Cagey Thursday

'Cagey Thursday' is the term Owner has coined to describe the time i now spend every Thursday evening, after cooking and clearing away dinner and completing my evening chores, when i a sent to be locked up in my dog cage/crate whilst Owner enjoys a period of peace and quiet. 

inside my dog cage last night

The cage is set up in our kitchen and before entering it i strip naked and my wrists and ankles are cuffed, a heavy leather collar goes around my neck and a bit gag is secured in my mouth. The collar has a cow bell suspended from it and another is suspended from my tits using two S-shaped hooks through my nipple rings. The purpose of the cowbells is to stop me moving whilst i am locked up as, if i do, they make quite a noise and Owner hates noise. The final addition is a small black plastic bucket positioned on the floor below my head to catch the drool that continuously leaks from my mouth courtesy of the bit gag.

That is how i then spend my time. Chained and on all fours, cowbells gently swaying, drool dripping in my cage in the growing darkness of the kitchen. It was light when i entered, dark when i was allowed out again.

Whilst i am locked out of Her way Owner is able to relax and have some time to Herself. As for myself? Well, i have time to think and reflect on ways i can improve. Being locked on all fours in the darkness, legs spread apart a little, also feels wonderfully vulnerable and exposed. All sorts of naughty thoughts raced through my brain. Only my rear-end is visible from the open entrance of the dog house, my 'pussy' available, my hanging bits vulnerable. Meanwhile the slow swinging of the cow bell that hung suspended from my teets tugged delightfully on them, stretching them out. My clit throbbed  inside its metal cage. 

At one point Owner wandered through to the kitchen and caressed my buttocks and heavy swollen labia in the darkness before returning to the lounge to watch TV. A little later i heard Her get up to go the toilet. i could not help but crave Her piss.

My mind again wandered. This time to thoughts of Owner's fingers and hand inside of me, opening me up, then of Her cock penetrating me, fucking me in the darkness. Then my thoughts took a darker turn. This time of Owner stood behind me, attaching clamps to my labia to electrocute them or shocking the entrance of my pussy with Her tazapper electric-shock device, both things She has done a number of times before and takes delight in doing.

However, nothing of the sort happened. Time ticked by. i could hear the sound of the TV on in the lounge and the sound of the neighbours talking in the flat below. i remained immobile in the darkness. 

The floor of the dog crate/cage is covered with a fluffy dog matt to cushion and protect my 55-year old knees and hands. However, even with this being immobile on your hands and knees becomes uncomfortable after a while. i have learnt to very slowly shift position, to ease the pressure without causing the cowbells to clank.

Eventually i heard the sound of Owners footsteps again down the corridor. This time She told me that my cage time was up and i could rejoin Her in the lounge. Truth be told i was lucky in that i was only locked up like that for about 50 minutes. She could of course cage me at any time and for any duration. However, one thing is now certain. Every Thursday night, after i have finished my chores, i can now look forward to spending time locked up in the darkness, trying to keep still inside my new dog cage.

Earlier in the week Owner had me stand in front of Her in the lounge and spank my the vulnerable and exposed labia bits of my clit hard with a wooden spoon. In the end they were struck over one hundred times. My plums were left reddened and sore. Relief, of a kind, was immediately provided to them as Owner then instructed that i clamp ice cubes against them and hold them in place until they had fully melted. My bits went from hot and swollen to cold and frozen! i stood, pressing the ice cubes against the soft sensitive skin of my plums for over 5 minutes until the ice had fully melted.

spanking my bits with a wooden spoon

then freezing them with ice cubes

This morning, after sweeping all of the floors whilst Owner was out on Her early morning walk, i greeted Her return home in the now customary manner, prostrating myself naked before Her and kissing Her feet having first handed Owner Her favourite leather paddle to beat my backside with as my lips pressed against Her shoes. Today, rather than use the paddle against my butt cheeks She instead brought it down between my legs, leather against the soft skin of my labia plums. 

There was a further twist. Today being a Friday the electro-shock device was also secured tightly around my clit, it's twin electrodes pushing into the soft skin at the base of my clit, next to the metal base ring of my chastity cage. As i handed Owner the leather paddle before prostrating myself and kissing Her feet i also handed Her the remote control of the electro-shock device.

i do, quite genuinely, fear being electrocuted by this device. Yet each week i obediently make sure to re-charge it, put it on, hand Owner the remote and make sure the remote stays close to Her throughout the day, so that She always has it to hand. It scares me and yet it is such a powerful and forceful reminder of the authority Owner has over me. Wherever i am in the flat, whatever i might be doing (unless i am in the shower - that is the only time i am safe) Owner might choose to electrocute me. Today She electrocuted me minutes after returning from Her walk and then again mid-morning whilst i was working. As for me, well i get to spend the day in a constant state of mild fear that at any moment Owner might electrocute me remotely again in my most sensitive parts.

This coming weekend is a long bank holiday weekend here in England. Accordingly, Owner has arranged to take me with Her to stay in Norwich, a medieval town in the East of England. We have various sightseeing activities planned. Owner has also instructed me to bring along a pretty outfit that is 'classy not slutty this time!' i have brought my pretty white lace dress. Hopefully there will be an opportunity to do a photoshoot in it.

i have also, as i always do whenever we go away, packed vibrators for Owner's pleasure as well as Her red whip, a paddle and a cane for Her to use on me. We are both looking forward to our mini-break.

Public Service Announcement - July Public Challenge Postponed

As regular readers will know i normally complete a randomly chosen outdoor exhibitionist challenge on the 16th of each month. i regret to inform you, however, that this month's challenge has been postponed for a few days and will occur later in the week.

i am the reason for the delay and i apologise. Unfortunately, my lovely Owner has had cause to punish me and is banning me from wearing make-up, feminine clothes and from shaving for two days as a punishment. This makes the completion of the challenge impossible. 

