A Productive, Cultural and Enjoyable Few Days

The past few days have seen all the many facets of Owner and my FLR relationship on display. On Thursday after work my usual cleaning chores were made just that little bit more interesting by being required to complete them whilst not just gagged but also wearing a pair of Owners' used knickers over my head. This meant i got the treat of inhaling Owner's wonderful scent whilst i dusted.

If that was not exciting enough the following morning Owner woke me by playing with and teasing my unlocked clit and my all too easily aroused nipples before then allowing me to pull down Her panties and feast on Her delicious anus with my tongue. 

Later, after returning from Her early morning walk Owner chose to spank my 'labia plums' between my legs rather than my buttocks as is Her normal custom whilst i bent down and kissed and licked Her shoes in greetings. Which left me even more painfully aroused.

Kissing Owners feet in greeting upon Her return home

What a glorious way to start a day.

On Saturday, after completing my studies and morning chores and exercises i was invited to accompany Owner on a trip to the British Museum to visit the Ancient Greek and Roman galleries. There were some fascinating, if stolen, artifacts including this wonderful wall relief of female Amazonian fighters in combat (part of a much bigger section)

And this rather wonderful flying cock, complete with bells

Having had our fill of culture we then retired to the Princess Louise pub in Holborn. The pub has a wonderfully ornate interior complete with wooden cubicles. Owner and i enjoyed a few drinks inside

me with my pint of cider

This morning i again did my studies and exercises. Owner also decided that She would go through all my clothing to identify items that She deemed it no longer necessary for me to have and which were all thrown away/recycled. i am grateful to Owner for taking the time to do this and i also know how lucky i am that She also purchased a couple of new blouses and a pair of jeans for me. i am not allowed to purchase any clothes myself or decide whether or not i get to keep the clothes Owner purchases for me.

i have also finally finished the first full length draft of my first novel. It is a sci-fi, Femdom epic that pits the forces of orgasm denial against an Alpha menace who believe in orgasms for all. Believe it or not, i have been writing it on and off since 2020! It currently clocks in at over 220 pages long and does need quite a bit of editing before it gets published but at least the story is finally finished. Watch this space. i hope to get it finally finished in the next few months - famous last words!

Oh and you may also have noticed a new feature has appeared on the blog in the form of a 'buy me coffee' or more accurately 'buy Owner coffee' feature. It is there if anyone should wish to make a contribution/donation to Owner (any monies donated go direct to Her) to support Her continued training and development of me. i hope it is not too intrusive an addition to the blog.

Finally, Owner has also advised that She will be spanking and electrocuting me this evening, for which i am grateful to Her.

 In the immortal words of Bugs Bunny, 'That's all folks' for now at least.

UPDATE (17.55) - my bottom paddled with the rubber paddle

Out and About

Owner and i are having a quieter day today after spending much of the day yesterday out and about in town. After completing my morning studies, chores and exercises She took me out to Covent Garden to do a spot of shopping and to have lunch together. We went to a lovely Burmese restaurant where Owner ordered a delicious mutton curry for me with coconut rice whilst She ordered tofu nway for Herself. Post-lunch we headed south over the river and walked up to London Bridge then onto Bermondsey where we had drinks in a few different bars before we headed back home.

Crossing over the River Thames

Can you spot me at the bar?

In another bar

Today is a quieter day. This morning i rolled the dice for my monthly challenge (bra flash) which Owner said She would accompany me on. i did my usual studies and exercises then cooked lunch for us both (paprika roasted broccoli, cauliflower, haloumi, pork chippolatas and cashew nuts) before setting off with Owner to be photographed. Not my most daring of challenges but i was wearing a matching bra and knickers!

having a bad hair moment!

Bra flashed we then popped into a local cafe for coffees before returning home.

This afternoon we plan to settle in and watch a movie together.

i am pleased to report that i have been maintaining my new tasks and duties that Owner has set me. She has remarked on more than one occasion how neat and tidy Her wardrobe and drawers now are. However, i did forget to complete one of my weekly tasks, wearing Her used panties over my head whilst working from home, for which i will be punished.

