The past few days have seen all the many facets of Owner and my FLR relationship on display. On Thursday after work my usual cleaning chores were made just that little bit more interesting by being required to complete them whilst not just gagged but also wearing a pair of Owners' used knickers over my head. This meant i got the treat of inhaling Owner's wonderful scent whilst i dusted.
If that was not exciting enough the following morning Owner woke me by playing with and teasing my unlocked clit and my all too easily aroused nipples before then allowing me to pull down Her panties and feast on Her delicious anus with my tongue.
Later, after returning from Her early morning walk Owner chose to spank my 'labia plums' between my legs rather than my buttocks as is Her normal custom whilst i bent down and kissed and licked Her shoes in greetings. Which left me even more painfully aroused.
Kissing Owners feet in greeting upon Her return home
What a glorious way to start a day.
On Saturday, after completing my studies and morning chores and exercises i was invited to accompany Owner on a trip to the British Museum to visit the Ancient Greek and Roman galleries. There were some fascinating, if stolen, artifacts including this wonderful wall relief of female Amazonian fighters in combat (part of a much bigger section)
And this rather wonderful flying cock, complete with bells
Having had our fill of culture we then retired to the Princess Louise pub in Holborn. The pub has a wonderfully ornate interior complete with wooden cubicles. Owner and i enjoyed a few drinks inside
me with my pint of cider
This morning i again did my studies and exercises. Owner also decided that She would go through all my clothing to identify items that She deemed it no longer necessary for me to have and which were all thrown away/recycled. i am grateful to Owner for taking the time to do this and i also know how lucky i am that She also purchased a couple of new blouses and a pair of jeans for me. i am not allowed to purchase any clothes myself or decide whether or not i get to keep the clothes Owner purchases for me.
i have also finally finished the first full length draft of my first novel. It is a sci-fi, Femdom epic that pits the forces of orgasm denial against an Alpha menace who believe in orgasms for all. Believe it or not, i have been writing it on and off since 2020! It currently clocks in at over 220 pages long and does need quite a bit of editing before it gets published but at least the story is finally finished. Watch this space. i hope to get it finally finished in the next few months - famous last words!
Oh and you may also have noticed a new feature has appeared on the blog in the form of a 'buy me coffee' or more accurately 'buy Owner coffee' feature. It is there if anyone should wish to make a contribution/donation to Owner (any monies donated go direct to Her) to support Her continued training and development of me. i hope it is not too intrusive an addition to the blog.
Finally, Owner has also advised that She will be spanking and electrocuting me this evening, for which i am grateful to Her.
In the immortal words of Bugs Bunny, 'That's all folks' for now at least.
UPDATE (17.55) - my bottom paddled with the rubber paddle
It has been a week of pain and discomfort as well as of pleasures for me here in the casa de mi Dueña.
The week began with me having 30 mini wooden and metal clothes pegs attached to my 'labia' plums, presenting myself with the pegs in place to Owner and then assuming the plank position for a minute. Holding the plank was relatively straightforward but the mini pegs were pretty painful, especially whilst they were being removed.
30 mini pegs adorning the 'labia' of my clit
holding the plank position with pegs in situ
Owner and i were both busy with work for the rest of the week. However, i made sure to keep on top of my chores. i also swept the floors each morning when She went for Her early morning walk and then greeted Her naked upon Her return to kiss and lick Her shoes with my mouth whilst She spanked my derriere. This is the view of me from Owners' perspective when i greet Her in the mornings
me kissing and licking Owners' shoes upon Her return from Her morning walk
Friday saw a change of gear. Owner had determined that i should prepare Her cocktails and snacks after work and take the evening off to spend it in Her wonderful company. So that is exactly what i did. i donned my black sleeveless cocktail dress and prepared Her dirty mojitos. Owner advised that i could catch-up with my chores the following day. We had a lovely relaxed evening.
Cocktails at home with Owner
Which bring me to today, and wow, what a day today has been!
The morning saw me busy with my usual chores, study and exercises. Owner prepared lunch and then afterwards i did Her hair and then cleaned the kitchen and was briefly allowed out to go and get Her a coffee from the cafe.
It was after that when the real excitement started.
First off, Owner declared that She needed a pee and instructed me to strip-off and wait for Her in the bathroom wearing the urinal gag. i was positioned sitting up in the walk-in shower and Owner entered the 'cubicle' and pissed into Her human urinal. This was me afterwards, i drank a lot of the pee but i also ended up drenched by Her divine waters:
full of and covered in piss
Fresh from my soaking i presented myself to Owner in the lounge, after having quickly washed myself, whereupon She took out one of Her riding crops and cropped each of my nipples multiple times before then electrocuting them.
Owner then instructed me to head into Her bedroom. There She proceeded to unlock my chastity device and then instructed me to remove it and to lay on Her bed and to play with my untouched clit for ten minutes. She set a timer on Her phone and then sat and watched me try to bring my hibernating clitty to life.
attempting to rouse my tiny dormant clit
Owner left the room and returned with one of Her canes and began to strike me across my vulnerable and unprotected labia plums by way of encouragement. After a while She switched from Her cane to Her red flogger and proceeded to flog my clit and labia and my tits whilst i stroked and caressed my still almost lifeless clit.
It was then that Owner really upped the ante. She removed Her knickers, grabbed Her vibrator, straddled my crotch and began to vibe Her own clit, the throb of Her vibrator filling the room and also rubbing against my awakening clit. Owner rubbed Her pussy against my clit and toyed with Herself whilst i tried my best to stay calm and in control of my clit. It wasn't long before She came and announced that the ten minutes were up. However, far from locking me straight back up in chastity She then rolled onto Her side, Her instructions unspoken but clear.