The reason for the punishment is that on Thursday this week She had to go into Her office for work. i made Her a lunch to take in, as is rightly expected of me, but then forgot to put it into Her work bag. Luckily for me Owner spotted my sloppiness just in time and was able to retrieve Her lunch from the fridge before She set off. However, such an oversight on my part is, i know, unacceptable and so i am rightly being punished. The punishment will last for 48 hours commencing tomorrow (16th July).

i hate having to appear in 'boy mode' like this. Owner is fully aware of this hence using it as a form of punishment. Readers may not think it much of a punishment but i can assure you that if you were me you would realise that it is, much more so than a caning or something else might be.

i am truly sorry to Owner for my oversight and i am grateful to Her for clamping down on such instances of sloppiness on my part. As Her submissive wife i know i need to provide for all of Her needs and risking Her leaving for work without having food in Her bag for lunch was unacceptable on my part. i will ensure it does not happen again.

My punishment does not start until tomorrow, Sunday 16th and will finish at midnight on the Monday. In the meantime, things are continuing as normal. Today, after completing my Spanish studies followed by my exercises, Owner gave me a glass of Her refreshing urine to re-hydrate. It certainly quenched my thirst!

post-exercise glass of urine

After getting changed into something pretty whilst i am still allowed to, remembering my punishment does not start until tomorrow, Owner then spanked my bottom and my bits with two of Her metal implements. The solid metal ball tenderiser definitely leaves an impression when used to hit my tender plums! 

freshly spanked butt and plums

After lunch it was then time to do Owner's hair for Her.This was followed by a fun photo shoot of me in the 'submissive & breedable' cropped top that Owner bought for me. It was great fun to do and there will be a separate blog coming in the next few days showing some of the results.

Photo shoot over Owner decided that i would be allowed to join Her on the sofa to watch a movie. A storm had been forecast so an afternoon at home seemed sensible (the sorm never actually materialised). i was despatched to the corner shop still wearing my cropped top with my hair in tied up in pigtails from the earlier photoshoot to get some supplies for the movie. Here i am on the shop (sorry not great photos)

i managed to crop my head!

The film itself was a very silly Chinese disaster movie called The Wandering Earth but it was a distracting way to end the afternoon. 

So, as a reminder there will be no outdoor challenge completed tomorrow, it will be done sometime during the week. Meantime, i have 48hours in boy mode to come as punishment. i will be counting down the hours to be able to return back to 'normal' but am grateful to Owner for correcting my misdemeanors and, in doing so, helping me to become a better wife to Her.

Face Covered In Semen

This morning, just before breakfast, Owner scooped up handfuls of semen and had me lick it off Her hands and smeared the gooey substance around my mouth and face. The cum, of which there was a lot, was my own. After 188 days of denial the moment She permitted me to orgasm unleashed a veritable torrent of the sticky, tasty treat.

So how did this come about? Well...On waking rather than have me immediately get up and prepare breakfast Owner instead began to caress and bite my nipples whilst playfully spanking my temporarily unlocked clit and bits. It did not take long before i was well and truly aroused and moaning quietly. i thought She might leave it there, get me aroused then despatch me to the kitchen, but not today.

Instead, She stripped off Her pyjamas and knickers and placed Her panties over my head, allowing me to inhale Her wonderful scent. She then fetched Her favourite vibrator out of Her bedside cabinet and began to pleasure Herself with it whilst simultaneously sucking my nipples into Her mouth and biting them, hard. i love it when She bites me like this and i know She enjoys it too. It wasn't long before we were both gasping, Her from Her toy's sensations and me from Her teeth. However, this was just the start of the fun.

Owner instructed me to lie flat on my stomach. She then mounted my buttocks, positioned Her vibrator against Her clit and then rode me until She climaxed. i love it when She uses my body like this. It was all i could do to stop myself from dry humping the bedding as She ground down on my glutes. i was thoroughly turned on. When, eventually She came i again thought that would be it, that i would be sent to the kitchen, clit throbbing in frustration, to make breakfast. But i was wrong.

'Get on all fours' She instructed.

i did as She said and then watched out of the corner of my eye as She took down the thin leather, cat-shaped paddle that always hangs from the bedpost on Her side of the bed. Owner swung it between my legs where it impacted hard against my low hanging bits. It hurt, She swung again, it hurt more, again and again She swung the paddle and with each swing the leather hit harder and harder against my most sensitive bits. i grimaced in pained discomfort as Owner kept striking me between my legs. i knew, of course, what Her intention was, to beat an orgasm out of me.

Years ago, Owner discovered that She could make me orgasm, and orgasm very hard and noisily, simply by beating my bits. Extremely painful at first that pain eventually morphs into the most intense pleasure and the resultant eruption is literally just that, an eruption that sees me howling or crying out loud as the pleasure is beaten out of me. This, of course, is what She intended to do again.

Owner grabbed the back of my head with one hand and with the other kept swinging the paddle, spanking it harder and harder against my exposed and most sensitive bits, i buried my head in the bedding as each strike detonated landed more painfully than the last before detonating in my brain like a firework. i knew, however, that the longer She hit me like this for the more imminent was the point at which the intense pain would flip like a switch to the most intense pleasure. That, of course is what happened. Before i knew it i was begging to be allowed to orgasm and, with Her blessing received, i was noisily and copiously ejaculating all over the sheets. i don't know how many times a fresh jet of cum spurted out of me, it was a lot and by the time i was spent there was a pool of semen beneath me in the bed. Owner reached down, scooped up a handful of my goo and fed it to me. Then reached down again, and again. i feasted as She fed me the still warm, sticky semen, enjoying its taste. She even smeared it around my face.

'Is that enough to satisfy my sluts craving to swallow cum?' Owner asked. 

