Learning and Development

It has been a very busy fortnight for both Owner and i. Owner has been continuing Her course studies, preparing for Her final exam and also attending job interviews. Meanwhile, i have completed two additional courses and graduated with diplomas in Indian Head Massage and Manicures and Pedicures from the Beauty Academy. Both of these courses were great fun and quite intensive. On each there were between 4 and 6 students and a tutor and there was lots of practical as well as theory work. As students we all got to practice on each other. On both courses all of the other students were female. i was a little nervous at first but i needn't have been and not an eyelid was batted at the fact that i was wearing my collar, make-up etc nor that my toe nails were painted pink or that i was wearing a slip under my blouse (which became obvious when we all had to remove bare our shoulders during the massage practical).

It really was great fun and it has really sparked my interest in potentially doing a full qualification in beauty therapy - something which some of the other students also encouraged and which a number of them were working towards themselves. Owner and i have discussed the idea as well as which other courses She would like me to complete next to help me become a better and more useful wife. There is one in particular which She is enthusiastic that i complete, namely a one day introduction to sewing course (including using and setting up a machine). She has also highlighted some flower arranging courses that are available. However, Owner has suggested i wait a month or two before commencing a new course.

Meanwhile, my Spanish studies are coming along and this evening i passed an online Spanish course i have been doing. Owners desire that i be equipped with a full range of skills befitting my role as Her wife, appear, so far, to be progressing relatively well. i am now getting ready for the start of Owners formal assessment of my development over the past few months of Her second phase of Her development plan for me - Her 'Plin, Plan, Plon'. Owners assessment of my performance will dictate whether or not She regards me as having reached a sufficient standard to progress onto the next stage of my development. To that end, Owner requested ideas from me for areas/activities etc that i thought could be incorporated into my future development i.e. ideas for how i thought i could be further trained. Depending on whether i am judged to have passed this stage of my development Owner may choose to incorporate some of these ideas, or equally ignore them completely, or adapt them etc, etc. To be clear She is firmly in charge but likes to sometimes request ideas or suggestions from me for Her to consider. It is quite fun to be asked to occasionally be asked to be the potential author of your own development/training and also reduces the burden on Owner - after all the purpose is ultimately to make Her life more relaxed and stress free and to serve Her, not place demands on Her.

Owner will be conducting my performance review next month (March) and i'll up date with the outcome as soon as i find out.

Request to Help Support CCK

This post is a little off topic but Owner and i feel it is for a good cause.

London folk, or visitors to London, may recall a wonderful cafe that used to exist near Covent Garden which catered for people engaged in alternative lifestyles (including S&M and Femdom)  - as well as anyone else who popped by. The cafe was called Coffee Cake and Kink (CCK). Sadly, after a protracted legal dispute with their landlord that cafe was forced to close a number of years ago. Since then CCK has continued as a social enterprise - see here for their website - albeit minus the cafe.

Since losing their original cafe CCK have been looking to identify new premises in which to open another cafe in London. The good news is they have found a place, now they just need to raise some capital which they are looking to do via the kickstarter crowd funding site. In their own words the new venue will be;

'A relationships-focused social design space. Tease your taste buds and stimulate your senses in the place that makes you go "mmm"!'

Owner and i are both really excited at the prospect of a return of CCK, albeit now as Coffee, Cake and Kisses. We have pledged our support. If anyone else that would like to see a cafe/creative space in London that embraces people of all backgrounds, lifestyles and genders etc then please consider supporting the

COFFEE, CAKE AND KISSES KICKSTARTER FUND

Thank you

The Sex Toy Files

This morning after breakfast Owner took me back to bed whereupon She stripped me and began to softly caress my pussy and titties. Of course, no sooner did She start doing this than my little locked clitty began to pulse and throb in response to Her touch. Owner then permitted me to suckle briefly on Her wonderful breasts, which only served to increase my desire and excitement still further.