Within seconds my tongue went to work, savouring and pleasuring Her anus as She put Her hard working vibe back to work. Each time She came i felt Her sphincter muscles quiver and contract as my tongue probed and licked and tasted and slurped. Only when Owner had truly been satiated was i once again locked back up, leaving me horny and giddily aroused and denied.
What a wonderful afternoon to cap off a lovely week.
Today is a special day. Not only does it mark the three hundredth (and counting) day since my last orgasm, 300 days of total orgasm denial. Three hundred of what i hope may become a lifetime of being kept permanently aroused, frustrated but totally denied by Owner.
Today also served as a wonderful reminder of my sole sexual purpose in life, a human sex toy for Owner to enjoy and amuse Herself with. One who cannot ever hope to experience the pleasure of Her pussy, a sacred place reserved only those that can truly and properly pleasure Her. Today was just such a day when Owner used me as Her human sex toy.
First i worshiped and gagged on Her cock whilst She brought Herself off with Her favourite vibrator, my saliva lubricating and coating Her shaft and moistening Her pubic hairs as Her electric toy worked its magic against Her divine clit. i then licked out and enjoyed Her delicious anus, my tongue twirling deep inside of Her as She again brought Herself off with Her vibrator, twice. All the while Her glutes gripped and held my mouth tight against Her butthole. Finally, i went down on all fours and spread my legs like a slut whilst Owner mounted and fucked me, taking me as She pressed her Vibrator firmly against Her quim. Boy was it a wonderful experience, one that saw Owner bring Herself off four times whilst i remained horny, frustrated but very happily denied.
Owner on the bed, Her magnificent cock ready for me to fellate
It was a truly wonderful experience.
Earlier, Owner also took me out for brunch
i hope all readers are having equally memorable and enjoyable days.
There are moments in life when things do not go entirely to plan. However, such instances can actually be more memorable and fun than those times when everything went smoothly. That was the case when. as part of Owner's belated birthday present to me, i took to stage in front of about 300+ people last night for public dance performance as the anime schoolgirl character Marin Kitagawa from the series My Dress Up Darling.
Video still of me on stage before things got..er, interesting
To re-cap, why was i on stage in the first place?
Well, Owner likes to have me perform for Her. She also likes making me perform in-front of others. Whilst this always makes me very nervous, being an exhibitionist little slut i also like being able to show-off and of coursed, as Her submissive wife i obviously always try to do what i am told to the best of my abilities.
For my 56th birthday back in January Owner announced that She had arranged a special treat. Namely, that She had booked for me to perform at the London Anime Con - a three day anime and gaming convention hosted in the convention centre of the Hammersmith Novotel hotel in West London. Owner had also booked us to stay in the hotel where the convention was being held.
Fast forward a little over a month and yesterday (21st February) was the big day. i had chosen some music and rehearsed my little routine. My outfit and wig had arrived and i had even got some coloured contact lenses to wear. i was all set to take to the stage and show the world what a silly and slutty little wife Owner has.
Owner checked us into the hotel on the Friday night. On the Saturday, after breakfast, She set about preparing Her slut (me) for my big moment. First off, She whipped me. She whipped me on my buttocks, She whipped the backs of my thighs, She whipped my lower back and She whipped me between my legs.
Having whipped me Owner then had me lie face-up on the bed, straddled my prostrate body, attached electrodes to my tits and then electrocuted me. She cycled through every setting on the device whilst using Her body weight to stop me from thrashing about.
Next, having whipped and electrocuted me, an arousing Herself in the process, Owner placed Her musky knickers over my face so that i could inhale the fresh scent of Her sex whilst She busied Herself preparing Her cock.
Owner then ordered me off the bed and onto my knees on the floor. She then sat on the edge of the bed and instructed me to start fellating Her cock. At the same time She took Her favourite vibrator in Her hand and proceeded to face fuck Her cock sucking slut as She brought Herself off.
We had only had our breakfast about thirty minutes prior to this and Owners cock was big and thick so i was worried about gagging and then bringing my breakfast back up. Nevertheless, Owner rightly chided me on not fully deep-throating Her wonderful member as She pleasured Her clit with Her vibrator. All the while my mouth slurped, gagged and drooled on Her cock.
After climaxing Owner then rolled onto Her side, presenting me with Her anus and instructed me to lick it out whilst She brought Herself off again. There is nothing in life i love more than licking out Owners' backside - it was a wonderful late birthday buffet! Owner came hard again whilst i remained frustrated and denied.
post-coital cuddles with Owners 'cock' on display and my caged clit
Having thoroughly used Her slut it was time to go visit the convention.
Our plan was to first recce the place and to visit the market stalls before we returned to the hotel room for me to change into my outfit in readiness for my 5pm stage performance. The convention was heaving with people and was quite cramped in places - lots of people packed into small side rooms as well as in the main convention halls. There were plenty of things available for sale but we resisted the urge and returned to the room after we had lunch.
