A Brief Update

There are a couple of noteworthy things to report since my last post. One of those is that Owner and i spent last weekend visiting my dad and his girlfriend. So what, i hear you say. Well, it was the first time in which we have stayed with them and i have worn a padded bra and makeup throughout our visit. Not a major thing i know but family visits like these have, until now, been one of the last remaining occasions when i would still revert to 'boy' mode. Yes, i would still be wearing women's jeans and tops and knickers etc but i would not have had my make-up on nor worn a 'visible' bra i.e. one that gives me a bust, albeit a small one. But no more. As i say, not a major thing but it did feel like another little line had been crossed on my journey.

On a similar front yesterday i went into the office for the first time since lockdown (having been working from home the past 18 months). The occasion was a face to face meeting with a board member of the organisation i work for. In the past i wore a bra and make-up to etc work but the bra was always of the non-padded variety. Not this time. This time i wore one of the padded variety. Again, not a massive thing, it's not like i was wearing a skirt or dress, but a little step. The meeting itself went very well and he left fully satisfied. 

It was actually quite strange to be back in the office, which is in the middle of London and i was sad to be parted from Owner for the day. We have grown accustomed to working from home together. i do intend to try and keep doing so as much as is possible as i know She prefers to have me there. Afterall, a housewife's place is in the home as they say.

The week also started very well. On Monday i was also the very lucky recipient of a glass of Owner's finest pee to drink for breakfast. What a wonderful way to start the week. i love drinking Her urine but Her first piss of the day is always extra special as it has an intensity to it's flavour and taste that fades as the day progresses. However, that first morning release is rich and intense...and quite delicious. i also got to drink it out of my new 'special' engraved glass that confirms i am Her 'piss slut'.

me enjoying a glass of Owner's finest for breakfast on Monday

i would love to start every day this way!

Then this later in the week Owner had me eat dinner blindfolded whist wearing high heels and my 'cleaning uniform'. i genuinely could not see a thing.

me at the end of dinner with my blindfold still in place

The start of the week also saw me submitting my annual self-assessment of my performance to Owner  for Her consideration. i attempted to highlight areas where i felt i could improve and some of the things i thought i had done ok over the past 12 months. It has been a challenging year for a number of reasons. There have been the Covid restrictions, heavy workloads and Owner has also not been in the best of health but there are definitely ways in which my performance and as Her slutty, submissive wife could have been better. Owner has advised me that She wants to go through my self-assessment with me this coming Sunday. i look forward to receiving Her feedback to help me develop further.

Lastly, this weekend will also see me undertaking another monthly outdoor challenge. i have no idea what it might comprise but i look forward to giving it my best.

Take care everybody.

On Punishments and Consequences

Owner has a number of principles that inform Her approach to Her domination and control over me. One of these is that Her time is important to Her and that She expects Her control over me to help free up time for Her to spend how She likes, not add additional demands on Her time. To that end She looks for ways to increase and maintain Her control over me which do not require significant additional effort on Her part. In many sub/Dom relationships the dominant partner can often spend a lot of time focused on the desires of their sub. This can be time the dominant enjoys spending and Owner enjoys times like this too. However, She also expects my serving Her should free up time for Herself and not create additional burdens for Her.

One way this manifests itself is in the use of the dice for deciding punishments or challenges etc that i need to undertake. Once Owner has come up with an initial set of ideas to load the dice with She can then relax and let chance decide what i will need to do rather than Her having to think of something all the time. Periodically, the dice are updated and loaded with new instructions of Her devising but they are essentially a sort of time and labour saving device that provide me with the discipline, consequences or challenges that i need and crave whilst ensuring Owner gets to spend as much time as She likes doing other things.

Another principle that informs Owner's approach is that a 24/7 Femdom life needs to be practical and fun.She is not a sadist nor i a masochist. She will inflict pain and discomfort but does not seek to 'break' me, though whether She perhaps should is another matter (i write rather nervously knowing that Owner will review this post before it is published). Owner also likes to keep things light-hearted and fun. We do not do 'sessions', we live and act as we do 24/7 and i don't think either of us could sustain for very long a very hardcore and intense Dom/sub relationship. Though i submit completely to Owner and She controls pretty much all aspects of my life outside of work i am not Her slave and neither has She ever asked me to become her slave. She teases me that i am fluffy and could not handle life as a real slave but i equally think it is not what She would ever want Herself either. She absolutely is in control but that control is not enforced with an iron rod.

So time-saving (for Owner) and fun are both important facets of our relationship and these tend to be reflected in the ways that Owner exercises Her control over me. If Owner is annoyed with an aspect of my behaviour She will make Her feelings quite clear verbally and admonish me, only rarely will She actually physically punish me. In the meantime, the dice are used to keep me on my toes, break down some of my remaining inhibitions, practice my skills, increase my pain tolerance and discourage me from working away from home as much as possible.

With that in mind, here are some examples of more recent dice-determined things i have had to do recently

eating my dinner whilst blindfolded - incidentally i eat all my meals from this dog bowl

washing-up naked except for a pair of hold-ups and my furry butt-plug

The video below shows me self-administering one of the more 'uncomfortable' dice punishments - beating my 'plums' with Owner's favourite leather paddle