A Productive, Cultural and Enjoyable Few Days

The past few days have seen all the many facets of Owner and my FLR relationship on display. On Thursday after work my usual cleaning chores were made just that little bit more interesting by being required to complete them whilst not just gagged but also wearing a pair of Owners' used knickers over my head. This meant i got the treat of inhaling Owner's wonderful scent whilst i dusted.

If that was not exciting enough the following morning Owner woke me by playing with and teasing my unlocked clit and my all too easily aroused nipples before then allowing me to pull down Her panties and feast on Her delicious anus with my tongue. 

Later, after returning from Her early morning walk Owner chose to spank my 'labia plums' between my legs rather than my buttocks as is Her normal custom whilst i bent down and kissed and licked Her shoes in greetings. Which left me even more painfully aroused.

Kissing Owners feet in greeting upon Her return home

What a glorious way to start a day.

On Saturday, after completing my studies and morning chores and exercises i was invited to accompany Owner on a trip to the British Museum to visit the Ancient Greek and Roman galleries. There were some fascinating, if stolen, artifacts including this wonderful wall relief of female Amazonian fighters in combat (part of a much bigger section)

And this rather wonderful flying cock, complete with bells

Having had our fill of culture we then retired to the Princess Louise pub in Holborn. The pub has a wonderfully ornate interior complete with wooden cubicles. Owner and i enjoyed a few drinks inside

me with my pint of cider

This morning i again did my studies and exercises. Owner also decided that She would go through all my clothing to identify items that She deemed it no longer necessary for me to have and which were all thrown away/recycled. i am grateful to Owner for taking the time to do this and i also know how lucky i am that She also purchased a couple of new blouses and a pair of jeans for me. i am not allowed to purchase any clothes myself or decide whether or not i get to keep the clothes Owner purchases for me.

i have also finally finished the first full length draft of my first novel. It is a sci-fi, Femdom epic that pits the forces of orgasm denial against an Alpha menace who believe in orgasms for all. Believe it or not, i have been writing it on and off since 2020! It currently clocks in at over 220 pages long and does need quite a bit of editing before it gets published but at least the story is finally finished. Watch this space. i hope to get it finally finished in the next few months - famous last words!

Oh and you may also have noticed a new feature has appeared on the blog in the form of a 'buy me coffee' or more accurately 'buy Owner coffee' feature. It is there if anyone should wish to make a contribution/donation to Owner (any monies donated go direct to Her) to support Her continued training and development of me. i hope it is not too intrusive an addition to the blog.

Finally, Owner has also advised that She will be spanking and electrocuting me this evening, for which i am grateful to Her.

 In the immortal words of Bugs Bunny, 'That's all folks' for now at least.

UPDATE (17.55) - my bottom paddled with the rubber paddle

Corseted, Caged and Clamped

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Keeping Busy Whilst Owner Is Away

Owner has been in Spain all of this past week (i fly out to join Her tomorrow) and i have been determined to show Her that i can be a good, hard-working housewife in Her absence. Ok, i confess, i also actually quite enjoy housework it is just i also have a slightly lazy streak that we are working hard to eradicate.

Anyway, back to this week. Before Owner left i sent Her a list of all the household cleaning and other tasks that i would try to do whilst She was away. These on top of my usual daily chores and cleaning routines and my work. It was actually quite a busy week for me work-wise. This was what i said i would do in Owners absence:

• Empty out and clean all cupboards and wardrobes in the kitchen, spare bedroom, bathroom and lounge
• Wipe down all walls
• Touch-up paintwork as needed and fill-in any cracks and paint over
• Clean all windows inside and out and wash and clean the windowsills
• Move all furniture/beds and clean underneath/behind
• Hoover and dust in the loft
• Clean the communal hallway, front door and outside porch area
• Tidy-up the garden
• Polish/de-stain all of Owners jewellery

To this list i also added:

• Clean oven, washing machine and fridge
• Wipe down all skirting boards 
• Wipe clean net curtain poles

It is now Saturday lunchtime and i have managed to get through everything above with the exception of touching up the paintwork and filling in of hairline cracks which won't take me long as will get done next and then tidying our little garden/front yard. That will be the last thing i get done.