However, Owner had no intention of permitting me to enjoy Her body for long. Instead, She pushed me away and gagged me with Her dildo gag, advising me as She did so that She wanted me sucking cock. Then She retrieved Her vibrator from Her bedside drawer and informed me that as i was Her sex toy i should become adept at using Her vibrators for Her pleasure and focus my efforts exclusively on Her enjoyment. With that She handed the device to me with an instruction to bring Her pleasure. For the following 15-20 minutes i performed my task of  sex toy holder/manipulator. Owner lay with on Her side with Her legs parted and i manipulated the vibrator and responded to Her verbal instructions, adjusting the vibrators speed and intensity when She wanted it changing, re-positioning it, pushing it more firmly against Her sex and so forth. All the while i lay curled behind Her, mouth gagged and sucking on cock, clitty throbbing helplessly in its cage, its tip moist and glistening slightly in helpless, happy arousal.

Later, when Owner was lying spent by my side and my head rested on Her shoulder She said that She realised that too many of our sex toy collection had been purchased with my own enjoyment in mind and that that had to end. Owner rightly stated that as Her wife my duty was to focus solely on ensuring Her sexual desires were satisfied and that our toy collection should reflect that. To that end Owner has set me the following task to be completed by the end of the month.

i am to present Owner with a detailed written report which itemises each of our current sex toys. Each toy should have a detailed description of its potential uses together with an analysis of how and whether it can be used to provide Owner pleasure. Toys which offer no potential pleasure or service for Owner are to be identified and recommended for disposal in the report. Equally, i am to ensure that i  include a full assessment of how i could better use each remaining toy in order to maximise Owners pleasure/enjoyment. i am also to  practice using the toys more so i am fully familiar with their function i.e. so i can still use/change settings etc even if blindfolded for example. Last, as well as recommending toys for disposal (i.e. those which i would be the only beneficiary of their use) the report is also to contain recommendations for any additional toys that could be purchased which might add a new pleasurable/useful dimension for Owner. In other words, toys which might fill any existing pleasure gaps for Her in our toy collection.

In short, Owner reinforced the fact that my sexual role is simply one of ensuring Her pleasure and sexual satisfaction. As such our sex toy collection should fully reflect that. She is, of course, quite right.

Knit, Purl, Cable

Well i have finished my first ever knitting project and am quite pleased with my scarf though i say it myself

Next is the matching hat.

Amazed by Owner and Development Update

The period since Christmas has been an incredibly busy and stressful one for Owner. She has been studying most evenings for a course as part of Her career development whilst also dealing with a whole load of issues at work. At the same time She has been applying for new jobs and attending interviews, She is currently at the final stage for a couple of possible new jobs. In addition, a close member of Her family is terminally ill. She is, quite understandably, exhausted and drained.

As Her wife i have been trying my best to support and look after Her during this time. What has amazed me though is that, despite all that She has on Her plate right now, Owner continues to have time to oversee and monitor my own development as Her new wife. Owner provides regular feedback and encouragement to me about my own progress in delivering the current phase of Her development plan for me. She checks up and comments, applauds me if She feels i have been doing something well, and scolds or chastises me when i slip up.  Unfortunately, of late there have been two occasions which have given Owner particular cause for annoyance at my behaviour. The first time was when i added an additional beauty product to an order i placed on-line without having consulted Owner first. i'd ordered some hair growth inhibiter products (with Owners permission) for us both to use on our legs after shaving. However, i had also added a version of the same product to use on my face without asking for Owners permission. This was wrong and not acceptable on my part.

My second significant slip-up occurred this morning. Owner texted me from work to state She wanted to have me do reflexology on Her feet tonight. i replied saying of course i would do that. However, i then went on to enquire whether or not She would like me to also lick Her derriere? Owner immediately rebuked me saying i was not to ask Her if i could do things She knows i enjoy doing. For many years now i have been forbidden from initiating any form of sexual activity with Owner - only She may do this.Owner was quite right to rebuke me for my text i should have known better and i swiftly apologised.

The above significant slip-ups aside Owner has given me a number of compliments over how i have been performing in this latest Phase of Her development plan for me. She has stated that i have become more practical, attentive and useful domestically and She has seemed pleased with the new skills i have acquired as Her wife. i will find out just what She thinks of my development when the current Phase II of Her 'Plin Plan Plon' development plan for me gets formally assessed by Her next month. i hope She deems me worthy of progressing onto Phase III.

