Wednesday, 27 November 2013

Busy and Slutty and Working to the 'Plan'

i really am delighted at how Owner has taken me in hand to ensure i am properly trained as Her wife. i recognise that this is a developing and long-term project which requires an ability on my part to demonstrate to Owners satisfaction my continuous commitment to my learning and development in the knowledge that, the further i progress the more challenging, but also rewarding it will become.

Owner and i have been together for just over eight and a half years now. For about eight of those eight and a half years i have been Her submissive partner, and ours has been a Femdom/FLR relationship - we started out vanilla. However, it is also true to say we have both spent a lot of time 'learning the ropes' of our respective roles and i most certainly could and should have been more focused, disciplined and attentive to Her needs.  i had and still have plenty of room for improvement, in particular, to challenge, address and correct some of my patterns of behaviour and push me further, and further into becoming the life partner and submissive Owner deserves. However, over these past few months i believe we have both been making progress towards achieving this outcome whilst, of course, at the same time ensuring that we continue to have fun and enjoy, love and cherish our lives together. Becoming Owners wife and commencing Owners training plan has, i think, started to generate some improvements in my performance and deepened my submission to Her - i'll explain why.

When She took me as Her wife Owner also made it clear that She shared similar aspirations to me - namely that i submit myself more deeply to Her as Her wife and that She in turn exercise greater control over me. However, Owner made it clear that it was up to me to demonstrate to Her that i genuinely wanted to learn, develop, change and progress towards becoming a wife She could be proud of. That wasn't to say that if, somehow or for some reason, i lapsed or we just continued our relationship as we had been before that Owner would no longer love and cherish me. We already had and have a wonderful relationship that is full of fun, love and companionship. However, we both want to deepen my submission to Owner and progress further, much further my role as Her wife and Her position of authority and control.

As well as recognising that i needed to demonstrate to Her that i could still grow and submit myself to Her further Owner also recognised that the changes in attitude, behaviour and approach required of and desired in me would take time if they were to prove lasting and sustained. Accordingly, Owner has established a long-term mechanism whereby each stage in my future development will be 'revealed' incrementally to me at such a time as i have proven to Her that my commitment to develop and progress is both genuine and sustained.  This, in essence was the genesis of what She described as Her 'Plin, Plan, Plon' and which i have just recently commenced Phase II of, having demonstrated to Her satisfaction that i could achieve and sustain the objectives She set out for me in Phase I (objectives which i need to continue delivering ad-infinitum).

The good news though is that i am making and continuing to make progress and demonstrate to Owner that i am indeed capable of further learning, development and progression as Her submissive wife. Some components of the Plan may seem unusual. For instance, learning Spanish. Languages have never been my forte but i have tried off and on and to learn Owners mother tongue, albeit with very limited success before.

We both know though that, whilst we currently live in London, that may not always be the case and Owner should never be in a position where She feels in any way restricted, by a lack of linguistic ability on my part, in where She may wish for us to live in the future. Accordingly, learning the language of Her birth is an important goal for me to achieve. Realistically, i know this will always prove a challenge but progress, albeit somewhat glacial at times, has been noted by Her and Her family which gives me hope that one day i might make Her proud of my efforts.

In terms of domestic work and routine this is entirely my responsibility from morning until night. Owner can, and sometimes does, chose to assist but the working assumption is that any and all cleaning, cooking, tidying, ironing, maintenance, repairs, etc, etc - in short all housework and household tasks and chores are my sole responsibility. In many respects this has been true for a good number of years but the difference now is that everything is to be done to Owners standards, not my own, and everything is to look neat, tidy and spotless at all times. In truth, i enjoy doing housework - the challenge was in re-calibrating my own perception/idea of what 'clean and tidy' look like, but i think i'm finally getting there!

In terms of Owners wider control over me and my own autonomy the pendulum is gradually swinging ever deeper into Owners territory. For years now all my clothes purchases have had first to be approved by Owner and any expenditure by me over a certain level approved by Her. More recently Owner, has introduced exercise regimes, controls if and whether i am permitted alcohol to drink, approves or disapproves what clothes i am permitted to wear that day, has established a set of longer-term tasks and additional skills i am to study and acquire (giving manicures being the most recent) and now expects to always consult with first Her and secure Her approval/consent before i participate in or undertake any activities that would involve me/my time in a manner not related to my service to Her. In addition, we both recognised that i could and should be making more constructive use of any 'free time' and i am now expected to ensure that i fill this constructively through study, additional chore/project completion or attending to Owner. All these are very welcome developments and mark, i think, a notable increase in the degree of control Owner now exerts over me.