We have a plumber/builder arriving for two days at the start of next week to affect a repair to our shower but hopefully after that life in Owners' flat will be back to normal again.

Out and About with Owner

Owner and i have had an enjoyable weekend. On Saturday Owner left home early to meet up with friends for lunch. She had arranged for me to meet up with Her later in the afternoon for some drinks. 

Before She left Her home i had already completed my exercises, Spanish studies and cleaned out the aquarium. Whilst She was gone i finished ironing and then swept and mopped all of the floors and made myself a lunch comprising the leftovers from the meal i had made the night before.

i also decided to paint my nails blue. However, after two disasters (the first time the clear top coat turned gloopy and the second i smudged an entire nail whilst putting on a hair band) i abandoned my attempt to go bright blue and instead opted for a metallic blue sheen. i then headed out to rendezvous with Owner at the allotted time.

The first pub we went to used to be a firm favourite of ours, the Ship Tavern. It is an old tavern tucked away behind Holborn station. It used to do a fine line in bags of roasted nuts. However, that was before the pandemic. This was our first visit since those times. Oh dear, the service was poor and, worse still, they had installed a TV for sports (bloody rugby) and no longer sold nuts! We finished our drinks and headed to another old haunt.

The Cittie of Yorke pub is actually a 1920s built mock Tudor design, however, it pulls if off with aplomb. The interior is fabulous and there are always tourists taking photos inside. The drinks are also very inexpensive. To Owner and my delight, it turns out they have also started to sell smoked nuts...huzzah! We settled down to drink, snack and people watch.

Owner decried the lack of talent on display amongst our fellow drinkers but we both had a lovely time. Here i am doing something strange with my hand!

with my metallic blue nails

Today we went to the Diva exhibition at the V&A. It was a great exhibition featuring lots of iconic women (and the odd fella and trans artist) from across the performing arts over the past couple of centuries. It was well worth the visit. 

deviant diva :)

When we returned home Owner ushered me into the bedroom where She paddled my bum and my bits before instructing me to do Her hair for Her

paddled plums

paddled bum

Earlier this morning, after completing my regular Spanish studies, exercises and chores, i popped a leg of lamb into the slow cooker. Nine hours later i think it should be done :). i will be serving it to Owner for dinner shortly.

i hope your weekend was as enjoyable as mine.

The week ahead promises to be an interesting one, what with an outdoor challenge, chastity dice and cage time to come. Stay tuned.

A Productive But Chilled Weekend

Owner and i are enjoying a productive weekend but one that has also seen us both relax and chill-out together. The weekend started with me doing some housework and having the opportunity to imbibe a delicious glass of Owner's finest nectar.

Next we moved onto a period of intensive clothes rummaging to identify items to be donated to charity. i should explain a key difference between Owner and i. It is that i am a horder and Owner is not. Given half the chance i will hold onto anything and everything on the off-chance that it might, some day in the dim and distant future, be of use. Over the years Owner has successfully managed to ensure i get rid of nearly everything that is not essential to me, or more importantly, of use to Her. My books, records, ornaments and general bric-a-brac have all long gone to the great jumble sale in the sky [Edit by Owner - I would like to point out that your CDs are still all on display and the two metal candlesticks are also yours]. Other than one or two items of genuine sentimental value everything on display in our flat is Hers [Owner: this is a lie]. Yes, our female-led relationship extends to household items too :)

Anyway, back to clothing. Owner presented me with an ultimatum, namely to identify clothes that i don't wear that could be recycled as my side of the wardrobe was getting 'ridiculous'. It was hard going through things and pulling stuff out to get rid of, but i did as i was told and soon had a couple of piles of clothes and shoes to get rid of. Owner also did the same exercise (unlike me She regularly has big clear-outs). Between us we filled five large black bin bags full of clothes, shoes and bags to donate to charity. Hopefully, my wardrobe is now 'safe' for a few more months [Owner: I will be the judge of that].

i also did some baking. i love to bake for Owner but for various reasons have not done so for ages. It felt good to have my hands deep in dough again and the resultant biscuits were, according to Owner, delicious.

