Rainy Sunday Accidental Milking

Owner has had me out of chastity over the weekend for some more fun and games. Today was a really wet and overcast day in London, the perfect day for playing indoors. So this afternoon when i had completed my chores Owner and i retired to bed. It wasn't long before Owner had me on all fours beating and slapping my testicles so that i was moaning like a true slut! Owner then proceeded to moisten my pussy lips before inserting one of the large ribbed butt plugs into me. Owners intention was to have me plugged whilst She continued to tease and torment me, but events proved otherwise. No sooner had the plug sunk all the way in and Owner had started to tap and twist the base than....oh my what's that drizzling out of me!

Yep, yours truly was leaking semen uncontrollably in a steady stream onto the bedding. It is a weird feeling when you are milked either intentionally, or as in this instance, unintentionally. It is not at all like an orgasm, just a constant drizzle flowing out of you. Needless to say i was quickly made to lick up my mess from the covers.

However, today must have been my lucky day because after i had been accidentally milked this way i was left hornier than i thought possible...i even began eyeing the bed posts with unnatural interest as Owner pleasured herself against me. Then Owner returned her attention to me and began repeatedly slapping and masturbating me until i was urgently requesting permission to come, and to my surprise and delight i heard those magic words; "yes come like a slut" - which i duly did all over my thighs and stomach! Owner scooped up some of my mess with her fingers and had me lick them clean before instructing me to lick up the puddle on the bed clothes. What a truly wonderful way to spend an afternoon, but it is now back to chastity time again.

Why i Love The Weekend

It may seem an obvious thing to say, after all who amongst us that works Monday-Fridays is going to not like the weekend? However, for me the weekend is extra special as that is the time when i am expected and able to dress in feminine attire the whole time. Yep, Friday night sees the nail varnish go on and the nervous excitement build at the prospect of public outings in make-up and pretty clothes. i get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it, but each time gets a little easier than the last and Owner has been encouraging and supporting me to increase my feminisation in public.

When i first started being 'forcibly-femmed' - by that i mean not just wearing pretty panties under everyday work clothes (something i do everyday and have done for some years) but wearing something that is visible to the public i was totally terrified. i can still remember the time Owner took me to a restaurant (it was my birthday) and mid-way through the meal produced a bag and instructed me to go to the toilets and put on the contents - make-up - i was mortified. i did, of course, do as instructed but didn't dare to meet anyones eyes and was a nervous and embarassed squirming wreck - albeit in a good way! i had discussed with Owner my interest in being femmed and this was my public introduction. That was followed by other little public 'challenges' - going to the shops wearing make-up or having to purchase feminine items designed to embarass me, such as try on high heels in a busy shop etc.

However, now being femmed and being able to dress feminine in public is something that i actively look forward to - although the nerves are still there, just less. Now every evening after work i put on make-up and dress pretty and sluttily for Owner, but it is only really the weekend when i get to promenade in public with Owner. It's been fascinating, from my own perspective, to see how much more confident i have become - more so than i ever felt possible - and i believe this new-found confidence has also manifested itself positively in other areas of my life. So the weekend is now a time to look forward to and relish and to put my best foot forward, hold my head high, look other Londoners in the eye and say to myself - 'i don't care what you think of me or how i look, my Owner loves me, i love her and am happy with how i am, deal with it!'

The only thing that i haven't yet tried or been asked to try by Owner is wearing a skirt in public - other than to an event. My outdoor femme experience is still limited to full make-up, pretty tops, collar, heeled boots and women's jeans i.e. no skirts to date. i hope one day that Owner will request that too. i'll be a nervous wreck again but am now confident i could do it and once done once, well as they say...a slut does like to be seen in a skirt.

Tease and Denial

Owner has been having a lot of fun with Her trainee pet lately, indeed so much fun that he feels as if he is in a state of almost permanent arousal, which is a wonderfully frustrating state to be in! The reason for my current heightened state of arousal is two-fold;

1) Owner has recently taken to slapping and spanking my testicles on a regular basis. It is a strange sensation to have your testicles regularly and repeatedly struck, although the first blows are invariably uncomfortable and your body naturally tries to move away from the source of the sensation/discomfort by about blow number 5 something strange and altogether unexpected begins to happen. You (or at least i) begin to move your hips forward and spread your legs wider so that your testicles are even easier to access. By the time Owner has finished this little slut is driven wild with desire, moaning loadly with hips thrust forward, legs spread far apart and dangerously close to orgasm (something he knows he is not allowed to do) and all from just being struck repeatedly in the testicles.