She knows how much i love the taste of semen and how my craving for it grows the longer i am kept denied (reaching a point a fortnight ago where i had confessed to Her that i fantasised about group of complete strangers masturbating and ejaculating into my mouth). i told Her that it was as i greedily slurped the last droplets from Her fingers.

With that it was time to clean Her vibrator and make breakfast.

So i have had my first proper orgasm after about a year of denial. i did have an accidental one at the start of the year so technically this was my second of 2021. However, as it was accidental it was nothing at all like the one experienced this morning which was a super, super intense one. Who knows when or if i will be allowed another.

Oh, and there is one other thing to report. Yesterday, after we returned from seeing an exhibition, Owner gave my bottom a thorough going over with Her heavy, carved wooden paddle, leaving it warm and glowing as you can see from this picture of me with the said paddle

It has been quite the weekend already!

Outdoor Challenge and Advent Action

Today was the day when Owner's monthly outdoor challenge dice were rolled, an activity that occurs on the 16th of each month. Each of the two dice were rolled under Owner's supervision just after breakfast. The first dice determines the location of the challenge i must undertake and the second the nature of the challenge itself. i held my breath as the first dice came to a rest on the floor. The challenge would happen near the cafe in our local park. Now for the next dice, what would i have to do? i watched as the dice skidded across the floor and came to a halt. My challenge would be to wear a dress and high heels. So combining the two i would need to wear be wearing them in the park near the cafe.

It was a busy day at work so i was not able to get away from calls and video conferences until gone 3.30 in the afternoon. By that time it had started to rain and the park was surprisingly busy with people, youngsters, couples with children, dog walkers etc. Today is the first day of the new lockdown in London so that might explain why there were so many people about. For me it meant needing to try and pick my moment to pose. 

Anyway, to cut a long story short i managed eventually to find a gap in the human traffic to show off my strappy little dress, stockings and heels. It was a fun albeit slightly damp and muddy experience. You can see how i got on below

with my coat still on hanging around behind the cafe outside the toilets - how appropriate!

flashing a shoulder

Ta da!

After taking these photos i noticed that a couple of men glancing over in my direction wondering what i was upto so i put my jacket back on, replaced the heels with the boots i had worn to walk to the park in and scootered back home. On returning Owner said that She was pleased with how i had got on with my solo challenge. i confess i look forward to them (albeit nervously) every month.

Fun challenges have not been the only thing i have been upto this week, i have also been made to suffer as a consequence of the tasks/orders i receive each time i open a new envelope on the advent calendar Owner created for me. The start of the week saw me wincing and actually crying out in discomfort with tears in my eyes as Owner held me down on the sofa to administer one hundred blows from a wooden spoon to my exposed clit and bits. This was what the calendar instructed i had to do in return for receiving a gift. 

The beating was worth it though as i received a great iron on patch in return to go on the pocket of one of my jeans. The text on the patch reads:

'Pussy tastes like cherry soda'

Owner will be choosing which of my jeans She wants me to fix the patch to this weekend.

This is me just after having received one hundred wooden spanks on my clit and bits

i am wearing my sports bra as the spanking was administered straight after exercising with Owner

Tuesday night saw me experience a different type of discomfort, again courtesy of the advent calendar, namely being tied-up and made to spend an hour on my knees whilst watching TV with Owner. Needless to say my legs were a little wobbly when i was untied an hour later. But, look how pretty that ropes is, Owner is very talented!

kneeling tied-up in my evening cleaning uniform

Then tonight it was another form of suffering, albeit perhaps suffering for Owner this time. The advent calendar instructed me to sing along Karaoke style to one of Owner and my favourite Spanish songs from the 1980s, namely 'me colé en una fiesta' by Mecano. i will spare you all the aural assault that was my rendition but here are a couple of stills from my sing-along

with my pretend microphone!

As you can see i was still wearing the same dress from my park challenge.

So anyway, it has been a busy week with lots of fun and painful/uncomfortable things to do, and there are still plenty of days left in the advent calendar. i wonder what else i will end up doing?

O's for Owner

Yesterday Owner and i went into town to do a bit of last minute Xmas shopping, mother if you are reading this you are getting a pair of lined leather gloves. The area around Oxford Street was heaving with people, an almost solid wall of humanity, and so we escaped to one of the pubs we know down a side street. Owner had made a reservation earlier for the two for dinner to have dinner so we planned to have a couple of drinks then head to our meal. However, not long after arriving in the pub Owner started to feel unwell and so we went home and i cooked dinner instead. Then we spent the evening watching a couple of programmes on the iPlayer. Not quite the evening we had planned but a very relaxing one nonetheless.

This morning Owner appeared to have got Her mojo back for She woke me up by gently caressing my nipples through the lace fabric of my baby doll nightie. My nipples are like bullets at the best of times these days and are deliciously sensitive to the touch and Owner's caresses quickly brought them to full attention. Owner continued to caress them then had me strip off out of the baby doll whilst She in turn removed Her knickers which She then placed over my head, ensuring the aromatic gusset was positioned right under my nose.

Owner then switched Her attention to my chastised clit, which was now quite swollen inside its' cage. She began to spank and beat my testes and then bent down and took them into Her mouth, sucking and biting on them before spanking them again. Needless to say this felt both painful and heavenly at the same time, though gradually the pleasure overtook the pain. However, no sooner had i started to become fully aroused when Owner stopped and took out Her vibrator from it place in Her bedside cabinet. Lying on Her side, Her back towards me, and with one leg bent She then placed the vibrator against Her sex and began to pleasure Herself with it. i immediately took this as my cue to get to work with my tongue on Her anus and so with Her vibrator buzzing away next to my left ear my tongue worked its' way inside Her and then began to slide in and out of Her backside. i was able to reach one of Her breasts with my free hand and so squeezed and caressed Her flesh whilst my tongue probed deeper inside Her delicious derriere. Shortly i felt the telltale quiver of Her sphincter muscles and so i pushed deeper still inside Her as she came.

