Advent Suffering (and fun)

Each day reveals a new task or challenge for me to complete as part of Owner's 2021 advent calendar. The past few days have seen some more physically demanding/uncomfortable challenges, which as Owner has been swift to point out, are good for my development. For example, earlier in the week i was instructed to stand still and hold three books in each hand over my head. This morning, as i type this ahead of starting work, i am wearing nipple clamps for an hour - this in return for a small gift that i will be presented with if i successfully complete my nipple clamp wearing task - which i fully intend to even though after just 15 minutes my teats are already rather 'warm'.

Nipples clamped - they stayed clamped for an hour

standing holding books in the air for 20 minutes

UPDATE - the small gift turned out to be a wonderful pair of purple paddle-shaped earrings emblazoned with the word 'SLUT' - which i wore accompanying Owner to the supermarket at the end of the day.

my purple 'SLUT' earrings

However, it has not all been hard, physical challenges, there have also been some pleasurable ones. i had to go to an overnight work meeting at the start of the week. Owner knew this and so cunningly devised an advent calendar challenge for me to complete on the train during my journey to the venue. The challenge was to play with my nipples. i was travelling with a work colleague and so, shortly after our train left London for the midlands i made my excuses and headed to the toilet to play with my breasts. This is the little video i made as proof for Owner. It would have been fun to try and do this at my seat, but, with a colleague sitting opposite me that was an impossibility.

The day i returned from my trip i received a new advent calendar instruction, which was to fuck myself with Owner's silver dildo and then last night i completed another advent task which was to deep throat my double ended training dildo for ten minutes.

enjoying Owners' silver dildo

drooling on the 12 inch double-ended dildo

So, as you can see, this week's advent has been a mixture of pain, discomfort and pleasure - with i suspect more of the former to come.

Incidentally, talking of pain, discomfort and pleasure Owner was researching some potential presents for me for my birthday next year. She showed me some of the items She was considering. One is a chastity cage (3-D printed) with a built-in remote controlled electric zapping device that sends either a painful or pleasant electric shock straight into your dangling bits. The item in question is available in Etsy and there is a picture of it below

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Owner and my question is this, do any readers have experience of this (or similar) products? i was unsure whether it would be wearable (because of the electro pack) if wearing trousers and that the electro pack might keep rubbing against my thighs. But, Owner definitely likes the idea of a device that can deliver me a shock to my clitty that She can control and operate remotely. If anyone has experience of it both Owner and i would be delighted to hear.

So, that is it from me for now. i am excited about what the next advent calendar surprises might be.

Oral Training - Practice

As mentioned in my last post Owner permitted me to purchase a 12 inch double-ended dildo with which to practise cock sucking. It is both longer, slightly narrower and more flexible than the dildo i had been practising before with and so i hoped that i might be able to better deepthroat the new dildo.

We were away over the New Year staying with Owners' family in Spain and so today was the first time i got to have practise session with it. As i had thought it might the new dildo slips past the back of my throat more easily than the other, firmer and fatter dildo i had been practising with, making it much easier to properly deepthroat. i was not able to quite get the full 12 inches down but i am sure that, with practise i could eventually. i think i managed about 9 inches. i really enjoy deepthroating and hope to be able to practise and perfect my technique with this new toy. You can see how i got on in the pictures and videos below;

my throat ended up nice and gooey

Mmmmmm

By the way, for those of you who are statistically minded and interested in such things, i ended up being permitted 6 orgasms during 2018. Am i odd to be hoping for less in 2019? Owner will, as always, decide.

New Toys

Owner and i made use of some of the early sales to update out toy collection. We purchased some new 'pegging pants' for Owner which we are delighted to say also fits the bigger vibrating dildo we have which has a much fatter head and shaft. Owner also bought some nipple suction cups to further enlarge my nipples and permitted me to purchase a 12 inch double-ended flexible dildo to practice some more advanced deep-throating with. Here are our purchases laid out on our bed:

They arrived Thursday and we are heading off to Spain on Sunday so we might not get a chance to use them until we get back, but they will be something fun to return to when we arrive home.

i have also asked Owner if i might return to chastity when we get back, i have been unlocked since September, and remain locked except for our monthly dice game when i get to roll a dice to determine if i might be set temporarily free. It was a fun game and i always feel i am a much better submissive when kept locked up, though i know Owner also enjoys having me uncaged and available to play with at times.

i hope to return to being the proper wife and submissive Owner expects and enjoys in 2019. Things slipped a little in the second half of this year and my performance has been sub par. She deserves better and i am happiest when i am working and performing at my best for Her.

Incidentally, this year also marked the 10th anniversary of this blog (i first posted in September 2008). How time flies but what an incredible journey i have had with Owner. She is, quite simply, the best.

Wishing all of our readers a wonderful New Year and may all of your dreams and desires come true in 2019.