is in complete control of Her fathers money and always has been. As Her submissive wife it feels right that Owner should control our purse strings and treat what i earn as Hers.

Meanwhile, this past week has also seen the arrival of a couple of new outfits for me and a new bra. The first outfit i got was a new domestic cleaning tunic to add to my other household cleaning uniforms. It was paid for out of my allowance and purchased on eBay. We think it looks really good with leggings, how about you?

my new housework top
i was also allowed to purchase a new cheap and tarty nightie, again from eBay. Not sure about my pose though
My new bra also arrived, it's super pretty
And finally, this morning before getting up for work Owner administered a wonderful spanking to my chastised clitty with the palm of Her hand. My new little nano chastity device ensures that my little clit head stays locked and out of the way but my dangly bits are fully exposed, and accessible to Owner. They make for easy and inviting targets. The spanking did not last long but it left a lasting impression as i was throbbing and aching deliciously 'down there' all day. It is now over five months since i was last permitted an orgasm, i hope Owner keeps me denied this way indefinitely :)
Monday is my birthday when  i hit the grand old age of 47, unfortunately i will be spending the day at work (with a whole series of meetings). However, as i won't have much time to celebrate on the day itself Owner has turned the whole weekend over to a birthday celebration with a series of birthday treats for Her wife.

First off was on Friday when i was still working (albeit from home) and in the midst of a conference call when Owner placed a wine glass down in front of me filled with Her delicious piss. She didn't need to say a word as  continued my call whilst eagerly gulping down Her wine, it was delicious as always. However, that was not the only drink i got to enjoy that day. In the evening we had to go to see Owner's specialist. Afterwards we went to a nearby restaurant to share a gluten-free pizza and salad and Owner permitted me to order a bottle of beer as well to have with my food. Owner's piss and alcohol in one day, the weekend was shaping up to be a good one.

Yesterday morning Owner helped me to research a new padded bra to buy online from Little Women. i am a 38AAA and this is a great little shop to find bras in that and other small sizes. Owner picked out the Bree bra style for me and then paid for it Herself as a pre-birthday treat. i can't wait for it to arrive so i can try it on.

After an early lunch Owner accompanied me shopping and permitted me to buy some new clothes. First off was my present from Her mother. Owner picked out a lovely coat for me, She had been told to buy me something by Her mum and this pretty coat from Uniqlo is simply beautiful. You can see me modelling it below - we sent this picture to Owners mum who agreed it is muy bonita!
new jacket
Whilst we were shopping we discovered a new shop called Missguided which i would whole-heartedly recommend, this is me getting a little over-excited next to their window display. It is full of the kind of women's clothes i adore - trashy but with attitude. How i would love to work there!
 

To calm me down from my retail excitement Owner then treated me to ice cream and then it was off to do some more shopping. Owner permitted me to buy some knickers and a new blouse and jumper from H&M with some vouchers i had received. By now we were fading a little and so we went for tea and coffee before heading home
still excited from my shopping exploits 
My treats continued today. Owner permitted me to go with Her to the garden centre and allowed me to buy some plants (something that always delights me) for the pretty little container garden i am creating outside the front of our flat.
heading back from the garden centre with my purchases
When we got home Owner made me a hot chocolate for me to enjoy when i had finished planting my purchases, as you can see from my face it was delicious
enjoying the hot chocolate Owner made for me
Next Owner presented me with Her birthday presents for me - this was a real surprise as Owner had already told me that She was going to take me away at the start of February for one night to a hotel with a private rooftop hot-tub for us to enjoy (and lots of opportunities for bikini etc photoshoots) - so i wasn't expecting more presents. Owner presented me with a little box which contained a beautiful pair of pink ruby silver stud earrings. They are gorgeous and are now adorning my ears (you can see one of them in situ below).
pink ruby silver earring
We're now settling down to watch a movie. It really has been a wonderful birthday weekend. Owner has treated me like a princess with lots of treats but i am delighted to also report that i still completed my chores and duties and even baked a cake to take into my work meeting tomorrow. Now i can't wait until we go away and i can splash about in my bikini!

One of the perks of my job is that i can quite often work from home. On such days it has now long been established by Owner that i dress in a skirt and blouse with tights/stockings and shoes i.e. i have a home office uniform that i wear. The exception to this is Fridays when, if i happen to be working from home, i am permitted to adopt a less formal office uniform and wear a padded bra - a sort of dress down Friday if you will. Of course, i am expected to wear these outfits throughout my office hours and thus they are what i wear if i need to answer the door to someone, receive a delivery etc. The first time i received our supermarket delivery i was a little shy i confess but now just about everyone has seen me 'dressed for work', the postman, meter reader, door-to-door salesmen and our downstairs neighbour.