Owners' anus tastes divine and i love opportunities to lick and probe and explore inside Her lick this and so i was thrilled when She continued to pleasure Herself with Her vibrator and continued to accept the presence of my tongue inside Her. And so we continued, Her vibrator purring away and my tongue buried in as far as i could stretch as Owner took Her pleasure again.

Later we lay spooning together in bed, arms wrapped around each other. It was a wonderful way to start the day. i adore providing pleasure this way to Owner. i was left in denial again but very happy for being left so, with a throbbing clit, nipples like bullets and the taste of Owner on my palette and Her scent in my lungs i eventually got out of bed to make us both breakfast to start the day.

Whore in Denial

What a lovely way to start the day! This morning Owner woke me up by gently caressing and stroking my pussy before removing her knickers and placing them over my head so that the gusset was positioned directly under my nostrils. The aroma was wonderful. i adore the scent of my Owner.

Next She moved Her attention to my breasts, caressing and stroking my nipples and sucking on them before then spanking my swollen plums, my clit was now swollen inside its chastity cage. At first Owner used Her hand on my testicles but then moved to using the 'fly-swat' paddle that hangs permanently from the headboard of our bed for just such a reason. After spanking me until i was audibly moaning Owner switched tack again.

Grabbing Her vibrator She brought it between Her legs and began to pleasure Herself with it. i took this as my cue to move position so that i could start to lick Her anus. It wasn't long before we had settled into what is one of Owners' favourite positions, that is with Her straddling my head with Her vibrator purring away against Her clitoris whilst my tongue is licking and probing Her backside. As always She tasted divine. Owners' anus is one of my absolute favourite flavours. We stayed locked like that, Owner with my head clamped between Her thighs and my tongue gliding in and out of Her whilst Her vibrator worked it's magic.

Once satiated Owner then had me flip onto all fours and start to fellate Her favourite dildo whilst She rummaged around for Her lube. Next She lubed up my pussy and slowly pushed Her dildo into me, then positioned it against Her thigh. Grabbing Her vibrator She then pleasured Herself once more with Her electric friend whilst fucking me with Her cock. As She fucked me i kept saying how i loved being Her whore, being fucked by Her, feeling Her cock inside me. Owner fucked me harder and harder until She collapsed on top of me, fully satiated once again.

After withdrawing Her cock we cuddled up in bed together and Owner permitted me to feast on Her wonderful breasts. i mentioned to Owner that it has now been almost a full year since i last had an orgasm - it will be a year on Tuesday. She seemed a little surprised but gave no indication as to when or whether i might ever be allowed to cum again. For my part i am truly happy being kept denied like this and very grateful to Her for the opportunity to experience genuinely long-term denial.

As i say, it was a wonderful way to start the day!

On Punishments and Consequences

Owner has a number of principles that inform Her approach to Her domination and control over me. One of these is that Her time is important to Her and that She expects Her control over me to help free up time for Her to spend how She likes, not add additional demands on Her time. To that end She looks for ways to increase and maintain Her control over me which do not require significant additional effort on Her part. In many sub/Dom relationships the dominant partner can often spend a lot of time focused on the desires of their sub. This can be time the dominant enjoys spending and Owner enjoys times like this too. However, She also expects my serving Her should free up time for Herself and not create additional burdens for Her.

One way this manifests itself is in the use of the dice for deciding punishments or challenges etc that i need to undertake. Once Owner has come up with an initial set of ideas to load the dice with She can then relax and let chance decide what i will need to do rather than Her having to think of something all the time. Periodically, the dice are updated and loaded with new instructions of Her devising but they are essentially a sort of time and labour saving device that provide me with the discipline, consequences or challenges that i need and crave whilst ensuring Owner gets to spend as much time as She likes doing other things.

Another principle that informs Owner's approach is that a 24/7 Femdom life needs to be practical and fun.She is not a sadist nor i a masochist. She will inflict pain and discomfort but does not seek to 'break' me, though whether She perhaps should is another matter (i write rather nervously knowing that Owner will review this post before it is published). Owner also likes to keep things light-hearted and fun. We do not do 'sessions', we live and act as we do 24/7 and i don't think either of us could sustain for very long a very hardcore and intense Dom/sub relationship. Though i submit completely to Owner and She controls pretty much all aspects of my life outside of work i am not Her slave and neither has She ever asked me to become her slave. She teases me that i am fluffy and could not handle life as a real slave but i equally think it is not what She would ever want Herself either. She absolutely is in control but that control is not enforced with an iron rod.

So time-saving (for Owner) and fun are both important facets of our relationship and these tend to be reflected in the ways that Owner exercises Her control over me. If Owner is annoyed with an aspect of my behaviour She will make Her feelings quite clear verbally and admonish me, only rarely will She actually physically punish me. In the meantime, the dice are used to keep me on my toes, break down some of my remaining inhibitions, practice my skills, increase my pain tolerance and discourage me from working away from home as much as possible.

With that in mind, here are some examples of more recent dice-determined things i have had to do recently

eating my dinner whilst blindfolded - incidentally i eat all my meals from this dog bowl

washing-up naked except for a pair of hold-ups and my furry butt-plug

The video below shows me self-administering one of the more 'uncomfortable' dice punishments - beating my 'plums' with Owner's favourite leather paddle

Clit Touching and Torture

Yesterday i had my weekly supervised shower which is when my chastity device gets unlocked for a few brief minutes and my clit and cage are scrubbed clean with a nail brush before everything gets securely locked away again for another week. This time, however, Owner declared that She would like me to remain unlocked for a little while as it had been a long time since She had last had the opportunity to properly see and tease my clit.

Thus it was that for a short period my clit stayed cage free and got to experience the unfamiliar sensation of being touched. Normally the only physical contact it gets when it is in chastity are via the bristles of the nail brush used to give it a weekly scrub. Thus, the delicate touch of Owners fingers, if only briefly, was quite a delight.