Crikey! i am in danger of completing everything i set out to do, which begs the question, was there more i should/could have done? Working hard and keeping busy is, i know, good for me and Owner seems very pleased with how i have got on. In fact, She has been complaining about having to do things Herself in my absence whilst She is in Spain, things She would normally simply expect me to do for Her, and rightly so. i am looking forward to being reunited with Her in person not just because i love and have missed Her but also because i long to serve Her in person again.

Anyway, here are a couple of pictures of me in some of my cleaning attire, cleaning and posing

At the start of the week i also had some 'gentlemen visitors' in the form of a gas engineer servicing the boiler, a fitter measuring up for new blinds we are having installed and a technician/sales surveying and advising on a new boiler. Obviously i greeted them at the door and escorted them up the stairs in my regulation micro skirt, bra, blouse and stockings. Our staircase is steep and with me leading the way  everything is on full view.

i ended up talking to the surveyor/sales rep for a good thirty minutes as he got down all the details needed for to prepare a quote. It made me realise how far i have developed, what a slut i have become, in that i have completely normalised being on my own, talking to a man i do not know, flashing my panties as i bent over to move something out of the way or stretched to retrieve an item from a cupboard. This was what i was wearing;

i hope readers have had an equally productive week.

UPDATE - i did indeed get everything done

p.s. She may be out of the country but this post was, as always, first approved by Owner before publishing 

Friday Caning and Electrocution

Last night i was caned and then electrocuted by my wonderful Owner. It wasn't a punishment, just a weekly reminder that She is in charge. i was not a natural pain slut but Owner has come to enjoy beating me and, i confess, i have learnt to appreciate and even look forward to being beaten by Her. In fact, whisper it quietly but, the harder She hits me, the more it hurts, the more i crave being on the receiving end of Her loving authority.

i love and adore my Owner. i love to serve and submit to Her. She is the centre of my world. i also love being put to work by Her, love cleaning and cooking for Her. The more i serve and wait on Her the happier i am. Conversely, the more She expects and demands from me the better a person and the happier a submissive i become. i love to be put to work by Owner, love to be kept quiet by Her, love being locked up, love to be under Her watchful gaze at all times, told what to do, what not to do. Owner is not overbearing but the firmer and stricter She is with me the more in love and in awe of Her i am. She also expects me to be proactive and find new ways to please Her and make Her life as comfortable as possible. This is something i know needs improving on my part. If all this sounds like hard work, well it is but also it isn't. i appreciate and love to be kept busy for Her but we both also love time together, enjoy each others company and our adventures together. i adore Owners body and relish such opportunities as She permits for me to play a small role in providing Her with physical pleasure.

Owner experiences pleasure and joy in many different ways. One of those is through beating and electrocuting me. Owner has a fine collection of canes, floggers, paddles, crops and whips along with a range of different electrical implements. Of the latter Her favourite is the tazapper electric prod. It is easy to use and can reach the most sensitive parts of my anatomy. Its sparks and shocks are guaranteed to make me wince and jump. There is nothing quite as, well, shocking as having an electric shock delivered to the entrance of my pussy, my tits, my hanging labia/plums, all to the sound of Owners excited laughter. Sometimes She secures me, others times She pins me down and sometimes i am simply expected to keep myself open and available for shock after shock, something i really struggle to do without jumping about. 

Beating and zapping me has become a regular routine, one that serves to strengthen our bonds of dominance and submission.

Yesterday Owner had me kneel on the sofa and lift up my skirt before She used one of Her lighter canes on my buttocks and the backs of my thighs, switching from one side to the other to evenly distribute Her strokes before switching to the tazapper electro prod and zapping me between my open legs on my labia/plums multiple times, causing me to jump about after each shock. The caning hurt and being electrocuted 'down there' was not exactly a pleasant experience 'in the moment' but Owner enjoyed Herself greatly and i am most grateful to Her for beating and zapping me as She did. No sooner was the caning and zapping over than i was craving more. i too have come to 'enjoy' being hurt by Owner. i was left longing for Her to hurt me more. It was a memorable start to the weekend.

However, in many respects there was nothing special about last night. Owner administers these maintenance beatings once a week, normally on a Friday. It is something we both look forward to. They are routine, quite normal even, but each is special and memorable to me. The harder i am struck, the more it hurts, the more i crave it. Owner loves hurting me like this too. It reinforces our bond, Her dominance and my submission. 

Just as i am not a natural pain slut so too was Owner hesitant at first, concerned about hurting me. However, we have grown together and both of us love these weekly physical reminders of Her authority.

