12 Days Later

i am delighted to say that after 12 interminable days of testing positive for Covid-19 this morning i finally tested negative, yippeee! i also feel so much better. i am no longer constantly exhausted and just lying about in bed being waited on by Owner. 

She has been amazing. She has made all my meals, done all the housework and the shopping and insisted throughout that i not lift a finger. She even sacrificed Her bedroom and moved into the spare room with its sofa bed whilst i wallowed about in our large four-poster. Remarkably, She managed not to catch the dreaded contagion from me although that did mean us trying to stay strictly segregated from each other in our little one and a bit bedroom flat. i took all my meals in the bedroom whilst She sat in the lounge and spoke to me across the open space of the corridor that separates both rooms. Tonight for the first time in almost two weeks i will actually be able to snuggle up against Her in bed again. That has been the worst part, not being able to touch Her or be close to Her.

As for me, i was actually not that well at all and this is despite the fact that i have had three vaccines to date. So anyone that says that Covid is no longer a risk is lying. It still is and it can still be pretty unpleasant even if you have been vaccinated. So please, pretty please, if you have not had a jab get one.

Anyway, back to today. In a sign that i am feeling better than i have been this morning i changed all the bedding and wiped down and disinfected the bedroom from top to bottom in preparation for Owner returning to sleep in here tonight with me. It has been horrible watching Her working so hard to take care of me and look after the flat when it should be me looking after Her and doing all the household chores etc. Hopefully normal service can now be resumed.

Owner has indicated that my performance review, postponed due to my illness, will now take place this weekend. i am really pleased by that and have made some suggestions to Her for ways in which Her control over me might also be further deepened which i hope She might consider. i also hope that She considers me now well enough to be caned or spanked etc again. This is also something that got put on hold due to my illness but i know i benefit from being beaten and it is also something that Owner Herself enjoys to do. It will be great for us both to re-start.

Anyway, that is about all from me for now. Take care all.

me this morning

A Brief Update

There are a couple of noteworthy things to report since my last post. One of those is that Owner and i spent last weekend visiting my dad and his girlfriend. So what, i hear you say. Well, it was the first time in which we have stayed with them and i have worn a padded bra and makeup throughout our visit. Not a major thing i know but family visits like these have, until now, been one of the last remaining occasions when i would still revert to 'boy' mode. Yes, i would still be wearing women's jeans and tops and knickers etc but i would not have had my make-up on nor worn a 'visible' bra i.e. one that gives me a bust, albeit a small one. But no more. As i say, not a major thing but it did feel like another little line had been crossed on my journey.

On a similar front yesterday i went into the office for the first time since lockdown (having been working from home the past 18 months). The occasion was a face to face meeting with a board member of the organisation i work for. In the past i wore a bra and make-up to etc work but the bra was always of the non-padded variety. Not this time. This time i wore one of the padded variety. Again, not a massive thing, it's not like i was wearing a skirt or dress, but a little step. The meeting itself went very well and he left fully satisfied. 

It was actually quite strange to be back in the office, which is in the middle of London and i was sad to be parted from Owner for the day. We have grown accustomed to working from home together. i do intend to try and keep doing so as much as is possible as i know She prefers to have me there. Afterall, a housewife's place is in the home as they say.

The week also started very well. On Monday i was also the very lucky recipient of a glass of Owner's finest pee to drink for breakfast. What a wonderful way to start the week. i love drinking Her urine but Her first piss of the day is always extra special as it has an intensity to it's flavour and taste that fades as the day progresses. However, that first morning release is rich and intense...and quite delicious. i also got to drink it out of my new 'special' engraved glass that confirms i am Her 'piss slut'.

me enjoying a glass of Owner's finest for breakfast on Monday

i would love to start every day this way!

