A Treat and a Bollocking

We still have the builders at home (Grrr!!) and so for the second weekend in a row Owner and i de-camped to a local hotel to be able to shower and relax in an environment with a working toilet and that isn't covered in dust - ohh i am going to have sooo much cleaning to do when this horror is finally over! The Sunday proved to be one of those days which started very well but didn't end that way.

On Sunday morning Owner presented me with a special treat after we returned to our room from breakfast, in the form of a full glass of Her golden nectar which She nonchalantly set down on the bedside table next to me before She climbed back into bed. The glass was full almost to the brim and warm to the touch, it's contents the colour of a sweet wine. i drank down the delicious fluid that Owner had honoured me with, relishing it's taste. Three mouthfuls later and the glass was drained, i set it back down on the bedside table.

But my treats didn't end there, Owner had more in store for me. No sooner had i drained the glass than She set about spanking my chastised clitty and fondling my nipples before eventually tiring of tormenting me Herself She instructed me to take over and spank my clitty in a variety of positions, first on all fours on the bed whilst She watched, then kneeling before Her and finally lying on my back, legs splayed apart.

Owner took over from me and proceeded to spank my exposed 'labia' Herself causing me to wince more than once and making my locked clit very hot and aroused. She paused briefly in Her exertions to remove Her panties and drape them over my face, making sure to place the wonderfully aromatic crotch just under my nose so that my head was filled with Her scent. Then She started to masturbate Herself with Her finger. She re-positioned Herself so that She sat astride my head, offering me a grandstand view as She pleasured Herself, occasionally sinking down on Her haunches and letting my tongue briefly take over from Her own fingers. It has been quite a while since i was last permitted to lick Owners clitoris and it was wonderful.

As Owner masturbated Herself above me She permitted my finger to circle and probe Her anus. i paused occasionally to lick and moisten my fingertip, delighting in Her taste, before returning to work in Her delightful derriere as Her own fingers worked up a rhythm on Her clitoris. It wasn't long before i felt Her thigh and sphincter muscles spasm and contract as She came. My own clit throbbed and pulsed forlornly inside it's plastic cage, delightfully denied once again. It really was a most wonderful way to start the day.

Owner again commented how much She enjoys using Her 'whore' as Her sex toy. i absolutely love it too, especially when the ultimate pleasure is Hers alone to enjoy whilst i am left denied and aching for the remainder of the day. It really was a wonderful treat.

Later in the day when we were back home and i was washing-up after dinner Owner came through into the kitchen and started to rummage through the food cupboard. She had already criticised me earlier in the week for allowing the cupboard to become disorganised but now i could sense Her getting angrier and angrier the more She ferreted around. The cause of Her anger was me, and specifically the fact that i had not checked the contents of the cupboard before ordering more groceries and so She had discovered that we had multiple packets of some of the same products - packets that would likely go to waste. Worse was to come though. Owner also discovered that i had not checked the expiry dates of the dried herbs (i should have known better than to think they didn't have them) that were stored in the cupboard. Owner has previously had cause to punish me on more than one occasion for not checking for expired food - now She had discovered that i had been completely ignoring the dried herbs when doing this. She was not at all happy with me, especially given that some were still unopened and had expired in 2010 - six years ago - and gave me a verbal and very deserved dressing down.

At times like this, when i know that i have disappointed Her, i don't know what to say - other than that i am sorry. My lack of a more detailed 'explanation' served only to infuriate Owner more, especially as, as mentioned, She has had cause to punish me for not properly checking use by dates in the past. For my part i know that saying 'i didn't think' is not an acceptable response or explanation and that She should expect much more from Her wife. As Owners housewife it is my responsibility to keep on top of things like that and Owner has every right to be angry with me. i ended up spoiling Owners day and for that i am truly sorry. i imagine there will be consequences.

Completely Unacceptable

Regular readers of this blog will know that about eight months ago Owner put me on a training programme to develop into Her ideal wife. The programme consists of a series of phases and only after i have successfully completed one phase and demonstrated i can maintain the standard and change in behaviour She expects am i permitted to ‘advance’ to the next stage, Each new stage come with new expectations and demands of me whilst, obviously i am also expected to maintain the standards etc attained in the previous stage. Owner calls this development plan my ‘Plin, Plan, Plon’ and i am currently at stage 3.

So far, with the odd slight relapse or failing on my part, we have both been very pleased with my development. We both feel that i have improved significantly in this time period in my submission to Her and my evolution as Her ideal wife. We also recognise that this is an ongoing project and one that, at each stage, will further ratchet up the degree of my submission and push me further and harder to become an even better wife for Her. In the almost nine years we have been together (just under eight of which have been spent living a Female-Led relationship) it has been these past 8 months since the creation of Owners first ‘Plan’ that have seen my most marked development and improvement. It has been far more effective a training programme than i think either of us ever first imagined. What is more, i love how i have developed and want nothing more than to keep develop-ping further and further, to submit myself ever more deeply to Owner and continue to progress and evolve into the wife She deserves. Owner too has been equally pleased with how my submission to Her and transition into Her wife has progressed. In short, things had been going really well.

All this makes this next part really hard to understand. This weekend just gone all of that went wrong. Owner and i unfortunately had to spend the weekend in different countries due to family circumstances – and we both really hate being apart from one another. I said goodbye to Her Saturday morning and we weren’t reunited until the Monday afternoon. However, when we were reunited Owner was justifiably bitterly disappointed about how i had behaved in our absence. Specifically, i had;

• Left expired food in our fridge
• Allowed bread to go mouldy in the bread bin
• Had not emptied the bins before i left to visit my family
• Whilst away had consumed alcohol without having been given prior permission to do so by Owner
• Spent money buying a picture for the flat without either seeking Owners permission to spend money or consulting Her first about the picture
• Had not texted Her on the Sunday morning to request Her approval to wear the clothes i had got out to wear that day

i too was mortified that i had allowed things to go so completely wrong. Owner questioned whether i was actually committed or not to the Plan and to my development? i sought to reassure Her that indeed i was and have re-doubled my efforts this week to ensure i act and behave exactly as i should and as She should rightly expect me to. Although, this episode excepted, we have both been of the opinion that i had developed and improved a lot i had clearly become terribly complacent and had completely let Her down this weekend. i have a lot to do to demonstrate to Her that i am indeed completely serious, as i am, at wanting to develop and to behave and act exactly as expected as Her wife.

Owner is still deciding what the consequences of my actions (or lack of) will be. However, for me the worst consequence has already occurred, i have caused Her to question my commitment to developing as Her wife. This shames and mortifies me greatly. i know that my actions will speak more loudly than any words and so i just hope that i can prove and demonstrate to Owner that, although totally unacceptable, my behaviour was an aberration on an otherwise continually improving and developing path.