Busy and Slutty and Working to the 'Plan'

i really am delighted at how Owner has taken me in hand to ensure i am properly trained as Her wife. i recognise that this is a developing and long-term project which requires an ability on my part to demonstrate to Owners satisfaction my continuous commitment to my learning and development in the knowledge that, the further i progress the more challenging, but also rewarding it will become.

Owner and i have been together for just over eight and a half years now. For about eight of those eight and a half years i have been Her submissive partner, and ours has been a Femdom/FLR relationship - we started out vanilla. However, it is also true to say we have both spent a lot of time 'learning the ropes' of our respective roles and i most certainly could and should have been more focused, disciplined and attentive to Her needs.  i had and still have plenty of room for improvement, in particular, to challenge, address and correct some of my patterns of behaviour and push me further, and further into becoming the life partner and submissive Owner deserves. However, over these past few months i believe we have both been making progress towards achieving this outcome whilst, of course, at the same time ensuring that we continue to have fun and enjoy, love and cherish our lives together. Becoming Owners wife and commencing Owners training plan has, i think, started to generate some improvements in my performance and deepened my submission to Her - i'll explain why.

When She took me as Her wife Owner also made it clear that She shared similar aspirations to me - namely that i submit myself more deeply to Her as Her wife and that She in turn exercise greater control over me. However, Owner made it clear that it was up to me to demonstrate to Her that i genuinely wanted to learn, develop, change and progress towards becoming a wife She could be proud of. That wasn't to say that if, somehow or for some reason, i lapsed or we just continued our relationship as we had been before that Owner would no longer love and cherish me. We already had and have a wonderful relationship that is full of fun, love and companionship. However, we both want to deepen my submission to Owner and progress further, much further my role as Her wife and Her position of authority and control.

As well as recognising that i needed to demonstrate to Her that i could still grow and submit myself to Her further Owner also recognised that the changes in attitude, behaviour and approach required of and desired in me would take time if they were to prove lasting and sustained. Accordingly, Owner has established a long-term mechanism whereby each stage in my future development will be 'revealed' incrementally to me at such a time as i have proven to Her that my commitment to develop and progress is both genuine and sustained.  This, in essence was the genesis of what She described as Her 'Plin, Plan, Plon' and which i have just recently commenced Phase II of, having demonstrated to Her satisfaction that i could achieve and sustain the objectives She set out for me in Phase I (objectives which i need to continue delivering ad-infinitum).

The good news though is that i am making and continuing to make progress and demonstrate to Owner that i am indeed capable of further learning, development and progression as Her submissive wife. Some components of the Plan may seem unusual. For instance, learning Spanish. Languages have never been my forte but i have tried off and on and to learn Owners mother tongue, albeit with very limited success before.

We both know though that, whilst we currently live in London, that may not always be the case and Owner should never be in a position where She feels in any way restricted, by a lack of linguistic ability on my part, in where She may wish for us to live in the future. Accordingly, learning the language of Her birth is an important goal for me to achieve. Realistically, i know this will always prove a challenge but progress, albeit somewhat glacial at times, has been noted by Her and Her family which gives me hope that one day i might make Her proud of my efforts.

In terms of domestic work and routine this is entirely my responsibility from morning until night. Owner can, and sometimes does, chose to assist but the working assumption is that any and all cleaning, cooking, tidying, ironing, maintenance, repairs, etc, etc - in short all housework and household tasks and chores are my sole responsibility. In many respects this has been true for a good number of years but the difference now is that everything is to be done to Owners standards, not my own, and everything is to look neat, tidy and spotless at all times. In truth, i enjoy doing housework - the challenge was in re-calibrating my own perception/idea of what 'clean and tidy' look like, but i think i'm finally getting there!

In terms of Owners wider control over me and my own autonomy the pendulum is gradually swinging ever deeper into Owners territory. For years now all my clothes purchases have had first to be approved by Owner and any expenditure by me over a certain level approved by Her. More recently Owner, has introduced exercise regimes, controls if and whether i am permitted alcohol to drink, approves or disapproves what clothes i am permitted to wear that day, has established a set of longer-term tasks and additional skills i am to study and acquire (giving manicures being the most recent) and now expects to always consult with first Her and secure Her approval/consent before i participate in or undertake any activities that would involve me/my time in a manner not related to my service to Her. In addition, we both recognised that i could and should be making more constructive use of any 'free time' and i am now expected to ensure that i fill this constructively through study, additional chore/project completion or attending to Owner. All these are very welcome developments and mark, i think, a notable increase in the degree of control Owner now exerts over me.

At the same time as increasing Her control Owner has continued to push and develop my exhibitionist whore side. Whilst i have become much more shameless  than i once was (as has been documented over the period of this blog) there are still too many instances in which nerves and shyness have got the better of me. Owner continues to work on and challenge me though so that maybe one day i could honestly say i had truly become the complete exhibitionist whore i aspire to be. Meanwhile, Owner treats and regards me as Her fucktoy with my body being used purely for Her enjoyment, pleasure and amusement, not my own. This has actually been the case for most of our relationship, it is a state we both enjoy and, paradoxically, is one that brings me sustained pleasure and joy.

