New 'Paloma' Bra

Owner found the perfect padded bra for me the other day. She has requested that when i work from home on Fridays i should wear a padded bra as part of my 'dress-down Friday' attire. Accordingly, She wanted to find me the perfect bra to wear and i am thrilled to say that She succeeded.

i am a size 38AAA and there is a website called Little Women which specialises in bras for small breasted women but which also does them in large chest sizes - perfect for cross-dressers. Owner permitted me to buy the Paloma Bra which you can see on me below (incidentally i had just got out of the shower, hence my wet hair):

We're both delighted with it, the quality is great and the delivery was super quick.

Caning, Flower Arranging and 'Pussy' Training

You might rightly wonder what all of the above have in common? Well, they are all components of my current training and development by Owner. It used to be the case that i received regular canings or puddling's at the hand of Owner. i can't say i have ever been one who enjoys being caned in the way that some people do, i do not find it a sexually arousing activity. However, i do appreciate and understand its usefulness in helping to, at least partially, prevent me from becoming too 'fluffy' a pet for Owner.

In addition, although at the time i initially always find canings painful i do start to get used to the pain when Owner settles into Her stride and am able to process it into something more pleasurable - though never as pleasurable as testicle/clit spankings for example. i also enjoy the warm glow of the aftermath. The main thing, however, is that Owner enjoys giving them and they are good for me and so i am delighted to say that Owner has determined they should be reintroduced into our lives. i received my first one this week, 50 strokes after some initial strokes from a paddle. They were an uncomfortable but welcome return and they left their mark

Unfortunately, as a result of not having been able to do any of my butt exercises since April, because of the problems with my back, my 'pillows', as Owner used to describe my butt cheeks, have deflated. i will have to try and bring them back to life again, though my doctor says i am not to lift weights so it will have to just be via squats and hip thrusts. We shall see, but i digress.

Owner also likes me to acquire or learn skills that She may find useful and She has had me attend a variety of courses, during some of the extra days off a year i get over Her, to learn them. So far, i have attended courses on  head and neck message, manicures, knitting and reflexology. On some of them i was the only male on the course but they have all been enjoyable to do. Owner, has now identified another skill She expects Her wife to acquire, namely flower arranging. i researched details of a number of courses for me to attend and presented them to Her and She chose a one day 'Vintage Flower Course' for me to attend at the end of September. i will report back on how i got on.

In addition to having me acquire practical skills becoming of Her wife, Owner also expects me to become Her consummate slut and whore. To that end She has decreed that i am to have some regular 'pussy' training by having my butt plugged on occasions. Owner selected two metal plugs for me to order, one to be worn at times of Her choosing when i am working from home and the other - also metal but with a tail - to be used for challenges and photoshoots. i ordered both from Bondara and they arrived two days later. Each came in a lovely box and i have to say they look beautiful and i can't wait to start trying them out. You can see them in their boxes below

i am truly blessed to have an Owner such as mine who continues to lead me down the path of submission to Her and who is training me to become Her ideal wife.

Training and Development Update

Owner formally sat me down after lunch today to run through the progress (or not) i have been making in the current version of Her 'Housewife Academy' training plan for me. The good news was that, i had actually made progress in a number of areas - though my Spanish learning had been a complete failure these past few months and needs paying serious attention to. Owner also placed my high-heeled training and hula hoop training on continued hold until my back is fully recovered - i haven't been doing any of either since April.

The 'housewife academy' consists of four key areas and these are my current training and development objectives in each:

Domestic Diva

• Paint the flat and de-clutter the walls
• Book myself onto a flower arranging course and practice making arrangements
• Re-organise Owners wardrobe and chest of drawers seasonally so that She always has appropriate clothing to hand

Sex Kitten

• Wear padded bras when working from home on dress down Fridays
• Be pussy plugged when working from home when requested by Owner
• Have weekly canings before bedtime 

Submissive Pet

• Owner will choose my breakfast whenever we are staying away [n.b. She already chooses all other meals for me when we are eating away from home]
• Owner will choose what clothes/accessories i am to wear when we go out
• i will start a 'treat' savings fund for Owner - save a set amount each month to use to get Owner nice treats [this to come out of my main account - which Owner controls access to - not my monthly allowance]  

Multi-Tasking Ninja

• Complete another instructional/lifestyle video before Xmas
• Become Owners PA - responsible for making all Her bookings, ordering any items She needs etc
• Study Spanish at bedtime at least 3 times a week 

i am very grateful to Owner for my new set of development goals and instructions and look forward to continuing to learn to become a better wife and slut for Her

Who's That Slut In The Window?

The flat in which Owner and i live is one of the typical terraced London streets that afford limited privacy for their occupants at the best of times. At the same time i am also an exhibitionist. This morning Owner used both of these to Her advantage.