The rest of the week was quite busy work-wise for the two of us. i presented at events in Birmingham and Leeds on Tuesday and Wednesday, so was up and down the country on the trains like a yo-yo. Tuesday evening saw me being electrocuted again, this time on my buttocks and pussy. Not a punishment, just because Owner enjoys doing so. Then on Monday i had to complete my regular evening chores gagged whilst wearing and sniffing Owners used panties, here i was cleaning the bathroom

All the while i have remained locked up 24/7 in my new pretty pink chastity cage and have been going my chores etc.

Just another regular week for Owner and i. Well, almost. Today i am lucky enough to get to take Owner out for lunch, which promises to be a real treat. The downside is that a heatwave has descended on the UK, especially here in London, just in time for the bank holiday weekend. Owner is not a fan of the heat so i suspect much of the rest of the weekend will be spent inside with the blinds drawn trying to escape the hot weather. Still, this will ensure plenty of time for yours truly to be doing domestic chores and tasks and, if Owner tires of me She can simply lock me up in my cage/kennel whilst She relaxes in the company of the aircon.

A New Morning Routine

On weekdays Owner likes to go for a walk around our local park before She starts work, assuming of course that She is working from home. This gave me an idea.

Owner rightly expects that i keep Her home clean and tidy at all times. For this i have a daily cleaning routine that i maintain. Whilst the kitchen and bathroom floors get swept and mopped daily the floors of all the other rooms only get swept and mopped once a week. In this time hair and dust accumulates which i spot vacuum periodically.

However, Owner hates noise and disturbance. She likes peace and quiet and not being disturbed. This is one of the reasons that i always need Her permission before speaking to Her. Then yesterday a very obvious idea occurred to me. Why don't i use the time She is on Her morning walk more productively and use it to sweep all of the floors and the staircase. Doing this each weekday, when She is on Her walk, will help keep Her home clean whilst also avoiding disturbing Her.

After i had my idea i ran it past Owner to see if She approved. She shot back with a question, wasn't the time She was out when i practiced my Spanish? Actually, i have usually finished Spanish practice by then and, even if not, there ought to still be sufficient time to sweep all the floors before She returned.

At present i don't put the time when She is on Her walk is to productive use as i should, using it to go online. Cleaning would be much more productive. When done i could then await Her return in my greeting position. Kneeling naked ready to welcome Her home by kissing Her feet and handing Her my mobile for safe keeping and the remote control unit to the electro device secured around my clit (worn all day on Fridays).

To cut a long story short Owner approved my suggestion and so a constructive new routine has been added to my weekday schedule. This Friday was the first day this new routine was implemented. Owner showed Her happiness and approval by immediately electrocuting me. How i love Her! 

The picture below was taken as i waited naked for Owner to return from Her walk this morning. You can see the remote for the electro-shock device (secured around my clit) on the floor in front of me ready to hand to Owner when She returned home.

6.55am - waiting for Owner to return from Her walk after i finished sweeping the floors

i realise that i don't often post pictures of me cleaning, which is odd given that is what i spend a lot of my time doing. So anyway, this was me dusting after work earlier in the week.

Tripple Treats

Owner really treated me yesterday afternoon. After i made lunch, washed the dishes and finished cleaning out the fridge She gave me permission to order two new cleaning smocks to wear. My current ones are a little faded and no longer look smart. Owner also let me order a new mini-skirt, to replace the one i usually wear when working from home, as it too has gone to the great recycling scheme in the sky on account of it looking somewhat past its prime. i can't wait for my new smocks and skirt to arrive.

Owner also presented me with a lovely full, fresh glass of Her freshly decanted piss early yesterday afternoon which She handed to me to drink. On account of it having been poured slightly later in the day Her amber nectar was light and fresh, the colour of white wine but with a better taste, a real palate cleanser.

It was consumed with relish. i truly love drinking Owners urine, whether it be Her rich and full-bodied dark amber early morning servings or the lighter, crisper white wine coloured urine She dispenses later in the day. All are delicious. It is a drink i have come to crave.

She was not, however, done. More bodily treats were in store for me. With Her fresh piss drunk by Her eager slut Owner then instructed me to strip off and wait for Her naked in Her bed. After a few minutes She joined me under the sheets, the difference being She was fully clothed whilst i was naked.