This is what i was wearing when i greeted our postman whilst i was working from home yesterday, though i was a stood little more 'ladylike' when i opened the door :)

me and my thunder thighs
Incidentally, you can clearly see my new mini nano chastity in situ in the above. It's early days still since it was installed (just over 3) but so far, so good.

However, the one person who traditionally never gets to see me in my uniform is my Owner, though i do always ask Her permission in advance to wear what i do and send Her a picture of what i have on, as Her work has never really provided Her with the same opportunities to work from home as my does for me. The onset of Owners health issues changed that. After a period when She was  not able to work at all She is now back working, albeit on reduced hours and with the understanding that She will be able to work from home some days a week. Having Her here when i am working from home is a real bonus to me, though i only wish She was able to do so under happier circumstances. This past week has seen both of us both working at home together for a couple of days. including today (my 'dress down Friday'). Here we are:

at home mid-week with Owner
Todays 'dress down Friday'outfit - wearing my padded bra - with Owner
2017 has started, for me at least, with an exciting new arrival. At my own request Owner consented to me purchasing a new, and much smaller, chastity device. Regular readers will know that we have tried many, many devices over the years, some more successfully than others. Previous to my latest purchase we had bought a pink Holy Trainer .This was a good device in many respects, it has an ingenious locking device and is comfortable to wear and being non-metallic can get through airport security without any problems. However, being non-metal means it does need removing and cleaning more than metal devices do. It;s biggest drawback though - for me - was it's size. I should stress here that it is not big, but i am quite small in that regard AND i also like to wear tight trousers and it is not easy to conceal. As a result i was less keen on wearing it.

A combination of this and the onset of my own then Owners health issues meant its use declined and it hasn't been worn for a good few months. Orgasm denial was maintained, albeit without the physical presence of a device. That said, Owner remarked on a few occasions when we were in bed that i was absent-mindedly caressing myself  'down there' ie i wasn't masturbating to orgasm but i was touching myself. i have also previously blogged about how, for me personally, i actually like being in chastity. Left to my own devices i would be thrilled and excited to be locked-up ad-infinitum with only limited or no chances of orgasm.

Anyway, fast forward to today. At the weekend i saw a cheap (it's Chinese made) metal device on line that was advertised as being the world's smallest chastity device, the Nano. It immediately attracted my interest. It's small (tiny in fact) but i am small too. It would be easy to disguise its presence even under very tight trousers. It's metal so shouldn't need removing for cleaning as often, And it was very cheap. This means it could be tried and if it doesn't work, well the bank hasn't been broken. Anyway, to cut a long story short i ordered it this weekend and it arrived today! This is it in situ



As you can see it is, indeed, very small. i am excited, Owner a little sceptical, time will tell. One of the immediate potential pluses i can see which hadn't occurred to me before putting the device on is that it leaves my testicles nicely exposed and accessible for Owner when Her shoulder is recovered.

Talking of Owners shoulder, it remains very painful and frozen. However, one of the 'positives' (if i can put it that way) of what has been, and remains, a horrible and extremely uncomfortable experience for Her is that it has highlighted a couple of additional activities for me to take on as Her wife. i am now the one who brushes and dries Her hair after it has been washed. This started because She physically could no longer comfortably reach to do it. It is now routine and is something i hope to always continue to do for Her after She has fully recovered Her movement in Her shoulder.

The second activity is that i now also give Owner daily massages, mostly in the evenings but sometimes mornings and evenings too. This is something i really enjoy doing and makes use of the massage skills i acquired a couple of years back when Owner instructed me to do some massage classes. Again, i can't believe this wasn't already something that She normally expected from me and is something i would hope i will continue to provide Her each day even when She is fully recovered.

Although Owner is still physically no better than when i last blogged i am pleased to say that She at least now has a physically fully OK wife again i.e. me. Although things took a knock and some of my routines became a little rusty due to my own health issues they are now back being implemented. The core of Owners control and domination of me and my submission to Her also never waned over these past few 'difficult' months. Owner continued to, and still does, control me completely in every aspect of my life outside of my work - and i love and adore Her all the more for it.

