Data Points and Panties

The eagle-eyed amongst you may also have noticed a new set of statistics appear down the side of my blog in the form pf a 'Performance Rating'. As i have mentioned in the past back in November Owner started to provide me with daily feedback on my behaviour/performance in the form of a daily mark out of five. She emails me my score for every evening. i have taken these scores and then averaged them for the month to display on the blog so that there is a public record of how Owner thinks i have done/behaved that month. Obviously, an average score of 5 out of 5 is what i should be aiming for. At present i am averaging about a 4.6 out of 5.

This feature may or may not be of any interest to anyone but Owner congratulated me on a good use of data and it now sits along side the information about how many days i have been in continuous chastity and how many orgasms i have had each year. Incidentally, on the latter i wonder if i might see these further restricted this year? i had none all year in 2019 but then had four in 2020 and three last year - so i am currently averaging 2.33 orgasms a year. Personally, i think it would be good for my development to keep that average trending down. Perhaps i am odd thinking this, but then whoever said i was 'normal'? :)

Changing subjects, here is a gratuitous photo of me in one of my new pairs of panties

my new knickers

i never know what to ask for when my family say to me 'what would you like for your birthday?' In truth there is little/nothing i actually need and the things i would quite like tend not to be the things one can ask a family member to get, even i have never said, actually yes i'd like a really big butt plug or a pretty new dress! As a result, each year i tend to end up getting vouchers. The advantage of these, at least, is that i can specify the kind of shops i would like vouchers from. Guess what, i always suggest ones that have  women's clothes i like.

Anyway, this year my mum bought me some vouchers for H&M and so, with Owners' permission, i was able to do a little online shopping. Owner, of course, still vetted (and vetoed) some of my suggested purchases and also picked out an item She had seen that She wanted me to wear. To cut a long story short this week i took delivery, courtesy of my mother, of a lovely new skirt, a cropped t-shirt, V-necked sleeveless jumper (also cropped) and some pairs of the lovely knickers i am wearing above

i am very pleased with them and Owner remarked that they look very cute. i also have a new pair of pretty pink slippers, courtesy of my dad.

Meanwhile, in other developments. On Monday Owner required that i complete my evening cleaning chores (cleaning the bathroom from top to bottom) whilst gagged and sniffing Her used panties. i must say i do think i look about as unglamorous as i possibly could, although the scent of Owners' pussy is definitely preferable to the smell of cleaning disinfectant!

me looking like something out of a B horror movie

Tonight, after i have made and then washed up and put away the dinner i need to do some more cleaning chores and then have an hour of study to complete. After that is done and only then will i be able to join Owner and relax with Her. But that won't quite be the end of my tasks. i have been instructed to practice deep-throating Her silver dildo whilst we watch TV together. In short, i have a busy evening ahead but  keeping me busy, useful and learning new skills is all part of my continuous development and training as Owner's wife and slut and to be honest i would not have it any other way.

Tight Muscles, Tighter Control and Other Developments

2017 has started, for me at least, with an exciting new arrival. At my own request Owner consented to me purchasing a new, and much smaller, chastity device. Regular readers will know that we have tried many, many devices over the years, some more successfully than others. Previous to my latest purchase we had bought a pink Holy Trainer .This was a good device in many respects, it has an ingenious locking device and is comfortable to wear and being non-metallic can get through airport security without any problems. However, being non-metal means it does need removing and cleaning more than metal devices do. It;s biggest drawback though - for me - was it's size. I should stress here that it is not big, but i am quite small in that regard AND i also like to wear tight trousers and it is not easy to conceal. As a result i was less keen on wearing it.

A combination of this and the onset of my own then Owners health issues meant its use declined and it hasn't been worn for a good few months. Orgasm denial was maintained, albeit without the physical presence of a device. That said, Owner remarked on a few occasions when we were in bed that i was absent-mindedly caressing myself  'down there' ie i wasn't masturbating to orgasm but i was touching myself. i have also previously blogged about how, for me personally, i actually like being in chastity. Left to my own devices i would be thrilled and excited to be locked-up ad-infinitum with only limited or no chances of orgasm.

