Poppet The Not-So-Shy Exhibitionist??

The words 'shy' and 'exhibitionist' may seem like odd and contradictory bedfellows but i believe in my own case, and possibly for others, it is true. Owner may dispute this but i assure you that, with me, it is definitely the case that i am, or at least i was, a shy exhibitionist. However, thanks to Owner and Her training and guidance i have become bolder than i ever imagined would be possible. Let me explain.

That i am an exhibitionist is beyond doubt. In my early teenage years i would sneak out of my parents house at dawn and streak naked around our suburban neighbourhood. Why i did this i don't know, i just had a compulsion to do so and found it exciting and thrilling.

Fast forward to completing my MA at University, just before i started studying for my doctorate, and one night you would have found myself and a female friend streaking naked through the computer room - back in the days when virtually nobody had PCs and emails had just become a thing and you went to a special computer room on campus to send and receive messages.

In my mid-twenties i would, on occasion, be found naked on a beach on holiday. Of course i would never countenance such a thing now, not when there are pretty bikini's that can be worn instead! But that was way back then, before i knew Owner and before my feminisation journey began.

However, i was also what i would describe as quite shy. The streak at University happened on a night when i was pretty drunk, the naked sunbathing only if i knew i was alone or was with my then partner and nobody else. Even my early teen escapades happened at a time of the early morning when nobody was really about. The idea of showing my feminine self in public would have terrified me. It simply would not have happened. It was Owner who helped me to overcome such inhibitions.

i still recall the terror i felt the first time i took a bus with Owner whilst, at Her insistence, i was wearing make-up. Or the first time i stepped out with Her in a skirt or flashed my bra in Central London with Her alongside.

Each occasion, though nerve wracking, was made easier by Owner's presence and encouragement as She expertly but gently pushed me to become ever more willing to appear and show myself as She requested. At the same time Owner made it clear that She expected me to be willing to do anything She demanded (She still does) and to be proud to show myself as Her slut, which i still most definitely am.

Owner's next move was to start setting random outdoor challenges for me to complete on my own, without Her reassuring presence. To begin with i was nervous as hell, mortified about making eye contact with any passersby as i posed awkwardly to provide Owner with photographic evidence of a task completed. Tasks that evolved over time from wearing heels or flashing my bra to shopping wearing a skirt etc. To quote Gloria Gaynor:

"At first i was afraid, i was petrified"

But then something amazing happened, i started to become more confident, more daring, less scared of being seen by others. i also got a bit better at posing, something that Owner continued to train and coach me to improve via the photoshoots She regularly stages for me.

A demonstration of how far i had come, how much more brazen i was, how prepared i was to appear and dress however and wherever Owner desired came when Owner told me that i was to take the stage dressed in a short manga maid's outfit in front of hundred's of people at an anime convention. Oh, and i was also in chastity, obviously. As i waited my turn in the line-up of performers it dawned on me that most of those also waiting their turn in the spotlights were in their teens or twenties. It was February 2020, the world was blissfully unaware that Covid was about to close it down, i had recently just turned 50 years old and i was about to step out on stage dressed as a maid.

You can read all about how i got on in my blog post about it. i was so, so nervous and yet also so, so pleased with myself and how i had got on. Owner applauded me in the audience and told me afterwards how pleased She was with how i had done as i was told and performed in front of a room full of strangers. Her shameless little slut had danced about on stage in front of a few hundred people in a short little manga maid's outfit, with bunny ears whilst in chastity.

i was on a real high afterwards, i had been so, so nervous before and then having done it was such a buzz. i was super proud of having demonstrated to Owner that i could overcome my nerves and perform in front of Her, that Her slutty wife could make Her happy and proud.

So, why do i write all of this?

Well, as part of my 56th birthday treat Owner bought tickets for the two of us to the London anime convention. She also selected and chose a manga outfit for me to wear. The schoolgirl outfit worn by the character Marin Kitagawa from the anime series My Dress-Up Darling 

The character Marin Kitagawa i will be appearing as

The convention runs over a weekend in late February and is held in a hotel in London. Owner has booked accommodation for us and i have formally and obediently registered and booked my spot to take to the stage as Marin. i have even selected the music i will be appearing on stage to the soundtrack of. 