This is how we live our lives together, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year. It is a version of Femdom/FLR call it what you will that works for us that we both genuinely enjoy and which enriches our lives and ever deepens our relationship. It can be hard work at times but it is also a huge lot of fun and very rewarding. i genuinely believe that over the course of our relationship i have seen Owner grow, develop and become more confident and assertive. This process has accelerated over the past few months and is a joy to behold and experience at first hand. At the same time, i also feel that i am now on a path of accelerated development as Owners wife. i believe i am becoming more useful and practical to Her, better at serving and meeting Her needs, keeping Her home as She would like whilst further relinquishing and transferring to Owner control over how i live my life.

i am the happiest i have ever been at any time and Owner assures me that She is too. i just hope that i can continue to further learn, develop and make Owner proud.

This has been a rather long post, much longer than i had first intended but i wanted to paint a little portrait of our lives, if only to share my own happiness. In the meantime, and more in keeping with my usual posts, here are some pictures of me up a ladder changing a light bulb

out with the old bulb and in with the new

that should do it

and let there be light

well i did say i was an exhibitionist!

and a short video of me keeping my pussy 'in shape'

Phase 2 of Development

Owner has just sent me through the next stage of my development plan - Her 'Plin, Plan, Plon' Phase II. This second stage runs from the 25th November until the 2nd March 2014 and is to be undertaken whilst also continuing with the learning and development activities that were set out in the original Phase I of the Plan. As per last time, only if i successfully complete all elements of this second phase to Owners satisfaction AND continue to maintain my continued delivery of the activities identified under will a potential third stage of the Plan be initiated.

Anyway, so what does Phase 2 of Owners development plan contain? Well, it is divided into 4 core areas namely:

1. Housework
2. Study
3. Physical/Slut Training
4. General Behaviour

The detail within each core area is as per below.

Housework
Repair/replace any damaged or worn or broken items - weekly audit to be undertaken
Organise any and all repairs/replacement that are needed in the flat
Audit all food items in the kitchen cupboards and fridge at least monthly and check expiry dates and remove/replace as required
Test at least one new recipe every 2 weeks and add to your existing recipe database
Every day present Owner with a minimum of two evening meal options for Her to choose from
Undertake an ongoing review of all the items we have in storage in the loft and itemise/recycle as appropriate in consultation with Owner
Undertake an ongoing review of all of our CDs and classify as appropriate in consultation with Owner and maintain
Undertake an ongoing review of all of the stuff we have in the bathroom and organise as appropriate in consultation with Owner and maintain

Study
Continue with current Spanish lessons until the course is completed
Study and read the BBC's Mundo (Spanish language news) website 3 times a week and make a record of what you have learnt each time
Prepare all of your shopping lists in Spanish
Send Owner at least one text message a day that is written entirely in Spanish
Buy a manicure training book (examples provided by Owner) and start offering Owner manicures as an ongoing learning project

Physical/Slut Training 
Once a week do the cooking naked
Once a week do the housework that day wearing nipple clamps/mini pegs
Once every 2 weeks create a 2 minute porn clip and create a gallery of porn clips you have made
Once a week you will be spanked on your bum/clitty whilst you are washing up - request this from Owner
Twice a month you will be expected to complete an outdoor challenge. Consult with Owner over what, when and where.
Once a week take a naughty picture of yourself and create a naughty picture gallery

General Behaviour
Organise more regular chilled out times/evening with Owner (listening to music together, offering Owner beauty sessions etc)
Make better use of your free time by studying
Research and undertake new exercise routines as - an ongoing project
Discuss your additional work annual leave with Owner (i get more days off a year from work than Owner does) so that She can allocate activities that She wants you to undertake on these extra days
Consult with Owner about any activities/trips etc that potentially involve you and seek Her prior approval

Owner sat me down and ran through all of the above requirements to make sure hat i fully understood them and even provided me with a spreadsheet in which i am to record all of my 'evidence' for having completed the tasks/activities required. This is a snapshot of the front page of the spreadsheet Owner provided

 i am to provide Owner with a copy of the spreadsheet once a week for Her to review my progress.

As you can see, Owner has given a lot of thought to the next stage of my training and development as Her wife and i am honoured to be allowed to commence this training. i hope that i continue to progress and develop and that, come March next year, i am able to demonstrate sufficient progress with these phase of Her plan - whilst maintaining my progress in the earlier phase - for Her to deem me ready for Phase 3. i am very lucky indeed to have an Owner who is spending time and effort on my development and i hope to make Her proud.

Phase 1 of Development - Outcome

This evening Owner sent me through the following, namely the results of Her assessment of my progress over these past three months in achieving the learning outcomes She had  set out in the 'Plin, Plan, Plon' back at the start of August.