Anyway, fast forward to today. At the weekend i saw a cheap (it's Chinese made) metal device on line that was advertised as being the world's smallest chastity device, the Nano. It immediately attracted my interest. It's small (tiny in fact) but i am small too. It would be easy to disguise its presence even under very tight trousers. It's metal so shouldn't need removing for cleaning as often, And it was very cheap. This means it could be tried and if it doesn't work, well the bank hasn't been broken. Anyway, to cut a long story short i ordered it this weekend and it arrived today! This is it in situ

As you can see it is, indeed, very small. i am excited, Owner a little sceptical, time will tell. One of the immediate potential pluses i can see which hadn't occurred to me before putting the device on is that it leaves my testicles nicely exposed and accessible for Owner when Her shoulder is recovered.

Talking of Owners shoulder, it remains very painful and frozen. However, one of the 'positives' (if i can put it that way) of what has been, and remains, a horrible and extremely uncomfortable experience for Her is that it has highlighted a couple of additional activities for me to take on as Her wife. i am now the one who brushes and dries Her hair after it has been washed. This started because She physically could no longer comfortably reach to do it. It is now routine and is something i hope to always continue to do for Her after She has fully recovered Her movement in Her shoulder.

The second activity is that i now also give Owner daily massages, mostly in the evenings but sometimes mornings and evenings too. This is something i really enjoy doing and makes use of the massage skills i acquired a couple of years back when Owner instructed me to do some massage classes. Again, i can't believe this wasn't already something that She normally expected from me and is something i would hope i will continue to provide Her each day even when She is fully recovered.

Although Owner is still physically no better than when i last blogged i am pleased to say that She at least now has a physically fully OK wife again i.e. me. Although things took a knock and some of my routines became a little rusty due to my own health issues they are now back being implemented. The core of Owners control and domination of me and my submission to Her also never waned over these past few 'difficult' months. Owner continued to, and still does, control me completely in every aspect of my life outside of my work - and i love and adore Her all the more for it.

Owner having  financial control over me was something that was implemented in 2016 with my being limited to a monthly allowance from which i was tasked with saving enough to get as ankle tattoo. Well, the good news is that one year on i think i have enough to get one done. i have made an appointment later this month for a consultation on the design and to agree costings. Assuming my mental estimate isn't too far out it won't be long until i will soon be sporting a beautiful and permanent slave ankle bracelet to complement the other tattoos i have that Owner selected for me.

i start the year remembering that i truly am blessed. Yes, the world may be an increasingly fucked-up place but in my Owner i could never have hoped to have met a more wonderful person, She truly is my guide through life and i want nothing more than to serve and obey and be dominated by Her absolutely - doing this is what brings me my greatest pleasure and joy.

Training and Development Update

Owner formally sat me down after lunch today to run through the progress (or not) i have been making in the current version of Her 'Housewife Academy' training plan for me. The good news was that, i had actually made progress in a number of areas - though my Spanish learning had been a complete failure these past few months and needs paying serious attention to. Owner also placed my high-heeled training and hula hoop training on continued hold until my back is fully recovered - i haven't been doing any of either since April.