We had woken early as usual (6am) and, with the street outside still being relatively quiet i decided it would be a good time to clean the curtains we have in our lounge. They are white and see-thru (almost like net curtains) but provide us with some degree of privacy from our  neighbours opposite and the street outside. i was still just wearing my negligee when i fetched a stool, stood on it and started to take the curtains down. As i did so i decided i ought to clean the windows as well. So there i was, stood right in front of the window in just my nightie.Of course i had to stretch-up when taking down the curtains - an act which flashed my bits to the street outside. However, i was able to protect my modesty with the curtain material. Of course, that was no longer the case when i started to clean the windows. i briefly paused thinking i ought to stop and put on something more appropriate but then decided, what the heck. There are not many about and i have started so i shall finish. We have three large windows and so anyone who was about or onboard the bus that passed along the street at one point would have got an interesting view! Though to be honest, whether they would have found the sight of me cleaning windows naked save my nightie, or the fact that i was wearing a leather collar and cuffs connected my a chain through a ring in the collar whilst doing so, the more surprising i don't know.

Anyway, Owner knows what an exhibitionist i am and also knows exactly how to exploit that to Her advantage and ensure my humiliation. Shortly after i finished cleaning - and with the curtains in the wash - we returned to bed, only for me to re-appear a few minutes later completely naked this time except with Owners used and deliciously aromatic panties on my head. She had put them on me and then instructed me to slowly parade in front of the lounge window like that before returning to bed. She has me do this twice before instructing me to sit at the dining table in the lounge. She stood behind me a toyed and played with my nipples as i sat on display for all to see with Her knickers on my head before She wandered off.

Upon returning She had with Her a glass full of Her delicious urine which She handed to me to drink. i eagerly gulped all of the aromatic amber nectar down. i love the taste of Her piss and it was even more delicious knowing i was drinking it in full view of the neighbours opposite - if they were up and watching. Last, Owner then had me play with and masturbate myself whilst sitting in my chair facing the open window, still devoid of any curtain to protect my modesty. i felt like one of those street window prostitutes in Amsterdam as i played with myself like the shameless whore i am. Incidentally - i am sure some of those women could make as much, if not more, money just renting out their booths to exhibitionist sluts like me! But i digress.

Satisfied with my performance Owner finally instructed me to leave the lounge and return to the bedroom. Here She masturbated Herself to orgasm with Her vibrator whilst positionign Herself so that i could inhale and lick Her delicious backside. It was difficult to lick Her with Her panties still in situ on my face but She seemed to appreciate my efforts. FInally, She had me lay down on the bed, positioned Her now even more wonderfully aromatic crotch on my face and permitted me to masturbate myself for Her whilst She watched. As i pleasured mysef for Her amusement She then told me to slip a finger up my own 'pussy' and 'cum like a whore'. Masturbating furiously with my finger up my arse i came all over my belly, scooping up my mess with my fingers and swallowing it down as i am expected to do.

EDIT - i hadn't realised that Owner had taken some pictures of me, here are a couple of me in our lounge sans curtains

It was a deliciously dirty way to start the weekend. Yesterday, whilst working from home Owner had also instructed me to spank my 'bits' i.e. my balls with a belt 50 times. She likes to have me beat my testicles (or do it Herself) on a regular basis to keep them nice and aching. However, this was the first time i had been told to use a belt rather than the usual wooden spoon or paddle. It was  painfully wonderful.

All told i think it is safe to say that we are now fully back to normal! My back is much, much better than it has been and Owner is reviewing my current development goals and objectives and will present me with some new ones as She continues to train me to become Her ideal of a submissive, slut wife and whore. i think this morning's show could be taken as evidence that, at least in terms of beign Her whore - i have made some progress over the years :)!!

Whilst Owner's At Lunch Her Pet Stays Busy

Yesterday Owner met some of Her ex-colleagues for lunch and a catch-up. Before leaving She selected the clothes She wanted me to wear for the day (tight t-shirt and jeans) and then She headed into town. Whilst She was out i was busy at home doing some housework and then researching for possible 2017 holiday ideas for Her consideration. My research was only preliminary - covering suggested locations and travel dates, travel time to destination, likely weather and estimated flight, accommodation, car hire costs etc. i am trying to spread my suggestions over the year as Owner criticised my previous proposals for having front-loaded ideas into the first half of the year. Owner also does not like the heat and so my suggestions need to ensure there is no risk of Her ending up somewhere She might find too hot. Anyway, i am quite pleased with my initial effort and i await Her feedback on it.

Later in the afternoon i met up with Owner and we both went shopping in Covent Garden. Owner permitted me to get something in H&M using a gift card that i have been carrying around for ages. She chose a very pretty blue and white striped t-shirt for me with a little cherry motif above one breast.

Owner took this picture of mein the t-shrt as we headed out for the day

 Afterwards, we popped into TK Max and shopped for shoes (for Owner) and sunglasses (for us both). i am often amazed by the discounts they have and ended up getting a lovely pair of red Adolfo Dominguez sunglasses reduced from £110 to £24, quite a bargain! That said, it is still 25% of my monthly allowance gone.