Since becoming Owners wife last year i have also noticed some wonderful developments in how Owner behaves towards me. Owner now seems to have higher expectations of what She should expect of me and also seems more confident Herself in making demands/expecting things of me. As Her submissive wife i am really thrilled to have the privilege of experiencing Owners continued and increasing dominance over me. My soul sings each time:

• She instructs me to do this or get that
• She automatically hands me Her bag to carry for Her
• She leaves things out/drops them on to the floor for me to put away/tidy-up after Her
• She says 'no' to me or denies me permission to do something
• She decides when and whether or not we are going out
• She announces what She wants me to cook
• She tells me that what i think about a particular matter is irrelevant
• She tells me to pay greater attention and to 'think!' 
• She passes judgement on my cooking
• She tells me that i am a whore
• She highlights areas of my behaviour/performance that are not acceptable and need  improvement

Life with Owner as Her wife keeps getting better and better!

happy wife

Of Sex and Identity and Owner and me

WARNING - this is an unusually (for me) long post - i hope it doesn't bore you.

A comment made by the very lovely Mistress Marie who, together with Her slave David, runs the blog Mistress Marie and Her Slave! prompted this blog entry by me. In Her blog Mistress Marie mentions this blog and that She wasn't sure how to refer to me i.e. did i prefer to be referred to as She or as He? An innocuous question you might think but one which got me thinking and reflecting. What, why and who am i?

Owner usually refers to me using Her nickname for me (petty) or as 'wife' or sometimes as 'slut' or 'whore' except with family in which case She uses my actual name. However, when on occasion She needs to use either He or She to describe me i.e. when She is updating my development progress report for example, She will use he to describe me. i, on the other hand, will always refer to myself when texting/writing to Owner as 'she' or as Her 'wife'/'slut' etc. Owner, of course, is always 'Owner' except in company when i use Her actual name.

Owner and i discussed our different uses of gender descriptors for me i.e. he/she a few years back and are both happy and comfortable for me to be referred to as he by Owner and she by me. One of the truly wonderful and amazing things about Owner is how She has accepted and, indeed, helped develop my femininity over the years. When we first met we met we met as two very vanilla people and only when we began to date did i open up to Her about who the 'real' me actually was/felt. However, that version of the real me was a very different person to the one i am today.

From childhood i was always fascinated by women and always harboured a fantasy of wanting to experience what life was like as a woman. However, unlike transgender people i never actually wanted to change from being a boy/man to becoming a woman but rather was fascinated with the idea of being able to experience what life was like as a woman on a temporary basis - i.e. in a way that then also allowed me to return back to the gender i was born as i.e. a male. i loved the idea of returning enriched from having experienced life temporarily from a woman's perspective.

As a teenager i would sometimes sneakily 'dress-up' in some of my mum's clothing and when there was a fancy dress day at school or college my 'go to' outfit was always a dress.  i also 'enjoyed' discovering adult magazines - but i  never actually fantasised about having sex with the models posing on the page. Instead my thoughts were always a mixture of wondering what it would be like to be them and a desire to orally pleasure them.

As i got older, lost my virginity, had a number of girlfriends, experimented a little a few things remained constant. My fascination with women remained as strong as ever. i always (and still do) far preferred the company of women to that of men. Incidentally, Owner is the opposite. i was fascinated by how they looked and moved, what life was like for them. i also came to realise that what i sexually enjoyed doing most was bringing pleasure to my partner, specifically orally. i found penetrative sex to be disappointing and the act often brought back memories of sexual inadequacy - i have a small penis, a fact that was once memorably highlighted loudly and publicly during my last year at college to my friends by an older girl. This alongside the fact that i had failed to 'rise to the occasion' with Her during my first failed attempt at losing my virginity. Of course my friends ensured my performance, or lack of, was the talk of the college the next day and from that day on until i left for university i went by the nickname 'floppy'.

This quite public humiliation reinforced an equally powerful yet erotic earlier memory from childhood. This happened when, aged about 10 or 11, i had been chased across a field by a couple of female class mates, pinned down by them and stripped. Nothing further happened (we were all very young after all) but the memory of being forced to submit remained with me and had a powerful impact upon me later in life, fusing with my desire sexually to please and my exhibitionist streak.