The 'housewife academy' consists of four key areas and these are my current training and development objectives in each:

Domestic Diva

• Paint the flat and de-clutter the walls
• Book myself onto a flower arranging course and practice making arrangements
• Re-organise Owners wardrobe and chest of drawers seasonally so that She always has appropriate clothing to hand

Sex Kitten

• Wear padded bras when working from home on dress down Fridays
• Be pussy plugged when working from home when requested by Owner
• Have weekly canings before bedtime 

Submissive Pet

• Owner will choose my breakfast whenever we are staying away [n.b. She already chooses all other meals for me when we are eating away from home]
• Owner will choose what clothes/accessories i am to wear when we go out
• i will start a 'treat' savings fund for Owner - save a set amount each month to use to get Owner nice treats [this to come out of my main account - which Owner controls access to - not my monthly allowance]  

Multi-Tasking Ninja

• Complete another instructional/lifestyle video before Xmas
• Become Owners PA - responsible for making all Her bookings, ordering any items She needs etc
• Study Spanish at bedtime at least 3 times a week 

i am very grateful to Owner for my new set of development goals and instructions and look forward to continuing to learn to become a better wife and slut for Her

Allowance and Development Update

This morning Owner sent me the link to a very pretty summer dress that She had found for me in the sales online. A few months ago this would be an invitation for me to purchase the outfit and i would have ordered the dress straightaway, leaping at the chance to be permitted to expand my wardrobe with a lovely new outfit. However, today i had to thank Her but inform Her that i wouldn't be able to buy the dress until next month as buying it would blow what is left of my allowance for this month. Such is the reality of now having to live within my means and being restricted to a set monthly allowance with Owner completely controlling how much money i have to spend each month. We are now three months into this new arrangement of my having only having access to a set monthly allowance to cover all of my routine expenditure and it has been working very well. Financial control has now well and truly passed over to Owner. i just hope that the dress is still as heavily discounted at the start of April as it is now.

Owners financial control of my was a new addition to Her dominance and control over my life which was added back in January. Today, Owner has set out some new requirements of me in an update to Her 'housewife academy' training and development plan. Each addition is designed to further Her control, deepen my submission and help my development into becoming the perfect wife for Her. So, what has been added?

• Owner will now choose what clothes and accessories i wear whenever we go out. Owner has always chosen what items of clothing, accessories etc i am allowed to buy and until now i have always had to seek Her approval to what i wear each day. However, from now on She will select the clothing and accessories She wants me to wear Herself - i will no longer have a say.
• Whenever we stay in hotels (which we do a fair bit) Owner will choose what i am allowed to eat for breakfast (whether from the in-room menu or the buffet). Whenever we eat out for lunch or dinner Owner always chooses and orders for me. However, breakfasts have been an anomaly and i have chosen my own when we are eating away from home. This will no longer be permitted. i will no longer exercise any choice over any meals.
• i am to be solely responsible for making any bookings that Owner may wish to make
• when i go to bed i must only read Spanish books/magazines or on-line articles for at least 3 days a week to help improve my Spanish  
• i must learn how to hula hoop with a view to making a sexy hula dance video
• i will have a twice-weekly clit spanking (Wednesday and Friday). This could be administered by Owner or a self-spanking if She requests.
• Support Owners wheat and gluten-free diet by cooking accordingly. i am responsible for cooking all meals and Owner is trying to become wheat and gluten-free and so i shall need to adjust my recipes accordingly.
• Create pretty all-year planting arrangements outdoors using window boxes and pots and keep the outdoor area clean. i will need to liaise with our neighbour on this as this outdoor area technically belongs to her but hopefully she won't mind me putting out some pots and the window boxes we can do whatever she may say.

i am very grateful and excited at the latest additions to my training and development and thank Owner for demanding them of me as She continues to strengthen and deepen my submission to Her and Her control of me and ensure i continue to develop into the wife She wants.

Training and Development Update - Housewife Academy Launch

Owner has officially now started the next stage of my training and development, She has started me on Her Housewife Academy training programme. i am thrilled, honoured and excited. The Academy builds upon my existing training and is an evolving programme of learning and development designed to further develop my skills as Her wife, slut and whore and deepen my submission to Her and Her control over me.

It is naturally expected of me that i will continue to follow, perform and obey all of the previous rules, behaviours, chores etc that Owner has trained me in over the years. However, the Academy will, over time, introduce a whole new series of skills, behaviours, tasks etc that Owner will expect me to complete. Rather than having a formal review at the end of a set period my performance in the Academy will be continuously reviewed by Owner and new elements may be added by Her at any time.