2) Owner recently purchased a new toy as a gift for Her trainee pet to help train his pussy and keep it nicely stretched for Her. The gift in question is a wonderful Baroque solid metal butt plug from the lovely people at tickleberry

The plug is really quite heavy and large and is an excellent means for Owner to get Her trainee pet purring. The plug combined with the testicle spanking drive this little slut wild, and last night Owner combined the two sensations with the added sensation of clamping my nipples with clover clamps, having me grip the chain in my teeth and then pulling my head right back so that the chain on the clamps was pulled extremely tight. Just to make sure Owner then grabbed my nipple rings and began twisting and pulling them hard in between spanking my testicles.

All of the above was a part of a punishment which had also seen me released temporarily from chastity and made to masturbate with an exfoliating mitten. As Owner spanked and twisted Her trainee pet was commanded to masturbate for Her amusement until on the edge of orgasm and then stop before being ordered to commence again. With each passing minute my moans were getting louder and louder. This continued for some time as Owner judged how close She could get me to orgasm without actually granting me permission. It was amazingly intense and i was so frustratingly aroused i feared that even the merest extra twist of a nipple could lead to unfortunate consequences!

i was wearing a pair of crotchless 'stocking-style' tights and Owner then proceeded to employ them to great affect as a 'holster' for her vibrator. She slid the vibrator between my buttocks and the waist of the stockings and then effectively rode me for Her pleasure. Needless to say this left me in an even more frenzied state of arousal at which point i was instructed to return once again to chastity.

i truly adore being left in this state, it can last for days on end with me hopelessly, uncomfortably and frustratingly aroused. In fact, Owner often likes to use me as a 'prop' for Her own pleasure and it truly is wonderful to be able to serve Her and please Her in this way.


i am an extremely lucky trainee pet and want nothing more than to be able to continue to serve my Owner and be trained by Her.

Belgium - boring? NO!

Well, despite my best efforts i didn't get offered a part by Owner in Her 'Plan 9 For Spoilt Pets' production. However, She did state that She was impressed by my slutty creativity and so invited me to a 'Playpet' photoshoot in Belgium.

Confused? well this is a wonderful example of the kind of fun creativity Owner loves to inject into our FLR relationship. A few months ago Owner was working hard for a course and i helped Her as best i could, proofing Her essays, suggesting some minor revisions etc. As a thank you Owner booked the two of us to spend a weekend in Bruges in Belgium. This in turn developed into a new idea of Hers, namely a 'Playpet' photoshoot with me posing for slutty pictures in the hotel and in the streets of Bruges and Brussels.

The following are some of the photos that Owner took:

Hotel bedroom slut

Hotel garden slut

Happy slut on bridge in Bruges

Nervous Slut in 'Parc de Bruxelles' in Brussels

As you can see we both had a fantastic time in Belgium, the weather was perfect and we treated ourselves to chocolates and beer. Both Brussels and Bruges have lots of pretty places to visit and a wealth of history to explore. They also have some fabulous shops. The highlight of the trip for me though was that Owner granted me permission to buy my first bra. Owner chose a matching bra and panties set which i absolutely adore. i hope you will agree that they are divine?

What A Weekend

This weekend Owner and i celebrated our 3rd anniversary with a return trip to our favourite London hotel, and the location where we first kissed. Needless to say we had a fantastic time. Owner played a wonderful game with me which had me blindfolded crawling across the hotel bedroom floor on all fours with Owner caning and spanking me and then ultimately fucking me with her strap-on.



