On My Knees

It feels as though i have spent quite a bit of my time this week on my knees for Owner, which i guess is how things should be. In no particular order i have spent time:

• Kneeling blindfolded to eat my dinner from my dog bowl on the floor at Owner's feet - chasing food around the bowl with my tongue and trying not to get my face covered in the process
• Kneeling on my hands and knees, legs spread apart, in my cage with chains attached to my ankles; my caged clit; the leather collar around my neck; and my pierced nipples - with a gag in my mouth to keep me quiet and a mini-cow bell around my neck to train me to stay still. Kneeling in this position with my thighs spread apart, pivoting forward at the waist with my hands on the floor in front of me causes my 'pussy' to wink open, making me feel quite exposed. It's a difficult position to maintain but with practice i am slowly getting better. So far the longest i have stayed like this is about an hour. Sometimes Owner will come over and touch or caress me but for the most part She ignores me until She summons me to join Her at Her side.
• Kneeling in front of Owner whilst i bathe Her feet and give Her a mini-pedicure and a foot massage
• Kneeling on the sofa, counting off the strokes as Owner canes me. She now strikes me a lot harder than She did when She first started to administer weekly disciplinary sessions. She takes turns delivering a set number of strokes, standing first on one side of me then switching positions and striking me from the other. i am required to count each stroke out loud. As She gets into the swing of things the strokes land harder, moving from my bottom to the back of my thighs as i wince with the impact. i am very grateful to Her caning or spanking, whipping or flogging me as She does.
   
  

So yes, it feels as though i have been kneeling quite a bit this week. Of course i have also been doing other things, like studying Spanish daily, working, cleaning, cooking and practising deep-throating my training dildo but i am grateful for the time i have spent on my knees for Owner even if i do, on occasion, struggle a little to get back up! The joys of a slightly aged body.

Here are some of the times i have been on my knees this week

near naked, chained and gagged in my 'cage'

on my knees in my heels on eating dinner

chasing food around my bowl whilst blindfolded

strike me Owner one more time

red cheeks and thghs

A Lovely Weekend

Owner and i had a lovely relaxed weekend. On the Friday i was once again working from home (yay!) which meant another dice determined activity needed to be completed. This time i had to wear nipple clamps for 20 minutes whilst working . A few years ago we invested in what are actually some outdoor table cloth weights (which i had not realised were even a thing) which make for perfect nipple clamps/weights. The clamp is plastic, toothed and quite vicious whilst there are two weighted balls suspended from it. They are designed to stop picnic table cloths from bowing away in a breeze but make for ideal, albeit quite vicious, nipple clamps. This is what they looked like on me:

Work completed for the day Owner and i arranged to go to our local pub where we had a pleasant evening drinking and gossipping and then grabbed a pizza afterwards. It has been a while since we last went out for Friday night drinks and we both had a lovely time,

Saturday saw us catching up with quite a few things that needed doing like paperwork (Owner) and gardening (me).  Later in the day i had the pleasure of giving Owner a pedicure.

Then on Sunday we went out to the movies in the afternoon to see The Favourite (which is excellent by the way and also interesting from a domination/submission perspective) before returning home and a chance to catch-up with and  compete some housework (me) whilst Owner relaxed.

In short, it was just a lovely relaxing weekend

Finding Popcorn Down Your Bra

Today has been a wonderfully relaxed day at home with Owner. i painted Her toenails and She painted mine, She helped me to choose a dress and heels for a special occasion (more about that in the future). Owner also made popcorn for us both before we sat down to watch a classic femme fatale movie together Bodyheat - which explains the popcorn i later found down my bra! It has been a lovely day.

Meanwhile, Owner has also been putting the new regime, of me having to pick a 'punishment' card at random for a jar in return for being permitted to watch TV with Her, into action. In addition to having to stand facing the wall with my nipples clamped for 20 minutes, and having 10 mini wooden and metal clothes pegs attached to my clitty, i have also enjoyed having my testicles spanked hard ten times by Her with a wooden spoon and had to lie across Her knees for a good old fashioned bare bottom spanking. Move over TV dinners hello TV challenges!

pink cheeks from my over the knee spanking

Learning and Development

It has been a very busy fortnight for both Owner and i. Owner has been continuing Her course studies, preparing for Her final exam and also attending job interviews. Meanwhile, i have completed two additional courses and graduated with diplomas in Indian Head Massage and Manicures and Pedicures from the Beauty Academy. Both of these courses were great fun and quite intensive. On each there were between 4 and 6 students and a tutor and there was lots of practical as well as theory work. As students we all got to practice on each other. On both courses all of the other students were female. i was a little nervous at first but i needn't have been and not an eyelid was batted at the fact that i was wearing my collar, make-up etc nor that my toe nails were painted pink or that i was wearing a slip under my blouse (which became obvious when we all had to remove bare our shoulders during the massage practical).