Owner having  financial control over me was something that was implemented in 2016 with my being limited to a monthly allowance from which i was tasked with saving enough to get as ankle tattoo. Well, the good news is that one year on i think i have enough to get one done. i have made an appointment later this month for a consultation on the design and to agree costings. Assuming my mental estimate isn't too far out it won't be long until i will soon be sporting a beautiful and permanent slave ankle bracelet to complement the other tattoos i have that Owner selected for me.

i start the year remembering that i truly am blessed. Yes, the world may be an increasingly fucked-up place but in my Owner i could never have hoped to have met a more wonderful person, She truly is my guide through life and i want nothing more than to serve and obey and be dominated by Her absolutely - doing this is what brings me my greatest pleasure and joy.
i know it's slightly late but a quick update to wish all of our readers seasons greetings and hope that you all got to spend Xmas and the upcoming New Year with the one you love. Owner and i managed to get away for the first time since August and we spent a couple of days in a cottage down on the Sussex coast in a little town called Rye. i remembered to bring my elf outfit with me and Owner took some pictures


Rye itself is quite pretty and we did a couple of walks in between indulging ourselves with food and Netflix.
pretty corner of Rye near the church
view over Rye from top of church
beach at Camber
As i mentioned this was the first time we have been anywhere out of London since August, which is very unusual for us, and it was lovely to be able to get away. Owner is still suffering considerably with Her frozen shoulder which shows no real sign of getting better anytime soon and has left Her in fairly constant pain. It is horrible to watch Her suffer like this and not be able to do anything to take Her pain away.

One consequence of me having been left immobile due to my back in late Summer/early Autumn and then the onset of Owners problems with Her shoulder has been that our normal lives and little routines have somewhat fallen apart. It's horrible when this happens as everything feels out of sorts and not as it should be. For now it feels like our 'normal' i.e. kinky etc life has been put on hold, though to a casual onlooker our lives and routines would currently look completely normal, to us they are completely non-normal.

The above combined with this having been a politically awful year, and the death of far too many heroes and legends, has meant that much of 2016 has seemed an especially crappy year. Both of us can't wait for the year to be done with, though to be honest i struggle (politically at least) to see how 2017 will be any better. That said, there is always Owners recovery to look forward to and with that the resumption of what constitutes normality for us both, so maybe 2017 will be better after all.

Sorry this reads as a bit of a downer of a post, unfortunately it just reflects how Owner and i have both been feeling of late, so as i say it was good to have at least been able to get away together for a few days. And 2016 wasn't all bad, not by a long chalk. Owner and i enjoyed some great trips early on in the year and Her control over me continued to strengthen as too did my submission to Her become ever more total. And we haven't lost that, they are still very much there, it's just the routines and the behaviours got a bit lost in the second half of the year as one thing after another punctured the cocoon of our lives.

My task for 2017 is to repair our cocoon, help Owners recovery, and focus on becoming a better and more submissive wife for Her. She is, and will always be, the centre of my world.

We hope all of our readers dreams and ambitions for 2017 come true.
Owner is not having the best of times at the moment as She has developed a frozen shoulder which is preventing Her from sleeping much at all and has left Her in fairly constant agony. The problem with Her arm started just after i started to get renewed problems with my back. Though my own back problems are now much better after physiotherapy and acupuncture and i was able to return to work, Owners condition continued to deteriorate.

We had planned to go on holiday back in early September but had had to cancel due to my back. Instead, we booked a fortnight's leave for this week and next with the hope that i would be fully recovered and we could maybe travel to somewhere in Europe. However, Owners worsening condition with Her arm has meant that we are spending our two week vacation at home, not what we had planned but unfortunately it cannot be helped. Owner had a hydro dilation injection in Her shoulder a week ago which we hoped would ease Her condition but, unfortunately so far no change. If anything it has gotten worse.

i am trying to play nurse for Owner but don't think i do that good a job and just wish there was something that i could do that would magically take Her pain away. i hate seeing Her suffer as She is at the moment. Hopefully Her condition will start to improve soon.

Sorry this isn't the most interesting of posts, i just wanted to update and explain why you are not hearing much from us at the moment. Hope all is good in your lives.

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i would had hoped that this post would have included an account of Owner and my planned holiday to Denmark, but unfortunately the holiday did not happen. Two days before we  were due to travel my back went big time, to the point where i was physically unable to move. It was the worst it has been in almost 5 years. We had to cancel everything as just getting out of the bedroom was a struggle, let alone travelling to Denmark. So instead of two weeks on holiday, Owner spent an extra two weeks at work and a month looking after me - which She did a fantastic job of.

The good news is that i am now much better than i was. I can walk normally again and can sit down now too - you forget how useful it is to be able to do this! The bad news, however, is that Owner has injured Herself (a torn arm muscle) - which in turn has meant She has not been sleeping and thus not feeling well. This coupled with Her also having very bad period migraines this month has meant that our flat has become more of an infirmary than a den of sexual deviance and submission of late!

However, one sign that my own recovery is well on the way was that yesterday i was able to attend a half day vintage flower arranging class that i had booked a few months ago. Owner had asked me to attend it as part of my development as Her wife, flower arranging being a skill She wants me to acquire. The class was held at a lovely South London florists called Pesh Flowers.

i had a wonderful time and managed to create the following two arrangements which i was very proud of and the tutor seemed to like too - Owner was delighted with them. What do you think?