Then when we returned home it was time for for my audition for 'Plan 9 for Spoilt Pets'



First i had to audition for a role as a zombie slut, this was my interpretation:





Then i had to demonstrate my ability to convey emotion in a scene, this was me showing my adoration for my Owner:











This was followed by me auditioning for the role of Slut Vampire Victim, my attempts were pretty feeble but here is one of my poses

After this i had to attach a tower of pain to my nipples and prepare for the pain endurance test. This involved being spanked 80 times with Owners favourite leather paddle and having metal clamps attached to my testicles whilst still wearing the tower of pain nipple clamps.

To round off an absolutely fantastic weekend i gave Owner a pedicure and foot massage. Who said that being a submissive is all hard work, it can be great fun too!!

Plan 9 For Spoilt Pets

i am extremely lucky in that i have a wonderfully creative Owner who believes that my training and development as Her submissive should be fun for both of us. One example of this is a forthcoming challenge She has set for me this weekend called 'Plan 9 For Spoilt Pets'. Based on the classic sci-fi film 'Plan 9 From Outer Space', Owner has set me a challenge of first applying for a role and then auditioning for a part in Her own version of the film. This week i had to prepare my CV and a covering letter for Her to consider and then on Sunday, having been accepted for audition, comes the big moment itself. Owner has set me a series of challenges.

The first consists of dressing as a 'Zombie Slut' and then as a 'Slut Vampire Victim'. Owner expects me to demonstrate my acting abilities and will be photographing me in my roles.

Secondly, i have to practice my facial expressions ranging from happiness, sadness, pain and sluttiness.

Third, i have to deliver a series of lines and speeches to Her satisfaction - all adapted from the original screenplay.

Fourth, i am then to demonstrate my ability to endure punishment and torture to Her
satisfaction using implements such as Her favourite spanking paddle, tower of pain
nipple device and lots and lots of mini metal clothes pegs.

These challenges that Owner sets me as part of my training are always great fun and provide me with something to concentrate my efforts on in preparation for over the preceeding week. In the past there have been a range of other such challenges, generally all themed, in which i have been expected to demonstrate my sluttiness, creativity and ability to endure punishment and discipline to Her satisfaction. i really can't wait and am terribly excited about the event. i will see if i am allowed to post some pictures from the event afterwards.

Outside of the 'Plan 9' event my own re-training as Owners submissive is progressing steadily. i'm really pleased that i am now once again back into the routine of doing all of the household chores and duties i had been neglecting in the period leading upto my disastrous contract review at the beginning of September. Owner has even been receiving nightly foot massages for the past month, something that i am greatly enjoying giving, especially as i am allowed to orally clean and worship Her feet beforehand. So so far so good, though i still keep receiving punishments somehow!

This weekend is also our 3rd anniversary. Owner an i first became lovers, having known each other as friends for about 6 months, when Owner kissed me at Charing Cross station in London (though we started out vanilla the signs of future FLR where there from the beginning) . Since then, we have returned every year at least once to the hotel above the station (which is very grand) and booked ourselves into one of their executive suites for the night. It is a lovely thing to do every year to mark significant moments in our lives together (of which there have been many).

i really am blessed to be able to share my life with such a wonderful woman and Owner and i can't imagine anything better than spending the rest of my life with Her. To be able to submit and to be accepted into training by such a wonderful woman is the icing on the cake. The best thing about it too is that we both love and our developing into our respective roles. Owner is becoming ever more assertive and demanding of what She expects from Her trainee pet and i in turn am experiencing the joy that is to be able to submit with heart and body to the one i love. As we develop as a couple so too does our Female-led relationship and we are both loving and learning from the journey.

Latest 'Forcedfem' Challenge

Owner has, as mentioned previously, recommenced setting her trainee pet with a series of challenges for him to undertake. Today i had to meet Owner at Kings Cross station in London and walk around the station hall wearing my red high heeled shoes. In an effort to please Owner i also put on some light make-up, my outdoor 'training' collar, a red top to match my heels, trainee pet 'L' badge and red stockings under my fem jeans.

i was nervous as hell before meeting Owner, the station was packed and i couldn't find anywhere discrete to take-off my boots and slip on my heels. However, i was able to find a quiet corner of the station to change my footwear moderately discretely - only those queing for the taxis could see me, and so was fully prepared and dressed for the challenge when Owner greeted me. Owner led me into the station itself and then showed the route that i was to walk, basically i had to do a lap of the station hall. i nervously set off on my trot around the hall being careful to try and ensure i did not slip! or to make eye contact with people just in case i recognised someone!