As well as losing my virginity i also discovered that i actually didn't enjoy, and never have since, receiving blowjobs - i know, how odd, man doesn't like being fellated! But it's true. i do, however, love and adore oral sex, but for me all the pleasure is in the giving not the receiving. Later in my twenties i began to wonder whether i might in fact be gay or at the least bisexual? Some opportunities came my way (pardon the pun) to find out. I concluded that i wasn't gay but whether or not i am bisexual depends on your definition. Do i find men attractive? do i enjoy their company? - in 99% of cases my answer to both these questions would be no. Has the idea of a relationship with a man ever been remotely appealing to me, absolutely not. However, do i like large cocks? Did i enjoy being fucked? Absolutely. Fast forward to today and one of the things i love having the opportunity to do is to worship and then get fucked hard by Owners unnaturally large, vibrating 'cock'.

Thus it was that i spent the remainder of my twenties and through into my thirties (by which point i'd got married) with a sense of feeling somehow sexually different and unfulfilled. There remained as well a continued interest in and fascination with what life as a woman was like - together with a very small secret collection of lingerie. There was also something else - something that at that point remained locked inside my head, namely, a growing awareness of and curiosity about S&M and Femdom.

The end of my marriage and then the start of, what first began as a friendship and then, a relationship with Owner presented an opportunity to try to both be honest and find out more about who i. Owner had taken the initiative to move us from friends to lovers (i have always been extremely shy when it comes to 'making a move'), i quickly realised that She was someone very special, unique in fact, and that i should/could share my inner monologue with Her. So i wrote Her a long letter. In the letter i outlined my, by then, growing interest in S&M and Femdom and of submitting to Her and the feminine side to my character and my interest in exploring that. i also outlined my developing interest in chastity. It was the most important letter i ever wrote. The way my life has developed can almost be characterised as the person i was before and the person i have been becoming ever since.

i should point out at this point that neither Owner nor i had any real experience with any of this. i had things in my head, stuff i'd read but that was basically it. We both became quite avid readers of any books we could find on the subject i.e. Elise Sutton's works - although realised none seemed to quite fit us. We also looked out for blogs etc that might offer advice, such as that of the excellent Mistress 160's blog (no longer maintained). All of these and many more greatly helped, guided and inspired us. If i was to say just one thing to any new couple trying out/interested in developing a Femdom/FLR relationship it would be to talk, read, absorb but use that knowledge and information to find what works for you, don't just copy what works for others - we're all unique and what works for some won't for others and vice-versa. But, i digress. Back to Owner and i.

To begin with my interest in femininity was something that Owner and i largely kept at home. i dressed up and was dressed up by Her. However, Owner had also begun to realise i liked being embarrassed/humiliated and with this developed Her own interest in exploring ways/ideas to embarrass or humiliate me in public and began to set me challenges as we tend to call them. Through these Owner began pushing me to reveal my femininity in public. It began gently. Wearing the odd female item of clothing in public, being told to go out wearing some eye shadow or handed a bag in a restaurant and told to go and apply/put on the contents and return to the table. i can still recall how mortified i felt during some of these challenges.

However, i also soon began to relax, to realise that the sky hadn't actually fallen in on my head when i did these things, in fact that in a city like London (where we live) nobody actually really batted an eyelid. i became more comfortable and what had begun as a form of 'forced feminisation' developed over the years to where i am today - happy and comfortable wearing make-up and women's clothing everyday. In fact the only times i now don't wear make-up and wear one of the few remaining items of 'male' clothing is when we are visiting certain (not all) family members. At all other times, whether at work, on holiday, wherever, being en femme is now my new normal. All of my clothing purchases have to be first approved by Owner, who Herself will often also buy me pretty pieces She has seen. Owner is happy with me dressing en femme, and equally enjoys making me look 'pretty' or 'slutty' as well. However, it is Owner who decides what is appropriate attire for me to wear each day and i need to check first with Her before getting dressed. Outdoors i basically still always just wear women's jeans/trousers/shorts or leggings matched with a blouse/top - except on very rare occasions when i wear a skirt - and my footwear rarely has much of a heel. As such, though my clothing may technically be entirely female (which 95% of my entire wardrobe now is) my overall outdoor look is probably more androgynous than female. That said i am delighted to have been given the opportunity to now spend my life in female clothes whilst Owner exercises and enforces Her judgement as to what is and is not appropriate for me to wear.