Then this later in the week Owner had me eat dinner blindfolded whist wearing high heels and my 'cleaning uniform'. i genuinely could not see a thing.

me at the end of dinner with my blindfold still in place

The start of the week also saw me submitting my annual self-assessment of my performance to Owner  for Her consideration. i attempted to highlight areas where i felt i could improve and some of the things i thought i had done ok over the past 12 months. It has been a challenging year for a number of reasons. There have been the Covid restrictions, heavy workloads and Owner has also not been in the best of health but there are definitely ways in which my performance and as Her slutty, submissive wife could have been better. Owner has advised me that She wants to go through my self-assessment with me this coming Sunday. i look forward to receiving Her feedback to help me develop further.

Lastly, this weekend will also see me undertaking another monthly outdoor challenge. i have no idea what it might comprise but i look forward to giving it my best.

Take care everybody.

Adios 2020

As 2020 creeps closer to a close i am reminded of the quote 'may you live in interesting times' from Terry Pratchett's discworld series book Interesting Times. It is intended as a curse and 2020 truly has been a cursed year. Not only have we all had the global pandemic to deal with but here in the UK we have also had the self-inflicted psycho drama of Brexit to contend with (the real drama of which is still to begin).

On a personal level the year has been a tough one for Owner and i (as it has for many). Owner has not seen Her family in Spain for over a year, our ability to do the things we both enjoy doing together (travel, going out, people watching etc) has been severely curtailed and whilst our jobs have been super busy. But, but...on the other hand 2020 has also been a more positively memorable year.

For a start, Owner and i have had the opportunity to share much more time together with both of us working from home, which has been a real treat. It is lovely to be able to spend so much time with Her, to have lunch together and share brief moments together during our busy days in between meetings and calls. Neither of us wants to ever return to having to head into an office again.

It was a also a year of firsts for me. For example, before lock down (remember that) i actually appeared on stage in front of an audience, in chastity, wig and full make-up wearing a VERY short little dress and knee high socks at Owners request. It was a 'treat' from Owner as part of Her efforts to develop me into Her consummate little slut. The occasion was the London anime convention and it was my first foray into the world of cosplay. i was, quite frankly, terrified as i waited backstage for my moment in front of about 300 people. What was a 50 year old doing in a line of teenagers and twenty-somethings? But everyone was lovely and i got cheered and clapped. It was a thrill, a rush. i had not been on stage since school and, to be honest, i hope to be back on stage again one day, perhaps being even naughtier?

i also became accustomed during the year to having to go out and perform a number of outdoor challenges, again all part of my development. i am both shy and an exhibitionist. The idea of posing outdoors or in front of other people is both thrilling and horrifying. But, this year i have done quite a bit of outdoor posing, so much that Owner remarked on Christmas Day (as i completed my outdoor Christmas Angel photo shoot) that it is not really a challenge anymore. It is true that i have become much bolder and more confident, especially when She is with me. But, when She is not and i am on my own i still have to force myself to go through with what She has instructed.

The year also saw me permanently marked as being 'Owned' with Owner's initials also inked into my flesh for all to see. i adore the collection of tattoos that Owner has decorated me with, to me they are very public symbols of my complete surrender to Her and Her complete control of me. i am honoured to have them.

More recently i have also acquired some more marks, albeit ones that fade with time. i am talking now about being caned, paddled, flogged and spanked. Owner has always enjoyed doing this, She especially enjoys spanking my testicles and backside. However, in the past, when caning my bum it has always felt like she was holding back, resisting really striking me hard. That has now begun to change. In the run-up to Christmas i received quite regular canings, each of which was more intense than the other. They also migrated down my legs to include the backs of my thighs. The one on Christmas Eve was the most memorable. It left me with a wonderfully sore, throbbing bottom and thighs and even as i write this four days later my flesh is still visibly bruised from the cane's multiple impacts. Owner has also directed me to some shops on Etsy whose implements have caught Her eye and which She would like me to purchase for Her. i am delighted to say that it appears as though canings and beatings are to become a more commonplace and intense experience for me and will doubtless help with my continued development.