The picture was taken by Owner at the end of my lap. i think you can tell i was both relieved and excited to have completed my challenge. i particularly like the police officer in the background!

It is our anniversary in a week's time and i am taking Owner to our favourite hotel for the night. Apparently i am to have an audition the next day for Owner that she has entitled my 'Plan 9 For Spoilt Pet'. i have absolutely no idea what this will involve but will do my best and update what it involved and how i got on.

Challenges aside Owner has stated that She has observed an improvement in trainee pet's performance since She issued her ultimatum to me and i was demoted to trainee pet status. For myself, i feel i have now settled into a new routine and am remembering to do all of my household chores and duties, and generally strive to become a much better pet and submissive for Owner. It is wonderful to be back properly serving my Owner again and i think the picture shows just how happy i am to be back being trained. Our relationship is a journey and i have a long way to go and develop as a pet Owner can be truly proud of. But i am enjoying every minute of my re-training as Owners submissive and hope that i can continue to develop and progress in my submission to Her. i truly am a lucky trainee pet!

Holidays

Owner and i have just returned from a fantastic week away in a remote cottage near the sea. i have been trying to improve my performance of late, much needed as the results of my assessment will testify, and Owner seems to have noticed an improvement. i am now offering Owner nightly foot massages and am cleaning on a daily basis and i was really pleased that i continued to undertake these activities for Owner whilst we were on holiday.

Naturally, i still managed to do things wrong and require punishment. As a consequence i spent some time walking around a small market town with Owner whilst wearing japanese clover nipple clamps, which Owner took great delight in pulling and tugging! The funniest incident though occurred on the second to last day of our holiday. As a punishment Owner had me kneeling on all fours on a wooden table in the lounge. i was wearing weighted nipple clamps and had 20 mini clothes pegs attached to my testicles. There was a large butt plug in my 'pussy' and i had just commenced fellating Owners dildo (i was due to remain like this for at least 15 minutes) when there was a sudden knock at the door - bear in mind this was an isolated country cottage we where staying in. i had to make a rapid exit to the bathroom whilst Owner dealt with the caller - it turned out it was the cleaner who had got the date wrong for our departure. i'm just pleased i had remembered to lock the door and that she hadn't just walked straight in!

i am also getting accustomed to being caned once again on a regular basis. Owner currently administers 80 strikes of Her cane per session and we are currently working up towards 100 stokes plus. Owner has also added a new dimension to my punishments, now every time i do something that requires punishing She also removes one of the items of pretty clothing that i like to wear. This is actually a really good incentive to be better behaved as i love to dress up in pretty clothes and am mortified at the prospect of having nothing left to wear.

Owner has also re-commenced her series of humiliating/embarrassing challenges for me. At the airport at the start of our holiday i had to buy some lipstick and nail polish at the airport whilst wearing a tiara and later this week i have to walk the length of a busy London train station in red stiletto heels - which could be interesting!

It's so nice to be back serving my Owner once again, we both feel so much happier and more content. i just hope that one day i can again earn the right to wear Owners collar.

Demoted to trainee pet

Yesterday was the anniversary of my collaring by Owner. However, it was not a cause for celebration as I have been demoted to trainee pet and had my full pet collar removed. Owner is extremely justified in doing this and has rightly commenced a period of intensive re-training of Her pet to get me back performing my expected tasks and duties. To explain why this situation has arisen I need to briefly re-cap the past year of our lives together.

My collaring ceremony on the 8th September 2007 was and is one of the proudest days of my life. Owner had stipulated a series of behaviours and tasks that she expected me, as her pet, to perform for her. Owner had stated that these would be continuously built upon over time to further my total submission to Her in our relationship. For the first 8 months things went extremely well. i was performing my tasks and duties as expected and was relishing my role as Her submissive pet. i was learning and acquiring new skills and was an extremely happy submissive pet.