At the same time as increasing Her control Owner has continued to push and develop my exhibitionist whore side. Whilst i have become much more shameless  than i once was (as has been documented over the period of this blog) there are still too many instances in which nerves and shyness have got the better of me. Owner continues to work on and challenge me though so that maybe one day i could honestly say i had truly become the complete exhibitionist whore i aspire to be. Meanwhile, Owner treats and regards me as Her fucktoy with my body being used purely for Her enjoyment, pleasure and amusement, not my own. This has actually been the case for most of our relationship, it is a state we both enjoy and, paradoxically, is one that brings me sustained pleasure and joy.

This is how we live our lives together, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year. It is a version of Femdom/FLR call it what you will that works for us that we both genuinely enjoy and which enriches our lives and ever deepens our relationship. It can be hard work at times but it is also a huge lot of fun and very rewarding. i genuinely believe that over the course of our relationship i have seen Owner grow, develop and become more confident and assertive. This process has accelerated over the past few months and is a joy to behold and experience at first hand. At the same time, i also feel that i am now on a path of accelerated development as Owners wife. i believe i am becoming more useful and practical to Her, better at serving and meeting Her needs, keeping Her home as She would like whilst further relinquishing and transferring to Owner control over how i live my life.

i am the happiest i have ever been at any time and Owner assures me that She is too. i just hope that i can continue to further learn, develop and make Owner proud.

This has been a rather long post, much longer than i had first intended but i wanted to paint a little portrait of our lives, if only to share my own happiness. In the meantime, and more in keeping with my usual posts, here are some pictures of me up a ladder changing a light bulb

out with the old bulb and in with the new
that should do it
and let there be light
well i did say i was an exhibitionist!
and a short video of me keeping my pussy 'in shape'


Sunday, 24 November 2013

Phase 2 of Development

Owner has just sent me through the next stage of my development plan - Her 'Plin, Plan, Plon' Phase II. This second stage runs from the 25th November until the 2nd March 2014 and is to be undertaken whilst also continuing with the learning and development activities that were set out in the original Phase I of the Plan. As per last time, only if i successfully complete all elements of this second phase to Owners satisfaction AND continue to maintain my continued delivery of the activities identified under will a potential third stage of the Plan be initiated.

Anyway, so what does Phase 2 of Owners development plan contain? Well, it is divided into 4 core areas namely:
  1. Housework
  2. Study
  3. Physical/Slut Training
  4. General Behaviour
The detail within each core area is as per below.

Housework
Repair/replace any damaged or worn or broken items - weekly audit to be undertaken
Organise any and all repairs/replacement that are needed in the flat
Audit all food items in the kitchen cupboards and fridge at least monthly and check expiry dates and remove/replace as required
Test at least one new recipe every 2 weeks and add to your existing recipe database
Every day present Owner with a minimum of two evening meal options for Her to choose from
Undertake an ongoing review of all the items we have in storage in the loft and itemise/recycle as appropriate in consultation with Owner
Undertake an ongoing review of all of our CDs and classify as appropriate in consultation with Owner and maintain
Undertake an ongoing review of all of the stuff we have in the bathroom and organise as appropriate in consultation with Owner and maintain

Study
Continue with current Spanish lessons until the course is completed
Study and read the BBC's Mundo (Spanish language news) website 3 times a week and make a record of what you have learnt each time
Prepare all of your shopping lists in Spanish
Send Owner at least one text message a day that is written entirely in Spanish
Buy a manicure training book (examples provided by Owner) and start offering Owner manicures as an ongoing learning project

Physical/Slut Training 
Once a week do the cooking naked
Once a week do the housework that day wearing nipple clamps/mini pegs
Once every 2 weeks create a 2 minute porn clip and create a gallery of porn clips you have made
Once a week you will be spanked on your bum/clitty whilst you are washing up - request this from Owner
Twice a month you will be expected to complete an outdoor challenge. Consult with Owner over what, when and where.
Once a week take a naughty picture of yourself and create a naughty picture gallery

General Behaviour
Organise more regular chilled out times/evening with Owner (listening to music together, offering Owner beauty sessions etc)
Make better use of your free time by studying
Research and undertake new exercise routines as - an ongoing project
Discuss your additional work annual leave with Owner (i get more days off a year from work than Owner does) so that She can allocate activities that She wants you to undertake on these extra days
Consult with Owner about any activities/trips etc that potentially involve you and seek Her prior approval

Owner sat me down and ran through all of the above requirements to make sure hat i fully understood them and even provided me with a spreadsheet in which i am to record all of my 'evidence' for having completed the tasks/activities required. This is a snapshot of the front page of the spreadsheet Owner provided
 i am to provide Owner with a copy of the spreadsheet once a week for Her to review my progress.