Talking of development i did fall a little off the wagon over the summer (during the period when i stopped blogging for a few months). Nothing serious, certainly no attempt to stop my submission, but my performance as Owners' housewife suffered. i let some of my chores slip, the daily meal's i still prepared became less interesting and i was not dressing as prettily as i could. In short, i was allowing my work to take over my life and was seriously neglecting my household duties and was in danger of really disappointing Owner. Thankfully our little two week holiday in Wales in the Autumn helped me to see the error of my ways. Since our return i am pleased to say that Owner has regularly complimented me on what a good 'wife' i am again. i am completing all of my household chores everyday and attending to any other wishes or needs Owner may have. i have also re-commenced my Spanish language studies and resumed my monthly strip-tease performances for Her.

One possible contributing factor behind the drop-off in my performance might be that this year, unlike 2019, i have been allowed to experience an orgasm. Four to be precise, four more than i did throughout all of 2019. The last one was over 4 months ago, which is also about the time when my performance and behaviour was at my least satisfactory. i have often thought that me having orgasms is detrimental to my focus and behaviour as Owners' submissive wife and since having my last my performance has been much better. We shall have to see whether this tear proves to have been an aberration and i will spend another year without release or whether Owner will continue to grant me the occasional one. What has been different this year, however, is that i have also spent less time in chastity that last year. This has led to the added need to exercise self-control as masturbation is obviously something that i am forbidden to do.

So to conclude, yes in many way 2020 has been a shit year. Owner did not get to go on Her 50th birthday trip to New York nor did we get to do many of the things we enjoy. But on the other hand neither we nor our loved ones have caught Covid-19 (touch wood) and we have still had plenty of fun. i also think that i am ending the year as a genuinely better pet, wife and person than i started it whilst in turn i think Owners' expectations and demands of me have (rightly) grown, Her assertiveness and control continues to grow and lately so too has Her readiness to inflict pain and to mark me. In short, there is much to look forward to for 2021.

On A High

Owner and i had my review meeting yesterday, but it was no ordinary meeting. Owner booked us both into a hotel near the Tower of London we stayed at a few years ago, the Apex London City. It is a wonderful hotel and we were upgraded to a junior suite. Owner also suggested that as we were staying close to The Shard it would be fun to go there later in the evening and watch the fireworks over London, it being bonfire weekend, from Europe's tallest building.

Owner had booked the hotel so that we would discuss how She wanted to shape my future development and assess where we were with our Femdom relationship away from any distractions. As it turned out our conversation started in the hotel room and then continued downstairs in the hotel bar and later at the restaurant She had booked for dinner (a delicious Thai place on Tooley St).

We talked, drank. talked and ate and then headed up, up. up to the 72nd floor of the Shard to watch the fireworks. Here are some photos from the evening;

The Shard at night

Tower Bridge and City Hall

The view from the 72nd floor - with a  firework exploding over Alexander Palace

But what of the review outcome? i hear you ask. Well, Owner was very fair. We agreed that this past 12 months has seen my performance and drop-off but there have been a number of mitigating factors. My work has become very busy and i am less able to work from home that i was, we have both been distracted by the political uncertainty in the UK caused by Brexit and Owner has not been well. AS a consequence, neither of us has been able to focus 100%. Life has got in the way.

However, we have agreed that we need to re-focus on my development and that i especially need to perform better but that there also need to be some adjustments made to my routines to recognise that i have less  time available to me than i did. Both of us have also got into the habit of spending evening watching TV series together after dinner - something we rarely ever did in the past, we used to rarely watch TV at all. So from now on, though Owner has said She still wants to watch TV with me and 'chill out' together, in future there will be consequences for me for doing so. Every so often when i sit down with Her i will have to select a punishment at random to be completed for the pleasure of enjoying some relaxed time with Her. These punishments have all been written on cards and placed in a pot on the lounge coffee table and they range from canings, to having multiple clamps attached to my nipples and/or clitty or sitting naked with just knickers on my head on our staircase, and various others to boot.