Both arrangements are now brightening up our flat/hospital.

Owner and i are hoping we might both be OK to go on holiday in early November instead. i hope so.
Owner found the perfect padded bra for me the other day. She has requested that when i work from home on Fridays i should wear a padded bra as part of my 'dress-down Friday' attire. Accordingly, She wanted to find me the perfect bra to wear and i am thrilled to say that She succeeded.

i am a size 38AAA and there is a website called Little Women which specialises in bras for small breasted women but which also does them in large chest sizes - perfect for cross-dressers. Owner permitted me to buy the Paloma Bra which you can see on me below (incidentally i had just got out of the shower, hence my wet hair):


We're both delighted with it, the quality is great and the delivery was super quick.
You might rightly wonder what all of the above have in common? Well, they are all components of my current training and development by Owner. It used to be the case that i received regular canings or puddling's at the hand of Owner. i can't say i have ever been one who enjoys being caned in the way that some people do, i do not find it a sexually arousing activity. However, i do appreciate and understand its usefulness in helping to, at least partially, prevent me from becoming too 'fluffy' a pet for Owner.

In addition, although at the time i initially always find canings painful i do start to get used to the pain when Owner settles into Her stride and am able to process it into something more pleasurable - though never as pleasurable as testicle/clit spankings for example. i also enjoy the warm glow of the aftermath. The main thing, however, is that Owner enjoys giving them and they are good for me and so i am delighted to say that Owner has determined they should be reintroduced into our lives. i received my first one this week, 50 strokes after some initial strokes from a paddle. They were an uncomfortable but welcome return and they left their mark

Unfortunately, as a result of not having been able to do any of my butt exercises since April, because of the problems with my back, my 'pillows', as Owner used to describe my butt cheeks, have deflated. i will have to try and bring them back to life again, though my doctor says i am not to lift weights so it will have to just be via squats and hip thrusts. We shall see, but i digress.

Owner also likes me to acquire or learn skills that She may find useful and She has had me attend a variety of courses, during some of the extra days off a year i get over Her, to learn them. So far, i have attended courses on  head and neck message, manicures, knitting and reflexology. On some of them i was the only male on the course but they have all been enjoyable to do. Owner, has now identified another skill She expects Her wife to acquire, namely flower arranging. i researched details of a number of courses for me to attend and presented them to Her and She chose a one day 'Vintage Flower Course' for me to attend at the end of September. i will report back on how i got on.

In addition to having me acquire practical skills becoming of Her wife, Owner also expects me to become Her consummate slut and whore. To that end She has decreed that i am to have some regular 'pussy' training by having my butt plugged on occasions. Owner selected two metal plugs for me to order, one to be worn at times of Her choosing when i am working from home and the other - also metal but with a tail - to be used for challenges and photoshoots. i ordered both from Bondara and they arrived two days later. Each came in a lovely box and i have to say they look beautiful and i can't wait to start trying them out. You can see them in their boxes below
i am truly blessed to have an Owner such as mine who continues to lead me down the path of submission to Her and who is training me to become Her ideal wife.
Owner formally sat me down after lunch today to run through the progress (or not) i have been making in the current version of Her 'Housewife Academy' training plan for me. The good news was that, i had actually made progress in a number of areas - though my Spanish learning had been a complete failure these past few months and needs paying serious attention to. Owner also placed my high-heeled training and hula hoop training on continued hold until my back is fully recovered - i haven't been doing any of either since April.

The 'housewife academy' consists of four key areas and these are my current training and development objectives in each:

Domestic Diva
  • Paint the flat and de-clutter the walls
  • Book myself onto a flower arranging course and practice making arrangements
  • Re-organise Owners wardrobe and chest of drawers seasonally so that She always has appropriate clothing to hand
Sex Kitten
  • Wear padded bras when working from home on dress down Fridays
  • Be pussy plugged when working from home when requested by Owner
  • Have weekly canings before bedtime 
Submissive Pet
  • Owner will choose my breakfast whenever we are staying away [n.b. She already chooses all other meals for me when we are eating away from home]
  • Owner will choose what clothes/accessories i am to wear when we go out
  • i will start a 'treat' savings fund for Owner - save a set amount each month to use to get Owner nice treats [this to come out of my main account - which Owner controls access to - not my monthly allowance]  
Multi-Tasking Ninja
  • Complete another instructional/lifestyle video before Xmas
  • Become Owners PA - responsible for making all Her bookings, ordering any items She needs etc
  • Study Spanish at bedtime at least 3 times a week 
i am very grateful to Owner for my new set of development goals and instructions and look forward to continuing to learn to become a better wife and slut for Her