On returning Owner gave me a caning (postponed from the night before on account of Her feeling knackered from work). i was caned hard across my bottom whilst my chastised clit was adorned with twenty mini-clothes pegs. It was painful but my bottom felt delightfully 'hot' afterwards.

caned bottom and thighs

caged clit adorned with pegs

It is not all about pain and punishments i do sometimes get to experience some pleasure too. Earlier in the week, after i had done my outdoor challenge, Owner treated me by allowing me to fuck myself with one of Her dildo's under Her supervision. It was a rare pleasure and one i quickly started to enjoy. Luckily Owner was on hand to ensure that i did not enjoy it too much. i was a good 'gurl' and didn't even leak let alone get anywhere close to cumming. However, it did leave me feeling wonderfully aroused.

Then yesterday, Owner returned from the shops with some drinks for us to have at home (rum and coke for Her and cider for me) whilst we settled in and watched a movie together. The film we saw was a wonderful Danish production called Another Round about a group of middle-aged, male teachers who decide their work and relationships would be much improved if they spent all of their time drunk. It is fair to say their efforts end with mixed results. The film is superbly acted and is one of the greatest discourses on alcohol (good and bad) i have seen. It is well worth a watch.

Today, after completing my daily list of chores and my Spanish study (which incidentally i have been doing religiously everyday apart from on days when i was ill) Owner and i are booked to go the cinema to watch Aftersun which also promises to be good. 

i hope everyone else is having an equally enjoyable and productive weekend.

Clamps, Spanks and a Strip

Hello all, i trust that you are having enjoyable weekends? i have spent some of mine being spanked by Owner, doing some housework, studying, serving as Owners' hair dresser and doing a little strip-tease performance for Her. In between we also managed to squeeze in my regular Saturday morning piss-drinking treat (warm, golden and delicious), some exercises (to try and trim the fat i have put on over the past few months) and watched a movie together with home made popcorn. It has been quite a busy day and i still have some baking to do later!

Tomorrow we are heading out for lunch before going onto an exhibition in the afternoon. i am also hoping to have my consultation with the tattooist whom i hope will then, sometime in the next few weeks, ink my right breast with the tattoo that Owner has designed for me. i cannot wait to get it done.

Oh, and the week started with Owner sending me to do a lap of our local park with my nipples clamped and to sniff Her used knickers near the park cafe. It was a pleasant day and there were lots of people about so i had to be relatively discrete about it!

Anyway, here are some vignettes from my week

nipples clamped in the park

sniffing Owners' use knickers near the park cafe

The spanking i received today was administered using the new green leather paddle that i purchased for Owner (with Her permission) at the fetish market we attended last weekend. Owner says She really like it and that it is easy to use. As you can see it left me with a pink bottom

my post-spanking bottom and Owners' new green paddle

And so to the strip-tease. The routine Owner had requested from me was a version of the strip-tease by Kim Basinger in front of Micky Rourke in the film 9 1/2 weeks. Well, i think i can safely say that Ms Basinger does a much better and far sexier job than i did, but Owner was amused. Here are some stills and video extracts from my routine

trying to look sexy

A Warm Weekend

This weekend has been quite hot, although not as hot as it seems to have been in mainland Europe. Owner is not a big fan of the heat at the best of times and She was not feeling too great and so Saturday was spent indoors doing as little as possible. We watched the World Cup matches together and i did my exercises and some housework but essentially it was a very sedentary day.

Today, however, the weather was a little cooler and so after completing my morning exercises we decided to head out to Canary Wharf for lunch and a little bit of retail therapy. Owner chose my outfit for the day.