We then chilled for a short while before i started to get ready. The process of doing my make-up, putting on my false eyelashes and coloured contacts and my wig took a while and ended up stressing out both Owner (not good!) and myself. However, eventually i was ready to head down ready for my performance.
posing in the hotel room before setting off
The hall in which i was to perform on the main stage was pretty big
When we arrived it was still early so we had time to sit together before, as the room began to fill, i was ushered backstage.
waiting for showtime with Owner
Backstage i was joined by about 30 other acts. Most were in their teens. i am sure i was the only one in their mid-fifties and i was definitely the only 56 years old slut. My nerves began to build as we waited to be called back into the main hall. When eventually we were the hall was packed out. It was standing room only. There must have been at least 300+ people.
i was the 9th or 10th act. i inched forwards, getting closer and closer to the stage as the acts before me each took their turns in the spotlight until eventually it was my turn. i could see Owner standing with Her camera recording in the second row from the very front, just in front of the three judges. i could hear my music. My legs propelled me forwards and before i knew it i was on the stage and into my rehearsed routine.
All started well. i was doing the little dance i had practiced, not brilliantly but i had not fallen over or anything dramatic. i began to relax as i pranced about. i wondered, but ultimately did not care, if people thought it odd that a 56 year old man should be pretending to be a teenage girl in short skirt and school shoes and blouse. Little would then have known that under the lace black panties i was wearing i was locked safely in chastity. They would have seen the fake outline of my pert teenage breasts, courtesy of my padded bra. But i was enjoying myself showing off, showing what a little slut i am, doing my wonderful Owner proud and making the most of my birthday present from Her.
Then disaster. i felt my wig slip. i tried to subtly re-position it but then it slipped again, and obviously. i pushed it back into position. However, each time i danced about it kept moving. It was my fault for not having properly secured it. i felt embarrassed and humiliated. Three hundred people were watching as i fought to keep my hair on. i could see the judges looking at me. What was i to do? The video below captures the start of my routine and also the beginning of where things went wrong.
My answer, go with it and try to style it out. In a flourish i pulled my wig and hairnet off. The crowd, who had been mostly silent. Suddenly clapped and cheered.
picture Owner took of me on stage minus my wig
My music finally stopped and i hastened off the stage towards Owner who, despite my very public mishap seemed delighted with how i had got on. i, however, still felt embarrassed.
After the act that followed me finished their routine i suggested to Owner that we retire from the hall. As we were leaving a stranger congratulated me for having dealt so well with my wig mishap. We headed to the hotel bar and some drinks.
in the hotel bar sans wig
There another stranger also congratulated me on how i did and a girl even came over and asked if She could take Her photograph with me, which Owner was happy for me to do.
So, did everything go to plan? No. Did we have a great time? Yes. Thank you Owner for a wonderful belated birthday treat.
My back is slowly starting to recover. For the first time in a week i was able to leave the flat and accompany Owner on a short (and slow) walk around the block. That evening often offered to split a can of rum and coke, that had been in our fridge for weeks, with me. i don't know if the rum was strong or it was the combination of rum and meds but it made me quite tipsy very quickly!
Then yesterday i managed a slightly longer excursion with Her, this time walking to our local park (the one that often features in the background of some of my outdoor challenges) and managing to complete a lap of it whilst supervised and accompanied by Owner. It was lovely to be outside again.
On the slow walk back home Owner suggested buying some alcoholic drinks to have whilst watching a rental movie at home, beer for Her and cherry cider for me, declaring that She wanted to get me pissed. Well, two small bottles later and i couldn't feel any discomfort in my back at all. Owner then poured me a limoncello and, well the next thing i knew i had fallen asleep!
Fast forward to the next day i.e. this morning. As i lay in bed Owner began teasing and caressing my unlocked clit, She has insisted it remain unlocked ever since the cage broke a week ago. It didn't take long before it and i were both fully aroused. Owner then stopped teasing me for a short while before turning Her attention back to my clit once again. This continued for a short while, Her slapping and caressing my clit and playing with my nipples then pausing, before commencing again. All the while i lay there, breathing heavily as i felt my arousal increase.
Then Owner suddenly got out of bed. i thought that, having teased me, that was it, but i was wrong. She removed Her knickers and placed them over my head, positioning the crotch so that i could inhale Her scent. The fabric was moist. i breathed in deeply, breathing in the heady aroma of Her sex.
Knickers in place i then heard Owner rummaging around in Her bedside drawer before She padded around the bed and positioned Herself so that She was stood by my side of the bed, facing away from me. She removed Her knickers from my head and i rolled onto my side to take in the glorious site of Her naked backside positioned just inches from my face. i grasped Her hips with both hands and was able to wiggle myself to the edge f the bed so that i could bury my tongue between her ass cheeks, As i did so She flicked on Her vibrator and clamped it against Her clit.
Owner half-squatted at the side of the bed, pleasuring Herself with Her toy as i gripped Her buttocks with my hands and pleasured Her anus with my tongue as She brought Herself off. The fun did not, however, end there.
After climaxing Owner got back into bed and rolled onto Her side. By this point i was so horny that all discomfort from my back was forgotten and i hauled myself 180 degrees so that my face was now level with Owners recumbent backside. i parted Her cheeks and feasted on Her glorious anus. Owner once again positioned Her vibrator between Her legs and pleasured Herself further as my tongue licked, pushed and twirled inside Her luscious chocolate treat. Then to my surprise, and with my face still buried between Her cheeks, Owner reached across to my clit and started to stroke it fast, pumping it until i was soon urgently requesting permission to cum, my words muffled from having my face buried between Her arse cheeks.
Thus it was that, for a second time in a week, i found myself climaxing. This time with the added sensory delight of doing so whilst my face was buried in Owners wonderful backside. i confess that it was a heavenly treat.
After we got up Owner then escorted me on another short walk, this time to the shopping centre where we had a coffee before getting some provisions. i again felt bad as i can't really carry anything at the moment so Owner had to lug the shopping back home, only letting me carry a bag of kitchen towels and cold meat. Even just this, however, possibly combined with the mornings excitement, was enough for me to need to retire back to bed when we got back from the shops and cook my back for a bit with the mini electric blanket.