Owner did not seek to stimulate or arouse my clit in any way, She simply touched and casually caressed it whilst we watch the Sweden vs Canada world cup football match. The period of release from chastity was a brief one and i am once more locked up. Meanwhile, my 2019 orgasm drought continues. It has been over 180 days since i last orgasmed (just before Christmas 2018). The longer i am kept in denial this way the hornier i become but equally the less i want to ever again be allowed to cum again. i don't miss or crave having an orgasm, in fact all that i genuinely do miss is the taste of is semen. What i love is the experience of sustained denial. i have no idea when or if it might end, That decision is Owner's. However, i am eternally grateful to Her for having had the opportunity to experience 183 days and counting of happy, frustrated denial.

Back to today, however. Once again i have been working from home and so once again the dice determined what task or activity i might have to do. This time chance determined that i would have to clamp my nipples, attach 20 clamps to my (freshly locked) clit and then spank it 50 times. Owner is keen that i build-up my tolerance of pain and discomfort - in Her words to be a little less 'fluffy' - and so i sought to ratchet up the pain and discomfort a little.

i attached our 'Tower of Pain' nipple clamps to my breasts and then attached 20 clamps to my clit (a combination of 10 plastic electricians clamps and 10 mini-metal clothes pegs) before then spanking my clamped clit 50 times with a wooden spoon. Owner seemed pleased by efforts to challenge my pain/discomfort thresholds. You can see how i got on below;

breasts stretched with tower of pain clamps

After that it was time to dress for another day of working from home. The first picture below is what i wore at home today, the second is what i wore yesterday - which was also the day we received our supermarket delivery and so this is the sight the delivery driver was greeted with. As a rule i find the delivery staff to be much friendlier when i am in a skirt and stockings. Ours is an upstairs flat so they also get an 'upskirt' view as i carry the groceries up into our flat :)

Tomorrow i will be working away from home as i am attending an event for work. Which means tomorrow i will be rolling Owners' new 'working away from home' dice to decide what forfeit or punishment will be coming my way in the evening when i get home.

Day 46

So today has been an enjoyable day. i spent the day working from home. Owner had to pop out for a short time to go to sort out some paperwork for us both (incidentally, She has got a new job after being made redundant from Her last one and starts shortly). Anyway, whilst She was out Owner permitted me to wear my butt plug for a few hours during the day, as is custom when i work from home on a Friday. However, this was to prove just the start of the fun,

Locked and plugged

Later in the afternoon the two of us retired to the bedroom for a snuggle. It wasn't long before Owner had stripped me naked and was paddling my testicles with the leather fly swat and fondling my breasts, causing my little clit to swell inside its cage. i moved onto all fours and Owner continued to paddle and spank my swollen 'labia' before next attaching mini-clothes pegs to them. She attached about ten or so before continuing to paddle and spank them, pausing briefly to remove Her knickers and place them over my head - ensuring that the wonderfully aromatic crotch was positioned directly under my nose. By this time my testes were starting to throb happily under Her expert abuse and the scent of Her sex.

Next, Owner lubed my 'pussy' and began to open me up again with Her fingers -it's always a wonderful feeling to have Her digits inside me - before replacing Her hand with a dildo and fucking me with it in my pussy. i was in heaven as you can imagine. Owner continued to fuck me like this for a short while then stopped - one cannot be too careful and She had no intention of making me cum, that is a pleasure reserved for Her.

And so She stopped but left the dildo parked inside me and instead took out Her vibrator and, after having me first lubricate it with my mouth, She set to work pleasuring Her clitoris with Her favourite toy. As She did She positioned Herself so that She presented Her glorious backside to me. i didn't hesitate to start worshipping Her anus with my tongue, twisting onto my back so that She could squat down on my face and i could bury my tongue deep inside Her delicious anus, swirling it around and straining to probe ever deeper inside Her. And so we stayed, Owner riding my tongue and Her vibrator to orgasm and me fucking Her arsehole with my tongue whilst my clit bulged and throbbed futilely inside its cage, a dildo in my pussy and my testes/labia clamped with mini clothes pegs.

We finished as we started with us both cuddling on the bed except now Owner was spent and i was deliciously and frustratedly aroused with my balls throbbing but my clit still firmly under lock and key.

Today is the 46th day i have spent in continuous chastity and i will remain like this until at least the 11th July when i get to roll the dice which will determine whether or not i will continue to be locked and denied.

Sadly, Owner and i will be parted for a few days this coming week as She is going out to Spain to see family before starting Her new job whereas i have to stay here and work. We both hate to be parted from one another and will be counting down the days until we are reunited again.

48 and counting

Today is the day i turned 48 years old. To mark the occasion Owner is taking me away to France this weekend but She had a special, and unexpected, surprise in store for me today. i was working from home today and shortly after i returned home from having walked her to the station this morning, for Her to catch Her train, i received the following Whatsapp message from Owner.

'Birthday challenge: you must spank your testicles 48 tines, wear your butt plug for 48 minutes and take a picture of yourself outside with a sign reading: i am a 48 year old slut'

Owner knows how much i love challenges like these and this was a real treat to receive. i was really thrilled and excited at the prospect and resolved to complete the challenges as soon as i had got ready for work. It being a home working day i was wearing hold-ups, a skirt and blouse.

The following are some of the photos i sent to Owner by way of providing proof that i had completed the tasks i was set.

First off, testicle spanking x 48 with our favourite wooden spoon

Next step, butt plug selection and insertion (to be worn for 48 minutes) - as you can see i opted for the furry one

 The plug tail was still visible when i pulled my skirt down

can you spot my 'tail'

And then finally, out into the street with my sign around my neck

No tail in view but the plug was still there

It was a very exciting way to start the day!

