100 Swats

Owner administered a slightly different weekly discipline yesterday. Rather than use one of Her canes or paddles on my backside She instead used Her leather fly swat on my 'labia'. After first securing me in the yoke to stop me from thrashing or wriggling about She then set to work warming up my exposed and sensitive bits with the swat. i have to say it is a very effective implement to use 'down there' and She soon had me jiggling about and struggling to count off each strike until the one hundred mark had been reached (Owner expects me to count each stroke for Her - not always an easy task sometimes when She delivers a rapid succession of blows).

For some reason positioning me on my back like this, legs spread forcibly apart, fully exposed, always makes me giggle. No matter how hard i try not to it always still happens. It is a nervous reaction and usually occurs just before Owner lands the first blow. This time, as you can see from the picture below which was taken after my disciplining, i was still giggling helplessly afterwards - i am just thankful She did not strike me another one hundred times on response!

me, after 100 swats from the leather fly swat - see too how the colour of  my chastity device continues to fade

Having administered my spanking i was left to get on with cleaning and mopping the floors whilst Owner listened to Her book. Later, my tasks completed, we sat down and watched a movie together.

As we were watching the film Owner began, once again, to caress, squeeze, pull and stroke my nipples. i adore having my nipples played with in this manner and spent most of the film lying in Owners lap, my bra and top pulled up, breathing a little heavily as Owner idly toyed with my tits. Needless to say it left me excited and aroused.

Owner has been playing with my nipples a lot of late, something we both seem to enjoy. She knows that She can illicit an almost instant from me, sending me straight to a state of contented arousal as my brain is flooded with desire. When Owner touches, caresses or pulls and squeezes them my nipples, which are quite big and fleshy after years of being happily abused, stiffen and grow fully pert. In that state they are wonderfully sensitive and touching them sends delicious sensations right through my body and sends me deep into a happy subspace. Her touching me this way also invariably causes me to spread my legs like the slut i am as i 'purr' with pleasure. With my clitty having been locked almost permanently away having my nipples played with like this, or having my 'labia' spanked, has become one of the few ways in which i get to experience some form of direct sexual pleasure. It is quite intoxicating.

After the film ended my nipples were tucked back away inside their bra and i prepared our evening meal. Then, after i had washed up and sorted out the laundry i gave Owner a foot massage. It was a most relaxing and enjoyable day.

Continuing the breast and bra theme i also, i think for possibly the first time, met up with and went for a meal with each of my parents whilst wearing not only make-up but also one of my padded bras, albeit under a loose fitting blouse - not a tight t-shirt! On Friday Owner and i met up my mother in London and went out for a meal together to a restaurant in London. Then the following day we travelled west out of London to Salisbury where we met up with my dad and his long-time girlfriend for lunch. Neither made any comment although on entering the restaurant in London the maitre d' did pass comment on what nice silver jewellery (just my usual bracelets, rings and earrings) i was wearing.

i have never actually said to either of my parents that i cross-dress, still less that i submit totally to Owner. The two of us, Owner and i, have developed a way of my being able to discretely take instructions from Her in their presence, such as to what i may order to eat or drink. It doesn't always prove possible and sometimes i still end up having to choose for myself, which now feels wrong somehow on the few occasions when it still happens (for context it has been the norm now for many years that when Owner and i eat out She decides what i will eat and drink).

When we are staying with Owners' parents in Spain the opposite is true. My feminine side is much more hidden, i don't wear makeup, nor many of my women's clothes (knickers aside). However, it is probably much more obvious that i submit to Owner and that She is the one in charge in our relationship. However, that is also the norm between Her mum and dad. Her mum is very much in charge of her dad so it is more a case of like mother like daughter. The only difference being that Owners' control over me extends far beyond the purely domestic and financial.