In summary, Owner is continuing to take very good care of me (arguably too good) and my back is steadily improving. Hopefully i will be back to being able to fully resume my duties and chores in the not to distant future. Here are some pictures of me that Owner took today
In an exciting sexual first for us both, Owner ejaculated over my face as She climaxed this morning. She did so as Her new Lelo Sila sonic device worked its magic on Her clit whilst my tongue licked and twirled deep inside Her anus. Owner has never squirted before so it was a wonderful delight to us both when i suddenly felt my face sprayed and flooded by Her ejaculate. At first i feared it might cause Her to stop pleasuring Herself, but it did not. Quite the opposite. It also drove me to even deeper levels of arousal and frustrated desire, my tongue alternating between worshiping Her heavenly backside and eagerly lapping up Her love juice as it soaked my face and hair.
The Sila (see image below) had been part of my wedding anniversary gift to Owner. i had bought it for Her in the hope that it might provide Her with even greater sexual pleasure having read a great review about it on Mistress Scarlet's blog. i think it surpassed expectations.
Owners' Lelo Sila
The morning had started as usual with my doing my Spanish studies and exercises after breakfast. However, Owner had then invited me back to bed whereupon She served me another delicious glass of Her wonderful piss.
Owner cuddling me as i drank Her nectar
This was actually the second glass of urine She gave me to drink this weekend. She gave me one on Saturday too.
Drinking Owners pee on Saturday
Owner then secured a belt around my neck to use as a lead and placed a pair of Her worn and aromatic panties over my head for me to inhale, and become intoxicated by, Her scent.
Belt around neck, inhaling Owners' scent
Having ensured i was suitably aroused Owner then began lightly beating my swollen labia before standing before me with Her 'cock' out for me to fellate. When my mouth was suitably warmed up She positioned Herself on Her back on the bed, pulled my head down onto Her erect 'cock', placed the Sila between Her legs and began to bring Herself off. Within minutes Her dildo grew slick from my saliva as my head bobbed eagerly up and down, my drool trickling down Her phallus, lubricating Her sex. All the while the sound of Owners moans of pleasure grew steadily louder.
Owner pulled Her cock from my mouth and discarded it then rolled onto Her side, presenting me with Her anus to pleasure whilst the Sila continued to bring Her off. i needed no encouragement to push my tongue inside Her wonderful backside, relishing Her taste. Soon i was licking Her out as deeply as i could when all of a sudden Owner shuddered and squirted. It was an incredible moment, a real privilege to have experienced Her first real ejaculation at such close quarters. Her juices ran and sprayed as She climaxed hard.
i continued pleasuring Owners anus and She came again, less intensely this time and then finally i lay holding Her tight, my tongue licking Her juices from the soft, creamy flesh of Her buttocks. As we lay there we both agreed that this was the first time She had ejaculated during sex. Owner regularly climaxes but this is the first time She has squirted hard like that. The Sila was all i could have hoped for, and more. It made Owner ejaculate and i had the privilege of experiencing Her pleasure. Owner was left satiated. i stayed aroused and denied. It was wonderful.
After lunch we headed into town for coffee and a pink hot chocolate (for me) then for an appointment in an underground thermal spa in central London. The thermal baths were amazing with hot and cold pools, water jets and a floatation tank. All set out in the brick-clad vaulted cellars of an old London townhouse. The place is called AIRE Ancient Baths London and was a truly great experience. They also offer a range of massage services. Owner had requested that we just have the thermal spa so we plunged and floated and were water-jet blasted for 90 contented minutes. It is adult only and strictly no cameras in the bath area so you will just have to take my word for it that the bikini i am wearing in the changing area below was the one i was wearing whilst splish splashing about in the baths.
Changed into my bikini
Enjoying my pink hot chocolate before the spa
It was a wonderful and relaxed way to end the day. A marked contrast to how i spent much of Saturday which saw me liberally coated in dust as i sanded and then stained and varnished the staircase in our flat. i was pretty dirty by the time i had finished.
Me with my power tool
However, Owner declared Herself to be happy with the resulting outcome, which is all that matters.
i hope everyone's weekend was as varied and fun-filled as mine.
Owner really treated me yesterday afternoon. After i made lunch, washed the dishes and finished cleaning out the fridge She gave me permission to order two new cleaning smocks to wear. My current ones are a little faded and no longer look smart. Owner also let me order a new mini-skirt, to replace the one i usually wear when working from home, as it too has gone to the great recycling scheme in the sky on account of it looking somewhat past its prime. i can't wait for my new smocks and skirt to arrive.
Owner also presented me with a lovely full, fresh glass of Her freshly decanted piss early yesterday afternoon which She handed to me to drink. On account of it having been poured slightly later in the day Her amber nectar was light and fresh, the colour of white wine but with a better taste, a real palate cleanser.
It was consumed with relish. i truly love drinking Owners urine, whether it be Her rich and full-bodied dark amber early morning servings or the lighter, crisper white wine coloured urine She dispenses later in the day. All are delicious. It is a drink i have come to crave.
She was not, however, done. More bodily treats were in store for me. With Her fresh piss drunk by Her eager slut Owner then instructed me to strip off and wait for Her naked in Her bed. After a few minutes She joined me under the sheets, the difference being She was fully clothed whilst i was naked.