Owner loves my panda t-shirt

In the roof garden above Canary Wharf station

We headed first to the restaurant for lunch. As usual Owner chose my meal and drink for me. After eating we then headed to the shops. There were a few sales on and it proved to be my lucky day as Owner bought me a lovely pair of ripped denim shorts and a spotty sleeveless top in Zara as well as another top for Herself.

Shopping completed we returned home and settled down to watch an episode of Billions together. Well, sort of together as i was tied to a chair to watch it. My being tied to the chair for an episode resulted from me having gone into the office one day last week and it being the 'punishment' that the working away from home dice had determined. It required that i be tied to a chair when watching a TV episode with Owner and this was the first one we had watched together since. Owner did a very thorough job of tying me up

All tied-up

Incidentally, one of the main characters in Billions has a Femdom relationship with his wife so it was rather appropriate that i should be watching the episode whilst suitably restrained!

Some readers may have wondered whatever happened to the rewards scheme that Owner instigated a few weeks back in which i could earn tokens and then exchange them for 'treats'; such as glasses of Owners delicious urine or the opportunity to deep throat a dildo in public (amongst other things). Well, Owner established a very high bar for these rewards and up until this weekend She adjudged that i had not completed any of the tasks for which tokens could be earned to a sufficiently high standard to warrant me earning any tokens. Each day i have stared forlornly at the little pile of 'tokens' to be earned that sit on our coffee table and the pink piggy bank in which successfully earned tokens would be deposited. That piggy bank has stayed depressingly empty for weeks. Empty that is until today. This weekend Owner decided that i had done enough to be rewarded with one token. Not enough to receive any kind of 'treat' but at least it is a start! You can see the piggy bank with the solitary token inside next to the pile of yet to be earned tokens next to it. i am clearly going to have to up my game if i want to earn some more tokens quickly - which i do!

my reward piggy bank with one token inside and a pile of tokens waiting to be earned behind

An Enjoyable Exhibition

Today Owner and i visited the Kiss My Genders exhibition at the Hayward Gallery on London's South Bank. It really is worth visiting if you are in town. Before going to the gallery Owner took me out for a lovely lunch. She chose squid for me and even bought me a cider to go with it. After the main course She then announced that i was also permitted a desert and She chose some delicious ice cream. i mention all of this as Owner deciding what i will eat has become a normal part of our relationship for the past few years. She knows me well and i will eat anything and so it is Her that chooses from the menu for me. More recently this approach has also extended to Her also deciding what i will drink when we go out together. It works well and is just a little example of Owner's control over all aspects of my life.

waiting for Owner to choose my meal

 This past week has been a very busy one work wise. There was not a single day when i was working from home which wasn't much fun, and i have been travelling quite a bit. As a result it has been quite nice just to have a relaxed weekend with Owner. We watched a movie at home yesterday and then went to the exhibition today.

Later i will give Owner a foot massage whilst She watches some of the Football World Cup and then do some ironing and get ready for the week ahead.

i hope to be working from home a few days this coming week. i miss not being able to spend the day in a skirt. They are forecasting a mini-heatwave will hit and so i think it will be a case of wearing as little as possible without shocking the neighbour/delivery people too much if i bump into them - which i often do :)

A Lovely Weekend

Owner and i had a lovely relaxed weekend. On the Friday i was once again working from home (yay!) which meant another dice determined activity needed to be completed. This time i had to wear nipple clamps for 20 minutes whilst working . A few years ago we invested in what are actually some outdoor table cloth weights (which i had not realised were even a thing) which make for perfect nipple clamps/weights. The clamp is plastic, toothed and quite vicious whilst there are two weighted balls suspended from it. They are designed to stop picnic table cloths from bowing away in a breeze but make for ideal, albeit quite vicious, nipple clamps. This is what they looked like on me:

Work completed for the day Owner and i arranged to go to our local pub where we had a pleasant evening drinking and gossipping and then grabbed a pizza afterwards. It has been a while since we last went out for Friday night drinks and we both had a lovely time,

Saturday saw us catching up with quite a few things that needed doing like paperwork (Owner) and gardening (me).  Later in the day i had the pleasure of giving Owner a pedicure.