The event is in a few weeks time, meaning that i don't have long to get my routine sorted. i have been practicing my little dance in the flat, much to Owners' amusement.

i am really excited, but also a little nervous. i hope to make Owner proud of Her wife and to hold my head high, do my little dance and act as if it is the most normal thing in the world for a middle aged person like myself to cosplay as a teenage girl whilst locked in chastity in front of a room full of strangers. Totally normal, right? :)

My ultimate fantasy would be to one day perform for Owner and others in a strip club or in a burlesque cabaret. Now that would be the ultimate exhibitionist challenge! i very much doubt, however, that any such venue would let me anywhere near their stage. In the absence of such a show, however, Owner continues to test and challenge my ability and willingness to pose and show what a true exhibitionist slut i have become on the streets of London through the monthly challenges and tasks Her dice decide for me on the 16th of each month. i also get to strip for Her from time to time, which often ends up with us both in hysterics.

In that regard, February promises to be a fun month with a random outdoor challenge to complete followed about a week later by me taking to the stage. What a lucky exhibitionist slut i am and how grateful i am to my wonderful Owner for training and pushing me and giving me the confidence to overcome my shyness and reveal my true self to the world.

Of course, i am not a tart all the time Owner takes me out. Mostly i am quite demur and respectable, such as when She took me for some drinks after attending an Asian indoor lunar market/fair. We actually ended up having drinks in the, quite pretty, bar of the Novotel hotel in Greenwich as all the pubs were showing the damn rugby on TV screens. As you can see i was very respectable

i only flashed my bra once :)

After a few drinks Owner took me out for a meal in our favourite Turkish restaurant. It was a lovely day and evening spent in Her company.

There were also two girls in the hotel reception that caught my attention last night. They were posing and preening, dressed all tits and arse, taking selfies for their instas or their websites (who knows). i admired their confidence - especially as the receptionist kept giving them the evils, but they cared not.

Later, Owner showed me some pictures on Her phone. They had been sent to Her by one of Her good male friends. He is gay and is, by all accounts, currently fucking his way around the Caribbean. He had sent Owner some pictures of his latest fuck buddies and these were the photos Owner showed to me. 

Both were fit and cute although each sported neatly trimmed beards (i am not a fan of beards). Disappointingly, each was clothed from the waist down although one of the boys was grabbing his crotch VERY suggestively. Still, it was a shame there were apparently no dick picks, now they would have been nice to see!

Owner and Her gay friend and another friend of theirs are all hoping to go on holiday for a few days sometime this year. i hope they manage to. i am sure that Owner would have a riotous and memorable time with them.

Today Owner and i are having a quiet day at home. This morning, after completing my studies, chores and exercises i had a shower. After doing my make-up Owner presented me with a delicious fresh glass of Her piss

the special piss glass

Which i drank with relish

As you can tell i love drinking Owners' piss.

Piss consumed i then hastily dot dressed so that i was ready and decent to take delivery of our groceries when they were dropped off late morning. This is what i was i was wearing to greet the delivery driver and haul the groceries up into Owner's flat. The text on the front reads 'Hot Wife Slut' - it is a LBD that Owner bought for me a while back

The rest of the day will likely comprise some chores and spending time with Owner and enjoying Her company. i hope readers have a lovely day too.

When In Rome.....

Owner and i are currently in a short break in Rome, Italy. It is a city we have been lucky enough to visit a few times before so there is no pressure to 'do the sights', as they have all been previously seen. That said, who can resist a return visit to cross the Tiber to the Forum, the Colosseum, the Pantheon, Spanish Steps or the grounds of the Villa Borghese? No, not us either.

Owner has some health issues which are causing us both concern, so it has been nice to get away and just wander around Rome at our leisure. We had planned to head out to Ostia Antica today to see more Roman ruins but there is a 24 hour transport strike and so that particular plan has been postponed until tomorrow.

All there has been to do, therefore, is to enjoy the simple pleasures of pizza, pasta, beer, people watching, sightseeing, shopping, avoiding being run over - mostly successfully, i experienced the mild indignity of managing to be run over by a small hand-pulled cart, oh and making the occasional appearance in a dress or skirt.