Owner instructed me to lie on my side so that She could fondle me properly then went to work, groping, molesting and caressing me. She fondled, stroked, squeezed and mauled my breasts, my caged clit, my pussy whilst i groped me Owner also took the opportunity to rub Her crotch against my buttocks and my legs, using my body as a tool for Her pleasure. But it was not just Owner who was getting aroused, i was too. Especially when She then cupped my caged clit in Her hand, exposing the vulnerable twin lobes of my swollen labia which She then began to spank with Her free hand.
She struck each softly at first before striking them harder and harder, causing me pain which swiftly morphed into excited arousal. Would Owner continue hitting me down there until She forced me beg to be allowed to orgasm? On the very rare occasions that She does make me cum, this is typically how Owner does it, by beating my exposed bits so hard that i quite literally howl in anguished pleasure as i beg to be allowed to orgasm. Thankfully, however, Owner also knows that orgasms are not good for me and so was careful not to hit me so much as to make me cum, just enough to ensure that i became highly aroused and animalistic. She also rightly expects the focus of such sexual encounters to be on Her, Her orgasm, Her pleasure and needs.
Accordingly, stopped beating my swollen bits, removed her trousers and knickers, took Her vibrator from Her bedside cabinet and began to pleasure Herself with Her mechanical toy. As She did She rolled onto Her side, lifted Her knees to Her chest and instructed me to lick out Her arsehole.
My response was eager and immediate. i positioned myself behind Her in a reverse spoon position, She lifted Her leg so that my tongue had full access to Her anus, then gripped my head between Her thighs, locking me in place. Feeling horny as hell i spread Her cheeks apart with my hands then began to feverishly lick and lap Her backside, revelling in the scent and the taste of Her bottom as my tongue pushed deep inside into Her delicious butthole.
As Her submissive slut wife and human sex toy Owner has long since denied me access to the holy shrine of Her pussy, and quite rightly so, She has no need of me there. That is a private shrine reserved for Her vibrators or anyone She might ever choose to invite, not me. My place, my task in helping Her climax, is worshiping and pleasuring Her butt with my tongue. It has become what She expects of me and i, in turn, have become obsessed by it. i love and adore it, crave the opportunity to smell and taste Her divine anus, lubricate it with my tongue, probe and devour it. i love feeling Her sphincter muscles quiver and contract as Her vibrator brings Her off in a manner that i cannot.
In no time at all Owners hips began to rythmically rock back and forth, Her bottom bouncing against my straining tongue as it probed deeper inside Her whilst She clamped Her vibrator hard against Her clit. My own arousal increased, my clit throbbing in its cage as Owners backside grew wet with my saliva, smearing and smudging my makeup. She climaxed with my tongue deep inside Her arsehole as Her vibrator buzzed and pulsed millimeters from my nose, held fast against Her long forbidden (to me) sex.
Afterwards, as we lay in each others arms, i thanked Owner for allowing me the privilege and the treat of licking and tasting Her anus. i also thanked Her for having spanked my labia hard to ensure that i was left highly aroused but denied and frustrated whilst was sexually satisfied. It is how i love to be and feels right and appropriate for us both. She can take and receive pleasure whenever and however She chooses. My own goal, sole purpose and main pleasure in life is in ensuring Owner receives the pleasure She expects and deserves.
i am a very happy and contented, even though sexually frustrated, horny but denied, arse licker. i adore the smell and the taste of Owners anus and cannot think of a place i would rather be or a thing i would rather be doing in life than tonguing Her divine backside. It was a wonderful afternoon. A day of treats and delight. Just as i love drinking Owners piss i hope one day to also get to become Her full toilet slave, my tongue and mouth entrusted with ensuring Her backside is always spotlessly clean.
Owner has also changed what She expects from me during the current trial period She has placed me into. Rather than have me request each Saturday that She sit on my face She now wants me to ask Her how i might please Her as Her sextoy every Saturday? We both agree that this feels more appropriate and a truer recognition of my purpose to Her
Yesterday (1st February) marked day one of the trial period that Owner has set me. i must demonstrate to Her during this month long period that i am worthy of being more tightly controlled and dominated by Her by improving my performance and submission to Her.
As mentioned in previous posts, although the trial actually started yesterday, i have been implementing some of the changed behaviours Owner expects of me since earlier in the week to give me the best chance of 'normalising' them so that i do them as a matter of routine. Well, twenty-four hours in and so far, so good.
i did my usual chores, but also remembered to not speak to Owner when She was listening to Her audio books without first seeking Her permission to do so. i also made sure that the shower tray and kitchen sink were both kept spotlessly clean. i also set about doing one of the tasks Owner set me for the month, and the one i find most difficult. Namely, clearing out some of the clothes that i don't really wear, or which are a little tired etc. i am a horder, especially when it comes to clothing, and don't like throwing items away. However, i filled a large refuse bag with clothing ranging from blouses and jackets to skirts and panties, all to be recycled. It was hard to do, but i did it.
The first day of the trial fell on a saturday which meant that, as per Her new rules, i could also ask Owner if She might grant me the wonderful pleasure of sitting on my face. She did much more than just that. Owner took me to bed and slowly stripped me until just my bra remained. This She also then removed but tied it around my head so that each of the cups covered my eyes, serving to blindfold me. It was most effective. Owner then donned Her strapon, pulled me off the bed and onto my knees before Her and had me fellate Her 'cock' whilst She brought Herself off with Her vibrator. It was a wonderful treat to be able to suck on Her cock as She pleasured Herself, thrusting Her phallus in and out of my throat leaving Her cock slick and wet with my saliva.
