The times they have been quite easy the past few days. Yesterday i was working from home and, it being dress down Friday, had Owners permission to wear a more informal outfit. This is what i had on, as you can see i was in my element

Then today, Owner and i went to a great exhibition of kinetic artworks in London after which we went fro lunch and then had drinks in a local pub. This is the first time we have gone out for a Saturday afternoon drink in, well months really. It was lovely to do and we both had a really enjoyable time. Here we are relaxing in the bar
Tomorrow, i have my review with Owner during which She will give Her assessment of how i have been performing as Her submissive wife over the past few months. Although there was a period towards the end of last year where i freely admit i was not performing at my best i think i have got into a much better groove since Xmas. i feel my performance has been much better and also feel happier in myself as a result. i guess i will discover tomorrow whether or not Owner concurs.
Tomorrow marks six months since i was last permitted an orgasm, it is probably the longest i have gone without cumming since i was in my early teens - three decades ago. How do i feel? i can honestly say that i have never felt happier, hornier or more thrilled.

This morning Owner woke me by spanking my full and heavy 'labia' whilst my clit remained safely and tightly locked up in its little cage. i adore having my bits spanked this way and was soon very excited, arching my back and spreading my thighs apart to provide Owner easier access (She is still very limited in movement due to Her frozen shoulder and i know Her treating me to such a spanking was not physically easy for Her). i was extremely thankful and grateful to receive such a wonderful spanking. By the time She dismissed me to go and prepare breakfast i was aching and throbbing most wonderfully in my loins and i know i probably will be for the rest of the day.

As stated in my last post i have now been continuously locked in my new tiny chastity device for a month. The combination of being locked up and having not been permitted to cum for six months is such an indescribably wonderfully exciting and arousing sensation. i also think it is making me a much better wife for Owner. i hope i am kept in such a state for many, many more months.

On a completely different subject, Owner permitted me to buy a new dress from my allowance the other day. Owner chose it for me after seeing it in the sales in an online shop called Yumi that we have bought items from previously and really recommend. What do you think?

It is great quality.

We're off to the cinema later today something we're really looking forward it as we haven't been for ages. The combination of my bad back in the autumn and then Owners ongoing issue with Her shoulder meant that comfortably sitting for long periods was not something we were able to do until quite recently. My back is now fully recovered, i even re-started my butt and abs workout regimen a few weeks ago to try and get back in shape. i am currently 148lbs and want to get back down to about 140lbs. Owners recovery is a much slower and more drawn out process but She is definitely no worse and Her shoulder is less painful but She has secondary problems with muscles in Her back and neck and is still far from recovered.

Since Owner started having problems with Her shoulder i have been giving Her daily massages to compliment the professional massages She receives once a week, i also now wash, dry and brush Her hair for Her. i love doing all these things and this morning (after my spanking) Owner remarked what a good and attentive wife i was. Her compliment made me want to burst with joy. i vowed that when She is fully recovered i will continue to offer Her daily massages and do Her hair for Her. i love doing them and, to be honest, i feel bad that i wasn't doing this before as they are exactly the sorts of things Owner ought to expect me to do for Her anyway. i am eager to incorporate providing these services to Owner into my usual domestic duties.

i remarked to Owner this morning that i have never felt happier in my own skin than i do now and how i only ever want to spend time with Her. i often get comments on this blog saying how lucky i am. They are spot on, i truly am the luckiest person in the world.
i have now been locked in my new Nano Xtra Small chastity device for exactly one month. The device has not been removed at all in that period and i must confess that it and i are getting along much better than i could have hoped for what is, after all, a budget device. So, what do Owner and i think of it?

Before continuing it is probably best to say a few words about me and what i was looking for/wanting from a device in the first instance. You may not want the same things so please bear this in mind when reading about my own experience with its use.

i have been a regular user of different chastity devices over the years, both metal ones like this (a Jailbird) together with silicone devices (such as the Holy Trainer, Birdlocked Pico, CB-3000 etc). i even tried a Prince Albert piercing special, the PA5000. Of these i would say the Holy Trainer and the Jailbird were my favourites. The silicone is great for passing through airport security, whereas the metal ones are much easier to keep clean and Owner likes to be able to see what i have locked away - which you can't do in a silicone device. But, the issue for me with all of them was their size, specifically the fact that they were not always easy to conceal under tight trousers, and i love wearing tight trousers.  i am not well endowed (max about 4 inches erect) and so thought that a solution would be to get the smallest possible metal device i could find. The answer that google provided to my search was the 'Nano Xtra Small'.

The device is cheap, much cheaper than many other devices (metal or silicone) and so i thought it would at least be worth a try. i ordered the second smallest ring size to go with it as in the past with some devices i have had issues with one of my testicles escaping through the ring - that testicle is smaller than the other.  A tighter base helps prevent any risk of this happening. The trick is to get a base that is not so tight fitting that it will leave you in pain every night when the inevitable involuntary erections try to occur.

