A Very Special Evening

A bit of a landmark moment has occurred in Owner and my relationship, something we have talked about and discussed and planned to make a reality, only for those plans to subsequently fall through due to external factors. Not anymore. Not tonight. The mutual ambition has now been made real, creating a very special moment for Her and i and marking a further deepening of my submission to Her and Her control over me.

What, you ask, was this really special moment?

Well, Owner went out for a meal straight after work with colleagues of Hers, leaving me at home. That is something quite normal. Whenever Owner meets Her friends or goes out with colleagues i remain at home doing my chores etc.  At home is, after all, where i belong.

What made tonight so special was that whilst Owner was enjoying Her meal i was locked up, chained and gagged in the dark in my cage at home in Owner's kitchen watched over by the surveillance camera, enabling Owner to observe Her submissive wife on Her mobile phone from the comfort of the restaurant. It was a truly magical and special evening. 

To be secured in my place, caged and naked save my stockings, drool leaking from the horsebit gag in my mouth, wrists and ankles chained and secured, cowbells hanging from a thick leather collar and suspended from my tits so that any movement by me would ring out loud, weights hanging from my tit piercings and to remain like that knowing that Owner could be watching me at any time via the surveillance camera whilst She dined. Wow. That really was special.

i know that there will be readers that will wonder why on earth i might want to do that? Why Owner might wish me to do that? but i also know that there are others out there, reading this who will understand exactly why this was such a special shared moment between Owner and i. An opportunity for me to physically demonstrate my submission and willingness to be controlled by, and to suffer for, Her even though She Herself was not here but was out having a lovely evening.

After about 40 minutes spent motionless on all fours, chained with the weights and iron cowbell silently tugging on my tits and the other cowbell hanging suspended from my collar Owners voice suddenly filled the room.

'Hello pet' She said, followed by 'what a lovely bottom'

Me inside my cage as seen by Owner - unfortunately the mesh entrance flap had come down without me realising it which is why my bottom appears lost in the gloom

She was watching and speaking to me through the surveillance camera that, at that moment, was trained on my posterior as i knelt in the cage. i immediately began to wiggle my bottom in excited acknowledgement (the bit gag made it impossible for me to speak). My chains and bells clanged and rattled and the weights swung haphazardly, pulling hard on my tits. It was a wonderful moment knowing that my amazing Owner was watching over and speaking to me, Her chained wife from afar. Then it was over. Silence returned.

After seventy-five minutes had elapsed, as per Owners instructions to me, i unlocked myself and exited my cage. The time i spent locked was thrilling, arousing, exciting as well as tedious, uncomfortable and painful. In short, it was wonderful and i am so grateful to my wonderful Owner for having Her wife remain locked up like that whilst She dined and enjoyed Herself and the company of Her friends.

i would love for Owners dining companions to also know that the woman that they were dining with has a submissive wife who was, at that very same moment, locked up at home in the darkness whilst She was out enjoying their company. Owner is, however, a very private person (unlike me) and so they will have remained blissfully unaware what She will have been occasionally glancing at on Her phone.

Later that evening Owner messaged me to say She was heading home so i walked down to the railway station to meet Her when Her train arrived, took Her bag and escorted Owner back to Her home.

It was a wonderful and blissful evening. i appreciated the opportunity to clear my mind, be still and focus solely on thinking about Owner and how lucky i am to be able to serve and submit to such an amazing woman.

Having now been kept caged whilst Owner has met with friends my fervent wish is that She might consider making this the new normal for me and leave me caged every time She is out relaxing and having fun.  

Staying Home and Going Out

As regular readers will know i have increasingly become a stay-at-home wife for Owner. At home is where She expects me to be and where i enjoy being. It means that She knows where i am and it ensures that my focus stays where it should be, on Her and looking after Her home, be that here in London or in Spain. 

The only occasions that i leave Owners home on my own are: 

• to attend work meetings that cannot be conducted online 
• to complete a challenge set by Owner 
• to see/visit either one of my parents 
• to run errands for Owner e.g emptying the rubbish, collecting Her prescriptions, doing the shopping or buying Her a coffee etc
• to get my haircut or see the dentist/doctor 
• to meet Owner at the train station/airport and carry Her bags home
• to meet-up with Owner if She is already out 

Until last year i still undertook the occasional work trip abroad but we have agreed that this is no longer an appropriate activity for me . It is also expected of me that i do not stay away overnight for work unless it is absolutely unavoidable, and only then if Owner approves.

My staying at home has become the norm. It is where i spend the bulk of my time. i would not want for it to be any other way. 

On those occasions when i do leave the house unescorted by Owner i make sure to return straight back home as soon as possible. i also provide Owner with regular updates about my journey and where i am/what i am doing. More recently still i have set my mobile phone so that it shares my location details with Owner 24hours a day, everyday, meaning that should She ever wish to, She can now track my precise whereabouts all the time. Owner did not ask me to do this but it feels a quite natural and proper thing for me to do.