Satiated Owner then had me get up and lie on the bed, still blindfolded by my bra. She then positioned Herself astride my head, lowered Her hips down until Her backside was positioned just above my mouth and instructed me to worship Her delicious anus with my tongue as She once again positioned Her vibrator against Her pussy and began to pleasure Herself once more. i love and adore licking out Owners anus and was soon in seventh heaven with my little clit straining futilely in its cage as my tongue roamed, licked and explored, revelling in Her scent and taste. It was not long before the combination of my tongue and Her faithful favourite vibrator induced another orgasm for Owner, Her thighs clamping hard around my head as She climaxed. My tongue continued to gently lap Her sphincter until She had recovered enough to start to pleasure Herself with Her toy once again. Soon She was riding my tongue hard as it pleasured Her backside as Her toy brought Her to Her third climax.
Owner collapsed, seemingly spent and rolled panting to Her side. i was hot with frustrated desire and passion. My mouth and nose filled with the exquisite taste and scent of Her derriere, my face smeared with the forbidden juice of Her sex. i rolled sideways but rather than just lay panting in each others arms my tongue was directed to Her backside one last time. With my head between Her legs, as She lay on Her side on the bed, my hands spread Her butt cheeks apart and my fevered tongue went back to work as She worked Her vibrator across Her clit one last time. My tongue lapped, circled, swirled and probed Her backside as Her pleasure grew until the muscles of Her thighs quivered and gripped my head like a vice as Her final orgasm ripped through Her.
Later, as we lay flushed side by side Owner teased me about how difficult it must be to have my little clit so aroused but denied in its cage. It is frustrating but the opportunity to taste and pleasure Her anus is so wonderful i would happily remain denied for eternity just for the opportunity to worship Her divine backside.
The above all happened a little after lunch. When we had recovered Owner and i went for a walk to the shops in order that i might get the last of the items i needed for the pyjama party that i hosted for Owner later in the day.
Owner regularly likes to have me entertain or organise things for Her and last week She advised me that She wished for me to arrange a pyjama party for Her. With Her permission matching outfits were ordered, party games were selected and an invitation was designed and sent to Her for a party starting at 5.30pm. In town i bought a selection of magazines for us to read and some matching friendship bracelets. When we returned i prepared the food and laid out pillows and put on some party music. Owner advised that i was allowed alcoholic drinks and so She prepared rum and coke for her and limoncello and lemonade drinks for me.
The party was a great success, Owner loved it and has said that She wants to have pyjama parties more often. Here are some pictures:
in our matching PJs
table set with food, games, drinks and magazines
Eagle-eyed viewers will note that i bought three different types of magazines for the party, gossip, fashion and one with images of male hunks. We enjoyed them all!
i am back at Owners' side, and also under Her backside (more of that later) after a short period of enforced separation. My work took me to Turin in Italy for four days last week, four days in which i was separated from my heart as unfortunately She was unable to join me.
It was hard being away from Her and i know that She missed having me around too. Sadly, it also resulted in Owner not having me around to do the housework. Not long after i got back She confided to me how much less free time She had in the evening compared to normal. Time She spent doing household chores that, were i around, She would rightly expect me to fully take care of. i do have my uses :)
i arrived back home late on Friday night, which also happened to be the day of one of our Anniversary's - the one marking the day we both physically met each other for the first time, 31st May 2005 - yep, nineteen years ago. With me arriving home so late we did not have time to properly mark the occasion other than exchange the cards and gifts we had got each other. Owner bought me a wonderful summer outfit (sleeveless top, cut-off shorts and a pair of hi-tops) - you can see some pictures of me modelling it below. Note: i was wearing no make-up and had not brushed my hair, as you can tell!
i can't wait to be able to wear it outside.
In return i bought Owner a summer scarf and a selection of Italian chocolates. Hopefully, i will also get the opportunity to take Her out to lunch later today, back to the (Italian) restaurant we went to the first day we met, nineteen years ago.
The day after i got back from Italy (the Saturday) saw me feeling exceptionally tired. i was working long hours in Italy where i was teaching and lecturing and then in the evening i had to catch-up with my main (UK) job, replying to unread emails etc, etc. This meant i was not getting to bed until about 1.30am then teaching the next day from 9 - 6.30pm and then repeat. It was a great experience but also an exhausting one. Consequently, Saturday saw me in my nightdress and dressing gown all day and taking regular naps in between watching silly TV shows with Owner.
However, Owner had been busy whilst i was away and had made me one of my favourite deserts as an Anniversary surprise, a dish called Tarta de la Abuela - which we also feasted on in lieu of breakfast and dinner.
As we watched TV together on the sofa Owner also began to casually but deliberately caress my tits. Now, i love having my breasts fondled and played with and i responded as any self-respecting slut should and would, i started to moan and spread my legs apart, offering Owner access to my unlocked clit and my smooth shaven pussy. Soon my gown was undone and Owners hands were roaming freely across my naked flesh, stroking, touching, slapping and fondling my breasts and my swelling clit. Needless to say it wasn't long before Owner instructed me to go to the bed and wait for Her there.
What followed was the most amazing and pleasurable intense experience and one that i was truly lucky to be treated to. Owner let me worship Her delicious backside at length as She pleasured Herself with one of Her vibrators as i took my time licking, probing and pleasuring Her anus with my tongue. i locked my arms around Her hips and pulled Her bottom hard against my mouth and i feasted on Her wonderful backside. Again and again She rode my face and tongue for pleasure as Her magic toy went to work between Her thighs.