As you can see, Owner has given a lot of thought to the next stage of my training and development as Her wife and i am honoured to be allowed to commence this training. i hope that i continue to progress and develop and that, come March next year, i am able to demonstrate sufficient progress with these phase of Her plan - whilst maintaining my progress in the earlier phase - for Her to deem me ready for Phase 3. i am very lucky indeed to have an Owner who is spending time and effort on my development and i hope to make Her proud.

Saturday, 16 November 2013

Phase 1 of Development - Outcome

This evening Owner sent me through the following, namely the results of Her assessment of my progress over these past three months in achieving the learning outcomes She had  set out in the 'Plin, Plan, Plon' back at the start of August.


Yippee, Owner has assessed that i have passed. i am delighted and thrilled and even received this certificate from Her





What a wonderful day. This means that Owner will now add some additional areas of development to be incorporated into the plan. i must demonstrate my ability to achieve/deliver these as well as maintain my current progress if i am to continue to develop and progress further. i really am thrilled and delighted and cannot wait to see what Owner will add to help further and deepen my development.

This has rounded off what has been a wonderful day as earlier on Owner also permitted me to lick Her wonderful derriere whilst She twice brought Herself to orgasm from a combination of Her vibrator and my tongue. All the while i was kept in my chastised state, though Owner did caress my titties and spank my clitty to ensure that i was left fully and deliciously aroused but denied.

Thank you Owner, i am so pleased to have been able to demonstrate to you and to myself that i can develop and progress towards becoming the wife you deserve. i promise to commit to continuing to give of my best, to learn, work, study and strive to ensure that i achieve whatever aspirations you may have of me for phase 2 of your 'Plin, Plan, Plon'.


Wednesday, 13 November 2013

5 A Day

Do you get your 5 a day? Owner likes to makes sure that i get mine...fruit and vegetables that is. This morning, after leaving for work, She texted me requesting that i take some photos of myself with some of the contents of our organic box delivery. Owner said She enjoyed looking at the end results...which also prompted much laughter from Her. i have added a selection below so you can judge for yourself










Monday, 11 November 2013

Incidents and Updates

A couple of mildly interesting/amusing events occurred over the past week. The first was that during a work visit to the offices of another organisation i am working on a project with i was mistaken by their receptionist for a woman. This is about the first time this has ever happened as though i now always wear make-up and women's clothes at work (and have done for quite a while now) as well as outside work, my work clothes are not overly feminine, mostly blouses/tops and jeans. In fact, on this occasion as my day involved a formal work meeting i had actually slightly toned down my make-up a little. Thus, i was pleasantly surprised when, on walking into the reception area accompanied by a colleague of mine who is female the receptionists looked up and said ' Good morning ladies, how can I help you?' Made me smile anyway. [edit - Owner says the receptionist must have been blind]

The second, and altogether more amusing incident occurred this weekend. My Dad and his partner came to stay with Owner and i for a few days. As usual i made sure that i tidied away all of the objects and artefact's that would normally be found in full view in our flat but which you might not want your parents to see. Thus, the floggers, canes, crops, queening stool, clamps, heavy collars, 'slut daily chores' list etc were all tidied away out of sight. However, it is easy to forget how second nature some of my everyday activities have become and how i don't really even register anymore that, to another person, they may seem a little out of the ordinary. So it was that it didn't even occur to me that the sight of me standing up in the kitchen eating my breakfast out of a dog bowl might seem a little strange to my father! In short, i had become so used to the fact that i am expected to always eat out of a dog bowl that it didn't even register with me that doing so in front of my Dad might not be appropriate. Oh well, it goes down as another amusing incident in which i have accidentally incorporated family members into Owner and my lifestyle - as when, many years ago, i accidentally emailed my parents and my sister the Xmas present list that was intended solely for Owner. Needless to say i never did get a butt plug that year from my mum!