The latter were fun to do although one look at the Roman cobbled streets was enough for Owner to forbid the wearing of the stripper heels i had brought along and to instead insist on the far more sensible option of my wearing trainers. Anyway, here i am in the backstreets of the Trastevere district:

And then the next day in the grounds of the Villa Borghese, during which my knickers ended up down around my knees - luckily for me the police car did not pass by at exactly that moment but about 30 seconds later, just as i was putting my jeans back on!

with my knickers around my knees

In the meantime, here are a few photos of the eternal city

with Owner at the Trevi Fountain

 

The place we are staying in also has a little outdoor space, perfect for naked dancing in

 We still have just under two days left before we head back home to London.

Frisky Frolics in Finland

Did i mention that the place Owner and i are staying in here in Finland has a jacuzzi on the deck patio? Pretty much every day we have been here has found Owner and i in our respective swimsuit and bikini floating around amidst the bubbles. It is a wonderful way to spend some time, not to mention that the jets of warm water feel amazing as they pummel my pussy through the thin fabric of my bikini bottoms!😀

Well, yesterday it felt even better as  as Owner stripped me of my bikini top and bottom when we were in the water and proceeded to then lightly spank my swollen 'labia'. Obviously, the minute She did so my thighs automatically parted as little waves of pleasure surged through me, waves that grew even more pleasurable as She tugged on the chain suspended from my pierced nipples, causing me to become even more aroused. My little clit began to swell in its cage in excited delight.

With yours truly feeling excitable Owner then positioned Herself in a seated position at one end of the jacuzzi and pulled me over towards Her until i was lying naked over Her lap in the warm water. By raising Her hips slightly She was able to push my bum up and clear of the water whereupon, still holding my nipple chain tight with one hand, She administered a light outdoor spanking with Her free hand on my naked butt. It was a lovely way to start the day before we set off exploring.

However, lovely as it was it was not a patch on the manner in which She started my day this morning. After we'd had breakfast Owner beckoned me back to bed, instructed me to strip naked and then, once again, started to lightly spank my bottom and pull on my tit chain. It had the, i suspect, intended affect of making me wet and aroused. It would appear Owner enjoyed tormenting me like that too for when She took off Her panties and placed the fabric of the crotch against my nose, i inhaled the wonderful fresh scent of Her sex.

Owner positioned me flat on my stomach and then took the solid rubber 'evil bat' paddle i had brought with us and administered a good solid spanking on my backside and a lighter one to my bits. i had forgotten just how effective this rubber paddle is and was soon writhing and squirming on the bed. My bottom quickly started to colour up as you can see from the picture below

the 'evil bat' paddle

Owner tired of spanking my butt with the paddle after a bit and wandered off into the kitchen to look for something, leaving me face down on the bed. What She was seeking i had no idea but i was soon to discover.

She returned with a rubber basting implement for covering the surface of pies and other dishes but quickly found another, better use for it, in the former of a plum/testicle beater. Instructing me to get on all fours and to part my legs slightly She used Her newly found implement to great effect, striking it against my exposed swollen labia until i started to squirm, then striking them some more. Next She told me to turn over and deployed the same implement against my now already slightly sensitive nipples which were already aroused from having had the nipple chain pulled hard as She spanked me earlier.

'Would you like me to sit on your face?' Owner asked. By this point She had re-positioned Herself astride my derriere and was grinding Her pussy against my newly warmed buttocks.

What sort of a question was that was my immediate thought. Of course i would, i would like nothing better. i conveyed my delight at the suggestion and watched as Owner fetched Her vibrator then squatted down astride my face and pleasured Herself within millimeters of my nose with Her toy. i needed no instruction as to what was expected from me and immediately set about worshiping Her wonderful anus with my tongue. Licking Owner's arse whilst She brings Herself off is truly one of my life's great pleasures and privileges. It is always wonderful help bring Her pleasure and today was no exception. i loved looking up through the fine thicket of Her pubic hair and watching Her climax as i feasted on Her backside. All too soon and it was over. Owner got up to shower and change leaving me aroused but contentedly denied.

There was, however, one final bit of excitement in store for me. Today was a mostly cloudy day with some rain forecast in the afternoon. Rather than head off on a hike or go to a beach we decided instead to visit an old local stately home in the morning and then head to a nearby spa resort hotel in the afternoon to make use of their pool facilities. The prospect of the latter made me nervous but also excited as the only swim wear i had with me were the two pairs of bikinis, one pink and sparkly and the other blue and frilly. i decided to be sensible and bring my blue bikini and not the pink one for what was to be my first ever very public appearance in a spa pool wearing a bikini!

