21 Years

The 21st anniversary cake Owner got for us

Tomorrow, Sunday the 31st May, will be the 21st anniversary of when Owner and i first met in person. Wowsers! How time flies when you are in love and having fun.

Twenty-one years ago Owner and i met in person for the first time. We had been chatting on line for a few months but it was on the 31st May 2005, at Bond Street tube station, that we met for the first time. What a momentous moment that turns out to have been.

When we met i was immediately struck by Owners large and mesmerising eyes, Her gorgeous smile, long, luxurious hair and massive flared jeans! We went for lunch together to an Italian restaurant (which we occasionally still return to for anniversary meals) and became fast friends. After that we spoke and messaged daily and would meet up almost every weekend for drinks and a movie. However, we were 'just friends'. i am actually quite shy and was scared of letting Owner know that i fancied Her lest She did not feel the same way about me. However, She did and She quickly tired of waiting for me. A few months later, on the 6th October to be precise Owner made Her move. She snogged me passionately on the concourse of Charing Cross station as She was getting the train back to Her flat in South London and i was preparing to head back to my place in North London. Finally, i knew that yes, She did like me. We started 'dating'.

The vanilla stage of our relationship was quite short-lived. i wrote a letter to Owner (i often find it easier to write things down) inviting Her to move in with me but also asking Her if She might permit me to submit to Her. So began our first tentative steps into our Female-led relationship, a relationship that continues to evolve, strengthen and deepen with each passing year.

In those 21 years we have gone on amazing adventures together, bought a flat in London and one in Owners home town in Northern Spain. We have cared for each other during periods of ill health and we have laughed, joked and loved and had tremendous fun together. We married in Las Vegas (under the iconic sign) - Her in a trouser suit me in a pink dress and heels - in 2018 and plan to renew our vows in Canada in 2028. All the while Owners' control over me has deepened as She has trained and shaped me to become Her submissive, housewife, maid and slut and Her own human sex toy. 

Owner has trained me well, continues to do so, this despite me not being the best of students! Our goal is for me to one day eventually be sufficiently proficient as to be acceptable to Her as Her slave. i am currently a long way from being good enough to be considered worthy of that. However, we agree that my service and subservience to Her does keep improving, albeit slowly. 

Sadly, Owner flies to Spain tomorrow (the day of our actual 21st anniversary - hence celebrating early) leaving me at home in Her flat in London. i will miss Her terribly. The good news is that i will fly out to join Her the following weekend. Her being away will not mean that i can put my feet up and relax, quite the opposite in fact, which is as it should be. i have a long list of things i have promised to do whilst i am home alone; from hoovering and dusting the loft, to washing all the walls, emptying out and cleaning all cupboards and drawers, polishing all Her jewellery and cleaning the communal hallway and garden area. These on top of my usual chores and my work. It will be a good learning and training opportunity for me as i strive to further progress and elevate my level of service to Owner. 

Of course, having two video surveillance cameras installed means that Owner will also be able to keep an eye on me as i busy myself with my tasks. As well as ensuring that i am completing my domestic tasks and chores as Her good and obedient maid Owner has also said that She may also use the cameras for another purpose. Namely to have me showcase what a slut i have become by getting me to 'perform' like a pornstar for Her in front of Her surveillance cameras whilst She watches.

Earlier this week Owner used one of Her surveillance cameras to capture this shot of me chained, gagged and locked up in my dog kennel/cage in the kitchen with my pussy penetrated by Her cock, which itself was attached to the new fucking machine.

It was quite something to be locked up on all fours like that, heavy weights and a cast iron cow bell suspended from and stretching my tits, my gagged mouth drooling into a small plastic bucket whilst my hot, hungry pussy loosened and contracted against Owners cock. The cock was stationary, the machine switched off, that was until Owner came through and switched it on and then stood and watched silently as it began to metronome fuck Her gagged and restrained slut. Moans escaped from my lips as Owners cock thrust in and out, in and out of my hole. The machine sped up, my clit stirred in its chastity cage and then Owner switched the fucking machine off leaving me horny and frustrated, my fuck hole stretched open and wet.

i hope i might get another opportunity to show Owner what a slut i am on camera whist She is away.