The whole subject of control and submission in a 24/7 and 365 days a year Femdom relationship is a fascinating one. Questions of how control is exercised in private and in public, types and means of control and how moments or occasions when the dominant partner presents the submissive with choices to make are dealt with is an area that i find fascinating. i will do a future post about this and would be really interested to hear other couples in similar relationships perspectives on this.

But, i have digressed massively. Back to Salisbury. It is a very pretty city, one that i haven't visited for about a quarter of a century (typing that makes me feel very old!) and Owner had never visited before. So i leave you with a few photos of the city and its famous cathedral. Take care everybody.

Holiday Countdown

Two weeks from now Owner and i head off for our two week summer holiday. This year we are heading North, specifically to the archipelago of Islands just off the tip of Scotland called the Orkney's. Neither of us have been there before and we both can't wait. The idea of two weeks spent together in relative isolation with a series of islands to explore and all of their neolithic, Viking and more modern history, together with their wildlife and lots of opportunities for walks fills us with delight. Being the aviation geek that i am i am also a little bit excited at the prospect of us taking what is the shortest scheduled flight in the world, the whole 2 minute flight (which includes taxiing) between the islands of Westray and Papa Westray.

Most importantly, however, i also hope that by the time we depart i will have been permitted to 'return to normal' and wear my feminine clothes and make-up once again with my current period of punishment completed. Hopefully, this should happen a week before we leave, though this assumes, of course, that i acquire no further punishments!

It has been a fairly quiet time for us recently. Owner has not been feeling at Her best, however, we did head out to the theatre last night to see the excellent The Curious Incident of the Dog in The Night Time. We both read the book a few years ago and loved it and i am delighted to report that the play is excellent, superbly acted and staged and well worth seeing. Before the performance we went out for a pre-theatre meal. Owner again chose and ordered what we would both be eating and also chose my drink for me, a delicious lychee drink. i think it is fair to say now that we have reached the point where Owner deciding what i will be eating when we eat out has become second nature to us both and i welcome the fact that She has started to choose my drinks as well. She is my Owner and it feels quite natural that it be Her that makes these decisions, just as She does in respect to many other aspects of my life. i love being controlled and dominated by Her in every aspect of my life and thank Her for doing so.

Today we are having a lazy day at home. After making us breakfast, surfing the net and doing my regular exercises i then changed and cleaned the bedding and prepared lunch for us both. This afternoon i cleaned our aquarium and will shortly be giving Owner a facial. Hopefully i will also be able to catch-up with the cleaning that didn't get done by me last night as we went to the theatre before preparing dinner. Then later Owner has selected some TV programmes She would like us to watch together. We're often quite busy going out and about at weekends and so relaxed days at home like this are a really enjoyable change once in a while.

Hope all is well in your worlds and that your weekends are equally chilled.

Owner and Her Slut's Dirty Weekend

Owner and i have had a wonderful weekend. We received an offer from the Charing Cross hotel to visit them for a very special rate as part of their 150th anniversary. This is a hotel we normally frequent at least once a year, it is above the station in which Owner first kissed me and it is where i became Owners wife. The offer was a great one and so, with Owners consent, i booked us in for one night. Owner advised that She would be giving me  tie-up session whilst we were there and so i packed a number of suitable items for Her. It turned out to be a very dirty weekend!

After we checked in we headed into Covent Garden for some ice cream before returning back to the hotel. Owner had me lie naked on the bed and then She secured my wrists to the ends of the bed and placed Her worn knickers over my head, positioning the crotch right over my mouth and nose - sniffing Her used knickers thrills me but is also something for which She always exacts a punishment in return. But i am getting ahead of myself. Here i am, Her used knickers in place and wrists tied up.

Next Owner visited the bathroom and returned with a large wine glass filled with Her wonderful pee. She moved Her knickers just enough to be able to pour the wine into my mouth for me to eagerly gulp down. After three large mouthfuls the glass was drained and She re-positioned the knickers.