This weekend also marked the passing of the deadline for my compliance with Owners training and development plan for me - Her 'plin, plan, plon' as She calls it. Readers will recall that over the past three months Owner has been assessing and monitoring my performance against the outcomes set out in the plan. If i am deemed to have passed the plan new training and development tasks be introduced and added to those already set out in the plan. Owner has stated that She needs time to review and consider my performance and compliance and that i can expect to receive notification from Her by the end of the week as to how satisfactory or otherwise my progress has been and what will happen next. i will keep you posted.

Monday, 4 November 2013

Rule-Breaking in Zurich

Owner and i have just returned form a wonderful weekend break in Zurich. We were both really impressed by the city and had a wonderful time, we just wish we could have stayed for longer. Here are a couple of shots from our stay in the city;








Whilst there we also had an opportunity to try some of the local delicacies and i was treated to a delicacy of Owners, namely being permitted to lick Her derriere as She masturbated, my favourite activity. Once Owner had been satisfied and satiated She then instructed me to make myself cum loudly for Her whilst continuing to explore deep inside Her delicious anus my tongue (beats any chocolate the Swiss have invented hands down for taste and flavour!). It was a very happy whore indeed who soaked the sheets in our hotel bed before scooping up my mess and savouring it as a tasty appertif.

As well as chocolate and sausages another thing Zurich does well is beer. Over the course of the trip i had been doing well to ensure that i followed the new rule that says i am to assume i am not permitted any alcohol to drink unless and only if Owner suggests/offers it first - a rule i myself had suggested to Owner. i was thus mortified when at lunch on the last day of our visit i made an awful mistake by asking Owner if i might have a beer with lunch? i had totally forgotten that the rule does not permit me to prompt such a question of Owner, something She quickly and correctly pointed out. i clearly still have a lot to learn and improve upon!

Amongst the souvenir items we brought home with us there was one in particular that i am delighted with. Namely, a small Swiss cow bell that is no attached to my leather house collar and rings whenever i move about at home.

Tuesday, 29 October 2013

Training and Development - Further Progress Update

Below is a copy of a note i wrote for Owner today suggesting some remedial action i could take in order to continue my training and development;

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Plin, Plan, Plon Progress – How Slut Can Address Continued Areas of Under-Performance

·         Introduction

In August 2013 Owner graciously unveiled Her ‘plin, plan, plon’ to Her slut. The document set out a number of areas against which slut’s progress would be continuously assessed and monitored over a three month period. slut was asked to regularly update the document citing ‘evidence’ of her delivery against the plan. The plan encompasses the following areas of behaviour/activity:

o   Home Tasks
o   Clothes and Make-up
o   New Skills
o   General Behaviour
o   Finances
o   Slut behaviour

A number of these categories also contain sub-categories. 

Owner advised slut that She would conduct a final plan review on the 10th November. Only if Owner judges slut to have satisfactorily demonstrated delivery against all 6 categories (and their attendant sub-categories) will slut be judged to have ‘passed’ the plan. Passing the plan review will then trigger the introduction of additional tasks/activities/behaviours to the plan for slut to deliver and be assessed against – whilst continuing to be assessed against the original criteria.
 
·         Progress to Date – 29/10/13

Just under three months into the plan and Owners most recent assessment indicates that slut’s performance is currently deemed satisfactory for the following only:

o   New Skills
o   Finances

slut’s performance continues to be unsatisfactory in the following:
o   Home tasks
o   Clothes and make-up
o   General behaviour
o   Slut behaviour

Specifically, slut continues to fail in the following;
 
o   Tidy-up without being told
o   Passing regular audits/inspections by Owner
o  When at home wear pretty and practical clothes on occasions on days when  deliveries are expected
o   Alcohol consumption is at Owners discretion
o   Regular weekly canings and physical play

This situation is recognised by me as not being acceptable to Owner and must be addressed by me. Accordingly, slut has set out below a series of remedies to address these failures on her part 

Remedial Action Proposed by slut to Address Ongoing Performance Failures 

Tidy-up without being told 
Before going to bed at night slut is to check in every room of the flat and make sure that all items are in their correct places, any items left out are put away, rubbish is in the bin and that each room is clean, tidy and clutter-free. slut to consult with Owner over any item she is unsure what to do with i.e. can it be disposed of, where does it live etc? slut to implement this with immediate effect and ensure that she performs this activity every evening (including weekends) from this day onwards.
 