It really was great fun and it has really sparked my interest in potentially doing a full qualification in beauty therapy - something which some of the other students also encouraged and which a number of them were working towards themselves. Owner and i have discussed the idea as well as which other courses She would like me to complete next to help me become a better and more useful wife. There is one in particular which She is enthusiastic that i complete, namely a one day introduction to sewing course (including using and setting up a machine). She has also highlighted some flower arranging courses that are available. However, Owner has suggested i wait a month or two before commencing a new course.

Meanwhile, my Spanish studies are coming along and this evening i passed an online Spanish course i have been doing. Owners desire that i be equipped with a full range of skills befitting my role as Her wife, appear, so far, to be progressing relatively well. i am now getting ready for the start of Owners formal assessment of my development over the past few months of Her second phase of Her development plan for me - Her 'Plin, Plan, Plon'. Owners assessment of my performance will dictate whether or not She regards me as having reached a sufficient standard to progress onto the next stage of my development. To that end, Owner requested ideas from me for areas/activities etc that i thought could be incorporated into my future development i.e. ideas for how i thought i could be further trained. Depending on whether i am judged to have passed this stage of my development Owner may choose to incorporate some of these ideas, or equally ignore them completely, or adapt them etc, etc. To be clear She is firmly in charge but likes to sometimes request ideas or suggestions from me for Her to consider. It is quite fun to be asked to occasionally be asked to be the potential author of your own development/training and also reduces the burden on Owner - after all the purpose is ultimately to make Her life more relaxed and stress free and to serve Her, not place demands on Her.

Owner will be conducting my performance review next month (March) and i'll up date with the outcome as soon as i find out.

The Good and the Bad and the Potential

Owner gave me a wonderful treat this weekend. After having given my chastised clitty a spanking whilst i washed up on Friday night which left it throbbing and engorged in its cage She then advised that She wanted me out of chastity for a while. Accordingly, later that night the device was removed for the first time in over a month. i have ti confess that, much as i enjoy being locked up i also do enjoy these moments of 'free' time too, not that i rush to masturbate or anything (i would never even consider this unless ordered to so do so) but rather it is just nice feeling unrestrained for a while, in much the same way that feeling restrained and locked in chastity can also feel oddly reassuring and comforting.

Anyway, Saturday morning Owner awoke feeling aroused and soon had me pinned face down on the bed as She sat astride my buttocks grinding out an orgasm against my body. Next, Owner had me position myself on all fours to afford Her easy access to my soft spots and then She began to pull, tweek and caress my titties and alternately slap and spank my clitty and gently masturbate it. Over a month of enforced denial meant that it wasn't going to take long before i came and soon i was seeking Owners permission to do just that, only for Her response to be to stop, wait and then re-commence. She continued edging me this way, alternately stroking and slapping my clitty for a while and then She gloved and lubed Her free hand and, whilst continuing to stimulate my clitty, eased Her fingers into my pussy. And so it was that first thing in the morning i found myself happily on all fours, legs parted, head buried in the duvet whilst Owner knelt behind me, masturbating my clitty with one hand and fucking my pussy with the other. Owner urged me to cum and seconds later it was over, Her gloved hand withdrew and my tongue was lapping and licking up my mess before we embraced tightly. It was a lovely start to the weekend.

i was, i know, exceedingly lucky to be given such a wonderful treat by my Owner. This was especially so as i had mucked up badly a few days before and done something that rightly annoyed Her immensely. Most readers will know that i make the majority of our meals, in fact it is assumed that i will make all meals at all times unless Owner should decide otherwise. As part of my development i also must ensure that i provide Her with a minimum of two evening meal options a day for Her to choose from.

The day before i had de-frosted some chicken pieces and so that fateful day offered Owner the choice of a chicken salad or stir-fry for dinner, She chose the latter. Another of the things Owner expects of me is to ensure that i don't waste food and use it before it reaches its expiry date. i do a kitchen audit once a month and any food found that has past its use by date needs to be disposed of/recycled and Owner advised accordingly. Depending on how much food i have wasted this way She punishes me accordingly. Anyway, i had only recently done such an audit, had presented Owner with what i had found (some expired stocks and pulses) and was punished accordingly - by having two items of my clothing recycled for being wasteful.

Fast forward to me serving Owner Her dinner that evening last week and after taking Her first mouthful She enquired as to what sauce i had used. When i replied it was a soy sauce this was quickly followed-up by Her asking when it had been bought? My heart suddenly sank. The sauces are in a part of the cupboard i had forgotten to check when conducting the food past its expiry date audit. i returned to the kitchen where my worst fears were confirmed, it the sauce had expired. i returned to the living room and shame-facedly handed Owner the evidence of my guilt. She was, quite rightly, not at all impressed and let me know accordingly, hence the pleasant and unexpected surprise of my being released and permitted to cum that way on Saturday morning.