Today Owner also prepared me for Her forthcoming absence by whipping me then electrocuting my clit multiple times. 

7-tail whip handle and controller to the electro shock clit device

Afterwards She oversaw a supervised shower by unlocking my chastity device and watching whilst i scrubbed my temporarily released clit clean with soap and a nail brush, shaved it smooth, scrubbed my chastity device clean before Owner then locked me back into my device. It will stay locked until after i arrive in Spain in a week's time when Owner will again briefly unlock me for another supervised shower.

i love and adore my Owner. i love my life with Her. i am the luckiest person alive and cannot wait to see what the next 21 years have in store. Will i have become Her slave by then? i hope so

Machine Fucked in the Heat

Things are definitely hotting up and i don't just mean the heatwave that has descended on London this bank holiday weekend! Next Sunday marks 21 years since Owner and i first met in the flesh (at Bond Street tube station). We always celebrate our 'Bond Street anniversary' - we regularly go back to the restaurant we had lunch in that momentous day. However, this year Owner will be flying out to Spain on the day of our anniversary (i will be joining Her a week later) - so we have started to celebrate a little early. This has included the early exchange of some gifts, the bulk will be exchanged next weekend.

Owner totally surprised me with Her gift for me. She bought a fuck machine to fuck me with when i am caged or to have me create live content for Her that She can watch via one of the household surveillance cameras, with me as Her personal porn performer. It made my gift to Her seem very boring indeed! i had got Her a ring, although She will be getting more gifts from me later in the week.

Anyway, back to the fuck machine! Owner announced that She wanted to give it a thorough test today, bank holiday Monday. Understandably my excitement mounted and it wasn't just the heat that was causing me restless sleep! i could not wait to be fucked by the machine and have the opportunity of showing Owner what an accommodating and greedy slut i am. However, i also did not want to have any unfortunate accidents.

Well the machine and my pussy were both put through their paces and Owner was delighted by Her new purchase, as obviously was i.

The first location the machine was set up in was in front of the lounge surveillance camera. Initially one of the supplied dildos was used. This was then swapped out for Owners' substantially bigger 'cock', the one that She fucks me with using Her harness. Both 'tests' were a success

 

Owners wonderful 'cock' attached to the fuck machine

Next, we moved to the kitchen for Owner to test my being fucked whilst caged in my kennel/cage. Once again this proved a great success with Owner able to have the machine fuck me whilst i am locked and secured in place in the confines of my cage/kennel

This set up means that Owner can observe me being fucked, whilst i am locked up in my kennel/cage, via the surveillance camera whilst She goes about Her business

 My fuck holes' view of fuck machine with surveillance camera behind

The machine was such an amazing and unexpected gift to receive. i can't wait to be able to show Owner what a cock hungry slut i am. It will also be amazing for deep throat training.

This morning i also received another wonderful gift from my Goddess in the form of a fresh glass of Her piss. It was incredibly delicious. i know i can sometimes bang on about how much i love drinking Owners pee and how lucky i am to be served it by Her, but honestly, there is no better drink. i would love to be able to drink it all day.

Downing a glass of Owners' fresh piss this morning

Despite the heat, which Owner hates, we did manage to still go out this long weekend. On Saturday i took Owner to lunch at the Darwin Brasserie in the 'walkie-talkie' building with its amazing views over London. However, no view could compete with the view of Owner who looked simply stunning, She is so beautiful

As for me, this was my 'look' for the occasion;

We didn't stay out for long on Saturday though. No sooner was lunch finished than we headed home to escape the heat. 