Piss, Punishment and Promotion

Owner seems to be really enjoying some of the recent additions to my training and development. Every Saturday and Sunday She now presents me with a glass of Her delicious urine for me to drink. This weekend She handed me a warm glass to have before my breakfast and today i received a glass mid-morning, just as i was about to commence my exercises. It is interesting how the colour and the character of Her urine differs depending on the time of the day or what She has drunk Herself. i look forward to becoming an expert when it comes to the many vintages She produces.

Owner has also had cause to make use of the new system of 'instant punishments'. Last weekend i posted about how i had been punished for not labelling food in the fridge. i drew a punishment card from the bag and which stated that my nipples had to be clamped and weighted for twenty minutes. The punishments was delivered in the kitchen with me stood facing the wall. Well, i am afraid Owner had cause to insist that i take another card today. i had been over-zealous with the use of bleach when cleaning the bathroom and made the flat smell of bleach. This time the card i drew stated i was to be spanked 40 times on my testicles. Owner administered the punishment in the bedroom, striking my exposed bits hard and painfully. But it was soon over. She then took this picture of the wooden spoon She used resting against my still throbbing bits, and then added a creative touch to it. i love the final result

Owner also received a promotion at work recently and successfully passed a course She attended, and which She had been very stressed about. i am incredibly proud of what She has achieved. She really is an inspiration.

Festive Fun

Owner and i have had a busy past few weeks (hence in part the lack of recent posts) and so it was wonderful to have been able to just enjoy this past weekend by ourselves. On Sunday this resulted in Owner indulging in one of Her favourite activities, namely using me as Her sex toy.

Positioning me underneath Her on the bed Owner sat astride my face, Her thighs gripping my cheekbones tight with my mouth pressed up hard against Her delicious anus as She applied Her vibrator against Her clit. i eagerly licked my tongue around the entrance to Her pert, tight arsehole and then slipped my tongue inside Her as She tightened Her grip on my head, locking me in position between Her thighs. Locked together like this we stayed as Owner ground Her hips back and forth as Her vibrator and my probing tongue went to work. i don't think either of us will ever tire of this position. Owner loves to smother me with Her sex as She pleasures Herself and i adore the taste and aroma of her anus as, struggling to breath, i focus my effort and energies on bringing Her pleasure with my tongue.

Eventually, i felt Her thigh muscles start to contract and shudder and Her pussy ground down hard against my nose as Her orgasm built to a panting, gasping crescendo before She collapsed down on top of my face, my tongue still buried deep inside Her delicious anus. However, it soon transpired i was in for a treat of my own. Owner grabbed the leather fly swat that always hangs from the headboard for just such an occasion and, swivelling through 180 degrees She re-positioned Herself so that now She was facing down the length of my torso, towards where my un-locked clitty lay half-erect and vulnerable.

Resting on Her haunches so that my face remained buried and smothered under Her now wet pussy She took aim with the fly-swat and brought it down against my exposed and vulnerable dangly bits, my testicles. She struck hard and then again, and again, and again. i squirmed beneath Her as my thighs involuntarily parted to afford Her better access and i thrust my hips up to meet Her blows. Owner loves to beat orgasms out of me like this and i too have learnt to love the hard stinging blow of whatever implement She chooses to use for the purpose. It may sound odd but the harder She hits the more pleasurable (once the first couple of blows are out of the way) it becomes and i am now able to quickly process the pain of the blows against my testes as pleasure...a pleasure of the most wonderful kind.

Owner shifted position, moving down my body to position Herself above my hips so that my now erect little clit was rubbing against the soft down of Her pubic hair and brushing the lips of Her vagina. This was incredible, it has been well over five or six years since i have been permitted inside Owner and so to be so close, to feel the head of my clit rubbing against the forbidden entrance to Her sex was an extremely rare and special privilege indeed. As i arched my back and my clit strained pathetically to get closer to that El dorado Owner brought the leather swat down harder still against my engorged testicles. Each blow fell with exquisite intensity and in a matter of minutes, as She continued to beat my swollen 'labia', i was begging to be permitted to cum. Owner said yes and rubbed Her moist pussy lips against the swollen head of my little clit whilst continuing to strike hard with the leather swat. And so it was that with the touch of the forbidden fruit  wet against my glans and afire of delicious pain searing through my battered bits i came loudly - globules of cum spattering across my belly, some of which Owner scooped up and smeared across my face, the face of Her happy and very lucky wife.

Sadly, in less than 36 hours from now we will both be parted as Owner heads off to see Her family in Spain and i head to my Dad's for Xmas. However, we will only be apart for a few days and then we will be re-united once again. This year we are spending New Years eve together in a cottage in the countryside we have hired for a few days. We're both really excited and can't wait and hopefully we will have a chance for some more fun and frolics too.

i hope you all have a wonderful festive period and that 2016 brings you all much joy and pleasure. We're both very conscious that we have still to finish the videos we promised a few months ago but hopefully you should see the first of those sometime in early 2016. In the meantime, stay safe and stay kinky.

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Sunday Sluttiness

Owner and i have had quite a relaxed weekend. Yesterday we went to the cinema to watch The Martian whilst it is still showing on the big screen in London, it was good fun and a welcome distraction after the horror of the events in Paris on Friday night, Afterwards we did a little shopping during which Owner let me purchase a gorgeous, tarty little red 'plastic' mini-skirt that had been reduced from £35 to £2.50 - now that is what i call a sale! The skirt looks fab and i will post some pictures of me wearing it another time.