Anyway, the upshot is that i love the device. Owner was worried at first that it was too small and might actually do some damage - i did find at first that the head of my penis rubbed a little against my knickers when wearing tight jeans, especially when combined with lace knickers, where the head protrudes a little past the metal bars at the end of the device. However, wearing the device a little off-centre and being careful quickly fixed that and it has not been an issue since.

Also, the base ring of the device is hinged (you can purchase some tubing to cover the hinge when ordering) rather than being a single piece of metal. The advantage is it is easier to put on and secure in situ. i worried in case the tubing slipped or moved whilst wearing it and i got skin caught in the hinge but it has never moved once, not even when i do my daily exercises.

Aesthetically i love the device and love the fact that when i look down now i can no longer see anything that looks visibly cock-like. all i see is a tiny metal cage and the bulge of my testes below - about twice the size of the cage in comparison. Another advantage is that it holds your cock snug and nestled against your balls which in comparison are bigger in size. Owner likes to sometimes spank my testicles and i adore having them spanked, hard. The way the device encases your cock and holds it snug and petite against your balls leaves the latter as very easy targets.

One unexpected advantage of the device is that, possibly because of its small size, it never lets your cock goes completely flaccid - you know how when they can sometimes shrivel into almost nothingness. Instead, it seems to hold it in a state of slight arousal so that there is normally a slight bulge of flesh poking through the bars of the cage. The state of arousal is imperceptibly slight but just enough to ensure that there is always a very slight feeling of excitement and pleasure. To say being kept in chastity is sexually exciting sounds like a contradiction in terms but to me this is exactly how i feel about it, it is a wonderful state to be kept in and in the Nano XS that state seems to be heightened still further.

It is a device that i can readily imagine, and happily fantasise about, being locked in permanently, only having it removed when we are travelling and need to pass through airport security. It doesn't event need removing for cleaning. Providing you have a good nail brush and a powerful, hand-held shower head then it is perfectly easy to keep it and your anatomy clean and hygienic. You just need a bit of patience adjusting your foreskin through the bars. The same also applies to shaving. i keep myself shaved smooth and find that with some manipulation of my testes and base of my penis through in the device in the shower i can keep myself smooth.

In summary, this is the favourite of all the devices i have ever worn. It no longer looks or feels like i have a cock between my legs, it can be worn easily under tight clothing, is easy to maintain, leaves me in a state of semi-permanent very mild arousal and creates an easy and inviting target of my testes. i love it and Owner now seems reassured that, despite its tiny size, it isn't doing me any harm, and may even be doing me some good. i, at least, hope to be locked in it for a very long time to come (pun intended).
It may be winter outside but Owner and i have just returned from a wonderful hot, wet and steamy 24hours in the ever amazing city in which we live. Owner took me away for a belated birthday celebration to a hotel in Bermondsey in London, close to London Bridge and The Shard, called the Bermondsey Square Hotel. Owner booked us into a top floor suite which had an outdoor hottub which afforded fabulous views towards the London Eye and equally fabulous opportunities for yours truly to prance about in my heels and bikini.

If there is one thing that i really can't resist then that is an opportunity to wear not a lot outside, be photographed just wearing heels and lingerie in a hotel corridor, put on a dress or generally just try to act the tart that i am at heart. It was an absolutely wonderful 24hours. Owner also let me have an alcoholic drink when we out on Saturday evening and She chose a wonderful meal for me to have in the restaurant.

This morning She even permitted me to choose my own breakfast and we followed that off with another refreshing dip in the hottub before doing some more cultural activities in the Fashion and Textile Museum and then at the White Cube Gallery (wonderful exhibition entitled Walhalla by Anselm Kiefer).

This video by Owner (and what a great video editor She is) shows some of the highlights from our short stay.



The build-up to our trip was equally exciting. i was working from home on Friday and so was wearing this 'dress down Friday' outfit.
Shortly after this shot was taken our neighbour rang the doorbell and so she too got to see me in my tights and shorts with a blouse and my 'breasts' from my new padded bra. She seemed momentarily surprised by my outfit but she didn't say anything, neither did the supermarket delivery driver when he called came later to delivery our groceries - though he did offer to give me a hand up the stairs with them :) - they never normally do that. Owner also permitted me to wear my heavy metal butt plug in my 'pussy' for two hours in the day whilst i was working.

It was a wonderful prelude to the fun and games on the hotel balcony the following day. Readers will be relieved to know (ha, ha!) though that underneath all my various outfits i remained safely locked up in chastity. My new 'nano' device has been in situ without a break for almost a month now (i will post a review shortly) and it has now been almost six months since i last had an orgasm. i am genuinely loving my locked and denied life.