Owner instructed me to lie on my side so that She could fondle me properly then went to work, groping, molesting and caressing me. She fondled, stroked, squeezed and mauled my breasts, my caged clit, my pussy whilst i groped me Owner also took the opportunity to rub Her crotch against my buttocks and my legs, using my body as a tool for Her pleasure. But it was not just Owner who was getting aroused, i was too. Especially when She then cupped my caged clit in Her hand, exposing the vulnerable twin lobes of my swollen labia which She then began to spank with Her free hand. 

She struck each softly at first before striking them harder and harder, causing me pain which swiftly morphed into excited arousal. Would Owner continue hitting me down there until She forced me beg to be allowed to orgasm? On the very rare occasions that She does make me cum, this is typically how Owner does it, by beating my exposed bits so hard that i quite literally howl in anguished pleasure as i beg to be allowed to orgasm. Thankfully, however, Owner also knows that orgasms are not good for me and so was careful not to hit me so much as to make me cum, just enough to ensure that i became highly aroused and animalistic. She also rightly expects the focus of such sexual encounters to be on Her, Her orgasm, Her pleasure and needs. 

Accordingly, stopped beating my swollen bits, removed her trousers and knickers, took Her vibrator from Her bedside cabinet and began to pleasure Herself with Her mechanical toy. As She did She rolled onto Her side, lifted Her knees to Her chest and instructed me to lick out Her arsehole.

My response was eager and immediate. i positioned myself behind Her in a reverse spoon position, She lifted Her leg so that my tongue had full access to Her anus, then gripped my head between Her thighs, locking me in place. Feeling horny as hell i spread Her cheeks apart with my hands then began to feverishly lick and lap Her backside, revelling in the scent and the taste of Her bottom as my tongue pushed deep inside into Her delicious butthole. 

As Her submissive slut wife and human sex toy Owner has long since denied me access to the holy shrine of Her pussy, and quite rightly so, She has no need of me there. That is a private shrine reserved for Her vibrators or anyone She might ever choose to invite, not me. My place, my task in helping Her climax, is worshiping and pleasuring Her butt with my tongue. It has become what She expects of me and i, in turn, have become obsessed by it. i love and adore it, crave the opportunity to smell and taste Her divine anus, lubricate it with my tongue, probe and devour it. i love feeling Her sphincter muscles quiver and contract as Her vibrator brings Her off in a manner that i cannot. 

In no time at all Owners hips began to rythmically rock back and forth, Her bottom bouncing against my straining tongue as it probed deeper inside Her whilst She clamped Her vibrator hard against Her clit. My own arousal increased, my clit throbbing in its cage as Owners backside grew wet with my saliva, smearing and smudging my makeup. She climaxed with my tongue deep inside Her arsehole as Her vibrator buzzed and pulsed millimeters from my nose, held fast against Her long forbidden (to me) sex.

Afterwards, as we lay in each others arms, i thanked Owner for allowing me the privilege and the treat of licking and tasting Her anus. i also thanked Her for having spanked my labia hard to ensure that i was left highly aroused but denied and frustrated whilst was sexually satisfied. It is how i love to be and feels right and appropriate for us both. She can take and receive pleasure whenever and however She chooses. My own goal, sole purpose and main pleasure in life is in ensuring Owner receives the pleasure She expects and deserves.

i am a very happy and contented, even though sexually frustrated, horny but denied, arse licker. i adore the smell and the taste of Owners anus and cannot think of a place i would rather be or a thing i would rather be doing in life than tonguing Her divine backside. It was a wonderful afternoon. A day of treats and delight. Just as i love drinking Owners piss i hope one day to also get to become Her full toilet slave, my tongue and mouth entrusted with ensuring Her backside is always spotlessly clean.