On Sunday we went out for drinks together later in the afternoon and had a fun time gossiping and people watching before we returned back home. Here we are on the way back from the bar - just an FLR couple still deeply in love and having fun together after almost 21 years.

Time Flies

i can't believe that a week has already passed since i was getting ready to take to the stage, how time flies!

The past week has been quite a busy one for both Owner and i work-wise. Despite that i am pleased to report that i have kept up to date with my chores and routines. Owner has also kept a close eye on me, be that whether She was out on Her early morning walks and checking on me sweeping the floors whilst She was out:

Or keeping watch of me whilst i was safely secured in my cage whilst She relaxed in the lounge on Thursday evening

She has also kept me in check by electrocuting my tits and softening them up with Her riding crop

i have received treats from Owner as well, including this wonderful glass of fresh piss that i greedily downed in one this morning

 

For Whom The Bell Tolls

Tomorrow is the day. At Owner's instruction i will once again be taking to the stage in front of a room full of total strangers at an anime convention. This time i will be dressed as a manga schoolgirl character called Marin Kitagawa from the series My Dress Up Darling.

i am both very nervous and very excited at the prospect of taking to the stage and doing a little dance in my little school skirt and blouse, panties, bra, wig and make-up. i will also be locked in chastity. i don't imagine there will be any other 56 year old alongside me in the line-up backstage waiting for their moment under the stage lights!

For Owner it is an opportunity to put Her slut wife on public display and test my willingness to do as i am told. 

Meanwhile, last night Owner sent me to my cage in the kitchen after dinner and after having completed my chores. As usual my wrists and ankles were cuffed and chained, my mouth was gagged with a horsebit gag, an iron cowbell hung from my thick leather collar whilst another, and some heavy weights, hung suspended from my tit piercings -stretching them.

Owner hates noise and so i am expected to remain as motionless as possible, the cowbells providing an instant alert for any movement. That is what i did. Kneeling motionless on all fours, drooling into a small bucket in front of me from my gag and feeling the weights and iron cowbell distend my nipples as they hung suspended from S hooks hanging from my nipple piercings.

i remained like that, in the darkness, as gradually, slowly my hands and my legs went to sleep. i tried to ignore the pins and needles, tried to stay still. i focused instead on the pain in my breasts, embrace it as a distraction from my mounting discomfort. But eventually, that too no longer worked. The pain became too intense. i tried instead to ignore it, to clear my mind, blank everything my body is telling me out, fighting to remain still. 

From the far end of the flat i could hear the muffled sounds of Owner talking on the phone to Her family. Catching up, exchanging news and gossip whilst Her wife, their son-in-law, was locked, gagged and chained inside its dog kennel.

Suddenly, and from out of nowhere, a carnival of lust exploded into my brain. My mind filled with an intense and all-consuming craving for my Owners fingers and hands inside my hot hole, Her cock pushing into my orifices, Her scent, Her taste and touch. My pussy excitedly winked open and shut in the darkness, more drool pooled in the bucket in front of me. Then just as suddenly as it arrived the carnival moved on. i am left with just my discomfort and pain and my frustrated arousal.

i tried to stay still, be good but eventually i had to move. Slowly, very slowly and cautiously so as not to set off the cowbells, i micro adjusted my legs and my hands to bring back some circulation. i then settled again and so the cycle repeated. Discomfort, pain, numbness, desire, arousal. It was, and is, the most delicious torment.

At one point i realised i could no longer hear the soft murmur of Owners voice. The flat was silent. i knew She must be stretched out on the sofa, relaxing and listening to Her audio book.  The thought of Her at repose on the sofa made me smile. Meanwhile, the discomfort, the pain, the frsutrated arousal and desire continued.

Part-way into my evening lock-up Owner checked in on me via the surveillance camera app on Her phone. Her voice came through the surveillance camera, loud and clear. i am unable to speak when gagged so wiggled my bottom in response. The below clip is me wiggling my bottom in the gloom of the kitchen dog crate upon hearing Her instruction. If you turn up the volume you can hear the melodic sounds of my cowbells and metal weights clanging and swinging like church bells with the movement of my body.