In fact clamps, in the form of electricians clamps, put in an appearance this morning. After returning to our room after breakfast - which of course Owner chose for me, as She later did my lunch - we headed straight back to bed. Owner soon started to rub Herself against me and soon i found that my clitty and my nipples had electricians clamps attached to them and i was greedily sucking on Owners perfect breasts - my excitement fast growing. Owner then instructed me to lie on my back, She grabbed Her vibrator and then adopted Her favourite (and mine) position. Namely, She straddled my head and whilst She pleasured Herself with Her vibrator i eagerly licked and probed Her anus with my tongue. Owner rode my face this way to a number of climaxes whilst i was granted the opportunity to enjoy the exquisite taste of Her anus. Truly, if their is a food of the Gods that is it (sorry we have been watching a number of Viking series of late!).

However, it soon transpired that Owner had more pleasure in store for me. After satiating Herself on my face She then had me get onto all fours and, with my clitty and nipples still clamped, She proceeded to first fuck my 'pussy' with Her lubed fingers and then inserted a dildo and fuck me with it until i pleaded for permission to cum. It was granted and two seconds later Owner was feeding me a handful of my own mess that She had scooped up from the sheets. It was a wonderful way to start the day!

After showering we then had time to do a quick photo shoot in the hotel room before we checked out and headed off for lunch and then home. We haven't done a weekend away like this in our home city for a while and we both had a wonderful time. Here are some pictures from the photo shoot to end with

Update and Review Meeting Request from Owner

For what has felt like the first time in ages i actually got to work from home one day this last week. Thus, i was able to dress up in my usual home working uniform. i can't tell you how much we have both missed it (both Owner and i) but it was lovely to be able to do again. Owner remarked that She too has missed having not Her 'wife' dressed appropriately and working from home lately (even though She has to go into Her office). We had no deliveries or other visitors during the day so i didn't get to parade around in front of others but it was lovely to be back at home dressed appropriately for work. This is what i was wearing, nothing fancy, just one of my office 'uniforms',

i am working from home one day this coming week too and am looking forward to the prospect of dressign appropriately again already. Incidentally, i got my haircut yesterday so it now looks a little shorter than it does in the picture above.

This mornign before breakfast Owner treated me to a wonderful orgasm (i have been out of chastity all summer at Her request). Owner awoke and began to rub Herself against my body, touching and fondling my 'clit' and my 'pussy', caressing my nipples and stripping me out of my nightie. Next She straddled my hips and, placing Her vibrator against Her clitoris, She proceeded to rub Herself against the shaft of my excited little clit until She orgasmed. It was wonderful to lie there and watch Her as She focussed on pleasuring Herself this way. allowing me the opportunity to caress Her breasts at the same time.

After satiating Herself Owner then reversed positions so that She was facing away from me and began to gently beat and strike my clit and then masturbate it whiilst presenting me with Her anus to lick. The opportunity to do this always drives me insane with excitement and arousal and, coupled with the mild clit spanking, it wasnt long before my clit was ready to explode over my belly, which She allowed me to do.

After making breakfast i then set about doing some washing and laundry, changng the bedding and preparing dinner for later. As i did i was conscious that Owner was busy doing somethign in the loubge but did not know what. It soon transpired that She was setting up a meeting with me to formally review our 'Housewife Academy' and how to pick-up and take forward my training again after a period in which things have slipped (see previous posts). But, it is  not any old meeting. She has booked us both into a hotel for the night in a few weeks time so that we will be undisturbed and She can conduct the review of my behaviour, performance and development without distractions.

i will, of course, update you on the outcome of the meeting afterwards. However, in the meantime, it does now feel like we are starting to get back to 'normal' again.