Owner has also changed what She expects from me during the current trial period She has placed me into. Rather than have me request each Saturday that She sit on my face She now wants me to ask Her how i might please Her as Her sextoy every Saturday? We both agree that this feels more appropriate and a truer recognition of my purpose to Her

The Trial Week 1 + A Broken Beehive and a Thank You

Well the first week of my month month long trial was successfully navigated without any slip-ups or failings (that i know of) on my part. i have ensured everything is spotlessly clean, have always used my lanyard to request permission first before talking to Owner, have greeted Her naked whilst prostrating myself and kissing Her feet when She has returned from Her early morning walks. i have also been organising some repairs to be done in the flat. [EDIT - Owner has just highlighted that there is limescale on the bathroom tap that has not been removed, i have entered into my punishment log]

Last night, at the end of the first full week of the trial, i did as i am now instructed to do every Friday during this period and asked Owner if She would electrocute me. She gladly obliged, but warned me that She was in a bad mood. Owner secured me to the bed before electrocuting my nipples, my clit, my butt cheeks and my 'pussy' as i flinched, bucked, twisted and squirmed. Owner's mood seemed to improve as a result of Her torturing me.

tied-up with a variety of electro-torture devices to hand

Meanwhile, i have stuck with my regular daily chores, prepared a variety of different meals during the week, kept up with my Spanish studies and provided Owner with daily head scratches and back massages on Her request. In short, i have been kept contentedly busy. Owner even gave me some tasks to complete during the day whilst i was working from home. The first of these tasks was requested on Monday when She pissed into a transparent water bottle and told me to take it to the park and then drink Her piss. This i did whilst sat in front of the park cafe - which seemed an appropriate location.

drinking Owners' piss in the park

It was delicious.

The next challenge came yesterday (Friday) when i was told to remain gagged between work meetings. It being a Friday i did not have that many calls so i wore the gag for extended periods. It was quite a challenge to avoid drooling spectacularly down my blouse whenever the gag was removed to join a Teams call with colleagues or clients.

gagged - also wearing my 'permission to speak' lanyard

working away

So, so far, so good. This weekend i need to get on with de-cluttering etc but hopefully i will continue to maintain my current, improved, performance for the duration of this trial period and Owner will deem me worthy of being yet more strictly controlled by Her.

Talking of strictly controlled. There is a blog i follow written by the wonderful sklave in stahl documenting his life as the 24/7 slave of his wife and mistress in their beautiful country home in Ireland (they are a German couple and the blog is written in German so, if like me you speak no German, you will need to translate each entry). Anyway, i find their lifestyle, although different in many respects to Owners and mine, to be inspiring. i have also struck up an occasional email exchange with him. Anyway, i have recently spoken of the current issues Owner has with Her frozen shoulder which is causing Her a lot of discomfort at times and restricting what She can do. Well the kind mistress of sklave in stahl generously permitted him to be briefly released from the metal chains he spends much of his time secured with in order for him to record two little instructional videos with some shoulder exercise suggestions for Owner. It was such a lovely gesture and Owner was very touched when She watched the videos that someone should go to such trouble and be so helpful. We were truly grateful.

There are a number of followers of this blog that i am in correspondence with and one thing always strikes me. All of them, without fail, are such wonderful, lovely people. Quite the antidote to some of the shit going on in the world right now. i feel blessed and lucky to have got to know them through this blog.

Anyway, back to the week that was. In less good news my new beehive chastity device broke quite dramatically at the start of the week - the cage split in three different places. Owner and i cannot think of anything we did that might have caused it to break and i can't believe my little clit is that powerful when excited to be able to break it when trying to get aroused. Unless, that is there was a flaw in the cage. Anyway, i am back in my old pink plastic nub device whilst we see if we can get the beehive replaced. 

That's about it for now. i will see later on if Owner might treat me again by sitting on my face and letting me worship Her divine backside. 

Permission to Speak?

So, it is still a few days away until the Trial period that Owner has set for me commences. This period being to see if i can demonstrate to Her that i am worthy of consideration of becoming more tightly controlled by Her. However, there is no time like the present. To get myself used to some of the new requirements and rules She has specified for me i am attempting to implement them all now.

Accordingly, i am spending more time checking that the shower tray in the bathroom is spotlessly clean and that the inside of the kitchen sink is wiped down and sparkly after i have done the washing up. i am also trying to implement Owner's new requirement that i do not disturb Her when She is listening to Her audio books and instead indicate to Her that i wish to speak and then wait until She indicates whether or not i am permitted to do so.