Owner lay on Her side in a semi-fetal position, vibrator clamped hard against Her clit with my face wedged between Her cheeks, my head gripped between Her thighs as my tongue licked and lavished, probed and penetrated Her divine anus. My face grew slick with Her sex. i was in heaven. We lay locked together, pausing occasionally for Owner to recover before commencing again. Sometimes i could breath, sometimes i could not. i did not care. My clit throbbed as i concentrated all my energy on worshiping Her wonderful backside as best i could.
Just as i thought my afternoon could not get better, it did. Owner had me roll over onto my back. i bent my knees and spread my legs apart, lifting my hips and resting my feet on the headrest of the bed, fully exposing my sex to Owner. She sat astride my face, grabbed the headrest with one hand and then lowered Her hips down towards my upturned face, presenting Her backside once again to me. Just like my face it too was slick and moist. Her sphincter muscles, already fully relaxed, opened up to me, inviting me to slip my tongue deep inside Her as She settled Her hips. Soon She was riding my tongue, fucking it with Her arse, but this time as She did so She gripped my clit with Her spare hand and began to masturbate it hard.
Waves of ecstasy consumed me as i fucked Her anus with my tongue whilst Owner beat my clit harder and harder. i grabbed Owners thighs and buried myself between Her heavenly buttocks as She ground Her hips against my face and pumped my engorged clit. She masturbated my clit hard and with one goal in mind as She rode my face like a seasoned cowgirl. My body bucked and twisted beneath Her, contorting in pleasure until i pleaded to be allowed to cum.
For the second time this year Owner gave the instruction to 'cum like a whore' and i did, moaning and ejaculating copiously. Owner scooped up my mess and smeared it across my torso before inviting me to lie by Her side. It was a wonderful and memorable afternoon.
This past week has been a bit of a struggle for Owner and i. We have both been busy with work and i also spent a night away from home, separated from my Owner, again due to work. All of this meant that i have yet to fully settle back into my usual domestic routines and Owner has not felt inclined to insist that i do. A situation compounded by the fact that tomorrow i head to Turin in Italy for a few days for work so will be apart from Owner again.
Needless to say we both have high hopes and expectations of a return to normality on my part next weekend, when my current spate of travels are over. i confess that i also find being out of chastity also somehow negatively affects my performance as Owners submissive. i don't know quite why that should be the case, but it is. However, i also know that Owner stated She wants me unlocked for some time so i will just have to improve my game and stop relying on the device to keep me in submissive check. Owner rightly expects me to behave and perform to the same standard, locked or not.
That said, being unlocked does come with the (very) occasional benefit, in the form of a permitted orgasm, and yesterday i had my first climax in over nine months. Owner and i were in bed and i was doing what i absolutely adore doing, yep you have guessed it my tongue was deep inside Her anus as She focused on bringing Herself off with Her vibrator. i love, love, love worshiping Owners' backside. i love the taste, the intimacy and the scent of Her anus, the feel of Her sphincter muscles as they quiver and spasm against my roving tongue and the hope and desire that perhaps a 'chocolate treat' might be popped into my open mouth.
Well, i did receive a treat but not of the chocolate variety. After having brought Herself off a few times whilst my tongue pleasured Her backside and my hands fondled Her wonderful breasts Owner reached around with Her hand and began to lightly spank and caress my little clit. Now, after nine months of enforced idleness it did not take long for my little nub to wake up. It's not really capable of full-blown erections these days but it can still swell up to a massive (lol!) three or four inches in size and swell it did.
My mind began to race as i experienced the double thrill of licking out Owners backside whilst She simultaneously caressed, teased and stroked my little swollen clitty. i knew i would be unable to hold out for long before i felt the unstoppable urge to orgasm and so it proved to be the case. Within less than a minute i was begging Owner, as best i could beg whilst my tongue was also occupied licking out Her arse, to be permitted to climax.
'Cum like a whore' was Her response.
i moaned and groaned and soaked the sheets, drenching the bedding with nine months of stored cum, as i feasted and gorged on Her bum. It was mind blowingly wonderful.
It took me a good while to physically recover from the sudden, overwhelming and intense orgasm Owner gifted to me and it left me feeling tired and out of sorts for the rest of the day. Enjoyable? Yes, immensely. Good for me me and my performance? Much more questionable. On seeing how tired the orgasm left me Owner teased me and said that perhaps i ought to be made to cum every day so that i got used to it. Personally, and call me weird, i would still prefer denial but i did hugely enjoy my rare release and i am grateful to Owner for having gifted me the experience.
i did, however, eventually get up and we both headed out to spend the rest of the day at the London Wetland Centre to observe and photograph some wildlife.
Observant visitors to the Centre might also have spotted a new summer migrant, with flashes of red and purple in their summer plumage.
It was a demand that i strip off rather than a question. Naturally, i obliged and soon i had rejoined Owner in the lounge, only this time wearing just a pair of stockings and my satin night gown.
'Let's go and lie down' She continued.
Moments later we were in the bedroom, on the bed, kissing passionately. Owner rolled me onto my stomach, splayed my legs and started caressing my buttocks and stroking my pussy. i moaned and spread my legs wider. i am, indeed, quite a slut. Owner then stripped me naked then let me worship and suckle on Her beautiful breasts as She, having also stripped off, pleasured Herself with Her vibrator.
We lay like that a short while, Her masturbating as i stroked Her thighs and kissed and feasted on Her breasts.
'Why don't you lick my arse?' She said.
Again, it was an instruction rather than a question but it was a command i had been hoping She might issue. There is nothing i love more in life than being allowed to slide my tongue deep into Owners delightful anus. Which is exactly what i did.