Now if Owner wishes to challenge/humiliate me as often as not it will involve me wearing little/no clothing or doing some other activity that makes me feel self-conscious, shy, embarrassed and, ideally, humiliated. What is different now compared to a few years ago is that what might have quite literally terrified me before (by way of a challenge) may no longer hold the same fear. i am more overtly feminine than i ever was and i have also become gradually more wanton and shameless. Though i have always had an exhibitionist streak (at aged about 10 i used to sneak out of our house at dawn and run naked up our street - i have no idea why) i am also still naturally nervous and shy,. Getting me to eventually become used to doing whatever Owner asks/says without hesitation or question and accepting that She expects Her wife to behave as an exhibitionist whore whenever and wherever She desires remains an ongoing work in progress.

However, returning to how i look and what i wear. i don't try to pass as being female. Owner met me as a man and although She has Herself helped encouraged, supported and embraced my femininity there are limits - both for Her and, if i am being honest with myself, for me too. For example, i am entirely clean shaven except for my arms. Owner likes my arms as they are and so as they are they will remain. i'd love to have no facial hair i.e. have it permanently removed. Owner though isn't bothered at all by my five o'clock shadow. Owner loves my smell/scent and so i am not perfumed. She likes the smell of a man. Neither of us want me to have breasts - though if i could i would love to have big, elongated, thick nipples with maybe little pubescent breasts. i am intrigued and curious about hormones and having/taking hormones to give me a slightly less male/slightly more female body shape and find it fascinating and wonderful how these have helped and transformed so many peoples lives. Equally though i know that, although i am intrigued by the thought, it is an idle one, a  fantasy. i am essentially happy with the body i have as it is. Owner certainly has no desire for me to physically change. Just to look 'pretty'.

Since meeting Owner i have developed a love of wearing jewellery after Owner bought me my first chain and necklace. i now wear two rings on my left hand, a bracelet on each wrist, 3 necklaces (one with a dog collar) and my Owners metal collar around my neck, i wear a belly chain with a charm around my waist, two ear-rings in my left ear and one in my right and finally both of my nipple piercings are connected by a chain with pendants. All of these are worn every day. i never, ever used to wear any jewellery at all. i now love wearing my jewellery and feel bereft without them. Owner occasionally remarks that they look over the top, but then She also sometimes buys me more :).

Filling in questionnaires that ask about your sex life always throw me. i think i have/we have an active sex life. However, technically, in the eight and a half years we've been together we've only probably had sex (of the me penetrating Owner variety) maybe 8-10 times, and certainly not at all for many years now. Yes we fuck, or to be precise, Owner fucks me. Owner enjoys fucking what She and i both happily describe as my pussy with Her strapon cock. In fact, one of the norms of our relationship is that sexual activity of any nature is only ever initiated by Owner and i am always to be sexually available for Her. Our sex lives physically consist of my orally pleasuring/worshipping Owners breasts, pussy or anus (a particular favourite for us both), my body (any part of) acting as something for Owner to masturbate Herself against i.e. a human sex toy, or Owner fucking or fisting my pussy, spanking/slapping what we also both describe as my clitty (penis) - which we both agree is tiny - or pulling and twisting my nipples (something which i often feel is massively overlooked as an extremely enjoyable sexual activity - for me at least). Occasionally Owner will also either masturbate my clitty Herself (on the occasions when it is unlocked i.e. not in chastity) , or instruct me to do so, and more rarely still permit me to cum and then lick up my mess afterwards. Though fleetingly pleasurable i still find orgasms to be ultimately disappointing and much prefer being kept denied, preferably aroused and denied.

Thus sexually i am very much the bottom and Owner very much the top. She likes to fuck my pussy and torment and play with my clitty and titties and i love nothing better than having the opportunity to pleasure and worship Her, especially Her derriere. However, what brings me most pleasure is watching/feeling/sensing Owner enjoying Her pleasure whilst my own (in the sense of climactic pleasure) is denied.