The movement of my body eased the numbness in my limbs but the weighted pendulum hanging from my tits, swung hard left and right, left and right, pulling and stretching them painfully as i gleefully acknowledged Owner's voice over the surveillance camera. 

Then, after a period, i realised that Owner had lost interest, returned to whatever it was She was doing. i settled back and returned to waiting motionless in the darkness. 

Wish me luck for tomorrow!

A Very Special Evening

A bit of a landmark moment has occurred in Owner and my relationship, something we have talked about and discussed and planned to make a reality, only for those plans to subsequently fall through due to external factors. Not anymore. Not tonight. The mutual ambition has now been made real, creating a very special moment for Her and i and marking a further deepening of my submission to Her and Her control over me.

What, you ask, was this really special moment?

Well, Owner went out for a meal straight after work with colleagues of Hers, leaving me at home. That is something quite normal. Whenever Owner meets Her friends or goes out with colleagues i remain at home doing my chores etc.  At home is, after all, where i belong.

What made tonight so special was that whilst Owner was enjoying Her meal i was locked up, chained and gagged in the dark in my cage at home in Owner's kitchen watched over by the surveillance camera, enabling Owner to observe Her submissive wife on Her mobile phone from the comfort of the restaurant. It was a truly magical and special evening. 

To be secured in my place, caged and naked save my stockings, drool leaking from the horsebit gag in my mouth, wrists and ankles chained and secured, cowbells hanging from a thick leather collar and suspended from my tits so that any movement by me would ring out loud, weights hanging from my tit piercings and to remain like that knowing that Owner could be watching me at any time via the surveillance camera whilst She dined. Wow. That really was special.

i know that there will be readers that will wonder why on earth i might want to do that? Why Owner might wish me to do that? but i also know that there are others out there, reading this who will understand exactly why this was such a special shared moment between Owner and i. An opportunity for me to physically demonstrate my submission and willingness to be controlled by, and to suffer for, Her even though She Herself was not here but was out having a lovely evening.

After about 40 minutes spent motionless on all fours, chained with the weights and iron cowbell silently tugging on my tits and the other cowbell hanging suspended from my collar Owners voice suddenly filled the room.

'Hello pet' She said, followed by 'what a lovely bottom'

Me inside my cage as seen by Owner - unfortunately the mesh entrance flap had come down without me realising it which is why my bottom appears lost in the gloom

She was watching and speaking to me through the surveillance camera that, at that moment, was trained on my posterior as i knelt in the cage. i immediately began to wiggle my bottom in excited acknowledgement (the bit gag made it impossible for me to speak). My chains and bells clanged and rattled and the weights swung haphazardly, pulling hard on my tits. It was a wonderful moment knowing that my amazing Owner was watching over and speaking to me, Her chained wife from afar. Then it was over. Silence returned.

After seventy-five minutes had elapsed, as per Owners instructions to me, i unlocked myself and exited my cage. The time i spent locked was thrilling, arousing, exciting as well as tedious, uncomfortable and painful. In short, it was wonderful and i am so grateful to my wonderful Owner for having Her wife remain locked up like that whilst She dined and enjoyed Herself and the company of Her friends.

i would love for Owners dining companions to also know that the woman that they were dining with has a submissive wife who was, at that very same moment, locked up at home in the darkness whilst She was out enjoying their company. Owner is, however, a very private person (unlike me) and so they will have remained blissfully unaware what She will have been occasionally glancing at on Her phone.

Later that evening Owner messaged me to say She was heading home so i walked down to the railway station to meet Her when Her train arrived, took Her bag and escorted Owner back to Her home.

It was a wonderful and blissful evening. i appreciated the opportunity to clear my mind, be still and focus solely on thinking about Owner and how lucky i am to be able to serve and submit to such an amazing woman.