Then on Sunday we went out to the movies in the afternoon to see The Favourite (which is excellent by the way and also interesting from a domination/submission perspective) before returning home and a chance to catch-up with and  compete some housework (me) whilst Owner relaxed.

In short, it was just a lovely relaxing weekend

A Lovely and Relaxed Weekend

After recent weekends which have been spent travelling or dealing with work being done on our flat is was wonderful to have a weekend with Owner of just doing as much or as little as we wanted and just enjoying each others company.

Saturday morning started in fine style with Owner inviting me back to bed after breakfast where She proceeded to caress me, pull and twist my nipple and spank my clitty before applying Her vibrator to Her sex and having me lick and prove Her arse as She brought Herself to a happy and shuddering orgasm. i was in heaven as She toyed with and spanked my clitty hard (i have been out of chastity since our trip to Copenhagen) and rubbed Herself against my swollen clitty but left me deliciously and deliriously denied. As we snuggled i begged Her to be left in this state of denial until at least Christmas. Of course, the decision as to whether or no i will be prevented from or permitted to orgasm is Hers and Hers alone but i have to confess to adoring the feeling of  frustrated arousal. i love watching and listening to Her cum, playing my part in bringing Her pleasure and satisfaction, being told to lick Her arse (one of my all time favourite acts to perform) whilst all the while aching and throbbing but being kept denied myself. To me sex really doesn't get any better than that.

Anyway, where was i? Oh yes, the rest of Saturday was spent with me catching-up on some overdue tasks about the flat, doing a further edit to a short story i submitted for publication via Lulu.com (apparently a fully naked cover image isn't appropriate :) for an 'adult' short-story) and then watching TV together in the evening.

Sunday started equally brightly. As i was washing up from breakfast Owner grabbed the paddle that hangs near to the sink for just this reason and began to paddle my naked buttocks as i cleaned and scrubbed the dishes. Owner then reached underneath me o start paddling my exposed 'bits'. This evoked happy muffled groans and grunts of delight from your s truly (i always wear a ball gag when washing up - hence the muffled sounds). i spread my thighs as wide as i could  as Owner paddled my testes hard before hanging the paddle back on its hook next to the sink and leaving me to dry and put away the dishes and enjoy the hot throbbing between my legs.

Next i cleaned and dusted the lounge, albeit this time i did so with my clitty adorned with builders clamps and weighted table cloth weights. By the time i had finished and the clamps were removed my clitty had acquired a bright shade of hot pink and was marked by a series of 'teeth' imprints from the serrated plastic clamps. Combined with the earlier paddling ensured that my clitty remained wonderfully 'hot flushed' and sensitive for the rest of the day.

The afternoon saw us both walking to Greenwich where we looked (unsuccessfully) to try and find some beads and other charms etc for me to turn into jewellery. i have ordered a load of basics from Etsy and now need to start producing some actual items with a view to potentially opening a shop on Etsy to sell them through. Then we headed to the cinema where Owner had bought tickets for us to watch a thoroughly enjoyable Danish noir thriller called 'The Keeper of Lost Causes'. Being a trip to the cinema mean that, of course, i was expected to change into a skirt to watch the movie. Here's a picture of me waiting for us to be able to go into the screening

not the prettiest of legs and not sure the socks and flats were a good idea

and inside waiting for the movie to start - and yes a few more people did arrive before the film started!

After the movie ended i headed back to the toilets to get changed back into jeans for the journey home. Unusually, all the cubicles in the gent were bust so i had to wait for a while until one become free, all the time getting some curious looks from guys at the urinals!

When Owner and i got home the remainder of the evening was spent with me doing some more cleaning whilst Owner listed to the football on the internet and then i did some Spanish studies before we both retired to bed.