As i tongued and pleasure Her bottom Owner brought Herself off with Her vibrating toy, again, and again.
Later, as we lay spent in each others arms i reflected on what a lucky person i am, to get to pleasure Owner this way and experience as intimately as i did Her moments of passion. i, of course, remained denied.
It proved a wonderful way to end the afternoon together. Earlier in the day i did my exercises, studies and chores and then did some baking whilst Owner had a rest. We even got to spend some time watching TV together.
After what has been quite a stressful week it has been a wonderful way to relax and unwind. Thank you Owner.
This weekend has seen me be birched, caged, pissed on, used as a sex toy and fucked. It has been a good weekend.
It all started on Saturday. After completing my daily studies, exercises and household chores, i was locked up securely inside my new cage for an hour. This was part of a punishment from Owner for having wasted Her time the previous weekend. It was a thoroughly deserved punishment.
Before being caged Owner dressed me in the new pretty lilac body harness She had bought me for our wedding anniversary, complete with matching fluffy tail and ears. It took some time to work out how to fit the harness but once we had worked that out i was ready to be placed inside. i loved having the harness on and Owner seemed very pleased with how it looked on me.
Owner was then able to spend some time relaxing with a cup of tea and reading Her book and generally spending some quality time with Herself without being distracted or disturbed by Her wife.
locked away in my cage
my pretty new harness, and fluffy tail and ears
Prior to being caged Owner had already delivered my weekly maintenance disciplining. She chose a different implement this time, selecting Her birch caning rod. It delivers quite a sting when it lands and Owner used it to strike me many, many times across my buttocks. i am grateful to Her for reminding of Her complete authority over me.
freshly birched bottom
it was early so i was still in my nightie
On Sunday i completed my exercises, studies and most of my household chores before preparing lunch. After we had eaten and i had washed and put away the dishes Owner suggested we go out for a walk. We headed to our local park and then to a cafe to have an early afternoon coffee. It was lovely spending time with Owner.
Coffees consumed we returned home. Owner instructed me to strip and to prepare myself to receive Her piss by securing the urinal gag in my mouth. i positioned myself in the bathroom in such a way as to enable me to receive Owner's golden nectar. She quickly filled my mouth and soon piss was spilling down my front as well as down my throat. Owner remarked how much She enjoys having me drink Her piss in this manner and how She wants me to be Her urinal more often.
me as a human piss pot
As if this wasn't thrilling enough no sooner had She filled me with Her wonderful liquid than Owner instructed me to wait for Her in the bedroom with the brown and tentacle dildo's ready.
Upon entering the room Owner instructed me to lie face down and start to fellate the brown dildo. As i did so She climbed astride me so that She was sat on my buttocks. She reached out and grabbed hold of my ponytail and then started to rub Herself against me. She grabbed Her vibrator, pushed it against Her clit and started to bring Herself off as She rode me like a jockey. Occasionally She paused and, using the electric zapper device, encouraged me to suck faster on the dildo by zapping me on my butt cheeks or between my legs before returning to the task in hand of bringing Herself off. It wasn't long until She came.
Owner dismounted and 'rewarded' me by standing in front of me so that i could see Her forbidden pussy before turning and presenting me with Her backside to kiss and lick. Of course, i eagerly obliged. Owner's fun had only just begun, however.
Moments later She instructed me to roll onto my back, then She mounted my face and had me pleasure Her anus with my tongue as She began to bring Herself off once more. 'Deeper, deeper!' She instructed. My tongue probed deeper still as i buried myself inside Her. Owner ground down against my face leaving me unable to breathe as Her climax approached. When finally She rolled off me, panting with pleasure i too was gasping, except in my case it was for air.
As She lay in repose, catching Her breath, Owner lazily fucked my mouth with Her foot. But it was another orifice of mine that was to be Her next focus of intention. Soon i found myself on all fours, brown dildo between my lips as Owner penetrated my pussy with the large tentacle dildo. i love the feeling of being stretched out and opened up by it and soon Owner was instructing me to fuck myself harder and harder on Her cephalopod cock whilst She pleasured Herself with Her vibrator. The tentacle pushed deeper and faster inside me as Owner thrust Her hips rhythmically back and forth and i pushed back against Her. Again She zapped me as She fucked me. All the while my mouth worked its way up and down the shaft of Her brown dildo as Owner brought Herself off again as She continued to fuck me.
All too soon it was over and She rolled away, fully spent.
Owner held me against Her chest and uttered the words that i never tire of hearing Her whisper. She told me that i was a 'good slut and wife'. It is something that i strive to be and which is always lovely to hear Her tell me. As for me, i just cannot believe how lucky i am to get to live with a serve a woman as wonderful as Owner.
This was the scene on the bed post-fucking.
Her own orgasm left Owner was a little unsteady on Her feet when She got up to shower. As for me, i was left aroused but frustrated. It is now well over six months since i was last allowed to orgasm. i cleaned and tidied away the toys and then went back to work, cleaning all the floors in the flat.
When my chores were finally done Owner put me back into my cage for another hour whilst She worked. i spent the time chained and gagged with a horse bit, causing me to drool steadily into the little bucket that is kept in the cage. Thankfully, my pussy behaved itself and Owner did not have to work whilst also being serenaded by contented 'fanny farts' from Her slut, although it was quite vocal at times when i had been cleaning the floors earlier. This was Owners' view of me in the corner of the room whilst She worked.
When an hour later the cage door was opened and Owner released my bonds i was allowed to join Her to watch a TV series together. it has been a wonderful weekend.