My punishment for being permitted to sniff Owners panties is to be spanked thirty times on my clitty. This time, however, Owner had a variation in mind. First, rather than Her hand or Her paddle She used the riding crop. Second, after striking my exposed bits a few times She paused to attached clamps to my nipples and clit, then resumed cropping me before pausing again to add still more clamps to my clit. i had brought along a wide selection of clamps as part of her travel kit ranging from small wooden pegs, through to electricians clamps - so She had a variety to choose from.

By the time She had administered the thirtieth blow with Her riding crop against my sex it was adorned with a range of biting wooden, metal and plastic items and my titties were clamped and throbbing. Owner masturbated my clamped clit and then inserted a glass butt plug into my pussy before rubbing Herself up and down against me. She then pulled out a vibrator and, still rubbing Herself against the head of my clamped clit, pleasured Herself with Her toy until She orgasmed.

By this time the combination of the odour of Her knickers, taste of Her pee, the pain from the multiple clamps and the plug bested deep in my pussy had me feeling extremely horny. i was extremely lucky as Owner then stated that i was allowed to make myself cum 'like a whore' - which i messily did :)!

After cleaning up we then both headed out to a Thai restaurant in Covent Garden we often visit if staying in that part of town. Once again Owner chose what i was permitted to eat (this has now become completely normal whenever we eat out) and also allowed me to have a beer. We had a great evening and the waitress recognised Owner, but seemingly not me. Maybe it was because i wasn't wearing any make-up or feminine clothes (one week of my punishment is still to go) ??

This morning after an early breakfast we retired back to our room to make the most of the hotels late check-out. We were dozing in the bed when Owner suddenly got up and started rummaging inside our bag in the corner of the room When She returned She had fashioned Herself an amazing rope harness around Her thighs and waist which held in place my deep-throat training dildo. Owner had me immediately set about worshipping her 'cock' and showing Her what a cock-sucking slut i am as She again deployed Her trusty vibrator between Her legs.

So carried away did i get, bent over Owners waist, ramming the head of Her cock right down my throat and so determined to show how i could get the entire length of her cock down my throat that i very nearly made an awful mess. At one point i suddenly felt the contents of some of my only recently finished breakfast rise up my throat as i gagged and feasted on Her cock. What a horrible moment that is when you suddenly become all too aware of what could be about to happen. i thought i had managed to prevent myself just in time from being sick as i sucked and bobbed up and down - though i could feel some liquid snort out of my nose down onto the shaft of the cock. However, i just licked and sucked, cleaning anything that escaped out of my nose up. Relieved at the disaster narrowly averted i happily continued gagging and snorting and covering Her cock with thick gooey saliva as Owner brought Herself to an orgasm. Then She instructed me to make myself cum as i sucked Her wet slippery phallus.

It was only after i had finished licking up my mess and Owner got up from the bed that it turned out that i had in fact also snorted the remains of some of the pain-au-chocolate i had had for breakfast out of my nose when i had been deep-throating Her cock as some of it made its way onto the white bed linen. Thankfully Owner did not seem fazed. simply remarking that such things can happen and confirming in Her mind what a dirty wife She has. It was a very dirty few hours indeed we enjoyed at the hotel.

After checking out we headed into Soho to find somewhere to have some lunch and alighted upon a delightful new place that neither of us had frequented before and which i think has only recently opened, called Muriel's Kitchen. Owner not only chose what i was to have for my lunch and which drink i was to have to accompany it with for me but delighted me when She said to the waiter 'I will have......to eat and he will have....and I will have a glass of.....and he will drink.....'. It is so wonderful to not only have Owner always now decide such matters, but to also be so at ease doing so.

In summary, we have had a wonderful and dirty time.