It really was a very enjoyable and relaxed weekend

Wonderful Weekend

Owner arrived safely back home on Friday after Her extended stay with Her family. It was wonderful to have Her back and i am pleased to say that, although we were apart, i kept up with my duties and studies whilst She was away. As mentioned in my last blog also Owner ensured that, although we were apart for a few days i was kept fully occupied by completing some additional activities and learning whilst She was away. The first of these was the jewellery workshop i attended one evening.

The second task set by Owner was also very interesting and has provided us with a number of ideas to help my continued development as Her wife. Owner told me to study a very interesting blog whilst we were apart about a woman in Toronto who documents Her attempts to live as a 1950s housewife with Her partner for two weeks. The blog can be found here and makes for a very interesting read. Owner requested that i read the blog in Her absence and then email a 1250 response to Owner documenting what i had learnt from the other woman's experience about life as a housewife in the 1950s and what ideas these had prompted that could be incorporated into our relationship and my service to Her as Her wife. i will post in more detail in future about this but needless to say Owner was delighted by my suggestions and has told me to start implementing some of them now.

Then over the weekend Owner treated me to a an overnight stay at the Morton Hotel just off Russel Square in London that we had never stayed in before but would highly recommend based on our own experience. i had bought us tickets to go to see the new Vikings Exhibition at the British Museum today and the hotel is just around the corner. Owner and i spent the evening in a local pub gossipping about the clientele   (our favourite activity) - though to be honest as the only male there who was wearing full makeup, dark nail polish and a pretty cardigan with a t-shirt with jeans, i suspect i was probably also the subject of gossip too!

This morning proved a real treat though. After breakfast Owner and i returned to our room where She promptly bound my wrists and then secured me to the bed before paddling me and then flogging my bits dangling from my chastised clitty. i confess that i absolutely adore being spanked and flogged on my testicles and Owner really gave them a good working over before She then pulled down Her own knickers and positioned Her backside just in front of my face for me to lick Her wonderful arse as She used Her vibrator to against Her clitty. i was in heaven as Owner buried my face in Her bottom and rode my tongue and vibrator to a powerful orgasm, whilst i remained securely bound and in chastity.I was a wonderful pleasure and treat to have an opportunity to taste and inhale Owner whilst my bits still throbbed from their flogging. Indeed, so arousing was the experience that i am still aching with pleasure now, many, many hours later! Here are a couple of pictures Owner took of me just before She rode my face.

the paddle Owner used

the impact of this flogger on my 'bits' was amazing

Flogging and paddling over Owner had me pose for Her. The hotel is themed on the art of the Bloomsbury set and Owner sought to take a few suitable shots of me posing with some of the prints etc in the room. As you can see the room was beautifully decorated.

Posing completed it was time to check out and head off to the Museum and the exhibition which was packed but very interesting.

It really has been a wonderful weekend and it is great to have Owner back. Incidentally, She starts Her new job tomorrow so wish Her well.

Weekend Domesticity

This weekend has been a quiet one for Owner and i. Owner has a stinking cold which, combined with Her period, has left Her feeling somewhat low. As a result we have spent most of the weekend pottering about in the flat. i've been cleaning and also on something of a baking frenzy, the result so far being being banana bread and a sticky lemon cake. Owner's cold doesn't seem to have affected Her appettite at least.

We've also got some new neighbours moving in to the house next door to our flat. No doubt they are looking forward to settling in to their new abode and getting acquainted with the neighbourhood. i just hope that they're not in for too much of a shock as their top floor overlooks our garden where i am often to be found pottering about en femme with my collar and cuffs on and is also the location for my whore training sessions with Owner. i just hope that they are like the couple who lived their previously and don't spend all their time looking out of the top floor windows, otherwise they may be in for something of a surprise!