Today we've basically spent the day at home sorting out some domestic admin and discussing some travel and home improvement plans for next year. Owner did, however, have a little treat in store for me just before lunch. Rather than permit me to do my exercises before lunch She instead instructed me to go to the bedroom where She proceeded to strip me naked and then position me naked on all fours in bed and blindfold me with the waist belt of my kimono (see below)

you can see Owners favourite leather fly swat that She uses to beat my clitty bits hanging from the bed post

Owner then disappeared for a few minutes only to return with a full and warm glass of Her delicious urine which She had me drink, and which i enjoyed doing. Owner then took a pair of clover clamps that always hang from one of the bed posts and clamped one end to my left nipple and the other to the base of my unchastised clit. She then proceeded to spank my clit and their 'bits' with the red leather fly swat you can see hanging from the bed post in the picture.Owner also gagged me by pushing Her foot into my mouth but then swapped over to gagging me with the rubber cock gag - again which always hangs conveniently from the end of the bed post.

Owner kept spanking my testicles hard with the swat, the painful assault soon had me aroused and Owner then had me kneel up and positioned herself in front of me and rubbed and caressed Her pussy against my hard clit and Her vibrator, Rubbing Herself up and down and applying the vibrator to Her sex and the tip of my clit whilst still reaching down and simultaneously continuing to spank and slap and beat my testicles.

We bucked and rocked for sometime, me frantically rubbing myself against Her clitoris and labia with my own swollen clit whilst She pleasured Herself against the shaft of my clit and Her vibrator. Eventually Her orgasm began to build and as i helplessly dry humped against Her pelvis Owner came. However, it transpired my luck was in and that Owner was going to permit me to cum as well, only that my own orgasm would, literally be beaten out of me, or more precisely out of my clitty.

Owner set about beating and slapping and spanking my testicles hard again whilst also rubbing the shaft of my clit. As i have previously posted about Owner loves making me cum by spanking my testicles hard and it does produce some very powerful orgasms when She does so. This time was no exception and soon i was begging to be permitted to orgasm. Owner gave the OK and i came messily all over the bed. Owner kindly scooped up some of my mess with Her hand and fed it to me before pushing my head down into the duvet for me to lick and suck up the rest. It was a wonderful pre-lunch bit of fun.

i am pleased to report though that a few hours later i did get my exercises done and i was also returned to chastity by Owner.

Slutty Sex Toy

Owner often states that She regards me as being Her slutty sex toy and She likes to use me and my body in whichever way She sees fit for Her pleasure. This weekend was no exception. On Saturday night Owner advised that i could be temporarily released from chastity as we were both visiting somewhere the following day that required passing through a metal detector (not something you ideally want to be doing when wearing a metal chastity cage). Thus, on Saturday She instructed for me to be unlocked in readiness.

That night Owner reached across a few times in bed and played and fondled with my clit before going to sleep. However, in the morning She decided to use me (as She often does) as Her human sex toy. She took out one of Her vibrators and then took the cord from Her dressing gown, tied it tight around my clit and then in turn tied it tightly wrapped part of the cord around her vibrator. positioned it between by butt cheeks and then tied the two ends of the cord tight around my waist. Owner then instructed me to lie flat on my stomach whilst She 'mounted' my buttocks and proceeded to masturbate Herself against Her vibrator as it buzzed merrily away between my butt cheeks.

Owner rode me like that for a good while, letting Her orgasm build, whilst i rhythmically gyrated my hips and pushed my buttocks up and down so that Her vibrator  provided Her with the pleasure She deserves. In short, i was Owner's human sex toy, my body used by Her in conjunction with Her own actual sex toy to bring Her pleasure.

The whole episode was also very arousing for me, especially after having been locked up in chastity for about a month. Owner decided that She wanted to make me orgasm like a whore and used one of Her favourite methods to do so. This involves Her spanking my testicles as hard as she can whilst i kneel on all fours. She started off spanking them with Her hand and then moved onto using Her leather paddle. It is a deliriously painfully pleasurable experience.

It always takes me a short while to start to process what, initially at least, is just pain into pleasure. However, once i get into the 'zone' it is truly the most amazing sensation in the world. My thighs can't help but part to afford Owner the best access possible and the harder She strikes the more intensely pleasurable the sensation. It's normally not long at all until i am moaning loudly and thrashing about it pure ecstasy begging Her to be allowed to cum and this time was no exception. As Her blows rained down hard against my very exposed and battered (by then) bits i cried out and buried my face in the bedding as i bucked and heaved and emptied my clit all over the bedding. Owner then scooped it up with the end of Her vibrator and fed me my warm cum. It was a most memorable and intense orgasm.

Owner is clear that my sole sexual purpose is to provide Her with pleasure and if She chooses to permit me such pleasure i am expected to respond in a manner befitting an utter slut. It has been over 5 years since i last sexually penetrated Owner. Instead She periodically fucks me, uses me as Her sex toy, controls when and whether i may orgasm and whether i am allowed out of chastity or kept locked up. And truthfully, i couldn't be happier.

Heat, Happiness and Holidays

It has been quite muggy and humid in London the past couple of days and it looks set to get worse. Neither Owner nor i are great fans of this weather and so this morning found us lazing about in the cool of the bedroom with the curtains drawn listening out for any sign of rain or thunder to clear the air. Alas there was none.

Neverthless, Owner put the time to good use spanking my testicles with Her favourite leather paddle. She also discovered that spanking the head of my exposed penis with the paddle (i've been out of chastity this past week on Owners instructions) caused me to flinch and generally look uncomfortable. This of course was met with a gleeful response by Owner who switched Her attention from my testicles and instead set about spanking the head of my penis. More fun was had when Owner discovered She could thread the leather loop of the paddle through my nipple ring and have me walk about the flat in the morning with the paddle hanging from my breast, tugging it gently. Of course, hung in such a position meant it was constantly available for Owner to grab and still use to spank my bottom, or wherever She chose. A little later on found me on all fours, testicles being spanked hard and a glass butt plug in my 'pussy'. Owner was happily spanking me and pushing the base of the plug deeper in me when....well let's say i had an accidental release. This was not good as i had not obtained permission to cum, although Owner has generously stated i won't be punished for my misdemeanour as She was intentionally experimenting. Needless to say after ensuring that i had licked up my mess and cleaned the toys Owner decided i should be placed back into chastity.