To that end Owner has made me a wonderful lanyard that i now wear around my neck all the time at home to be used to seek permission to speak to Owner. It has a super cute image of a manga style schoolgirl character raising her arm as if seeking permission to speak in class. Owner designed it Herself (with the help of AI). This image is what i must show to Owner whenever i wish to talk to Her and She is otherwise occupied. The challenge is that Owner uses small wireless ear buds which are completely concealed under Her hair when She is listening to Her audio books so i actually cannot tell if She is listening to Her book or not. i have concluded that it is best to assume that She might always be listening and simply to use the lanyard at all times and raise it to Her if i wish to speak with Her. Having my ability to communicate with Her restricted like this is a wonderful new form of control.  The lanyard is also super kawaii, i simply adore it.

permission to speak lanyard close-up

in my housework smock with my permission to speak lanyard

Another change that i have implemented 'early' is that now when i greet Owner when She returns from Her early morning walk, by kneeling and kissing Her feet, rather than do so wearing my dressing gown i now do so naked. Again, this is a new rule Owner has introduced for me.

Greeting Owner on Her return from Her walk

In position, naked and waiting to prostrate myself before Owner

Of course, what will really prove to Her whether i am capable of submitting even more deeply to Her and being controlled more rigidly by Her (as we both desire) will be my ability to keep Her home as spotlessly clean and organised as She desires. i also need to arrange for the last of the home improvements to be done, de-clutter the flat from top to bottom and throw out some of my clothes (which will be hard to do). This whilst keeping up with my daily and other chores, ensuring i cook healthy, pleasing meals, that i don't over order and check no expired foodstuffs are ever in the house. Oh, and  i need to ask to be electrocuted by Owner once a week. i don't really like being electrocuted but i also know i must learn to endure it. In return for this She might grant me the wonderful privilege of sitting on my face. What utter bliss!

i really do hope that i pass my February trial and that Owner grants me the honour and privilege of taking my daily submission to Her and Her control of me to the next level. It truly is what i desire above all else in life.

Meanwhile, Owner also set me some other tasks to do this week, part of the random series of tasks She assigns to me on a weekly basis which are decided through the drawing of cards. This time i was instructed to a) wear my butt plug for the duration of an online work meeting and then b) perform 50 Russian twists whilst 20 mini-pegs were clamped to my 'labia'. Here's how i got on:

It is now also well into my second week of being locked 24/7 into my new beehive mini chastity device. Things continue to go very well and Owner and i are both delighted with my new cage. This is me having my first weekly supervised shower, an opportunity to shave then clean my clit. The latter is done with a nail brush to ensure no accidental arousal during the cleaning process. i made sure that i scrubbed my bits thoroughly. Owner took the picture whilst overseeing the process from Her perch on the toilet seat.

supervised shower whilst i scrub my clit clean before returning to chastity

In other news Owner requested that i organise a pyjama party for the two of us. My plan for this is currently coming together. There will be snacks, party games, a movie, a nail salon,  drinks for Owner and perhaps for me if i am allowed and, most importantly, matching nightwear. i asked Owner if She could select a matching pyjama set we could each wear. This She did and the outfits were ordered and arrived just a few days later. They are great, each set fits and i can't wait to wear them with Her when we have the party.

That's all for now.

Greeting Ritual, Clamps and Gags

First thing every morning, come rain or shine, Owner likes to go for a walk in our local park. She likes to do this on Her own, it is Her moment to mentally set Herself for the day ahead. We now have an established little ritual for how i greet Her on Her return. i kneel at the top of the stairs that lead into our flat and give Her a little wave greeting as She comes in then prostrate myself and kiss each of Her feet.

Both of us feel it is an appropriate way for me, as Owners submissive, to greet Her as my Owner. Sometimes in response Owner will lean forward to give me a kiss, other times She just rubs me on my head, as one would when greeting an eager pet. Which i guess is what i am. 

The video below was taken first thing this morning, shortly after 7am, with me still in my nightdress and gown greeting Owner on Her return from Her morning walk.

Whilst Owner comes and goes as She pleases and sees whomsoever She wishes my own place is at home, so far as is practical. i can accompany Owner outside when She so desires and i obviously have to leave the flat for work on occasion (too often for Owners liking and something i am going to try and cut back on next year). i may also go out to run errands for Her e.g. do some shopping, collect Her prescriptions etc. It is expected that i first seek Her permission if i want to visit family etc.