Owner has broken down the Housewife Academy syllabus into 5 core areas:

1. Domestic Diva
2. Sex Kitten
3. Submissive Pet
4. Multi-tasking Ninja
5. Happiness Fairy

Each area has a description and an initial set of tasks/expectations for me to complete. These may and will be added to whenever Owner feels it is appropriate to do so. The following are the descriptions for each area and the initial tasks She has set me to complete. 

Domestic Diva

This instructs me to:

'Create a comfortable home for Owner
Keep all areas of the flat clean and tidy
Cook healthy recipes
Manage any refurbishment/repair projects
Manage pet and Owner's diet'

The first tasks i have been given in this category are to:

• Get quotes for bathroom refurbishment
• Reduce pet and Owners sugar consumption

Sex Kitten

This instructs me to:

Look sexy and desirable
Be ready to follow orders
Behave like a whore when requested
Able to endure pain and humiliation

The first task i have been given is to:

• Learn how to walk in high heels

Submissive Pet

This instructs me to:

Follow rules properly
Always ask for permission for agreed activities (if in doubt, always ask for permission)
Major decisions (and even some minor decisions) to be ultimately taken by Owner
Hand control over to Owner

The first change Owner has introduced is:

• Owner will choose pet's food and drinks even when they are apart (e.g. if i am going for a meal and Owner is not there to choose what i will eat or drink in person for me She will provide general instructions via text i.e. Vegetarian and an orange juice).

Multi-tasking Ninja

This instructs me to:

Be ruthlessly organised
Develop superpowerful skills
Make unproductive time productive
Learn it, try it, get it done! KAPOW!

The first task Owner has assigned to me in this section are:

• Become a travel planner for Owner
• Complete list of potential instructional videos for blog

Happiness Fairy

This final area instructs me to:

Provide Owner with unexpected entertainment (either at home or outside)
    Provide creative surprises
   Remember: a little effort goes a long way
   Be ready to entice and enchant
 
It is for me to come up with creative ideas to deliver as part of this

The above 5 areas are the main themes of the Housewife Academy. In addition to these i also have a long-term project area as part of the Academy programme. At present there is only one project in that area which is to study for the next level Spanish exam.

Owner has also established a set of over-riding rules that govern all aspects of the Academy. These over-arching rules are as follows:

• MASTER RULE: A housewife must be the perfect combination of all of these in equal proportions: A domestic diva, a sex kitten, a submissive pet, a multi-tasking ninja and a happiness fairy 
• Follow all tasks/procedures as stated in each current focus area 
• Clarify any queries immediately 
• Inform of any potential delays/issues/obstacles immediately 
• Aim for consistent behaviour all the time for all the focus areas 
• Strive for excellence 
• Punishments will count negatively and will be graded 
• Achievements will count positively and will be graded 
• Do not forget about your long term projects 
• Challenges will be related to any of the focus areas and considered high achievements
• Each area together with challenges, long term projects, punishments and achievements will be reviewed every month

All of the is captured and needs to be followed and reported on to Owner using Trello. This is a section of what the Housewife Academy looks like on screen:

 As you can see, Owner has designed a very attractive dashboard for the Academy.

i am very excited and thrilled to be embarking on this next stage of my development. This weekend i had to travel down to my Mum's without Owner who is currently studying hard for Her exams. i was delighted to be able to put Owners' new rule into action when i advised Owner that my Mum wanted to take me out for a meal. Owner texted me to say 'fish and apple juice'. So whilst my Mum perused the menu and ordered herself a glass of prosecco and then some white wine i ordered the one fish dish on the menu (seabass) and an apple juice. i love the fact that Owner will now always decide and choose what i eat and drink, even when She is not there. It is a small increase in Her control over me, but a further increase nonetheless.