Which brings me to the subject of happiness, and specifically how happy we both our living out our little Femdom lives. i know and Owner knows that i'm currently far from being a perfect pet. However, She views our relationship as a lifetime project and though determined to see me improve (as am i), and prepared to punish when She feels it appropriate, also believes that we can just take things one step at a time on a lifetimes journey into Femdom. It has been over two years since we started living together and developing our Femdom life and in that time we have both learnt and grown into our respective roles. As Miss D pointed out in her comments on my last entry i do, as my recent appraisal from Owner demonstrates, need to improve and ensure that i work hard to regain my pet status and i fully intend to do this. There is nothing i would like more in the world than to once again be my Owners pet, as opposed to a probationary pet. But for us what is as important is that we both have fun and enjoy our relationship at the same time. i truly feel blessed and honoured to have this opportunity to share my life and to live and grow with such a wonderful Owner and partner. She makes me the happiest person alive and accepts me for who i am and who we both would like me to become. Although i'm not there yet, i am a long way down the road compared to where i was (or indeed we both were) when we first set out on this journey together a few years ago.

Finally, as i type this sitting at the kitchen table and already feeling the heat of the day rising uncomfortably, both of our attentions are turning to our holiday in just over a month's time. We're both off to Norway, a country neither of us has visited before. We're going for 2 weeks which will also be the longest we've been on holiday together for as well. We've hired a cabin near a fjord and the mountains and forests and are already thinking about all the interesting prospects and opportunities for some outdoor and indoor fun and games!

Everyday Items = Some of the Best Toys

i was reminded this weekend how, no matter how much we may all fork out small fortunes for the latest disciplinary or other implement to hit the market, sometimes cheap and cheerful everyday items can trump them every time. Owner and i went away for the weekend and as we were staying with relatives did not take along any of the usual toys that Owner likes to inflict on me (and if i'm being honest i love too!). However, this morning when we had some time to ourselves Owner soon had me wriggling and moaning in painful ecstasy courtesy of three items that together probably cost little more than a pound. The items in question were two elastic hairbands and a plastic hairbrush. Owner wrapped one hair band through each of my pierced nipples and then pulled them tight and taught and tied them off to each other, before commencing to pluck and play with them. Meanwhile, She used the plastic hairbrush to devastating affect on my testicles, slapping and scratching and generally giving them a good old beating. It was one of the most 'intensely experienced' testicle and nipple torture experiences i have had for a while, and all using cheap everyday items. In these credit-crunched times it is worth remembering that cheap can be extremely effective!

Meanwhile, no further mention has been made by my family of the infamous 'list' i emailed to them (see previous post) - and i'm certainly not about to raise it with them, so let's hope the matter can quietly die away and my embarrassment with it. Although this evening, whilst putting out the recycling in my skirt and blouse, i did rather surprise my neighbour when she came out to do the same and saw me so attired. i do get the sense that i'm probably the only male in the neighbourhood who dresses fem. Mind you, it could have been worse, at least i wasn't wearing my frilly pink, backless and extremely short maid's outfit!

Halloween or Samhain

Halloween, or as Owner described it the night that Owners get treated and trainee pet's get tricked. Yes, the night of the dead is always a fun and exciting evening and one that Owner and i greatly enjoy. The evening commenced with me dressing up in my Morticia outfit and then preparing Owner some traditional Halloween fayre, 'Soul' cake followed later by 'Colcannon'. After we had consumed some of the cake it was time for trainee pet to follow his Owners instructions for the evening which were wrapped up in little notes adorning our Halloween poster.

The instructions read as follows:

'1 -Samhain is considered a time to eliminate weaknesses, it is advised to write your own weaknesses onto a piece of paper and then burn them

Little pet to do a list of his weaknesses and how he is going to improve them - on his knees and wearing nipple clamps - then hand to Owner

2 -Samhain allows you to come to terms with your past year and leave all your mistakes and regrets behind you, in order to move on. Look forward to what the future holds.

Little pet to be spanked as many times as the number of punishments accrued in the past year (98 according to my punishment book!) - this will allow him to leave his mistakes behind

3 - The name Jack O'Lantern derives from an old Irish tale of a villain who after he died could not enter heaven or hell - a damned soul. So he was condemned to wander the land with only a candle to see his way placed inside a gouged out vegetable to act as a lantern

Little pet to walk up and down the corridor carrying only a candle 10 times wearing his spiked parachute harness and weights suspended - this will necessitate the temporary removal of your chastity device

4- Bobbing for apples was a classic Halloween game. In 'bobbing for apples' girls used to name each apple after a different suitor. The girl would kneel over the tub, shut her eyes, put her hands behind her back and try to catch an apple with her teeth. The one she could bite would be her future husband. A variation was to hang apples from the doorway. The first one to finish eating the apple gets married next

Rather than using a doorway Owner will hang apples from little pet's parachute device.

5 - By candlelight go alone to a mirror and eat an apple before it, whilst combing your hair. Your future lover will be seen in the glass over your shoulder

Little pet will go to the corridor mirror and will eat one of the apples hanging from his parachute...maybe his future love will appear behind him and give him some instructions'

i was so lucky, as predicted Owner appeared in the mirror next to me! She led me back into the kitchen and had me bend over the kitchen table where she fucked me hard and repeatedly with a large dildo whilst also masturbating me and spanking my testicles really hard with a baton - Her halloween ball buster.


Very soon i was moaning loudly like a truly ghoulish slut and begging to be allowed to come. Owner edged me in this manner repeatedly until i thought my testicles would burst and then stopped and instructed me to return to chastity. How wonderfully and deliciously frustrating!

Hope you all had a wonderfully wicked Halloween, or Samhain. i know i did!