Another time when i am allowed outside unaccompanied by Her that does not involve getting things for Her or doing the shopping is when i am sent out to complete an outdoor challenge or a task. Tuesday this week was one such occasion. Owner instructed that i was to complete a full circuit of our local park whilst wearing weighted nipple clamps. i did it after work and, as you can see, i 'adapted' an old bra so that i could wear just that under my coat but with my nipples poking through holes i had cut in the bra to make it easier to clamp my tits. The clamps in question were the metal clover clamps with serrated 'teeth'. That and the weights that hung suspended from them, stretching my nipples, left that quite lovely and sore. Here you can see the clamps in situ on my return from my walk

And this is me in the park

The week has also, as all weeks do, involved the completion of my chores after work. i had a treat on Monday though when i was told to clean the bathroom whilst gagged and also inhaling the scent of Owners used knickers, which were position with the crotch pressed against my nose. Inhaling Her delicious aroma certainly made cleaning the toilet, sink, shower etc a richly rewarding experience.

Cooking and Cleaning

i am, by nature, quite service-orientated. i derive great pleasure from cooking and cleaning for Owner and it is something that She, in turn, has come to expect of me. They are an integral part of my daily routine , too feed Her and keep Her home tidy and clean. Neither is something i would ever regard as a chore. Each are things i love to do. The challenge is to do them to a standard that meets with Owners expectations of me, Her submissive wife.

A typical day will see me cleaning both morning and night, before and after work. i am also responsible for preparing and clearing away all meals. Owner will, if She is working from home and sees that i have a day full of calls and meetings and She does not, prepare a lunch for me. She is also an excellent cook but Her expectation is that, unless She decides otherwise, it is my role to feed Her and provide Her with drinks whenever She wants.

Cooking and cleaning are things that i have done since childhood. i would enjoy occasionally helping my mum out in the kitchen and doing basic cooking classes at school. i was also brought up to be responsible for keeping my bedroom clean and my sister and i were always the ones who tidied-up after dinner and did the washing and drying. We would often sing together as we worked, our teenage selves working through the entirety of Queen's Bohemian Rhapsody as dishes were rinsed and dried.

My first part-time jobs were linked to cleaning and food preparation. Aged 15 i took a Saturday job at a local bakery which involved getting up at 3am and cycling to the shop to help the bakers finish off baking that days bread. Later i graduated to the shop itself, preparing and serving sandwiches to customers. i also worked part-time as a cleaner at my local hospital whilst i was at college and, for one memorable summer, worked nights at Gatwick Airport cleaning the interiors of the planes.

i guess you could say, therefore, that i grew-up cleaning and cooking. However, i was never that proficient. My ward and my planes were just about OK and my sandwiches basic but filling. Leaving home at 18 i then assumed full responsibility for feeding myself and keeping my place clean throughout University but neither was ever a big priority. Food always competed with cigarettes and alcohol as to which was more important to spend money on and cleaning...well, let's just say i doubt my rooms were ever spotless.

Fast forward fifteen or so years and one failed marriage and i met Owner. We had our own places but soon i found myself asking Her to do me the honour of moving in with me and letting me submit to Her. i think it fair to say She was quite shocked by my standards, or lack of, when it came to the food i prepared and the state of the flat i had. Owner set about changing things.

She insisted i learn new recipes (at that stage i still panicked at the thought of preparing anything without a recipe to follow to the letter) and start a recipe database. i still have this. It was an excel spreadsheet that was searchable by ingredients etc and which ran to well over one thousand lines. Owner would give me honest feedback on the food i prepared and gradually my abilities and confidence in the kitchen grew. i started to bake and make soups as well as regular meals.

At the same time i was set the task of having a regular cleaning routine. To begin with i would often forget, and be rightly chastised for doing so, until finally we hit on the solution. This was to start and follow a routine which saw each day of the week allocated to specific cleaning tasks. Monday for the bathroom or Friday the kitchen for example. Owner created a rota that was stuck to the fridge which i then had to mark when each task was completed that week.

Eventually, even my dumb brain got the pattern and now no rota is required. i know exactly what to do each day. Other cleaning tasks were then added which repeat everyday. For example, cleaning the bathroom toilet, sink and surfaces and the bathroom floor every morning and sweeping and mopping the kitchen floor every night after doing the washing up.

Unless i am not well i am good at completing my tasks and keeping Owner fed and nourished. To me it plays to the service side of my submissiveness and is also a way of demonstrating my love for Owner by making nice meals for Her and keeping Her home the way that She likes it. Now we have also bought a flat in Spain the expectation of me is that i will also be the one responsible for keeping that clean and feeding Owner whilst we are there too.