We had no idea how busy the facilities would be and so i was a little apprehensive upon arrival, more so on being instructed to head to the men's changing room and discovering it to be an open plan space with nowhere to really discretely slip out of my bra and lilac lace panties and change into my bikini. It was made more nerve wracking still as i was obviously also wearing my pink micro chastity device. But, in the company of a couple of naked and near naked Finnish men i stripped off and changed into my bikini and then traipsed through to the pool area.

On arrival i was greeted by the sight of a large pool and a couple of hot tubs/pools and a bunch of couples splashing and lounging about, as well as some kids. i bit the bullet and padded across the tiled floor, avoiding people's gaze whilst staring at my painted toes as i walked, and eased myself a little shyly into the pool. Of Owner there was no sign.

After a minute or so in the water i plucked up some courage to swim a couple of lengths until Owner emerged and i swam over to join Her. By that point i had started to feel a little less self-conscious in my bikini. Owner and i plonked ourselves into one of the hot tubs alongside some other couples and then spent the next hour moving from one warm pool to another and then back again to the main pool to cool off and so on. i ceased feeling self-conscious and swam and splashed and walked around quite happily in my bikini. i did feel a bit awkward heading back into the men's changing room later in my bikini to dry off and putting my panties and bra back on again in front of some real men who were also getting changed. But nobody said anything or remarked about me (not that i would have understood a word if they had!), nor did i really even get many odd looks in the pool. All in all, i think my first ever public pool bikini swim went well and Owner and i both got to enjoy a lovely time together at the spa.

Here i am poolside in my blue bikini

and this is me enjoying myself in the pool

By the time we were back outside and walking back to the hire car i was feeling quite proud of how i had got on.

But, enough (again) of me. i leave you with some more pictures taken on our Finnish adventure as i know that a number of readers are appreciating the lovely landscapes around here.

we came across a seafront house with its own float plane!

Tomorrow we head off to an island located mid-way between Finland and Sweden which we'll be staying on for a few days. It is part of the Åland Islands which is actually a de-militiarised zone and a rare (very) example of a successful League of Nations agreement. The place has been peaceful for over a hundred years. Hopefully Owner and i won't disturb the peace too much!

Water, Forests, Rocks and Bogs

Owner and i continue our sojourn in Finland. We have been before, both up beyond the Arctic circle in the far North of the country and to the capital, Helsinki. However, this is our first time out in the south west of Finland, to the Finish Archipelago and the second-city of Turku. It is a great place with some lovely landscapes to go walking in and lakes and seas to swim in, even if they might be a bit on the cold side!

Before we arrived we were both quite stressed with one thing and another but we are both now feeling totally relaxed, in my case perhaps a little too relaxed for my own good. Chores have been put on hold until we get back and Owner has already treated me to a couple of relaxed evening of drinks in Her company. 

She has also spoilt me with some new items of clothing, comprising a pair of new lilac knickers and a wonderful black and white checked dress. i had an opportunity to model these, together with a pair of hold-up stockings She got for me just before we left for Finland, this evening.

The property we are renting is on the edge of a small settlement and backs out onto a woodland. About one hundred feet or so from the back porch are a couple of large rocks that make for a perfect stage (in my view) on which to do a little photo shoot. The rocks are just off a path through the woods and overlook a small row of houses but we figured that we could get away with me clambering up and posing in the new dress and underwear Owner bought for me. You can see some of the resulting pictures below

posing a top a rock

Ooops, i appear to be becoming undone!

shamelessly showing off my new knickers

i haven't just spent my time posing on top of rocks, however, i have also been keeping up with my daily exercises despite being on holiday

morning exercises on the veranda

And spending time enjoying the sun;

But i haven't been sitting about in the sunshine all the time. We've also got in a hike on which, much to my disappointment, no moose were spotted

poppet on a plank

And also got to interact with some old public art in Turku

"This here poppet says he will blow us both for free" :)

But that is far, far too much about me. i did say i was getting way too relaxed and comfortable! Here are some more images from Finland

one of the numerous inter-island ferries we have been on

Turku Cathedral

Turku Castle

Owner and i are still not quite at the half-way mark on our holiday here in Finland and blog readers may want to skip the next post or two if you are sick of the sight of me interacting with the natural environment or random sculptures in this part of Europe as i can't promise that there won't be more posts from here.