Passing regular audits/inspections by Owner 
slut knows the level of cleanliness expected of her by Owner in the kitchen and slut must ensure that the kitchen is maintained in this condition at all times. In addition, slut to ensure that all other rooms are kept in a condition that she feels would enable them to pass any spot check by Owner. Audits and inspections are at Owners discretion but slut should assume that these could be undertaken at any moment and that the levels of cleanliness and tidiness Owner rightly expects to see are maintained at all times.

When at home wear pretty and practical clothes on occasions on days when deliveries are expected
In her morning text to Owner slut always includes information about the panties and bra she is wearing (if any). Slut suggests that she expands this to detail the outfit she proposes wearing for that day i.e. what top and bottom. slut to include a request to Owner as to whether these are appropriate and acceptable. Slut to commence such an addition to her morning text to Owner with immediate effect and to undertake every weekday morning when she is working from home.
 
Alcohol consumption is at Owners discretion
slut has shown on at least one occasion that she cannot be trusted to remember to ask Owners permission to be allowed to drink alcohol before ordering. Accordingly, slut suggests that the expectation from now onwards be that slut should assume she is not allowed to drink alcohol before ordering unless Owners advises her to the contrary i.e. if/when they go out and slut either a) orders a drink for her and Owner or b) is asked by Owner if slut would like a drink slut should only ever order/request a non-alcoholic drink unless Owner says she may order an alcoholic one or has previously done so during that session. Slut is no longer to be permitted to seek Owners consent to drink alcohol, she has forfeited that right. Instead, it is now solely at Owners discretion whether She permits slut to have alcohol or not.

Regular weekly canings and physical play
slut proposes that, unless either her or Owner are ill, she be expected to always set-up the lounge on a Wednesday for a caning on the assumption that Owner may wish to administer such a caning. In addition, slut suggests that Owner gives consideration to having slut purchase an additional gag and set of nipple clamps to be semi-permanently attached to the bed-frame or kept within reach and visible on slut or Owners bedside table and that a dildo be re-attached to the frame of the bed so that Owner has implements readily to hand in bed should She wish to engage in some physical play with Her slut. Slut also wonders whether an element of physical play could be incorporated into her and Owners regular exercises i.e. slut to complete wearing clamps or some such thing?

·         Conclusion

Slut really does want to ‘pass’ her ‘plin, plan, plon’ review on the 10th November and demonstrate that she is developing and progressing as Owners wife and slut into the sort of wife that meets with Owners satisfaction. Slut wishes to be able to continue this development and learning. However, slut recognises that her performance to date, though adequate in some areas falls short of Owners expectations in others. Slut knows this is not acceptable. slut hopes that the suggestions she has made on how she could improve her performance are useful and helpful to Owner and that they will provide the remedial action needed to bring her back on track. slut looks forward to Owners considered advice on whether She finds the remedies proposed acceptable or in need of further work by slut.

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i am thrilled to report that Owner has agreed to all of the suggestions i put forward and has stated that they are to immediately be implemented.

Sunday, 27 October 2013

Out and About

Owner and i had a wonderful night last night at the ever fabulous The Magic Theatre. It really is a fantastic night out and one we would highly recommend to anyone, whatever your orientation, style or persuasion. Here are some pictures from the evening;

Get ahead, get a hat

clearing the dancefloor

Owner busting some metal moves
just the two of us
Hope you all have as an enjoyable a Halloween time as we did. Now it's time for us to batten down the hatches as a rare hurricane force storm bears down on the UK.

'There may be trouble ahead, but while there's music and  moonlight and love and romance, let's face the music and dance.....'

Friday, 25 October 2013

This Charming Whore

Yesterday evening Owner presented me with a wonderful new silver charm. It is in the shape of a heart and is inscribed to 'My pretty wife' and has the date of our wedding on the reverse. It also has a very pretty pink gemstone hanging from the charm.  i love it and have attached it to the chain that connects my two nipple rings together. i think it is super pretty. Here's a close-up of the charm;


And this is it in situ;


The charm slightly weights the chain between my two nipple rings which in turn gently pull and tug down my nipples, sending delicious little thrills through them all day.

i do so love my pretty accessories!