Talking of my allowance that seems to be going well. Regular readers may recall that earlier this year Owner took control of my finances and now i have a separate account from my main one which i transfer £100 into each month. i am no longer permitted to access my main account or use my credit card without asking for Owners permission (and the cards are kept elsewhere for safe keeping). Initially, it was stated that i was to pay for my travel to work from my new monthly 'allowance'. However, after spending £70 on travel alone in March Owner agreed to change and allow me to top-up my Oyster travel card from my main account. i am now finding it easier to manage my monthly allowance, now such travel costs have been removed, whist also saving a little each month towards getting the ankle bracelet tattoo Owner has requested i get for myself and pay for from my allowance. i think it will take me about a year time to save up this way to get it done.

This morning i was awoken by Owner gently, at first, spanking my clit and bits with Her hand before She set about more vigorously assaulting them with a leather paddle. She clamped my nipples and masturbated Herself with Her vibrator and spanked me and pleasured Herself until She came. Next, She clamped my testes, spanked then and masturbated me at the same time until i came, with Her permission, before then scooping up my mess with the paddle and feeding some to me before smearing the remainder over my face. What a terrible way to start a day! :)

Now time to do some baking.

Normality Returns

i am delighted to say that normality has finally returned for Owner and i over these past two weeks. My back has sufficiently healed itself to enable the complete resumption of my cleaning and other housework routines. Meanwhile, the blood and x-ray test results indicated that there is nothing fundamentally wrong with me other than some degeneration in discs L4 & L5 and some accompanying osteophytes (bony projections) in the same areas. In short, a continuation of the back problem i had some years ago.

The doctor did say, however, that i should avoid using any weights. Now i haven't been using weights since the end of March and i only ever used weights to try and build-up my glutes - nothing else - in an effort to grow a rounder butt. So, i guess i will just have to stick with squats and steps from now onwards.

Owner also gave me a delightful treat a couple of weeks ago. Knowing how Her taste and aromas drive me wild She rubbed my face with a pair of Her very used and aromatic knickers before clamping my nipples with clover clamps and sitting on my face whilst She brought Herself off with Her vibrator. Owner's anus was positioned invitingly in front of my lips and so i was able to taste and explore Her enticing rear entrance with my tongue as She masturbated Herself with Her vibrator. Having my tongue inside Her delicious backside like this, probing as far as i can, tasting Her, is truly one of my favourite pleasures. And this time, for the first time ever, i suddenly got a sense of what people who are into scat or shit play experience. Although nothing of the type occurred i experienced an intense desire and longing for Her to defecate into my mouth, so aroused and excited was i as i probed, lapped and licked Her anus. It didn't happen, but it was a surprisingly intoxicating thought.

Once Owner was spent She set about alternatively beating my clit and my bits with a leather paddle and applying Her vibrator to my swollen flesh. It was an intensely pleasurable experience. i adore having my bits beaten like this. Though i love to be left in a state of intense but frustrated arousal Owner prefers sometimes to make me cum 'like a slut' i.e. noisily and messily. And, cum i did, all over my chest and belly only to be fed my mess by Owner as She scooped up my semen and smeared it on my face and into my mouth. It was a lovely start to the day

Talking of clit spankings, since then we've now returned to my receiving regular such testicle spankings, albeit without cumming. When She is busy Owner likes me to spank myself using a large wooden spoon. My bits are getting used to being struck quite hard again which in turn means i get to walk around experiencing a wonderful aching throb for hours afterwards. Perhaps not everyone's cup of tea but i love it :)

Meanwhile, both of us are counting down the days until we go away on our two week holiday to Denmark. Just one month to go now and we're both looking forward to having two full weeks of no work and lots of fun. And, on the subject of holidays, Owner has instructed me to start doing some research for next year. Owner, of course, makes the decision about where we go but She likes me to present Her with fully researched options to help Her make Her choice. This weekend She is meeting friends of Hers for lunch and so i shall use the time to start researching the internet checking out prices, travel options, likely weather etc, etc. The result is a spreadsheet that i am sure would put some travel agents to shame! Owner, then uses the information provided to choose what we will do and where we will go.

This week Owner brought me  lovely little leather bound pocket writing pad and pen from Her work - it is one they give to clients as a gift. i used to keep a written diary/journal for years at Owners request in which i documented my thoughts, fantasies and aspirations. However, as we moved increasingly to documenting and recording things electronically so the tradition of my keeping a paper diary/journal died.Owner uses Trello to help organise my time and set my tasks and it is on Trello that i record the completion of my duties and record the other aspects of my life Owner likes me to set down.

But, there is something nice about putting words onto a page and so today i asked Owners permission to use the little notebook She got me to start once more to document my dark thoughts and desires. Owner granted me permission and so i now have  a little journal to write in which  She can read at any time to discover what strange thoughts go round inside my little fluffy head!

In short, and as the title of this post suggests, things are getting back to normal. And, as i think the picture below shows, i am happy to be back to 'normal'. The picture was taken by Owner just after i had returned from collecting Her from the station after She finished work and as i was about to get changed into my evening maid's outfit. i think i look happy in it and i am