Training and Development Update

This afternoon Owner and i had one of our regular reviews of my ongoing training and development. Readers may recall that Owner has developed a programme for me which She calls Her housewife Academy. This is divided into four broad training and development areas encompassing:

• Domestic diva
• Sex kitten
• Submissive pet
• Multi-tasking ninja

i am given goals to achieve under each category and, when these have either been successfully completed or incorporated into my daily life (where they require an ongoing and permanent change) new ones are added until these too have been completed, and so on and so on. Anyway, today Owner agreed that sufficient progress had been made to warrant some new additions to my learning and development.

As of today i have, therefore, had the following added;

Domestic Diva

• research a sewing project for our flat that i could complete if i am permitted to purchase a sewing machine, now that i have completed a course on learning to use sewing machines.
• do an audit of our houseplants and remove ones that are not looking too good and tidy up the plants we have outside

Sex Kitten

• Drink a glass of Owners urine once a day at weekends

Submissive Pet

• Restrict my coffee intake by only being permitted to drink coffee in the morning and to have a single one straight after lunch (this afternoon coffee to be removed over time i.e. so that i will only be permitted coffees in the morning)
• Initiate a system of 'on the spot' punishments for any transgressions - Owner has written out a series of punishment cards (about 20 of them) which She has placed into a bag. Whenever i do something wrong i will have to take a card from the bag and complete the punishment on the card. These range from canings, standing facing the wall to being clamped on my nipples, having mini metal clothes pegs attached to my testes or adopting the plank position and combinations thereof.

Multi-Tasking Ninja

•  Three times a week to only be permitted to read or listen to Spanish magazines or websites on my tablet in bed to improve my Spanish and create a log of all that i have read/listened to.

Hopefully i will soon have either completed or have sufficiently incorporated the above into daily life for further tasks or activities to be added. This is how Owner trains me to become Her ideal submissive wife, adding new restrictions or challenges or tasks to complete, waiting until they have been done or normalised into our relationship and then adding new ones.

Meanwhile, my testicles still throb exquisitely from the spanking they received this morning. Today has been a good day :).

Ice Cold In London

Owner has not been well the past week and so She has not yet had an opportunity to take Her new strapon (see previous post) for a test 'ride'. i have been doing my best to try and look after Her and the good news is that She does seem to be starting to recover. However, although not feeling well Owner took the opportunity to complete Her review of my recent performance which in general She has stated She is happy with. However, obviously there are also aspects that need improvement and this in-turn led onto the following additional list of activities/actions that Owner expects from me, specifically;

• i am expected to preform or undertake more random 'tasks/challenges' which Owner will directly or indirectly instruct me to complete in Her presence or on my own. If the latter Owner will require video evidence that i have completed the task/challenge as instructed by Her
• i am to compose a new sentence in Spanish each day and write it up for Her on our kitchen blackboard for Her to check
• now that i am working more and more from home i am to commence a new daily exercise regime to keep fit with Owner specifying what exercises She would like me to do and to start doing joint exercises with Owner
• i am to re-instate my old greeting ritual to greet Owner when i am working from home and She returns from work (it had been suspended a year ago because of concerns about my back)
• i am to produce a monthly review for Owner highlighting areas where i feel i have done well over the past month and areas in which i feel i need to further improve or have performed badly
• i am to incorporate dildo/toy cleaning into my cleaning rota to make sure they are always kept dust free and spotless

i am very grateful to Owner for having set out some additional ways in which i can improve.

This week has also been a bitterly cold one in London (as has also been the case across much of the UK and Northern Europe). However, always one to spot an opportunity the return of winter provided Owner with an opportunity to have me undertake another park challenge. This time i was to accompany Owner to our local park naked save for my chastity device, suspenders and over-the-knee socks, winter coat and woolly hat. When there i was to attach nipple clamps and then walk around the park with Owner whilst my titties were clamped and pert (a fact heightened by the icy blast that wafted up from the bottom of the jacket) before removing them after one circuit had been completed and returning home with Owner. Here i am getting ready to head out:

and then in the park;

ever the exhibitionist little tart!