However, there is still much i need to do to improve if i am to truly become the wife that Owner wants and deserves. Whilst every room and surface of the flat always looks superficially clean, behind that impression lies a very different story. Yesterday i was shamed and embarrassed by the sight of Owner emptying out and cleaning the cupboard that houses the boiler in the kitchen. It is a space i had left untouched, just like the backs of cupboards or the cutlery draws for example. i also know that, when i am putting away Owners clothes after washing, drying and, if necessary, ironing them i do not tidy Her drawers or ensure the inside of Her wardrobe is neat and dust free. i fail to dust each of the glasses in the drinks cabinet nor do i take out all of the books and CDs from their cupboards and shelves before wiping the surface clean and replacing them. i do not empty out the cabinets in the bathroom, wipe them clean and then replace all the items back in their place. i do not empty all the food cupboards, clean and then replace. i do regularly clean the inside of the fridge and the oven but these other things i have not been doing. This, i know, is not good enough as yesterday's experience brought home to my shame and embarrassment. In short, from now on i know i must also undertake regular deep cleans as well if i am to keep Owners place as She rightly expects it.

The same is true with cooking and food. We both work full-time. Once i clock off i know i also have other household tasks and chores to complete. As a result the meals i prepare are often hastily assembled, often not that inspiring or are repeats of meals i know are easy to do. Owner deserves better. i want to start to batch-cook some foods so that there are a variety of meals available to serve to Her. There are also still times when Owner has to prompt and remind me that Her glass is empty or Her coffee has been drunk and is in need of a re-fill. She will then have to prompt or remind me to fetch Her another drink. It should, instead, be me that is checking, asking if She desires a re-fill, anticipating Her needs rather than reacting to Her requests. i must also start to block time out of my work day so that Owner does not ever feel obligated to have to prepare lunch when She is working from home because i have failed to make time to prepare it myself.

So, when it comes to food and drinks there is still a lot i need to do to further try to improve.

One of the things both Owner and i recognise is that, as much as i have improved over the years, there is still much more that i could and should be doing. My submission and service to Her is a lifelong commitment and one that requires me to constantly strive to improve and become better than i previously was. i doubt i will ever become the perfect wife for Her but each year i try and be better than i was before and as i try harder so too do i get even more pleasure and satisfaction from serving and looking after Her.

Owner is the love of my life, the centre of my world. Cooking and cleaning for Her and looking after and caring for Her in every other way i can think of brings me great joy and satisfaction. It is something i hope to keep doing until the day i die.

Normality Returns and Happy International Male Chastity Day

i am happy to report that i am officially no longer ill and have been given the all clear by Owner to fully return to normal duties and service - yay! i was really starting to feel out of sorts not doing my usual chores and routines. It is good to be back.

This morning, after getting up and attaching the electro shock device to my caged clittie i prepared and then cleared away breakfast. After this i did some of my Spanish studies and my morning exercises. Exercises completed i showered and changed and then got on with my household chores, sweeping and mopping all of the floors, putting out the rubbish, cleaning the bathroom and hanging some new net curtains that Owner had bought for the bedroom.

Owner treated me by preparing lunch for us Herself and even gifted me a delicious warm glass of Her wonderful piss to drink. It was actually my first glass of Her urine this year and it tasted wonderful. With me being better Owner was also able to resume Her maintenance punishments. This time i received one hundred strikes from Her twisted cane on my sensitive labia/plums. Owner had to physically pin my legs down and apart to stop me from writhing around on the bed as after each blow.

Owner has allowed me to join an organisation called the Matriarchy Times to help me further my education and development. The group advocates for the establishment of a progressive. modern matriarchy and a female-led society, values i strongly believe in. They are running a one hour webinar this afternoon about a new book called the Pillars of Gynarchy by Viola Voltairine which i shall be attending to help further my own knowledge.

Here are some pics from my day so far;

hanging new net curtains

mopping the floor

a glass of Owner's piss

freshly caned labia/plums

According to my sources (the internet) the 14th January today is also international male chastity day. So for those of you who, like me kept in chastity then Happy international male chastity day.

The picture below was taken first thing this morning. The black band that is also visible behind the base ring of my chastity cage is the strap of the electro-schock device that is held securely against my labia/plums at all times when i am home (which is most of the time) apart from when i am in bed, allowing Owner to 'get my attention' whenever She wishes.

It is great to be feeling better and be back to normal.