More recently, last Autumn i had the tremendous honour, pleasure and privilege of being accepted by Owner as Her wife.  Owner had begun training me for my new position just beforehand and She has continued my training since in order for me to become the ideal wife for Her. She has a long-term development plan and i am incrementally progressing down it. Over the years we have sought various ways to develop what is commonly referred to as a 24/7 Femdom relationship. We started with a contract with punishments and duties, then a revised one and though some have stuck and stayed constant throughout we never seemed to quite crack me. No matter how strong my desire to submit completely to Owner, to serve Her and be Her ideal partner and submissive it never quite worked as i fantasised. Therein lay the problem. The first couple of years i became frustrated that i wasn't able to just transition instantly (courtesy of a contract, rules and some punishments) from the person i was to the the happily devoted submissive i imagined being in my head. Equally, as Owner too began to grow and develop in Her confidence in Her own authority and dominance in our relationship She quite rightly began to develop a clearer view of the sort of submissive that She wanted. In essence my focus was wrong. i was thinking of submission in terms of things i liked or activities i wanted to engage in, mostly physical/sexual in nature or opportunities to indulge my own interests. It's not that Owner didn't have those too but She also had much more practical things in mind, like never having to cook unless She chooses to, or do any housework. Equally, She was also wanting someone who didn't just dress up in pretty clothes but who also learnt new skills/crafts that would be useful about the home or for Owner. Yes She wanted the slut and whore but also someone who would genuinely look after all Her needs, Her house and so forth.

i'd also finally come to realise the truth in the old cliche that Rome wasn't built in a day and to accept that fact. Change takes time and should be gradual if it is to get properly embedded as genuine change and a permanent behaviour modification as opposed to just a transitory alteration. And so Owner devised a new course for my development into the wife She wants. And the result? Well so far so good. i am the happiest and most content i have ever been and Owner seems to be happy with how our relationship is evolving as well. Owner has taken direct control over most areas of my life. She is now the arbiter of what i am or am not allowed to do. i am responsible for all cooking, cleaning, washing - in fact all aspects of housework to a standard set by Owner and to be maintained and adhered to by me. At home and outside of the home any activities that would require my involvement/participation are vetted by Her and require Owners consent before being undertaken/entered into. Only Owner can decide if i may have an alcoholic drink or not. Outside of work and my domestic duties my time is increasingly spent learning or practising new skills and crafts including Spanish, knitting, massage, manicures and pedicures that may be useful to Owner and ones She expects Her wife to become proficient in. Furthermore, Her and thus my expectation is that i not just become proficient in some skills/crafts but that i also continuously develop/acquire new skills regarded as useful and befitting of a wife by Owner. i am really enjoying the opportunity to learn new things this presents.

All the while i of course continue to be expected to be available and used when requested by Owner as Her personal slut and whore and, importantly, to learn how to better act and behave like one irrespective of location. Equally, that i look pretty and presentable to Owner at all times. In short, i am to become Owners ideal wife - a combination of housewife, slave and whore.

i began this post with the questions posed, what and who am i? What i have set out is an attempt to describe me, aspects of my past and who i am today, my relationship with Owner and how together we have both developed and evolved over time to where we are now. What i hope has come across is how i and we have both changed and developed and evolved over time. How some things from my past have shaped and continue to shape and influence me (my enjoyment of being humiliated for instance), some things have stayed constant (a sexual desire to please rather than be pleased), whereas others have grown and developed sometimes in directions i never would have imagined (i never would have dreamt that going to work wearing my collar, make-up, femme clothes etc would be nothing out of the ordinary).

Today i am the happiest i have ever been in my life. i delight in trying to be the best wife i can be for my Owner, whilst certain in the knowledge that i can, should and need to develop further. Where/how will i end up? i don't know and nor, i am certain, does Owner. All i do know is that who and where i am now has been shaped by my past, my genes (or lack of some!) and, most crucially by Owner. i am incredibly grateful to Owner for supporting and guiding me along the way, i genuinely would be a shadow of my current self were it not for Her. It's been a great ride and one that just keeps getting better.