In short, as Owners control over me has grown and my submission to Her has deepened so it has become increasingly expected of me that i should, in so far as it is possible, always be at home unless i am accompanied or chaperoned by Her.  Likewise, when i am not at home Owner can now always see, if She wishes to, exactly where i am.

Luckily for me Owner enjoys my company as much as i enjoy Hers and so i am regularly invited to accompany Her on a walk, for drinks, a meal or for some other occasion or activity. Take this weekend for example. i went out twice with Her, once on Saturday and then again on Sunday. On Saturday Owner went out for lunch with friends, leaving me at home to get on with some housework. However, She then invited me to meet up with Her in town later in the day and go for drinks with Her.

Spending time out, in Her company, are special moments for me as i never fail to have a good time out with Owner. Here are some pictures from last Saturday

Out having drinks with Owner

On Sunday Owner took me to the cinema with Her to watch one of our favourite films, Wong Kar-Wai's In the mood for love that was being shown in a central London cinema. 

For Her part Owner is obviously free to come and go as She pleases and spend Her time however and with whomsoever She chooses. Owner is not a naturally social person but She does have a close circle of friends and colleagues whom She enjoys seeing. To me it is beautiful and appropriate that Owner goes out and has a good time whilst i stay at home awaiting Her call to come and meet Her at the station, or the airport if She has gone abroad. 

Owners freedom and independence, and Her ability to do whatever She wishes, is important to us both just as is the absence of such freedoms and independence for me. Whilst i really miss Owner when She is not here i am also happy and content getting on with my chores and tasks in the knowledge that She is out having a good time somewhere and making sure She has a clean and tidy home to come back to.

Most of the time Owner simply leaves me to get on with things. She likes me to be proactive and to think of things that can be done in Her absence. There are, however, occasions when She will leave me with instructions. When She does that my little submissive heart really does sing with joy. They can be the dullest, most boring etc tasks but being given them to do when She is out or away enjoying Herself really does make me happy. i still fondly recall the time i was left to work hard, redecorating the whole flat, whilst She went to Rome for a long weekend with Her friend.

Whilst there may be less occasions when i get to leave the house these days i do still get out a lot it just means that those occasions when i am allowed out with Owner are all the more enjoyable and special. i also get the immense pleasure and satisfaction that comes from staying in whilst Owner goes out and enjoys Herself whilst i get on with my chores. It is a win-win arrangement for us both and one i would never wish to change.

Greeting Ritual, Clamps and Gags

First thing every morning, come rain or shine, Owner likes to go for a walk in our local park. She likes to do this on Her own, it is Her moment to mentally set Herself for the day ahead. We now have an established little ritual for how i greet Her on Her return. i kneel at the top of the stairs that lead into our flat and give Her a little wave greeting as She comes in then prostrate myself and kiss each of Her feet.

Both of us feel it is an appropriate way for me, as Owners submissive, to greet Her as my Owner. Sometimes in response Owner will lean forward to give me a kiss, other times She just rubs me on my head, as one would when greeting an eager pet. Which i guess is what i am. 

The video below was taken first thing this morning, shortly after 7am, with me still in my nightdress and gown greeting Owner on Her return from Her morning walk.

Whilst Owner comes and goes as She pleases and sees whomsoever She wishes my own place is at home, so far as is practical. i can accompany Owner outside when She so desires and i obviously have to leave the flat for work on occasion (too often for Owners liking and something i am going to try and cut back on next year). i may also go out to run errands for Her e.g. do some shopping, collect Her prescriptions etc. It is expected that i first seek Her permission if i want to visit family etc.

Another time when i am allowed outside unaccompanied by Her that does not involve getting things for Her or doing the shopping is when i am sent out to complete an outdoor challenge or a task. Tuesday this week was one such occasion. Owner instructed that i was to complete a full circuit of our local park whilst wearing weighted nipple clamps. i did it after work and, as you can see, i 'adapted' an old bra so that i could wear just that under my coat but with my nipples poking through holes i had cut in the bra to make it easier to clamp my tits. The clamps in question were the metal clover clamps with serrated 'teeth'. That and the weights that hung suspended from them, stretching my nipples, left that quite lovely and sore. Here you can see the clamps in situ on my return from my walk

And this is me in the park

The week has also, as all weeks do, involved the completion of my chores after work. i had a treat on Monday though when i was told to clean the bathroom whilst gagged and also inhaling the scent of Owners used knickers, which were position with the crotch pressed against my nose. Inhaling Her delicious aroma certainly made cleaning the toilet, sink, shower etc a richly rewarding experience.