Hope you liked the video.

In what are increasingly dark and disturbing times in the world there has been one small and positive little development for me. i have now finally saved up (after a year of squirrelling away a small amount each month from my monthly allowance) just about enough money to pay for the ankle tattoo Owner told me to get. Monday this week saw me having a short consultation with the tattooist to discuss the design of the tattoo Owner wants and to book an appointment to have the work carried out.  Owner had already decided that She wanted me to get a pretty ankle bracelet tattoo on my left ankle. She has now also decided that, to highlight my femininity, She wants the ankle chain tattoo to incorporate a half moon pendant design. The moon being the symbol of the female goddess. i discussed these requirements with the tattoo artist, paid my deposit and set a date of March 13th for the work to be carried out.

This will be my 7th tattoo. Four of my current six tattoos are designs requested by Owner and which symbolise something about me and my relationship to Her (the other 2 were done before we were in a relationship). The tattoos i currently have that She chose for me are as follows:

  • a princess crown on my right ankle - also to symbolise my femininity
  • a Celtic snake on my right hip - the 'S' being the initial of Her name and the 's' of my submission to Her
  • a key on my left hip - to symbolise my state of chastity/denial
  • a cat on my left shoulder - my role as Owners sex kitten
i am really excited at the prospect of having my new tattoo and can't wait to be able to show it off this summer! i am also quite proud of the fact that i was able to save-up for it from my monthly allowance. i started saving a year ago and finally have enough to get it done. i would love one day to also be permitted to have a 'tramp stamp' done :) - tattoos are quite addictive!

This coming weekend is also when Owner is taking me on my belated birthday treat to a night in a hotel in London with a rooftop hot tub. It may be the middle of winter here but i will be packing my bikini and can't wait to pose in it above the streets amongst the buildings of this fabulous city. We plan to have lots of fun splashing about. i will, of course, share the details when we get back.

In the meantime, stay safe and sane in what are troubling times and stand up for your rights and those of your neighbours.
With Owner's encouragement i write the odd short story. All are related to Femdom. Most of the ones i write end up in the bin but very occasionally one goes up on Lulu.com to see if anyone is interested in them. i have always assumed nobody has ever bought one but upon checking the other day i discovered a few people actually have! Not in any great quantities, certainly not enough for Owner to retire on (monies go to Her). Anyway, to cut a long story (ha, ha) short i have published another little story called 'Dancing Dave' .

http://www.lulu.com/commerce/index.php?fBuyContent=20317047

They are my legs on the cover but nothing else in the story is about me. If you would like to read it you can get it from Lulu.com by clicking on the cover above or on the button below.

Support independent publishing: Buy this e-book on Lulu.
Love this picture taken by Owner of me giving Her a foot massage last night, it says everything. Her on the sofa receiving a massage, me knelt before Her on the floor and locked safely away. Incidentally, the touch of Her feet on my thighs was delicioulsy and frustratingly arousing
i have blogged previously about how Owner controls my finances. My main bank card and my credit cards may only be accessed and used by me with Her permission. Instead i am permitted a monthly allowance of £100 a month - which is transferred from my main account into a separate account each month so that i have a bank card i can use to access my 'allowance'. However, in addition to this allowance we also agreed that i would start setting aside a small set amount each month from my salary specifically for Owner to use as She sees fit - it is Her money, earnt by me to be spent by Her on Her.

Today marked a little milestone in that, at Her request, i transferred across to Owner's account the balance of these savings to date. She is going to use the money to pay for some massages for Herself. It is a real thrill and privilege to see Owner use this money. i hope one day we can reach a point where every penny i earn is handed to Owner to keep and administer as She sees fit. Owner's parents are an inspiration to me in this regard, Her mother is in complete control of Her fathers money and always has been. As Her submissive wife it feels right that Owner should control our purse strings and treat what i earn as Hers.

Meanwhile, this past week has also seen the arrival of a couple of new outfits for me and a new bra. The first outfit i got was a new domestic cleaning tunic to add to my other household cleaning uniforms. It was paid for out of my allowance and purchased on eBay. We think it looks really good with leggings, how about you?

my new housework top
i was also allowed to purchase a new cheap and tarty nightie, again from eBay. Not sure about my pose though
My new bra also arrived, it's super pretty
And finally, this morning before getting up for work Owner administered a wonderful spanking to my chastised clitty with the palm of Her hand. My new little nano chastity device ensures that my little clit head stays locked and out of the way but my dangly bits are fully exposed, and accessible to Owner. They make for easy and inviting targets. The spanking did not last long but it left a lasting impression as i was throbbing and aching deliciously 'down there' all day. It is now over five months since i was last permitted an orgasm, i hope Owner keeps me denied this way indefinitely :)
Monday is my birthday when  i hit the grand old age of 47, unfortunately i will be spending the day at work (with a whole series of meetings). However, as i won't have much time to celebrate on the day itself Owner has turned the whole weekend over to a birthday celebration with a series of birthday treats for Her wife.