Then a couple of things happened which, though I do not offer them as an excuse for the subsequent decline in my behaviour and eventual demotion back to trainee pet status, do provide the context for my decline in behaviour. Those things were

• Trying and ultimately failing to sell our flat and buy a house
• Owner commencing a period of intensive study for a course she was doing

Trying to sell the flat meant that house hunting, having to show people around the place, dealing with solicitors and incompetent estate agents etc. The routines that Owner and i had built into our relationship got seriously disturbed and our lives became increasingly stressful as the housing market collapsed whilst we were in the middle of trying to move. Eventually, everything fell through and we’ve decided to stay put for now. However, the experience left us both tired, stressed and emotionally drained.

Owners course meant that She was spending most evenings and weekends studying. Though i helped where I could it did mean that She had little or no time for the fun activities we used to enjoy together. Whilst Owner studied i became restless and distracted. i spent more time on the internet and neglected my duties towards Her. In short, i became a not very good pet at all.

When Owners course ended and the house/flat non-sale/purchase came to an end Owner presented me with a formal notice that my decline in behaviour and performance had been noted and i could either accept re-training along Her lines or be dismissed completely as Her Owned submissive pet. i readily signed the letter. i too had noticed how i had become listless and ill-at-ease with myself. In short, i was as unhappy with life as my Owner was with my behaviour and performance. i recognise that i am only truly happy when serving my Owner and urgently needed help to get me back on track. Owner and i made a list of areas that i had continued to perform Ok in during this period, tasks/activities i had neglected and those i had not even started. This list is detailed below:

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Things I have done
Worn my collar and cuffs at home
Worn pretty clothes and make-up at home
Been in chastity
Saved some money on a regular basis
Cooking for Owner
Washing dishes
Snuggling up with Owner
Relaxing Owner
Cleaning sex toys after use and ensuring we have supplies of condoms/lubricant
Kept toe nails painted
Bent over and made himself available on command
Obtained Owners permission before buying clothes for himself
Worn his tag
Not initiated sex
Greeted Owner at door by kissing her feet
Thank Owner on knees after supervised shower
Wearing high heels at home


Things I have done but not all the time
Updated my journal and diary
Worn make-up and women’s outfits at weekends
Reminded my Owner when I am due a supervised shower
Baked Owner nice cakes/bread/biscuits
Ensured that the washing does not pile-up
Polished Owners shoes
Been Owner sex slave (apart from when pet was ill)
Not drinking alcohol very often (slipped a little lately) – but did ask permission
Reminding Owner when punishment is due
Pleasing Owner orally/manually in bed
Worn his (outdoor collar) when outside the house
Clean bathroom sink/toilet daily
Ensure clothes are neat and tidy
Preparing mini-dungeon on a Friday
Change bed linen every 2 weeks
Not orgasmed without permission


Things I haven’t done at all in past couple of months
Given my Owner a pedicure
Hand-washing Owners underwear
Pleasing Owner sexually using Queening stool
Serving as a foot rest
Licking Owners feet
Learning word/powerpoint
Obtained Owners permission before making purchases over £10
Warmed up Owners side of the bed (not easy to do if giving foot massage as well – need to discuss how best to do this i.e. should pet go to bed before Owner?)
Been kneeling on floor when apologising to Owner
Cleaned the flat completely once a week
Offered my Owner a nightly foot massage
Studied Spanish

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It is now a week since Owner agreed to re-train me. i am already feeling much happier and contented than i was before and my performance is gradually returning to the level expected of me.
Owner too has commenced more regular punishments including regular canings and flogging (arse and testicles) and is again enjoying fucking Her pet.

So, although i am now once again just a trainee pet i am now much, much happier than a few weeks ago and our lives are back on track. It is wonderful to once again be serving Owner as She expects.

Upcoming Appraisal

i have my appraisal with my Owner coming up shortly. About every six months Owner reviews my performance with me and points out areas for improvement, areas of concern and establishes new challenges and development goals for her pet. Unfortunately, i don't think this latest one will go that well as i have slipped back into some bad habits. i have asked Owner to be more severe and demanding with me and to pull me up straight away whenever i fall short of Her expectations. i know that i should not have to ask Owner to do this but i think it will help get my development as her pet back on track. i guess i will find out soon enough.