However, i have not got off scott-free. As i write this all of my feminine shoes are laid out on the bed for Owner to choose which ones will be recycled, it may be all of them [EDIT - Owner selected 5 pairs to be recycled]. Equally, i also imagine some non-footwear items of clothing of mine may also be making a premature visit to the recycling facility. Owner knows how much i love my 'girly clothes' (which now constitute over 95% of my wardrobe), and thus how much i hate to have to part from any of them. Accordingly, Her punishment of choice is indeed one that is felt by me but which is also deserved on my part. i just hope She has no further need to punish me so.

Meanwhile, my most recent faux pas aside my development as the wife Owners deserves to have continues apace. i am continuing to stick to and deliver against the requirements of me as set out in Owners training plan. One area that is a particularly exciting development is the commencement of more formal 'practical' training in order that i acquire more skills of benefit to Owner. Accordingly, later this week i will be attending an introduction to 'back and neck' massage course and Owner has permitted me to register and enroll on two one-day courses in February next year. One is an Indian head massage course and the other is a manicure and pedicure course. i am really excited about these and hope that i do my Owner proud and pass both courses.

These last two courses give an accredited Beauty Academy Diploma to graduates but also offer the potential to have the courses accredited towards a Level 2 National Vocational Qualification (NVQ) in Beauty Therapy. This is something that i would love to be able to get so that i could offer Owner a full-range of services, something i feel that i ought to aspire to be able to do as Her wife. It would require me completing a number of different class-based modules as well as some assignments but i think it could be fun and would give me some useful skills. We shall have to see what She thinks.

The Importance of Continuous Study

As part of my development Owner is keen that i develop additional skills and abilities that will be of current or potential future use to Her. One such area that regular readers will know i have been trying to improve for a number of years now is Spanish and i am delighted to report that i seem to be making some progress with this.

However, as part of the current phase of my development as Her wife Owner has been keen to start to extend my repertoire and further my studies. Accordingly, i have recently purchased a copy of the New Holland Professional Manicure and Pedicure: The complete guide to professional results. i have offered and given Owner pedicures and foot massages for many years now but i had never, until this weekend, given Her a manicure - maybe because the results are so obvious to others and i was worried about making a complete hash of it? Anyway, this book has been really useful and is easy to follow. The next step i hope will be to be permitted by Owner to enroll on a taught course so that i can work towards offering Owner professional standard manicures and pedicures. i was recently contacted by an old school friend who, as it turns out, is a professional beautician. It was great to get in touch with her again after so many years but, serendipitously also allowed me to seek her advice on potential beauty courses.

Talking of courses, i have also just enrolled myself onto a one day back and neck massage course in London. i have agreed with Owner that i need to make better use of some of the extra days leave i get from wok each year compared to Her. Owner advised that i could use this time in a productive manner, one such way being using the time to study and develop skills that would benefit Her. Accordingly, i have booked a day off from work to attend the course. Fingers crossed it will go well and, assuming it does, the centre offers a number of other complementary health and development courses that might be useful. Owner has also discussed with me the idea of me enrolling in sewing, beauty therapy etc classes and courses. It looks like i will be having a lot of fun acquiring new skills over the coming months and years.

Meanwhile, Owner and i have been having fun with some new and old activities/challenges for me. Owner has discovered that She really enjoys spanking my 'bits' i.e. testicles whilst i am washing-up. She uses a variety of kitchen implements such as wooden and metal spoons, spatulas etc as well as Her paddle and seems to relish administering a good spanking to them and my derriere whilst i am gagged and trying to remain focused on doing the washing and drying-up. i confess i love being spanked this way, i can feel my clitty twitch and throb inside its cage and it leaves me with a set of heavy and engorged appendages for the remainder of the evening/night - an exquisite state of aroused, uncomfortable denial.

Owner also had me pose near a local street sign the name of which amused Her and which She felt warranted a suitable picture of me

Meanwhile, i have been trying not to get too distracted thinking naughty thoughts when working from home!

put your titties down and step back from the laptops!

What A Weekend

This weekend Owner and i celebrated our 3rd anniversary with a return trip to our favourite London hotel, and the location where we first kissed. Needless to say we had a fantastic time. Owner played a wonderful game with me which had me blindfolded crawling across the hotel bedroom floor on all fours with Owner caning and spanking me and then ultimately fucking me with her strap-on.



Then when we returned home it was time for for my audition for 'Plan 9 for Spoilt Pets'



First i had to audition for a role as a zombie slut, this was my interpretation:





Then i had to demonstrate my ability to convey emotion in a scene, this was me showing my adoration for my Owner:











This was followed by me auditioning for the role of Slut Vampire Victim, my attempts were pretty feeble but here is one of my poses

After this i had to attach a tower of pain to my nipples and prepare for the pain endurance test. This involved being spanked 80 times with Owners favourite leather paddle and having metal clamps attached to my testicles whilst still wearing the tower of pain nipple clamps.

To round off an absolutely fantastic weekend i gave Owner a pedicure and foot massage. Who said that being a submissive is all hard work, it can be great fun too!!