Hello And An Apology And Overdue Update

i am so sorry it has been so long between posts and am really sorry to have caused concern to some to see if we are OK. In truth, March was not the best of months and it rather knocked Owners and my life a little off-kilter. As i previously posted Owner had an operation last month. The operation was a small one and went well and She has now almost fully healed but we are still waiting for the results of the tests they had to do until She gets the final all clear. This, combined with the discomfort of the stitches, meant that it wasn't exactly a month when Owner felt like doing much. She also hurt Her back and was generally feeling under the weather. It was also combined with a busy period for me at work and we also spent time visiting family in the UK and Spain. The combined consequence of all of this was that a number of the daily routines i usually undertake in the evening fell by the wayside as, instead, Owner and i spent our evenings and spare time together snuggled up on the sofa watching DVDs.

This has meant that there hasn't really felt like here has been much to blog or report about other than that sometimes life can and does get in the way for all of us at times, and that has very much been the case this past month. However, there have, nevertheless, been some notable developments that have occurred which i believe auger well for the continued strengthening and deepening of our Femdom relationship.

One of the most significant, albeit perhaps seemingly trivial, one of these was the new rule that Owner established for me when it comes to eating out in restaurants. Owner declared at the end of last year that, from now on, i was to expect that She would be the one who would take all decisions regarding what i was to be permitted to eat or not when we ate out. In short, the menu would, for me, become redundant. In truth, it took a while for Owner to establish the rule in practice. However, it has now become very much the norm. It was even the case that when we ate our with our respective parents and family it was Owner who (discretely) told me what it was that i was going to eat. It has become another example of how routine decisions about how i live my life are now made exclusively by Owner.

Last month i also completed the last of my public dildo challenges by deep-throating my dildo in a shop changing room. You can see the end result below

Each of these challenges proved great fun to do and i hope there might be other, more challenging, ones in future. It seems a lifetime ago that i wasn't able to deep-throat, now i can open my mouth and gag on a phallus quite easily...just as a good slut should :).

The end of March also marked the formal end of my current 'Plin Plan Plon' development period. It is fair to say that i have not completed a number of the tasks that i was supposed to and i will have to wait to see if Owner feels me worthy of being granted an extension or not. i will, of course, update when i know the outcome.

Thanks again to those who expressed concern about our welfare and sorry to have been the cause of concern in the first place. i will try to ensure i blog on a more regular basis again.

Hugs and kisses to you all.

A Lovely Time

Yesterday evening Owner and i went to see a screening of The Duke of Burgundy a film about two lesbian lovers, butterflies and moths and the demands and trials of the central characters S&M relationship. It is beautifully shot and worth checking out. As it was a trip to the cinema it also meant that i would be wearing a skirt in public once again. It is funny, wearing the skirt is not what makes the experience feel a little humiliating to me (which is part of the point) but rather the fact that i arrive in jeans and then change into a skirt so that anyone in the foyer waiting to go in who is paying attention must think to themselves 'I am sure that person was wearing skinny jeans a minute ago!'

Anyway, it is a teensy bit of public humiliation fun that i greatly enjoy as you might be able to tell from this photo that Owner took.

i adore my new skirt

Talking of Owner She has really now got into Her stride when it comes to choosing and ordering my meals for me in restaurants. Me looking at the menu has really started to become a pointless exercise. Last night before the movie She we went to an Italian restaurant where She ordered me a risotto. When the waitress came to take the orders Owner even used the phrase 'and he will have...'. i could have melted. i was in public displays of ownership and control heaven! i love the fact that little by little Owner continues o extend Her complete control over me.

Earlier in the afternoon we had a bit of a wander around the areas near to St Paul's Cathedral and went up once again to the viewing area near the shopping arcade next to it which affords great views of the cathedral and that part of London. You can get a sense o how close you are to the Dome of the Cathedral from the following picture

St. Paul's Cathedral

 And a rare shot of Owner!

After visiting the viewing area we dived into a coffee shop for a couple of hot chocolates. It was quite a cold day and, as you can see from my expression, i think i was quite pleased that we were both back inside in the

warmth.