For My Owner - Thankyou

Last night Owner and i went back to the same restaurant in West London we have been back to every year for the past seven years for yesterday marked seven years to the day since we both laid eyes on one another at Bond Street tube station. What began as a casual acquaintence on the web, moved from a virtual to a real friendship that day. OK, it would take another 6 months and a bold public move by Owner before we progressed from just being friends to something a little more than that. That too was soon followed by a letter and an invitation from me to Owner that really marked the beginning of the Femdom journey we continue to travel along. But, it ALL began those 7 years ago when we first met. Thank you Owner for giving me the best 7 years of my life and for many more to come.

To further mark the occasion of our 7-year milestone Owner and i have reviewed our development as respectively Owner and pet/slut and Owner has set down some learning and development objectives which i wanted to share with you. We both believe there is no end point in this, our evolution as a couple, but rather we both hope that in 40-50 years time if we're still alive!! we'll still be trying new things or developing new ideas and freaking out the other residents and staff in the home for the dazed and confused. So, as i said, this is about a journey and the following sets out some of our ambitions for the next stage of our journey. Hopefully, this blog will reflect some of those ambitions - but life has taught us both that there will be many deviations, dead-ends and contraflows along the way. But, enough of all that, here's a brief summary of where we both think we've journeyed from and where we are headed at this, our 7 year marker. It is broken down into 3 broad categories (needless to say i am stupidly excited - oh and apologies for the formatting which has gone to hell). Anyway, the resulting review read as follows:

1.    FEMDOM Relationship Progress to date The original Femdom relationship between Owner and pet was based on a contract that was reviewed every 6 months.  Probationary periods were established to assess pet’s progress. There were rules and punishments that were applied when the rules were broken. Then we moved into a more ‘flexible’ relationship because we focussed on those aspects that we both enjoyed more and we left behind those that we didn’t like that much or were unpractical. We also discover that a 24/7 Femdom relationship is not totally possible:  work, family, illnesses ... all of them get in the way.  However, the trick in order to make it work is to resume our Femdom routine as soon as possible. Our roles have become more defined:  Owner has become more sexually dominant (has total control of sex scenes) and pet has become more sexually submissive (follows instructions in sex scenes).  Equally, in day to day situations, pet would seek approval/permission from Owner as a matter of fact.  The ownership symbols have increased from a simple leather collar to various pieces of jewellery that are worn full time. Sex has also changed and strap on sex that started as an experiment has now become the norm these days as it suits both Owner and pet Future Development – general behaviour Pet to move towards the role of slutty ‘trophy’ wife •           Continue to develop as a whore •           Do as told at home and in public •           Follow instructions without questioning Owner to aid pet’s development •           Through challenges both at home and outdoors •           Be more vocal when behaviour is not up to standard •           Keep control of the household and delegate as she sees fit Future Development – Ideas to be implemented Whore training •           More advanced dildo/pussy/nipple play at home and in public •           Dressing like a whore in public •           Have pussy trained to accommodate bigger dildos Submissive behaviour •           Create new list of daily/weekly task •           Services to Owner:  pedicure/foot rubs, cooking, baking, cleaning – all to return •           Wear chastity device as requested Ownership symbols •           To continue wearing the existing ones plus a new ankle chain •           Possibility of getting new tattoos – to be earned through good behaviour Sex •           Re-explore queening chair scenes •           Install a suction dildo in each room in the new flat so slut has no excuse for not sucking cock immediately and on command •           Carry a dildo and pussy plug in her make-up kit and keep it with her at all times should Owner wish her to use 2.    Sadomasochism Progress to date Owner has hugely enjoyed being able to express her sadist nature freely.  Equally pet, being a masochist has enjoyed being experimented on.  Sadomasochism is part of who we are as individuals and as a couple so it has been great for us to share and explore this side our ourselves. Through the years a number of toys and implements have been bought and used during scenes and Owner and pet have had lots of fun with various activities: •           Nipple torture •           CBT •           Caning/flogging/spanking •           Hair pulling •           Bondage Also, there have been occasions where toys or implements and simple household things have been used for sadomasochistic play.  We have become really good at finding new uses for common objects such as:  spoons, chopsticks, elastic bands, hair grips, pegs, brushes etc We have realised that health and mood have an impact on SM play.  However, we are both quite good at coming back into it as soon as we feel better. Future Development – general behaviour •           Continue to experiment with toys and implements •           Increase pet’s endurance to pain and Owner’s experimental sessions •           Sadomasochistic side to be exploited in public as well as in private Future Development – Ideas to be implemented •           Caning/flogging/spanking sessions to be re instated and combined with whore training and to increase in intensity •           Experiment with toys that have been forgotten for a while: o          Humbler o          Parachute •           Sensation play o          Electro nipple-clamps o          Electro CBT •           Bondage rope as ornament/outfit •           Golden showers •           Increased nipple and clitty endurance by use of additional clamps and weights •           Face slapping 3.    Feminisation Progress to date Slut has developed from being very shy/nervous and forced to explore her feminine side to one that has embraced feminity and is eager to explore ways in which to further develop it. Over the past years: •           Slut has commenced wearing make-up daily and keeps all her nails (feet and hands) polished – the only exception being when visiting family •           Slut’s wardrobe is now ¾ made-up entirely of women’s clothing.  Slut wears women’s clothing most of the time, the only exception being to formal work meetings + visiting family.  However, outside of home slut wears women’s jeans with skirts being reserved for at home •           Slut only wears women’s underwear except for when visiting the doctor or physio and wears a bra at weekends and on Wednesdays and Fridays •           Slut regularly wears nipple, waist + wrist chains and bracelets. •           Slut has grown her hair long •           Slut shaves regularly to stay smooth and hair free on her torso, legs and pubic area Pet’s feminity is part of our lives and we greatly enjoy it.  Owner enjoys pet’s feminine side because of the ‘hybrid’ look – a man wearing sexy women’s clothes.  At the same time pet can freely express this side of his personality. An interesting fact is that pet refers to himself (herself) using the feminine gender while Owner refers to him using the masculine gender.  This happens especially during scene – it has never been a problem, on the contrary we both seem comfortable with it. Future Development – general behaviour To become more feminine in appearance and behaviour •           To accessorise more •           To try to look pretty at all times and make Owner proud of her as Her trophy wife •           To be proud to be pretty and girly and not care what others may think or say •           Show off her body like a slut Future Development – Ideas to be implemented •           Women’s clothing to include smart wear for formal work meetings •           Have ears pierced and expect to wear ear-rings of Owner’s choice •           Wear a waspie/cincher/corset during the day – whether in public (work included) or private when requested •           Return to wearing heels at home and wear heels in public more often •           Keep hair neat and tidy at all times and at weekends use bows, bands or clips to keep hair in bunches or in a tail •           Replace wallet with a purse •           Create a travel kit for make-up and carry it about her at all times should Owner wish her to apply •           Wear skirts in public on occasions

Good Things Come In....

Well fives actually. There are a number of exciting developments that have already/are happening this week that i wanted to share with you all.

First, and this is something that Owner and i are both very happy about, is that i am back in chastity again 24/7 with a new device. Readers may recall that 24/7 chastity used to be the norm for me (albeit with the occasional release) up until shortly around the time when i knackered my back. Throughout that period Owner and i had used a CB-3000 device which we had never really had any major issues with, supplemented on ocasions by a metal kali's teeth device. We had at one stage tried to use a silicone Birdlocked device albeit with disappointing results and we quickly abandoned that one and returned back to the CB-3000. Well, all that was until my back problems came along. Now the issue was not being in chastity when largely immobile - that was not an issue at all. No, the issue was that the hard plastic of the CB-3000 was really uncomfortable when doing the back stretching exercises flat on my tummy that i had been told to do and which will probably be a daily/twice daily ritual now for the rest of my life to keep my back discs from herniating again. In short, the hard plastic CB-3000 device dug deep into me when i tried to lie flat and prevented me from doing so, thus making completing the stretching and arching exercises i need to do impossible. Owner realised the problem and instantly stated that i was to remove the device and stay out of chastity.