A Good Wife Licks Arse

This morning after preparing our breakfasts Owner advised that She wanted to return to bed with me. No sooner were we both back under the duvet than Owner began to caress and fondle my derriere and breasts - gently stroking and caressing them. Owner then instructed me to remove my nightie and started to lightly tap and spank my chastised clitty, all the while asking whether it was true that i loved having my locked clitty spanked and enquiring whether i would like Her to spank it harder, the answer to which of course was yes. It wasn't long before i was moaning loudly in frustrated pleasure.

Owner then retrieved Her vibrator from the bedside table and started to pleasure Herself with it, as She did so She instructed me to start spanking my clitty hard - occasionally taking a moment out of Her own pleasure to chastise me for not spanking myself hard enough for Her to clearly hear the slap and thud of my palm on flesh. As Owner enjoyed Her toy She continuously stated how She loved hearing me spank myself whilst locked up, how obvious it was that i enjoyed it as my clitty pulsed and bulged through its metal cage and how She enjoyed having my clitty locked and engorged like this. i happily confessed that i loved it too - which is very true.

Owner then had me turn my attention to Her wonderful breasts as She continued to enjoy Her vibrator, instructing me first to lick each of Her delicious orbs and then suck on them 'until you gag'. i of course eagerly obliged. Owner then instructed me to lick Her moist, wet pussy before then rolling onto Her side and giving the instruction i love so much - 'lick my arse'.

With Owner telling me what a dirty wife i was, as She maintained Her pleasure with the vibrator, my tongue probed deep into Her delicious anus. We had formed inverted spoons so that my mouth was positioned between Owner legs allowing the full length of my tongue to enjoy, taste and explore Owner wonderful bottom as She began to grind against the vibrator positioned against Her clit. An intense, eager and hungry rhythm developed as Owner ground against Her toy and my tongue and i licked and probed as deeply as i could, straining to ensure Owners pleasure. It wasn't long before Owners derriere clenched, shuddered and then spasmed and shuddered again and again before becalming hard against my mouth and chin.

Her pleasure obtained it was time for cuddles. As we cuddled Owner remarked - good wives should be dirty as well as practical and you are a good wife indeed. As i got up and prepare coffee i was happy in the knowledge that Owner had derived great pleasure from Her dirty wife whilst i remained happily frustrated and denied.

What a wonderful start to a day

Performance and Development Update

i am currently about mid-way through the current stage of the development programme (Plin, Plan Plon II) Owner has created for me to develop me into Her ideal wife. Today i submitted my regular monthly self assessment to Owner and was delighted to receive the following comments back from Her on the evaluation form;

'Pet continues to do well, he is doing better than he thinks...He is now much better at working without supervision and has become much more proactive.'

i was really thrilled to receive such feedback from Owner. This past month has been a busy one for us both, Owner has been studying hard for Her latest professional qualification and is also in the midst of trying to find a new job whilst continuing to work full-time at Her current workplace. In the meantime, i have been busy learning new skills. The knitting course i enrolled on has now ended but i am continuing to practice. Owner and i are going to Canada towards the end of March so i am trying to knit some pretty warm scarves to take with us and keep us warm.

Yesterday i also completed a one day introduction to reflexology course. i really enjoyed the course. With Owners permission i had removed my toenail polish the night before as i knew we would be practising and i wasn't sure how the rest of the students might react to me turning up with my bright pink toenails. i was, however, wearing make-up and my collar etc.There were 13 women and me on the course and i needn't have bothered taking off my nail polish as during our first practice session the student i was working with took one look at my feet and said.'you've been wearing some bright nail varnish haven't you?' - it turns out i hadn't got rid of all the varnish the night before. She also complimented me on my nice 'necklace'. In hindsight, i think i'd have been fine with my bright pink nails! Anyway, the course was great fun and Owner is looking forward to me practicising my newly acquired reflexology skills on Her later this evening.

Later this month i have my Indian head massage course and then my manicure and pedicure course. i am really grateful to Owner for encouraging and motivating me to study in order to become the wife She deserves. Combined with my Spanish studies and my usual household chores and duties it is keeping me busy, happy and contented.