Yippee, Owner has assessed that i have passed. i am delighted and thrilled and even received this certificate from Her

What a wonderful day. This means that Owner will now add some additional areas of development to be incorporated into the plan. i must demonstrate my ability to achieve/deliver these as well as maintain my current progress if i am to continue to develop and progress further. i really am thrilled and delighted and cannot wait to see what Owner will add to help further and deepen my development.

This has rounded off what has been a wonderful day as earlier on Owner also permitted me to lick Her wonderful derriere whilst She twice brought Herself to orgasm from a combination of Her vibrator and my tongue. All the while i was kept in my chastised state, though Owner did caress my titties and spank my clitty to ensure that i was left fully and deliciously aroused but denied.

Thank you Owner, i am so pleased to have been able to demonstrate to you and to myself that i can develop and progress towards becoming the wife you deserve. i promise to commit to continuing to give of my best, to learn, work, study and strive to ensure that i achieve whatever aspirations you may have of me for phase 2 of your 'Plin, Plan, Plon'.

5 A Day

Do you get your 5 a day? Owner likes to makes sure that i get mine...fruit and vegetables that is. This morning, after leaving for work, She texted me requesting that i take some photos of myself with some of the contents of our organic box delivery. Owner said She enjoyed looking at the end results...which also prompted much laughter from Her. i have added a selection below so you can judge for yourself

Incidents and Updates

A couple of mildly interesting/amusing events occurred over the past week. The first was that during a work visit to the offices of another organisation i am working on a project with i was mistaken by their receptionist for a woman. This is about the first time this has ever happened as though i now always wear make-up and women's clothes at work (and have done for quite a while now) as well as outside work, my work clothes are not overly feminine, mostly blouses/tops and jeans. In fact, on this occasion as my day involved a formal work meeting i had actually slightly toned down my make-up a little. Thus, i was pleasantly surprised when, on walking into the reception area accompanied by a colleague of mine who is female the receptionists looked up and said ' Good morning ladies, how can I help you?' Made me smile anyway. [edit - Owner says the receptionist must have been blind]

The second, and altogether more amusing incident occurred this weekend. My Dad and his partner came to stay with Owner and i for a few days. As usual i made sure that i tidied away all of the objects and artefact's that would normally be found in full view in our flat but which you might not want your parents to see. Thus, the floggers, canes, crops, queening stool, clamps, heavy collars, 'slut daily chores' list etc were all tidied away out of sight. However, it is easy to forget how second nature some of my everyday activities have become and how i don't really even register anymore that, to another person, they may seem a little out of the ordinary. So it was that it didn't even occur to me that the sight of me standing up in the kitchen eating my breakfast out of a dog bowl might seem a little strange to my father! In short, i had become so used to the fact that i am expected to always eat out of a dog bowl that it didn't even register with me that doing so in front of my Dad might not be appropriate. Oh well, it goes down as another amusing incident in which i have accidentally incorporated family members into Owner and my lifestyle - as when, many years ago, i accidentally emailed my parents and my sister the Xmas present list that was intended solely for Owner. Needless to say i never did get a butt plug that year from my mum!

This weekend also marked the passing of the deadline for my compliance with Owners training and development plan for me - Her 'plin, plan, plon' as She calls it. Readers will recall that over the past three months Owner has been assessing and monitoring my performance against the outcomes set out in the plan. If i am deemed to have passed the plan new training and development tasks be introduced and added to those already set out in the plan. Owner has stated that She needs time to review and consider my performance and compliance and that i can expect to receive notification from Her by the end of the week as to how satisfactory or otherwise my progress has been and what will happen next. i will keep you posted.

Rule-Breaking in Zurich

Owner and i have just returned form a wonderful weekend break in Zurich. We were both really impressed by the city and had a wonderful time, we just wish we could have stayed for longer. Here are a couple of shots from our stay in the city;

Whilst there we also had an opportunity to try some of the local delicacies and i was treated to a delicacy of Owners, namely being permitted to lick Her derriere as She masturbated, my favourite activity. Once Owner had been satisfied and satiated She then instructed me to make myself cum loudly for Her whilst continuing to explore deep inside Her delicious anus my tongue (beats any chocolate the Swiss have invented hands down for taste and flavour!). It was a very happy whore indeed who soaked the sheets in our hotel bed before scooping up my mess and savouring it as a tasty appertif.

As well as chocolate and sausages another thing Zurich does well is beer. Over the course of the trip i had been doing well to ensure that i followed the new rule that says i am to assume i am not permitted any alcohol to drink unless and only if Owner suggests/offers it first - a rule i myself had suggested to Owner. i was thus mortified when at lunch on the last day of our visit i made an awful mistake by asking Owner if i might have a beer with lunch? i had totally forgotten that the rule does not permit me to prompt such a question of Owner, something She quickly and correctly pointed out. i clearly still have a lot to learn and improve upon!

Amongst the souvenir items we brought home with us there was one in particular that i am delighted with. Namely, a small Swiss cow bell that is no attached to my leather house collar and rings whenever i move about at home.