The countdown has now also begun in earnest to our trip to Manchester next weekend. It's years since i was last there and Owner has never been so we're both looking forward to it. Manchester is actually an old haunt of mine as it is where i went to University (albeit  two decades ago). Owner has advised that i can expect to be asked to complete some challenges whilst we are there which, naturally, i am looking forward to.

Meanwhile, tonight i have promised Owner a little show which i hope will speed Her recovery. That's about it from me for now, adieu.

Weekend in the Spring Sunshine

This weekend has been a wonderful one with Owner. On Saturday after making us both pancakes for breakfast i went with Owner into town to do some shopping and for a walk along the South Bank. Owner allowed me to buy a lovely summer jacket and we enjoyed drinks outside one of London's oldest pubs before going for a meal. Today was a gorgeous day again and we walked to a wood about 4 miles from here before walking back, stopping off to buy some summer bedding plants on the way back. The afternoon found me out in our garden in my bikini top and Daisy Duke style short cut-off jeans potting-up some containers.

Later Owner administered my regular caning. She has now built it up to 160 strokes across my behind, 100 with the thin traditional cane and a further 60 with the thicker ratan cane, She is slowly building up my tolerance to caning. After the caning came the nipple and clit torture. Owner instructed me to go on all fours and fellate the dildo that is permanently attached to the end of our bed for just this purpose. She attached clover clamps to my nipples and then added some weights. Next She turned Her attention to my chastised little clit, adorning the exposed flesh with small metal clothes pegs before She proceeded to fuck me hard in my pussy. It was wonderful. Owner stated that i will receive more whore training on wednesday after work which i'm greatly looking forward to.

It was a wonderful weekend and we're both sad that tomorrow is another working day. If only there could be a way that the giant ash cloud that has stopped all air travel from the UK for the past 4 days could sink down to ground level and prevent all surface transport too so that we could both stay at home! Oh well, not long until the next weekend.

Why i Love The Weekend

It may seem an obvious thing to say, after all who amongst us that works Monday-Fridays is going to not like the weekend? However, for me the weekend is extra special as that is the time when i am expected and able to dress in feminine attire the whole time. Yep, Friday night sees the nail varnish go on and the nervous excitement build at the prospect of public outings in make-up and pretty clothes. i get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it, but each time gets a little easier than the last and Owner has been encouraging and supporting me to increase my feminisation in public.

When i first started being 'forcibly-femmed' - by that i mean not just wearing pretty panties under everyday work clothes (something i do everyday and have done for some years) but wearing something that is visible to the public i was totally terrified. i can still remember the time Owner took me to a restaurant (it was my birthday) and mid-way through the meal produced a bag and instructed me to go to the toilets and put on the contents - make-up - i was mortified. i did, of course, do as instructed but didn't dare to meet anyones eyes and was a nervous and embarassed squirming wreck - albeit in a good way! i had discussed with Owner my interest in being femmed and this was my public introduction. That was followed by other little public 'challenges' - going to the shops wearing make-up or having to purchase feminine items designed to embarass me, such as try on high heels in a busy shop etc.

However, now being femmed and being able to dress feminine in public is something that i actively look forward to - although the nerves are still there, just less. Now every evening after work i put on make-up and dress pretty and sluttily for Owner, but it is only really the weekend when i get to promenade in public with Owner. It's been fascinating, from my own perspective, to see how much more confident i have become - more so than i ever felt possible - and i believe this new-found confidence has also manifested itself positively in other areas of my life. So the weekend is now a time to look forward to and relish and to put my best foot forward, hold my head high, look other Londoners in the eye and say to myself - 'i don't care what you think of me or how i look, my Owner loves me, i love her and am happy with how i am, deal with it!'

The only thing that i haven't yet tried or been asked to try by Owner is wearing a skirt in public - other than to an event. My outdoor femme experience is still limited to full make-up, pretty tops, collar, heeled boots and women's jeans i.e. no skirts to date. i hope one day that Owner will request that too. i'll be a nervous wreck again but am now confident i could do it and once done once, well as they say...a slut does like to be seen in a skirt.