First off was on Friday when i was still working (albeit from home) and in the midst of a conference call when Owner placed a wine glass down in front of me filled with Her delicious piss. She didn't need to say a word as  continued my call whilst eagerly gulping down Her wine, it was delicious as always. However, that was not the only drink i got to enjoy that day. In the evening we had to go to see Owner's specialist. Afterwards we went to a nearby restaurant to share a gluten-free pizza and salad and Owner permitted me to order a bottle of beer as well to have with my food. Owner's piss and alcohol in one day, the weekend was shaping up to be a good one.

Yesterday morning Owner helped me to research a new padded bra to buy online from Little Women. i am a 38AAA and this is a great little shop to find bras in that and other small sizes. Owner picked out the Bree bra style for me and then paid for it Herself as a pre-birthday treat. i can't wait for it to arrive so i can try it on.

After an early lunch Owner accompanied me shopping and permitted me to buy some new clothes. First off was my present from Her mother. Owner picked out a lovely coat for me, She had been told to buy me something by Her mum and this pretty coat from Uniqlo is simply beautiful. You can see me modelling it below - we sent this picture to Owners mum who agreed it is muy bonita!
new jacket
Whilst we were shopping we discovered a new shop called Missguided which i would whole-heartedly recommend, this is me getting a little over-excited next to their window display. It is full of the kind of women's clothes i adore - trashy but with attitude. How i would love to work there!
 

To calm me down from my retail excitement Owner then treated me to ice cream and then it was off to do some more shopping. Owner permitted me to buy some knickers and a new blouse and jumper from H&M with some vouchers i had received. By now we were fading a little and so we went for tea and coffee before heading home
still excited from my shopping exploits 
My treats continued today. Owner permitted me to go with Her to the garden centre and allowed me to buy some plants (something that always delights me) for the pretty little container garden i am creating outside the front of our flat.
heading back from the garden centre with my purchases
When we got home Owner made me a hot chocolate for me to enjoy when i had finished planting my purchases, as you can see from my face it was delicious
enjoying the hot chocolate Owner made for me
Next Owner presented me with Her birthday presents for me - this was a real surprise as Owner had already told me that She was going to take me away at the start of February for one night to a hotel with a private rooftop hot-tub for us to enjoy (and lots of opportunities for bikini etc photoshoots) - so i wasn't expecting more presents. Owner presented me with a little box which contained a beautiful pair of pink ruby silver stud earrings. They are gorgeous and are now adorning my ears (you can see one of them in situ below).
pink ruby silver earring
We're now settling down to watch a movie. It really has been a wonderful birthday weekend. Owner has treated me like a princess with lots of treats but i am delighted to also report that i still completed my chores and duties and even baked a cake to take into my work meeting tomorrow. Now i can't wait until we go away and i can splash about in my bikini!

One of the perks of my job is that i can quite often work from home. On such days it has now long been established by Owner that i dress in a skirt and blouse with tights/stockings and shoes i.e. i have a home office uniform that i wear. The exception to this is Fridays when, if i happen to be working from home, i am permitted to adopt a less formal office uniform and wear a padded bra - a sort of dress down Friday if you will. Of course, i am expected to wear these outfits throughout my office hours and thus they are what i wear if i need to answer the door to someone, receive a delivery etc. The first time i received our supermarket delivery i was a little shy i confess but now just about everyone has seen me 'dressed for work', the postman, meter reader, door-to-door salesmen and our downstairs neighbour.

This is what i was wearing when i greeted our postman whilst i was working from home yesterday, though i was a stood little more 'ladylike' when i opened the door :)

me and my thunder thighs
Incidentally, you can clearly see my new mini nano chastity in situ in the above. It's early days still since it was installed (just over 3) but so far, so good.

However, the one person who traditionally never gets to see me in my uniform is my Owner, though i do always ask Her permission in advance to wear what i do and send Her a picture of what i have on, as Her work has never really provided Her with the same opportunities to work from home as my does for me. The onset of Owners health issues changed that. After a period when She was  not able to work at all She is now back working, albeit on reduced hours and with the understanding that She will be able to work from home some days a week. Having Her here when i am working from home is a real bonus to me, though i only wish She was able to do so under happier circumstances. This past week has seen both of us both working at home together for a couple of days. including today (my 'dress down Friday'). Here we are:

at home mid-week with Owner
Todays 'dress down Friday'outfit - wearing my padded bra - with Owner