After presenting me with my new charm last night Owner administered one of my regular canings. As usual i had prepared the room and Owners implements in advance for Her. However, i added a few new items this time alongside Her usual collection of paddles, canes, crops, clamps and toys etc. This time round i added a large wooden spoon and a couple of hairbrushes. The spoon went down well with Owner who used it to warm me up before then flogging and caning me. Owner commented how the spoon made my bottom nice and red  - i have made a note to add it to the usual collection of implements laid out for Her to use in future sessions.

i was out of chastity during the session and Owner used the opportunity of having unfettered access to my clitty to good affect, both flogging and gently caning it. i actually love to have my testicles caned and spanked (whether in chastity or not). Whilst being teased by Owner about how much i obviously enjoyed having my clitty spanked and caned i told Her that indeed i particularly enjoyed having my testicles spanked and would love to have them spanked, or be made to spank them, on a daily basis.

After the caning was over Owner positioned a dildo between Her thighs, sat down and had me kneel before Her and fellate Her 'cock' whilst simultaneously instructing me to finger my pussy with one hand and masturbate my unchastised clitty with the other. Owner ensured that i eagerly sucked and licked her 'cock' - pushing my head down onto it and causing me to gag and gurgle and snort saliva and mucus out my mouth and down my nose. i really was excited as Owner kept telling me to make myself hard and play with my pussy whilst at the same time my mouth was stuffed with her cock.

It had been exactly a month since i last was allowed to cum and it didn't take long for me to become dangerously excited and aroused. Owner sensed this and kept having me stop and then re-commence playing with my clitty, all the while ensuring my head continued to bob up and down on Her cock. As i did this Owner kept telling me what a whore i was and how much i enjoyed sucking cock...which of course is true.

After a few more minutes Owner stated that She wanted me to make myself cum with Her cock in my mouth. Needless to say it wasn't much longer before a months worth of denial was spurting over my hands and chest whilst i continued eagerly sucking and slurping Owners phallus. i scooped up my mess with my hand and swallowed it like a good little slut whilst Owner made appreciative comments about what a dirty  whore i was and how i loved to cum with cock in my mouth. And of course this was true. i did indeed enjoy it. Interestingly, i have also grown to like the taste of cum. Years ago i always liked the idea and prospect of having to eat and swallow my cum but when the moment of release had, so to speak come, i'd always found the reality less enjoyable than the idea. Now, however, Owner has helped me appreciate and enjoy its taste.

Session finished it was time to quickly make myself decent and serve Owner Her dinner. Owner instructed me to ensure i returned myself back to chastity as well. i have to say that when i caught sight of myself in the bathroom mirror as i cleaned myself up and put the device back in situ i did look somewhat disheveled. My face was smeared with a mixture of cum and saliva and my hair was all over the place - in short, i really did look like the well-used whore i am.

Tuesday, 22 October 2013

Titty Teasing and Collar Wearing

Owner likes, on occasion, to have me perform in front of the video camera for Her amusement whilst She is at work. She then reviews the footage on Her return. i, meanwhile, adore playing with or having Owner play with my titties. It is something that i find incredibly pleasurable and arousing and will often find myself absentmindedly caressing my breasts through my top during the day. i also like to make an exhibition of myself. So, when Owner stated that She wanted me to make a little video of me playing with my titties, well you can imagine my enthusiasm.

On reviewing the footage Owner commented what a little whore i was and that i would make a good porn star. i am not so sure of that myself but i certainly did enjoy my little performance...as you can see


What's more, i also got to savour the deliciously frustrated state i was left in.

Shortly after Owner and i returned form our trip to Boston we ended up having to spend a couple of days apart. i get more annual leave than Owner and so spent a few days visiting and staying with family, specifically my mum and my sister. Regular readers of this blog may recall that it took me a while to pluck up the courage to wear my collar at work as well as when at home/out and about. i still remember how nervous and self-conscious i felt that first day, despite the fact that i had already by that point been wearing make-up and women's clothing at all times, including to work. Still - wearing my collar to the office seemed like a big step and it took me a while, and the inspiration of another blog - Tamara In Trouble - which sadly is now not accessible - before i 'took the plunge'. Of course, i need not have been so nervous as nobody batted an eyelid. One colleague complimented me on it but that was all.

Anyway, since then i have worn my collar when meeting my sister but had not done so in front of my mum or her partner, still less without Owner being there as well to give me moral support. Anyway, to cut a long story short i wore it throughout my visit and no comment was made (which Owner ascribes to us all being so terribly English - She, as you know is Spanish). Anyway, to me it felt like another little milestone/line that had been crossed.

In fact, it is interesting to reflect on all the things which to me now seem totally 'normal' and 'routine' about my life with Owner but which, when we first met over eight years ago, i would have never have believed possible and was scared to death of - even though i may have fantasised about them.