Having now been kept caged whilst Owner has met with friends my fervent wish is that She might consider making this the new normal for me and leave me caged every time She is out relaxing and having fun.  

Chastity Status, Bus Stop Challenge & Other Fun

This morning the chastity and outdoor challenge dice were rolled again. The chastity dice determined that i am to remain locked 24/7 until the 16th December, albeit with the caveat that Owner may choose to unlock me at any time. The chastity dice will then be rolled again in mid-December to decide if i am to remain locked and, if so, for how long and under what conditions.

The next dice to be rolled were the outdoor challenge dice. These saw the return of a familiar location, a local bus stop, and the requirement that i do a bra flash. To make it a little more interesting i put on a new little skirt that Owner bought me and fishnet stockings. Owner pointed out that the dice had said nothing about me also wearing a skirt but nevertheless allowed me to go out dressed as i was. She later remarked that i looked 'hot'.

Anyways, as usual i was seen by a number of people, workmen and drivers in their vehicles as i completed the short five minute walk to the bus stop in my puffer coat and little skirt and stockings. i then flashed my bra at the bus stop as instructed. 

Bra and panties showing

Only when i got back did i realise that the skirt i wearing, which Owner recently bought for me, is so short that my panties are clearly visible in some of the pictures. It is the perfect length!

Earlier that morning Owner also used the surveillance camera to monitor me sweeping the floors of the flat whilst She went out for Her early morning walk. i was blissfully unaware that She took some pictures of me using the surveillance camera until She later sent them to me by whasapp. 

Having swept the floors with the big brush in the pictures you can see me in the process of sweeping up the dust etc with the small dust pan and brush. You can also see that my tit weights are in place, swinging from my nipple piercings. They remained suspended from my nipple rings there until after Owner returned.

We both love the fact that Owner can now monitor me at all times when i am at home and also relay instructions to me via the camera. When She speaks to me through it i approach the camera and curtsy to it, to acknowledge Her message before i speak. It feels a little strange curtsying to a camera, but i am sure i will get used to doing so.

Yesterday Owner had to go into Her office, leaving me to work from home. As has now become custom on such occasions when She is not at home during the week but i am, this is when i sweep and mop all of the floors of the flat. With Owner not here there is no possibility of my disturbing Her.

So this is how i spent the start of my working day on Wednesday sweeping and mopping all of the floors in Owners flat. As has also now become customary, in addition to the weights that always hang from my pierced tits whenever i sweep the floors, on days when the floors also get mopped a small cast iron bell  also hangs, suspended from my nipple piercings. It swings wildly when i sweep.

Owner also decided that i should spend all of the day gagged, apart from when i was on calls, in meetings or having my lunch. Here are some images from the day

gagged and weights and an iron bell suspended from my nipple rings

iron bell swinging!

preparing my lunch

in between meetings

i was drooling pretty heavily by the end of the day when i removed the gag, so much so that i had to put my skirt into the wash as it got covered with mess!

drool leaking from my gagged mouth

drool drains from my mouth as i take off the gag

Back to today and this evening, after dinner and completing my chores, i will once again return naked to my cage to spend time locked up in the darkness with 1kg of metal weights and chains suspended from my nipple rings. This has now become my regular Thursday evening routine or, as Owner calls it, 'cagey thursday'.

Twenty Wonderful Years

Monday marked Owner and my twentieth anniversary. 20 years together, blimey how time flies when you are in love and having fun. We actually celebrate 3 'anniversary' dates each year. These are; 

• 16th Feb - our wedding anniversary 
• 31st May - the day we both met in person at Bond Street tube station after having chatted online for a few months.
• 6th October - the day Owner snogged me at Charing Cross station and we went from just friends to, well much more than that

i really am lucky and blessed to have had the honour and privilege of spending the past 20 years of my life with Owner. She is a wonderful and beautiful woman the love of my life. She is also the person to whom i willingly and completely submit and who controls how i live my life. She has trained, cherished and supported me throughout those twenty years and She continues to do so.