Thus, for the past 4-5 months i have been out of chastity. But, after almost 5 years of being pretty much in chastity most of the time (albeit with regular 'releases') this did not feel right. We both discussed this and agreed that it would be good for me to go back into chastity, especially as now i only need to exercise my back a couple of time a day - not the 7-8 times a day i was doing before. So, we have taken the plunge and with a degree of scepticism born out of our experience ith the Birdlocked device purchased another silicone device, the BON4.

the new device

 The device arrived yesterday and i have been wearing it since, with so far, no issues or problems. i will keep you updated as to how things go. However, i will say two things. First, the shop we ordered from online were excellent, they are called sexshop365 and i must commend them for their excellent service, the goods arrived within 24 hours of ordering. The second point i would make is....it is lovely to be back with my little clitty locked up again!

The second exciting thing that has happened this week is that Owner has permitted me to order some weights for my nipple piercings. As i write they have not yet arrived but should do any day now. The weights in question are pear drop weights from Wildcat and look like this:

i can't wait to add them to my nipple rings - each of which is already adorned with little miniature handcuffs and which are both connected to each other by a pretty silver chain. i'd love one day to have a bell suspended from each ring too to add to the one that dangles from my belly chain and jingles softly but audibly as i walk about at home or at work. i am very lucky to be allowed to wear such things by Owner.

The third wonderful thing this week was that on Monday Owner instructed me to greet Her on my knees with my pussy fully plugged when She returned from work. Accordingly, when She walked in She found me kneeling in the corridor with the inflatable butt plug buried deep in my pussy. What followed consisted of Owner clamping my titties then having me spank and stimulate my little clitty until it was swollen and hard and then stop and lean forward and suck and fellate a big black suction-cup dildo She had placed on the floor in front of me. This was repeated again and again as i reached the point of cumming and was told to stop and suck cock. As i was doing this Owner switched the vibrate mode of the plug on too and pumped it up further so that it was strething and throbbing deep inside my pussy. As my excitemnt mounted so too did my ability to get more and more of the fat cock head down my throat until ultimately, Owner gave me permission to cum which i did loudly and copiously with my mouth stuffed with the dildo. i eagerly licked up the cum off my hands afterwards like a good little whore before tidying everything away.

Fourthly, regular readers may know that whilst Owner is a fan of football (or soccer for American readers) i am not. However, to make tournaments and competitions more interesting Owner has combined the outcomes of matches with challenges i have to complete. Anyway, with the  European Championships starting in less than two weeks Owner has devised a new football game which will see me having to potentially complete a wide variety of very public or private challenges depending on the results of matches. i'll post more about this another time but needless to say i may have to pluck-up the courage to be photographed somewhere in public in London wearing nothing but heels, stockings, suspenders and a corset, or spend an hour with my titties clamped and weighted or go into town with my hair in bunches or a pigtail etc, etc. It could be an interesting tournament!

Last, but by no means least, and in fact the best of the lot, is that this week marks seven years since Owner and i first met, it took us a while to then progress from friends to lovers, but nevertheless 7 years to the day tomorrow is he first time we clapped eyes on each other. We will be repeating our annual pilgrimage back to the same pizza restaurant we ate in 7 years ago. However, and of more relevance to this blog is that Owner is using this opportunity to review my development so far and to map out how She would like me to develop over the next part of our lives together. Owner is still bevearing away at the details (which will be posted in full here when received) but has indicated that She wishes me to become Her trophy wife. i am really excited and can't wait to find out about what She has in mind.