We always try to make a bit of a fuss of our anniversaries and this one has been no exception. It has been truly memorable. Owner gifted me my new lock tattoo, which symbolises the fact that i am mostly kept in chastity.  The tattoo was created a few weeks ago and is now almost fully healed. Owner also bought me a beautiful pearl belly ring and a wonderful cake for us both to share.

The anniversary cake that Owner bought for us

The new pearl belly ring Owner got for me. 

Incidentally, Owner has settled on a design idea for a cover up tattoo to replace this one on my belly (which neither of us like and pre-dates my life with Owner). i have discussed Owners ideas with the tattoo artist and i hope to get this tattoo covered up done early in the New Year with a new, much more feminine design featuring flowers and a crescent moon.

My main present for Owner was booking us into an overnight dungeon stay for Her to have fun caning and electrocuting me, which She did. On Monday night, the day of the actual anniversary, i took Her out to dinner to a restaurant inside one of our favourite London viewpoints, namely that to be found right at the top of 20 Fenchurch Street aka 'the walkie talkie' building. London looks stunning from up there at night

Exterior view looking west down the River Thames

Interior showing the panoramic view of London (which extends 360 degrees)

i also got Owner a few more little gifts, ones that, like the dungeon visit, speak to the FLR nature of our relationship. These were:

1. A silver chastity key necklace
2. A seven-braid leather whip
3. A 23cm (9inch) realistic dildo for Her strap-on
4. A WiFi enabled Eufy internal surveillance camera 

Whip, dildo, chastity key necklace and surveillance camera

 Silver Chastity Necklace

This came from the Etsy shop Locked in Chastity whose owner is also her own husband's key holder. Owner was really delighted with this gift and immediately placed it around Her neck for all to see that She has the key to my cage. 

Owner wearing the new chastity key necklace to our anniversary dinner

One delightful little surprise was that, as well as the key and chain, the parcel from the shop also contained some stickers showing this image of a caged cockerel;

These stickers now adorn my mobile phone case and that for my reading glasses. This means that whenever i get my phone out or put my glasses on people will, if they interpret the image correctly, be able to see that i am in chastity. i messaged the shop Owner, a lovely woman called Julie, to say how much Owner loved the necklace and what a great idea the stickers were and She emailed me back a copy of the image with the instruction that i should use it as my screensaver on my mobile. Owner approved the idea and so whenever i open up my phone i and anyone around me can now also see that my cock is caged courtesy of this caged cockerel screensaver image.

Leather Braided Whip

i love the colours of this whip which came from the company Meo in Germany. It appears to be very well made.  

Realistic cock dildo

With its fully retractable foreskin  Owner has another cock in Her collection

Eufy surveillance camera 

This camera is to enable Owner to monitor me at any time She wishes. The images it sees can be sent directly to Her mobile phone in real time. You can also send voice instructions through it which will enable Her to relay instructions to me using Her phone even when She is not at home. Owner plans to use the camera for the first time this Thursday evening. She is going out for a meal with friends after work and i am expected, as is now customary, to spend the evening locked in my cage. The surveillance camera will enable Owner to keep an eye on me locked up in the darkness of Her kitchen whilst She is out enjoying Her meal and then let me know when She is on Her way home so that i can release myself and come and collect Her and carry Her bag back home.

My mobile phone location is already shared with Owner at all times meaning that on the occasions when i am allowed out She can see where i am at all times if She wishes to. The addition of the home surveillance camera opens up the opportunity for Owner to also see what i am up to at home, even if She is out. i am excited at the possibilities that this additional level of control opens up.

We had a great anniversary and are both looking forward to spending the rest of our lives together and, i hope, my submission to my wonderful Owners control will become ever more absolute.